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Title: Journal of a drow (Zanirth's)
Post by: Niles09 on August 19, 2005, 11:47:00 AM

The journal of Zanirth Nûr Drichtsarr, drowish servant of the woods.

A lot of things have been happening since I left Sielwood. The mind of the drow have a hard time remembering feelings, and its hard to keep track of things, so I will write this down.
Not much have happened lately. I've had a few days in Sielwood, so I can concentrate my thoughts, and practice my skills as a being of the forest. Im still far from reaching the point where Im one with the nature, where I cant be regonized from a leaf, where Im invisible.
I was in Hlint the other day though, just too take a look around and keep track of newcomers. A strange thing happened. As I sat on a bench, relaxing, a elf came by. Her clothes were quite strange, they was made of bright, flashy colours, (if I did wear that every goblin in the high wood would have spotted me, if I sneaked by) not the look of an adventurer, but she had a sword on her back. Most strangly was when she turned to me and said, "hello!" I would rather have exspected her to say something like "drow scum." But she just kept smiling like life was a fairy tale, and it isnt. I asked her what she wanted, she just wanted to take a closer look a a drow and thought I was interesting. Well had a little talk, after some confusion I found out she was a "bard," (better write this down so I wont forget" she made songs and luips! Or it was lyrics, dont know, dont remember hearing such a word before. Then a dark thought crossed my mind, my mother used to wear coloured clothers and wislze melodic words, when she.. *text ends in ink* ...bard talked about inspirieng people, and I thought at Ayla, her singing used to hae this strange lifting effect in combat, could this bard be as the same great sord as Ayla? Then I figured her out, and asked if her songs was about knights in shinning armor and great deeds, and she got excited and answered "yes, yes!" So I told her she couldnt excpect much of me, since I wasnt the type who" bashes down the door, kills the evil minions, and challange the bad guy, no I sneak throught the back door and stabs the evil one in the back." But that couldnt end her smile, I wonder if she have a secret competition with the (damned) sun, about who can be most flashy... Anyway Dorena came by too, its pretty strange we have talked alot but never fought together, and I feel like I really know her, mayby its because we both are of the forest. In the end the three of us departed ways.

Title: RE: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on September 02, 2005, 05:36:00 AM

I went back to Hlint again the other day, and a happy meeting it was. First i met Ayla, I hadnt seen her for quite some time, so its was indeed good to see the woman who had saved my life again and again. We discussed a few things, then we departed since she couldnt risk to get in truble, since she soon should be acting at a performance. After that I met Unthuz and Mith, again some nice people I hadnt seen for a while, then Spugle came by. It was great to see the old "me smash good" half-giant again, I cant count the battles we have fought side by side. He was going to Lelion for the new inn, so I helped him finding the way, and he helped me staying alive!
Anyway the inn was closed, so we went on for the performance at Blackcastle, where i also met many old known people. Ayla made a great poem, but then i had to depart.
Truly I had some happy moments that night, before I thought that it was only the creatures of the forest I could trust, but people like Ayla and Spugle is the good side of the surfacers.

Title: RE: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on September 16, 2005, 05:47:00 AM

I had a rather unpleasant meeting the other day. I was walking around Hlint doing nothing, when a drow talked to me. I hadn't seen him before, and he also looked a bit as I did some months ago. Anyway had I been like I was some months ago, I would fastly have asked him, if he was here for good or evil, but since the inly surface drows I've met so far have been good and nice, I supposed he was as well. It was when he began to speak about showing the rats in the sewers the wrath of the drow, I became worried. Wrath of the drow? I would maybe have said wrath of Zanirth or wrath of the rebels, but I would never refer to the bloodlust of the drows in the underdark.
   Still I went on talking normal to him, then Ayla passed by, and I said "hello" to her. The drow thought that was weird. I said she was a friend, and then he said it was strange I had a friend among the "lesser" races. Then I got really worried, and put a hand to the sword. I said thinking lesser of other races would be and evil act. But the way he seemed so offende, I thought that I had misunderstanded something, but then as he began speaking of our proud heritage, and the mighty drow I realized, that he didn't have much sense of evil and good, and that he wasnt a refugee either. It was very unpleasent, it's years since I had such a talk, so in anger I drawes my sword. But then I remembered the words I had said to him, that I would show the drows in the underdark the light. Show them that there is a better world than hate. So I thought that killing the first evil drow I met would be a bad start. I ended up saying something like: "I will leave you for now, but should I ever see you hurting and innocent, I will not hesitate in stopping you!"

Title: RE: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on September 30, 2005, 05:50:00 AM

What a fine day the other day...
Finally I found some people who would adventure, Zerpa and Teefal and some new people. I always enjoy traveling with this couple, and this was not an exception. Later back in Hlint we meet a hafling named Tiafal I think. I've never seen such a hyperactive guy! The two of us had a good talk with Kaizar. The hafling me and Kaizar departed later, since Kaizar was doing some other stuff, me and Taislin hooked up with Zerpa and Teefal again. There were also a paladin or something like that named Qin, I was surprise of her nice behaivor, I didn't expect a paladin to act like that for a drow. Anyway as Zerpa and Teefal discussed with Quin at Krandor, I learned the hafling better to know.  I spent most of the time convinsing him that worms wasn't good fodd though.
The all of us planned to go to the dragon isles, but fírst we needed money, I wasn't much for killing in such a simple reason, and it turned out that non of the satyrs didn't got any money anyway. But what a fight! I got a lot of combat experience, I think we all did, and not of us did fall! It didn't get worser of fighting among friends! Fine people they were.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 11, 2005, 03:58:00 AM

I wonder… What did I expect of the surface, of the human lands, before I escaped the underdark? I remember the few human stories I found among the books in my mothers library. Stories which only were in the library for fun, to remind us of the weak surfaces I suppose. Heh, I just remember that I thought the underdark was wrong, and liked the thinking in those books. It was stories about love, trust and helping each other. About dignity.
Bah! They made me a dream which doesn’t exist. The only place dignity exists is in the forest among the animals trees and other creatures of the wood.
The other day I finally found out what “drinking” meant. Kaizar and some others took me to Lelion after we had been through the crypts at grey peaks. They bought me a “drink.” How can they swallow it? It tasted like something from a gobo and clouded my mind. I never had such a horrible feeling, not able to fully control my own body, my senses clouded. Dignity, love? Kaizar was down the floor, crawling around. How can they do that? Some girl they called Rane was running from man to man, showing her (body) off. Reminds me of my mo... Of Singrathe and the orher priest they used to find a new “male” every night.
Hmmm maybe I’m too much in a rush, Zerpa and Teefal looks to be the only one for each other, but I think they too have relations to the wood.
Whatever the surfaces can be as disgustful as my own race, I’ll remember that.
I will.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 16, 2005, 10:33:00 AM

Paladins? What is their point? Do they actually think they make the world better? I met one the other day, I just passed by her as she said, “shouldn’t you be another place, darkling?” I asked her the same, shouldn’t she be at her holy pala-castle? And so it started, she kept saying I should see the light and bla bla bla, that I should prove myself, what? What had she proved? So far she had only mocked on me, is that a good deed? She said if she had the power to judge like her god, she would kill me! Heh heh she would have been welcome to try, still a greenie she was. I answered that if I should judge her, I would let her go, but if I were like her, I would cut out her throat!
I tried to explain my past, and what did she end up saying? Something like, once or followers of the evil gods, will never be good or something lik – HOW DARE SHE?!! I have NOT suffered a hundred years in a hundred of sacrifices to be called a follower of the thing, who got my blood? Who enjoyed my scre – damn her. That feeling I had, in a second I felt this strange way, a way I haven’t felt in a very very long time. My I felt my blood pumping through me, it was nearly as if the blasted signs on me got warm, all but the paladin went blur, I pulled out my sword, but then came to my senses. But in my thoughts I killed her a thousand of times.. It would have been easy truly, a little use of my racial ability to make darkness, and then an arrow in her ba – what am I thinking?! Damn her, I spit on her so called good god, they only make the world a darker place, but perfect for their own little self-centred universe. Morgain or something.. I’ll remember her.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 16, 2005, 03:06:00 PM

What a shock I got! I saw an orc in the craft house. The last orc I saw in Hlint was a spy from Highwood, but this one didn’t do anything so I went talking to him. It was Ael! He said something like it was a cover, even his thought were covered as orcish, so he could get past demons… He asked me if I would help him. Of course I listened, he is my friend, but I got a bit uncomfortable when he asked, if I was up for killing some drows. I tried to explain him my view of things now that I have seen more of the world, but someone he really cared about needed help. He asked if I would help him slaughter some dark clerics. Ahh I don’t like that word, so I ended up saying that I should think it through, so I returned here, to the forest.

