The World of Layonara
Character Development => Development Journals and Discussion => Topic started by: curtwise on July 02, 2006, 01:16:30 PM
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i have done my chores, fulfilled the quests asked of me and learned to fight with some of the best. I am not dedicated to any deity except to survival. I have some friends and a few enemies as well.
I stand for what is right and good, not a Paladin by any means, but a respecter of persons and especially the underdogs. I despise ego maniacs and arrogance, especially when it hurts others.There are a few of those in Hlint. But mainly the people i have met are gracious and genuinely concerned about others and Layonara.
I work hard at learning about the different crafts and have acquired skills in Fletching, trinkering and wood working. I am learning to cook but my food turns out like sandpaper and the sandpaper turns out crummy. I can make weapons, bows and hope to learn more about armor and iron weapons.
I smelt copper, tin and iron and am learning to work other ores also.
I can cut some gem stones but make more dust than anything (except greenstone).
I am a little shy around the ladies but enjoy the company of a thoughtful woman. One who is self reliant and not insecure. I like sitting around a campfire cooking deer meat and talking of the universe and the grand scale of things. I share but not too much at a time and feel that i have time to make friends before bearing my soul.
Speaking of sharing, i make things and find things and give things away. That is my choice and i delight in giving gifts. I like sharing with good friends and good times and have been known to drink a brew or two.
I look forward to living and growing in Layonara and I know not where i shall end up but will enjoy the trip to getting there!
I hope to focus more energies on my fighting abilities and would like to become a weapons master. I am patient as i shall live a long and happy life and will get stronger everyday.
With time devoted to perfecting my abilites and fighting techniques i will have little time for social engagements and frivolous affairs. But am most willing to spend some mutually gratifying time and experience with the right lady. Maybe that makes me too serious for most but that is the way to get ahead in this world. Work and fighting with love trailing as third priority. I am young and open to change and hope to have the satisfaction of meeting my "soul" mate someday.
I have recently had the pleasure of meeting several very nice young ladies. One in particular catches my interest but i need to spend more time with her to see if "we" get on with each other. Time will tell.
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I ran into an old fighting friend yesterday, Elrend. He had been on a journey and recently returned. We adventured with some others into the Temple of the Eye. Elrend always seems to have some goal to attend to and we accomplished just that. I regard him as a very good friend.
Met with Robert Hearth briefly before he had to leave. He has taught me much about stategy and fighting. He's been a good friend and a life saver too. I enjoy adventuring with Rob.
Talked briefly with the love sick Paladin, Thomas. He's to be treasured for sure but cant help but worry about his heart on his sleeve.
Then There's Nepp, his ragged sense of humor and endless energy, good adventure buddy.
I havent seen much of Cym lately, we seemed to have lost our connection. NOt sure what happened there if anything. Could be we are both very busy. He is industirous and has been supportive of me from the very beginning of my stay in Hlint. I hope to keep in touch with him, continue to be friends and work together.
There are some many new faces of late, it's hard to keep track of names. I have had the pleasure of taking some new folks around Hlint. Eagle comes to mind. I dont understand him yet but he appears to be steadfast and well principaled.
I recently have met a man of unusual manner. Rain Darsus, he has approached me with an interesting business proposition. He is also planning and talking of marriage to a friend i met some time back, Sonya. She's an interesting person of strong beliefs and principals. Although she practices magic of the darkside, she is quite straight forward and helpful.
Rain is a kind and giving person, very trusting of others. He seems to be quite genuine in his words and deeds. I have pledged my sword to him should he ever need it.
Rain recently introduced me to Jenna Pandorn. She is quite nice (but not shy) nor given over to pretense. I like that in a person. She recently made inquiry as to an oak short bow. So i made her one and some ammo to go with it. She was very appreciative in a most genuine way. I like that too. We've been on two adventures, both quite short in duration but a good time just the same. She is a proficient archer and not afraid of battle. I like that very much!
I dont see much of her though and she seems interested in someone of whom I'm not sure. I just sense soemething unsettled with her heart (maybe).
We'll see what tomorrow brings!
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Met two adventurers today and we went on a grand tour of areas that i had only been to once before. We fought blue snakes and giants of the desert. Samir is a most interesting sort of fellow, generous to a fault and brave beyond imagination. His prowess with his sword proved to be the undoing of our enemies. It was fun and exciting despite the fact that our traveling companion Seril fell to the giants of the desert.
Samir was most regretful and sincere in his loss of his apparent friend. Truly a remarkable and giving warrior this Samir. I shall seek his council in matters of fighting again as he is a good instructor and i learned much from him that day.
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By chance i met Jenna Pandorn(or was it chance since Rain had beckoned me), Rain suggested that i take Jenna to His and Sonya's wedding. I must admit i was caught off guard and realized i dont own a tuxedo or shoes for that matter. In my clunky sort of way, sort of asked her if she would go with me. Sort of! She didnt say yes but stated that it would be nice. I think that means yes, now what to do, i cant dance?!
She was wearing a striking dress of her own making. She is very talented.
We stole off to the campfire for some private convsersation. I think things went well. She suddenly got up and yawned saying it was late and had to leave. We said our good byes and good nites, and that's when it happened, she gave me a kiss on the cheek!
I did what every normal red blooded half elf would do, i blushed and decided to load my ox for some travel. I was over come by fear. My face was as red as the fire and a fire burned within myself. I am taken...no smitten by this girl...this lady? I cant think right now, better go kill some ogres and get right with the world.
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Got a summons from Elrend my old friend to go to Roldem. I've never been there and didnt think i had it in me. He encouraged and said the party didnt mind if i joined. I met up with Q=Quilius and Karana who always enjoys insulting me. I think she doesnt mean it personally but so what? I met a very strong cleric but cant recall her name now? I hate not remembering names.
She was graceful but forceful with her spells and her fighting. Very interesting person.
We ventured through drow and giants and nearly lost ourselves with the earth elementals, huge ones. i survived but barely. Karana took the front and the brunt of the attack and i tried to flank em. It worked for me but i think Karana took a beating, probably used to it by now!
We got good coin and i learned that is no place for me to be alone!
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So many adventures have come my way. I cant but think that Tegan is by far the most upredictable woman i know, but one of the best magics there is. She heals when needed and fireballs the heck out of em when needed. Great fun. But her mood can turn quickly, dont cross her!
Armolas is quite different in behavior, hard to tell when he's serious or kidding. But he seems to have a good sense of humor, I think? He's a pretty straight up guy though and good at strategy too. Enjoyed fighting along side of him.
The most predictable fighters and reliable are probably Elrend and Silverhand. Both set out to accomplish and go for it. Sometimes over my head but i usually survive. Great adventuring fun with either of those guys. Silver is generous with me always giving me items without expecting. Elrend too, they would both fight ya for the last gold coin but would give ya the shirt off their back.
Rain, what a great wedding. Those two (Rain and Sonya)seem destined for one another. Rain seems naive at times but is generous to a fault. I feel like he is a brother to me. He is still moving on the guild idea. Hope it works out. I am grateful for the friends that i have made in Layonara.
Then there is Jenna, so innocent and sweet but not without sparkle and shine. She is something else! I cant describe how i feel, not now anyway, too early. She makes me feel worthwhile and like i'm a man. I must think on this more and be cautious. As her brother (Kyle) has informed me. I dont know Kyle, he seems kind enough but serious enough so as not to cross him. I will go slowly and thoughtfully in regards to Miss Jenna. I respect her and wouldnt want to cause her harm or hurt.
Time to go to bed and rest, so much crafting to be done..tomorrow!
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Lousy day of andventuring two mortalities with Robert and Strykyr. Vampires and trolls terrible curses they are. Upside? i ran into Samir again, had a good conversation with him and went on a short adventure. Man can he fight and his magic! Great fun and what a teacher too. He knows his way around so well. Awesome warrior!
Got back to town in a bad mood and found Jenna in the crafting house with her old friend Talen. Didn't mean much at first, but when i saw them laughing and whispering to each other, something raged up inside. Jealous? me? why? It was an ugly moment for me, inside and out.
I said some things to Jenna i shouldnt have and didnt mean. I need to find her and speak with her.
MY crafting as of late has been off, made an oak staff and and oak short bow. Tinkered a bit and made some arrows. Lost the silver arrow heads and some of the platty too. Couldn't believe the luck.
Met Cym and crafted 3 crystal rods for him. Got very lucky!
Ran into Mercas, and we talked about the Guild and him heading it up. He is genuine and so sincere. I liked him the day i met him, seems like eons ago now. He is one who has my sword anytime!
Had a most interesting conversation with Jaleel, he seemed very disturbed aobut some actions taken by some members of a party he was with in High Forest. Something about Paladins and Rangers not behaving accordingly. I didnt ask names but tried to help him understand how we folk of Hlint are all struggling under stressful times and circumstances. He said he felt better but I think his faith had been shattered.
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Worked at my crafting today and gained some vital experience in cooking. Gathered more oak than i care to think about. Tried to make an oak long bow for Dalan but failed. Filled an order of oak parchment for Elrend for his scribing, twenty sheets. Finished the arrows for Rain and made a few iron tips for me self too.
My heart aches when i think of how much i have to say to Jenna and havent seen her for days. I hope that doesnt mean i've lost her favor. Just need to work harder and keep my mind on crafting and perfecting my weapon skills. I feel stronger everyday but havent done much fighting lately.
Saw Creighton today, always a gentleman and gracious. Wish i had more opportunities to fight along side of him. Sometimes i feel that i isolate myself too much and bury myself in work.
I miss Jenna's company and smile...hope i didnt mess this up! I need to speak to her and let her know my true feelings and how immature i've been acting. I saw Kyle at the craft house, he spoke and i got tongue tied and just blithered. He must think i'm an idiot and not fit for his sister.
I made some oak shafts for weapons too, Robert wanted some, havent seen him since the other nite. We had such a time drinking and fighting in the arena the other nite. *chuckles to himself* Felt good to let off some steam, even though he beat the dickens out of me. It's late and i'm tired from a long day of crafting, got to get some sleep.
Polishes his sword and sheaths it beside his bed. Curses the spider guts and blood, "Dang i hate spiders"! More oak tomorrow and more spiders to kill, *hoping he doesnt have any nightmares about spiders*
*Turning his thoughts to Jenna* pleasant dreams my love, *the words bearly escaping his tired lips*
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Another day of crafting making oak bows.
Met up with Rain and we went for sand for Treana, so sorry to hear of Addison. I had just purchased an amulet of Shield from her to, i shall cherish it.And of all things Rain mentions or rather announced that Sonya is with child. He is very excited and worried. Something about planning for the future and staying alive to raise his child and other ramblings.
Rain gave me a key to a house in Krandor and said i could use a room. We met with Nyyana and Mercas, in Krandor and Mercas bought a house on the spot. Very nice house and they both seemed very pleased about it. I do believe that Nyyana and Mercas are nesting. So now we have a house warming to plan for, i'd like to make some furniture for the house but...well not very talented at that yet.
I miss Jenna in my heart but i keep busy with crafting but seeing Nyyana and Mercas together and so happy..well...it kind of hurt.
Rain and i have had some very deep discussions of late and it has got me to thinking of my future rather than just blindly wandering through life. He has a kind heart and a deep consideration for others, something i believe that i lack? I just dont have social skills. I was raised alone by my mother and ended up raising my little sister and brother. I had no time for social graces, just survival and provison.
Growing up! Bah! not what it's all cracked up to be! Perhaps i should leave here and hire on as a mercenary somewhere. Just live to fight, it's so much simpler that all this who's who and what's what in Hlint!
Tired now, killed some snakes in the desert, best get those guts off me sword. *wiping his sword clean, Elgon falls back onto the bed* ZZZZZZZzzzzz.....
