im back online and back home i had a major breakdown and had to go away to a hospital , no shame here admiting such and those closest to me here on layo knew of my where abouts and what was going on. I mention this because theres a stigma against getting help in real life for many people , and it can happen to anyone even someone close to you , not nessicarily yourself. Please if you or someone you love dearly is slideing that way get help or or kindly mention to the one you love that things may not be right with them and perhaps its time to seek help. Loss of apatite , no longer enjoying the things you once have loved , mood swings , strange thoughts ect are warning signs its time to get help , and there is no shame in getting help. Myself i found myself more and more trying to escape online and when that failed after time , i did something realy stupid that led to me going away , but had i the strength of charector to say "" ok somethings wrong im going to look into this " , instead of what i did which is denial , things would have worked out for the best.
I say this because it can happen to anyone and there is a stigma to it in society. Dont let what happened to me happen to you or a loved one and i say this because i care and its sort of relevent to any game because many of us use online games to escape in ways that dont realy address the problems were trying to deal with. In the end putting things off or being in denial can lead one to road best not traveled to begin with.
ps im not a nut or basket case , this kind of topic while taboo to many is important and like i said it can happen to anyone , ask me a year ago if i thought id travel this road , id have said no.
anyway thanks all of you who wished me well , and special thanks to jan and hellfire for there good wishs and emails. and im glad to be back.