Keeping my hands clean, by staying away from whatever slaughter Ael wants wouldn’t be right. I better be there, as a friend, it would be wrong to leave him alone.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 20, 2005, 03:53:00 PM

I've met both Ayla and Alantha, both transformed into orcs like Ael, slaugther or not, I'll help them, too many who have helped me need help. I also met Ael's fiancee Sahala.. She is really a kind person, drowish I think, its not often I see so light skin. She was respectful and seemed very interested in whatever we talked about, its annoy me I wasn't with the others helping Ael when all the orcs thing happened, hopefully I worn't miss the end.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 20, 2005, 04:11:00 PM

- somewhere in The High Moors
    Here I am sitting in tight in a little rock cleft in the mud, covered in a filthy pulp of blood, mud and death flies, hiding from some weak worgs and some lizardmen, Im nearly to damaged and exhausted to lift my sword. But I'm alive!
The start of it all: I suddenly found out the effort of my training in tailoring had born fruit! I began to experiment with worg leathers. But in one of my travels to the High Moor I got reckless and attacked one of the big lizardmen, deep in the moors, alone. As I, lying in the mud, thought my life was at end, I felt my very soul leaving my damaged body, and recovered again at Hlint! Blessed be the mighty forces of nature, once again my debt gets bigger! Though I was alive, I felt that much of my inner power still was at the High Moors, so I went back there. There was no problem in sneaking past the first Lizardman, even as my body was exhausted and weak. The first Worg saw me though, but I got past it using my inborn ability to make darkness. I could see the place I had fallen, when the two other worgs attacked, I couldn't defeat them so I went for my essence to get stronger. I felt just as I reached it. Slowly my life flowed out of me with the blood, but at the very egde of death I slowly began to get better. The worgs didn't notice, luckely they wasn't much for drow meat! I used my cover, as being death, to crawl to the rest of my soul and recover fully, though one of the worgs noticed me and attacked. By the help of my darkness power I trapped it and ran to this cliff Im sitting at right now. I was alive, but I had spret the worgs all over, and I'm close to faint! The cliff blocks my back, a worg the righter back and a lizardman my left. With the last worg in front of me, it's way too risky to sleep.. My only hope is if someone find me....

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 20, 2005, 04:19:00 PM

Hlint
I made it! In the end I realized that nobody was going to show up, so I made a last desperate try to escape. I sneaked the best I ever have done past two worgs and a lizardman. When I was out in the swamp I could find a little place to sleep and focus on creating a bind between my and the powers of nature. I woked up a big stronger but still low on health, all the mud had infested my wounds, but now I had the aid of nature. I returned to the worgs and with the help of one of the natures servants I killed them and took their skin. When I came to the egde of the moor I felt even strong enought to take out a few of the lesser lizardmen. I got my wounds cleaned and the pulp of blood (mostly mine), mud, flies and other thigs washed out in a little stream outside Hlint. The last day had been hard, but I felt a little proud of my escape, and it gave me a lot of experience about survival.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 23, 2005, 08:55:00 AM

- Karchy
I remember myself saying something like, "when I get strong enough I want to explore all the world, to see the wonders of nature!" So, two days ago a goblin named Grubber asked if I would come exploring together with a fat dwarf! So we took of from Hlint towards Port Hampshire, me, Grubber a dwarf named Victor, Ropthor (I think) and the fat dwarf. On the way we maked sure to see as much as posible. Then we sailed to Point Harbor. The next two days were wonderful. We just traveled all over Rilara. It was mostly the four of us though, since they dwarf suddenly just dissapered. It was so amazing, we save the great river Kem or something like that, the hills, the great forest and much more! My travel companions was indeed some good persons too. This isle is so much more interesting than Mistone. Just a lot of nearly untouched nature, not so many human settlements. That Grubber, who mostly led the way, got lost didn't make it any worse, then we just saw even more of the isle. I've never felt so alive!

Title: RE: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on October 24, 2005, 01:19:00 PM

- Sielwood, home
Hmm haven’t been doing much lately. Skinning and tailoring mostly, those worgs makes excellent training. I’ve met a few noticeable persons. Lan, a hunter indeed a very kind friend, though I wouldn’t like to be his enemy! And Caeli a Tiefling.
   Remember this Zanirth! Every time I kill an animal for skin, the extra power its gives me, in the form of a leather, need to strengthen me enough to make up for the loose, by protecting nature. Oooh what a mistake I made, I killed a few wolves and made a leather, just to find out it protected against animals! Who could ever use such thing for good?
   Anyway I explained miss paladin, in a way she even could figure out, how she had broken me! Heh “I wouldn’t wish that for my worst enemy” she said, before she figured out it was about me. And that’s the end of that.
   Then I met Caeli, tiefling but a most kind one. We was sord of on the same wavelength. I hope to meet her again.
    Kaizer finally seems to have grown up! Maybe, Im not sure if I trust him, but he says he no more would call woman for loveslaves and fight evil…
    I talked with Lan today. Mostly about our sights of nature and being a part of it. He asked for my story. I did tell him, it was hard… Brings forth those emotions, which my race is so feared for. Uh I can’t think more of that for now, maybe I someday can be able to ignore it… after a revenge.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on November 04, 2005, 01:42:00 PM

- Sielwood, home
Im improving! Or at least I've been underestimating my skills. I wen't with a group into the mines at Haven, at the bottom I got away from the others. All alone I sneaked past every ogre in the mine, to the surface.
I remember this now, several weeks later, since there was another occurrence like that. Me and Lan decided to go exploring, Storold and two others called Kloss and someone I cant remember went with us. We were about the same poitn in our training, but we could easily fight us through the broken forest and into the orcs. I even begun hunting ogres alone, they aren't good for the woods.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on November 10, 2005, 05:29:00 AM

A little piece of paper lies here:  http://www.layonaraonline.com/forums/photos/show-album.asp?albumid=311&photoid=4536

- Eastern woods of Rilara

What a surprise, I met Spugle the other day in Hlint, havent seen him for ages. Taislin was with him, heh a fine party we were. Spugly needed help in the Grey Peaks, so the tree of us went there. Sadly, after fighting the ogres outside Krandor I had lost the respect for their cursed spellcasters, so they completly took us in surprise. Luckely some other guys helped us. Things are slowing down here, I've stopped thinking too much on it all, though the time for helping Ael is coming near.
   I went to Rilara on my own, to seek new huntinggrounds, I know what the skins of Mistones animals do, so there is no point in killing more of them... My curiosity nearly killed me, there is so many exciting places here.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on November 11, 2005, 05:59:00 AM

- Fort Velensk
Here we go, the blood is upon us, or should I say the humans. Im not sure what I think of all this yet. Anyway, yesterday, or was it two days ago? Anyway I and Ilwe was going for some mountain he would show me, when the quite night was being disturbed by ringing bells across the land. I was in the middle of fighting undead so for a moment I thought it was one of their new tricks but soon I realized it wasnt. We went to Velensk since everyone went there. A lot of other adventures came, we were told that Blood's ships was on the way. To say it shortly we battled across land and sea, ending up at the dragon isles. A treant led us pass unto the woods. Now those adventures were fast to answer the "queen's" call for aid, they were ready to battle for good. In the moment a treant attacked, it coulndt really kill the one it attacked, but everyone attacked it... Year lets protect the citizens of Mistone, the humans, elves, gnomes, haflings, dwarves but who have ever cared about the woodlands?
It looked like the bloodsoldiers who had fleed into the woods was dead. A treant said we couldnt get any longer before the forest got a protecter............? anyway we went home again, since the enemy was repelled.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on November 18, 2005, 05:32:00 AM

-Hurm
Thinks are getting serious now, the assault at Velensk wasnt the real attack. The real attack came now. Im not sure but I think it was Mistone, Dragon isles, Dregar, Rilara and Roldem which was attacked. Some shadow called the shifter warned us about it. He said a lot in a strange language, by one translated it. If we are to defeat Blood the woodlands and the "civilized" must join forces, he said. Hah! Ive seen what they do and think about the forests, we are already doomed. We went to the queen to warn her, and call for aid against Bloods ships. Instead she wanted us to convince the different kingdom navies to retreat. Yup thats the way we win the war. Its not like I wanted to let the civilians be slaugthered by bloods forces, so I and lots of other people went to warn them all. Spugle was there, nice to have a friendly face among so many strangers.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on January 06, 2006, 05:14:00 AM

*The following year (from the last post) Zanirth travels through the woodlands of Mistone, to focus her thoughts, after she have lived among the "civilated" people for about 7 years. Most of the journal is filled with desciptions of the wonderful places she sees, then, refocused and after consuming the many different kinds of people she have met the last 7 years, she goes back to Hlint, relived and respirited*

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on January 06, 2006, 05:26:00 AM

- Sielwood

The last weeks have been so filled that I havent got time to scribe anythig in this journal. Its wonderful to be back, Ive met many friends I havent seen for years, Spugle, Taislin, Lan, Ael, Alantha, Max and many many more! Ive also met some new people, E'manë, Ilisme and Kavil I remember best since they're the last I adventured with. It have surely helped to be bacak in nature for a longer while, I dont border when people shouts at me because of my skin anymore.

The most important things that have happened was a mission to recover an axe from some dwarves, me and a lot of others went on sea, but in s storm we wrecked upon an unknown coast. It was very cold, another way of nature I guess, bvut we made it to a harbor, and quickly came to the dwarven fortress. I and Alantha was throwen out though, stubborn dwarves they dont care to change for the better. Later when we returned to hilnt with the axe, the wagon master either cared much for drows, even though we helped him. That made me a bit angry, but i kept it inside.

I also sold my first leather armor, a worg to Wolf! And I succeded in making a bear leather, it is excellent, though it costed nature. I will do my best to repay it.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on January 10, 2006, 11:19:00 AM

- Rilara – Wolfswood

I’ve travelled a lot with Eàmanë and Ilisme lately, and things are going good. Its weeks since I last was close to death, and its not like I haven’t been busy adventuring. My skills are improving, and the year away improved my tactics and ability to see when a battle is lost.

I didn’t have any problems realising that Glokk couldn’t revenge his dad. Some others and I went with him to guard some glasstransport, though it soon changed completely as we met his bad wounded dad, the giant chief og some tribe on Rilara. Another giant, Gorg Rorg, I never got the name right, has taken the post and was allied to Milara and was in the attack on Stone. Glokk’s father was very powerful, though he couldn’t defeat Rorg, as Glokk now planned. I tried to explain that it was madness, but he and his father could only think of battle, so the others and I went with him. We were completely wiped out by the first giants we met. Luckily I made it out alive together with Ireth. After catching my breath I sneaked back. We could get a healer to the place, but two giants were guarding it. I got the idea that I could play a sending from Milara, cause I’m a drow, and so I tried, though they were pretty big, and I didn’t thought that I got much of a chance, so I kept hiding. So things turned rather surprising out, one of the giants left and the other thought I was a voice in its head. So I tricked it, into believing that I was a spirit that had come to warn its tribe, Milara would betray them. So the giant actually went to tell Rorg! Not that I think that Rorg will believe it, but now we could get the healer to heal everyone! I really learned something that night.

