Journal of a fallen Ranger

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It has been four years now, four years of painfull memories, remorces and nightmare. I dream every day of my darling kandall and my baby girl Eloana. Even if I know that they are no more I still feels guilty for not being there to protect them. I never did find what had happened to my baby boy Elyam, did the barbarians killed him? I have no answer. All I know is the lost they have bestowed on me and the pain goes on.

Since my arrival in Hlint I have met good people. They helped me a lot to get used to the changes that I have faced since my arrival. Althought I do not know them well, I can honestly call some friends. I do not know where or what will happen to me but this I am sure, it will prove to be interesting. Well this is all that my mind can think as of now. My last trip has gotten me tired and I must rest. Hopefully tonight I will have a restfull night and not dream so much of my past.

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Once again I awake from my night mare, sweating and breathing heavily. I swear to all that is holly.

"Why are you still tourmanting me? Have I not paid enough Already?"

I remember the animals I have slaughter and drank their blood in rage and pain trying to rebuke Folian. I remember this small barbaric village I had found with my friend Gafeld, the few warriors guarding the village where no match for us mostly for Gafeld magic. I remember him trying to hold me back when I found where the women and children were hiding. So many death that day, so much blood on my hands, blood of innocent children some not older than my own they had killed or kidnapped. I exacted my revenge on that day but the whole inside me was not filled. It grew deeper and darker, still does today. The gift that I was given, probably by Folian, still comes to me with my deepest angers. I have even frightened one of my friend because of it. Curse golden eyes.

"I am so sorry Annalee"

I yell. I wish to be nothingness, to be close to my little family again. Maybe in the after life will I live with them an other life, an other story. I do not know, what is real? Is this my real life or did I die and revived by the Dragon. Is this my after life? My punishment for the atrocity I have done? I touch my scare on my right cheek and remember the arrow slicing through my skin. I remember the look on my father's face when the barbarian thrusted his sword out of his back. The way he looked at me when his knees touched the ground. I saw the barbarian lift his sword above his head and Yelled. So many pain they have brought me but nothing in comparison to what I have brought them. If all the warriors would have been in the village would have we succeeded? My pain confuses me and the sorrow blinds me. I long for her, for her to comeback and fill this whole that is my heart, but she never comes.

Sleep is getting hold of me again. I close my eye. Maybe this time I will rejoin her for good.

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I woke up in a temple, my whole body was transparent. I could not remember how I got to this place nor who I was. My mind was empty of all memories. I stood there looking at what looked like a tombstone, asking myself what had happened. I had no answer. I started roaming through this strange city until someone by the name of Tegan came to me. She seemed to know me and I seemed to find her quite familiar. Somehow I trusted her and after she talked to some friends, we met in the city she brought me back to the city of Hlint.

At first I was disoriented and couldn't find anything that jurke my memory. Even a man called Cymeran tried to cast a spell on me, to no prevail. I was confused, lost, feeling Like I was the only one there. Every face I saw was a new face, not remembering anyone. A few persons came to my side asking how I was but I could not remember them. The only person that seemed familiar was this woman called Tegan. So many people asking me question rendered me quite nervous. Wasn't not my amnesia enough that I could hear some voices that didn't make sense to my ears but in my head I understood them perfectly. I was going mad until Sonya came. She was reassuring even if at first I was nervous from all the people around me. She talked to me and succeeded in calming me down. After a while she proposed I asked someone to take me around the city, to see if it would revive my memory. She showed me all the places in Hlint but I could not remember anything, so I proposed to hear that we go outside of the city. She seemed nervous at the Idea so I told her I was going to protect her and winked at her. Of course how could I protect her when I couldn't even remember my own name. She told me that she could take care of her self and of course I knew it to be true. She called upon her friend called Dragonia. Even this little dragon knew me and told me how we had met. It revived an image in my head. There she was, laying on the ground, I thought her to be dead, tried to find a pulse but the little one stepped in between me and her master. It told me that she was sleeping. I looked down and I saw her so peaceful, amazingly beautiful. I recall that mage and Sonya asked me to discribe my memory so I did but stopped on the amazingly beautiful part not soon enough. She blushed and I felt shy looked away. There was an akward moment, so to break the silence I gave her one small clover leaf I had found on a ox that seemed to be mine. She blushed again. She had to go and before parting I asked if I would see her again to witch she answered me with a quick and small kiss on the cheek *Touching my cheek as I am writing this*. Yes we will, she answered. She left walking slowly and I looked at her as she was getting out of the crafting house. She turned back and waved at me, i did the same. At that point Cymeran sighted and it got my attention, I turned toward him and asked him if he had talked to me.

