The World of Layonara
Character Development => Development Journals and Discussion => Topic started by: SteveJW on June 19, 2006, 04:07:21 PM
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Ok..I'm here...
In a town called Hlint. Nice little town. Good place as any to begin my 'sentence'. I began to look for work immediately. The Postmaster wanted me to deliver a message...a fur trader needed a rat pelt...and a very clumsy accountant lost the town financial record.
The first two times for the pelts and book...I had to abandon because the rats were too tough. It wasn't till I met a cute little dwarf monk named Beli that I was able to get the first two things I needed. We also had to go to the crypts to get some 'darksoul essence' for this creepy guy in the inn. We went only not to find any...so I needed to go back another time.
The people here are friendly enough. But once everyone found out that Kyle Pandorn is my brother...well...I felt a little like royalty. It seems that Kyle is a very well known and respected man here. And married!!! To a woman named Ferrit. A nice woman so everyone tells me.
I must find him...he is my only link to home. I hope he will be glad to see me....
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The tasks keep coming...
There is was a lieutenant of the guard in the fort west of town who need someone to find weapons to stock the barracks weapons room. Easy enough task and as a thank you...he gave me this hood that protects me with a magical shield. It will be a handy thing to have. Also...there is a dwarven caravan master who wants me to retreive the head of a goblin tribe leader in the caves west of here. How gross. He promises to pay well for it....so I gues I go on a goblin hunt.
I met a good man the other day. Talen is his name. A ranger from the looks of it. Friendy...and handsome too. But his heart bears a pain. He has had an engagement broken off and he is still feeling the hurt. It will take a while for that pain to go. He is such a good man. Gave me a cloak and a couple of rings to help me be...less noticeable. Very nice gifts from him...Kyle's best friend he says.
I also met Barion Firesteed. The one that Sa'kura is seeing. He is a nice guy too. And gallant. All I did was ask for directions to my brother's house in Krandor...and he escorts me there himself. But when we get to Krandor....the sight of the crypts there caused him to pause sadly. Something bad happened there. I didn't ask. It may be none of my business. Sa'kura will have to comfort him.
I found a book on tailoring from the craft merchant. I will start to make clothes. If not just for me...for others as well. I need to start making coin to send back home.
Or else...I'll be staring at the ceiling of a cell back in North Hampshire...
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I was given a fright today...
There was this creature floating around the town today. A beholder is what Abigail Ruzz calls it. Very deadly. She told me I was right to stay very far away from it. Like I needed to be told that.
Barion...ever protective...came running to my aid. Wouldn't let me get too far from him. Said Kyle would have his hide if he let anything happen to me. Somehow I doubt that. Barion seems to be very capable of defending himself. and anyone with him. Sa'kura is a lucky woman.
Anyway...seems this beholder isn't even fully grown. And searching for someone. Someone called Alv(?). Well...we needed to find this guy before a fully grown beholder comes calling. That would not have been good.
We found Alv and the beholder went with him to wherever they were to go. I couldn't keep from looking at the beholder...who is called Z. I was so frightened by it.
I wonder how am I going to keep from getting into trouble in this town...
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I finally met Ferrit and found my brother...
And everyone was right. Ferrit is a wonderful woman. Very much in love with Kyle and he with her. And I find myself being very happy having another sister. I think I will tell her about me and why I came here before Kyle tells her of my...past fun. But for now...I will enjoy having family near by.
And...Talen came a calling...
And we sat and talked. About me...him...the weather if you could believe that. And then it just came out. He told me he was attracted to me. He is a handsome man...and I would be lying if I said I wasn't attracted to him as well. But...his heart still seems pained a bit. And me...admittedly I may not be the kind of woman who he would want. The only fair thing to do is to be friends for now.
But...I have learned that nothing is certain nowadays...
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It will be friends and just that...
And maybe it is for the better. Talen's heart belongs to another. And he tells me she is married. Wouldn't say her name though. It's just as well. I wouldn't want to get involved with a man whose heart wouldn't be mine totally anyway. Wouldn't be fair to either of us.
