The World of Layonara
Character Development => Development Journals and Discussion => Topic started by: jan on December 26, 2006, 04:36:16 AM
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To be complete i will write down the things i find important in this little book so you can keep up with the things that your father experiances and the thoughts i have on the things happening in my life from this moment on Abigail
My decision to leave the rest off the world at peace and to remove myself from their games seems to be one of the things i should have done before.
Four days i have been gone from Hlint and its surroundings now and slowly i start getting the feeling that my decision was the right one.
Playing with you and your friends my daugther has shown to me that peace is the ultimate state i deep down am looking for.
You know i disapear for a day at the time , that is to get the guild with mostly my friends in it the materials they need.
Once i thought i had found some one that might fill the void left by your mothers dead my daugther,but my search for love was foolish and i see now that if i ever love again it will come naturaly.
I met the one that i thought could fill the void left by your mother on a gatheringtrip a day back.
Seeing her i first felt happyness surfasing,but then i saw who she was with and anger and disapointment took over and with out a word i ran away.
Seems she rather helps a competing guild to the materials they with out her cant get then that it had any impact that i told her and others that i would leave.
Luckely i have changed the apearence of my armor,so i dont think any one recogniced me and to be honest ,i dont care if they did or not.
One of those there was a follower of Rofirein and i wish him all the luck in the world .
Despite him and i not acting in ways that the other understands i still feel it my duty to wish the younger followers of The Golden One the best,even if their actions seem alien too me at times.
None has been contacting me for now but i guess that is to be expected,i more often was away on long trips to gather materials for the guild.
I need to go back to Haven outskirts to empty the house there and sell it .
I will put up a post in the inns in the land to sell it to someone that is in no way tied to a guild for i think that most guilds own too much realestate already.
I will be honest ...i miss my friends ...i miss even sitting in Hlint and talking to newcomers*sighs*
This running away is not something your father is used to Abigail,but for now to keep my sanity i cant see another way.
I am sure that both Dalan and Eghaas will be visiting soon and that they will keep me updated on the important things happening around Hlint*smiles*i look forward to see them .
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*Sighs and starts to write*
Eight days have past and i never knew that time could have such an impact on someone.
Restless as i was i decided to get sapphires and some garnet and feldspar.
While placing the feldspar in a chest in the guildhall,Cole stumbled in on me.
First he thought i was a thief, but after i removed my helmet he saw it was me.
We talked a bit and i told him some things that troubled me at the time*smiles*
I never have talked much to Cole but it seems he is wiser then most i talk too,with out trying to persuade me to stay he told me to find my path and to follow it once i found it.
It realy is surpricing that people i never realy talked too before seem to understand what is happening to me and just simply accept that i need time with you my daugther,time to get things straight for myself .
While checking at the shop i was honoured by a visit,not a normal customer, but a spokesperson from an organicition called The Friends Of Hurm Society.
This man ,Pier Krieg, told me that they want us as a guild to help out on the matter of Hurm.
If i understood correctly we are asked to go out to the mosscrypt and go find out if we can strike a deal with the black dragons that live there.
The main idear should be i think too make a kind of deal that makes sure that Hurm will be spared another asault in a long period of time.
After getting the minerals i looked for Sonya Darsus in the tradehall because i had promissed her on an earlier occasion that i would help her to some garnets.
She wasnt there,but i ran into Chrissy and one i like,Angelique,they told me i wa reacting grumpy and that i was no fun that way.
I think they planned something together so i kept my eye on them and as they both started to come closer i turned and ran off.
By doing so i bumped into Sonya and i gave her the garnets,not many words were exchanged and i went out to be alone again.
After sitting at a campfire roasting the fish i had caught earlier, i remembered hearing Angelique ask Chrissy if she would help her get some silk.
Having done my chores for the guild earlier i had nothing else to do so i decided to get some silk and if i could find her give it to Angel.
With the same hunger as usual i killed the spiders and the ettercap guarding the silk and went to the campfire near Aeridins tempel to rest and think a bit.
The rest at the campfire made me remember a lot of things...all the times i had sit here with Shelu...the visit from the Aeridin Avatar...the times i was here with Dorena talking about animal life and the need to preserve that...all survaced somehow and i felt sad but had a strange feeling that somehow all i have done and have been through were for reasons i myself might not understand but nondeless were for a reason.
After pondering that a bit i decided to go back and see if i could find Angelique.
Upon returning to the place the silk can be gathered i saw Angelique and Chrissy getting the rest of the silk that i had forgotten earlier.
Feeling asif i interfeared in something they didnt need help with,i decided to go further and collect the silk that is guarded by the beetles .
Having collected that i thoungt it would be a good idear to go back to the campfire and ponder there a bit more because it seemed to have helped in me understanding more about myself.
While going there i heard some shouts and went looking...i found both Chrissy and Angel badly wounded,being ambushed by the spiders.
I went to them and healed them still in my changed armor.
Chrissy is a lot off things,but not a fool..she saw through my disguise and called me by my name.
I revealed myself and after some talk i gave the silk i got earlier to Angel ,right after that the spiders relentless ambushed us again leaving the two lady's hurt again.
I told them to follow and lead them to the campfire i was heading anyway and started to talk a bit with them.
I cant describe or relate what all was said at the fire,but one thing sticks out in my mind...i am running and the wall i have build towards others is one that only can be broken by one that loves me as i am ,or by myself in finaly accepting that i am who i am and i canh not hold myself responcible for things that happen too others the way i have been doing almost from the moment i have set foot in Hlint so long ago.
I had changed my color of my armor to black, to reflect the way i was feeling...at the first oppertunity i get i will change it to pure gold,to show others that i aslong as i live will be an example to young adventurers and show that my faith in The Golden One as i know it will never fade.
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*A man completely in golden armor opens his journal before he steps in and pens down something he will repeat over and over while praying at the statue of The Golden One*
By the Insight of your wisdom we seek the best ways to observe the law.
By the Strength of your love as a shield we protect the innocent.
By the Might of your will we drive back those who seek to overthrow justice
By the Light of your soul we bring light into the darkness, law and order to chaos.
Our Duty to serve in fairness and integrity.
Our duty to serve through good judgement and generosity.
Our duty to serve through faith and true Justice
Our Duty to serve as champions of law and order against injustice and evil
Our steadfastness, our hearts and our souls are with you Great Dragon.
Into the light of your love for the people of this world we step, to follow the path you set by your Will.
To bring Law, impartial judgement and order to the world.
*After three days of praying and repeating the oath of The Knights he stands and a light shines in his eyes.He walks out and turns towards the tempel smiling*
"My oath is my honour,my honour is my life,my life is yours to comand Golden One"
*after these words he turns to fight injustice anywere he can find it*
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*Sitting in the guildhall he takes out his journal and starts to write*
Many things come on my path and life seems to get back to normal.
A man has come to The Orc Bashers shop to ask for assistence on a matter concearning Hurm.
He and the society he says he represents want a group of people to travell to the black dragon and negociate a deal with it to leave Hurm alone.
He asked the guild as a whole for support so i have called for a meeting and we talked about it.
We came to the conclusion ,that since i am bound by my oath to help in times off need and for a good cause,that we will all be there.
Not as an official guild , but as friends that are willing to support me in the things my oath binds me to undertake.
I have had a talk with Tegan .
I told her that i could not go on further explore our feelings since i find it that she needs someone that holds her at the first place in his or her heart.
With the initiations for knighthood coming up,i found that Rofirein is first in my heart.
If the call for help comes i will drop all i am undertaking and answer it.
Since i dont believe that Tegan ever would be happy with second place in my heart i found it time to tell her that it wouldnt work.
She asked me if Rofirein even would come before my daugther,to be honest ...i dont know...
I evaded her question by telling her that one of the best things i have done lately was letting Abigail live in the village that Sa grew up.
That way she wont be there once i get called and i know i am sure that she is save and taken care off by people that love her .
The upcoming initiation scare the wits out of me to be honest,i told Acacea that no matter what happens i still will be the same person...but is that true?...
I dont know and i hope i wont find out,every one off my friends think i will be accepted,is it strange that i am the only one with doubts?
No one knows my life better then me ..i know i havent been a modelknight sofar..is it strange that i doubt myself ?