He asked me If I wanted to go with him and some others to hunt some trolls. Not remembering what they where I paused and asked him if my weapons I had on me would do the job, he said yes. So we went. When we arrived at the swamp we found a hoard of trolls, ugly beast I can tell you that much. I must have still been weak because I died on the first wave. But when I came back I wanted more. Fury took over me and I could feel a change in my eyes. I ran killing every troll i could get my hands on, yelling "More, I want more" Finally something happened. Out of my anger two beast appeared beside me, one was a Dire wolf and the other one looked like a half breed of a dragon and a butterfly. They fought beside me until both of them died, my anger grew stronger. I ran like a mad man yelling "more, give me more" slicing my sword and axe in every trolls skin I could find, but then again I felled. I woke up in the city of fort Hampshire where Tegan told me and showed me to bind with the stone over there. I was weak and didn't felt like going back to the swamps so I search my pack and found this peace of paper I decided to write this down in case I would lose my memory again. I do not want to forget again. Not the battle not all the people who tried to help me, not the kiss and even more I do not want to forget Sonya.

[Hellblazer]

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Some of you may wonder why Rain has lost his memory so I will explain a little here trying not to reveal to much. Yes it is part Physical after his death near prazin he lost his memory but it has more to do with his subconscious mind. He does not want to remember the pain and loneliness, the suffering and the constant struggle that is his life. So when he died that time, his subconscious take hold and rendered him amnesic. The draw back, is this. In the years that had followed the massacre at the barbarian village he had learn to control partially his anger, but with this amnesia his anger is now able to take hold of him again and send him into a blood frenzy as writing in my last post. This is all I am writing for this, up to you to see what will happen next by following up in here or on the servers.

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Today was a somewhat a peculiar day. I still do not remember anything from my past but I could not let this stop me. I met Addison near the bank and she ask me how I was doing. I had nothing really new to tell her, although i tried to keep the fine details out of my memory flash, she understood me and agreed to what I almost said. It made me feel somewhat like a teenager living his first tease of life. In our discussion I explained to her what had happened in the Aiji swamps, the fact that I had somehow summoned two companions. I do not have many clear thoughts on this, as I was quite under the influence of my anger. But she seemed to think that putting me back in that situation might refresh my memory. So we went into Silwood with a man called.. Glenn, yes that his name. Just as we were about to enter the wood, a pigeon dropped a letter for me, it was a letter from Sonya explaining why she left so abruptly the night before. We entered the wood and the beast we encountered there were no match and as we went further inside the wood I feld behind. When I finally manage to catch up to them, they were slaying the last spiders. I did not have a chance to test myself against those beast and see if it would jolt my memoirs. So she decided to lead me into the caves that were near by. The first creature we encountered was delt by me easily. As she saw that it did not help, we went further into the caves. There we found a hoard of bugbears I rushed them and I remember getting slice on the right upper arm and felt myself enrage again more violently than in the swamps. At that point I blanked out. I woke up seing Gleen fight some odd little creatures. I barely had the strength to lift and tend my crossbow, fired a couple of bolts and killed at least one of them. He aid me to the side where we started to talk for some time. At that Point i had not realized yet that Addison had staid behind to mine some materials. Glenn pointed out that he felt I had a Ranger aura on myself. I didn't know what he was talking about to tell the truth but I knew better than to try to argue with the man. After a while Addison reached us and we talk some more. Glenn even felt that I was a follower of Folian in my past, then again I could not argue since I have no prior knowledge of any kind from before I woke up at the temple.

