Another stack of Emie's letters home

[Lynn1020]

//This will be for letters that Emie would write to her sister that would be of more private nature.  I always held back on some of her letters due to others reading and using as IG information that their PC's wouldn't know about.

[Lynn1020]

*Emie walks away from the group gathered around the campfire at the crossroads shaking her head. Then climbs down the cliff and finds a dry spot near the water. As she begins to write on a parchment she laughs softly to herself*
 
  Sis,
 
It has been an interesting day indeed. After traveling with Abi and a few others in to the east of the crossroads we gather near a fire to warm ourselves. There was a gal there that goes by the name of Sil. Oh Sis...
 
*stops a moment with a grin still on her face*
 
  This girl is something else. I don't even remember what got us talking about men and trust. But she started on the idea that not all men are pigs. That some couples do make it. Like her oh mighty father and mother. That her father loves her mother more than anything and he would never cheat on her mother. That her father is THE Rain Darsus... owner of Angels Guild Hall. I had to hold in my laughter. Like I know who that is or that I even care. I guess I said a bit to much when I made the comment that he probably uses the extra rooms to hide his other women in. Because the next thing I knew was she hit me in the face. I didn't have the nerve to tell her I barely felt it and that I had been hit many times much harder. But I couldn't hold in my laughter any more. The girl dresses like she is working the streets near the taverns and inns. I don't understand girls like that. Do they not understand that the way men treat you often goes by how you are dressed? I know you are probably sitting there screaming at me as you read this. But you know how I feel about it. After father left Mother I thought not all were like him. Then there is the one that is the reason that I left home. He left the scar on my cheek that will always be there to remind me of him and what happens when you can't keep a man happy.
 
*She stops a moment and reaches her her pack until she finds her fingers on a ravens feather. She rubs her fingers along it gently as she looks up to the dark clouds rolling in. Then quickly gets back to her letter*
 
  Then there was Avar. He got me to trust again. It was nothing but my fault. He got me to trust long enough for him to up and leave with not a word or warning. I left his things in the house for many years hoping he would return. Always wondering if he was still watching me from the shadows like he did many times. There were many times I thought I felt him near but I haven't had that feeling in a long time..... Then he never returned.
 
How am I suppose to see men any other way.  
 
Sil had been dumped by a man. Well she said he was forced to leave and never be with her again. Yea right! He probably ran as fast as he could from her once he got what he wanted and came to his senses. But since that she has switched to women. I won't even get started on that. From the looks of her I'm sure she won't stop at one. She is one that I could not see myself ever being a "friend" to.
 
Just had to vent about her. I just couldn't get over some of the things she was saying. I think even you would have gotten a good laugh. I know the rest of us did.
 
There is more to tell you but it looks as if a storm is rolling in.  I will write more later.
 
Love you sis!
 
~Emie

*Quickly she stands and calls to a near by bird and hands it the rolled up parchment and sends it on its way.  The she finds a near by shelter and crawls in to get out of the rain that has begun to fall.*

[Lynn1020]

Sis,

   Warning you now this is rambling thoughts I've been having.

 Ami complains all the time I'm grumpy and really I never even paid any mind to it until lately.  It does seem that I am unhappy all of the time.  Everything people do annoys the heck out of me.  I have never liked being in crowds but now I can't deal with it at all.  It makes me feel that I can't breath and have to get myself out of it.  I had recently bought three tickets to a raffle that the foundation held.  I tell you sitting in that crowd was torment.  I had to sit there and listen to Shiff run his mouth the whole time.  I have to say I like him much better on the ground after Gork was finished with him.  At least he was quiet.  But as I sat there in the room filled with light I found myself looking for dark corners to go hide in.  I now see why Avar often hid in my shadow.  I remember  him speaking to me about the thoughts he had of stepping  into the shadows and never returning.. At the time I truly had no understand to why he would feel that way.  But now  there are times I wish I could be surrounded by those shadows.. Its almost like there would be a comfort there. I have always been good at stealth.. but it takes work.. I need the surroundings to camouflage myself I can't just simply slip into a shadow.  Trust me.. there are many times I would have loved to been able to!    

I have started to travel with a small group on a regular bases.  Abiorn has led us to lands I have never seen before.  I have had the chance to trim a yew tree, mine emeralds and skin a legendary dire bear.  I have made my first yew bows, cooked beef meat brought back from the deep.  It was during one of these trips that I fell.. As I did It was like I felt a bit stronger..or at least my soul did.  Its quite hard to explain..But I think my soul may be hanging on a bit longer than I thought.

Sis I hope you are well.  Please write me soon.  I need to hear that you are okay.

~Emie  
 

[Lynn1020]

Sis,

   Hope this finds you doing well.  I'm happy to hear you are moving along in your studies. I hope you are being careful with your new friends.  You know how I feel about you being so carefree with people.