We went and clobbered some kobolds and the kenku guys for a while. And then we parted as friends. I am satisfied with that...
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War is coming...
That is what Kyle tells me. The war to end all wars. Brave men and women will go to battle and with the luck of the gods they will prevail. Kyle is chomping at the bit to go...but he knows in his heart his place is with Ferrit his wife as a husband should be. Defense of loved ones is a noble task indeed.
I have only been here a short time...but I will do what I can to help Kyle defend his home. He has bade me to stay with Ferrit and he will be with us shortly. He wears his armor full time now...walking around Mistone...Hlint in particular...with the same focus as Garent. I think believes that even though Dregar is the likely place the battle begins...some of Blood's forces may try to sneak in and take Mistone.
I am helping Ferrit secure their room in Krandor. Kyle wishes us to be in Hlint when the battle starts so we can be near to give him strength.
Gods know we could all use some support now...
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The battle is over but the war still rages...
Kyle came back to Krandor. He was deep in thought. Seems that the dark cloud over our heads will be here for a very long time. And we are already feel it getting colder. The cloud is the remants of what he calls a 'bloodwell' and it's destruction was what caused it. He went on to tell what this Ozymandias had told him. That the world will be fundamentally changed. To one that will focus on surviving. He has told us to gather all the food and edible plants we can find. To make warm clothes...to prepare.
I just looked at him. He is a picture of worry. He is worried not only for us but all of his friends. He was always like that. But there is something else on his mind too. Something he doesn't wish to discuss.
I will have to leave him to his thoughts...
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Errands...errands...errands...
I made a little coin delivering more letters for the elf girl in Krandor. And got some Willo Wisp essence for Dalton in Fort Llast. That drew the attention of Ozymandias...who thanked me for doing such a fine deed. Seems Dalton is trying to figure out a way to make artificial sunlight to grow things. Since this dark cloud doesn't seem to be going away anytime soon.
I wish to learn how to be a 'Dancer'. I would ask Kiva...but Kyle tells me to keep away from him. Kiva must have said something awful to evoke such a reaction from Kyle...so I won't ask Kiva.
I'll find someone who will teach me...
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And I can't ask Abigail now either...
She...hung herself from a tree in the Seilwood a few days ago. She was despondent the last few days...but I never thought she would end her own life. I thought she was a strong woman. I guess whatever bothered her was too much to bear. I can't think of what it could have been.
I met Rain and his bride to be Sonya. They are happy with each other. Just like Kyle and Ferrit. I could only hope I find a good man for myself. Sonya said that I will find the right man. And...heh...suggested Elgon Merrick. I met him briefly...but we met formally in the Craft House. He seems to be a good man...we shall see. We travelled a little while late to gather oak. This other man Eagle went with us. Elgon is good with his blade. The trip was...enjoyable.
But I don't really know him that well...I'll travel with him some more...and we shall see...
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I don't know what came over me...
Elgon Merrick and Rain Darsus caught me in Hlint. Rain gave me an invitation to his wedding to Sonya. Guess I need to make a new dress. The one I was wearing was nice they said...but I don't think it is fit for a wedding. I'm not quite sure...but Elgon's eye seemed to linger a little bit longer. Well...Rain suggested that I go with Elgon...and I'm agreeable to that. He is a sweet man after all.
The crowd around us was loud and Elgon and I went out to the camp outside the gates for a little quiet and talk. We talked about him...how he'd be nervous being with me at the wedding...and I told him a little of why I was here. I hope he wasn't put off. I was getting weary...and we got up to go...and that's when I did it. I kissed his cheek. Just on the spur of the moment. His face turned beet red and he started to stutter a bit. Guess he's not used to a friendly peck on the cheek. We said our goodbys as he needed to get some work done. I needed to get some rest. He is such a sweet man...
I have a dress to make for a wedding...
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Of all the stupid things to have happen...