We decided to part from the cave and headed back into Hlint. On our way, we were attacked by a deer and without thinking I just reached for it. As soon as my hand touched him he calm down. It was enough to convince Glenn I was a ranger. We finally arrived at Hlint and Addison parted with us. Me and Glenn talk for a while before a strange man with the name of Drogo came to us. He seemed to know me, once again I can not comprehend that I knew so many people and have no recollection of any of them but a familiarity towards Tegan. Any how he tried to revive my memory by casting healing spells on me, to wich nothing happened. Then he brought me outside of Hlint, Glenn folowing us, because he thought that if my memory was lost by a jolt then a jolt of electricity should help. I could hear Glenn being quite nervous of that idea and pleading not to go through with it, but at this point I was ready to try almost anything to get at least some memories back. I think he got distracted because every time he tried to cast the lighting spell nothing fell on me. A minute after a fire bolt came rushing down from the sky. I was not prepared for that and I lost control to my anger. I somehow summoned the same companions and I almost attacked Drogo. I saw, in the corner of my eyes Glenn getting nervous as he summoned his bear. Drogo staid in front of me, still talking in elven tongue, he made me realize that the two beast where beside me. Both him and Glenn in conjunction tried to help me remember them and seing those to beast in front of me was to much for me to handle at once. I ran into silwood and stopped beside the cliff I felled down sitting and pounded the ground. I do not know what my companions did but they did not follow me. Glenn and Drogo caught up and still tried to help, but I was discouraged and could not concentrate on most of what they where telling me. After a while Drogo left, discouraged I think. Glenn staid there not talking so I decided to head back to Hlint. I staid by myself for some time until I met Tegan, I wanted to speak to her but she had already something planned so I left her. I saw her go talk to Darckchild and was compelled to stay close hidden from them and I listen to them talk through the night. It was not a pleasant conversation and Tegan left somewhat frustrated. I tried to talk to her but she ignored me and went away with her panther friend. She came back after a moment and just slumbered to the grass. I aproched her and we talked a little until Darkchild came and started arguing with her again. At that point I just staid there silent. I do not know how much time passed but at the end I never got the chance to talk to her. I went in the crypts and slayed some skeletons, then headed for the inn and rested for some time.

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When I came back out from my rented room I stumbled on Treana and Addison. They were talking about people not being able to apreciate the craftsmanship of a bronze ring. I staid there silent and Addison left after some time. Me and Treana then started to talk, She explained to me some of her traditions and the reason why she couldn't call me by my first name only. She also told me of the little she knew about my past. I wondered if i could ever be a complete man if I did not know of my past but she seemed to disagree. She saw, for me, new possibilities. A chance to forget everything and start a new life. At a point in our conversation I wondered if it was at all possible that I would have done this to myself. It is certainly a possibility and she told me that when she first met me I was not a happy man, well this is not a change if i look at the past 3 days. she told me that I told her that my family was killed and that my mother and little son were kidnapped by Barbarians. I felt strange to the sound of me having a son. How could I not remember this? I think she feared that by telling me this I would fall to my anger, as I had told her I was having difficulty controlling it, but I could not feel anything but a slight frustration to the fact that once again I was powerless in front of this amnesia. After some time we parted and I came back to the inn, where on the same piece of paper, I am writing what happened today. I thought I would have seen Sonya, but I did not. Maybe tomorrow I will?