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Saw Jenna at the craft house in Hlint yesterday. She is so beautiful, more than i deserve. We talked for a bit and sat by the Lake Alon. We held each other and kissed. What a night!
Then we went to Haven on a run with Mercas and Rain. What fun! Mercas has become a fearsome force. He wields his spells with an authority that impacts anything that stood in our way. Great fun to watch him work.
It was Jenna's first trip to Haven and she seemed a little frightened at first but she is a bold adventurer and stood her ground well. She is a fighter too with good skills. She looked amazing in her outfit, ummmmm!
I think i've fallen for Jenna, dont know what that means yet, but it feels kind of funny at times...inside me. She makes me so happy, i look forward to seeing her again and again and again, etc.
Time to rest, got more arrows to make tomorrow and hopefully i will see the light of my life, Jenna.
*repairs his mining pick* and *cleans his sword* *drifting off into a dream of Jenna and her beauty*.......ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz..........
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Jenna and I talked and i appologized to her, and she was gracious. She showed me a spledid dress that she said was for my eyes only...what a lady! Take her out of the leathers and put on a dress and whew! I didnt want to go fight that nite, just set with her and look into her eyes.
We ended up going to Borlan's Crypt or whatever it's called? We had a great group with Cym and Mercas flinging fireballs, there wasnt much left for a fighter to do though.
Jenna and i parted shortly thereafter on the way back, she went to Hlint and I to Krandor. Some day, who knows, we may be going home together!
Went to Grey Peaks with a group Armolas ans Tegan lead me and a bunch of newbies up and back. We had casualties but not me this time, the curse is broken! Yahooie!
Then i went to Sielwood with a couple of new guys and ended up dying from spider bites. Things like that keep a fighter humble and hungry for revenge. I hate spiders!! Gained some more experience in woodworking and cooking. Still cant make anything edible though. I need to work on tinkering skills, need to make crystal rods.
Had a strange conversation with Cym about some guild/coop, he was involved with. I believe he said Robert Hearth, Strykyr, Silver and himself are forming. Said Silver might want to see if i would be interested. I like most of the fellows involved but i have a committment to Rain too. Right now i'm a free spirit and i dont owe anyone anything. Feels good!
Made more arrows and a couple of oak bows. Getting tired and cant keep my eyes open...i think i love Jenna...but i love my sword too...fighting or love...or are they the same? Too young to know of these things, i suppose, just a free spirit *reminds self*.
Clean my sword and dream of Jenna...yes...that beautiful blue dress....stunning...ZZZZZzzzzz...
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Most unusual day today; it seemed as though Rain's idea, nay, dream of a guild might be at an end. I believe the Pandorn's are being courted by another guild. The Orc Basher's, to which they belonged at one time, so I am told. I overheard the conversation and discussed it with Rain, thinking they were making inquiry on behalf of "us". Rain imediately went to Ferrit and my heart went crazy...what had i done?
Ferrit tried to assure me that all was ok and so did Rain..but..still..i dont like being in the middle of things like that. I felt like i was betraying the Pandorns, yet upsetting Rain too!
I just stuck to my crafting and busied myself with gathering herbs and oak.
Rain and I spoke as did Kyle Pandorn, it seems as though the "dream" is alive and well, as the Pandorns are still "in". Rain assures me I'm still in too.
Then tonite I met up with Jenna, what a wonderful person she is, so caring and thoughtful. NOt to mention beautiful! She is independent but is considerate of me and my feelings too. She just seems...well...perfect for me. We saw Kura and she realized that we were a "couple", she said some really nice things to us. She is a very sweet person.
Jeena and i got to talking and making some plans when Silver, Cym, Eredel made me an offer to join their fellowhip cooperative, guild to be. I really like and respect all of those guys which includes Robert Hearth and Strykyr. Couldn't give em an answer. Said i'd think it over.
I dont want to lose their friendships but i have a committment to Rain and his group to. I cant believe, that me, Elgon Merrick is demand for anything?! I'm not an outstanding warrior nor an accomplished crafter....wonder what others see in me? I wonder what Jenna sees in me?
Growing up is not an easy task..it was so much easier when i was young and raising my siblings...even by myself...I had real purpose and focus. It was easy to figure out survival and protect my brother and sister. Now its deciding on who to associate with, who to love, who to serve, it gets so confusing sometimes.
I sometimes feel like being a hermit and fighting solo, living in some cave. No one to worry about or complicated decisions to make. But true growing up means being social and interacting with others as i learn about myself...Ha! I gotta go to work.
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Yesterday was boring with the usual chores and crafting. Then there, in the corner, i saw her out of the corner of my eye, trying on new clothes, my Jenna. She has such style and grace, just natural for her. Some women have to work at it, not Jenna, she has the natural ability to compliment me and my personality. She is the envy of others, especially other women. She just makes me beam with pride and burst with virility. Well...yeah its true, i think i'm in love. That's scary to admit but oh so true, true to my heart! Jenna left and i went to Haven mine with Rain and Rhynn, joined by Dora. We did alright, surprisingly, each held their own and we mined, made some coin and survived. I have to admit, Rhynn to me is like sandpaper at times, but we managed to get along for the duration. She is actually a good fighter when she has to be and best of all, she likes to kill! Dora is easy going and easy to get along with, a real team player too. I was impressed with her fighting prowess. That capped my evening, back to some raw fighting, enjoying my weapon! I dont know if Rhynn was just spouting about fighting and weaponry but it means everything to me. I live to feel the blade, piercing and slashing my enemy. The way it feels when my sword hits and breaks different bones in their bodies, ribs are soft and crack easy, arms and legs are tougher and dont break so easy, and heads and skulls are like melons, brains flying everywhere! I want them to bleed and suffer for their filthy existance. Death is not a bad thing, the pain lasts for only a while. A warrior must not be afraid to die, not stupid mind you, just not afraid. A true warrior doesnt charge head long into a death trap, knowing that death would deprive you of the opportunity to live and kill again. You use strategy and study your quarry and find their weakness and strike at it! The satisfaction of a good kill is so rewarding and you feel so powerful afterwards. *looks at his sword, what a beauty she is, he thinks to himself* *smiles broadly and proud*
"But so is Jenna, so beautiful and innocent!" *as he mumbles to himself*
*looks back at his shiny sword*
" But your sting is great and your bite is fierce" *strokes the fine blade*
*looks intently at the sword, and sees his reflection*
*Your reflection seems to be saying*, "until she pierces your heart you fool!"
*Shaking himself head back to reality* You are faithful and true oh Sword of Death but you are cold and cruel and Jenna is warm and loving.
I'll not let you come between us, I swear upon my own mother's death! For that is the fate that killed my father and destroyed my mother, a bloody sword!
Love lost is more painful than any sword thrust to the breast, i'll not let it be my own undoing. The Gods have mercy on my mother's soul, who loved my father so dearly. And he my father, who threw away her undying love for him on a worthless war and his death was of you.....and by you, you cold death steel! *throws the sword down*
I pray to what Gods there are that i not lose the love of my life, please, i pray! *tears falling on his pillow*
Help me to be the man that i need to be, that i will cherish her and drink deeply of her love and savor every sip.
Jenna my love may i dream of thee for an eternity......my love....ZZZZZZzzzzzz.....
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A trip to Haven mines, always a pleasure. We had a young group but some veterans went with us. Got some coal and some iron. Not much though. I didnt feel bad about not getting coin of which i did not partake, or the ore of which i got two nuggs. No...there was something more thrilling, exhilarating if you will...the Sword of Death popping those ogres like swollen casks of dwarven ale. They're inards spewing on the others as i busted them open with my love...the Sword of Death...what a feeling of power and strength! Oh Yeah!!
*thinks to himselfas he admires his sword*
She's never failing in her determination and her precision. She is always there for me, protecting and serving me without asking of me. She requires nothing more than a good cleaning. *pulls out his soft leather hide soaked in pig fat* * *He slowly strokes his sword, his love, polishing her to a shimmering gleam. *Once again his reflection blares out at him and seems to mouth the unthinkable* "Can she match my glory? Can this Jenna protect you and love you truly as i have? Does she give you the feeling of blood lust and the reward of conquest?....ha...ha...ha...Ha!" *"She is weak and of the flesh, she will fail you, just you wait and see, my love...and who will be there for you?? My cold hard steel.. your true love...killer of evil and destroyer of your enemies! The Sword of Death..."* My sword is true and faithful...*mumbling to himself* She has never failed me and has kept me alive through it all..*he proclaims loudly* *thinking out loud* You cant trust people, they lie and they hurt, they're cruel and cutting...killing of the spirit and torturing my very soul.Look what my father did to my mother, left her alone with nothing but us children. Fending for ourselves, surviving the best we knew how....and then my mother passing away...miserable from her broken heart! *looking at his sword*
It seems to be almost laughing.I can hear it in my head, echoing and ringing insidiously...louder...until...*shaking his head* He emerges from this dream...no...a nightmare of sorts...*looks again at his reflection in the shiny blade* What do i do now...can i trust Jenna? Should i leave and save myself from a certain death of love lost and a broken heart? I wont do as my mother did. Slowly whithering away and dying of a broken heart and loneliness....loneliness? Wait...you liar and deceiver! *grasps his sword by the blade* *squeezing until his hands begin to bleed* You would have me live alone with only your cold steel to soothe my wounded heart? No...i wont be fooled by your taunting of my love for Jenna...you cant sway me from what i know in my heart! We are meant to be together and we are bound in our hearts by the words and deeds of our very real love for one another. Not to be swayed by flesh or steel from our chosen destiny...Is it of and by the heavens and the gods in those realms, that we two should be bound together by true love? It is more than mere chance happening or by the slight of hand guided by a few friends. The very universe trembles in awe of the love that we share..to the point of laying down our lives for one another if it would be required of us, evenof the devil himself! No...dear Sword of Death...i will not fall prey to your charms of blood lust and murder or your promise of faithfullness...for although you cannot lie..you do not know my heart or the true intentions of my love for , Jenna. Nor could you know of her love for me, for you do not have a heart or soul to touch me as she has done.
And as you failed my father and allowed his death...you will not take me downto suffer his fate. And to leave a wounded heart behind to suffer a slow and anguishing death as my mother did surely suffer..until her dying day.
*looks into the reflection on the blade, now streaked in blood*
You fool Elgon, you believe that you can survive without me? Ha! Sheath me and be done with me?Why, You can no more resist me than you can this fleshling you call your love. We shall see who wins your love and your very soul....who you can trust your very essence of life to...fool!..not the girl...not the girl!
*he turns away* *clasping his head in his bloody hands* *the tears washing the blood from his fingers*
Perhaps you are right? The flesh and its essence, the heart and soulcannot be trusted. It sways like the tidewith every new emotion and feeling that courses through the mind and the marrow. Perhaps this feeling that we call love is a cresting wave ofwarmth and joy that is destined to receed as quicly as it has come. And the embers of the fire are blown hither and yon leaving emptiness and sadness, just as my mother was emptied of life and joy as she withered away unto her own death.
*picks up his sword and wipes her clean* * looks upon her blade and mouths the words*
I can trust you, for this i know, and unlike the death that befell my father and decended upon my mother, you shall protect me and cover me, keeping me from harm and pain and that wretched fate called death.
* the now clean reflection, stares back at him*
You are safe with me Elgon, death shall not overtake you, my fine warrior, not with me in hand, no never....sleep now and wake to a new day of revenge for the losses that you have suffered from these mortals.....rest my love...rest.....ZZZZZZzzzzz.