Gathering silk in the Seilwood...I tripped. I know...for someone like me...that is an event. I had cleared the spiders lair when I just caught my foot on a tree root and down I went...twisting my ankle badly. I must have had something else on my mind to have been so clumsy. It hurt so bad...I almost had to crawl back to Hilnt to see the healer. She did all she could but the ankle still couldn't support my weight...so I had to limp to my room in the Wild Surge. That's where I caught Kyle. He was getting ready for Rain and Sonya's wedding. That made me feel so rotten. I have to stand Elgon up. I just can't let him see me limping about.
I gave Kyle a note for him. His eyes raised at who the note was for...but he said nothing. "I'll see he gets it sis. Just rest that ankle and I'll see you once I get back." Was what he said before leaving. I hope he doesn't scare Elgon off. I'm beginning to like him.
Elgon...
My ankle felt better enough for me to gather cotton for cloth. I just had to get out of that cursed room. He and Rain saw my limp and Elgon almost knocked me over in his haste to get to me. And he got really annoyed when I told him about what happened. He was worse than Kyle. Said it wasn't 'Permissable' for me to venture alone. As if I need permission...I'll straighten him out later about that. However...I said I wouldn't go too far out of town alone anymore if it will make him feel better.
He told me of himself...a warrior...whose human father...died in a pointless battle...and a mother...who died a short time later of a broken heart he thinks. I was leaning against him as we sat under a tree...and I started to feel...comfortable with him. I never felt this way before...I am not sure how to go from here. This is a new thing for me.
I got up to go home...it was getting late...and Elgon stood up and took my hands in his. He said he isn't really the romantic type like Rain...but his hands were gentle. And that's when he did it. He kissed my cheek this time. I...I...well...I just blushed and went home.
I couldn't sleep much this night...
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I don't understand...
Elgon said some things that I'm not quite sure what to make of. First...he likes my free spirit...and that he would never want to be posssessive or over protective. And...that he had heard of my relationship with Talen Sgath. What relationship? Talen and I are just good friends...his heart beats for another. I like Talen...but not in the way Elgon thinks.
Elgon said I should take care of the 'unfinished business' in my heart. What does that mean? I have no 'unfinished business' in my heart or any place else for that matter.
He says he cares for me...and I care about him but...if his heart has doubts...maybe we just aren't meant for each other...*tear stain as the ink trails off*
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I finally made a pair of Badger Gloves...
Now my work as a tailor is improving. But I'm running out of gold. The tanning supplies are expensive. But when I saw the gloves that I can truly say are mine...I was estatic. Even Ferrit said they were of good quality. I would give them to Elgon as a gift...but...
I must concentrate on my crafting...
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I am falling for him...
I can't help it...he is such a sweet man. He found me in the Craft House...trying to alter another dress. He was so happy to see me...he literally jumped across the room in a single step. I have to admit...I was happy to see him too. He needed to talk to me so we left the Craft House and went to Lake Alon.
We sat...and Elgon started to apologize to me. Again....he said he liked my free spirit...that he would never wish to 'possess' me. That he has feelings for me he needs to deal with. And that he shouldn't have gotten so jealous of Talen. I admitted to him that I found Talen a handsome man...but all that is between us is friendship. A good friendship. One I won't give up.
The feelings I have for Elgon...they are new to me as well...I never felt this way about a man before. I am scared. Elgon asked for forgiveness for his jealousy. My only reply was to kiss him gently. It was the only answer I could give him. He smiled and we held each other for a moment.
Then those two peeping toms...Rain and Mercas...wanted to go into Haven Mines. For iron platinum and coal. And a few other gemstones. The way Mercas can sling those spells...
It was fun....seeing those ogres fall in front of us. And...I brought the head of the Ogre Chief...to the Lord of Haven Castle. We made it out and we started to part ways. Except for Elgon. He accompanied me to Hlint. We shared one more kiss goodbye and he was off...
I am glad...
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I made a surprise for Elgon...
A backless blue dress. One of my better ones. When he saw it he couldn't take his eyes off of me for even an instant. We held each other for a moment...sharing a kiss again...before joining the others who were waiting by the well.