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It was a strangely pleasant day today as i spent most of my day with Tegan. We started by going at the rolling hills where we fought a kind of creatures I had never seen yet, well to my recent memories that is. Somehow in the combat I lost control of my rage and blacked out. I regain consciousness at a camp fire in the woods on the way to Leilon. She told me that she was confused about the fact that I did not remember what just took hold a few hours ago. I ask her if I had the dreaded Gold eyes again and she said yes. This is really starting to get on my nerves. She told me I looked without fear, almost welcoming death. Also that I had called her dear in something I said to her. Having no recollection of the deeds, I could only offer my forgiveness, and she smiled at me saying it was fine. Somehow I fear she is not telling me everything. When we arrived to Leilon and she brought me to her house. As I entered it I saw it was well sought for. Everything had its place and it was really nice and comfy, it showed me an aspect I had never seen of her to my knowledge that is. She told me that she shared this house with other friends. We went to what seemed a living room and I saw a small indoor pool, When she saw me wash my hand she told me I could take a dip in it, but I respectfully declined as I had no proper swimming garment. We talked a bit about her pass, where she came from. She told me that she was from a city called Liala or something like that and that she always plaid in the apple trees over there. I told her she seemed to have a happy childhood but she replied that she found happiness and love only where she sought it. I aksed her if she longed for her family and I was shocked to know that she was not caring about them. She told me that she felt she was a mistake and that her mother despised, if not hated her for it. She told me that her mother had fallen for a stranger and the he left here with a incoming child. I tried to comfort her, telling her that what ever was the cause of her being here today the result was not an ill one. after all she is the one who found me wandering this foreign city where I had woke up as a ghost, she took care of me then, bringing me back to Hlint and even after that until she had to leave. She never tried to take advantage of my memory loss and that showed that She was a good person, what ever anyone would have said to her. I tried my best to convince her and I think she somewhat did. We also talked about what had happened between me and Sonya she was a bit amused about the situation. She told me to wait a few more days before sending Sonya an other letter, as I have not seen her since the letter she sent me. To give her the time to understand what had happened and see what she wanted out of it. It seemed to be a good advice then and still now as I write this.

After we talked a bit more she told me that she had to go to port Hampshire to get some materials off her ox. She told me that I could come or go back to Hlint. I had nothing else plan for the day and I asked her if she minded the company, she told me that she did not mind. She got a few supplies and we went on our way. While we where walking toward the docks, she told me that her ox was named Stinky, what a strange name for an ox but i guess we need every thing to make a world. We arrived at Hampshire and Tegan somehow fell through one of the planks, When she got back up on the dock and could not held my laugh back but I did offer her my cap to dry off. She then took me where she had left her ox and presented me to stinky. You would have believe that with a name like that, the ox would stink, but it smelled good. stinky, I think, is a playful beast as it rubbed her head against my had when I petted her and then when I was looking at Tegan talking about her she nibbled my cape and chewed the corner off of it. We wen to what is the equivalence of the crafting house in Hlint and I watched her craft he crags bags. I must have slumbered from exaustion because when I woke up Tegan was gone.

I headed back to Hlint and met with Cronk, Nepp; Keith, Galius and since I had a contract given to me by Lord Rodor of the castle of Haven. We went into the cave and succeeded in slaying the ogres. While we were heading out of the cave we met Lady Addison wich was going down from where we just came up. At the entrance of the mine we rested then split the loot. Some of the men left but me Keith, Galius, Careigh and Noah that had joined us late in the quest. We went to Lord Rodor and told him the good news. He rewarded me for my contract and then we headed back to Hlint. On our way back Keith needed some clay so we waited for him and talked. At that point Lady Addison caught up to us with only a few scares to show that she had went into the mines by herself. We talked for a while waiting for Keith and were attacked by a deer. I barely had time to calm in time before Careigh could kill it. from that point the deer staid beside me and I pet him while talking with the good people I was with. I must have gotten distracted an lost control ever the deer wich started to attack us again, I once again calmed it down and lead him away so we would not scared him further. A few moment after I had lead him away I came back to my companions and Saw that Keith was still not back from his mining. I went to look for him and found him playing in he clay up to his knees. He seemed to have fun so I left him there and rejoined the others. A few moment later he rejoined us and we headed back to Hlint once again. In Hlint we parted and having not eaten for a while I ask Lady Addison what were he plans. She told me she had none expect to wash tom gems she had mined, so I invited her to dine with me. I always feel that it is more relaxing to dine in good company than by yourself. Some how she and Careigh though I had some ill thinking behind my invitation and I was irritated at that. Why does every one think that when I man invite a woman friend to diner, it is because he has something else in mind. I can not stand that path of thinking. I barely know her, I would not pretend to try anything. She insisted that Careigh join us for the diner and I had no objection to that. Careigh wanted Noah to join us and so i asked him to. While waiting fro Lady Addison to finish her crafting, us men talked. My memory loss came back on the table and we talked about it for some time. After a while Lady Addison was still not back from her crafting so I went to check on her, she had disappeared on us. I do think that it is not a god friendship manner, but she must have had her reasons. If I see her and remember, i will ask her what happened. i went back to the others and bid them farewell. With all of this, I still did not see Sonya again. I hope everything is well for her.