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I saw Jenna last night. She is so beautiful and patient. She waits on me to decide what to do and lets me talk with friends and never gets pushy. Is she perfect or what? Went went for a walk to outskirts Haven (it was raining at Alon) and climbed up the hill. We sat there watching the stars and people and drinking Xeenite wine. I think we said everyting to each other except marriage proposal. We're in deep now and my talk with Kyle went very well, he essentially gave us his blessing.He seemed very understanding and ecouraged me to relax and have fun. But he did say dont hurt her...but he fell short of a consequence...i'm pretty sure it wouldnt be pleasant! I even asked her to spend the night with me but we both agreed that would not be appropriate just yet...just yet....Ha! It's getting serious i'm in over my head and my heart is the guide. Be honest true heart and be true to your love for yourself and for Jenna. I'm scared though, what if i cant live up to her expectations? Or Kyle's? Not to mention Ferrit too? Rain has been such a good friend through this ordeal, he's watched me suffer the insecurities and lack of self confidence. He's encouraged me when my courage was failing. It's amazing how this little girl, so petite and sweet, can send shivers of fear down my spine! My sword i know her, and the enemies i can face without fear, but Jenna, how do i say it...i have fears within me that i cant fight with the sword and bow. I remember facing off with my first ogre, i was terrified, knew death was eminent should i not prevail. Now Jenna is not an enemy...oh no...but the fears i have of...dare i say ...love....are more fearsome than the giants of the desert! I'm in a battle with my heart...and how do i prepare for a battle with myself? I dare not pierce my own heart or run in fear and hide in a cave?! I can hear Rain's voice in my head, "just follow your heart", even if it leads to the most pain i have suffered since the death of my mother? I'm having a hard time convincing my head that this love relationship is a good thing. * he glances at his sword* Am I being untrue to you my love, the steadfast compass of my life? Will I have to leave you and your beauty behind? Then there's the fear of what happened to my mother, will happen to Jenna. That some fateful day i will not return from battle and leave her hurting and alone. I cant bear that thought! No one has the right to inflict that kind of pain and suffering upon another...especially one that I love so deeply! *turns from his sword* Not today Sword of Death, i care not to hear your twisted thoughts and rancor. Leave me some peace in my heart today..and do what you were made to do. Kill mine enemies and smight the evil from this land, until no filthy creature stands against us.
That is what you were created for, death, and nothing more...you are not the love of my life...and you will not come between Jenna and my love for her. Save your cold cutting for the ogres and gaints and leave my heart be..for you shall not pierce me but only mine enemies..and nothing more!
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i spent a miserable day on Dregar, solo, such a bad thing to do. I was vulnerable to most anything that came along. Challenged the Soul Mother twice and I won this time around...... pumpkin headed scarecrows. Farmer Part can have em for all I care! By the time I found Hurm and got back to Hlint I was exhausted. Tried to work but couldnt concentrate on anything. Then Jenna appeared, as if a breath of fresh air from the heavens...I missed her so. I felt as though i had to speak my heart and mind and let her know how i felt about us and the future. I was very honest, brutally honest in fact...I just knew she would panic and leave...just for survival's sake...her own survival! But she kept reassuring me of her love and devotion, that she had faith in me...Me? That i would do the right thing and our love would sustain us through the tough times. I explained to her that I am a warrior, not by choice but by the way i had to survive in this world...taking care of my brother and sister after my mother passed away. It is by the Sword of Death, my father's sword, that i and my family made it this far...and that by this same sword shall i live.....or....die!
I thought that it would be unfair to her to be waiting at home, wondering if i would return this day or not. I saw a repeat of my father and mother's own love and lives.....and deaths...i couldnt let myself do that to anyone...especially Jenna.
So just as i thought perhaps, this will kill what we have and could have...she boldly looks me in the eyes and says "then we shall fight side by side...protecting one another!" I almost fell into the campfire!
I could not even imagined that she would have even thought such a thing!....what could this woman be thinking?? I love her even more...she's more than i could ever imagined...more than even my mother could have done for my father. She said that we would be together in love and in battle and that together we would overcome any obstacle or enemies!
I cant let this diamond fall from my hands and heart! She is all and more than I could ever want in a partner...dare i say? A wife ?
*unsheaths his sword for cleaning*
*humming an elven song he learned from his mother*
* the blissful moment is shattered by manic laughter*
Ha! "So you've fallen for the fleshly frail wench, fool?"
*he galnces at his sword and his mirrored image lunges out at him*
"of course she is going to tell you what you want to hear!" "that is the beginning of the deception" "to lure you into a false sense of security, are you blind?"
"She cant protect you in battle, save your life in the heat of a frothy graze with death!" Ha! "Who has been your protector all these years...have you forgotten your first love?"
*staring intently at the blazing glare of her blade*
"I know that you are right my love, but I am not being untrue to you or myself"
"Jenna is my re-enforcement, my second weapon in battle, fighting back to back, willing to die each for the other!"
"Argh!" " You mean a distraction in battle", "A campaign of weakness frought with silly little sayings and lustful glances"
" She will be your very own death sentence, fool" "Battles are for warriors of valor and strength, not weak willed love struck wanna be's"
"She will be your death and downfall, Elgon, trust me...the faithful one" "your Sword of Death, your true and first love"
*he falls back, dropping his sword and clasping his heart*
It is as if you've pierced my very heart...vile sword! You would take my happiness and rob me of this feeling i have and for what purpose?
To lead me to my certain death without ever knowing the love of a woman? You would be that selfish?
I am torn and broken with sadness, for my heart is troubled by this...this...truth and yet lies...i cannot say anymore what is true and what is not?!
* he hears the muffled sound of laughter* *he looks down at the word* *and for a moment a glare catches his eye*
"already she has begun to weaken you" "and yet you would revile me...the one true love of your life?"
" I can only protect and serve you as your soul mate, if you are not distracted by this creature of weakness, this Jenna"
"Elgon, you must decide to live as a warrior or die as lowly servant to this wanton wench of selfish desire, this Jenna as you call her"
"your mind is strong and your body is fit, but your heart is lustful and selfish, it will lead you to your death, down this path that you call love" Ha!
*shaking his head and clearing his eyes*
I must rest from my weary day..i cannot wrestle with this one more breath longer...maybe you are right my love, my Sword of Death..maybe you are right.....ZZZZZZzzzz..... *ever so softly, there arises a quiet laughter of evil**"sleep Elgon my love...sleep and dream of me..your true love..your Sword of Death"* Ha! Ha! Ha!
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Could have been another lonely day without Jenna but i met up with Kyle, Rain and Ferrit over in Velensk. Pyyran was there and we talked politics for a bit. We gathered in Hlint and folks crafted as Kyle and I gathered needed materials for the others. Kyle was kind and spoke as a big brother to me, reassuring me as a warrior and a man. He tried to teach me his spinning kick but i could only fall to the ground dizzy with my head spinning. He sold me his iron half plate for a good price and it fit perfect. I later customized it, the colors are brighter with a tribute to the color of blood that will surely be spattered upon it. Soon i hope! So while everyone was busy with this or that, i busied myself with killing some orcs north of Hlint. Maybe some people dont realize that the orcs are the elves oldest and most hated enemy? Anyway, the Sword of Death and myself set out to busting a few of them up. When Rain and Kyle came up and appeared concerned about me...and "my sword" as they so stated. We discussed tactics and strategies but I was distracted by their decided prejudice, and pointed accusations about the "sword". Kyle asked to see the sword and i shared her with him and Rain, nervously, for she doesnt like the hands of strangers upon her.
He asked me to examine his fine Kantana and i did briefly, but only briefly, for she gets jealous of others if i should dwell too long with them...
I then had to rather insistently retrieve her from Rain...but he made some foul remarks about getting a feeling of evil and sickness from her...my love...my Sword of Death, made me wonder about him and Kyle both? I was not concerned about my love, my sword, but about the distinct difference of opinion that Rain and even Kyle and I share about war and killing, blood letting if you will...they seemed offended by my words and actions...as if I were...well...a devilish barbarian! Chiding me and lecturing me about righteous this and high and mighty that...as if they really understood about a warrior and his weapon...the intimate oneness of man and steel. Kyle said he did, he's studying to be a weapons master. He may have the moves but does he have the heart to achieve that true oneness with his chosen love...his chosen weapon?
I may be on a different path than most...that i dont doubt...but when others question your very soul about being a warrior and a master of your weapon...i have to wonder?
*takes out his beloved sword* *listens to her hardened steel sliding across the sheath*
Hummm...orc blood, foul things *he mutters* Disgusting vermin and scourge of all that is good!
My beloved, once again you have proven your worth and devotion.
*scratching at the dried blood stains* *he catches a glimmer from her blade*
* Again the raging laughter in his head rears up and stuns him for a moment*
"So...evil am I?" "Ha! I, the one that cleans your path of harm and wretched filth?"
*startled he looks at the sword*
Wha...at? * shakes his head slowly in disbelief*
"You let others touch me and defile our love and then you listened to their lies" " How dare they!"
"That quick cut to Kyle's hand was just a warning"
A warning you say? You cant and better not hurt my friends...this is not yours to decide, you are forbidden to harm any of my friends, ever! Especially my love, Jenna!
"Your love? Ha! Where was this Jenna, your love today? Guarding your back as she promised?...Was she the one knocking down the orcs and ogres?"
" I think not, Elgon, there was only me...and this Jenna...was no where to be found." " I told you of her lies and now her brother's lies, how much more can you take from them?" " When will you realize the truth...I am your truth, Elgon...there are no lies within me!""My blade determines truth and what and who is right, do not forget this."
Perhaps, you are right..maybe all along? I've been a fool, drawn into this plan, a conspiracy? But what could these people want of me? They have been kind and given of themselves to me..but yet...they seemed to turn on me and true...Jenna was nowhere to be found?
"Only now you see this Jenna in the true light, poised with a dagger to pierce your heart, in the name of love?"
"Do you think this was meeting of chance Elgon? This was orchestrated by Rain and set in place by Kyle and sealed by Jenna." "Fate perhaps but it's your death in the balance." This Rain, Kyle and Ferrit...what torment have they planned for you my love?"
They seem so genuine and kind to me...i cant believe that they would mean me harm? I cant believe what i am hearing!
"Did they not mock you today? Did they not question our love, our bond? What do they know of us and what we share? Don't let them in! They will be your death! They will surely lead you to slaughter! They want to take me away from you and leave you defenseless, cant you see this?"
*he retracts his hand from the blade, as a trickle of blood drips from the edge*
Ouch, dang! How clumsy of me, I....I wasnt paying attention to what i was doing!
*an evil laughter erupts from the sword*
"Ha! Ha! Ha! You fool! Lose me and lose your life! Choose this woman, Jenna and she will tear us apart and you will surely die! I cannot protect you if another stands in my way! Dont let this happen Elgon! Dont let these fleshlings destroy our love!
These people mean me no harm you wicked witch, you are the dealer of death and destruction, not Jenna. Be still and desist this very moment! You are to serve me and that you will do or go into the smelter's fire and bellows!
*throws the sword aside* *it falls point first and sticks in the hardwood floor**shaking from side to side like a snake about to strike*
I need rest now, leave me to my dreams of my fair lady, Jenna. Good night and may you dream of busting ogres heads!
*mutters to himself* *and falls into his pillow*
"Young fool, Elgon...you cannot shove me aside without regard! Abandon our love will you? I had your father's soul and I shall have yours.
I shall have that girl's head too! Hummmm....Let me see...Yes..of course..while in battle, I , Sword of Death, shall strike her down! And it will seem as if by the hand of the enemy..and I shall have my Elgon once again." Ha! Ha! Ha!
*Elgon rolls over in bed* ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz..............
