[Hellblazer]

I've decided that I would take my chances today. She may still be mad, may not want to do anything with me anymore, or she may forgive me which I truly hope she will do. But when I finally knocked on the door, she was not home. I decided to leave her a letter which I have slid under the door, including the last pages I had written into my dairy, hoping she would understand why I did what I did and how much I regreted it.

Now I will wait, already it is an agony for em, because I hope with all my soul she will find it in her to forgive me. I should never have left and it has eaten at my soul ever since. She is my sweet, the love of my life, I should have found the strength in that not to be afraid, but I wasn't able to at the time. I just wish now to prove to her I can, if she leaves me a chance to do so.

I will bid my time and wait for her answer, if there is one. The inn in Krandor is making a fortune with me staying there that is for sure.

Ilsare.. I know you have not approved of the path I took, but I pray to you today, to put the seed of forgiveness in her heart and that her love for me has not withered for my stupidity. I am a foolish girl.. but wish to grow old by her side.