The World of Layonara
Character Development => Development Journals and Discussion => Topic started by: hawklen on May 31, 2006, 12:23:27 PM
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there seems to be peices of parchment laying at the base of a tree, thrown there with no care. only a few sentences here and there are legible, doesnt make much sense, as not complete. Written in common, elf, and drow.
..killed a goblin. Turns out to be highly intelligent and a mage. Gremlock...drow priest. Cym...now best friends..hard to remember others...
..a wood elf name ari..has a cute..talked about longstrider, very interested in this god, would like to..all over the place, killed lots of ogres and trolls...hung back fired arrows..monk called silver, fights with hands! Pretty strong..ma...ventures..started crafting..curing and tanning hides..alot..gold...now can clense crypt by myself..hate undead..lots of cute ladies...flirt...not mind I am drow..cronk..big fellow, heart bigger than him. Good smith...katana..Jin..saved up, schmitar, fire sword now..Elgon, honorable half-elf..hunter oak bow..hiding and sneak skills are alot better...curled up in a group of eight ogres for fun. Didn't see me..snuck to very bottom of haven mines. Stupid ogres, cant see me! Met soul mother twice, took time to recover. Don't want to see her again..met other drow..ones a ranger too, not good with names..lost in dregar with Grem, Cym, Sa'kura, Elgon and Ari..finally made it to hlint..hard trip..naked through lost soul swamp, make sure trolls don't see me..few adventures with Tegan, Zup, Akki, Ketil and others...great and honorable fighters! Training the hard way...dregar and giants, thank the gods for dwarves! Fight beside them anyday...high forrest..very peaceful, belongs to katia? Need to find druid Rhizome about great oak...find those who follow longstrider...folian? Teach me about him..kyecoa wolf companion, got thinking about choosing wolf for companion, more questions about long strider..lost in dregar again..Drogo, wild elf druid, like brother...made it through Roldem, barely, awakened storm mage saw me in mountains..lost him..portal in town..back to hlint..drogo didnt make it..found help from great oak..now back in hlint.....
About all that is readable. Like he writes this down, and throws it out, or looses it. Almost wonder why he writes if he doesnt keep it...
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another found peice of parchment, little more legible..
..at redlight cave enterance, talked to Rodin Serim about longstrider..a Vakhar guild, nature guild belongs to,,vale in dregar, sometimes meet in vale near seilwood. He said he'd mention me next time they had a meeting, happier now that I have spoken to him. Wanting to be ranger for longstrider, more meaning to life, will meditate further...paid messenger came to hlint talking about the witch and queen as betrayers..blackford castle with Ozy, Rhynn and drow hater..met the queen one of the seven sisters, feel power emminating from her..another sister paid him to say those words in town i think..hunt in swamps against lizardmen and trolls..silver, tegan, strykr and elgon..started out with elrond Glenn, kinson, Ahsiel..kinson and elrond acting like children..they left..we moved on..karana near beginning of swamp..finished...bed.
Found blowing around the crimson district in hampshire..
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fragment of a journal it seems..
..Glenn today, talked about what i was talking about with Rodin..longstrider and also he offered to take me to the temple one day..meditated and thought more about the path Im following..asked Gelnn also to mention me in any meetings with guild...taught some words of drow to Darkchild and Dur'Thak, maybe they can learn it?...me a bit of their cant..esting, berk, hiver and other terms, wonder if I can learn that oneday..Dur said let me read a book he's wring on the cant..aybe I should make a drow one?...silver and strykr again, fought some more, training was really good, and the gold not bad either..Cym is getting good at enchantments..ed electricity to my otehr blade, a katana..good damage now, stay alive longer I figure..cym is almost like a family..not like drow, but what surfacers have. Consider him a brother now..cym,elgon and me, barbarian island for some kobolds and alexanderite..made a wrong turn, met with ice drake, cym and elgon died..couldnt do anything..no vengence..made it back to graves they did..didnt see soul mother..releived..got the minerals, destroyed the kobolds ifesting the land..so bloody cold! left a trail of campfires just to warm up..leilon, parted with cym elgon and me back to hlint..to the high forrest need the trees and solitude...
floating around a tree in hlint..
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Bit more coherent peice of parchment..
