*Shiff stumbles into his room after the Party at the Leringard Arms. He sits on his bed, pulling out his hidden journal, and lays it open on the table. He then places a half empty bottle of whiskey on the table, leaving it closed. Retrieving his quill and ink from his things, he begins to write*
Satari, Seplar 7, 1416
Seems like life just keeps going, despite the troubles of the world and the people in it...
Another nightmare... this time of me alone in the dark, surrounded by nothing but air and my sword, sitting with nothing but the nothingness... Only to wake up only... It's a horrible feeling most times... I hope there is a time when I won't have to wake up alone anymore...
There was a party at the Arms today. It was fun. some merchants from some of the various trading guides came around
Today the Arms had a party, the first I'd ever been to. Kinai was there with her baby-belly and of course Hawk, The Angels were there Lino... A good number of friends. The first part of the party was spent buying things, but this lil kid came into the arms whinin about sleep... Well, Kali seemed tah know who he was, but I didn't... Anyway, I bet the kid 1000 true he couldn't stand one drink of whiskey... I won of course, but It didn't like I really made any money...
Then we had some fun. Some of us decided a drinking game was in order... Val woulda had fun... I ended up lasting until only two drinkers remained, but Kali poured me something black and I couldn't take it... Some gentleman name Rege won in the end...
Then came the card readings....
*he sits back in his chair, then uncorks the whiskey bottle and takes a sip. He then looks at his door, as if looking beyond it, to something outside.*
Kali had read my cards once before... She was right the first time... I hope she is wrong this time...
She told me that there is something in my past that has caused me troubles on the First Card.... I knew what she meant... The nightmares... They caused more problems then I can remember... Then she told me that I have strength still... That I am still able to solve my problems... That if I continue to control myself that all will be fine.... But the last card revealed that I am still troubled.... My nightmares still come to me... but it also came with a warning... that I may lose my mind and my the happiness I have if I am not careful.... I hope I can find the path to peace, to freedom from these nightmares for good, and away from whatever danger lurks in my future...
I talked to Starr... we talked about rings... My jewelry making... But I also asked him to about me and Val's wedding... I don't know anything about being wedded... Especially since I was never very devout to any God... But i mentioned maybe getting married in the Beryl Temple.. He said he didn't know if that was allowed... Since I'm not really a member of the church... but since I was his friend, and since I have been helping with rebuilding Stone, he said he would see what he could do.... I wish Val was there to talk to him with me... because I asked him to perform the ceremony for us.... I know Val wanted to be there with me... But.... I have not seen here in a long time... No matter... I go on... My heart remains true to my love...
*he slams the book closed and tucks it away. He closes up the whiskey after a final sip, then crawls into his bed, whispering a prayer the Deep Mother. And before he falls asleep*
"Goodnight my love, wherever you are..."