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I do not know what is up with the people of this town but as soon as I got back from the sielwood forest Treana and one of her friend confronted me. Ordering me to stay away from Addison. What did I do wrong?. I just invited her with diner and comply with her desire to have Careight with us?? When they confronted me by the pound I got frustrated and rushed my words. Told them, in frustration, that I had only wished for some good company while eating and that I thought of Inviting Addison as a friend, nothing more, nothing less. Well after those harsh words I felt bad and got back to them excusing myself for my jest. They understood and even Treana excused herself as she had talked without asking what was my intentions. She told me that Addison was in grief, that her loved one had died. What good a Friend I am, going about forgetting that. She then told me that even if I annoyed her she still considered me a friend, at that point it was just to much, what kind of bastard was I to forget all my friends and to annoy or grieve them. I couldn't bare take an other word and left hastily, I went into Range vale where I rested for a while, two days I think.

I came back to Hlint but My mood was not better. I went on buying some new cloths that were not stained in blood, once again. This time I chooses a color where blood would not show that much. And somehow in the process of trying these new clothes and getting new design for my weapons I tool the decision to push every one away. I am cursed and I feel it best for them to stay away. If what Treana told me was right, then Every one I get close has died or will die. Cymeran and Nepp saw this change and tried to talk me out of this way of thinking, but I can not let them persuade me, only for their safety. How can I control this curse if I do not Even start to understand the reason I have it. The night passed on and I reflected on that.

Then Tegan came into town, I asked her for a crag bag and she had one available. Unfortunately I was a 100 gold piece short, so I asked her if she would wait a few minutes while I went collecting the skeletons due for roaming freely, undeadly. It is there I stumbled on Sonya. Oh sweet Sonya, as much as I would want to protect her by pushing her away, I can not resolve myself to do that. As she said hi, two skeleton ambushed her from behind. I manage to kill one of them as she got rid of the second one. I healed her injuries the best I could with this puny healing spell of mine, and she smiled. I kid you not, her smile could make a glacier melt in a blizzard. We exchanged the normal courtesy of asking each other how we where and what we have done, then I asked her if she wanted to go on a hunt with me. She agreed with her so tender and amazing smile. She was still hurt and tired so we went to the Inn. There she took one room for both of us. At first I was a bit baffled, it did not seemed right, but my hesitation soon dissipated, when she smiled at me saying, "its only for sleeping". So we rested. I woke up earlier than her and thought to get her some breakfast. Upon reaching for the door handle I remembered that she had the key and that I would be looked out of the room. I searched in my bag and found that I had a Cook's Special Fare left. I sat beside her and whispered her name to wake her up. She only answer by a small moan. I took the liberty to brush some of her hair away from her face. She looked so beautiful again sleeping. I passed the plate of food under her nose saying "waky waky" then again she did not respond. Then she jolted straight up wide awake and startled. I got up and asked her what was troubling her. She told me it was a nightmare of something that happened in her pass. I told her that she could talk to me about it, but did not insist. Instead she reach for the plate I was tending her and ate it joyfully. When she was done eating we went out of the Inn. We must have slept longer than I thought as it was already midday when we gout out. After making our decision where to go hunt, we exited Hlint to go to the red light caves, well thats what i think its named. Outside the gate i decided to let Arwin out for a walk. I should have hit myself on the head, cause he mocked me all the way through the second level of the caves. Although it was all in fun, I hope, It made Sonya laugh quite a bit. This wolf will get me insane one day I can sense it. We were still at the gate that she called upon Draconia her companion. After the usual presentation for Arwin and Draconia, and the pesquering Arwin did on me, we went on our way to the caves. Arwin reminded me that it would be good for me to let my other companion get a breath of air. So i summoned him, to my lonely demised as he and Arwin teamed up against me. Sonya, with her usual gracefulness and sweetness, kept laughing all the way. We entered the caves and did swiftly with the little resistance we met on the first floor. On the second floor, the story was quite different, the goblin manage to kill Ehlen, my other companion. It took all that i had to control myself and not succumb to my rage. When she saw me, Sonya asked me if I was alright. I felt it necessary to explain to her this affliction, I was nervous and looked away from her eyes, fearing that she could not stand it and would reject me. Instead she took my head and guided my sight back to hers. She assured me that it would take much more to scare her away. We continued on our way down the caves and got ambushed by what seemed an army of goblins. We got the best of them but not at a free cost. Sonya was badly injured and we had to stop our trek there. She casted us into invisibility and we went back to the camp near Hlint. We rested there and when we woke p there was this man called Jin, who seemed to know me. Once again, I could not recall him. Oh how frustrating this is getting to be. At last and sadly, Sonya had other duties to attend to and she had to go, not before giving me an other of her sweet kiss on my cheek. I hugged her goodbye and she left. I could only sighs at her moving away from me. I truly hope it will not take a months for us to see ourselves again. I am sitting by the campfire, scribing this into the last corner of the paper I have. I must get a book to inscribe all of this in. *folds the paper and put it back in his pack* Hummm .. *touches his cheek*