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i'm exhausted! I met up with Ferrit, Kyle and Rain in Krandor...Ferrit bless her heart gave me a lion bag...my first! She does nice work * tugs at it* it's strong! Strange thing, happened, my sword came up missing! At first i thought maybe Rain and Kyle were playing a joke on me. But then no one would fess up and i became enraged. I left the Free lance in point Harbor and went back to search the house for the sword..my love. As much as i didnt want to think it, i checked in Rains crates..low and behold... buried under some things was my sword. I was hurt and angered too, i ran all the way back to Point Harbor, well except for a short boat ride. I confronted Rain, who was by now drunk and nearly passed out. He denied taking the sword but accused me of talking to my sword at night and over heard some nonsense...i cant even remember..he kept quoting some phrase..dont remember what. He got all emotional and threatened to take his own life...something about proving his loyalty to me. Then i found myself apologizing to him...just to keep him from doing something stupid. Meanwhile I think Ferrit was thinking we both needed to be thrown in the bay. Rain finally calmed down and we talked..he tried to convince me that the sword was cursed or some such thing and that it had control over me! So he tried some mediation technique and Mercas examined the sword. I did feel better after talking and meditating but what Mercas revealed of the runes on the sword concerned me and all but confirmed what Rain was saying about the sword. Let me think now, something about the bearer being soul possessed by the spirit of the sword. I went back to my mother's journals and tried to decipher the history of this sword. Indeed it had been passed down from generation to generation but on my mother's side of the family,not my father's. Even though he died with it and used it in battle. Then, there was this one part about this sword being made for a Tethrin Veralde' a demi god of sorts. He was the son of Corellon(creator of elves) and Sehanine(moon goddess). Something about my mother being desended from royalty but was banished for having fallen in love with my father. And the other strange thing about the sword...and my father..a wizard brought the sword to my mother, just after my father was killed in battle. Or so I had thought. He was not killed in battle but was alone and run through by his own sword...the Sword of Death. So now I'm the bearer of this sword and accused of being possessed of a blood lust frenzy killer of sorts. So now i must find a way to master this weapon and overcome the "curse" that took my father and has nearly destroyed me! *yawns* *drops the quill* *Begins to write again* So i must seek out a priest or cleric or wizard of the weave perhaps to help me understand and control the power of this weapon. And perhaps a mentor, a weapons master to guide me and show me how to be the master! *yawns again* I must sleep now....so tired...Jenna, thanks for the letter and reminding me of your love...I need to see you... I must tell you of what has happened to me. I am so lucky and blessed with good friends, almost family...something i've not had in years..*yawns*
*glances over at the Sword of Death* *falls back into bed* ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz................................ *Ha! Ha! Ha! You fool Elgon...my plan of Rain's betrayal failed..but I'm not done yet. I'll let you continue to think you're master, until I'm ready for my master plan...Jenna's death! Then I will have your soul! I must protect you and myself at all costs..those meddling fools...he calls friends...this Mercas...thinks he knows of me...Ha! Ha! Ha! Death to them all!!!!*
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It's been a couple of uneventful days, not much crafting, not much fighting either...I miss Jenna! Every since I started to meditate, I've lost my edge, my sense of raw power has left me. So much so that i challenged the Soul Mother as an infuriated Yehti took me down as i was runniing wildly in circles..not my style. I dont understand how i have lost my drive and desire for blood letting...i feel pitifull and pathetic! What good is a warrior that cant utilize strategy and overcome and enemy? Meditation may have calmed me down and I do feel more in control but much less effective. I swing and miss my target because i'm not focused and i just cant seem to position myself for an advantage? I dont understand, i'm the master but not an effective one...that's where the Sword of Death came into play. She knew when and where to strike, with intensity and lethal accuracy. She's gone and i'm...lost without her...just holding an empty shell in my hand..not a powerful blood lusting weapon of death! Rain visited the Soul Mother, same Yehti i suppose...we were off guard and unprepared for the onslaught. Ferrit also left a grave marker on that forsaken mountain side of misery. Mercas escorted me back for recovery but Rain and Ferrit were not to be seen in the mountain. Perhaps we were over eager and careless in our approach, and it cost us three lives...i'll say no more about defeat...tonite! I'm just an empty shell with out my Jenna or my sword, my life seems to be going down hill and i'm still just young! I need to get my focus back and follow my heart in love and my head in battle..Need both of my loves. I'm tired from climbing mountains...it's time to rest...I pray for Sonya's and Rain's twins...so tired cant remember names even...dang! I wish Rain safety and Sonya peace, i hope that i can help with both. I am anxious to see the twins too. Like to see the look on Jenna's face when she sees them...i can see the smile already...she has such a giving and loving heart and soul...God i love her...! I best clean me sword for tomorrow's conquests..*removes sword from sheath* This time there is no sizzling steel sounds or shiny glare to be seen..just cold steel..lifeless and cold..Sword of Death? Are ye suffering your own death? Have I killed you, your spirit? *looks at the sword as if he expected an answer* I'll clean her tomorrow, I'm tired now....*lays the sword aside and falls back into bed* ZZZzzz.... "It's working Ha Ha Ha! He's falling apart, weakened by his friends, Ha!...enemies more like it! He'll be back begging me to join him again...unleashing my awesome killing power of death! Ha Ha Ha! He'll be mine again and i will have his very soul...just as i had his father..Ha Ha!
"Sleep dear warrior, for tomorrrow we vanquish your enemies, those enemies you call friends! Ha Ha Ha!!!
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Met up with what I'm beginning to call my family. Rain, Ferrit, Kyle and Mercas.Did some fine adventuring and nobody died!! Whahoo! I need to do some crafting and get some arrows made soon. The sword performed flawlessly today, knocking down giants, ogres, everything. Great team we had...good enough to tackle my nemesis, Grey Peaks...it was fun! Felt good to be in control and letting some blood. I am beginning to feel that these folks are like family to me, they're all i have right now. They genuinely care about each other and even me! Still no sign of Jenna, getting nervous about her and our relationship? Bought her some Flowers at Hope...I hope i see her soon! My heart aches for her but just knowing that she loves me, keeps me going...I love that girl! Time to clean this battered sword, probably need to take her in to a Smitty for and over haul. *runs his fingernail over the blade's edge*
*hears a faint moaning sound* *shakes his head as he looks at his sword* Must be hearing things? ....Time for bed already...eyes are drooping and i'm hearing things...I'll work her tomorrow and shine her up good. *Sets the sword against the wall*
*lays his head on his pillow* *begins to smile thinking about Jenna*
*mumbles to himself* How lucky I am...so lucky to have the love of this woman....indeed.....My lovely Jenna *yawns* ZZZZZZZZZZzzz.. "This woman he says...Ha! She's nothing to him...i am his life!" I must gain control, i must get back what i had...with Elgon...his love, his touch, his devotion...i had all of him!"
" But how do i get him back? These people have become a distraction, He dares to call them family...I am his family! His father's blood is upon my soul drawn from him into me...I have the blood and souls of his family for generations!"
"I do need a plan...hummmm...but what?" Yes, of course! "I shall inhabit his dreams and lead him back to me through his slumber...yes...yes!"
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i saw my love...Jenna...what bliss to kiss her and hold her. She is all that i can think of whether awake or sleeping. We went out for an adventure and she demonstrated her sneak attack and backstab moves. She is awesome. She asked me to make her a short sword for fighting...said i would ask Kyle to help me. We had the discussion about the sword..i told her the truth..all tha ti could remember and then some more. Got me scared too. I told her how I thought that the Sword of Death took my fathers life and my mother died of a broken heart not because he was killed in the war...as we had been told... but by the very sword that she had given him. I think the sword was jealous of my Dad's love for my mother...and i believe some how "she" , the Sword of Death took his life! Jenna stood by me even though her own life could be in danger by the sword. She thinks Kyle can help me master the weapon. Maybe, but i have a feeling there is more to this "sword" than most can see. Mercas was onto it but just couldnt get a good translation from the Runes on the handle. I need the help of a magic man or a cleric to see into this sword. I love the sword, not as i love Jenna, but the sword sure can slap down those ogres. I need that feeling of power i get from wielding her in battle. The almost lustful feeling of fulfillment from the busting of bones and squirting guts. Each swipe of her blade yields death and blood and satisfaction. What can i do?
I love Jenna so much i cant let her be in danger, she trusts me and my love for to protect her. This i must do at all costs. No cleanig for you, you wench!*eyes the sword* Tired now, long day tomorrow...must go to sleep...ZZZZZZZZZZzzzz........ *jerks and wakes up* Huh? what?....must have been a dream?! How horrible...what a nightmare! Please god dont let that happen to Jenna...please?*drifts back to sleep* ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz...."Ha! Ha! Ha!...this dream will come true and it will happen my dear Elgon or you will die in her place! Just as your unfaithful father did!"
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I saw Jenna today, it's always a pleasure to be with her. I have fallen for her and cant think of much else. Rightfully so, for she is a delight and she makes me feel so good inside and so happy. Mercas, Rain Jenna, and myself went up to GreyPeaks my nemesis, and just as we were about to leave...I was ambushed by a mage, instant death! I had just for a moment been distracted as i was looking for my love, and failed to notice the mage un-invis right in front of me...bam! It happens to us all...the Soul Mother must have been busy with other things..for I ended up back in Hlint..weak but alive. I think this gave Jenna a realization of what could be in the life of a warrior, death is around every corner in every adventure. As Rain is so concerned about his own future and fate, I have yet to take my own fate seriously. I now realize that my father, although a brave soldier, was probably murdered by his own sword....yes...the very sword that I wield! But as Mercas had interpeted from the runes, i cant be released from it's "curse" without my own life being taken and offered to the Soul Mother! So I must master and control this beast of a weapon, this evil demon of death...The Sword of Death! I just hope and pray that i can do so and keep my Jenna and friends...well...my family now...safe from it's wicked death wish. I can only hope that some cleric or such can exorsise this demon sword or at least release me from it's evil hold. The guild is nearly up and running I am excited! We have raised the funds now the administration part...I am not a business man, I hope to be alble to gain from this union but I also want to be a viable contibutor too. Strangest thing, I was invited to go adventuring with Elrend (my good friend)and Kharl Drake. I hadnt really met Kharl before...cant say that I met him this time either...this man is a machine..I swear. He just goes and does what he needs to no dialogue, no interaction to speak of. But at the end as we left Haven mine he just left...no split no words..most peculiar. Then as I was in the craft house, Kharl asked if I would be willing to smelt his iron nuggets and make iron arrow heads for him. NOw..not that he couldnt for himself, but he was giving me the opportunity to gain some skill..it was odd being treated so...well..nice by a stranger! Restores my faith in this World and the people in it. Rain and I spent some time going into Haven mine with a large group of adventurers, which ususally ends in disaster, but Daniel the Paladin kept it together, with help from "Captain" Rain. Only picked up two nuggs of Platty though but a bunch of amythest! It was a good trip! Of course the Sword of Death issued death warrants for all my enemies and fulfilled each one of them. Her power seems to increase daily. But yet I seem to have realized and gained some authority over her and can wield her at my will, I am learning!
Time for bed, as it was a long day! She deserves a good cleaning tonite. *pulls the Sword of Death from her sheath*
*thinks to himself* *mumbles quietly* I think Jenna and I have reached a point in our relationship, that we...well...want to make love. We are in love and each time we touch it becomes more intense between us..it is becoming more and more difficult to leave her side. I just want the time to be right and the moment perfect for us.
*Leans back and daydreams about Jenna* *smiles broadly* *almost laughing out loud*
She is so fine, I cant resist her charms...I must have her..all her love. Hummm....*drifts off to sleep* ZZZZZZzzzzzz..... *the sword falls to the floor*
... you Elgon! Cast me aside for your Jenna? I dont think so, not for long...I will have you and your soul or no one else will! This I swear upon your father's own soul and by all that is evil in Layonara! Ha! Ha! Ha! I must become more powerful and take control of his very soul...before I lose him altogether...but I will have to draw his own blood to do so. SO be it then, it shall be done according to the way it has always been...from the beginning..he will lose and I will gain his soul! Ha! Ha! Ha!