  Rodlin and I have traveled alone into the rift a couple of times.  He has been helping me work on new ways in battles.  He is the one person I work with very well.  I like that he doesn't lecture me on ways I have changed over time.  He allows me to do and be what I choose even if his beliefs are different.  Anyways..as we were were in the rift searching for diamond deposits along the walls we came across the dark elves that roam there he would allow me to move ahead and find a spot that I was able to crouch down and hide in.  Then as Rodlin would let an arrow fly to bring them right past me... I have to tell you Sis.. the feeling of leaping to my feet out of the darkness attacking them without them even hearing me until they feel my sword upon them is a real rush.  Most of the time I can knock them right off their feet with the first swing at the legs.  I'm almost afraid to tell anyone else the feelings it gives me.  The would think I had gone crazy.  Ami is always talking about the feelings of love... I think this feeling I get while I'm in these battles is stronger than those she speaks of.

There is a man by the name of Steel that I have traveled with only a couple of times.  After running into him in the deserts of Dregar I some how ended up  with him and a few other in the rift.  He had  interest in seeing how I do in battles.   Along the trip I could often feel his eyes upon me watching my every move.  I have to tell you at first it really started to worry me but in the end he mention something about me helping him with more jobs he has.  I don't know a lot about this man but I think It could be useful for me at least give it a chance to work with him.  Who knows what could come of it.

Got to go for now.  My pack is about bare... it is time for a hunting trip.

Miss you!

~Emie

[Lynn1020]

Sis where are you?!? I haven't heard form you in months.  I really don't want to have to start trying to track your bottom down. So if you get this let me know where you are and that you are safe.

Well I will take the chance that you will receive this and update you a bit on me.  Not to much really going on. Seems everyone has went their own way again. Ami is off doing .. what ever it is she does.  Haven't seen Drexia and months as well.  Most of my time has been spent on Belinara, often at Abiorn's home.  I have gotten to the point I really hate having to go to Dregar just to stop and check on my house and belongings.

There have been a few trips that Abiorn has lead us on. Once was in to the Deep to the Emerald mines. “Us” usually is  Abiorn, Wren and myself.  Occasionally others will come along.  The trip to the Emerald deposits a really annoying dwarf came alone.  I can't really remember his name now and its not really worth the trouble. But I do have to say he was good to stand behind in a battle! Sala also came alone on that trip.  I don't think we would have been able to make it without her. Then there was Steel... I think I have mentioned him before in a letter.. maybe not.  I don't know how to describe him. I have known him for sometime now but never spent much time around him until lately.  He is usually pretty quiet.  I also had never seen him without his helmet until after one of our trips with Abiorn.   It was hard not to stare but I think was curious more than anything.  After that it made me realize that I really don't know much about him or even... what he is.  I know he had human blood in him but .. Sis.. he has skin of blue and unless my eyes were playing tricks on me from the exhaustion of the trip.. It look as if he had horns on his head.  Its not that I mind the way he looks .. just curious I guess you can say.  I may ask Rodlin more about him when ever I see him again.  Anyways I made it back alive on these trips and not through the bindstone for a change. As much as I hate to say it I think it is because Wren and the others seem almost protective of me on the trips.  Which if ever confronted with it it I would deny it to the end that I noticed it or allowed it.  Not sure how I feel when one of them come to drag a creature off of me.  I don't want to fight some of these things on my own but it is really a hard thing to swallow that I allow a male of any type come to aid me in battles or the healing after the battle.  I just can let myself depend on anyone like that.  You have seen what has come of that in the past.  I normally push anyone away that tries to tend to any of my wounds but there was a couple of times Steel did before I even knew what was going on. I always make sure I have enough healing supplies to take care of myself when the need arises.

I am now preparing for another trip into the Deep .. deeper in than I have every been.  It is a trip that Steel is preparing to go to the lair of  a dragon that lives deep inside.  I only hope he has the right people that are able to make the long trip.

I'm also still working on different attacks and maneuvers I use in battles.  Steel has agreed to work with me on that.   He spoke of us maybe meeting up at the arena.  We will have to see how that goes. I have not studied under anyone other than Rodlin and Mother.  I have talked with Abiorn on different strategies when approaching enemies and focusing on their weaknesses. Well Emry.. There is much more to tell you but I must wrap this up before heading out.

Miss you!