..cermony I attended near the courthouse, Glenn was presented with yew branches to make a yew bow..skill is great, I respect him emmensly..seems that some people had a problem with me and cym selling stuff, prices too low, threatening us. If they continue, I will kill them. No one threatens me, or any of who I consider family..ometimes my dark legacy rears its ugly head, filled with rage wanting to kill these people, lucky I can control it, thank the gods for cym. He's a true brother to me..improving in my crafting. making more cougar bags, and loads of topaz in bronze rings..silver is a great friend, he fins me hides and other minerals for me to work with..Zan asked me to accompany her on a quest, I feel very honored, she is an amazing drowess..many adventures, numerous to mention, been too busy..dregar met up with Jade. She puts me in awe. Monk of folian, I pestered her with many questions, and other thoughts I have about longstrider..hoping soon I can be introduced into more people who follow longstrider, and taught more..eager to learn..dalanthar, or whatever the name of that town in dregar, me tegam, kiva and armolas were attacked by underdark and other spiders, then a drow cleric attacked us! They were no match for us, dispatched easily enough. very disturbing. Tegan will post note about the incident..makes me said..my kin, cant learn anything but destruction and evil..*here it seems to be smudged, like a drop of water muddled it* ...Ash Willow. What a fun woman. I love teasing her..always calling me a neppite, worse than a toranite...think she likes me..not sure, she hasnt thrown a fireball at me, so must be a good thing..well..to sielwood get rid of some spiders and some long rest..maybe see Zan there...
oddly enough, tucked behind a copper vien in seilwood cave..
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heard pranzis fell..wish I could of been there to help, but good news blood is defeated!!..many people lost there homes, loved ones..so much lost.*here it seems to trail off, water damage?*..wedding party at leilon, Ty and Creighton..too much to drink, started to remember some events...thoughts on Ash Willow, something happens when I see her..she gave me a kiss when she left the party. Ty said while i was kinda out on the floor, she kneeled down and kissed me too!...dont know what to do..in love with her? or just surprised? never had these feelings..don't want to flirt with other ladies now..just see ash without a hood in my mind...talked to ferrit, she helped me about these feelings I never experienced before, I guess i will see where it takes me..ash is certainly confusing me..I hope it doesnt affect me too much, nothing as prepared me for this..
found crumpled up near the tree in hlint
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This parchment carefully folded and well read is kept close to his heart, something he cares about alot.
It has been wonderful. Words cannot describe my feelings. I have never had these feelings before. I love. And I am loved in return. My feelings for Ash have grown. I beleive it is true love for me.
She took me over to Dregar to Folian's temple. I am glad it was her, and not Glenn as he promised. I was totally in awe. I have never seen such beauty or felt such peace in my life. It felt like I belonged there. The howls of the wolves, the light rain, it made me feel so wonderfull.
Ash took me throught the grove, and we sat down in the temple, near the bindstone. It was there I gave her my heart, and she hers. *some damp spots on the paper, maybe tears* I am not very good with words, my thoughts are racing, it is very hard to put it down onto parchment. Unlike the others this I will be keeping close to my heart, as Ash is. I cannot love another. Ash is all I need. If I loose her, I will go mad with grief and will die. Wether from throwing my self into battle, or of a broken heart. I must not loose her. She means everything to me. Gods, she is so beautiful, I could just stare into her eyes forever.
As I declared myself for her, kissing her, the wolves all seemed to howl at the same time, approving of us. It lifted my heart hearing it, I couldnt stop from smiling at ash.
She told me she was called "The walnut" I asked why, she said it was hard on the outside, but soft on the inside. The shee looked at me and told me "You have cracked the walnut" If it was possible, I think I loved her more then.
When we got back to hlint, it seems Wren was saying Glenn is off in the desert, full of rage. I wonder whats wrong with him, and if I could help? Ash was immediatly concerened and rushed off to dregar to find him. Ty and me asked if we could come and help, but she didnt want any. I understand, she is worried about him, Im just a bit saddened I cant help her with this..gods I miss her. I hope she fared well.