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The last couple of days have been like a whirlwind! Adventuring with my family, as i call them now, has become a regular ordeal. We all seem to click together very well. With Kyle leading us up front and the assistance of able bodied Ferrit at his side...well....not always she does the scouting which makes Kyle and myself nervous. But this is their routine and it seems to work.
Mercas backing up with fireballs and magics. Rain he takes care of the details and re-enforces where needed and has become the looter. He misses fighting up front, but we are protecting him from the Soul Mother..
Our group started out with Jako and Sh'anda, we had a picnic for the guild since we are now ready for charter (i hope), Jako left and we ran into Ketl the Dwarf, so we proceeded to launch attack on almost everything evil out of Roldem. Some tough stuff around there, my first encounter with a meteor shower...knocked me down and nearly sent me home.The undead drow there are a murdereous bunch. Ferrit went down after one of the ambushes and we feared we had lost her but Sh'anda raised her as any good cleric would do. Sadly though, she dropped her Helmet, most unfortunate.
Rain, Mercas and myself stayed up late hammering out details of the guild, which now includes Dora, much to Merc's delight it seems. Talking and drinking until wee hours of the morning. We are like family, truly. It's a good feeling after so many years of being alone to have Jenna and a family. I am truly happy!
Need to make some arrows and get to crafting so dont have time to write much today.
I did talk with Kyle about Jenna, and let him know that I love her with all my heart. He said he could see it in Jenna too. I asked him to help me with weapons mastery and he agreed to help. I am excited to be able to be mentored by Kyle, he is patient with me. He says we will be learning together. But he has some moves that i need to learn, with time he says.
I got ore and gems and stuff to do, i got to get busy! Be back tonite and cap my day.
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Been several days since i've been here at the pen and quill...so much has happened..much venturing and gaining much expereince! Our group has bonded like a family, we take care of each other and watch over the others safety. we share materials and items, i'm over whelmed by this...arrangement. I havent met people like this before. I just hope i dont let any of them down. Especially Jenna. But I so seldom see her, i wonder about where she is and what she is doing? Rain and i talked the other nite about marriage, mine and Jenna's! I just dont think i'm ready for that yet. Especially since it's been over a week since I've seen Jenna, i feel like things have slowed down between us. I've even thought of meeting others and ??? Who knows? Rain said something about Jenna's biological clock is ticking and not getting any younger, and that she is at the marrying age. I feel as though i'm too young yet and not really settled down. However, our Guild has been approved and that's one step closer to being settled down I suppose? Everyone is so excited about the news, but there is so much ground work to be done. Rain is beside himself...sure he is wanting to throw a big party. With his home brewed....? whatever that stuff is? Knocks everbody out! My fighting is coming along quite nicely under Kyle's direction and support from Rain and Mercas. Our new recruit, Dora is quite the fighter and Cleric too. She really rounds out the group, we're quite good and are able to travel most anywhere now. I feel as though i've mastered my sword and that she has become an extension of my own determination and expertise. Life is good for me right now...i feel as though i dont deserve the good things that are happening to me...but I do miss Jenna..and feel that i may lose her. Not sure what to do about our relationship, if we even have one right now? It sort of hurts inside when i think about her...us....me? hummmm.... I cant write anymore tonite, those desert giants wore me out. Should clean my sword but just cant do it right now....*lays head down on table* *falls into deep sleep* ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzz.... ... half elf! His human father was so much easier to corrupt and possess! But, it seems his faith in this Jenna thing has been shaken though...a good time to set a plan in motion!Get her out of his life and me back in his hand and heart...his very soul...where i *The Sword of Death* belongs! Ha! Ha! Ha!..I am his master, i'll lead him on a little longer..let him think he has control and power..this fool Kyle will lead him to his death and his soul will be mine...dear Elgon..sleep for tomorrow may be your last! Ha! Ha! Ha!
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Another day and no word or sight of my love Jenna...i am worried about her..perhaps she has found another? It would hurt for a while but i think i could re-focus on my mastering the sword. But i fool myself...don't I? I couldnt stand the thought of living with out Jenna..it's killing me not to see her...Maybe Rain is right, maybe i should think about marriage? Attended Addi's wake...sad and solemn occasion...i feel for Treana..she is so hurt and at a certain loss...a hole in her life that I'm not sure that even Calvin can fill. I may soon know that same kind of sadness..? Jenna? The guild is up and off to where i do not know and no one else seems to either? So much work to be done and we dont seem to have the time to deal with it. I'm not a business man and hate the endless discussions...i'd rather be fightin and gathering materials. Not even sure what i can contribute to this guild..if anything..Kyle tries to encourage me but things seem to go so slowly. I want to be successful with the guild, like to buy a house where ...Jenna and i could settle down...wishful thinking on my part...she cant be that serious about our love? Could she? How do I find out? Women! They're so complicated, i just dont understand em! My heart seems to think it's in love...to the point of sharing myself with Jenna...*gets nervous*...i've never been with a woman before...not in that way. Oh what has my heart gotten me into? I thought my sword was confusing me? *lays the sword and sheath aside* *removes his armor* *lays back on his bed, closing his eyes* *mumbles to himself* Sword or Jenna can i have both or either? Which is easier to deal with...ask my heart, it says...Jenna..then ask my head and it's the sword. Fighting seems so simple and focused. Love is so complicated and i clearly dont understand it. What strategy to use for battle..easy without thinking i know what to do...but for love...what do I do? My head is whirling with confusion and doubt...but my heart seems strong...accepting faithfully Jenna's love that she has generously offered to me...unwavering and without doubt she accepts me for who I am...as if i knew who i am? Dang....ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......... *his sword falls to the floor* *but is unheard by Elgon* Some warrior this boy has turned out to be! He ignores his sword, the one power in his life that can save his life. His father was no such fool at first...he followed his desires for blood lust and I lead him into battle time after blood letting time, but alas, he too grew weak with time...I had to take him before his love for her ruined him as a warrior. So may it be with this young welp! His death could only serve to strengthen my own lust and desire for power through death after death for genrations past and for generations to come..............ARGGGGHHHH!!! Oh dark powers that be...what am I doing?? This boy has no heir! No one to inherit my powers of death and blood lust...no more blood battling and no more souls to reap my dark powers from. This would mean my own death as well...I cant let that happen! Oh cruel world of darkness...the death of Elgon without an heir to inherit me, the Sword of Death, would mean my own death as well! Arggghhh! Such fate to befall me...now i must keep him safe and even this Jenna creature...so that they can produce my next blood vein of power, my human host of life, so I can continue to draw life and power from these fleshlings and their most miserable deaths...Ha! Ha! Ha! I must have more blood saturating me and coating me with it's life giving force and power! Sleep well dear Elgon...for you will have your life, love and Jenna, until I deem it time to end your miserable exsistance and I bond to the hand and capture the heart of your offspring...for I will be his inheritance! Ha! Ha! Ha!
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The love of my life was in Hlint and we stole off to be alone...i was so glad to see her...that words from my heart began to flow from me. I think I proposed to her but as I told her...i cant make it official until i have the ring and Kyle's blessing. I asked her to think about a life together, just her and me.
She said she would think it over and seemed very happy...so i think she will say yes when the time comes!
It's a big step but I think Rain is right, follow my heart and why wait when you know that it is the right thing to do. So now i've got to get some coin together for a ring...what to buy her?
We went venturing into Sielwood, she has some battle moves that are so awesome...she can handle her own quite well. I neednt worry about her safety, she can take care of herself. I gathered a ton of copper and tin for bronze arrowheads. Just got to take the time to make em.
The "family" got together and we went to Berhagen to visit the dwarven fortress, Ulgrid. We invis'd past the giants but fought the golems. I hate not fighting but Kyle and I arent really ready to take on massive groups of giants, not without a good cleric, and Dora was no where to be found?
I need to make some chairs for the table I made for Mercas...poor guy has no bed or furniture in his new home.
I love Jenna with all my heart but I'm not sure if we're ready for life together or not? we're both young and inexperienced...i need to get a home and prepare it for her first.
Now that the guild is officially paid for and we have a charter...as Kyle being the head of it. There is so much business to get set up and discussed...we just havent all been around to get it rolling yet.I believe that we will be successful and it will provide Jenna and me a good income for our future. Maybe even children? I dont know if she wants children? We need to talk and we both agreed to spend more time together as much as we can.
I love her so much...we fit together so well..it's like she fills in the missing parts of me...sounds corny but she does complete me! It's like the gods looked down and created her just for me and me for her .....i hope?
I've got to go to work, need about a 1000 arrows made up! Oak to gather and some clay and......gotta go!
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I did it! I asked Jenna to marry me...and she said YES! I gave her the beautiful ring that Mercas made for me...3 feldspar set in copper..very nice.She loved the ring but then she appreciates almost everything...that's just who she is. We went to get silk but she was attacked by spiders...terribly poisoned...so she returned to Hlint and i put her to bed. I hope she slept well. Terrible thing happened today...*shudders*....I was witness to a robbery right in Hlint...I hesitated to get involved but the man was threatening to harm this young woman if she did not give him her purse...i asked him to back away and leave...she yelled for Garent (the guard) and the would be robber ran...I pursued and caught up with him just outside of Llast...I hit him with three arrows...the third ending his life! Garent arrived on the scene as the man fell...i was arrested and taken to Hlint. There was a brief discussion with Garent questioning witnesses and myself...I knew I had broken the law...but I had no control over my actions..it was if someone or something else had taken over...i just instinctively shot the perpetrator down! I fear I may go to prison and not be with Jenna...she said she would stand by me no matter what...and then there is the guild.....I asked Kyle if I should leave the guild...He said we are family and everyone supported me! I've occupied my time with just crafting and more crafting..trying to keep my mind off the incident...the murder...as Garent put it! Me a murderer?! What have I done? What has led me to this...brink of disaster..just as things were going so well..with the guild, with Jenna..I had finally found happiness, true love and a family too...now I stand to lose it all! I feel ashamed and afraid for first time since my mother died...i felt an emptiness, just as I now feel..I thought I stood for things that are right and good in life...but now I feel cold and hollow inside.What have I done?!! I must rest if i can..for there is more crafting to be done tomorrow...and who knows when they will come for me...to be brought before a judge and jury and sent to prison..without ever knowing my true love ...Jenna. My life is ruined and I must take responsibility for what I've done...although I feel like running away..I have the guild, my family and Jenna to stand by me...I must be true to them and my heart...always..that is my code! *falls back into bed* ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz.... Ha!...I hadnt counted on this happening...this is not what i had planned but it amuses me greatly..the power of my Blood lust is great...he is within my power and influence! The Sword of Death! Ha! Ha! Ha! You will be true only to me Elgon, and only me..I will see that you are redeemed...somehow...my love..
Death is so beautiful. Every soul i reap makes me that much stronger and gives me that much more control over happless Elgon...I shall have an heir to this weakling..someone I can derive greater power from...a great warrior shall arise from this fleshlings loins and I shall have my time of power and blood lust revenge! Ha! Ha! Ha!