Title: The broken harmony
Post by: Niles09 on January 14, 2006, 09:57:00 AM

- On a ship to Dregar

Eamane is gone. Isilme was crushed, I think she loved her. Apparently Eamane went to find her parents… In the underdark. One day I will return too, but first when I got the power, Eamane is not strong enough for it. May she find a quick death… I know what sord of sadistic creatures that live down there.
I'll miss they days with her, Isilme and Menidar.

Title: RE: The broken harmony
Post by: Niles09 on January 14, 2006, 10:38:00 AM

- Lellion

So I made an expedition to Dregar. I, Menidar, a hafling named Thorn, Ash andd Storold went. The first few battles outside Hurm were very hard, but I learned a lot, and we got deeper into the land.
   I don’t know whether I shall cry or be in joy. The place we entered had been a wood, but hill after hill were only covered with stubs. I went in fury. It was ogres that had done it, and so we killed them, none of them should survive! First we killed their footsoldiers. Then this guy named Brualot came by. He was a follower of Katia and said the nature suffered in many other places. So now Ive finally found an exact goal, a way to repay nature for saving me from a destiny worse death. I must stop the this madness, even though I’m far from power. We killed a lot other ogres, some of the really strong ones. I hate this race now… This hate, last I felt it was when I talked with the paladin, should I calm down? No! I don’t care, they destroyed nature and so they will pay, no matter what it will cost me

Title: Peace
Post by: Niles09 on January 20, 2006, 08:17:28 AM

- Sielwood

So much have happened lately. Suddenly Ive just been to the Haven mines several times in a row, in the company of Vestlyn usually and some others. Ive met Vestlyn some weeks ago in Hlint, but this was the first time we adventured together and in a few days, Ive really began to know him, as Isilme and Eamane. He is a cleric of Ilsara, actually we went to the great libraray together to learn more about those dieties.
Oh yes Eamane! She is alive, not in the underdark, Isilme got a letter from her. Actually someone faced the soulmother so Ayla is alive again! It is such a nice thing to be able to talk with her again.

Title: Peace
Post by: Niles09 on February 02, 2006, 01:52:12 PM

- Sielwood

What a fool I was! I walked from the path I should follow, I threatened the woodlands and its creatures as second, because of a human. A human that feels nothing! argh! how stupid Ive been! I know my path now, I am a servant of the woods and nothing comes before that.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on February 02, 2006, 01:57:04 PM

- Sielwood

So a lot have happened. Im getting familiar with Dregar now, Eamane, Isilme, Storold or Taislin makes excellent company. I keep my weapons clean and sharp, Ive gotten fire on my sword and Isilme has made me an excellent shield, not to mentoin the ring Eamane gave me. My tactics are going better, and my ability to see the outcome at first. Business is going excellent too.

I havent seen Spugle for ages now.. I hope he is ok, whereever he is, he will always be in my mind.

Title: Journal of a drow
Post by: Niles09 on February 14, 2006, 01:46:21 AM

- Karthy

So alot have happened lately. First of all my training! After being on Dregar several days with Eamane and Isilme I began to be really good at hitting those soft spots, not to mentien rolling around... Heh heh Eamane just thought it looked funny, but it was useful, if I hadnt rolled between it legs that giants axe would surely had hit me. Im also finally fit enough to use my panther leather.
I've met alot of people before that. Moste noticed was some Jin Jun Lee and Mille. Jin was appereantly a very serious healer. First he ask me if Im evil, and I answer ofcourse I am, though he didnt see teh funny in that. Later he said sorry and would shake hands? Mille is a brownie, she is very small. I helped her getting some goblin ears, ofcourse, she is a creature of the woodlands and so I should help her, not that I wouldnt have helped her if she wasnt.

Title: Secret operatives
Post by: Niles09 on February 15, 2006, 04:14:24 PM

- Sielwood

On Dregar I stubled into Ael, who told me he was going to some signup for a infiltration unit against blood. I asked him wehter it was under the queen, he didnt know but it was under the authoritiess. There would be yet another meeting some weeks later, so I decided to wait until that to think about things. I will not fight for the queen or king or whomever. They put the nature under the pitty plays of lords and barons, and their laws make everything into money. On the other hand, Ive seen what bloods generals have done to the forest on Dregar, and I must stop it no matter the costs.
So, some weeks later, I told the sarge that was going to lead the secret operative that the woodlands comes first to me, but so long we didnt cross it, I will stay loyal to the operative. Isilme and Eamane was there too, but some stupid elf racist called Yard scared them away... Im not looking forward to working together with him. Kobal, on the other hand, was unusually wellbehaving. He said sorry that he had knocked me down in the woods, and leaved me unconcious, as we later was splitted into two teams playing wargames, he spoked well of my ability to sneak and my keen sight, that spotted both Kloss and Ferrit as they sneaked into our camp.

Title: The cursed forces
Post by: Niles09 on February 18, 2006, 03:16:08 AM

- Sielwood

Isilme showed me the house she and Eamane had bought. She said it was a nice location, so I said yes, because of the sea just outside the house. It was no that, instead it was because Eamane liked to be near the Krandor crypts.... That was surely disturbing, but it got worse. In the house Eamane got her own room to magic, and in a corner there were a big pile of skulls! Isilme didnt worry she would love Eamane no matter what. Then Eamane came home. I couldnt really talk to her in a normal tone anymore, and she obviously noticed that. Her and Isilme went to talk private, while I grow to feel worse and worse waiting in her training room. When they had finished talking I decided to leave, I need some fresh air.

   I couldnt act normal when I later met Eamane in Hlint, and she knew that. So she told me about why she had decided to walk the way of a palemaster and wield the cursed forces, a dicgrace to life and nature. Her past was a innocent living among elven parents, not her real parents ofcourse. She was at some point captured, and tortured for thirty years. In these years and old fellow prisoner learned her the ways of magic, but he was a palemaster. He later freed her, and since then she have wanted to meet him again. And as she says, she wants to follow his link to find him. Oh dear she promised me that she wont become evil, but goodness, what promise is that. Evil is something that slowly creeps unto you. She said Isilme would guide her, and what a guide! Isilme told me herself that if Eamane turned into a demon she would still love her. She then said her true friends would help her, havent I tried so far?! Have many times havent I said killing isnt fun, and right at that spot I tried to convince her not to be a palemaster. She just said she need to use her gifts.
    But that is not how things works. Im a daughter of a very powerful cleric, but nature, I would never ever walk such a way, even if I should have talent. Though I cant say all this doesnt make me wonder about myself...

Title: Mille
Post by: Niles09 on February 18, 2006, 09:07:49 AM

- Haven
I met Mille again, the little brownie. She was very exited about a map she had made, showing the apple trees on Dregar. She told me she had tryid to map fort blood, but a demon saw her. To hide her better I gave her my panther cloak, she will bring it to better us than I. It could be interesting to map fort Blood, maybe the sarge would be happy for such a map, unless he already got enough.
   Mille asked a lot about the ways of shadows, walking in the shadows she said, refering to the legendary shadowdancers. Im nearly there, The ability to tumble and roll around is the final step I took, with a bit more practice, my enemies wont even be able to spot me when I hide right in front of them.
   Hmm what Eamane said makes me wonder. It doesnt matter wether you kill the beast head to head, or by stealth, it will die anyway that at least was my opinion. Is Eamane's way just another way of reaching a goal? But her way requires the death of someone, since she uses bones, Ive seen that myself. I dont hurt anyone else than those that I train to protect myself from, by my way. And shadows, they dont have a mind, Im just using a good ability that doesnt hurt anyone...
   Which again makes me wonder, where do I have it from? My mother was far from being a sneaker, and just because my skin is dark like the shadows, doesnt give me that groundbraking advantage. Could my father possible be like me? I mean, my mother was utterly evil, so I must also have gotten my, at least better mind, from somewhere else.... Zanirth! dont be romantic! *The last ends in a spot of ink*

Title: My power
Post by: Niles09 on February 19, 2006, 07:19:21 AM

- Sielwood
For everyday I get stronger with the sword, my power of stealth grows. Today I used them completly. Garnet had told me to kill the lizardking. Since that I had assembled several groups to go and get him. We always ended up retreating with several casulties, not even with Isilme and Eamane could we fight us through the moors into the lizardking. Today I decided to go alone. I simply sneaked past everyone of the kings guards, and found him. Noone saw me. Next step: I found a good spot and placed several traps there, I dont think any of them could kill them, but he would surely be wounded. After that I summoned one of the creatures of the woodlands. By carefully picking the right time, I provoked, with my bow, the lizardking to come and get me. My summon distracted him, so I could get some hits in on some very soft spots. It was a bit dissapointing. He feld even before my summon died, and so I never got to trick him into the traps. But oh well, then Ill use my traps another time!
It was a glorious moment. Garent told me to kill the lizardking, and so I did, but only him, no enomios slaughter of his guards (when I succeded ofcourse), just my target. Call it a assassination, but I dont see what is wrong with it. It was a perfect use of my skills, and only one got killed.