After Ash left, I had a nice talk with Ty. I told her a bit of what happened in the grove, and her words to me about cracking the walnut. Ty seemed pretty happy, told me it was her that gave her that name, and many have tried to crack the walnut, but only I had succeded. When she said that, it warmed my heart. Ty approves of me and Ash, and I am glad. I respect her alot, she is a fine woman, Creighton is very lucky. Before Ty left, she smiled and handed me a silver ring. She said do whatever I like with it. Its going to Ash. The bright silver, and the glitter of the topaz would suit her well. Well self, enough of the gushy...
I feel I am closer to Folian now. All thanks to Ash. I owe her everything. I am starting to feel a bit confined in my boots. I am thinking of removing them, see how it feels. All ready I miss the grove. Maybe I will add some dark green to my black leathers? I will try it and see how it feels. May folian smile down upon Ash and I and keep her safe.
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rain and jenna fell to ogres, cym told me and rushed to krander outskirts..fell all the ogres, couldnt find what was lost to Rain, bloody assassin vine! almost died, well stumbled into krandor and collapsed on the road..woke up to a chicken pecking me, ash came and rescued me and healed my wounds, my hero!..spent time just being in each others company and staring at the stars, talked more about folian, his was..ash saying I will be a great ranger? no..she is, I will never be as good as her...whats this about being rod's fish? she lost me there..I need to speak with Glenn, see how he's doing, maybe he will make me a bow? I am hoping..respect him alot..talk to Rodlin somtime too, he can teach me more im thinking..ask him what ash meant about being rod's fish..even though Im happy if ash teaches me more..hard on herself..saying not a good teacher..shes taught me much, so much..she is everything to me..oh, gave her the silver ring set with topaz..she smiled, and i think shed liked it..happy..
bah...say it again.bah..ash died, luckly no soul mother, broke my heart seeing her body just laying there..nothing i could do, just fire arrows at those ...ed fire giants..hope to take as many out before i fell..didnt happen.group beat them back..got to her stone and now is whole, still worries me, cant help it do love the little firey elf..dammit! Ty fell! lucky cym was there, raised her up..no soul mother for her either..releif..tegan chucked some spells, then Ty raced home, probably collapsed as soon as she got there.stopped by vale, peaceful, couldnt stop smiling at ash, looking towards the grove, sweet memory, heart lighter everytime im there, wish i could stay and forgot the world..stopped in corax lake..tired..just going to lie here..stumble around lost till I find my way to mistone..
blowing in the wind around corax lake..
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parchment, tucked away, inside a pocket
Well..that was interesting. Ash took me over, to Xantril i think its called, she showed me a nice little spot beautiful pond, just a nice relaxing place. I wont write down what happened there, its for myself, in my memory, imprinted on my heart.
After a few wonderful hours, I followed ash out. No idea where I am going. This, is a very very scary area. Bloodstone soilders and mercenaries it seems roam all over the place, and giants. Seem to make the Dregar ones small. Anyways, I ventured too close to a bloodstone rogue, he saw me. My fault, I should of followed ash's seps exactly, but I didnt, I tried to outrun him, made it to some bridge where he promptly cut me down..I thought I heard "Oh gods!" from ash before I faded into unconciousness. I awoke in Point harbor. Bound there. made the long slow trek back to hlint, where ash was already back. She asked if I think I could make it back to my stone. I said I wasnt sure, abd she gave me a wand of camoflage, and a set of silver topaz. With this from my love we went into her portal, back to xantril. She told me to take me hood off, then promptly kissed me deeply, telling me to make it home. Then she dissapeared.
I wanted to prove myself, since I failed earlier. With the jewlery and wand from my love, I easily made it by the rogues, Each step was pure terror for me, quietly, walking, blending into my surroundings. I finaly made it to my stone and beacame whole again. Again the trip back to the city was terror upon terror. I truggled back into the ship and sailed into karthy.
The walk back to hlint took me what seemed like days. But I loved it. Just wandered around, found some fruit, saved it for ash..whenever I see her..i think im understanding it all now..
I finally spoke with glenn, he took my lack of armor and shield, and sold it to me. platnium chainshirt. He asked if I had anything of value in returm, since I didnt have all the cash, so I showed him my first exceptional bulls ring. He liked it and taded, then gave me his old hickory shield. The visit was short, I asked him some question, to help me on my path, and if he approved of me and ash. If shes happy, he does. Theres a long, long line if I hurt her. But Im not afraid. If I do. I will seek my own deathm because I wouldnt want to live anymore.
