Found out I wanted the truth to remain a secret, but it's already out to a few. Rose, Fehriel, and Malina at the least. I suppose it would have come out eventually though.
But now I'm a bit more competent. And now I know what kind of situation can bring things to light. This won't happen again. I can pass for a weak fighter now, or at least I should be able to. I'll just get a sword and something better than this sling.
Fehriel is not what he seemed at all. According to him, neither is Malina. I should know better than to let my loins get the best of me. I may need to just steer clear of her. But Fehriel, I can't believe he is someone I can actually relate to. I'll have to try to keep track of him. And Rose for that matter. The both of them. I need to be careful of what I say from here on out.
So what do they know already? Well, I told them about growing up on the streets. I did tell Fehriel that I am greedy, although he didn't seem to notice. And they do know that I'm not out to hurt anyone, so that's good.
Here's the question though. Am I a thief? I hate the word. I snapped at Malina when she used it. It had stung more than I thought it would to hear it. We may have stolen to get by, but I never considered myself a thief. We never took anything from anyone who couldn't spare it. I may not need to do it any more, but I still want to.
Is it wrong that I enjoyed it? I really need to think about what I'm doing and why. I need to keep my nose clean for now, regardless. Now that these few know what they do, they may be watching. I definitely need some time to myself.
It's a good thing I decided to keep a journal. I could easily get lost in thoughts like these! |