All my doubts disapear once i go to Abigail to be with her,she is growing faster then i ever held possible *smiles*
Dalan comes from time to time to play with her and show her ways to go through the forest with out disturbing the animals*grins* if i wouldnt know better i swear i have seen her talking to small animals.
The teacher in the village told me she has a wit for magic,but she doesnt seem to be interested in that a lot...the whole town is mobilised once she has "escaped "her teacher again and usualy they find her in the nearby trees sitting with animals.
She is the thing i hold dear next to Rofirein,could i forget her if Rofirein calls?...i am not sure ...but i think i wont.
If ever i am to find some one to spend my life with i better make clear that my heart and soul and duty belong to Rofirein first and then her and my daugther..i think...
*with that he closes his journal and sits for hours in his room pondering if what he just wrote is true*
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*A man in golden armor is sitting in a nearly empty house in haven outskirts and takes out his journal,he watches the beautifull elven woman laying seemingly sleeping on the rolled up carpet and smiling gets his quill and starts to write*
Life can be weird.
Again i wasnt able to hold my thoughts and words to myself in the presence of a woman that put a spark off hope on happiness in my heart.
Very young she is for elven standarts,just reached the elven maturity age.
My gathering for the guild simply got too dull and i didnt see myself getting all the things i normaly get.
This lead to my desicion to stay around Hlint and Haven to mine coal and dig sand to improve my tinkeringskill.
While i was preparing to go to Haven after making glass Miss Amilia came by in the crafthouse and we started talking.
As the conversation progressed others came to share out conversation and there she was..she introduced herself as Solarina De'Shade.
After lots off talking Miss Amilia said she needed some minerals from Haven Mines,since i needed coal and platinum i joined them .
I unloaded in the house in Haven and got too talk to Solarina again,after most off the talking she said she would come clear.
Not knowing what she meant i listend to her story about the fallen House of De 'Shade and her real name being JennaJade.
*he looks to the seemingly sleeping young woman and smiles as she turns thinking to himself "I know elves dont sleep my flower" *
After we promissed her to not reveal to her twinsister Solarina that she was near we went down Haven Mines.
Guiding the group from the rear they did a wonderfull job and followed my advice almost to the letter.
When things got too rough i stepped in and helped a bit,but mostly on their own they were able to reach the bottom of the mines.
We mined and went out with out too much trouble and all came safely to the survace again.
JennaJade thanked us for our secretie towards her twin and went off.
There went a woman planning on having atleast five children to let her House regrow to the status it had,a woman that suspected her sister of involvement
in the destruction of her House.
A few days later i ran into Eghaas and a woman strikingly resembling JennaJade,but since she didnt show any sign of recognation i almost knew it would be Solarina,the twin.
The woman clearly had an eye on Eghaas but he didnt seem to noticed.
After the introduction i heard that she had talked with JennaJade , who at my advice went to her too talk about everything and gave up her spying on her.
Smiling i told them that i had met Solarina's sister earlier and that she was an "interesting"woman too say the least.
My heart skipped a beat when Solarina told me that her sister had met a man off great skill that she found interesting enough to further get too know.
She had met the man on a trip to Haven Mines and Solarina told me that if i was the only fighter there it was me that her sister was interested in.
We said our goodby's and i went to the inn to rest and think.
How could it be that the mere name off a woman could let my heart skip a beat?
So soon after telling Tegan it could not be,so soon after releasing Ran from her promiss to love me,so soon after accepting Rofirein as number one in my heart.
Coal black hair and purple eyes,the body off a goddes and a mouth faster then most i ever met.
The happiness this woman brought were ever i met her and her desire for a man that could give her five strong children to keep her name in this world.
Later that same day i ran into JennaJade in Hlint and we talked again for a short time.
She was jealous off her sister who had been to a hill to see the sunset so i offered her to show her around to places that i think are interesting enough to watch.
Greedily she accepted my proposal to make it a date and she went off ,later i found out that she had made a special dress just for going out with me.
We met a few days later in Hlint again and i was stunned by the dress she wore.
After a little small talk we went on our date,i showed her the pomd at Haven and we got to talk there for hours.
She wanted to know all about me and i wanted to know all about her,we talked like nothing else in the world excisted and time flew.
Everything seemed so ....pure...so natural...i told her most off my life and she told me her lifestory.
She seemed intersted in me and my adventures so i told her the story of the hero's that held the Bloodwell and destroyed Synthar Blood.
She read me a poem on her iner sanctuary i believe, a place she could turn too to find peace and rest.
I layed my head on her lap and just felt happy and at peace,she asked me about Abigail and the initiations that will come up soon.
After a long time just enjoying the company we both were looking to eachother and suddenly we kissed...it felt like time stood still for a moment .
This young woman brought feelings in me above that i only have shared with a few,Shelu...my soulmate...Sabrissia ...my once lost love and Sa'kura...wife and love off my life and mother of Abigail.
I'm not sure what further happend as i was caught by this woman like a fly iin a web and liking it more then applepie.
She asked me when the initiations would be and i told her they will be in one and a half or two months,making it the 12th month off the year.
Casualy she told me that the second month of the new year could be a great time for two people feeling for eachother.
At fist i didnt understand but in not too miss pointers she made it clear that it would be a very good month to be married....
I kept playing for a while that i didnt understand her , but in the end i turned and looked over her belly to her grinning.
I asked her why she couldnt say the words and she answered that those words were the mans job and she only could try to make it clear.
Then i did something that surpriced myself but seemingly not her,i went on one knee before her and asked her that if we both still would feel the same in four months...if she would marry me...crypticly she answered that she would bet that she would say yes if that still was the case.
Smiling and strangly relieved i kissed her and time stood still again,once done i told her to come see the Haven house to see wich room she and her sister would rent.
Having decided that i will rent out the rooms on the groundfloor with doors she and her sister and Amilia wanted to rent rooms.
We looked around the house and i showed her the upstairs were i am writing this.
She saw the pool and it was clear that she loved it so i showed her a chest filled with Sa'kura her clothes and left her with the words to look if there was a bathingsuit in it so she could use the pool.
When she came out again i couldnt get my eyes to look at anything else then this beautifull woman standing before me.
I went looking for my swim clothes and having them found we got into the bath.
We talked and splashed water everywere, i massaged her back and shoulders and then things happend .
I can not write down or even start to give a glimp of what happend then and there,somehow we merged asif two become one.
lovingly she told me that she never had any experience like that before and looking to her and the water off the bath i realised howmuch she had honoured me.
Now she lays there ...my flower in the desert ...the hope i was looking for in others but never was able to find...the spark that gives me a feeling that was lost...the one that makes me feel whole again.
Before she went to rest she even honoured me more,she wants me to teach her what i know off Rofirein and wants to share my faith with me.
I asked her straight if she ever would try to change me and she sincerely answered no ..she loves the man i am now and thought it would be betrayal to myself if ever another changed me.
Somuch unknown wisdom in such a young woman for her standart,she told me that she will love Abigail because she is a part of me but never can replace her real mother and i know she is right....Sa'kura nor Shelu nor the feelings i had for Sabrissia can ever be replaced.
The feelings this beautifull moon elf brings up in my heart are new and not to be confused with older feelings that will always be there but are now put to rest.
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*The man in golden armor sits next to the tempel in Velensk and qiuckly writes something in his journal before entering the tempel and praying for insight and calmness for hours*
I am on my way to search the intire lands for my love.
She has left on the idear that she needs to learn more and needs to deserve the respect off my socalled "friends "before she will return.
I got two letters from Ranéwin that tell me so.
She included a rose enchanted with light to guide me on my path,but my path is with her and i will not rest before i find her or die trying to find her.
Since i dont have any idear where she might be i probably will go to places that are deadly even to me,but my love for her is to deep and complete to skip a place she might be.
She has left because off the looks and the remarks she got from some off my socalled"friends", if i make it back i will find out who they are and tell them once and forall that they dont have the right to question things that concern me and my life in a way they never will understand.
If i die on this search my death will be partly if not mainly by their actions.
When i lose JennaJade over this to the soulmother and i find that out somehow i will seek them out and ...........*he looks grim but doesnt write what he was thinking,letting the sentence unfinished*
*after letting himself cool down a bit he resumes*
Unfortunatly i have given her a key to the house in Haven wich gives her acces to the portal there.
