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I have been at if for weeks now. Gathering supplies in secret and stowing them away. But the tie is almost at hand for our trip. Who knows if Ill be back, ever.

I kinda feel like if i fall in there, then at least my anger and my pain will be gone. I keep feeling like I am becoming colder and colder. Sometimes i let my bit of depression show and become reckless. Sometimes I just get really angry at those around for no apparent reason.

Ive been told to get my things in order. Odds are very much against us for where we are going. I thought it was hard enough hearing dad and MR Q talk to me about that. About what they wanted done when the end comes. Now I find myself having to prepare for my own eventuality. Im not sure i can.