Title: Trapped among the deaths
Post by: Niles09 on February 20, 2006, 07:36:55 AM

- Storans Crypt

After the succesful assisanation of the lizardking I went for Storans crypt, just to have a quick look. Strangely all the doors where opened, and the place was deserted of undead. I found the key to the last chamber and went to lock it up. Unfortunatly it didnt disarm the trap on the door, and like in the moors, my body was restored back in Hlint. Eamane came by, and asked to help. She turned me invisibly and we went back to the crypt, just to realize, that where there where no door before, one had appeared. I have been here before many years ago, and remembered some keys we needed. Eamanes familiar fixed the lock to the other room and I got in. The key, however, was hold by a skeleton, surrouned by a half army of undead. I went back to the door, but it was locked! I desperatly shouted for Eamane, but she couldnt open it. I went to the farest cornor in the room, and soon the invisibility went out. Soon I heard Eamane open the door, and I sneaked for it. The trap however, had weakened my body, and I was not yet fully restored, so the undead saw me. In the confusion that followed I got away, back into the room. But I was trapped now.
I stayed hidden in the corner for was must have been days for now. Earlier today, I noticed the undead had left, only a few weak was back. I even got restored, as I rested, when they where in another cornor of the room. Then I cleared it of undead. I took the key from the burning skeleton, but it didnt fit the door. Desperatly Ive tried to bash the door down, but I cant.. Im trapped here, and my water is running out!

Title: Alive once again
Post by: Niles09 on February 21, 2006, 08:38:28 AM

- out in the sun

After being trapped in Storans for over a week, I had almost lost any hope of getting out alive. But then as I just had fought a group of shades, the door clicked. I didnt thought my own ears, but I just needed to check. The door was unlocked! I standed a moment wondering who had opened it... Then I ran so fast as I could to the exit. As I got out of the crypt, I kissed the ground and cried ot the skies.

Ive almost forget, how its like to be trapped in darkness.. Never shall I forget how lucky  I am, being able to see the blessed moon, the smell of life in the forest, the living plants the world breathing! Even the sun is a blessing.

Though these days again made me wonder about Eamane. From my hide Ive seen the shades of men, Ive seen the most ubholy and evil twist of a life, and it deeply disgust me! How can Eamane be facinated by this!

I went away as fast as possible, I didnt want to stay in Hlint, but instead I sailed to the great forests on Rilara to find some peace.

Title: what is happening?!
Post by: Niles09 on February 25, 2006, 04:01:49 AM

- Sielwood

When has Isilme stopped caring?? Things are going mad now, if Eamane is allright then the world is alright, thats how she acts, she dont care anymore, nomatter what way Eamane takes Isilme things its right. I told her Eamane had said, that so long she had friends to keep her on the right track she would be ok as a palamaster, but Isilme dont care! I said to Isilme that then maybe I should start following my veins and become a priestess of Vierdiira, and thenshe laughed and said "if you must". That is not fun, if I ever should follow that way, hopefully someone would kill me. Isilme doesnt care about right or wrong anymore, do she think its right if you follow your own selfish goals? Goodness.

Title: what is happening?!
Post by: Niles09 on February 26, 2006, 02:50:54 AM

- Sielwood

I finally set down at talked with Eamane, I tried to give her my view of things. I said that the difference between good and evil was in acting, evil was selfish acting, and good was thinking of others. I said that both kinds could have the same goal, but the way to get there where different. The evil was faster, though it would be at teh cost of others, while the good was longer, but in the long run ti would be better. Then I said that sometimes Eamane and Isilme act like selfish little girls, cause they only talk about following your nature... I said that, that was what goodness is about, placing bounds on yourself for the sake of others. Eamane said I didnt have to worry but goodness, then she said Isilme will be ok so long Chanda guides her to Corath. So I asked who Corath was.... Bloody the god of descrution! I nearly shouted at Eamane saying that she didnt have heard anything that Ive said, but she said Isilme woulndt turn evil! Are they blind! Do they think they only can serve a god of evil, by only killing evil things in passion?! What will they do the day Corath tells them to wipe a village?! I asked Eamane the same question as I asked Isilme, should I then follow my veins, and become a priestess of Vierdiira, should I sacrifice my won children, cause that is what followers of Vierdiira and Corath does: incredibly evil things to make missery and hatred. Eamane said... bloody if it wasnt because I had led bound on myself I might have attacked her.. I dont know what to do, its beginning to be too late.
I went to the great library, and that only maked things worse as I discovered exactly what Corath expects of his followers.
Im beginning to loose trust in Isilme, I cant swing a sword side by side with such a person.

Title: Cursed
Post by: Niles09 on February 27, 2006, 12:04:58 PM

- Sielwood
 
A group of adventures assembled and I was with them. We needed to destroy some powerful orb. Ozy explained that it could be done by overloading it. E would do that by cathcing a demon in it, and so far I remember some lich would also die in the process. We went to some caves in grey peaks. It was cursed and dark. We fought alot of undead, nature Ive come to hate them now. First after we had went deep into the mountain I realized I had gotten ill or cursed. We went on though and catched the demon. We will soon throw the orb into a vulkan and destroy it, when Ozy have located a good position.
This curse is bad. Makes me dizzy and all the coughting is disturbing. I hope we soon can get it finished.

Title: That old familiar feeling
Post by: Niles09 on February 28, 2006, 08:17:32 AM

 *While the other pages are written in beautiful and elegant writing, the following part is written in a shattered writing with many spots of ink*

 - Sielwood

The forest is still beautiful, the leaves are still falling down in many colours, and the sharp sun makes it a symphony of fire, yet there wont go long before the trees stand naked and the forests are quite like a grave... It wasn’t supposed to turn out like this.

I can feel it deep inside me, not the curse, no its that old familiar feeling. There have gone many years since the few cases in which I had it for maybe a day, but now it wont go. I don’t know who I hate anymore, maybe that’s why it keeps being there.

In the underdark I never got used to the sacrifices, even though my mother did it to me as far as I can remember. Every time that one or two or tree or many times in a month the guards came I screamed and cried. I hated them all, my mother, the guards, the sadistic priestesses, my people and Vierdi'ira. I never cried for mercy, cause I didnt know such a thing existed.

When I got away after a hundred years I fast learned to love goodness and kindness. I found out that mercy was an incredible strong thing, even though many have died for my bow or sword, I’ve always felt remorse, except when I killed the ogres in Iron Hills. I've learned how precious, how unique life is. Only a very few times since the underdark have I felt the hate.

Now it is here, I sense it inside me, waiting.

I talked with Sabrissa, she was very worried too. I’m happy Im not alone to feel that. She nearly couldn’t believe they have joined Corath *big ink spot*. We couldn’t do anything. I said that at least I wouldn’t follow them into the darkness, yet I feel like they are dragging me down into the hole.

*this spot bears traces from tears* I told about Chanda, Sabrissa had heard it before. She thought that it was she that killed Vestlyn...



I didn’t know he was dead. Even though he was after others as well we had something. I will find out if Chanda did it, and if she did I have yet another name to add to my list, yet another life to take. Goodness I hate that woman.

I gave Isilme some papers about Corath, a last hope that she would see the madness but she didnt. Eamane didn’t care either.

I dont know who it is, Chanda, Eamane, Isilme, Corath, Singrathe or Vierdi'ira, but I feel the hate burning.

Title: A light in the dark
Post by: Niles09 on March 01, 2006, 06:59:49 AM

 - Sielwood

Im growing worse, it was quite a shock I got starring into the pond this morning... The feeling inside is still there.
Yet I see hope, its not too late to stop this madness that have fallen over Eamane and Isilme. I've gotten a plan, it will be risky and I dont know where I might end myself, I must be strong. I will do this for them.

I prayed to the forces of goodness this night, that they will aid me in my journey into the dark.

Title: Finally failed
Post by: Niles09 on March 03, 2006, 08:53:49 AM

- Sielwood

All that work, all that risk and I am where I started. I sent a letter to Ozy, not even mentoining that some of my friends joined Corath, but he figured it out and talked with Eamane before I could talk with him.
Eamane told me this, and said she would join Corath, even though Ozy had mentoined other ways. So much for the great plan and the prayers. Eamane still dont belive that Corath would slaughter innocents if he got the chance, and it tires me. Ive givin up explained more about good and evil and how sick Corath is, fine may that be her way, but not mine. Should she ever kill an innocent our ways will depart, and thats finale.
And what?! The hate is still there, everything is just great! *The last bears marks of the book being shut to fast for the ink to be dry*

Title: Going down
Post by: Niles09 on March 03, 2006, 05:13:06 PM

- Krandor

If I cared I would cry.

First I got mad add someone that have killed a panther, without knowing completly why... Then I talked with Brenden about my anger, I still fought at that time, but then Isilme and Eamane came by. They had marked their bodies with marks. I said I would give a world to get my own off... Isilme said it was none of my business, and Eamane asked why I cared? I asked if I should care, should she get swallowed by a demon. A few weeks ago, I would have argued on, trying to say that friends care for eachother, that is what makes them friends. But why do I care? Why should I care about anything. Isilme went off for a moment, saying to Eamane that if I maked trouble she should call... So much for being friends.
A short moment I remembered times ago when we wandered across Dregar, being a team, being friends. It is all lost, Im lost and I dont care.