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Some good news before I go on with the bad. I found ash in Dregar, we tallked, she told me I passed the test. I feel so proud. It was hell that test, I was told its something that is done to younger rangers, drop them off someplace dangerous tell them to make it home and leave. Im feeling closer to folian. hopefully I am close. Glenn, I'd think be proud..oh god s Glenn....
Glenns dead. What more is there to say? hes dead. *stains mark the parchment* I just spoke to him..got armor and shield from him. why is he dead? Oh gods. Ash. I must find Ash, gods..arrested helping zan..what kind of trouble do I get into, what exactly did zan do? more worry for ash....gods I miss her. *more stains, look like tears*
buried in the sand in saudia on dregar
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Ive searched, and searched. I cannot find ash...crossed dregar, crossed mistone. no ash..re is she? I think she knows..gods I hope not..ash..be strong..dont do something stupid..I miss her, gods I miss her, been days..weeks? please don't dissapear..nnot live without you..
Sad, vengful time on dregar..hurled my anger at desert giants..destroyed their dead bodies..gods I hate those giants..took Glenn away from us all..from ash..armolas, bought a mahogany bow off him, glenn taught him the craft i hear, first bow from a ranger and I named her.irailmanfmailnam..Elven for heartbreaker..bows remind me of glenn, how much he meant to ash, breaks my heart, heartbreaker...fly true heartbreaker..fly..
Ty found me in haven mine on the bottom..still sad, agry, missing ash, luckily she was ther, or I would of perished. We slew the king and all the ogres venting our anger..its a pleasure to fight beside her, creighton is one lucky man..
Fought beside Wren, Glenns brother, the poor kid..a good fighter, glenn be proud..
mixed in the leaves in the high forest.
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Went to rain and sonyas wedding..happy for them, ash made it, seemed ok, had a nice time with her..still misses glenn it think..hope she doesnt blame herslef for his death..dont do something crazy...shes wearing a monks robe and hood...why? gods why? she did change for wedding..we left..she wandered off promising to be safe..
rhynn ran up to me yelling to find ash, shes in the rift..showed me a note, something about doing something crazy..rhynn and I go to dregar, to find the rift. dragged me all over the place..i think to let ash finish what shes doing or somthing...finally stopped in north fort...ash and jerag come waltzing in..happiness..love..sadness..frustration..oh ash..she seemed a bit happier..but I was an idiot..grumpy..she left..followed her to hurm..caught up to her on docks.whiping tears off her face..hugged her..told her promised ty to find and look out for her..said she'd find ty.. asked her where shes going.."Where ever the sails take me"..and she sailed off...back in leilon..sitting by docks..hanging head..trying not to sob..maybe back to haven, the bottom..ogres or death?
nailed to a wooden pillar in leilon docks.
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Well..soul mother again..... also told ash fell too, no visit for her..so releived..my fault..a group of giants spotted me while engaging another group..if only..dont care about me..its ash..oh well its life cant change it..just hope ash is ok, that my actions didnt hurt her..
found scorched near the portal return from dregar, north of hlint.
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Well..did it again..accidently ran into a bunch of satyrs near vale, didnt want to fight them, tried running. They stunned me, then killed me..couldnt leave an elf to bleed quietly to death, had to hack my body up and send me to my eighth visit with the soul bitch..sighs..ash, love Im so sorry...I was trying to be carefull..didnt look for a fight..*tears dot the parchment*
Stuffed under the platform in Vale..
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Im really happy. My love for ash has grown...let me have access to the place she stays at..she seems more happier now, just hope I can keep her smiling, and take her burdens away..w-we- ahg. cant say it. I want to be with her forever.
written hastily, in his pouch.
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.... ... ... .... Are the gods, or fate against me? nine...nine times..one more..and she is gone..why oh why..if she goes, whats the use of living?
well. she got her horse..went to Arabel with ash..followed her..nice little spot in a horrible place, little lake..talked with ash for hours, peacfull for once, forget your troubles..sill mare follwed ash..hehe..left hope in arabel before we went to lake..couldnt beleive she kept that promise..im so lucky..
left in the alley behind 101 hlint...