I do not know howlong this search will take but i simply dont care.
Maybe i will miss the initiation for knighthood,maybe not,but i now know that loosing this spark of hope called JennaJade will probably be the end of my life.
I searched myself but i can not again find the strenght or the will to overcome yet another loss and if this loss is final i will retire from this world in a grand war on all that is evil and unjust.
I left a letter in our guildhall for all to read to explain and i hope they understand .*a copy of the letter is folded up in his journal*
Sister in faith Mylindra will travel with me on this search and i know that she will do whatever she can to aid me and help me in this.
She truely is one off the few that can make me stop and think if my feelings cloud my better judgement,she will become an even better priest then she is now and i suspect that if she wishes she could rise in the church further then she herself ever could think.
*the prayers at the bindstone to Rofirein*
Lord Protector,Golden One.
Please hear my call for help and guidence.
I am off to search for the love that ran from caused by people that think they have the right to interfear with my life.
Please guide me on my path to her and please keep my loved one safe My Lord.
Please give me insight in either awake state or sleeping so that i may find her and will be able to hold her once again.
I call on thy goodness to keep her and my daugther that i will leave behind safe and sound till the day i can hold them in my arms again.
Guide me My Lord,please guide me and sister Mylindra in the paths we are about to travel.
I pledged thee my life and blade and honour My Lord and i always will try to uphold the things You in your infinite wisdom stand for.
This search can mean that i wont be there once thy eartly representatives judge over the Knights to be.
Please My Lord understand that it is not disrespect that keeps me away then,but my search for my flower cannot wait at the risc that something might happen to her.
Thank you My Lord for comforting me by your faith in times like these and i hope this call for guidence will not be un answered.
*After his prayer he gets up and salutes and walks out to find Mylindra to start on the quest to find his love*
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Guildmembers.
A thing has happend that forces me to leave my chores be for the time being.
My love has ran off due to looks and talks off my socalled "friends".
I will move heaven and earth to find her and will be gone untill i do.
My sister in faith Mylindra will travel with me,so do not worry about my safebeing.
If any off you see JennaJade anywere, please tell her that i am looking for her and try to get her back home please.
Please try to convince her that she doesnt have to prove her worthyness to me or anybody else.
Barion Firesteed.
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*In A house on Dregar two people sit and talk,as one goes to sleep the other gets his journal out and starts to write*
A week has passed and stil no sign of my love,either we missed her or she hasn't been here .
The merchants we met underway didnt see her and unfortunatly the mercenaries and monsters we met sofar were not able to talk after the scirmishes we had with them.
Because we didnt want to skip any place we went from north point inwards working our way to Pranzis,that way if she came from Pranzis towards us we hoped to intercept her.
Before we went here i cleared The Broken Forest and Toran's crupt but no sign off her there either.
We will use my portal here tomorrow to start searching on Xantrill,i told Mylindra that probably it would prove to be deadly to travel there and she looked at me and told me that she never would let me travel there alone in the state i am in now and would aid with her magic as best as she could.
My love if ever you get to read this then please let this remind you that nomatter what others say or think i feel somuch for you that my life is worthless if i would lose you.
The search for you makes me see that i should not ask "if"you will mary me after four months,but it should be "will you mary me right after the initiations".
*he thinks about the initiatons and looks smiling to the sleeping form of Mylindra*
I thought my search for you my love would interfear with my preparations for those initiations but the opposite seems to be the case.
Mylindra keeps me on edge and i pray next to her every day to The Lord Protector too keep you safe and sound.
Never in my life have i felt closer to You then now My Lord and the fact that neither off us has fallen yet i solely thank too You .
Ofcourse i fell in Storans but that was my own foolishness,going in with out deathwards is never a good idear and if Mylindra would have been there i am sure i wouldnt have fallen.
If i am unable to make it too the initiations My Lord know then that in my heart i am a knight and i will keep fighting for You and the things You stand for.
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*right before they step into the portal a knock is heard on the door off the house,Barion opens the door to find a letter and eagerly reads it.After reading it he turns and tells Mylindra that he is called to Hlint by JennaJades sister and that he needs to go there fast.Mylindra calms him down and gently reminds him to not go off anywere with out her.Thankfully he smiles to her and assures her that he will not leave on the search again before he talked to her*
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*after softly getting up he grabs his journal and goes downstairs in his Haven outskirts house,glowing with love and joy he sits on his metalchest and ponders what too write before he begins*
I need to send a bird to Mylindra with the good news,my flower is back and wont go away like this ever again.
Right before we went to Xantrill a letter was delivered at the house in Pranzis,urging me too come to Hlint to get in contact with Solarina.
After running around in Hlint a few times she found me,I was disappointed at first that it wasnt my flower but Solarina talked to me and handed me a letter first.
It was a letter from JennaJade,letting me know that she had completed her first two quests that she had thought out for herself.
The first part was given too me by Solarina,seven letter adressed to me with JennaJades inner thoughts about me and her description off her love for me.
Still i need to read those but from her first letter i know it will be just that,her own investigation towards her heart and her feelings for me.
The second part i knew from her first letter to be service,service to other travelers and helping them too reach their destination by means off protection and if needed use off her blade and bow.
I was a bit scared for her but her sister has asked her straight in her face if she was okay.
Solarina told me that JennaJade was strangely closed towards her but did say that the soulmother has not visited her,my relief cannot be described.
During my talk with Solarina something happend that would change all that was going on,i got hit by a letter dropped by a bird.
The letter was more a scream then a request,Lex'or,a young friend i try to help with some off his troubles,called me to the campfire near Hlint with speed.
I quickly said goodbye to Solarina as a feeling came over me that this would be important because Lex'or never would call me if nothing was wrong.
On my way there i ran into Chrissy and she with out too much questions followed me too keep an eye on me i think.
The shock was great when coming to the campfire,JennaJade,my flower, was there...held by a spell Lex'or had cast long ago as i later heard.
All i could do was call her name and all around seemed to disappear as i looked at her.
First she seemed mad,then disapointed,then somewhat sad.
She started too talk but i missed most meaning to her words caught by her mere appearence.
After some time all i could do was ask a simple question."Why ? "
She looked at me and started talking,about stares and comments she had from some that call me friend,about the feeling she herself got off doubt...
The feeling that somehow her past had put a mark on her and that she needed to find out if her feelings realy were true as the "friends"questioned them.
She thought about it and desided the things that lead her too run off.
She felt she needed to search herself for the answeres on her feelings about me as she did in her letters send to me,not just her feelings but her heart speaking through her quill,pure and undisturbed.
Secondly she felt she had to taste something off the life i have been leading all these years,helping others by service and aid others if needed.
The thirth part i was affraid off ,since it was something that normaly only is experienced in rare cases.
She was to overcome her fear....and from the stories she told me at the pond i figured that could mean only one thing....facing certain death with head held high and fighting for what she is worth.
Lex'or caught her before she could go through with this thirth point she made herself and at first she tought she had failed.
I looked to her full off love and could not bring myself to judge her in any way,to be certain i asked her what her fear was....she told me it wasnt realy a fear but more the feeling that she herself had about being a coward and in some strange way she tought that was what my "friends"were meaning with their looks.
She thought she had to compete with Sa'kura to them and failed and that they somehow could see that long ago she had to stay and sit hidden away while terible things happend around ,she herself not strong enough to change a single thing and it weighted heavily on her .
We talked about her leaving and the danger off losing eachother,i did not and could not judge her or be mad at her in any way and i told her that aswell.
I asked her what her greatest fear was and she answered that it was her thinking herself to be a coward and possibly be right.
I told her i knew another fear and that if she wished she could face that very closeby.
She looked strangely at me at first and finaly asked what that could be....i looked her straight in her beautifull purple eyes and said the following words:
"one off your fears is seeing my die before you...and i am willing to go with you to a place to let them kill me...knowing that you will come to my aid nomatter what the odds are"
She looked at me and told me that indeed this was her fear but that if ever i would die in battle and not off old age she would seek the soulmother to either claim me back or else to join me in the afterlife.
Inside i could scream with joy but all i did ws look at her and trying to convince her that i will lay my life down for her.