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Hum what a sweet these last days have been. Spent most of my time some part of the wood North west of Hlint. There is a temple over there but never dared to disturb the followers to ask them to which Deity this temple was erected for. These woods are soothing and I can rest here, undisturbed by the affliction. There is nothing to anger me here. At last, I felt ready to go back to Hlint see how the people were and listing to the news by the bank. As I entered Hlint the town was empty, true the night was well on its way, but there was no one beside the bank which is intriguing as usually there is always someone by it. Seeing know one I decided to head to the crafting house, and found it empty except for the usual ox's and Jan the fur man and the post master. I went to the fletcher's table and took upon myself to modify my crossbow. I got the look I wanted out of it but it did not enhance its aiming. Since I had finished, I decided to go back to the temple and rest again. As I went out of the crafting house day light was coming up, I slipped on my Hood and started to head out of Hlint.

Not far from the Bank there stood Sonya, sweet Sonya. When she saw me she gave me her usual wide and gentle smile. We talked for sometime about how she was and what we had done since the last time we met. She looks so graceful and lovely. I remember asking her is she had a good rest in the few days that had past and her answered puzzled me. I did not push the matter as I felt she did not want to say more and also that we where interrupted by Cymeran, so instead I offered to show her my little place of predilection. Of course she agreed and I was happy she did. Together we started our way out of Hlint and saw Cymeran siting on the ground, he looked heavy from a burden I asked him what was the matter, and as he started telling us his tail, a small man came to me calling me by my first name. I turned around but once again I did not recognize this person. He told me his name was Tahless and that we had journeyed a few times together. I did not want to sound impolite to him or Cymeran, but I had already committed myself to Sonya and was not intended to let her stand there much longer. I turned toward her and saw that she was still talking to Cymeran, I waited. After a while the conversation seemed to end so I passed a little joke "If I stand here much longer I fear my feet will turn to roots" She laughed. Oh such a sweet laughs, always brightens my day. She replied that we should get on our way as she did not want me to turn into a tree. I chuckled and she laughed so we did, we headed Finlay out of Hlint. A few pace into the woods there was a deer, that looked scared at us. I did not want it to be hurted or scared and took it upon myself to calm the gentle animal. Sonya seemed surprise by the ease I had to calm the animal. I do not see what is so special about it, its only a matter of patience and being gentle, not doing any sudden movement and slowly walk up the animal without having a menacing posture. Anyhow from there I told her we where near my favorite place and we started to walk back. We finally arrived and I kid you not, this place is peace incarnated. You could hear the birds chip, the wind blowing softly on the trees branches. The smell of nature at its best. Not far from us, stood a clouded leopard, calm and not moving. It almost seemed as a statue as it was standing on his paws. I pointed toward it for Sonya to see and moved quietly toward it. Again, the animal responded in kind to me and approached me slowly. I petted it and it purred, Sonya joined me, somewhat concerned. She was sure that the beast would attack me, but it did not instead it seemed determine to sent my whole body until it reached a spot of out most discomfort for a man to see a leopard approach his head of. When Sonya saw my in comfort she laughed, Who can blame her I a sure I had a strange face as I slowly lead the animal nose some place else. I unfortunately did not see the deer following me and the leopard must have been quite hungry as it jumped straight on it and eaten swiftly the poor deer. then It came back to us, licking his whiskers. It seemed quite content with his meal. we parted way with the animal as I proposed to Sonya to give her a tour of the place. I gave her my hand and she took it trembling of her owns. I asked her is she was alright and she answered me with a gentle smile and a I am fine now. I think she was still a bit nervous about the big cat. We proceeded touring the woods around the temple, I made some small jokes about the few houses that we saw, and upon arriving to this monstrosity of a house I could not hold myself to comment about it. Frankly the owner must do something about it, it clashes with the nature surroundings it. At least he should paint it to match the surrounding colors. As we were talking about the house Sonya saw that the Night had fallen, I must say that when I am with her I do not see time flying by. I told here there was a fire camp not far our we could go and sit by the temple where some of th followers were. She opted for the latest and we made our way there.