We went into Storan's crypt. A very dangerous place. Things that can kill with a gaze...Bodaks they are called. I was nervous in there. We got the teeth of those things...I had to keep popping the lock on one of the doors for everyone to leave.
I was grateful when we finally left that place. I won't be going back too soon. Elgon and I parted once we got to the road to the Fort. We kissed and he went to Krandor....I went to that lumpy bed in the Wild Surge. If he were to ask me to go to Krandor with him...
I think I'm in love with him. And I'd better tell Kyle. Before he gets it from someone else...
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I was really nervous...
I left a message for Kyle to meet me in the Wild Surge. It was time I told him about Elgon and me. He's going to be partners with Elgon soon...and I want to see how this might affect that. Not that Kyle can do anything about it...I won't give Elgon up.
I just want him to see that I am staying out of trouble. That my past misadventures are just that...in the past. I hope Kyle can be happy for us.
Elgon...
I love him...and it is so sweet when he blushes and get tongue tied whenever we get affectionate. I admit...I get a little flustered too...I don't want to go too fast with this. And I hope he understands that. But there is something on his mind. He is too nervous. And I'm afraid to ask him. He will tell me when he is ready.
Here comes Kyle...time to get this over with...
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Kyle took it pretty well...
He in his own way is happy about it. Although when he first came to the Wild Surge...he wasn't too sure about what it was. "Jenna...you aren't in trouble again are you? Amith sent me a message and told me about the last time. What is it?" He looked visibly annoyed. I had to quickly calm him down.
When I finally told him about Elgon...he just sat there silent. I could tell he was...surprised. But he then smiled and said..."And you said you weren't in trouble. Elgon eh?" He chuckled. Then he admitted that Rain had already told him about us. Now it was my turn to be surprised.
"Kyle..." I hit his arm...hurting my hand. "And you let me prattle on..." He just smiled...paid for the drinks and turned to leave. "Jen...just be careful ok? He is a warrior. And warriors fight. Be prepared for that. And....be happy with him." We hugged a second before he needed to leave. "I need to speak with Elgon. Make sure his heart knows what it's getting itself into." And he left the Surge. I went to find Elgon.
I want so much to be with him now...
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I've been neglecting him far too long...
I have been busy in the Craft House. I don't even know if Elgon has even been in there....I was so absorbed in crafts. I am still not sure which craft I like best...tailoring or jewelcraft. Maybe a little of both. I'll have to ask Ferrit which would be best.
I find my mind wandering...thinking of Elgon. I sent him a bird...just to let him know that I think of him and I love him. I will make a dinner for the two of us.
I miss him so much...
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Something is wrong with Elgon...
Rain was a little fidgety when I mentioned how I miss Elgon...all he could say was that I need to talk to Elgon...and it would be better if it came from him. No amount of pleading could make Rain tell me what it was. I feared the worst. Maybe Elgon doesn't love me anymore...and that his heart has found another. I was almost about to cry. Rain assured me that Elgon loves me with all his heart. But still would not tell me what was going on.
That was until Mercas mentioned something about an 'issue' with Elgon's sword. Now...I know that warriors get attatched to their weapons...Kyle is training to master his katana...but the way Mercas made it sound...I hope Elgon is alright. I looked all over Hlint for him. I so want to see him and hold him for when he tells me what he needs to tell me. I am frightened.
Sonya was up and about. She is about due to give birth. And while walking to Krandor...she stopped and grabbed her belly twice. Now...if this means what I think it means...Rain will be a daddy come tomorrow. That will be a happy day.
I think I'll check the Craft House for my love...I need to see him...
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The 'issue' with Elgon's sword is difficult to explain...
It is a sword that was handed down from generation to generation on his mother's side. However...it wound up in the hands of his father. And somehow...his father did not die in a needless battle as Elgon first thought...but impaled on his own sword in the barracks. An apparent suicide. His mother died of a broken heart...feeling guilty for giving Elgon's father the sword in the first place.