Title: Enough!
Post by: Niles09 on March 06, 2006, 06:25:04 AM

- Somewhere on Dregar

First I got really angered by my last meeting with Isilme and Eamane. How dared they! Ive cared for them as a friend, bringing myself to the egde, going on even though some most unfunate feelings was winning ground inside me. Bloody I'm beginning to get enough of them.
   Eamane then come by and said sorry. I dont know with her. Sometimes I still see what made us friends in the past, sometimes I dont. Isilme.. I dont know she acting range from a nod to hostile. Im beginning to get enough of this, why should I even care about them anymore? They arent the same as I once befriended.
   I really miss Spugle and Taislin. Its a very long time Ive seen any of them. I really hope they are ok.
   Im returning to the woods for now. Ive gotten enough of so called "intelligent beings"

Title: A most painful bow
Post by: Niles09 on March 09, 2006, 12:44:55 PM

- Sielwood

I was getting tired of things.. The last months have been nothing but talking and shouting. I havent really seen how Isilme or Eamane act yet. So I decided to change way. I would know how things are when Ive done what we did back, I would go on adventure with them.
Unfortunate they acted rather undfriendly to me. Goodness, I have been mad they way they acted before, but this time I decided to swallow it, and insted of defending myself, do something Ive never done before, and bow to their words. I just wanted to go on adventure, maybe that would change things. Though it never ended up in anything.
That hate is still there, but its like its hold down for the moment, now it just feels a bit hollow.

Title: Going better
Post by: Niles09 on March 16, 2006, 01:35:26 PM

- Sielwood  Eamane said I had forgotten the most important thing secret she had told me about her past, else things where good. I tried, I have tried so much to remember it, maybe Ive really forgotten it, after all my mind has been rather overloaded the last time.
  The bad feelings are easing. The rage slumbering and I feel much better, yet still a little empty.
  I saw a note in Wild Surge some days ago, Spugle had written it.... WONDERFUL NEWS! he is alive! and he is back, cause he was calling for the giants Brigade. I hope to see him soon.
  I met Wolf aswell. I havent met him so many times, but I remember him very well. The first time we met, we ended up in a most heated argue about my skincolor, but later we started over again, without arguing instead I explained my past and we became friends. I think Wolf is the only person Ive befriended even though it started out in such a harsh way. Anyway he needed help. Someone had put a bounty on information on him. Some friends of him had arrenged to meet those persons at some inn, the "Scamp" I think. I will have to look closer into that, before things happens. He thinks its his familiy, he hides from them, and have done that for many years. I know the feeling, thats just how Im hiding too. Its 6 or 7 years since we met first, so I can only just remember he told he had some issues with his families in the past, hmm maybe there was some paladins or clerics in it too.

Title: Going alot better
Post by: Niles09 on March 18, 2006, 03:23:17 PM

- Sielwood
  I'm planning to make a better cloak, yet I will need gems for that. I found Eamane in the craft house and asked her. Quite a group there where assembled there, I couldnt help notice the way Isilme threaded a girl by her side, creepy.
  Anyway I went to broken to kill a few deaders, and met Kloss on the way. We ended up killing alot and was a good team. Deeper in the forest we got attacked by a really huge basilisk, not just a normal one. It was really thoug. First it petrefied Kloss, so I took fort my sword to get its attention. It took a few beats before it, I guess, turned me to stone. It only felt like a second then I could move again, though I was much heavier wounded. Kloss was still a statue so I fought it alone, it was badly wounded but not bad enough, it would kill me first, but luckely the basilisk then turned to Kloss... not that I wanted him to die! but I got a chance to sneak it. Two well placed thrusts later it was dead. Kloss nearly too, it was a close run.
  Later in broken we got attacked by some really strange creatures, not the usual stuff. I said it might be the dead ranger that was mad, the deaders was beginning to give little money too. Kloss said it was because too many passed by. And just then two others came by. I suddenly realized why the ranger might hunt this place. It is a stupid thing to lead the high road to the egde of this place. It should be in peace.

Title: Returning
Post by: Niles09 on May 10, 2006, 06:59:11 AM

- Sielwood
  (The following detail s travels throughout Sielwood and Zan's different experiences here. She's trying to refocus her mind after the last chaotic months. After nearly two years she decides to return to the civilated lands.)

Title: Its good to be back
Post by: Niles09 on May 11, 2006, 05:51:18 AM

- Southern parts of Sielwood
  Ah its good to be back. There didnt went much time till I bumped into Dorena. It was great to see her. She told me she had gotten twins!
  I also met this drow, Cymeran I think, a follower of Azatta. He talked about his god, I said I didnt follow her, cause I didnt owe Azatta anything, yet we shared the same goals. He invited me to come to some sord of gathering for Azatta's followers. Hmm why not?
  Later I bumped into Dorena again together with Alleina. We had a little talk. I got the story about Broken. Seems that the ranger there had been in love with one of the seven sisters, apperantly a mean one. She had summoned the zombies to guard his grave. Appearently she communicated with his spiret, but now that he have found peace and have went on, the sister have gone crazy and cursed the forest. It looks like dark wood now. ... witch!
  A few days later I met Jin. He had become and uncle, things have truly changed! I helped him finding some almonds. Though we never found them we had a nice trip.
 
  I feel much better now! The nearly two years in Sielwood have given me peace. The anger is gone.

Title: Its good to be back
Post by: Niles09 on May 13, 2006, 03:58:48 AM

- Sielwood
  I've heard rumors that Vestlyn is still alive, its only rumors, but its certainly better than nothing.
  I met Sen in Sielwood. Good to see him again too. He hadn't got a niece or some kids but he had started on making instruments. He showed me a vio-lin, and also told be about other strange things like guita-res and something I cant remember the name of. We discussed the situation in Broken a bit, I had lost my hunting grounds and he the easist way to getting oak.
  A few days later, I met Cymeran again in Hlint. At first he didnt recognize me. He was together with someone called Junta (a tiefling), Nepp (a drow I cant remember the rest of his name) and some silver haired woman. Hmm there might have been a fifth person as well. Anyway, we had a nice chat, they really were some nice people. I even maked alot of trade. Goodness they needed equipment, both oak bows, swords and leathers. I traded my old bear leather for some very nice bracers with Nepp. Heh heh he might want to retail the armor abit, I used to wear it. I also sold my oak bow to Junta, it was easier to let it go since it have only been collecting dust the last two years. Sabrissa came by. It was nice to see her again. She told me she was going to marry Barion.

Title: Dark times
Post by: Niles09 on May 16, 2006, 12:22:12 PM

 - Sielwood
  I remember my first few years among humans. It could be hard sometimes, when strangers assaulted you because of your skincolour. I learned to ignore them, stick to my friends. But what happens when your friends turns against you?
  I met Cymeran and Nepp again. Funny guys, can't discuss much else than weapons scrolls and such stuff. Then Jacchri came by. Started muttering about drows all over. Since something obviously was wrong I catched up with him. What have become of him?? He speaked of my friends as untrustworthy and spies of the drow. He've never done that. People began to garther, and suddenly several was beginning to thread us. Jacchri nearly got hostile, ordering Nepp to put his bow away. Goodness, both that mad dwarf Varka (who once knocked me out without reason in the woods) has come with his axe drawn, and some big woman also got her maul ready in both hands, yet he didnd thread them to put their weapons away (or me at least.) People was really hostile. Jacchri speaked of some drow attack that had been on Hlint, but there was really no reason to assualt a group of three drows (where one of them was me, and at least I expect me to think of me as a friend, so that makes two unknown drows.)
  Ignorant humans. If they knew the pain excistance is in the underdark, if they where born there they would try to flee too. They see us as the ones to bring suffer, yet I think it is we than suffer the most.

Title: Adventuring
Post by: Niles09 on May 20, 2006, 05:56:42 AM

- Sielwood
  Outside Hampshire I met Jin and Xan together with Tegan (I think Ive met her once or twice some years ago) and some Remiel. They where out to get a beholder eye. Sounded interesting so I couldnt resist the invetation to come along. We went to the cave in the gnoll infested mountains. Ive been at the first level many many years ago with Spugle. We had quite a diffucult fight there, and had I known what lurked below at that time, I wouldnt have bothered to go there.
  This time though, we needed something there. The beholder eye. Jin said the tunnels led deep down, past earth elementals and Illithids. A chance to kill Illithids was, one one hand comforting (they are some evil buggers, without exceptions) and on the other hand quite terryfieng. Even my mother thought them evil! (and that means really evil).
  Actually things went completly smooth until the beholder mother. We started fighting some battle devours. I saw some magic thing coming towards me, I suddenly felt very hard and things went dark, then what felt like moments later, I opened my eyes again, seeing dead beholders everywhere. I must have been turned into stone. Xan was dead but Jin healed him. With the eye we returned to the surface to Sielwood.
  It felt good to be on adventure agian. Once more Im whole.

