[Nehetsrev]

Apreal 11, 1435

Many things have happened in my life recently to aid in my recovery from the Deep. Sala has been praying over me with the focus of her resolve and the blessings of Lucinda behind her efforts, and as a result I'm able to let go many of my fears and regain more of my spirit of before. Danael's also been his wonderful, supportive and encouraging self. Between the relief brought by Sala's prayers, and Danael's tenderness, I find I am able once again to occupy our bed at home without fear. Well, excepting the lingering fear I have of the dark and dark places, especially those underground. Thankfully Lucinda provides me the blessing of the cantrip for simple light, and if I wished I believe I could also cast a more permanent light upon an object.

On top of those things, Calvin has come home at last. I found him at the Stormcrest some days ago, and we talked at length. He is lonely, and has his heart set on Amireana, but believes she's abandonned him since he's not seen her lately. I talked him into moving back home, and taking his grandmother's old room, since he's really too old to be bunking in the same room as Marianna now. Calvin expressed a fear of his grandmother, Caniel, and it seemed more than just words to me. Perhaps as though he genuinely thinks she might harm him. I doubt she ever would, but I know she can be quite stern and spiteful sometimes too. He asked me to retire from adventuring, so great is his loneliness, he believes if I continue I'll die and leave him all alone.

Danael still expresses a deep desire to have a child, especially with the news of his brothers newborn twins. I would still wish a child as well, but need to overcome some of the trauma still haunting me from the Deep and my time there. At my age, I can't afford to wait any longer if I do wish to bear a child. Aeridan willing, Danael and I will have our own babe in the near future.

Perhaps it truly is time for me to retire from fighting evil and monsters, and begin the adventures of raising a family with all my heart and soul. I could probably still find time to progress in my crafts, but obtaining materials to do so will likely not be possible if I stop going to get them myself. I can't afford to buy the materials I need from adventuring suppliers, and I doubt anyone would just hand any to me.