It took her some time but finaly the reason why i could scream with joy seemed to become clear to her.
She looked at me and finaly sayd the words i wanted to hear,"i am not a coward"she looked a bit puzzled but relieved aswell.
"I will seek out the soulmother to either be with ye in life or in death..."Her words saddened me but relieved me at the same time.
Finaly she herself saw that the feeling that she had about herself was no longe grounded,for one that vowes to seek out the soulmother can not be a coward.
My heart saddened because the way she said it i know it to be thruth.
After finaly realy getting back together by a simple kis we turned to find that Chrissy was sitting with Lex's head on her lap and Lex strangly enough looking more dead then alive.
I checked him and he seemed exhausted and seemed to have lost weight and fluids .
JennaJade tried to put some off her magic in him because at first we thought it was caused by the long time that he used his spell on JennaJade that had exhausted him.
When her magic didnt help and Ellohanna was there i decided too pick him up and take him to the Aeridin tempel in Rangers Vale to try if they could help one off their faith.
On our way there we met up with Angel and unfortunatly Ellohanna had to leave.
After arriving at the tempel we tried all we could to bring Lex back to his positives but we didnt seem to have any succes.
JennaJade started blaming herself because she thought it was because off the spell and what that had took out of him that made him the way he was .
I searched his bags and checked his health again to find that he had exhausted himself by not eating and drinking far too little for a long period off time,the only things in his bags were raw meats .
Angel and Chrissy both seperatly went out to find a priest and JennaJade and myself started too feed him watered down stew as soup with the help off Sonya who had found us there .
After quite some time Angel came back with Serissa who was fortunatly in the Orc Bashers Shop in Hlint.
After checking Lex,Serissa she came to the same conclusion i had made and with help off some off her spells we were able to get Lex back on his feet again.
When he finaly found himself a bit he shared with us the tale about him and Ellohanna,from what i can make off it it is love that is shared but never will be.
Hopefully he will be able to pull himself up and out of the history those two share and finaly go on with living and i will be there whenever he needs my help.
When we were sure that he was and further would be okay i took my flower and showed her the house in Pranzis.
She doesnt like the house and wants to stay living at Haven,because she was questioned in Pranzis and clubbed for wearing a holy symbol.*he smiles*
She wears the symbol of My Lord Rofirein and realy is learning about him and what he stands for.
We did not talk much about Him yet together and i realy should tell her that i follow Rofirein,not automaticly the representatives that now lead the church.
*pondering his own thoughts about Rofirein and the church he closes his journal and sneaks upstairs to get next to his loved one in the bed and gently holds her,drifting into a healing and refreshing dreamland off himself and his love sitting on a bench watching seven beautifull children running the lawn being looked after by Abigail*
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*smiling he watches JennaJade who is showing him the dresses and skirts she has made,after a short while he goes downstairs to write*
I am a bit troubled my daugther,things are changing rapidly around me as i told you last time we sat and talked.
When returning after my search it was great to hold you in my arms once again and i told you that i will take a woman along next time i'll come visit.
The way things look now it wont be only the woman that your father loves but also the mother off your brother or sister.
The morning sickness,the seaking comfort and personal touches it all reminds me off your mother when she was expecting you .
Seems that her wish to have five children will start off fast and i want to be married before the child is born so i better start finding a date.
Your dad is troubled because off a talk he had with your stephmother Abigail,a talk that putts me in an awkward position and makes him look to others in a completely different way.
When JennaJade fell to the vines in The Broken Forest there was another there that left the group to die,one that ran off with out even taking out his blade to protect the group or come to their aid in any way.
To make it worse JennaJade has finaly shared with me one off those that questioned her and drove her to her quest to prove herself was the same as the one that fled that battle.
What makes it more awkward are two things,when ever i meet this man he is usualy in the company off Tegan and his name is on the list to be granted the initiations for knight.
I need to find Serissa and talk about this,i will not join the knights if this coward off a man is granted to join.
We met them outside off haven mines,him and Tegan, but the others told me we saw them inside earlier.
This man had the nerve to come to me outside and tell me he was sorry that they ran past us invisible.
If it would be a new adventurer that explored an area before forming a party to go through the explored area i could understand.
This however is a man that wants to become a knight,a knight that wants to stand for the values of his Lord,a knight sworn to protect the inocents and the weaker ones,sworn to uphold justice and bring the light of The Golden One into disorder and chaos.
Accompanied by Tegan,the taylor off the guild i am in,a powerfull spellslinger that doesnt need invisibility with a capable fighter next to her.
Above all that stands the fact that this man,Daniel Poetr,is part of a competing guild,a guild i myself have helped to start up.
I heard around town that the guild he is in can make the same things as we as OrcBashers can make.
Ofcourse this would be normal for a guild with experienced people and i know they work hard but....they have had losses in their members removing the more powerfull people from them and they are replaced by younger and less experienced people.
Still in some way they succeed to gather the materials that i myself nearly die when gathering them.
I heard that Tegan goes out a lot with them and i suspect that she helps them when going for those materials.
Nothing wrong with that...accept the fact that Tegan never brings any off those materials back to the guildhall.
My dream off making The Bashers the number one guild and give The Bashers the place they deserve in these lands back is slowly crumbling...
The thought off Raven Trading comes to mind more often lately...even when i know that others never can dedicate themselves to a cause as i can.
It is disheartening to again find out that others find it more important to do what ever they like instead off making time to gather as a guild the things we need to rise in our skills .
Now having seen how Tegan seemingly gets the materials she does bring to the guildhall,i decided that i wont work on any she brings in again for i will not work on things gathered by cowardly tactics and seemingly are left overs that others cant use or things claimed by her for the mere fact that she knows i will have her head if she gives all to others forgetting her own guild.
Forgetting one that has searched for dark silk so she could be one off the first that could use it,forgett one that kept her chest filled with pelts she needs to train and get better.
I need to find Serissa.....
*with that writen he goes up to JennaJade telling her that he will search for Serissa and that once he gets back she better have a bag ready and some food for a travel because it is time she meets Abigail*
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*together with JennaJade , Barion sits and watches Abigail play happily and once in a while Abigail comes to them too give Jenna flowers or to simply hug Barion smiling. After the meeting for the first time with Jenna, Abigail took her along on her trip she takes when skipping school,showing Jenna her ability to seemingly talk too the animals and in the meantime watching Jenna and finaly deciding that she likes her. While they are away Barion takes out his journal and starts to write*
A few weeks back i found Serissa and had a long and eyeopening talk too her that lasted for several hours.
I explained her my fears about numerous things and we discussed them openly and as close friends.
Normaly Serissa is a bit concervative about matter she knows and hears, but this time we both talked freely and learned a lot.
I told her about Daniel and what he did at The Broken Forest and Serissa took it like i had done,she will contact the regional commander and Tarradon Duvall about it and i hope that things will be judged fairly.
When i told her that Daniel openly questioned Jenna's feelings for me she just sight and told me that with people that call me friends like that on my side, i never would have to fear any enemy.
I asked her why and she told me it was meant sarcasticly,that no enemy would would ever question my feelings but that seemingly my "friends"are doing that and judging with out talking to me first.
I smiled and told her that my friends would be looking out for me and that they maybe thought that i was going far too fast.
She looked at me seriously and asked me : "Are you ? Does your heart tell you it isnt right? Or does your heart tell you what we all see ,that you are returning to the man you once was and finaly leaving the gloomy moods you had before behind and enjoying life again? "
Smiling i answered her that i felt better then i had done in a long time and that i probably had news she wouldnt expect.
When she looked at me with raised brow i told her that i think that JennaJade is pregnant,told her she showes the same signs Sa'kura had in the early stages of her pregnantie.
She smiled and al she said was "well done Knight Barion"
We exchanged some stories we heard and i told her that since the incident with the druid healing an animal,leaving a wounded adventurer too die by healing the bear and leaving the man wounded,i had a hard time too trust any druid.
She looked at me and told me she could take the distrust away from most druids.
I asked her how and she replied with the knowledge she had on that matter.
The druid that healed the bear was Drogo,so all i need to distrust is him she told me.
I told her in my eyes it was outright murder and she nodded sadly.