Title: A funny girl, in a not so funny place
Post by: Niles09 on May 21, 2006, 02:53:01 AM

- North Point
  Days or weeks ago I think, I was sitting quitely in Hlint when this girl came by. Appearently and elf my size and figure. SHe gave me those eyes, passed em several times, she even howled at me. Well, no surprise really, people tend to do that to me. But this one got interesting later on. A few days ago when I was sitting in Hlint she came by again. She smiled alot to me, and asked for the way to Rilara. So I told her. She kept smilling. Well my impressions was that either she had learned that we surface drows aint so bad, or maybe she was just being niceto get the information.
  But it doesnt end here. I met with Cymeran and Grem. Asked them if they would help me getting the minotuar leader for this cap in Nort Point. They would, but we needed others. Suddenly we where a half army. Elgren, Elgon, this little halfling Lyala or something, a dwarf Thorimir I think, Marcus (I think!!), Grem and Cym. Before we where about to leave, some Paladin showed up Kinson. It didnt sound to me as if he was gonna come. He asked why we where killing those minotaurs. Well that cap asked me. (And the practice would do me excellent, so I better can protect the forest and myself if the time comes). This elf also showed up, the one from before. Her name was Alassë. She had a nasty looking spear or halbard, not sure what exactly it was. She didnt howl or greet me so that was ok.
  Kinson showed up to be of trouble. He was the real paladin type. He didnt want Elgron to summon his skeletons, (they showed up to be very useful later). But well, we went in. Half through the dungeon our group got halfed. Cym, Marcus maybe, the dwarf I believe, and maybe Kinson and some others probaly felt in a giant battle. I thought the rest would go back for the others, while I scouted ahead. But suddenly when I was sneaking quitely around in the later rooms, they come. They havent got the others but we fought on. We found the head of the ex leader on the floor. Probaly a recent leader fight. But hell, Im not paid to kill the ex leader, but the leader so we went on. In the end we simply ran out of healing. I think it was Alessi or Elgon that felt first. Then we took a break. In the fight that followed we got the the chief. Some of their nasty mages got some hits on me, and appearently the cheif didnt like that I fired arrows some very bad places, so he suddenly went through all the summons and chopped me down (I guess). Last I saw was a minotaur chief filled with wounds, very deep wounds. In North Point we discussed wether we should give the cap the false head. I dont like doing that. If the cap cant count on the chief death he might underestimate them, and the village might be surprised by a powerful raid. Think of the families there. Luckely Grem, the only suvivor, returned with the real head. So we got the proper reward.
  Later on in Hlint, Alassë acted rather friendly. Asked me to be the leader of a big group of unexperienced people. I told her I was glad she didnt gave me those looks anymore, and she said she liked me?! Well a chance in motion I guess. About the group, oh goodness dont put me in lead of such a bunch. When we where going back to our graves in the minotaur caves Kinson refused to use trickery like invisibility. Against his honor. He also refused the use of Elgrends skeletons if we where to fight back. In this new group there was lot of this sord of unexperienced people, knights and palas. Dont put me head of such a group! They didnt have any respect for the life of ogres. We went to the start of grey peak, killed the easy one and left. Really it was without reason. The others didnt think so. They said they attacked first. What?! THats the most lame escuse Ive ever heard. I tried to explain that they defended their lands, when we come here heavy armed and armoured they have the right to strike back since both of us know we are coming for kills. Stupid stubborn people. They only see things in black and white I hate such people.

Title: Ive seen to much...
Post by: Niles09 on May 22, 2006, 06:11:50 AM

- Sielwood
  Ive run into this elf several times again. Funny that she likes me. Her acting have made me realise what my life have been, and it saddens me. Allasë is happy, welcoming, talking and blind to the darker things in the world. She nearly started to scare me when she said a excited "hello!" everytime we hadnt seen eachother for a few minuttes. Yet I envy her.
  Ive never been innocent or ignorant to evil. Right from my birth my mother made my life a hell in the name of Vierdi'ira, I spit on that name. I found friends on the surface though. But so many are lost. I remember the early days of my realationsship with Eamane and Isilme. Good times, I nearly forgot about the dangers that I hide from. All the people I learned to know, gone. Some death. But worst of all the coranithes. A new "god" entered my life and cast a shadow over me. I no longer feel the anger, but a shadow have befellen my mind. Ive seen to much death, sick behavior and suffering.
  The gods must hate me.

Title: The way of the shade, found.
Post by: Niles09 on May 22, 2006, 09:22:27 AM

*The script is difficult to read, appearently written by a very excited hand*
  Ive done it! Ive done it, Ive done it! The first of my goals, I did it!
  I ran right out in front of the ogres, they saw me, I know, they looked at me charged towards me! But! I jumped into the shadows of a cliff. The shadows.. they embraced me, made me a shade, I became one with them! The ogres looked around, but couldnt see me...

cause I was dancing in the shadows

Title: What else happened
Post by: Niles09 on May 23, 2006, 01:19:55 AM

- Sielwood

So what happened? The last weeks Ive become close to reach my goal of mastering the shadows. Heh heh I remember the faces of Nepp, Cym and Grem as I told them I was nearly one with the dark, ofcourse not symbolic meant. It Bcame almost creepy the last days. The shadows half stuck to me, now it looks more natural.
I can be a shadow. I can disappear right in front of a living being by entering the nearest shadow and then disappear. Should my mother come back, it will be hard to catch me very hard.

Other things of interest. I adventured with Jin and a few unkown people, S’handa, Dulan, Sue and a most brutish woman. Im not sure wether she was human or half orc, not pretty at least. It didn’t go long before we got into an argument. She appearently thought it as fine to kill the treants, just because they attacked us because we trespassed right through their territory (and I did warn the party). The best argument of her seemed to be that I was a dark elf, and she wanted to solve everything with fight. Evil Savage I say.

Title: New powers and friend
Post by: Niles09 on May 24, 2006, 07:58:17 AM

- Sielwood
  Me and Allasë had a trip to Rilara. It was good. I showed her around, first the place of the sneaky birdies, told her the story about me tricking a giant into believing I was a spirit in its head, and showed her bone hill. (which went a bit wrong when a demon started chasing us, but we escaped alive!). I enjoy her company, her happy moodrubs off on me, things arent so dark as they used to be.
  My new ability to dissapear into the shadows has proven quite useful. Not only to save myself, but also to save others byusing myself as bait.

Title: Odd company
Post by: Niles09 on May 26, 2006, 06:17:21 AM

- Forest of Mist
  When I entered this forest I met a rather strange dwarf called Bjornigar, or well he acted pretty normal at first until we (hmm or mostly him) had smashed the giant camp, and he got his eyes on a boar. He went mad and smashed it to bits! I was more stunned by his action than angry, why in the name of nature did he do that? Appearntly he thought that it was a jinx pig that maked giants pop out of nowhere. I couldnt help but ask if he was sane. hmm I didnt really get a straight yes. But a funny guy he was, and we took out a huge group of giants.

Title: Murders
Post by: Niles09 on May 27, 2006, 08:40:14 AM

- Wolfswood
  Its funny. Some people say they fight for good for the preserving of life. How many of does have I seen slaughter animals without reason? How many times havent they failed me when I warned them not to enter the territories of the wild animals, yet they did it and killed. The only person who I remember respected this warning was Kobald, the dwarf that I nearly got into a fight with, on several occasions.
  I guess such things truly seperates friends from socalled good and kind people.
  I met Elrend, Glenn and Alassë in Hlint. Friends I consider them. Elrend even showed interest in my past, and asked for my story. Not now I told him. So, we went to Dregar, hooked up with alot of others among them Ael and Sahala, old friends. Everything went finem until we where leaving the Vale heading towards the satyrs. I told them not to attack them. I told them the satyrs just defended the woods. They said they would kill them if the satyrs attacked. Honestly, if someon walks well armed and armored and buffed into your home, wouldnt you react? If the last many people who did that attacked you?
  Yet they ignored my call. Elrend and Glenn said they wouldnt help in the fight. Blessed be Alassë wasnt there at that time. So they murdered the satyrs. Seperated themself from friends to the group of false goodness.
  People have so little respect for nature.

Title: The Thief of Hlint is back!
Post by: Niles09 on May 30, 2006, 05:11:58 AM

 - Sielwood
  Well have to describe it. I was trying to convince Cym and a few others that we should do something instead of sitting in Hlint all day, when Taislin just came walking down the street. Oh joy! He is back! Ive had so much fun (and trouble) with him, and he is back! He still had his reputation, as I was chatting with him, I heard Ozy and Angela discuss wether they should get the bounty for him. Even among some of the newer people he had made himself known.
  I gave him my bracers that casted darkness, I dont have any use of them now that I can dissapear into the shadows whenever I want. I made sure to strictly warn him not to use them for trouble, cause I didnt want to see him in jail again because of me.
  Other interesting things. Me, Jin, Karana (I think) a little hafling and a ranger went to Storans. It have never been like that before. After slaying many many numbers of undead, It looked like Storan got tired of us. When we was cathcing our breaths before the final room, mummies started to come all over the corridors. We kept them off back by back, but they just kept coming so we started moving back out of the cave. Even at the hills they kept pouring fourth.

Title: RE: The Thief of Hlint is back!
Post by: Niles09 on June 09, 2006, 08:07:02 AM

- Hurm
  The last time has been dull. Nothing happening, Im growing impatient of waiting. Slaying weak ogres is not my style, a waste of life really. However only Cym and Nepp have been around lately, and Cym have not been much for adventure lately.
  Cym is really a cleric of Azatta. Convinced that everyone can be turned. We made a deal that if he could turn my mother I would join Azatta. He actually took it serious. I didn't my mothers heart is so dark even a demon would get horrified. I explained him Ael once slaugthered some evil drows, not thinking of turning them to Azatta at all. Cym didnt like it, he really believes in redemption.
  He somehow reminds me of myself, or what I was like before the business with Corath and all that. I used to share his thoughts about saving our people, turning them away from evil. I dont care much about it anymore. Ive seen too much evil to fight it all, and Im growing tired of it.
  However Cym promised me to join me on adventure a few days ago. So just the two of us went to Dregar. I think we did well. Pirates, scorpions, ants, antmen, giant and mushroommen fell before us. We really worked well together. He buffed and summoned and then healed me as I fought the hostile creatures. It was good to do something again.

Title: Of Azatta and Pranzis' end
Post by: Niles09 on June 27, 2006, 04:28:48 AM

- Saudiria
  So Cym is starting to say that Azatta loves me. We had a discussion about that a few weeks ago. She still lack to impress me. I have no reason for ever worshipping her, she have never done anything for me. Ofcourse Cym channels her power, to strenghten me in combat and heal me, however that goes both ways, I wouldnt get very far on Dregar without Cym and he wouldnt get very far without me. My heart belongs to the green forests, the wind, and the wild creatures. After visiting the Anoroch desert so many times Im also beginning to like the place.
  Pranzis was invaded by Bloods men. I fought there for days. In the end we lost. It was a pretty bad end. We where attacked from all angels. I tried to get a defense up in the merchants square but we couldnt hold it, and non of though fighters from the east front was interested in helping us. I guess I found my way there. I couldnt help but feel a pierce in my heart as I saw the others get chopped down by Bloods dwarves while I dissapeared into the shadows, but what else should I have done? It didnt get better when I returned to the eastern line that was broken by some mad succubus, and I repeated the hiding thing. At that time every front was defeated and we retreated to the castle. There the guards handed some flags out to us (magicial, they have proven very good), and then we escaped the city through the castle. I also found a nice pair of boots, the magic in them however, is too strong for me to wear them yet.

