To William Leox .Greetings William, and i thank you for your kind words and the wishes for my family, they are in good health and me and my wife are back in Hilm to keep working on the rebuild and the planning for the war with the east and as i told that day the situation with the dragons that has touched some of our area, I want to ask you to inform us inmediatly of any Mistite movements you see or hea r. Send the letter to the Blackford Castle. *he passes to a contact* please pass this information to your brothers and sisters.Now you put diferent situations on your letter indeed, and it hits too close to home the life out there is diferent to what you are used to be, and I saw that thinking when you were with us, you may or may not put Miss Daniella and me as some of the ones who judge you and label you, in all the time our intent was as an advice and teaching and not as to judge, I do hope that it was taken as that. The first situation that you brought the "undead are easier" your points are true indeed. But you should see from who this words are comming. Miss Jillian and Hector call dwells into figthing those dark abomination, its their call and they had felt it since they were born probably, they are both part of the shinning hand and the training they recieve may make them "think" its easier, its to be understandable that an order that teaches you how to fight something might have a bit more ideas or knowledge on how to actually fight those creatures efficiently. And yet no fight is easier than other, Both parts has their difficulities, the day someone considers that fighting kobolds and goblins is "easier" would mean they no longer have respect for the deaths or the sacred life that is instilled in everyone, And the moral dilema of taking a life is indeed non applicable when dealing with undead, yet as you point out there are darker secrets that the necromantic forces hold, They are able to think what they do, its the way they see the world, and the same as we should not judge them they should not judge you or our methods up to a point . Empathy comes to my mind at this moment. You are a smart man William i am sure you are able to see this that i am mentioning on this letter. As you mention the burden of taking a life its not easy to carry, which speaks of your true heart, yet at times its needed William, Its always easier to say than to actually do it, The first life i took in my way to be the man who i am now, I still remember it and have dreams with it at nights, I do remember and dream with most of the soldiers i saw dying on the war, I hear them telling me how i falied to them, and yet I find confort on the feeling on my heart, I find confort on praying to HIM, and knowing that i did what i should have done, That at times this burden is to be taken since otherwise more inocents will suffer, And you are taking the burden for the sake of a better world. I am just speaking of my own experiences here, and i would be a fool to think that this thoughts apply to everyone, yet i am sharing them to you in hopes that it helps you to understand. It may fail on the intent.Its not easy to take the road you and your brothers have taken, Its not easy to fight the corruption and the evil of the world, and to not cross the line to make them evil by the might of the blade, Its not an easy task and each call has its own hardships. How many people you have met that shares the will to do what is right? that shares the will to defend people from the corruption, I am sure that the answer is few. Cause if what we do were easy, everyone could be able to do it. And its not, it requieres a strong heart and the will to do what is right. Feelings its also not an easy subject, I saw that you weren't angry at him and that you felt pity for him indeed, Looking someone going to those awful acts is always sad to watch, I am proud of you for how you reacted that day, we are to act by example and if we take justice on our hands then we'll be showing that its something "good" to do, And we should not do that whenever we are able, there will be times when you'll have to act, but as you should know now, violence is always the last resort act, yet we must be ready to act always. I can speak of my experience here too, for very diferent reasons than yours i was once close to close my heart to feelings, I didn't want to feel anymore, And just to do Toran's will by the sake of it, But in the long run i found myself unable to do this, Toran is a source of inspiration, the ideal knight if wnat to see it that way and feelings are important, If one tries to ignore the bad ones we'll be missing the good ones too, and a knight can't do goodness without this feelings, If we miss the point we'll become as cold as the law that the Rofirenites defend, you heard the story of Navarre by now , if you haven't I will share it with you next time we met. If a knight forfeits the feelings how can he see whom he is helping, how can he feel the joy on a girl face when a good deed has been done, They should feed us and they teaches us. Anger is allowed William up to extent, you are mortal and Toran has indeed feelings towards the world, he cares for it, and he is forgiving and noble, and save his wrath to those who actually works against his plan for the world, its his example we are bound to follow and yet it would be too pressuntous to think we'll ever be able to be like him. So my advice is enjoy the feelings and mourn if you have to, On our last conversation I told you about that if you remember. I am willing to expand on this subjects. Milady Daniella as well, this war took a lot from her, her companion and my best friend my brother in arms fell his last fall beside us. Its a pain that still lingers on my heart, and way deep in hers too, I am not able to help her with that, cause its dificult to say "I am sorry for the loss of your family" when I did just recovered mine. I do appologize if this sounds rude or insesible to you as well, yet she knows the pain and the sorrow as well and she keeps going, she doesn't close to her feelings and she may be able to explain the wrath a bit more. I've always been on the side of Redeemption will, and believe it or not, she and I had a lot of diferences during the years we have worked together, We had awful discussions about things and I still consider her my sister all this diferences has brought a close friendship and brotherhood. That is what feelings bring.Walk in the ligth, William, Sweet waters and easy laughter till we met again .Sir Lance Stargazer.