I have not asked further but i suspect she has turned him in to the autorities and nothing has been with it.
Her beeing a priest makes it feels a defeat and big unjustice if things that are brought to be handled before court and never get too that stage are an abomination and an insult too what she has learned and was raised by,and too Rofirein Himself.
The expedition we were asked to support and back up moraly by "The Friends Of Hurm society" was probably the biggest disappointment i had with people i know and used to respect.
When sailing there i asked some questions and the answers left a bad taste in my mouth even then.
Serissa was there and she came to me when stepped away from the others and she told me that she had the same feelings.
Once ashore the talks between the rest off the group started and after trying to tell them what i had learned from talks to others that were there the first time they negotiated with the black but seemingly just was ignored i stood at the back listening.
Once Ozymandiaz,who was chosen by The Society and seemingly put up for it by the druids, took word i listend intendly.
His first words make my skinn crawl up and my mind was set at that instance.
"We are here for the cauldron as our main purpose"
The story was going that the dragon has in its possesion "The Cauldron of T'Care"(sp?)
The cauldron is searched for by those that want to use The Seeds of the Seasons to restore The Broken Forest.
In other words : the druids and every one that believes they are right.
Now it finaly turned out that they find the safety of even a town not as important as The Seeds,ready to risc the safety off Hurm by trying to get the cauldron in with the deal to leave Hurm alone ,knowing well enough that if they asked for too much the danger would rise that the dragon would turn down any deal.
When hearing Serissa tell them she would not come and some one almost cheerfully and hatingly said her goodbye i knew i couldnt stay,i waved and walked off.
Catching up with Serissa with out even bothering to listening if any one was asking anything.
We talked and w decided that the only thing we could do was travel to Hurm to warn the town and help them if anything might go wrong.
Up on reaching Hurm we asked too be allowed to talk too the mayor and when we told them that it was about the black finaly a guard went in too ask.
While the guard was in Quantum came too us,he too could not go with a group that would risc the life off a complete town to get a cauldron.
We were told to un arm ourself earlier so we told Q too do the same,when the guard returned a small exchange off words was uttered.
Resultin in the guard leading off Q to be put in jail and us able too talk to the mayor.
We warned him but he wasnt impressed at all,when we asked about Q he told us that the first group inwich Q was , was responcible for the death off his son in the first attack and that Q was to be trialed not going anywere from the cel he was in now.
Serissa started to argue a bit with this inreasonable men, resulting in her ending up for a short time in jail too.
I left the castle and did what i could by warning people and helping those that listened,looking around for a good spot to possition myself if things would go wrong.
After a while i was again joined by Serissa that was set free and i told her i had tried to send word to Velensk to let the Knights assembled there know off the situation and maybe get their help,but that it would take long..probably too long .for the boat to reach Velensk.
We made our stand in the middle off town for all too se so they knew we were there too help and waited.
Resting in turns we waited and at one time we saw the dragon fly in the sky,circling it seemed.
At that point the town grew restless and people stated to find shelter and the gaurds finaly moved to take their possitions.
Quantum was released from jail and came too us to share what ever faith we were facing and like us ready too give his life in the defence off Hurm.
The dragon just circling it seemed,till all of a sudden we heard shouts from the docks,running there we saw a ship out on the sea being melted to nothing with all hands it held.
Serissa was almost out off herself at the sight,thinking off those we saw use ships to flee Hurm once the dragon appeared.
I asked Q if he could make what kind off ship it was and he told me that too him it looked like a pirateship.
I wa a bit relieved then,because the original treaty we were to agree with the dragon included freeing Hurm from the pirates.
Serissa took it hard and kept telling us that it was murder and that the blood of the people that died on that ship was on the groups hands,the group we had left.
The dragon returned to circling and things settled down a bit,but we stayed on our post till the guards on the wall stood down at last.
After a long time the group came too hurm and Serissa told them the blood of the people on that ship was on their hands.
Lots off things then happend,things i wouldnt have thought off people that i knew.
One stated coldly that "it were only pirates"..."dont make somuch fuss about those"
My blood started too boil when one opend his mouth ,clearly vocaly attaking Serissa...Drogo.
I told him to shut up and that he was a murderer.
Most thought that i was talking about the ship and convieniently didnt hear my following word.
Only one that noticed was Kobal i think,but i'm not sure.
I told Drogo right in his face that healing an animal too help it kill an adventurer was murder in my eyes and that therefor he is a murderer.
The once great Remiel...better known as the fallen paladin now...rushed to Drogo's aid with words in a pathetic attempt to try too safe Drogo's face.
Drogo himself tried smartly to put my feelings on the losses i have had in my life.
All i did after that was look to him with a promiss in my eyes, that i am sure he in all his selfcentered glee didnt even see,to bring him down if ever he makes another step wrong.
I told him he wasnt worth the breath i used to talk about or too him and left.
I will ask Reus what to do further with this Seeds thing and i hope he gives me free hand in it , for if he does i will go seek for the seed they miss and before their eyes destroy it if they dont include all to talk about the way too use the seeds.
I heard rumors that the seeds can restore more then just Broken Forest and i want them to investigate that ,not pin themselves down to -just- restore the forest alone.
Another thing that connects me too the seeds is a promiss i made too Serissa and Q ...and wrote on a letter discussing the seeds.
The child Q found long ago,Sonya,Is wanted by a balor that holds one off the seeds,he wants to exchance the seed for the child.
I made the promiss that whoever touches Sonya with the intention to use it too exchance it for the seed will be hunted down by me and killed.
Handing over a child to a balor is outright murder and there can be only one penalty for that.
Knowing this goes in against everything i wishes to stand for as a Rofireinite, i truly hope it will never be nesicary.
But i never broke a promiss and never will.............
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*he opens his journal and sighing he starts too write*
Jenna and myself had a little lovers quarrel last night,first she told me she was feeling sick and had a cold so i told her she should rest.
Not just for herself but also for the little one growing inside her,she ignored my remark first but after a while she said that work makes strong and that she needed to finish the "making cozy "off the house.
She kept running around with furniture and things and i started to tease her, telling her she wouldnt get something she likes for three weeks if she wouldnt listen.
It got out off hand and angrily i told her that i wouldnt touch her for three weeks and that if she started nagging me about it i would seek out her causin,that according to her is in town.
She even told me when she said her causin was in town that she never was too see me.
I dont know what is wrong with her causin but Jenna's behavior wasnt like it normaly is and nor was mine with the initiations coming closer and closer.
When i woke up she wasnt in the house and now after waiting nearly a day she still hasnt returned.
I dont know where she is,but since she didnt leave anything like last time i think she will be fine.
I'll leave her a letter to explain why i wont be here when she returns the next two weeks and will be off to finalise my preparations for the initiations.
*the letter*
My Flower.
If you come home in the next two weeks you wont find me here.
The time has come to prepare myself for the initiations and i need to do that with out the distraction off your lovely presence nearby or i will fail.
As always i will visit Abigail on the same three days i always do,so if you need me you can send a message there.
Preparing too me means praying and thinking in solitude, so please dont think i will seek out your causin .
As i told you before our argument,i will never touch another because my heart is yours and not even magic can change that.
I am not mad at you for putting my things in other chests but i am not very pleased that you think so lightly about sickness during your pregnantie.
Please never forget that i love you and never will cheat on you.
Love Barion.
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*He takes out his journal and starts too write*
Jenna already has given me my present for the marriage.
She decorated the house so it feels like a home once more.
Quantum and Serissa are finaly married.
The ceremonie was a very nice one and was led by Mylindra and Dora.
Jenna stood next too me and i couldnt help but feel proud that this beautiful elven woman wants to be mine soon.
The initiations followed the wedding fast,so fast that Serissa had to pospone her honeymoon to attend it.
I talked Jenna in coming too,because i feel calmer and more secure with her around.
The initiations were opend by a test off faith off some sort before we were allowed to enter the tempel for the actual tests.
JennaJade was my "supporter" as Rain was Daniels "supporter".
Serissa didnt "support"any one , i guess to show that she was neutral too all.
We started with six and were asked questions about our faith and our depts off our hearts.
Four made it too the tempel and proceeded in.
I was asked too go first , so i did.
Under a helmet with some magical name i was asked questions that i wont put down to protect the initiations.
