[Hellblazer]

By Folian life is strange.

First of, I have finally met with this Kyle Pandorn, and saw his Katana. It is a beauty of a weapon, but I still prefer my two bladed sword. After talking a little and seeing he wasn't at all put off by what I am, he agreed that he would teach me. This is good news since I have not heard of Steel for over a year. coming up on two now. And beside, Kyle said he wouldn't be able to put a price on such learning as to master one self and the blade.

Maybe through learning to master the blade as being part of me, I will be able to gain mastery over myself and my lineage even more.. Maybe this will finally put my nightmares to rest. I can't wait to start our trainings. I expect that he will be hard, you can't become a master at what you are without putting a lot of efforts into it. I am not scared of that, not one bit.

And the good news keeps on coming. Emry and I finally made peace. Of course there was a lot of discussion about me haven been drunk. I explain to her that it was for drinking an ale I had never drank before and was unaware of it's strength. She thought that once you drink it is over, you loose all control. Sure if you drink senselessly. But for me, drinking has always be more of a social thing with Colin. We used to drink a little together at a fire place, talking about the day's hunt. I never really needed a drink, never felt the urge and the craving of having to drink. So I know I am not an alcoholic, which is what I think scared Emry. She asked me if I could simply not drink, it was an easy answer for me since I had not touched one drop of ale in two weeks, when we talked at the fire camp. That seemed to reassure her a bit, she ended that part of the discussion with a ''we'll see''. Before she left though, I answered her other concern. She viewed me as someone saying one thing and doing the other. Somehow I felt she was talking about women in there too. Thus before she left, I told her that I could tease people, tell them I found them cute and all, but if I had someone in my heart, there would never be anything more than that. I looked in her eyes saying that, and saying that there was someone in my heart. My sight on her, I think she understood what I meant. Because she simply put her hand on my cheek before leaving.

A few days later we went to gather the things I needed to make her arrows. As we went to get the wood, we cleared the orcs near Hlint. I was lumbering the wood as she went into their tent. I couldn't hear anything so I check, and there she was lying on her side looking at me with a smile. After a moment i joined her and she moved to the side. We laid there for a little bit and then she leaned closer to me, stopping just a few millimeter of my lips, and after taking her her sweet scent, I closed the distance.

it was a kiss to take the breath away from any one, even monks with their superb fortitude, would have their breath taken away. And yet it was as gentle as the wind slowly breezing on the leaves, having them dance slowly and peacefully. Since then we have kept getting closer. Shrowd doesn't seem to understand why I take my time this much, saying I should jump on the occasion and just take her. But as Colin said one day, everything worth dying for, is something worth waiting for.

I am happy.. not something I am overly used to.