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Well. shocking. happy. a father? All I can say, is that, ash I love you..a child? me? Couldnt be more happy. seems everyone in town knows. Ash will make a wondefull mother Im thinking.
shoved in his pouch
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*thoughts from him, nit written down*
Well. Im going to slow down. no crazy adventures for awhile. See the child born. must stay alive for that. Ash. *smiles*
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Where's ash? I continue my wanderings across dregar in hopes of finding her..back to mistone check there too..I hope she's ok..I miss her..used to her long wanderings, but this is a bit long..sigh be safe my love
crumpled up, blowing across the sands of the desert
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I am happy..i found her, ash as returned, and looking more beautiful, and more pregnant than ever..just spent time with her..bought her a nice compound bow..gave a bow gelnn made for her..just a great day
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..forgot to mention..pregnant women hit..hard.well, at least she healed me..she was drinking again..tried reasoning with her..shes feeling suicidal she said, useless..pregancy is hard on her, one who is so free..I'll try to be more, strict when shes like this, understanding seems not to cut it...triplets..gods poor ash..love you..
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well well well..got bored, decided to check out the sites ain Xantril..to fort mithrix, who did I see? Ash, my love and Jareg. Haven't seen jareg in ages. Nice to catch him with him..a wander took to a wonderfull time. Ash..jareg invisibled her, and she didnt fight. happy just to be along and doing something..well, as jareg would say.."bad juju"..defeated some giants in the rough lands..sudden, more appeared..jareg fell, I almost made but fell as well..luckily ash had some beryl dust and made it to safety..yelled at me for dying..oh well..back home..
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*leaves a note for ash*
Dear love, I have gone deep intro dregar for meditations. I just need some time to reflect on myself and my path. I shall be back as soon as I can make it. Please be safe.
My love always, nepp
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*wearly wanders through the harsh desert sands in a tattered cloak. Slips by a group of giants, leaving no traces that he was here*
Dear love, I know this letter wont get to you. Its, basically just to sort my thoughts out. Never been good at writing, or expressing my thoughts. Been thinking of our unborn children. Thinking. Hoping. Will I be able to see them grow up? Will we be there for them? I pray to folian to help me see what I should do, but ofcourse, gods don't take interest in us mortals, its basically up to us to make our own destiny.
The path is my own to make, my own choices, my own mistakes. I don't want to leave our children fatherless. I must hone my skills. I must survive. The desert is a harsh teacher. Hopefully I have learned its lessons, and I can put its teachings to use.
My undying love, gods I miss you so much, and I pray I can be there for the birth. Im not trying to be selfish, I just need to find some answers. If Im not there in time, looks like Im gunna get beat up again..oh well..I hope its a girl..
Nepp'akyo Da'Ladium
...Tear stained parchment, left blowing in the empty wastes
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I am...home. Saw ash, three children! three! I missed the birth! so beautiful, ash. Peace, Desitiny, and Tear..I am happy..to live for.
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*just sits in the house, watching the children play, smiling*
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changing diapers..changing diapers..crawling children, crawling children. No idea why this makes me happy. Diapers. me. heh. *lifts up Peace, looking into his lavendar eyes, tousling his black hair* Dont be a ranger son, choose somethig safer.*sets him down by his sisters, smiling* Tear. her grey eyes remind me of ash. *he kisses them all, and tucks them in to bed* lets see if mommies done her crafting.
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hrm..interesting trip today..went to the rift with jareg, yard and ael.......all i could do was fire a bow.not good enough for head on battles like im used to.at least I got a diamond out of it..trained with the use of every single weapon, but not the experience to go in the fray with tougher openents..handle haven mine ogres fine by myself..bah..want to be able to do more in dregar, not rely on others for help..
.....cant handle the bandit chief and his minions to get gold ore..killed the leader, bleeding heavily, but one of his minions stabbed me in the back..died..no soul mother..still..always fought head on, used my rangers skills when needed..perfer fighting..need more training..