I answered as my heart and feelings told me and i hope i am ready to accept knighthood if the council deems it so.
Now, a few days later, a man is going around Mistone too ask friends about me and my past.
I found out it is some one from the church that holds an eye on things concerning the faith.
If they had asked i would have given them my journal ,should save them a lot off effort and time.
Abi was on the wedding , together with Sonya.
They hit it off as friends and played most off the day together.
Abi looked a bit funny when she saw the way i was holding JennaJade during the wedding,i think i need to talk too her about the feelings her dad has for this beautifull woman.
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*Walking tall and proud in his shining goldencoloured armor he picks up his journal and starts too write*
Lot off things have happend and its time to reflect on those.
I had a talk with Abigail,explaining that her dad is in love with J-J and that we will get married soon.
At first she just looked and said nothing,then she simply asked why.
I treated her as an adult and explained too her that J-J makes me feel complete and secure,she looked at me and asked if she would be her mother then.
When i told her she wouldnt be her mother she looked surpriced a bit and asked why not.
Slowly i explained her that J-J would love her as her own child,but never could or would take the place of Sa'kura.
I told her the bond between a mother and her child is formed at a very early stage and never can be replaced by another and that J-J never had the intention too replace Sa'kura in any way.
Abigail sat silent for a bit and looked at me...then came the question i knew would come and feared.."Does she replace mama for you dad? "
Searching my heart i looked at Abigail and told her the truth.."No,your mother cannot be replaced , not even for your dad,but...the feelings your dad has for this woman are as pure as the ones he had for your mother"
Suddenly she smiled and a laugh escaped her..."I like Jenna",then her face went sad"but i miss mama...i heard all about her ..but i can never hold her "
Opening my arms too comfort her i got a surprice ...she stood up and walked off.
I found her again at Sa'kura's grave,placing flowers all around....softly saying she would never accept another mother..
My heart broke nearly and i just stood there ..looking at her ...when she felt my eyes on her she tirned and saw the tears in my eyes..she came too me and asked why i was crying.
I looked over her head and told her i missed her mother still ..but that life goes on and that her mother would be happy for me ...happy that i found love and peace again.
Again i explained her that Jenna never wanted or could take the place her mother had left,but that the simple fact was that i love this woman and want to be with her.
She slowly nodded and told me she was happy too see her dad happy ...but that she didnt knew how she felt right at that time.
After some more talk we made an agreement,she will be her normal self and go out a bit with Jenna , to get too know her and too see if they realy can get along.
If things go well Abigail will come home and live with us , if not ...she will return too the village and live there like she does now ..me visiting three days a week.
I have listend around after comming back from my solitude too clear my mind and the things i have heard sadden me and anger me.
Rumours go that people speak badly about Daniel and that JennaJade is responcible for it.
Friends off Daniel have outright refused her to join them on adventures and cancelled orders they had with her for molds and glass ingots,
These people should learn too think and maybe ..after using the little brain they have ....would come too the conclusion that it is impossible for one that is so short a time too have such an influence as they give her.
Maybe.......if one is bright enough......they even could figure out that the only ones that could have such an influence are people that are here a long time and that those people dont react on one tale alone.
Ofcourse it is simple too pick on one that is weaker then those they should face if they thought about it...guess it shows what kind off persons they realy are .
THE INITIATONS
The initiations are completed now.
I had some doubts because off a letter i got earlier .
The letter told me to be present at the finalisations of the initiations, but that they had some more questions for me and that not all they had found out was good.
After some thought i decided too simply go and answer any question they might have from the heart.
Also made the decision that i would vanish from the populated world if denied,for my presence if denied would be dirt on the name of Rofirein himself.
The investigators did their job well,they turned my life upside down,finding all i once did wrong and all that spoke in my favor i guess.
They investigated all initiates and were very strickt in their job.
Going to the finalysation i met Ferrit and told her that i wasnt sure,she was kind and told me again that if anyone ever should become a knight it was me.
Before the whole thing started i prayed too become clear in my mind and too try too find peace for whatever might happen.
Daniel and myself wre the only ones present that aplied for knighthood , we later found out that the other that was with us earlier had an accident and drowned after beeing swept overboard on a trip.
The investigators realy had been good in their job .
Sir Breten firsty honoured Jennara and Kobal,Jennara was granted an upgrade on her positions from knight to division Captain.
Kobal was thanked for his work for Rofirein in general.
While they raised Jennara in rank a thought shot through my head..how can it be that a pacifist monk has learned more then a specialised fighter while shorter in this world ?Am i the only one that wonders about those things ?Or is it my personal dislike off this silent whispering woman that takes every oppertunity too bring others down once they do something wrong in her eyes,but refuses too see she herself is far from perfect?
While they honoured Kobal i couldnt help but think off the talk we had long ago about me searching for a god .
He told me then that i should seek out Voraxites, for my sacrifieses at the Bloodwell surely would be enough too give me a place among them.
Not one word passed his lips about Rofirein that day, no efford he ever took too see if i would be material to be a fellow follower of his own god.
Yet now he was praised on his work in the name off Rofirein across the lands in all the time that has passed since he himself aplied for knight.
I couldnt help but wondering if they knew he was with the group that endangered Hurm soo easely,if they knew that he had send me too another gods followers too let them convince me too join their ranks.
Then Daniel was up to be judged.
As said before, the investigators did a fine job it seemed,he was praised for his behavior recently,but they had some doubts ( just as i had and still have ).
He was told too tell the tale of how and why he was there that day too become a knight.
Hes tale was one off compasion from others and about him learning things from them,or atleast that is what my perception was.
The officials werent conviced by it i think and it showed in their following actions.
Instead off denying him a chance to become a knight, they made him squire.
A squire if i am correct is a beginning knight in training and under observation too determine if that one is truely fit for the job.
Then it was my turn.
They had some doubts that i clearly could hear in their words and see in their looks.
Then i too ( as Daniel|) had too tell how it was that i turned up too offer my services and why i became a Rofireinite and thought i would be a good knight.
Turning too those that were there too witness only i told my tale off searching and despite people seemingly wanting to stear me too other thought,finaly finding Rofirein in my heart.
Turning to Sir Breten i thought i saw a shimmer off amusement in his eyes,maybe even a shimmer off recognition.
Both Daniels blade and my blade were put before Rofirein and given a name."The dragon claw"
Then came the surprice ...i was not named simple knight...they saw me fit too serve more then just as knight it seems...they named me ..division Captain!
Stunned i heard the words,not realy believing them as they were spoken..Sir Breten took my armor and had it blessed by Rofirein aswell.
"The scales of thruth"is its name and i will do aything in my power too never faulter the trust and respect i got from the oficials there that day.
//ooc : the thing about Daniel and JennaJade was solved and i know that , but in char these are and were Barions thoughts on it and since this journal is as much in char as i can be i had too write about it.Iff all of a sudden i run into this information i now released in my PRIVATE journal is used against Barion or JennaJade i will put in a complaint about meta gaming refering too this journal and this warning.
//double OOC: the former metagaming out off my journal had three people on the edge off leaving Layo all together,it would be nice if those that use the information that only can be found in journals finaly realise that people and characters can be damaged by using the PRIVATE information..Thanks.
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//Excuse this post. I am sorry you had a problem with a few players meta-gaming. It really is getting old, for sure. There are few that just do not know how NOT to meta-game and sadly it destroys the fun for people in the community. I hope that eventually those few players learn how to truely RP and they can get away from the meta-game nonsense. But I am not sure that will happen as those few are also the ones that tend to claim innocense or ignorance. Sad, because we all know that deep down they know what they are doing but they are just ignoring that "feeling" because it suits their needs or "control" at the time.
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*Barion walks into his bedroom at Haven Outskirts and takes his journal and quill,he sits down and ponders before he starts to write*
"Lots has happend , but mostly things no one would read if they had the choice.To be complete i will write it however"
*With these words he starts writing*
Many things have happend in my private life and i am happy for most off the things.
Our solitude has brought the joyous event off becomming father and mother off a very beautifull twin something that i will never forget.
We were blessed by a boy and a girl, Barion jr. and Trinity.
Everything went perfectly well and with the help off the old woman living across the hut i use in the vilage the delivery off the babies was done fast and safe.
