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Moraken kicked me out of his tower...Seems i destroyed one too many of his alchemy stations making fire bombs.

He yelled at me and sent me on my way. He had a few choice words for me about my intelligence and clumsiness! I suppose that was fair...My mind isnt so focused on what Im doing right now. I guess making fire bombs was a stupid idea given my mood.

I miss my bear. I need him to come back to me. Im so lonely now. I am becoming short tempered with my friends, reckless by myself, and distant with my family.

I just dont know what to do. I try to ignore my depression. Keep myself busy. It seems to be the only thing that does the trick. I have tried to help out a few new adventurers lately, ive brought food and bandages to some families living in the forests that were in need...but doing all those things..It just doesnt make me feel anything. I still feel this void, sucking me into it. I put up a brave front, that im dealing with it, that I am coming ot terms with it. And i think i am...until something stupid brings it back to the surface again.

Master Jin said that more questions needed to be asked. That things may not be as desolate as they seem to me. To hold onto hope. He is wise, and I trust him implicitly...I just dont know. Its so hard.