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The best day of my life as a warrior! Side by side with my love Jenna and my sword, what more could a man and warrior ask for? It was marred only by Rain's falling in Ajari...and some stirrings among the group...and Jenna went to find Kyle. I was enraged with the Trolls and meant to take revenge...I entered their swamp alone and armed only with my sword...the Sword of Death! Swath after swath of the bloated beasts fell to The Sword of Death and each time i felt stronger and stronger..I love that feeling...of blood letting..even if their blood is green...filthy creatures. She was flawless in her swift disposal of those putrid puff bellied swamp scum! Even five on one did not deter her from gutting the lot of em...it was beautiful! I felt so powerful for the first time in a long time! I trotted back home with Mercas, after a brief discussion with Wren Thendor...brother to Glenn...he seems calm and controlled but i sense something unsteady about the lad. Nice enough fellow though. Sonya and Rain were disturbed about something and Mercas seemed in the middle of it? Dont know, but later Rain and I had a long discussion..he was hesitant at first to speak but he knew he could trust me. He is truly worried about his relationship with Sonya.. i tried to re-assure him of her faithfullness but he seemed overwhelmed by depression. This worries me about the future of our "family" and the guild? I need to speak with Kyle. Jenna seemed scared in the swamp, rightfully so, but i sensed a fear that i hadnt seen before...worries me about her battle worthiness? First weakness i've seen of her...maybe nothing? I met up with Samir, and we went into Haven for some quick iron. I always enjoy a venture with him..remarkable character he is. We were quite successful in coin and iron...and the Sword...oh my god she was once again flawless, busting those ugly ogres apart like dropping melons from orc lookout...splat! Busting bones and smashing ribs with blood squirting all over...glorious! What a great day it turned out to be...I'm in love with her all over again....The Sword of Death! humph! What fun that was...got to get that disgusting green blood off her. *Draws his sword from the sheath* Good girl...strokes her with the pig grease soaked piece of leather...there ya go..nice and shiny! *Lays the sword aside and leans back into bed* What a day indeed...what a glorious day.....ZZZZZzzzzzz...... Ha ! Ha! Ha! Fleshling...i've got you...hook, line and sinker...you're mine, Jenna may think she does but HA! She is nothing compared to my power..and her, cowering weak and scared...Ha! Ha! Ha! Elgon loves my power and blood lust, more than he cares for that weak and pathetic female fleshling! Once the heir is conceived and born..I have no use for her...she'll be the first to go! Then Elgon...dear little weak warrior..I'll thrust him through his heart, just as Jenna's death will crush him..he is weak...just like her..they deserve each other! I can only hope for a strong and willful offspring from these two...creatures...so i can perpetuate my evil exsistence and continue the blood lust that I have enjoyed for generations of his fore fathers. Ha! Ha! Ha! This is a glorious day indeed!
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That's what i hate about Ajari, went on an adventure again to Ajari and was successful, but i got over confident and went back to solo..........the Soul Mother was quick to terrorize me...with her piercing scream...ripping a part of me away...from my very essence. I struggled back to the marker and regained my strength...but i dont think you can regain it all back..once part of you has been taken. Gathered much herbs and materials today...despite my anguish earlier. When I returned to Hlint, my love Jenna was there talking with Rain....she was angered over something I said in Ajari...something about not bringing her along? She was furious....I was confused and bewildered. She stomped off huffing and mad. so I did what any serious warrior would do, I went to Haven to kill ogres...but not alone it seems...for she followed me into the mine..spying on me? Or as she said seeing if i needed help..right? So I asked her if i seemed helpless and that's why she felt she had to follow me? She replied no...so I said that 's how I feel about you too...I am concerned about her but i know she can handle herself...at times. She is not a fighter, she cant get into the thick of battle...but she can stealth and flank em..pelting them with arrows..back stabbing the uglies. She needs to develop her skills and know her limits, she'll be fine ..I know..for she comes from good stock..Kyle is a great fighter and strategist too. so we made up in the mine, with the ogres watching on as we kissed and talked. We do make a good pair, whether in battle or in...love! I think we are good now. Wish I could say the same for Rain and Sonya...i dont have a clue of what's going on. Rain tells me, but i havent seen Sonya or Mercas...I am concerned that this is going to affect the guild operation and planning. Last I saw of Rain he was jumping off to Dregar, to look for Mercas...I just dont know. So now i'm nanny to twins and hoping Jenna stops by to help...with ..feeding and diapers and such... Crafted some arrows but blew it on some crystal rods, wasted coal and glass...I am so close to gaining more experience in tinkering...need to just keep at it..Forget enchantment..tried to make tanning oil...bah! Killed gnolls all afternoon and grabbed some pearls. Got some money in the bank and am working hard to get more. Just wish the guild would get organized....Dora is back so maybe we can move forward now? The wench, sword let me down today...and it cost me dearly...time for a new weapon, I think? *drops the sword to the floor* Jenna can be a real fireball...but her kisses...yummmm...i want more! *falls back into bed* ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz............................... Let him down did he say?....that weak pathetic fleshling! He couldnt fight to save his own life yet alone Jenna's...and I will have them both...their blood dripping from my silvery fang! And the fist of their offspring around my other end, wielding untold death to all who oppose us! Ha! Ha! Ha!
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The days are getting by without me recording much...yet there has ben much happening with the "family". Rain hasnt talked much but to tell me everyting is ok with him and Mercas, and he found Sonya and they are back together with the twins. So alls well that ends well. I havent seen Jenna in a over a week now, or more. Can't say what is going on with her? Not too much of a relationship if ya dont see each other? I guess we're still engaged? Kura re-assured me that is quite normal and not too worry, she's very thoughtful and kind. I've done some venturing but not much, been gathering for others in the guild and arrows. I'm just not getting the thrill from combat that I used too...maybe the Soul Mother took the wrong strand this time...or maybe it's my sword? Just seems i'm not getting the bashing and slashing that i used to get from her. LIke we're not connecting like we had been...before the Soul Mother's visit? Maybe it's time for a new weapon? Maybe a two handed sword, or Kantana, or mace....or? I miss Jenna and i've lost my desire for combat....my lust for the kill! Yeah. who am i fooling? I jsut dont have it anymore...i'm becoming gopher for the guild...go for this or go for that...Kyle trying to reign me in all the time..."be pateint..move back here" or some other order. I thought about leaving for awhile...go meditate on some mountain...but that's for clerics or magi's, not for fighters...i should just go clear Ajari of Trolls and go down lika true warrior! A miner of copper and tin....is that what i've grown up to become? A ground diggin gopher squinting at the daylight? ......I need to join an army and do as my father...fight for the cause...a cause...any cause...cause i got to fight!!!! Better do that before I get married and leave a widow behind and a family to starve to death. End up just like my father, dead, for what? Sure didnt help me any? Or did it? Made me grow up too fast and become bitter at life...I dont think I even like people? They just sit around on their patch of dirt messing with each other's heads and hearts....bah! Who needs it? Maybe I need to find my real family..my brother that I left behind...and sister too! Dark Woods was it? I best set out and explore...like yesterday..I went exploring the country side..I'll find my family yet..Lance was his name...my little brother...dang...how is he? Where is he? Hummmmmmmmmmmmm? Bedtime..for me..work...no exploring to do...better sharpen the sword and clean her up.. *pulls his sword from it's sheath* She's still in good shape yet, a couple of nicks here and there, but still deadly! *Sets the sword aside* *Leans back in his bed* At least the Sword stays with me, Jenna comes and goes. I dont like that. Cant trust a person who isnt steady or reliable. I can trust her..*looks at his sword* The Sword of Death...oh yeah! *closes his eyes* ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz........ Hummm...dear Elgon, I'm afraid you're too weak for my needs...we need to leave here. I need you away from these people...who delude you into thinking they care for you...Ha! I can find an Heir through your brother, Lance...his spirit is strong...I've sensed it! He is not far...we shall find him and you shall have no need for these fleshlings. And your time to meet the Soul Mother will come again...from whence you will not return dear boy!
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Another day of gathering and killing, just the usual...killed a few giants outside Point Harbor...knockdown would be a good skill to use against them. Need more training!
Got pears for Rain and hides and walnuts for Ferrit. I've got 24 lion hides and 10 leopard. Cougar go fast, gave Ferrit 6 of those. I need to get some iron for myself..that's for tomorrow.
Made an alchemist fire at the Thalos River Wizard Tower. My first, not my speciality!
No Jenna again or Kyle? Those two are mysterious...startin to feel like Jenna has somethin else going on besides me...best to find out now.... than later I guess!
Seems like things are at a stand still right now..my training, my crafting, adventuring, love life...hummmm....need some real action!
I know Kyle would say "be patient", but me patience is wearing thin...the only thing the guild has done for me is give me a place to get rid of my items! And Jenna, what kind of relationship starts off not seeing each other for weeks at a time? Wont last long I predict. Oh well first love, bound to learn something from it.
I'm tired and weary from running around point harbor...time for me to just lay down and rest my head on my pillow...and ..close ..my eyes...and.....ZZZZZZzzzz....
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Another day of venturing and crafting. Ferrit and i made a couple of lion bags, needed it too. So i pakced it full a couple of times with iron, coal, and other items. Made some arrows. Finished the chair design for Dawson in Lar. Died again from the same mage spell, as before, melee touch. Instant death. NO Soul Mother this time around though. Jenna showed up late and didnt stay long. She seem to just get the urge to leave right in the middle of Haven mine. Weird! I dont understand her at all! She says the right things but her actions dont follow her words...not sure why...cause she's not a dishonest person? Women cant figure em out? My mother warned me though. It's time for a new weapon, this old battle axe needs replacement...she just doesnt conncect like she used to do. All in all it was a good day, and got to see an old friend Garnet again. He went with this group to Haven...weird combination of people. Dora was there, and we talked about a guild meeting this weekend, she agreed it is time. Tired, made more Crystal rods for Mercas to enchant, he got two out of the last batch. Gave me an elelctrical with visual affect..very nice.... so i got in and built his bed...Ferrit helped. *yawns* ho humm....ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz......... Ha! new sword, the fool, he knows nothing of my power...fool! I must find an heir. Soon...my strength is waning.
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Been several days of crafting and venturing...the most eventful being my love Jenna, our time together is so brief. I feel like she's a stranger to me at times, but how quickly my doubt fades to bliss! I love her so, so much, that we have decided to give ourselves to each other...I'm scared and nervous. This means so much to me and yet I'm afraid that it might not be all that we expect it to be. I dont want children, not now anyway, and i would like to give it more time before we truly give all to each other.
My crafting skills are coming along but so slowly it seems. I must progress faster so that I am a viable contributor to the Guild. Of which, we now can officailly operate.
We had a meeting and it went well with mutual trust being the order of the day. How refreshing to deal with people that put honor and trust before profits...Greed! There was Dora, Kyle, Ferrit, Rain, Sonya, Mercas, Tristan and Sara, of course, and a surprise guest, Barion Firesteed.
Now i had just met Barion once before briely and Rain invited me on an adventure to the ice cave with him and Barion. I find him to be at first arrogant and beligerent, but that gave way to methodical and ordered. He was business with a kind of consideration for others. I like fighting with Barion at this side as he is definitely a leader. So he has agreed to freelance with our guild building weapons for a paultry fee. I dont understand why he has agreed to work with us but he appears to be a man of honor, I like that.
Finally got a chance to go venturing with two of my best old friends, Elrend and Silverhand. I miss them and thoroughly enjoyed our adventure. Which took us to the Bugbear cave all the way to Thunder mountains. Elrend has become very powerful and he has grown in strategy. I am envious of his powers but wouldnt know how to wield such magics anyway. Silver, ha! what can i say, he makes venturing fun and easy! He is such a character, i admire him greatly. With these two I felt secure and scared as we went through some of the roughest and toughest of country and foes.
Not a trip for the faint hearted mind you, but I never felt threatened by death...until Elrend left and Silver grabbed the map...and imediately blurted out "we're gonna get lost for sure"! He stood true and patiently waited for slow poke Elgon to catch up. We made it to North Point and portaled back to Hlint. Me loaded down with minerals and mahogany! Such a great time!