...parchment shoved into his desk drawer in his room in leilon
*goes to the combat dummy in the leilon house and starts more sword practice for a few hours, muttering, need to get better, for ash, and the kids*
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..goofing off in hlint..bored, bugging another drow, called my loyal firend kyecoa..some brownies blamed me for another wolf chasing me, left notes in the inn..replied to em stating facts, and being my regular sarcastic self..left one directed at the group blamin me, some dwarf took it up..arena..not much of a fight..hes a fighter..skills I want..was over quick..went to sakura and barions wedding, bruised or cracked ribs, little painfull to move..fine as weddings go..not in a good mood.after the ceremony..food and drink..tried to congradulate kura, didnt hear me or ignored me..even more foul mood..left. off home to destiny, peace and tear.they always make me smile...ash there at wedding..guess shes upset at me..barely said anything..ignored basically..oh well..im tired..i feel old..
hmm..watching kobal fight, stance weapon holding..intersting. ought to try that..
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*kisses his children and tucks them in for bed. Walks out of the house, trying to smother the old familiar feelings of anger and hate, barely succeeding*
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So. She left me.Told me she loves me, have to have soemthing to do with me, but cant be with me.Then to top it off, she needs me alive and safe. What is this supposed to mean? And what does "once a wood elf makes you blush.. It's all over supposed to mean aswell? She is confusing. Great anger has started to surface within me. So far I have been able to control it. I shouldnt see the children, see her in them may bring it up. It was foolish to fall in love with a surface elf. I dont know what I wsas thinking. New emotion? Feels like she ripped my heart out. I will have to see what happens next. Maybe she needs time alone? Am I foolish to cling to hope? All I know, is its some wood elfs fault.
*goes to sharping a small dagger, one of the only things from the enternal night he has kept*
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she found me in haven. Still says she loves me, stay alive for her and the children..but we cant be together? What is happening? My rage wore out after falling to fell giants five times, sadly no soul mother.after weeks of lashing out..it drained away..rhynn's been around, trying to get me back to normal..worked a bit..just so very tired.
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*he opens his eyes to see his three children cleeping, clinging and curled around him, he notices a peice of parchment on his table, slowly without waking them up, he gets up and reads the parchment, tears start to roll down his cheek without him noticing, his anger drains, for the first time in weeks he feels his pain and sorrow, love for his children, and still for ash*
Gods Ash, whats happening to you? The children are never a pain or a burden. Why are you leaving them with me? Don't do anything crazy...
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*opens his eyes, noticing the children are gone, and more written on the note. He reads it*
*shakes his head*
Tired. so bloody tired. I cannot continue like this. It must stop.
The death from the balor made me feel a little alive. *goes into the hlint house where ash stays and writes a note*
"Ash, died again, flowers by my grave near the balor on Xantril be a nice gesture. - nepp"
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After the 8th death in a row, ive decieded. Ignore ash. She destroyed me, no use rubbing salt into my wounds. *spits out a curse to folian*
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I am..better. Found Rodlin, accused him of being the one ash had left me. He offered a fight in the arena. It seems he had no idea, as ash failed to mention that, or lied to him. The battle went well for me. I beat him down. I dont think he had heart to fight, since he barely put up a fight. We got to talking, and he's actually helped me. Strange, I came preparing to hate this elf, turns out he's decent, and honorable.And he's helped me quite a bit. *shakes head* strange. I need some time to wander, Ael gave me a map of some oasis located deep within the driftland desert on dregar. Not many know about it. I think I will travel there. It might do me some good.