~Emie

[Lynn1020]

Sis,  
 

 The day is getting closer for the trip to the Deep with Steel.  He had a meeting at the Arms a few days ago.  I sure hope more show up than what was in that room.  One of the Raven's even showed up.  It should be interesting as we begin to meet and prepare to head out.  I just don't see the Raven's traveling with G'ork.  If G'ork doesn't go... I don't go.  Even though I know we could really use the help of the group...the Raven's will only watch out for each other.. they could careless if the rest of us fall to the Soul Mother.  G'ork I know will watch my back.  He may not be the friendliest face you will run into but if likes you he is a good one to have on your side.  If you ever run into him just tell him you are my sister and he will take care of you.  I'm in the process right now of doing some work for him.  Not things I would bother doing for anyone else.  It wouldn't be worth my time and trouble.  I've learned there is always a way to get what I want.  Father always got what he wanted... Well now so do I!
 

 I have still been working on attacking differently when faced with a  battle.  I have found that if I use my abilities to stay unseen and move quickly and quietly I can do more harm in one swing of my sword. I also found when a strange man jumps at you from nowhere if you get your blade to slash right on the inside of his thigh he bleeds to death very quickly!  I'm sure that may sound harsh to you but it gets the job done with little effort from me.  
 

 I have also been working on fidgeting with locks to get them open.  I'm tired of depending on Ami and Aiborn's pixies doing things I should be able to do.  After watching Abiorn's pixed pick a lock with a dagger I determined to get it right!  I can get a simple pad lock open..its the more complicated ones that  me off.
 

 Anyways.. hope to hear from you soon.  Been wondering how your coming along in your studies.
 

 Love you!
 

 ~Emie

[Lynn1020]

Grandmother,  
 

 I guess you know Emry made it here.  You can not even imagine how I felt when I saw her standing there in Port Hempstead.  It was a huge relief until I spotted her belly. I don't know what was going through that girls head.  How could she do something like that.  Not only was she pregnant she was engaged to be married.  It was against my better judgment but I had to be there for her.  Watch her get married was not an easy thing.  The man she married seems just like every other one out there.   A follower of Ilsare just tops it all off.  I'm sure he will feel that Ilsare will be telling soon that he is suppose to share his love with other women.  
 

 Then there is Joshua.  I have a nephew.  Grandmother you have a great grandson! I have watched him a couple of times for Emry, While her and pretty boy venture out.  I barely travel much anymore.  At one time I felt my soul was holding strong again.  But lately I feel that the soul mother I tugging on.  In the past I didn't care really.  There was only myself to be concerned about.  Now that Emry is here I am trying to be more careful on my choices of travels.  Which being the safest is just not going at all.  Rodlin is feeling about as tired as I am. He doesn't travel much anymore either. He spends most of his time in Wolfswood.  Ami is still........ Ami.  I love that girl but she still has to much energy  for me to handle in large doses.  
 

 I still have the mark of a dragon.  The shadows attacks do not fear me as much now. I feel that I have fought with the shadows for years now. Even my own. Others were able to get their mark removed. Ami and I still carry ours.  
 

 Grandmother, I was sitting and talking with some adventures a few weeks ago.  The only one you may remember me speaking of is Abiorn.  The gnome that I have grown fond of. I have made many travels with him in the past.  But as I have grown weaker he has found new rested travel companions.  Which is for the best. I only slow him down now instead of being of help. But also there was the Bird lord Plenarius.  You may remember me writing about him when he helped Rodlin with the spiders in the Wolfswood forest. But anyways.. he asked us a question. What day in history would we want to see.  Right way one came into my mind. Not something I want to share with them or anyone for that matter. Except for you and possible Emry.  If I could have one day in history to watch that would be the day Mother left us.  It still haunts me that she was alone.  I need to know what she went through. Was she afraid, did she suffer through pain?  I would give my soul to be able to go back and relive that day and be with her.  Just to be there to tell her I loved her. That I'm sorry for making things more difficult for her than our father already had when he left us all.  The main thing is I wish I could have just been there to just hold her as she left.
 

 I am sorry to make this letter so gloomy Grandmother.  I have been feeling pretty down lately.  I do not want to burden Emry with it. She really does seem happy.  Joshua is amazing! The most perfect little thing ever!  I already have a bow ready for him.  He will be able to hit a target further than any other kid on Dregar! Mother would be happy with her grandson.  
 

 Love you Grandmother!
 

 Emie

[Lynn1020]

*A letter that can never be sent*
 

 Mother,
 

 How I miss you!  I miss the smile you would get when Emry would try her studies out on me.  I miss the look on your face when we would walk in the front door after a good hunt. I miss the sound of your voice, the touch of your hand.. and most of all the sound of your laugh.  

 It has been many years and I still feel lost without you.  

 I write this letting knowing it will never feel the warmth of your hands. But I seek for some type of escape from this feeling I have. So much I should have done for you. So many things I should have said. I should have been there they day you were taken. The thought of you being alone tears at me constantly. It is something I can not get past.  I know you felt my love for you, but I wish I could have told you one more time. I have not spoke those words to anyone since.  
 