Now...Elgon feels an entitiy in the sword...one that may be a danger to all he cares for...including me. I told him as we held each other at Lake Ibnoune...that he coudn't harm me...that his love would be stronger. And that Kyle may be able to help him master his sword.
I hope it will be enough...
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The twins are just adorable...
I went to Krandor to find Elgon....and met Rain and Sonya. Sonya had been cooped up in their house ever since the birth and is getting cabin fever. They needed a babysitter...so I volunteered. The look on Sonya's face...priceless. She so wanted to get out of the house. They were going to meet up with Kyle...Ferrit and Mercas to go to Rilara or Dregar...maybe both. So they left me with Sarah and Tristan.
They are so small...and precious. Tristan made a little mess...which I did my best to clean up. Looking at them...makes me think...Wait. Jenna....Jenna...it's too early to be thinking that. Don't even know if he wants kids. It's way too soon. And he has his sword to deal with.
Maybe after that...who knows...
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I must be a horrible woman...
Elgon must think I'm avoiding him. I don't see him for days on end...and I may be losing his love. I sent him a bird to tell him I love him and will try to be around more for him. I hope I can rekindle his love...if I haven't already lost it. I don't know what I would do if I did.
I got a present from Rain. An iron shortsword. Much better than the dagger. And I like using it. It feels well made. But I can't stop thinking about Elgon. I may be hurting him...and I don't want to do that. She looks at the shortsword in her hand. I'd as soon take this sword and...She shakes her head quickly.
Stop it Jenna. He loves you. Wait until you see him again. You will see...
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I...I...did see him again...
And...The writing is a little wobbly as if written by a nervous hand* And he asked me to marry him!!! Gave me this beautiful ring...I...I...
I will write more later...The ink trails off...
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Must I be treated like a child?....
We went to this swamp near Fort Velensk. It was filled with trolls. But I was really unable to do anything. Mercas kept throwing invisibility on and got mad whenever I attacked and dispelled it. Said..."We will not have any risks...". But that didn't stop Rain from falling. Poor Sonya...beside herself with grief. I said I will go and find Kyle...and that's when I heard something I thought I'd never hear...
"Maybe I shouldn't have let you come here...my love." Elgon's words hurt. He let me come. This is a man who I promised myself to...and he treats me like a child. Mercas too. I just went to find Kyle. I didn't want Elgon to see me cry.
Maybe I'll be away for a while. Then he won't have to let me go anywhere....
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I have been unfair to Elgon...
We had a fight over what he said to me in that swamp. But...when I think about it...I was being unfair to him. He just wants to keep me safe...and I love him for that. I was more angry at Mercas. Mercas casts an invisibility on me...and expects me to just watch as Elgon takes a beating. I just can't do that. So...Mercas is just going to have to live with the fact that I will help protect my love from harm as best I can.
As for Elgon...
I feel awful. I go and don't see him for long periods of time...and he is wondering about us I think. So...I wore the dress he likes so much....and told him I will try to be around more for him. He deserves that from me.
Just as he deserves all of the love I can give him. ALL of it...
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I must go home with Kyle...
He said Mother is ill and could die. He leaves Ferrit in charge of the guild he runs...but I know he wishes she could be there with him. As much as I wish Elgon could be with me. I don't know if I should go home....the magistrate may throw me back in the city jail. I still haven't paid his son back.
I hope Kyle can smooth thing out at least for a few days....
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Thank the gods for Kyle...
The guards were waiting for me at the North Hampshire docks as we stepped off the boat. Kyle spoke to the Captian of the Guard and they let us through.
Mother was deathly sick. The healers used all their skill to cure her. If I didn't know better...I'd say she was poisoned or something. But who would do such a thing? Mother has no enemies. She is resting comfoprtably and Kyle and I went back to Mistone.
Something smells fishy. And I don't mean from the docks...
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I haven't written in a while so it is time to catch up...