Abigail has seen how Jenna and the old woman worked hard to make places ready for the twins and i build a new room too the hut to make a children room .
Abigail seemed a bit jealous, so i build her a room aswell so that she too has her own place in the house.
Jenna and Abigail have been together for a while before the birth off the twins and it looked like they both respect eachother to say the least,i only can hope that it will turn into friendship or even more.
Dalan comes by from time to time and still talks and teaches Abigail some things, but he is quiet towards me and i think i understand why.
With out going into it further i accept his doubts on those things and wont bring them up if not needed, for i think he can see now that the love off Jenna for me and Abigail is one that is pure and good despite what others may think off it.
After becomming the father off the wonderfull twins i had a talk with Abigail and sat with her , both holding one off the twins , and asked her what she felt and why.
Surpricingly she knew what i meant and said"I feel i love these two daddy , but i also wonder if they will break in to the life we lead lately"
I told her that ofcourse our life will change for the simple fact that the two need attention and love just like she does and asked her if she could help us to raise the twins a bit.
She smiled and said that it wasnt the answer she was expecting because she heard that parents normaly would try to let the older one think nothing would change.
When i looked at her frowning she smiled and hurried to say that she could have known for one never lying to her was her dad .
She agreed to help out as much as she can and seeing her with the twins , helping Jenna giving them food and drinks , my heart grows with pride and love...
for now i feel the family is growing together and things will turn out fine.
On my return to Hlint for some guildthings, i met with Tegan on the streets.
We started talking and came again to the things i need to improve my crafting and my unwillingness to ask others to take the riscs i myself would not.
Would not....for i decided that its time to start taking those riscs for my crafting has been at a standstill long enough .
While we were talking , Boon Loom joined us and we talked some more coming back to the point Tegan i started on.
Boon said it wasnt that hard and that we could go get adamantium right at that time if we wanted.
I let myself be persuaded to do so and we went off to Firesteep.
With out too much trouble we got the adamantium and for the first time since i lost two strands there i felt comfortable, mostly because i was with people that through items found and skills learned were more powerfull then i could ever imagen.
The trip was a real good one and i hope that in the future there will be more so i can start becoming the best weaponmaker this world has ever seen.
*Barion puts down his quill and closes his journal, he goes to the empty bed and kneels saying a prayer to Rofirein asking for the safekeeping of his loved ones.He gets in the bed and dreams off his family having a good time in the vilage and in his sleep he smiles as he thinks of little Abigail helping Jenna and proudly telling in class what a joy it is to be involved in bringing up the twins*
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*Barion walks around in the guildhall of The Bashers after checking the things needed to be refilled and sits down to write some in his pocketjournal,a small book he uses to write on his travels so he can copy it into his journal at home*
Finaly i could bring myself top return to the world as most people know it.
The slander and behind-the-back talk had gotten the best off me for a while and i decided to stay with my family in the village to calm down and let everyone find other targets to bad-talk and slander over.
While i was in the village , Abigail ( who is preciesly like her mother) showed that she can be reckless and foolish.
She sneeked off with her best friend and explored the forest around the village and areas further on that she had never visited.
I dont know what preciesly happend, but she returned sick as a dog bitten by spiders .
After grounding her for a long time and getting her back too health, i decided that training her in selfdefence would probably be the best thing i can do.
The last few months i have trained her and everyone in the village that was willing in fighting and tactics.
By training them all i hope i have improved their chance to defend their village if i am out and i made sure Abigail knows how to safe her life if she gets in trouble again.
Over the years i have seen the lands slowly changing from what i knew to what it has become today.
Towns have disappeared and some were renamed to their old names, some just vanished.
I will travel the lands and get to know it once again soon, for i need to locate the recourses we as a guild need to be able to finaly start selling things on a larger scale then we do now.
The time is drawing nearer that the "deal" some "hero's"made long ago with Milara will end.
I will try to keep up to date trough the tempel off Rofirein and trough the intelligence network of The Knights to be prepared for whatever it is that could occur.
Soon i will need to have a talk with Abigail, i will need to find out if she is willing to join her father and her brother and sister and Jenna in their new life in Haven Town.
I hate to pull her away from everything she has ever known and think it will be best to ask her before i make a mistake.
*He closes his journal and goes into the guildhall,he looks around and a smile settles on his face*
"Hello lovely Tegan, M'Lady Serissa.....Barion reporting for duty once more"
*smiling he hugs both wispering"I missed you two"*
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*A few hasty lines are written in the journal*
Somethings better cant be explained....had a fight with Abigail and got angry, resulting in me sweeping her off her feet and blindfolded bring her to Haven City.
She will be living with her family as is normal and if she thinks she can be the one to make those kind off decisions, she finally will see another side off her father.*sighs*
I will send word to those that were visiting her in the village that she now lives in Haven City and that they are welcome to come visit her here,but the letters will also hold the question that they will not aid Abigail to find the village and lead her there to try to remove the possibility that i will have to get her out off the village again.
With the parents off her friends i have made the deal that her friends can come visiting if they want and that i solely will be responsible for their well-being if they come.
All this family things come at the worst time ever since lots off things are happening that need my attention and presence .
Rofirein faith is seemingly in dire straights.
M'Lady Serissa and myself were taken to the temple in Vehl and told a few things by Master Reus and a Lady that came from Pranzis.
The Golden Voice is apparently poisoned and its just is a matter off time before The Golden One calls him to his side.
Both Reus and the Lady spoke about a traitor that has poisoned The Golden Voice and if i get permission i will aid M'Lady Serissa in her investigations to find the traitor and nail him/her to the highest tree i can find...in the city if needed.
While attending a story-night i heard two tales about dragons...white dragons...one was a tale from the past told by M'Lady Katrien...the other a story off the now ..told by a bard named Tom
Directly after the tales i heard someone call someone else captain and automatically i looked who was calling me*blushes writing this*
I caught a spark off a conversation between a merchant and a captain off the guard and got interested enough to move closer and listen in.
The merchant told about a ship he owns that was attacked by the white dragon out off the last tale we heard and he was looking for people to do something.
After a talk with him i decided to look into the matter ...he first wants to know for sure that this dragon indeed exists there, if so he wants a party to negotiate with the dragon to try and keep the trade route free off attacks.
I told him i would look into it , but for myself i know that if this attempt to negotiate with the dragon will endanger people living in city's or town's or villages nearby , i will do all i can to stop this negotiations.
Enough rambling about things no one will understand...
The guild
The chests are filled and the stock is up to a level that allows us to start posting on the trading boards i think.
Some old members have contacted us to ask how things go and if they still can be part off the guild.
As soon as we can have a meeting we will expand with Mister Voon Loom and look if the old members will still join us after the changes we made to the distribution off coins and the spirit off democratie that the guild now has.
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*Barion picks up his journal and happily starts to write in it, while he writes he teases Jenna a bit and plays with Abigail when he thinks over how to write things.Abigail being the one that is always curious gets him to tell aloud what hes writing and she seems to start to understand that her father is writing his tales down for her ...she hugs him halfway and tells him she will read the journal completely once she gets his permission*
Family things seem to go better now*smiles*
It happens more and more often that i come home and the house is empty but for the twins and Solarina.
Jenna and Abigail go out more and more often and seem to grow a bit closer together*chuckles*
I guess Abigail finally notices that Jenna and she herself have more in common then she thought.
Dalan told me something i already expected and i have ..after long thoughts..decided to let Abigail be tested 'and if she really has feeling for magic, taught by Rain.
I agreed with Rain to take Abigail to Hemp and deliver her to his guildhall on Fridays so he can test if she has feeling for magic and start teaching her if she has.
I picked the Friday because Abigail still needs to go to school the rest off the week in Haven and i can combine it with guild-things easily.
I have re arranged my room in the guildhall so we both can sleep there and have the Saturday for us as father and daughter.
Sometimes Dalan accompanies us on a small travel adventure and we go shopping a lot*smiles..."women"..*
Abigail seems to adjust fine to the change from village to town and she seems to finally find her way around town without getting too much in trouble.
Once a week i still visit the village ..i don't want them to think i forgot about them and the villagers seem to understand that i only did what i had to do and they don't seem to hold a grudge towards me or Abigail for leaving.