 I thought with time I could start to heal.  I find myself getting deeper and deeper in to the darkness. I can not find happiness or even an escape from the emptiness I feel.  I hate daylight... I hate the dark.  I hate cold.. I hate the heat.  I hate noise... I hate the silence.  I hate being around people... even more so.. I hate being alone.  
 

 Avar use to tell me of how the shadows comfort him and how he often thought of not returning from them. The more time that goes by I have less and less to hold me here. I wonder if I could teach myself how to use the shadows.  You taught me to hide well! Put me in the woods and I can hide without a problem. I want to be able to fade into the darkness like I watched Avar do so many times.  I want a place I can go and maybe there I could get some type of escape.
 

 Mother I love you more.
 

 ~Emie


*Emie stares at the words on the parchment until sunlight is gone and the darkness surrounds her. Finally she leans foward slightly and lets the parchment fall into the fire in front of her. She pulls her knees tightly to her chest and begins to weep freely as she watches the words fades into the flickering flames.*

[Lynn1020]

[Lynn1020]

*A parchment rolled up and stored in the small chest at the foot of Emie's bed*


Emry I am sure you will be the one to find this.  I am updating my will because once again I am feeling that my soul is weakening. But this time it does not upset me.  Honestly I am tired of trying to hang on. You know those I am close to, and they know how I feel about them.  That is all that matters. I think Ami will be the only one to be taken by my death. She is the one I am concerned about the most.  You have that umm.. Julius and my wonderful nephew.  I think you will be taken care of.  Wren has his women and booze. Ami will only have Go'rk.  Please be kind to her. Other than you she is the one that has been through everything with me and never turned. Others come and go at their convenience. Emry please protect your heart and keep your friends close.

 

The LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT

of  Emie Meadows
 
 

I do  not have much of value but a house with very little in it.  Everything
 shall go  to my sister Emry Abella Meadows including the true
 I have in the bank except  the following....
 
 

Several of the chest in the house are filled with Rodlin's items. He should be allowed to take his things.
 
 

In  the chest at the foot of my bed there is a oak compound bow.  
It is to go to  Wren Thendor.
Also in that chest is a yew long bow for Joshua.  Emry is to keep it until she thinks he is ready for it.
 
 

Then  there is Ami.. I really have nothing to give her that she
doesn't already have.   But if there is anything in the house she
would like please allow her to have  it.  I do have a note tucked
 away in a chest to be given to her once I'm  gone. Oh .. yes, give
 her the food I have prepared in the kitchen.  If she has not
already stole it all.
 
 

Other than that I just wish to just be buried deep in the forest. I want no type of announcements or ceremony.

~Emie Meadows~

[Lynn1020]

[Lynn1020]

Hello Grandmother,

 I hope this finds you well.  Everyone here is doing fine. Emry has finally started to come out of the house again.  Joshua is growing amazingly fast.  I am roaming about as always.  

 Well Ami has returned from her time on Voltrex. It was actually calming to be around her and our friends like Wren, Drexia and G'ork.  Not that I would ever let her know that.  

 Wren and I have been tracking and checking in on the new clan of Giants that have moved in the Great Forest.  Seems the druids are not worried about them due to they are not harming the forest or life there.  Personally I think the forest should be rid of them before they grow to strong for us to be able to deal with.  They say there is a different clan that has kidnapped people that come from the city, even children..  So why not just kill all the giants? What good are they to us anyways??  

 I am continuing with cleaning the house in Half Lake.  I have gotten to the point where I hate going there. I will soon be able to put it up for sale.  That will leave me without a house but I will toss what little I have left in to Ami's house.  She has so much junk she will not even notice.  I would love to find a tree that I could build a small one room home in. Just somewhere I can get away to and out of bad weather.  I did most of the work for Abiorn's home.. I think I should be able to handle a small room up in a tree... now to just find where.  

 A few days ago I stopped by Abiorn's to check on his supply of food and there were so many different tracks leading in and out of his house.  I have warned him time and time again about allowing so many to come and go. So either he is to trusting or he just does not care.  I am unsure to what his wife feels about it. I have only met the lady once.  But I have tried to help with the upkeep of his house and making sure his kitchen is stocked.  But I just can not comfortable with so many that are free to come and go as they please.  It is his home and not my place to tell him what to do with it.  So I left the few items I still had of his and dropped my key to the house off as well. It surprised me the mixed feelings I had leaving the house. Anger, relief and even sadness. Just so many things have changed over the last few years and it is for the best. I had almost let myself get too close....

 I need to wrap this up and head out to meet G'ork and Ami in Hurm.  Something about a meeting about work.

 Take care of yourself Grandmother.  You know.. you could change your mind and come and live in my house.  It would be yours and very close to Emry.  Just something for you to think about.

 Love you  
 ~Emie