Title: Cymeran Vrinn
Post by: Niles09 on July 05, 2006, 08:11:02 AM

I have fallen in love with you… Its still a bit confusing. Those words explained everything.
The last months have been strange. When I see him, I have this odd feeling in my stomach, and why did I get so upset when he complimented that woman’s armor?

Then a day like any else I stumbled across him in Saudiria, Cym. He gave me a ring and then said “I have fallen in love with you.” I cant describe the joy I felt, I was speechless for a moment, when I realized what the feelings I had had in his company was. I was in love.

So… Since then things have been happy. Maybe more happy than they ever have been. Even the fear for my past is weakening. I feel safe in Cym's company.

Title: A matter of trust
Post by: Niles09 on July 07, 2006, 12:29:04 PM

Zan's CDQ:

A Matter Of Trust

*The following passage is some places hardly readable. The script is obviously written by a shaking hand, and some places there are spots of tears*  I still hardly understand it… What I thought just was a childish dream, too good to happen, happened a few hours ago. My father is not only alive, he’s also a good person a follower of Azatta.  I’m over enjoyed! I can hardly understand this! Hopefully I will get to see him again soon!    I better write this from the beginning…  For a while something or someone had been stalking on me. Obviously someone who didn’t want to be seen… Skills like my own, so that’s where I got my talents from! At that time I was beginning to get enough. I told Cym, Nepp and Dorena about it. And when we noticed a shadow slipping trough the cemetery doors we decided to find this creature. Maybe I will grow so skilled one day! It was nearly impossible to find him. He only showed up in glimpses and the different people of Hlint made it impossible to track him down. We where lead outside Hlint when we saw a glimpse of the shadow crawling over the wall and out to the goblin lands. For some time we were without clues, until I saw him between the goblin hills. I made a cruel “mistake” and ran after him, before Cym, Nepp and Dorena could react, and moments later I felt a blade against my throat…… I guess we both were desperate. I guess it was necessary… He asked me to come to Sielwood alone. The others maked a camp outside the wood, and I went in.  I didn’t feel like going completely defend less, so I made a ring of traps and sat in the middle, then he showed up. He revealed himself as a drow. At first I was alarmed. His colour were as mine, very dark, only a few drows have such a dark colour as mine, so… he could very possible be from my area, which could mean he was after me. He was, though not as expacted! Oh joy! I.. but I will tell the story first…. He started calling me child, didn’t help it, that’s something priests do… Then he called me daughter… *very shaking script here* I cant describe this… He was my father. However, at the moment I would have no idea if the romantic ideas about my heroic good father going against my mothers will where true, or if he was as.. evil as the rest. He told me he was a member of a small community of rebel drows, or followers of Azatta.   Ive been through extreme anger, sadness and happiness in my time, though never have I been such a wreckage as that point or now.. It was a dream come true, the impossible, a glory Ive never thought I would have in my life. I did my best to hold myself together and not burst out into tears.   However the happiness was short. He suddenly said he should leave. It hadn’t been his intentions to find me, “selfish” he called it. He was on a mission for his community, a very important one. I just couldn’t let him go. After a long talk I finally convinced him that I could not let him risk his life without doing anything. However, he said that since he couldn’t look after me, I should have some other to do that. So he asked me to find my friends, make them swear to me and their gods, and only then he would be there when I returned.  Blessed be them. Dorena, Cym and Nepp sweared to me without hesitation. Good friends indeed. When we returned to the forest my father once again appeared. He made them swear again. Then he explained his problem. Apparently a spy had infiltrated his little community. Because he had the.. experience in tracking down people and kill them, he had gotten the task. He must kill the spy before he could contact his allies. However things have gotten complicated after groups of those have appeared. The spy for the moment, was jailed in Velensk prison. I must go and murder the spy… and with a special dagger my father gave me, so no one will be able to contact his soul. Harsh I know, but he could have leaved the community in peace.  I cant wait to get this done, to see him again, Me, Dorena, Nepp and Cym have camped here to rest and be ready for tommorow, though I cant really close an eye.  *The next passage or the journal is written over several pages. Some places the script is stroked out, obviously in frustration. Generally the writing is spread out instead of the closely written text back in the diary*  How many days have gone? I cant count them anymore?   He didn’t come back, how FOOLISH of you Zan, he didn’t say anything about returning though why did I then do this, which I can never forgive myself.   Maybe it was wrong to trust, he could be anyone, stupid stupid stupid thinking Zan that’s where you emotions get you.    I doubt I ever will forget this, would not be fair either, let that be an example.    We tried to plan it. We did our best. I wanted to talk with the guy first. I got plenty of those cursed tattoos or whatever it is across my body, should be enough to trick him into believing I’m there to get the information he had, making him reveal himself.   However things did not go as planned. I don’t know much about the rules for prisoners, and we did not have time to learn them. I tried to disguise myself as a cleric of Roferien but the guard just wouldn’t let me in without papers. I tried to sneak in but he saw me, I got out but after that the prison was crowded with guards. I began to panic. How to get in? Cym got in using his magic, though I should be the one to talk with the prisoner. I don’t know what Nepp did but the guards caught him.  A dark figure stalked around the prison, Dorena found his tracks, obviously he was trying to get in. At that point we where running out of time.     So I asked Dorena to get the guard in front of the prison’s attention. She did well she did. She cut herself in the leg with a dagger, then screamed she had been attacked. The guard in front of the prison maked a big group of guards from the prison run out and over to Dorena. Then I knocked him out and sneaked in.   When we where in, Cym started to cast darkness. Chaos began. I tried to knock out the Jailor I think Cymtried too. He was a though guy didn’t pass out, but I got his keys. Tried two doors and got into the prisoner. There I hided in the shadows, somehow the guards didn’t think long about why the door leading into the cell had been opened, and left me alone with the prisoner.            From there everything went wrong. I acted like I was from Vierdi’ira and here to get the information he had. That just maked him go crazy. He called for the guards, revealing my cover. In desperation I grabbed him trying to keep control of him by holding the dagger to his throat, telling the guards not to get in, kept them frozen for a few moments. I did my best, really… Said that if I wanted to kill him I could do it now, but we could escape using his darkness spell. Every sense of sanity had left him however.      I could leave him, get out of the prison and fail the mission that had been so important for my father, if he was telling the truth.. The other choice wasn’t better, I wish I hadn’t done it.. I could trust me dad blindly and kill him.             He kept screaming, pushing me away he was in terror, it was horrible. I killed him. I killed him in cold blood. I can never forgive myself this evil act.  

  I’m a murderer, I’m a bloody evil murderer.  

It was not a problem getting past the guards using the shadows and my agility. I ran to Nepps cell punched the keys into the door and got him out. Then we run out of the city. Most of that is a blur really. I couldn’t stop seeing the prisoner’s terrified face. There was a lot of guards around, shouting about drows attacking the city.   I returned to the forest alone. Sad and ashamed, only the thought of seeing my father again kept me going. I waited a day, two tree I have waited many. He said he easily could take care of those groups of drows that had come to find the spy too, but why haven’t he returned to me? His daughter. I threw the cursed dagger into the deepest pond I could find in Sielwood, if he want to have it back, he could just come and ... get it!… Maybe I’m demanding too much of people I guess.   Im hiding now. Went into Hlint and quickly went out. They’re searching for me and Nepp they know how we look. A goodness even worse, I’ve maked my race even more unpopular especially in the south. I feel so ashamed. Some have done so much to put our race in a good sight, Cym for one.   I want too see them again, want to be together with friends, forget about the memories haunting me day and night, murderer, murderer. I just feel so ashamed, I don’t think I can face them again.     I must remember this as a lesson, I mu….  *and then Zan ran deep into the woods*

Title: My love...
Post by: Niles09 on July 22, 2006, 02:51:27 AM

*After the affair with her father, Zan spends nearly a year traveling the forests. Most of the journal describe how much she miss her friens especially Cym. SHe is pretty much alone with her grief until she sumbles across a little panther kitten after some months. Appearntly the parents are dead, since the area a filled with tracks from humanoids, and the kitten obviously is starving. After she have given it some food it keeps following her and she decides to raise it. After a half year she takes a quick trip to Hlint*
  I made a looong trip with him, so he would get real tired. Then I returned to Hlint, just to look around.
  Suddenly Cym just stood there. Ooh I have really missed him, and he was glad to see me too! He didnt think it was so bad with the whole murder thing. We went to Haven with some others, and after that the trolls... I couldnt really concentrate in any of the places. First I was together with Cym in Haven, after a half year! Then...
  Cym asked me to marry him! I love him so much, I dont know what to do without him anymore. Ofcourse I would marry him, though I tried to warn him, my path might turn rather dark. He would follow me trough the nine hells he said. Zanirth Vrinn... I do like the sound of that.