*sneaks into 101 hlint, see's ash in meditation, and the children. Quietly kisses the children, looks at Ash, pain still reflecting in his eyes, and leaves her a note*
"Ash, I wont be here for some months. I am leaving on a trip, alone. In a place in dregar even you dont know about it. Very deep in the desert. I need time alone, to collect myself. I think I will start focusing more with the sword and shield. Its what I knew more before I met you. My time is short, I think I need to train as a warrior, so when I go, my death will be honorable - signed nepp"
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*rests in a beautiful, untouched oasis deep within the driftlands desert, focus, a path he thinks he has found. Ash, he still loves her, is nothing but a low, bitter pain, regulated to the backgroound. Still there, but managable, bearable. He misses his children, their innocence. He thinks of ash, being a bit selfish. The children should come first. It took him months to figure that out.He hopes she herself finds a focus, mayhap a purpose. He knows her chasing Rod will not end well. As he has found out, she only loves Glenn. But Glenn is dead. She needs to come to terms with this and move on. It will bring nothing but pain to her, and those around her.Calm. Peace. he has finally found these things. When he gets back he must thank Ael for allowing him to come here. He feels shame at his actions towards his faith, and offers a prayer of forgiveness to the prince of wolves.He thinks he knows what path longstrider has laid down for him. The path of the warrior. Combine his ranger skills, with that of a fighter. It will bring balance to him, he thinks*
he writes a letter to ash, attaches it to a messenger bird, the contents are as follows;
"Dear Ash.This oasis I have found has gave me focus. I really miss Peace, Tear and Destiny, please give them a hug and kiss for me and tell them daddy will be home soon.I haven't yet forgiven you, I do not know when or if I can. I have come to terms with it. Sitting here, in this beautiful spot, fills me with peace. I am a bit selfish here, as I am satisfied you will never see this spot.Anyways, I have offered a prayer for fogivness, in the way I have treated my faith. I think the prince of wolves has forgiven me, as I have found clarity where there was none. I think the path he wants for me is the one of the warrior. Meld my ranger skills, with that of a warrior. The thought brings me joy. Something I havent had since the birth of the triplets.Anyways, I hope you are well, and that you recieve this letter. I shall return to mistone soon. Maybe weeks, or a month. Untill then, keep safe. - Nepp'akyo Da'Ladium"
*he watches the bird fly away, till even his keen eye sight can't see it. He goes into the lotus position, and begins to meditate, with a smile on his face*
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*leans against a tree in hlint, too weary to bother getting his gravestone*
Well, that didnt go as planned. I survived three blasts from a bodak, killed it, but got cocky and got killed by the second bodak. Cost me a trip to the soul mother. My ninth trip. Poor kids. I feel sorry for Tear, peace and destiny. Stuck with parents like me and ash. At least I make an effort to spend as much time as I can with them. Ash is always off with that wood elf. She needs to be less selfish, as it seems, i am not long in this world. I do hope tegan steps in and helps with the children when I am gone. It is nice to know one person who cares for me, and not go out and hurt me. Makes this life a bit more bearable. Maybe folian wants me sooner than later? Who knows. For now I am content. What happens, happens.
*leaves a short note by the children for ash*
"Ash, I have visited the soul mother again. It is number nine. Please think of the children. - nepp"
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Well. It seems I should get some things in Order. On the event of my death, which seems soon as I am writing this after dying, Any jewelery I have on me, and platinum chainmail armor can go to Jareg. The chainshirt armor I got from Glenn can go to his little brother Wren. I'd like to leave my son, Peace, My Enchanted blade. So He has something of me when I pass. Thats it. Just pluck these things from my corpse and hand them to the people I named. As for burial, Jareg, if possible just cremate me, and spread my ashes in vale, new folian's temple, as I figure the guild would not let me in there.
*copies of this will, sent to Jareg, Wren and Ash*
It appears the prince of wolves wants me soon. Every death I am closer, it is only a matter of time before I take that final visit to the soul mother. I can only hope Ash can look after the children, and not abandon them like she did me. I have talked to a few friends, when I am gone, they will be watching her and the children closely.
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//OOC - I like this song, so Im posting the lyrics, kinda relates to the state nepps in. NiN - Right where it belongs
See the animal in his cage that you built,
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye,
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built,
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart,
And it's all...right where it belongs
What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?
What if all the world's inside of your head?
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods all the living and the dead
And you're really all alone
You can live in this illusion,
You can choose to believe.
You keep looking but you can't find the woods,
While you're hiding in the trees
What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?
I feel..trapped..caged..Watching the children grow and flourish, is my only source of joy. The rest of the worl is grey..I have found a path, but it is difficult..I just want to capture, to feel, like I used to..Ash..I still love her..I cant deny it.but, my feelings of rage..have dwindled..Seeing her, or talking to her, no longer makes me want to kill...something..I got to accept. Shes the mother of my children..I will defend her..been hearing alot of slurs against her..me and her have done alot of stupid things..but she doesnt deserve what I have heard..I will find the people responsible..punish...does fighting bring color to my world besides the children? Nothing else makes me feel anything..