Arriving at the temple I saw that the chamomile plant had sprew some new flowers so I picked two up. I gave one to Sonya who smiled and proceeded to put it in her hair. I told her about a special property I found about this flower. When you grind it into a small dust and infuse it to boiling water, it becomes a soothing drink. Of course you need to let it cool until it is only warm, but this drink had helped me a lot in the past few days as it calmed me down enabling me to embrace the nature surrounding me. I truly think I should commerce this and give it the name of Tea. Sonya looked a bit tired so I suggested that we sit for a while. We did as such and we talked of her past. She told me about the death of her mother and the disappearance of her father, brother and sisters. She cried as she told me her tale, it broke my heart to see her in such a state. All i could offer her was my ears to listen, my hand to take hers in and my fingers to wipe away her tears. When she Had done telling her tale I told her I would do all that I could to help her find her missing family. She doubted that any one could help her, but I told her I had a tool that no one else had. She was curious to what tools I was referring to. I told her that I had the biggest bugger sniffler and at the same time I called upon Arwin who showed just just in time to make the entrance. Her beautiful smile could once again be seen and sh thanked me for my future help. After that moment she was starting to be really tired and we opted to go back to the Inn in Hlint. I gave her my hand and started to walk out of the woods. Near the exit of it I dared her to race me back to the town, She is fast and she bested me... *grins* From the towns gate I walked her to the Inn where we said our good nights. I so much wanted to hug her goodnight but instead I was meat by a sweet kiss on the lips. I was stunned and all I could do is give her one on her cheek. We rented ourselves a separate room and told our final good nights. So here I am today with the soft candle light, lighting this new parchment I bought earlier, scribing every word of every moment I have spent. I know she is in the room beside mine and I wonder if she is thinking of me as I am of her. I will go to sleep with these tender thoughts.

*puts down the feather, blows on the parchment to dry off the ink and carefully folds it to fit it into his bag*

Pfff

*the candle is put out and I lay myself to sleep*

[Hellblazer]