Title: RE: My love...
Post by: Niles09 on August 05, 2006, 05:02:04 AM

- Sielwood
 
The last weeks have gone fast. After I leaned Leviran to hunt, I could get out more. I needed to see Cym. I found him in Anoruch, strange he travelled together with Daralith. Ive only met Daralith once but that was enough he’s a drow, an a bad one. Bah! The way he talks, he obviously things he’s supercilious to everyone else. I left them for a short time and when I returned Cym was gone. Besides from Daralith, Elrend a half giant or something and some others where around and I felt like adventuring, so I joined them. Hmmf Elrend obviously didn’t mind Daralith, and when Daralith and I got into an argument, Elrend said we should marry eachother, that bastard to Daralith said “do you think she can bear my child?” How dare he! At least he shut up when I said I was going to shoot his head of next.   A few days later I found my love again, and we ventured a lot. The trolls moors, Berhagen, and Cym’s undead tour: Dire woods, Krandor Crypts and Storans. Gave me some time to test some new techniques. I thought about it while resting in Sielwood beside Leviran, he’s surely growing big, I should show him to Cym soon. I got to test my techniques again in Storans, with Cym, Jser and Elrend. After these days I feel a lot stronger.  

Title: The Battle About Me!
Post by: Niles09 on August 14, 2006, 03:06:11 AM

- Sielwood

I decided that Cym should meet Leviran…. I thought it should be a happy moment but it wasn’t… I guess I should have expected it, Leviran have never seen me together without anyone, but him so he must think he’s the centre of my attention!
At first he wouldn’t come out when I called so me and Cym went into the woods. Still, no sign of him. Cym have really been nice lately, I’ve dragged him through a lot so I could get some training, I kissed him as thank. That made Leviran appear… he came storming towards Cym claws raised and his ears laid back, ready to kill…. I grappled him just as he was about jump onto Cym. Goodness he was really furious I could barely hold him as he was trying to get to Cym. I scolded him a lot, trying to make him understand that was NOT a proper behaviour. Finally after some time he didn’t attack when I took Cym’s hands and kissed his cheek, oh but the moan he made, it was heart breaking! When we got to Hlint Cym suddenly got the idea to give him fish. Hmmpff! How could Leviran just completely drop to defend his right for me for a bit of fish! He didn’t try to kill Cym anymore, though he seemed to enjoy scaring my love, by snapping after his hand…

Title: RE: The Battle About Me!
Post by: Niles09 on August 15, 2006, 01:06:58 PM

- Sielwood

I talked with Storold, for the first time since... I can barely remember, someplace before Eamane and Isilme started... changing. He had changed. He almost appeared... tired. He talked bad about himself, said he have been arrogant when I first got to know him. I dont remember him being so bad, maybe except once in Sielwood, long time ago, not anything that bothered me. Anyway he said he had changed, he had met this girl named Nyyana and had fallen in love with her, though that went only one way around, she didnt love him. Im sorry for him, it must be hard. I told him about Cym, how happy I am and how much Cym means to me. I told him Ive never been happier.

Sigh... I miss Cym alot. He left to meditate on a mountain or something he said, and to visit his mother. Before that we talked. I asked him about Azatta, which resulted in a looong discussion. Im confused. We both agreed that I had the same ideals as his goddess, but why should I then worship her? I said I dont like the word "worship", and that I have no reason for it, since she or any other god never have done anything for me. He told me I should open up my heart for her, but I dont like it. I told him I had a hole after the murder, and I a moment thought about Azatta, but instead he filled it out. I feel safe with him, so what should I do with Azatta? Anyway it was a loong discussion and it made me confused, which I still am.

Title: Thoughts...
Post by: Niles09 on September 08, 2006, 06:50:21 AM

 - Sielwood
  I went to the great library to read about Azatta.. I don’t know why, but something about it fascinates me. I must admit I admire her not very godlike way of being. All the other gods talk about crusading and all got their own favourite weapons, Azatta speak of peace, she don’t even have a favourite weapon.   It was so good to see Cym too, when her got back. I’m very happy…   Though, I talked with him. Deep down in the troll caves while I was recovering after a troll surprise attack. I told him my story until Hlint.  Oh and I made a dress! It feels nice to wear it, instead of always wearing that tight leather armor, with a knife in the booth, weapons by hand always prepared. Should anyone attack me now, I could always just hide away in the shadows. The bet part was to see Cym’s expression when he saw me. I told him that I, at that time, was tired of being away from him. I can hide infront of people now, a big advantage should anyone ever come for me, so I don’t need to train so hard anymore. However that means I wont see Cym so often so I told him it would be nice to live together with him.  Ive also adventured with Storold lately. He finally got to meet Cym and we adventured around in Anuroch. I wish we hadn’t went there. We went to the big giant cave, where I used to go with Eamane and Isilme. Brought back some bad memories. But…. I don’t know. I had just hoped Cym would show a bit more passion when I told him my story, but he didn’t really do anything. I wish it could be more than travelling around and killing stuff, that I could have a drow to share my soul with, my memories. But he don’t seem to be very interested. I guess its just too overwhelming now. I never get to tell him, but about the whole living in a house thing.. I got to think of it a few days before Anoruch, while I was falling asleep in a tree… I like the forests, my glades and ponds, the animals, the sounds, the smell the whole feeling. Im not a “civilized” creature, beds are all too soft. And ugh! Living in a city… the ugly smell, all the people and the lack of animals and vegetation. But I really love Cym still…

Title: Getting a place to live
Post by: Niles09 on September 11, 2006, 06:16:31 AM

- Wolfswood

I talked with Cym about the house, he really surprised me, he nearly sounded like it was the most natural thing in the world that he would live with me wherever. It surprised me, cause Ive never expected such of a person that have grown up in a house.. or at least I suppose he have, anyway I was very happy by his commitment. We will live in the woods and in the house.

Thereafter we went to Krandor to collect the last coins for the house. Unluckily the estate woman in Pranzis also wanted something called “insurance”, so we will need a bit more. We found a nice place anyway, by the lake in Pranzis close to the wood. Talked some more, really made me happy.

Oh, and a “funny” thing. While we spoke about where we should live, in Hlint, we spoke in drow. I couldn’t help but hear some brackets of a discussion some other people nearby had. One of them said something like he wondered what foul things we were plotting. We didn’t plot anything but how to best be together.

I miss the sun.

Title: RE: Getting a place to live
Post by: Niles09 on September 22, 2006, 06:53:01 AM

- Pranzis
  So me and Cym live together now. The house is a nice little place, a bit empty though, we would need some furniture. As he showed me around we came to a complete empty room, "I was thinking we could place some bunkbeds in there" he said - I still have a hard time beleiving how good my life has turned out! The house is a quite place to live, there isnt so much to do when Cym isnt around, but then I have good time to look around in the big forests of Dregar.
  Besides from the house we live in Siewood too, those portals makes it easy to change place, Anoruch is also a nice place, ecpicially Cym like it. There is something special about sharing my secret glades and ponds with another humanoid, oh and I finally think Leviran have come to completly accept that Cym is my "male" and not him!
  Cym also have an altar in the house... I thought of sending a little prayer to Azatta, asking that things would stay like this - I mean it cant possible hurt.. hmmm but on the other hand, me making a prayer... might be blasphemy! I'll leavepraying to Cym.

Title: Refugee
Post by: Niles09 on October 02, 2006, 06:58:54 AM

- Sielwood

Ive spend some time for myself deep in Sielwood for the moment. I had nearly forgotten how much I love the forests... The smell, the air, the colours, the sound of the wind in threes, the sound of water running in a brook. The peace. My only company is the simply minded yet very clever animals. Leviran has been a wonderful companion, seems to understand me. I cant understand how they can do that. They say they kill the animals in self defence, blames the animals for attacking. I cant believe they jugde animals equally to ogres and goblins. I keep warning them entering the wolves territory, cause it will freighten the wolves and ultimatly end in death. But they dont care, even though they are supposed to be good.

Title: Mapping
Post by: Niles09 on October 16, 2006, 03:56:43 AM

- Grey Peaks

I took Mille to Dregar to show her a few tricks I could in combat like hiding... Didn't went very good! I got owerwhelmed by a dwarf, tried to tell Mille to go away but she kept attacking with her sword, so when I badly wounded jumped into the shadows the dwarf chobbed her down. It went better from that point tough.
We ran into Cym too. I think it was obvious for us both things didn't go really well, and I just left. In Prants me and Mille encountered Rain and Ash. Rain showed us his house and kids. Ash told me that she had ended it with Nepp... So at that point I got a really bad feeling in my stomach... I didn't want it to go that way with me and Cym. I left in a rush and found Cym at the big lake.
I had a long talk with him. He said he had alot on his mind at the moment, though I think I made it clear what was wrong. I told him that he could always count on me to support him in whatever was burdering him, and what kind of support he had been for me. Cym told me about some goblin problem involving Storold, that funny enough also came by. Though I was too tired to concentrate at that point.
Later however Storold told me what was wrong. He said he had found a scared goblin at Haven. It was from a good clan in Sielwood which had been captured by the ogres in Haven and used as slaves and.... torture. I was glad Storold came to me though, cause he said I and Cym was one of the few that didnt have any prejustice about races.

Ive taken up traveling again. Im trying to map Mistone. I had a long trip alone, from Hlint to broken - Fort Hope, a quick trip into Silent watch - sword rust mountains, the bloody desert and back to Hlint. A few days later I mapped Grey Peaks.

Title: ...
Post by: Niles09 on January 26, 2007, 09:28:36 AM

*For the next several years, the journal is rarely used. In the start Zan havent adventured at all appearently. Only other thing of interest is her worry, when Cym didn't return home for several months. The last entry describes her joy when he return, dated a year earlier than the point of the following entry..*
  This wasn't how things was supposed to go. How many years is it? Five, seven? We've been engaged like forever. I remember I barely couldn't beleive how good things was, and would be... Pff you've been fooled again Zan.
  And Im really tired of it.