[Hellblazer]

I do not know what is up with the people of this town but as soon as I got back from the sielwood forest Treana and one of her friend confronted me. Ordering me to stay away from Addison. What did I do wrong?. I just invited her with diner and comply with her desire to have Careight with us?? When they confronted me by the pound I got frustrated and rushed my words. Told them, in frustration, that I had only wished for some good company while eating and that I thought of Inviting Addison as a friend, nothing more, nothing less. Well after those harsh words I felt bad and got back to them excusing myself for my jest. They understood and even Treana excused herself as she had talked without asking what was my intentions. She told me that Addison was in grief, that her loved one had died. What good a Friend I am, going about forgetting that. She then told me that even if I annoyed her she still considered me a friend, at that point it was just to much, what kind of bastard was I to forget all my friends and to annoy or grieve them. I couldn't bare take an other word and left hastily, I went into Range vale where I rested for a while, two days I think.

I came back to Hlint but My mood was not better. I went on buying some new cloths that were not stained in blood, once again. This time I chooses a color where blood would not show that much. And somehow in the process of trying these new clothes and getting new design for my weapons I tool the decision to push every one away. I am cursed and I feel it best for them to stay away. If what Treana told me was right, then Every one I get close has died or will die. Cymeran and Nepp saw this change and tried to talk me out of this way of thinking, but I can not let them persuade me, only for their safety. How can I control this curse if I do not Even start to understand the reason I have it. The night passed on and I reflected on that.

Then Tegan came into town, I asked her for a crag bag and she had one available. Unfortunately I was a 100 gold piece short, so I asked her if she would wait a few minutes while I went collecting the skeletons due for roaming freely, undeadly. It is there I stumbled on Sonya. Oh sweet Sonya, as much as I would want to protect her by pushing her away, I can not resolve myself to do that. As she said hi, two skeleton ambushed her from behind. I manage to kill one of them as she got rid of the second one. I healed her injuries the best I could with this puny healing spell of mine, and she smiled. I kid you not, her smile could make a glacier melt in a blizzard. We exchanged the normal courtesy of asking each other how we where and what we have done, then I asked her if she wanted to go on a hunt with me. She agreed with her so tender and amazing smile. She was still hurt and tired so we went to the Inn. There she took one room for both of us. At first I was a bit baffled, it did not seemed right, but my hesitation soon dissipated, when she smiled at me saying, "its only for sleeping". So we rested. I woke up earlier than her and thought to get her some breakfast. Upon reaching for the door handle I remembered that she had the key and that I would be looked out of the room. I searched in my bag and found that I had a Cook's Special Fare left. I sat beside her and whispered her name to wake her up. She only answer by a small moan. I took the liberty to brush some of her hair away from her face. She looked so beautiful again sleeping. I passed the plate of food under her nose saying "waky waky" then again she did not respond. Then she jolted straight up wide awake and startled. I got up and asked her what was troubling her. She told me it was a nightmare of something that happened in her pass. I told her that she could talk to me about it, but did not insist. Instead she reach for the plate I was tending her and ate it joyfully. When she was done eating we went out of the Inn. We must have slept longer than I thought as it was already midday when we gout out. After making our decision where to go hunt, we exited Hlint to go to the red light caves, well thats what i think its named. Outside the gate i decided to let Arwin out for a walk. I should have hit myself on the head, cause he mocked me all the way through the second level of the caves. Although it was all in fun, I hope, It made Sonya laugh quite a bit. This wolf will get me insane one day I can sense it. We were still at the gate that she called upon Draconia her companion. After the usual presentation for Arwin and Draconia, and the pesquering Arwin did on me, we went on our way to the caves. Arwin reminded me that it would be good for me to let my other companion get a breath of air. So i summoned him, to my lonely demised as he and Arwin teamed up against me. Sonya, with her usual gracefulness and sweetness, kept laughing all the way. We entered the caves and did swiftly with the little resistance we met on the first floor. On the second floor, the story was quite different, the goblin manage to kill Ehlen, my other companion. It took all that i had to control myself and not succumb to my rage. When she saw me, Sonya asked me if I was alright. I felt it necessary to explain to her this affliction, I was nervous and looked away from her eyes, fearing that she could not stand it and would reject me. Instead she took my head and guided my sight back to hers. She assured me that it would take much more to scare her away. We continued on our way down the caves and got ambushed by what seemed an army of goblins. We got the best of them but not at a free cost. Sonya was badly injured and we had to stop our trek there. She casted us into invisibility and we went back to the camp near Hlint. We rested there and when we woke p there was this man called Jin, who seemed to know me. Once again, I could not recall him. Oh how frustrating this is getting to be. At last and sadly, Sonya had other duties to attend to and she had to go, not before giving me an other of her sweet kiss on my cheek. I hugged her goodbye and she left. I could only sighs at her moving away from me. I truly hope it will not take a months for us to see ourselves again. I am sitting by the campfire, scribing this into the last corner of the paper I have. I must get a book to inscribe all of this in. *folds the paper and put it back in his pack* Hummm .. *touches his cheek*