A couple of weeks ago...Elgon met me at Lake Palden where we sat on the little island just off the shore. He told me that sword of his had shattered. At first I was glad...for he said the sword somehow wanted to control him and that since it wass no longer...he was free. But he says that demons still haunt him. And that he must leave for a while. No amount of talking could convince him that my place was with him. That I love him and wish to see this though with him.
So...as we sat there next to the fire...we showed each other how much we loved each other. And we held each other till the dawn light broke over the lake.
I know now that I must stay with him as much as I can. He deserves it....
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I have been spending more time with Elgon now...
And it may be a little too late. *tear stain* Elgon fell on Firesteep Mountain. And he lost another piece of his soul. And he tells me the next time he does...*more tear stains*
We showed how much love we have for each other again. But I sense fear in Elgon. Fear of leaving me forever. And it shows. He hardly goes out with the group anymore. And it tears him up inside. If that isn't death...then I don't know what is. I must not be the cause of that.
I won't be...
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Is it a punishment for me?...
Elgon is betrothed to someone already. Some sort of arrainged thing done when he was very young. Some sort of family tradition. Some tradition. Now...he said I am his life...the one he wishes to spend the rest of his life with...and that the arraingment means nothing. That he hasn't been in touch with his family in years...and that the only reason he remembers is because his cousin came to tell him that the time draws near.
Elgon now must fight the brother of the woman to the death to be released!!! I am so afraid for him...despite his assurances that he will not die. He has only one more strand of his soul left and if he should get another visit...
I...I....*the ink trails off*
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A lot has happened so I'll be brief...
Elgon has returned to me safe and sound. I'm so glad I nearly knocked him over when I saw him. We have a lot of things to talk about. Our wedding perhaps?
And Ferrit is pregnant. That will make me Auntie Jenna. More babysitting for me I guess. Ferrit will make a fine mother. And Kyle a terrific daddy. Maybe Elgon and I could...
Well...I'll go and see him. Like I said...we have a lot to talk about...
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Rain scares me...
We had gone to Haven...and something came over Rain which frightened me. His eyes glowed golden under his mask...and he was filled with a blood lust that filled me with such fear...he looked at me like I was like one of them ogres. And he kept on stabbing the bodies...even after they were dead. I was mortified and frightened out of my wits. Thought he was going to kill me too.
I was glad when we left Haven. I never left Elgon's side the whole time. Rain ran off and when we found him...he was unconscious amidst a pile of slaughtered animal carcasses...I kept my distance from him. Then...when he came around...he spoke of a curse. A curse that causes the blood lust...and he doesn't remember what happens when he gets like this. He may even hurt one of us.
Rain is Elgon's friend...and I love and trust Elgon. But...I think I'm going to keep my distance from Rain and my hand on my blade.
I am so frightened...
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I can't stay away for too much longer...
By staying away from Rain...I'm also staying away from Elgon. They are like brothers and it is wrong of me to hope Elgon would stay away too. I'm still going to keep an eye on Rain. I still am a little wary of that blood lust of his.
I have a nephew...
Cole is his name. Ferrit gave birth to him a few days ago. I'll have to see him soon. From what I was told...Kyle had to deliver him because Cole wanted to be born quickly. They didn't have time to find Sala Stonehill to be midwife.
That must have been something...Kyle delivering a baby. I would have paid to see that. Well...guess I'm going to have to make some baby clothes for my nephew. Cole...a nice name. It has a nice sound to it...Cole Pandorn. Very nice sound to it.
If he is anything like Kyle...he will out grow them as fast as I could make them...
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I now know what it feels like...
My poor love Elgon has felt this nine times. The one they call the Soul Mother. I fell in a place called the Berhagen Mountains to a beast called a yeti. This was no ordinary fall...there was a cold touch and the pain was exquisite. Like a thousand arrows hitting every spot on my body. And I thought I heard...laughter. As if someone was takikng great joy in my pain.
Elgon...he says it will only get worse. I believe him. And he is one more touch from being taken from me forever. I hope that it never happens...
I had to face Rain...
