[Hellblazer]

Yvale

my dear.. how I have I failed you. The only thing you have asked of me and I can't even do it... I sit here, looking at this amulet, wondering what my life would have been like if I had not been kidnapped as a child.

The day I come out.. if I ever come out. I will do all that I can to show you my sweet love, that I had no intentions of leaving you. Even what I did to elgon .. was on a wave of anger, blinded and hurt by the betrayal he had done. Unknowing that he was lied to without words. I do so regret what I did to him. If only there was a way to show you that.. but here in this cell block.. I can't.. I need to get out.

I tried to get the one that brings my food to help, but with all the time that I have seen him, I have not managed to get even an hello out of him.

At least if I die here, I have met my family, got to know them a little until, that seductress of Jaelle ruined it all. I pity those who think that they can help her change, that she needs help. She is who she is, and embraces it fully, using it for her own gain. Leading Tritherion by his own ego and heart, was the perfect example of that.

As if the decade I have shared with her, had not brought enough hardship, she keeps on bringing more to torture my heart even when I have found someone I care for as much, if not more.

I keep you in my heart and head, Yvale.. hoping to see you again one day to hopefully have you see that I am not what the events made me do. I have dueled people, I have killed once to escape my captors at my village, and I have killed Elgon out of pain. But cold blooded, I am not. If only there was a way to show you my heart, you would see.

*Closes his journal after letting the ink dry.*