*carefully folds the parchment into his new folder, sees Ash and the children asleep, kisses the children and leaves*
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*angerly writes*
What in the hells? I come back to town, and theres rumours of me being dead? Apparently started by praylor, who misheard me. I had died, and was relflecting my loss when I was asked to join a group. I said to them "I am dead. I need to reflect" Apparently, he told Ty, who thought I had left this world, and wrote to ash about it. Also, walking around, hearing "You are alive?" gets really annoying.
Talking with Rod and Lilly. Liily is apparently taking advice from a Ca'Duz drow. That is just stupidity. I know all about drow like him. As I tried to explain to her. If she wants to be his slave, so be it. And, who shows up? Ash. Just walks up to us, and says to me she got a letter from Ty saying I was dead. She seemed releived I wasnt. She missed the children (apparently she was planning to leave, fed up with everything? And rod ending it with her) Well, thats another thread keeping me here. Three. battle. my children. and ash. I wonder if its enough?
*goes to the children, smiles at them playing around and slips into meditations*
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The anger against praylor has faded. I no longer wish to kill him, for him spreading false tales about my demise. Hurt him yes.
Things are better than before. The children are alot bigger now, and are a bunch of hellions. Some of the things they do...are creative to say the least. Seems ash has been spending more time with them as well, as I see her around. Its good for the children, because they miss her when she isnt around, and cause more mischive.
Talked to Rod again, he showed me some interesting arrows he made. They crackle with electricty when lauched. It is a satisfactory sound. Also, I need to mine more platty, he said he will make a mighty for my bow. And an interesting trip with him into haven with an young ranger, I went for the platty, Rod coal and feldspar. So we destroyed the ogre population, it was the most fun i have had in years.
*hears a noise* Kids...what they break now...?
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Well. Im sticking deep in the high forest. Theres a plague going around and I am not going near it..Unless i hear word about my children. I miss them, its been many months since I last saw them. I hope they are well and dont have the plague. Maybe I should send a bird to ash inquiring about her and the kids.
Sitting here in the forest..I am calm..happier. Just quiet and sounds of the forest...
*sits in the deep shadows relaxing against a tree, happy for once in years*
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Ash is dead. Gone.
I went over to dregar, my way to vale, when I stumbled upon Ash's broken body. A thread of life still remained in her body somehow, like she was fighting to hold on, not to die alone..*wet splotches like tears dot the page* Crying, I held her body, and she started to talk. I dont kow if she knew I was there or not, but I will record what she said.
The last words of Ash
"Now I don;t want you all going around depressed dammit. I want to see people happy and smiling. I'm where I belong.. My soul will be sent to the aborea."
"Im where I need to be... with Glenn. Take my body to folians temple and put me beside him. Talk behind my back and I'll come back for yer arses"
This is where she started to cough up blood, I help clear it away so she could continue. After a few minutes she did.
"Rodlin is a manharlot and I hope he rots in baater. But love him anyway. Make sure you tell him all of that"
"Tell Rhynn to plot one more evil deed for me. And tell Emie she's the beez knees..thats about it I think"
"oh.. and nepp. Tell someone to give you a hug and tell you to take care. I'll see you on the other side. Ash and Glenn are reunited. Love you all.."
Then she died. I took her body to folian's temple, to a priest there. I told him "Bury her by Glenn" and left the place..
So now here I sit. Alone. Empty. No will to go on. Well, the children. I'll just..spend time with them..they..are old enough to understand..and Ty..tell her..*rest becomes smeared, unreadble*
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*in a fit of rage he enters the forest cave, but with no tactics or thinking clearly he is cut down*
Why? Folian, why can't I protect the things I love? Am I meant to loose everything?
*he wanders off, fades off into the shadows by the hlint pond, still reflecting on his latest death*
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To Tyrian:
Sorry to burden you, this is my will.
Please take care of the children as you see fit, make sure they have a good home.
As for my stuff on me, you can have them, do with what you want.
Two diamond rings, one bulls, one wisdom.
My swords
My armors
And my two bows,
Also the silver jewlery set Ash gave me. Please do with it as you see fit. and any other rings I might have on me. Take what little gold I have as well.
Please let my son have the bastard sword, so he has something to remember me by.
Thnaks.
Nepp.