He says he can control this...this...curse. And that he would rather die than hurt any of us. I believe him too. He also told me that he swore Elgon to end him should he hurt any of us. That is like asking Elgon to cut his own head off. It shouldn't come to that. He has controlled it for two years now...and he can control it again.
I hope so...for his sake and ours...
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*A very drunk hand writes this page. A number of tear stains dot it throughout*
Oh my dear sweet Elgon...
My love...my heart...why? Why did you have to leave? I'll never see your smile...hear your laugh...take you in my arms at night...ever again.
Why did you have to go into that cave? Was the minerals and ore really worth it? Was it worth your last strand? And I wasn't there by your side like I promised. I was busy being curious about Hurm. Hurm. The last place we were together. The last night we spent together. In the morning you were gone...a rose on the pillow. I thought nothing of it really...you usually gave me a rose before leaving.
I said to myself...'I'll see him in Hlint or Port Hampshire. I can help him get iron or something. We can cuddle the night away after. And plan our elopement.'
But now...your funeral is being planned. I will wear the ring you gave me for our engagement. I will even think about taking your name anyway. I...I...
I love you my sweet Elgon...always...
*the writing trails away as if Jenna has passed out.*
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There maybe something of Elgon that lives on...
I have been ill lately. Usually during the day and it comes and goes. I...am afraid to say it...but I may be with child. Elgon's child. It has been 4 months since we...were in Hurm. That last night we were together. That last night I saw my beloved alive. I am sure I am...but I'll need someone to confirm it. I'll have to find Drogo.
I am both happy and sad at this. Our child will never know his or her father. But a part of Elgon will live on. And I will see Elgon in him or her every time I look at our child. I hope I can be a good mother...
And somewhere Elgon is looking down at us and smiling I hope...
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I've been to the healers...
And they have confirmed it. I'm having Elgon's baby. And I'm starting to outgrow my clothes. I can't go venturing much...my belly makes it harder to sneak around. So...I walk around Hlint...trying to craft my clothes.
I also watch Cole while Kyle and Ferrit are out venturing or working for the guild. 'You'll need the practice Jenna' Ferrit says with a grin on her face. Cole is walking around now...and I'm constantly running after him. Little bundle of energy he is. Just like Kyle.
Time to go rest. I get tired a lot now too...
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I am getting huge...
I had to take out my clothes every week. Has to be a boy...the girls in the Pandorn family aren't that big. I need to come up with a name for the baby.
I think Krindo if a boy. After my father. A proud warrior...just like Elgon was. My gods....haven't written them and told them. They will be surprised. Me...always getting into trouble...now going to be a mother. Who would have though?
If a girl...maybe Ardora...after my childhood friend who died while we were young. I loved her almost as much as Amith and Dana. Just like a sister she was to me.
I have a few more months to decide. Now...I think I'll waddle over to the craft house to make baby clothes. Some for a boy some for a girl.
I need to keep busy...gods I'm big...
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The baby's coming soon...
The kicking is getting more frequent. Heh...it would have to be just like Elgon....fighting his or her way out. Seems this is the time for babies to be born. Rain and Sonya had triplets!!! One they named Elgon. *tear stain* I will have to go see them on Dregar.
Not a day goes by that I don't think of Elgon. How he would have reacted to me carrying his child. I think he would have been happy. Someone to carry his bloodline on. *Jenna touches her belly as the baby gives a good kick*
Ow...that one was hard. Time to get some rest. I need to make leathers tomorrow. Anything to keep me busy.
Goodnight my child...and to you Elgon my love...
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He's here!!!...
Krindo Merrick Pandorn. A son...our son. He looks a bit like Elgon too. I was trying to work deer leather when the first pains hit. Dora was there and we tried to get to the Wild Surge...but Krindo just couldn't wait. So...we went to the barn.
I was sooo scared. But Dora helped me through it. She is a healer after all. Little did I know that she never delivered a baby before. Just her being there was enough. Then Rain...Lance and Omer showed...and helped me to the Surge. Lance was especially worried and made sure I got to my room. He is just as kind as Elgon was. Must run in the Merrick family.