I am not such a warrior as i would think of myself, I did fall in Haven as I was surrounded by ogre beserkers and the healing potion failed as the last two blows put me down. I went back in with a vengance and kicked their back sides. Got my iron ore and celebrated another solo trip in Haven mines. I remember Elrend telling me, "you know you are a warrior when you can solo Haven".
I havent made it to the bottom yet by myself, some day perhaps?
I cant take away from myself either. I have come along ways from the red light caverns.
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Been venturing and more venturing, first the crafting; grabbed the mahogany and buffed up with some of Ferrit's do dads, the closest i could get to any production was shafts for arrows. Nailed em good too, gained more experience too...might be getting closer to that Mahogany bow for myself. Bought an amulet of Bull from Treana and boy does that make a difference, big time. Carry more ore and goodies. Scored on more coal and some fire opals, Rain got some Topaz, we did alright today. Thinking more about a Great Sword with a circle two enchantment and silver coating to start with...might just give me the edge I need! Been a long day again, and no sign of Jenna again...dont understand her...i'll just keep hanging in there...she's worth it! We have a good group to venture with...our family. We do alright and with Dora, it balances out just right. Everyone is gaining more crafting skills every day, the guild is doing well. But one thing is missing...?? Mercas, i havent seen him for many days now and no one else seems to have seen him either. I wonder what may have happened to him this time? Studying in the far east? Or eloped with a new found girl friend? Tired now and it's late...*lays back in bed and relaxes*.....ZZZZZZZZzzzzz........... Hummmm...this fleshling is more foolish than i thought! A new and different sword to bare? Replace me, The Sword of Death! Not likely Elgon, not without your blood upon on my hilt and dripping from my blade! Ha Ha Ha!
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She's dead! I killed her! I dont even have the pieces to bury...what have I done? The Sword of Death shattered into tiny peices, while in battle...why? I bought a new sword and was fighting with two weapons, could she have been jealous or envious? The curse? The Runes and their obscure meaning..what of that? Only by my death could she die...so is that why I made another visit to the Soul Mother today...She's going to kill me one strand at a time...way before my time! She set the trap that claimed my life and a part of my very soul..not to mention Bruno too. Even my ox was not safe from her devious detenation of destruction.....! I'm doomed! Now i feel like hiding in my room..afraid to be ambushed by the God's only know what...and sent that much closer to finality. Her evil and mean spirit is bound and determined to lay waste to me and all that is me...my very soul. I've got to leave and hide, where she cant find me, a protected place of infinite power and security. A place of peace and serenity..with no strife or fear. How can I tell Jenna and what of the Guild...? How can i leave them and what do i tell them? Or do I tell them anything..just disappear without a trace? If I had a god i would pray now, for never have things seemed darker or more final. I'm feeling weak from the death that overtook me today and from her death...as it seems like the life blood is being drawn out of me. No one can help me, some have tried and some think they can...but in the end....it's me and the demon, the Sword of Death is really the Demon of death. I see that now. I cant hide from a demon...unless it's in a church or monastery...or? Hummmm...i best find something and soon...time has run out for me. I cant sleep...*looking around*...i wont sleep for fear of the demon...and my death that will ensue. I love Jenna but I am not destined to be with her and be happy...i cant have her suffer along with me. Wouldnt be fair to her, she needs to find another, someone not cursed and tormented by a demon. There are no words i could give her that could soothe her heart...she deserves more. ... the day that Rain introduced us...my heart is breaking as well..just thinking of being without her..the plans we had...marriage...yeah right. Maybe i should just challenge her, that Demon Sword, and face death head on like a warrior..die in the throngs of battle with pride and honor? Yes that makes more sense..let the enemy take me before she gets my soul and my life. My head is aching and my heart is heavy with anguish and despair...*looks down*...*hanging his head* What have i done to these people that I call friends and family...and my love Jenna? I am ashamed for myself..having been so selfish and greedy...lusting for power. Thinking that there is no harm, no worry in making deals with the devil, selling my soul..literally for a moments glory and revengeful blood lust. Neither is my father's death avenged by me or my mother's hope for me come to fruition, but now is shattered as is the Sword that she gave me. And knowing that my father died by her blade, that evil Sword of Death....i should have known better. To think that i could master her and win her over...control her powers...her blood lust and thirst for death. What a fool I have been. So death, it is, that i seek out, to relieve me of this torment and suffering and to keep me from hurting others as others have been hurt before...because of this Demon Sword...my fore fathers have all died terrible deaths and have left weeping widows and floundering families in her wake. Sword of Death and Destruction...Desolation...Evil..nothing more nor anything less..just Evil. I am sorry to those that i have hurt and for those that i will hurt...for death and destruction shall it be until i breath my last gutteral, gasping breath! *leans back against the wall* *clasping hands* If there be a God then deliver me from this fate that i have set forth by my own hand. For I am the one that hath invited this evil into my life, and know not how to purge it,other than giving myself as the sacrifice that would satisfy it's blood lust and therefore end it's reign of evil. Jenna I love you with all my heart..should i ever have the chance to tell you again...I would give you my self and all that i am. Thank you for loving me for who i am and understanding what evil has beguiled me. I know you understand. Some day when this page is found, and if you should read it, i pray it is with a fond memory of Elgon Merrick, the warrior who loved you with all his heart. *faints dead away* *barely breathing*
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y love came to me at Lake Palden and we talked, i told her of the Sword's curse as related to me by Mercas. She was frightened and scared for me. We swam over to the Island and i built a fire to keep warm.
I told her that i must go away before the demon returns for my soul, i must find a sanctuary a place of peace where evil cannot penetrate.
We gave ourselves to each other that night and it was all that I had hoped it would be. I love Jenna with all my heart.
Later i decided to go get some oak from High Forest and Jenna agreed to go with me. I told her no fighting and no spiders!
I went to the first tree and chopped what was left of nothing more than a stump. Jenna surprisingly suggested another tree, again I said no spiders, No! She insisted...so I walked over to a rather stout oak and before i could chop anything, I was surrounded by stag beetles and spiders. I was immediately poisoned and soon overwhelmed by the numbers of enemies. I could hear Jenna struggling with her part of the battle. I tried to move towards her but saw her fall and I too fell....the demon's wish of our death's had come to pass. Now Jenna's blood was on my own hands and my own death has left me without the will to continue...
If I am able to seek and find someone wise enough to raise me from this torment and suffering...or shall i wander aimlessly until my final rest?
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I had made the committment to die in battle on Dregar, and was making good progress at ending all permanently. In fact, I met with the Soul Mother again and now have lost 8 strands total. I was just recovering and on my way back to take revenge on some bugbears when i ran into Sh'kura...and for whatever reason we began to talk...about family and life and love. We discovered that we have some similar past experiences as half elves. Her mother's demon and my own demon of the Sword. She was understanding and helpful as she gently guided me back to a focus on my love for Jenna. She told that love and true love can conquer demons and over come evil. I talked of seeking a Deity and she agreed that would be helpful. She is very kind and understanding. so i realized that i indeed had a purpose and a new focus of gaining freedom from the torment and torture of my demon. That i needed to trust in my love for Jenna and in Jenna's love for me to overcome the darkness of this destructive death demon. so I have decided to seek the Archer of Love, Ilsare, for guidance and to nurture a love for the good things in life as taught to me by my mother. The same Deity that is followed by Mercas and Kyle (and my mother). I must talk with them and learn what i must do next. I have a renewed respect for life, my own especially, and intend on giving all the love that i can to Jenna and others. I feel weaker from the loss of soul strands but i am wiser and able to overcome my weakness with the love that is shared by Jenna, the love of my life. She is everything to me and i feel a new energy within me of being....well...like reborn! I must learn all that i can about Ilsare and study, meditate and learn to love from my heart. The love and concern that has been shown to me by my "family" is remarkable. Rain, Sonya, Kyle and Ferrit, Mercas and even Dora...i am astounded that others can care for each other without expectations, other than just being myself and returning their love. I am blessed and most fortunate to know such kind and thoughtful people...never did i think such folks existed in Hlint or elsewhere. I will work hard to help make the Guild of Angels a success and above all I will devote myself to making Jenna happy and safe..for as long as I can. For as long as I live...maybe not much longer I am afraid...I have been careless and negligent...without really giving thought of how others felt about me or how my life affected them. Whether i lived or died, I didnt know others even cared? I've been selfish and self serving...serving only the demon...the demon of the Sword of Death, who is the only one that has gained by the killing and blood letting...drawing it's life from the souls of others that I have killed... I lusted for the power, every moment of it. I relished the feeling of being invincible and of snuffing out the existance of others for pleasure. With "her", The Sword of Death in hand i felt i could conquer any and all, and "she" would protect me through it all. Well "she" hasnt and she didnt protect my father...murdered him I suppose...and had the same plan for me too..i can only guess...and for Jenna and who all else...just death is all "she" wanted...no matter who's death it might be. I must be rid of the demon and build a new life with Jenna and the guild members. I am good at heart, so I think anyway, i should be able to build on my morals and values and once again feel strong and able bodied. Re-enforced with love from Jenna and my "family" and the power of Ilsare I should be able to prevail over evil. I hope and I will pray....
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I seem to be wondering aimlessly these days. Gathering when i can, crafting a few things, fighting once in awhile.
I miss Jenna, I feel empty and alone...without her in my life...i know she had to go see her mother, but no letter or message?
I havent seen Mercas or Kyle, he's gone too...so my mission to seek Ilsare has come to a halt!
In fact i dont really see the guild folks much lately.
Things just arent right inside me some how...feel like I'm dying..withering and wasting away!
Traveled with Elrend and Eredel to the desert, we did well kicking some giant backsides. Good company those two! Only thing missing was Silverhand.
Would be nice to see Cym again and venture with him too?
I should look up a good weapon maker and get a light weight off hand short sword or ? And get an upgrade on my Bastard sword?
Got to go get some ore and make some arrows!
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Been a week since i last saw Jenna, i feel so good when we are together but miserable when she's not with me. I'm not sure why we dont spend more time together? We seem to have an intense love for each other but our lives are spent mostly apart?
I've been busy crafting and gathering, not really gaining much in experience and seem to be stagnant at this moment. Boring actually!
The Guild is up and going, i guess that's where my energies go now. I dont even have time to socialize anymore. Just pass through town to get through it and move on to the next sight! Dont even talk with anyone.
My search for Ilsare is not moving forward very fast, Mercas and Kyle both are as busy as I am, and none of us have time for each other anymore. The Guild has become a job! Maybe the fun has gone too, as most other members seem stressed and over worked. Oh well, life goes on, so I hope...gathered up three more calls with death but none sith the Soul Mother...thank god...if i had one that is.
Been venturing with Dora a bit and appreciate her willingness to fight and to save lives...she's good to be with on the battle field. She has a great sense of humor too..makes me laugh...we all need that now!
Elrend is up to his usual, taking me to places that have me shaking in my armor. He's amazing! I miss seeing Silverhand and havent been out with Eredel lately...miss em both.
My demon seems to have subsided and i grow a little stronger everyday, but not home safe yet, I have a feeling.
Need the love of a good woman, Jenna, my love, I miss her...too much...it hurts at times..so i keep busy. I need to rest for a bit and get back to work...and more work.
The guild is good money but a lot of work. I hope we continue to be friends and family, despite ourselves and this work load.
Talked with Cym the other night, he seems to work hard and stays busy...not much time to talk.
Also met up with Ash Willow, we talked a bit, dont know her well..didnt realize she already gave birth to triplets...little Nepps..but cuter she says. Seems that things with her and Nepp are...well...hard to explain? Ash almost seems bitter about things, mainly men...dont know or understand but she doesnt seem that happy. But taking care of Triplets will do that to a person i suppose.
