The World of Layonara
Character Development => Development Journals and Discussion => Topic started by: Zhofe on November 16, 2004, 03:50:00 PM
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An old tattered journal, worn from years in a pack with much other equipment. Most of the pages are illegible from the wear, and the blurring of the ink, but a few pages are readable.
Things seem so different now. When I first came here, I was much more lighthearted. Things were so much easier then. But now ....
Lyssa still refuses to tell me anything about Father, and Mother ... But that is to be expected. I think she may be in some sort of trouble, I haven't seen her around recently. I hope she is alright ...
I have been told by many that I should become a paladin of Toran ... I never thought I was truely worthy of such a position ... I still don't really. And what of my friends who follow Lucinda? How would they take such an action? What about my sister, who is a bit less of a model citizen. Could I turn her in if Toran asked that of me? I really don't know ...
I ... I have started drinking ... more often than I used to ... I think it is begining to show. I am more careless, easier to anger, and a bit less friendly than I was. I have also spent some nights alone in an Inn room trying to sleep off the effects of intoxication ... to no avail. It seems the closer I get to buying my house, the more I end up drinking away ... it is as if I don't want to make a new place my home ... I already lost one ...
Through all of this the dream of the dragon still disturbs me. It seems that no matter how many deeds I do, I am no closer to defeating, or even meeting in battle, this Blood fellow. I don't even know what it is I am supposed to be doing.
I just feel a bit lost I suppose ...
Maybe I can find myself ...
-Quin