I look at Krindo and see a lot of Elgon. I loved Elgon so much and now...I love our son just as much. I need to sleep now. It has been an eventful day...
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Krindo is getting big...
He is 4 months old now. And he is getting bigger every day. I take him with me as much as possible. In the craft house...everyone flocked to me when I came in to clean out some things. I even let Lance Merrick hold him a moment. Krindo seemed to like it.
Lance. A nice enough sort. Genuinely concerned for me and Krindo I think. I don't know. Maybe he feels a duty to take care of Elgon's...and yes....Elgon's family. But...I'm not ready to have another man in my life yet. I'm still hurt over losing Elgon. I don't think I want to get involved with another warrior just to lose him again. I don't know how to tell Lance this. Better think of something before he gets hurt. I don't want to do that. He is a nice man.
Darn you Merricks. Why do you all have to be nice...
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It is said that bad things happen to good people...
The disaster in Hurm has released a new danger. A plague. And almost my whole family has got it. Kyle and Ferrit have it. Ferrit passing through Hurm when the disaster struck and brought the plague to Kyle. Then Omer...Daniel...Jako Stonehill get it. Rain shows no signs...but he is staying away to be sure. Krindo and I have been declared free of it...so I will take Cole and care for him until a cure is found. If there is one. You know how healers can be very secretive about these things.
I feel so helpless. I can't go near them or I run the risk of getting the disease. What I can do is bring food to them and leave them at the door. If there are gods...why don't they help them?
I better get Cole settled. He may be with me a while...
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They are cured...
A cure of sorts was found and dispensed to all who contracted the plague. Cole was overjoyed to see Kyle when he came to take Cole to Ferrit...it put a happy ending to an otherwise horrible experience. He even gave me a couple of doses of the cure...just in case.
Now...I need to help them scrub down their house so the plague is no longer a threat. I'll have to take one of those cures before going in. Kyle thanked me and said that if it wasn't for my plea in the Wild Surge...this Plen Ashely wouldn't have known to cure them. I'm glad he has such friends that would come to his aid if he needed tham.
I am going to Krandor...clean up needs to start...
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I must take Krindo back to Vanavar....
It is getting strange around here. Talk of treason. The plague...the colder weather coming south. It is becoming dangerous around here.
I will leave Krindo with Mother and Father and return to Mistone. I love Kyle and Ferrit and little Cole...but I must get Krindo to safety.
I will return...
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*Jenna strides into the Wild Surge...Krindo strapped to her back. She flips 7 gold pieces to Yastin and enters her usual room. Once inside she sets Krindo down on the bed. She finds the leather bound journal.*
Well...that was a short homecoming....
While Father was pleased to have a grandchild named after him...Mother looked at me with shame. How I could bear a man's child without marrying him...she wouldn't even listen to me when I told her he died before I even knew...she won't even acknowledge her grandson. What does she wish me to do? Give up my only child to preserve HER reputation? Never...
I can't stay there. Krindo even feels Mother's disdain...and he cries all the time. There was only one thing for me to do. I have returned to Mistone and to the only family who would have me. Maybe Kyle could soften Mother's heart. Then she may accept us again.
I hope so...I dearly hope so...
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A lot has happened since I wrote last...
First...Ferrit and Kyle have a new daughter...Aylana. Such a pretty name. And pretty hair. But reddish brown. Like Uncle Tyler's used to be. Well...anyway she's a beautiful baby...and I get to baby sit every now and then.
Krindo and Cole...thay are more like brothers than cousins. Which is good...because Krindo needs someone his own age to be around...to grow close to. And I believe they will be close. It would make my heart glad.
Now...there are rumblings of discord on Alindor...since the declaration of an agreement with Milara. One town....Karthy...I believe is in a state of martial law has doubled the guards. Never been to Karthy...and I don't think I'll be going there anytime soon. Oh well...just some inflated egos at work there.
So many changes around me...and I have been stagnant. Time to get my life together and move on...