I will try to make this entry short as I want to go hunt some Ants. I went with a few people today mainly Cronk, Kison Ravenlock, Cymeran, Nepp'akyo, Sa'kura, ashiel, Royana and Keith. We decided to go into some cave not far from port Hampshire and fight some earth elemental golems, BAD idea. We were soon overrun by the golems because, Kinson, who was leading the group did not bother to assess the battle ground first. We ended up running for our lives but when I saw that Cronk and Kinson were staying behind I staid and fought with them the best I could but we lost Kinson and Royana in that fight. I can not stand people who jeopardize the lives of other, thinking that they are strong enough to fight heads on, not considering that all of the parties member may not be as advance as them. Anyhow, I must have spoken my mind out loud as Cronk got displeased at my statement. He was intended to force his view that Kinson was a great hero for having staid behind and fought for our retreat. I stood there beside them fighting for the other to flee to but it does not change the fact that Kinson went to fast and brought all the golems at us at once. Cronk was not pleased as I did not change my mind on that point and he left. after resting and fighting some gnoll at the cave entrance we went to the port Hampshire outskirt where the ants are and Cronk cauAght up with us. He pushed me and I could not resist his might and felled to the ground. He ordered me to change my mind on kinson but I did not. I will not be intimidated into going against what I believe to be true. He was still mad and I did not want him to be mad so I put my weapons away took my hood off and told him to give me his best shot. He did, it hurted, but even if my face was a bloody mess I got back up and faced him. "Are you happy now?" I said and he replied that he was. Even then, even with the pain, I did not let him change my mind. Kinsnon reached us in the mean time, as a ghost, and Cronk asked if we would go with him to get Kinson back to his grave. He must have think That I wanted to lead them as he told me to do so but I have no desire to lead people to their deaths. So he shouted "Let me show yuzhow itz done" or something like that, and We followed him. He might not be the most intelligent person on this planet, but he did show a sing of wisdom as he did not rush like Kinson did. He used tactics to lure the spiders and golems a few numbers at a time. I told him that he was a good fighter. at the end when we stopped to split the loot, which i did not get my share, don't know why that is and should talk to Ashiel about getting it, Cronk apologized to me for getting mad. I told him that we were both staying true to our mind and words and that he needed not to apologize for that. After that we all splitted up and I went to the inn to rest. Now that I have done so and written this part of my journal I will head out to hunt some ants.

*Tuck his feather away and smoothly folds the paper before putting it in his bag.*

[Hellblazer]

Coming back Into Hlint I saw Tegan. I finally could pay her what I was due and gave her a small token of my appreciation. Then, Darkchild, Took her on the side and they talked for a while. While I was waiting for her Keith came by and we started to talk about what had happened with Cronk. He think that this was one of his bad days and I tend to agree. And we also agreed on the fact that Kinson had no clue of what he was doing leading us in that cave. Drakchild and Tegan finished talking and I saw her stay in the same spot not moving. I excused my self from Keith and went to lend an ear in case she needed it. She is a proud person and told me that she could take care of herself. I told her I had not doubt about that but implied that, between a fight and a friend, the fight was less overwhelming. I tried to talk to her, but Keith then a man I do not know came to join us and just wisped her out of my reach. I sat by the fire she started to cook her meal, listening to both men talk. After a while I said my goodbye and went to the inn to rest.

[Hellblazer]

I do not know what is wrong today but I it just felt like every one were not acting like their usual. It started when I got in Hlint earlier last night. I saw Tegan and Darkchild talking together, witch is not unusual, but then he left here there alone. I walk to her, or over her should i say *grins* but instead of greeting me with her usual sweetness she went directly on the offensive. Stating I should watch where I walk and If a had a reason for being, is spending some time with a friend not being a good reason? Also, she told me that she saw Sonya pass by earlier and wondering why I as not with her, I think she was just trying to get rid of me so I left. I went to the goblins camp near Hlint and felt like taunting them so I undressed and started running naked through their camp taunting them all the while. I am sure that if anyone else would have seen me, they would have tough of me being mad. The goblin surely did not appreciate and while I was running out of their, camp laughing, I could see the arrows fly by me. I did not try to fight them until i got hit by five consecutive arrows, I got dressed as fast as I could and went on killing them with no mercy. I could smell their skin burn when thrusting my ax and sword into them. *takes a few long breaths* Well needless to say that I won the fight but not without some injuries.

I headed back into Hlint and saw that DarkChild and Tegan were talking again and when she saw me bleeding quite a bit, she asked me what had happened. I told them the story and DarkChild thought of me as being mad. At that moment I saw Sonya coming out of the bank and go sit on a bench by herself, I excused my self and went to see her. I greeted her but she did not answer, she looked preoccupied and sad, lost in her thoughts. I started to go back toward Tegan and Darkchild when she answered me. She told me exactly what I thought, that her family was still preoccupying her. I sat beside her telling her that I was all ears if she wanted to talk. I waited silently for her to start until Rhynn showed up. She mumbled inetelligibly and tried to heal me, with little success. I told her I would manage and she went off mumbling again ignoring me. I tried to pick up a conversation with Sonya after that but was again interrupted by Rhynn coming back and trying to heal me again. I got up and told her I needed not her help then she jested me about how i was ruining the bench