Dalan has been such a good friend to me...lately he's been the trusted one. I wish i could repay all that he has done for me. He wants to join the Guild, but we have asked him to aprentice for a bit to see if he likes us and we him...he's thinking on it...just dont want to use him up or burn him out. He is my friend first!
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The last several days have been so wonderful, seeing Jenna and spending time with her. We even did Haven together, just her and I. She is so thougtful and full of life. Her beaming smile is an addiction to me. I crave her company and her tender love. I am so happy with my Jenna, i think we should set a date for our wedding.
Today of all days, a trip to hell and a loss of a soul strand...my nineth...not so much fear for myself but for Jenna and her fear of losing me. As a warrior, I know that death is a permanent condition for i have sent many a soul there by my own sword. So i have no real fear of this Soul Mother but I'm begining to see how it affects others around me...well...and i'm nervous and confused!
I see that Elgon has made a place for himself in this world of Layonara and in the hearts of friends and family. Should i risk losing all that? Barion has to be asking himself the same question. Here he has a wedding coming up, i received my invitation from Kura, and he has to be thinking "will i be there for her"? 'Kura is surely worried sick and Barion is not one to sit around growing old.
I guess Elgon is growing up, seeing the world from a different perspective...less from being selfish and more of giving to others. Which he cant do if he is not here to do so. Such a change from my earlier days of freedom and careless life style, to man of responsibility and a future with others relying on me to be there...especially Jenna!
I must take care to not be so reckless and rely upon instincts to guide me..maybe even faith...serving something or someone greater than myself? I remember throwing coins in the Hlint well and some passerby asking what i was doing?...I retorted "worshipping my god". They were astounded by my irreverence and obvious sacrilegious reply. I said "this well is a good as any other god that people worship". How wrong could i have been? Now realizing that love is truly what my soul was needing and i have found that with Jenna and hope to find in Ilsare.
As Jenna and I spoke last night, I said to her, "our love will live on forever, even if i should not be here with her". We shared each other again in love..it was truly wonderful. I hope that fate should spare me but even the gods have no control over the Soul Mother and her demented desire for our soul suffering.
Perhaps it is time for Jenna and I to consider children to perpetuate our legacy and carry forth an heritage of our courage and love? First things first, set a wedding date..yes! Much needs to be planned, i need to speak with Rain and Sonya, Kyle and Ferrit too..
I feel weak and worn out...maybe time to slow things down...make myself a rocking chair!?
*laughs to himself* *but only for a moment*
*then grimaces in thought*
The demon surely must be celebrating my defeat now, just a matter of time and another family member shall fall victim to the curse of the sword....The Sword of Death....hmmmm...*near tears*
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As if I werent facing enough adversity, along comes Lance Merrick my cousin bering most unudual news.
He has informed me of an arranged marriage between myself and another. My father according to family tradition had arranged for me to be married to Endora Cromwell. I met her once when we were very young. I have not given it thought since that time, as my mother never talked of such an arrangement. My mother would not have supported such, as her own marriage was one of free choice at the cost of her very own life.
Lance tells me that this marriage is for the union of the Merricks and the Cromwells, two powerful families. My uncle, Melchek stands to gain political power and the families land holdings would nearly double. Lance has been sent to "fetch" me and to warn me of the consequences of my refusal to go through with the marriage.
My heart belongs to Jenna and nothing can stand against us or come between us. But, i must fight Endora's champion should i want to be released from the arrangement. And of course, i want released! The champion is well known and is her older brother, Chancey, captain of the royal guard. I must defeat him in open battle or die to revenge her honor.
Should that not be enough, Lance assures me that his father, Melchek, has greaet interest in this marriage taking place. States that uncle would be most displeased with me to the point of having me killed....some family?
I must return and set this straight with my family and the Cromwell's. Lance has assured me of his loyalty to me, as we were childhood friends.
I have talked with Kyle, who is furious with me and Rain who is concerned about me. Rain has offered to stand by my side but i cannot let him risk his life for this matter. Truly a faithful Brother to me...Rain.
Jenna is standing by me and also wants to attend the "joust" as i have termed it. More like an ogre ambush would be closer.
If ever i needed a god for prayer and strength, it would be now...Ilsare...where is this god of love?
I have the love of Jenna and Lance at my back, i shall venture back home and rectify this situation.
Lance Merrick, what can i say about this young boy...i can remember our mock battles and jousting. We were best of friends back then. I cannot let him take a fall with me...i shall leave him behind, even though that is not what he wishes. But if he were to return home supporting me, his father Melchek would kill him as well or try.
What a mess, this has turned into, not even my doing.........but Jenna continues to offer her unconditional love to me.
Lance tells me that he got a cool reception from my family the "guild". I am surprised.
I must go and prepare for my trip back to the rural area of Blackford. I love Jenna with all my heart..that i know and hold dearly until i return.
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The Merrick's were so unhappy to see me return, I sent Lance back to Hlint as i could see that my uncle was not in a negotiating mood. Times change and traditions are broken and now so are my family ties, as if there were any. But poor Lance is not able to return either. He has been disowned and banished from the family as well as myself. No loss for me but i wonder what this means for young Lance?
My uncle and i got into a fight of sorts and one of his friends slashed my arm with a sword, minor wound at best. So he ordered me to leave and not see Endora or her family. Only to find out later that Endora had already found love with another and was hoping that i would give up or die. So much for arranged marriages, not like the love that i share with Jenna.
So i'm back in Hlint and have ventured several times to loosen the arm up a bit. Actually been very busy with crafting and trying to get Lance settled in. Rain and the others have made Lance feel welcomed and offered him a place to stay. Lance has kept to himself and is missing his family and home, i think. He is too young for love but maybe that would help get his mind on something else for awhile. Perhaps he needs to get to know some of the local ladies.
I keep running into this character named Truk, half giant, he's a gentle soul for his size. But one heck of a fighter. I've got to perfect my fighting with magics, i keep dying. They are more likely to run and hide than stand and fight. They all seem to have self preservation as a code, versus all for one and one for all of the fighter's code! The only one i trust is Dora, she's got the fighter code and mentality but is sharp with the magic too!
The guild seems to be doing well and has expanded by several aprentices. I guess everyone is needing the help these days. So now we have Jako and Daniel, Dalan and Dora. We split the profits with em just as if they were members but they cant vote. We are long overdue for a council meeting!
I havent seen Jenna since my return and wonder why she's not here to greet me? Perhaps she has second thoughts about us? I hope i havent driven her off with my ignorance of her needs or some other thoughtless reason? I would lose the last soul strand if that were to happen, soul mother or not!
I've been frustrated with the guild lately but i think it's just a passing phase. I just dont see them much and Lance has not done much venturing, he needs guidance. I hope that he will grow with my family here in Hlint and feel comfortable with those that i call friends, brothers and family.
My demon has subsided but i feel that torment and torture is always on the prowl for me and each venture is a challenge to my demon for victory or death eternal. I pray to Ilsare for guidance and support but do not know the way to worship or what i should be studying? I still havent seen Mercas enough or Kyle for that matter to ask of their own experience of Ilsare.
I miss and love Jenna and wonder at times why she seems to be gone for days without word? I wonder if that makes for a good relationship or if we are headed for trouble? Perhaps going our own separate ways until we find what we are truly looking for? I may not be what she needs in a man and she deserves to be happy. She needs a man that can understand her needs and be there for her when she needs someone or not? I dont really know at this point, but i continue to save for our wedding without a date?
Not to worry i suppose, my life is going well and i couldnt be happier. I look at things and wonder? How could a nobody from nowhere be where i am today? I have the love of a good woman, a great job with a guild, a place to live and friends to share it all with.
*gives thanks in a short prayer to Ilsare*
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Oh Lord, i've been away from my writings for so long... Too much has passed to catch up.
I've been crafting and the guild seems to be doing well. I've gained much experience in my chosen crafts and I am producing mahogany weapons.
Mahogany...reminds me of my friend Elrend...(RIP), suffered the fate that awaits me at every outing...and i've been pushing my luck as of late.
I am at peace within myself for once in my life. Due to Jenna, the demon being gone, and of course my guild family. All seems so good right now. And of course my friend Lance! He's growing to become quite the warrior. I'm proud of him.
Rain is going through some training to become an arcane archer but he's had one recent episode of an uncontrollable rage..scared Jenna and gave Sonya a terrible scare too. Me, i was scared for Rain...as much as myself...for i would defend myself and the women at all costs...even my own life.
I have become a strong warrior and have learned much in the way of tactics and strategies. But i am not ready to hang up the sword just yet. I like crafting but it is not fulfilling enough to fill the hole that retirement would cause. Jenna has been patient with me and continues to support me and my endeavor to become even stronger as a warrior.
Jenna has asked me if i would consider an elopement and even talked of children. I have put her off ...for reasons that i dont understand myself. But mainly, i dont want to leave a widow and orphans behind when i die. Which may be soon enough.
Kyle and Ferrit have just had their first baby boy, Cole and seem happy but tired. Seems to push Jenna's biological clock button even more.
The twins are growing and are toddling around. Keeps Rain and Sonya on their toes.
Dalan is such a hard worker and has grown in his skills...Daniel is growing as a fighter and has developed a good knowledge of strategy of his own right...Jako i dont see...he's certainly a mystery person.
Dora, what can i say, she is a great fighting companion and takes care of me so i dont die...but she's a bit of a mystery too. CAnt put my finger on it yet.
Mercas has been busy making enchantments, rings and such...i hardly see him. But have had a chance to travel with him and Dora on an occasion. He wants more diamonds, and I have talked withe the brave monk Silverhand if he would be interested. The thinks with Eredel, Robert and a few others it could be done. We shall see.
I've run into this character, named Truk, a half giant...we've been traveling around too.
I had the most unusual experience on Bear Island...*shudders*...i was traveling with Dora and Mercas, gathering garnets and feldspar, when we came across this mage a drow mage so his appearance seemed...He made no attempt on us nor did he aid either. He did not speak but just watched us but without regard as to what were doing?! Very odd...seeing this kinds of characters wandering Layo...and particularly Bear Island not known for an association with the underdark or drow?
Got things to do...thanks Ilsare for life and love...*walks out the door*
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I have a certain remorse in these words as Elgon has lived a hazzardous life style, that of a warrior. I know that i have nearly ran out time and soul strands. So it is with a heavy heart that i write a will and testament;
Rain Darsus is the executor of my estate;
Which consists of the following;
* personal armor iron full plate
* three bastard swords all iron
* various rings and amulets
* my militia boots
* my guild coat
these and all else gets dispersed as Rain sees fit.
I put charge of the welfare of Lance Merrick in the hands of RAin Darsus, with Kyle Pandorn as God father.
It is my request that the guild consider Lance Merrick as part of our guild family with benefits to be bestowed as is fitting.
You are his only family now and his well being is in your hands, Kyle, Mercas, Daniel, Dalan, Jako and Rain, please raise him as a man to be what he can be...a warrior or a carpenter but respectful and honorable above all.
Ferrit, Dora and Sonya, give him the nurturing you would your own, teaching him to respect others and to love as well as being loved.
Jenna my love, should this letter ever find purpose, i am sorry for leaving you so soon. I felt that you deserved more than i could give, i hope that you find peace and love and happiness. As you deserve that and more!
May you all find your dreams come true and may true love abound in your hearts. Think of me with smiles and thoughts of those good ole days, of Elgon, head strong, charging into battle as he charged into life..giving it his all even to the end.
Thanks be to you all for the love and life that was Elgon's.
in all sincerity and of sound mind and body
Elgon Merrick