I help the village in every way i can and slowly it prospers again, they will be fine i think..living in more peace than anyone in a town ever will.
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I decided that Abigail needed a break , i told Rain and the school in Haven that she would be away for a week and after putting some off her things in a bag i took her along.
She was surpriced but exited and looked at me with big , big eyes.*smiles*
I took her on a tour i used to frequently walk , my fruit and berry gathering tour for the guild.
We shipped to Mariners Hold and from there we started walking .
Took us a week to reach Karthy and after telling her and showing her that slaves are sold there she - as i - wanted to leave town asfast as we could.
I let her lead on the way back and she realy has learned things.
Almost with out a mistake she led us back to Mariners Hold within one and a half week *grins*
I'm proud off my little girl and i told her that .
The nights we spend under the stars i filled with stories about her mother and i even told her some of my adventures.*grins*
She was very interested in both her mother and in the tales i told her about the dwarven clans i have helped over the years.
She admitted to me that Dalan wants to teach her the dwarven language and i told her its her decision if she agrees.
I felt happy and sad returning to the house , happy to see Jenna and the twins...sad because my special time with Abigail was over for now.
The Guild.
Voon has joined us and Kurgin has returned to the guild.
Soon the meeting will be and then we'll start planning a few things i hope.
Been called by Rain and his guild to aid in a matter and i promissed to them that myself and Serissa will do our best to aid .
Still looking for somethuing that M'Lady Jennara is searching ..cant tell too much about it , but i will try to get the aid of Quantum to search the library of The Shining Hand .
Seeking information seems to be the only way that we can pick up the trail we seemingly have lost for now.
The aiding a wizard to regain his honour has suddenly turned out to be something completely different . we now hunt the wizard but need to solve a few things before we -maybe- get our hands on him.
He tried to kill his househelp and for that alone i would like to see him in court ...Pranz court if i can help it .
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*Barion picks up his journal and walks to the pond overlooking Haven City , he seems restless in a way and sits with his back against a tree pondering.
After a while he opens his journal and starts to write , carefully weighing the words he pens down *
Many things are happening , many things have happened.
Some are good things , some are not so good , some will be easy to solve , some will be impossible to solve with out bloodshed.
Helping M'Lady Jennara.
I have searched whats left of the library off The Shining Hand.
Quantum has been saving books from the Pranzis library and they are either in his houses or in the Toran temple in Llast.
No information i could find in the books how ever that can help us on our search for the book.
I hope the others have had more luck in their search off the libraries across the lands.
The guild.
We have finally had our meeting and talked about the things that were long overdue to talk about.
Lots of decision we have made and the guild will be putting up posters soon.
We figured out most prices for things and agreed on a repeating day to go out as a guild to get things we need.
Some one that has broken in too The Angels guild has been breaking in our guildhall too we think.
Twice we either got robbed or were attempted to be robbed.
The first time all that has happened is the fact that materials for light armors were stolen from a chest in the storage hall.
The second time was a bit different....i met the one that was looking through my personal chest in my personal room at the guild.
It turned out to be a dark elf , a dancer off shadows.
A formidable opponent matching me in a one on one fight till i remembered my training i perfected by sparring with Abigail *sighs softly at the thought off his lost friend*
When i entered my defencive stand , the dark one found he couldn't surprise me as easily as he had done up until then and when M'Lady Serissa came looking at the sounds he decided to flee.
We followed him out of the hall and out off town , cornering him against the outer-walls .
I managed to wrestle his weapons from his hands before he got away , hope they can give us a clou as to the identity or the place we can find this dark elf and his partners.
A crystal ring.
Somehow we got caught up in the search for a crystal ring.
Master has had a visitor in our shop , on the wrong side off the counter.
A figure asked him if we had a crystal ring , a ring not radiating magic but still holding magical abilities.
Among those involved in being asked for this ring are a people i talked too and people i haven't met yet , but all seems to point in the same direction.
M'Lady Kinai's life has been threatened and so is Mister Sallarons .
When i can find the time i will investigate this further.
Nature's bowl.
A group was gathering at the fountain in Hemp so i went looking why they were .
Once there i saw Mister Jacchri and a priest of Mist exchanging a bowl.
It turned out to be the bowl that the druids have been looking for for a long time.
Mister Jacchri al went ..ermmm..."nuts" is the only word i can think off here .... praising Mist for getting the bowl .
I told them to "screw Mist"...i asked several times how they got h bowl and finally after three or four times asking i got some sort off answer.
I told them that exchanging a bowl like that , wanted by people , dragons and higher powers in the middle off a town populated by lots off innocent people wasn't too smart.
*grins* The priest of chaos asked me if i never had made a mistake and i answered that i never had made one that endangered a complete city.
A dragon is ..or rather ..was ..after that bowl..and its very possible it will pay a visit to the city.*sighs*
From the gathered crowd a stone was hurled ...it hit Mister Jacchi ..resulting in him dropping the bowl ..shattering it on the stones.
Of course both he and the priest of the seahag went "we will protect the city if the dragon comes"
"Brisbane and every nature follower will rise in the defence off the city "
"Mistites will be in the front line protecting this city"and more off that yadda yadda yadda.
*squeezes his quill in anger*
Nature lovers defending a city ...they seem to think city's are abominations ...not natural and therefor not worth to visit...Mistites defending people of town they ..with the help off one off their own priests ...have endangered in the first place.
I guess it points out the intelligence off both the priest off the hag and Mister Jacchri ...if they had half a brain they would have exchanged the bowl in a forest ..or better yet ...at The Big Oak with Rhizome to take the bowl under his care.
But nooooo...lets exchange it in the middle if a town ...showing all by holding up the bowl for about an hour above your head ...praising The Seahag loudly to tell every one that is even slightly interested that the bowl has been found ...if i can i will hold both to their words ...they will be standing in the front-line if the dragon comes to visit looking for the bowl.
Life threat.
M'Lady Serissa and myself have been traveling with Quantum for a while , he showed us both places we have never been before and we had fun.
Quantum took us to a strange place ..it turned out to be Brisbane's personal Grove or something.
Since i cant forget how Brisbane abandoned Quantum in a time off need....
Since i cant forget the information given to me by Rain long ago showing clearly that Brisbane is only interested in the things that concern her personally and doesn't give a about others up to the point hiding the possession of a seed that was looked for by many and allowing excursion to find that seed being planned to retrieve the seed ...putting people in lifethreathening situations ....while the seed in question already was in her possession.
Since i personally find Brisbane a person that will put down the people she doesn't like in a waterfall off words , making sure they cant get a word in to defend or reply to accusations by simply overwhelming them with so-many words they get confused.*grins*..."strange that a druid living in a grove can talk soo much ..guess she practices her speeches to the fullest in her grove to be sure no one can answer in time"
So when i knew where we were i refused to rest their ..i took a look to a tree that was planted to honor Quantum in a time long past and left not able to get myself to rest in a place that appearently belongs to a person i despise.
I guess M'Lady Serissa has done something wrong there , for a few days later she came to me showing me a letter...
*a wrinkled piece of writing is inserted here *
Should you come into my grove again I will kill you until the soul mother has had her last taste. Being you are a follower of a god of Law tresspassing should not be an option in your mind anyhow but tread on my home again and I will see to it that even your god will have nothing to do with you
~Brisbane
*He sighs deep ..his veins in his neck can be seen as he clearly is nearly exploding with anger...he makes himself control his breathing and after calming down he continues*
The crazy druid in my eyes has gone too far now ..way too far ...thinking you own a forest is something that can be frowned upon in itself...threatening a person brought there by her husband to show a tree named after him gives a clear look into the mind off one that has lost feeling with reality in my eyes ..
A sain person would seek out the ones that in there eyes have done something wrong and confront them with it ...maybe even put in an official complaint about said persons to the authorities ...but a death threat ...clearly stating that "after done , not even your god wants to have anything to do with you " stating that to a priest is even more ridiculous.
Until this day i wonder why the "mighty "Brisbane hasn't send me a letter ...i was there ..i was trespassing ...why not send me a threat ?....this gives me the feeling she is a coward ..guess she knows i will search for her if she sends anything like that to me ..guess she knows i will call her out in public to stand before a crowd and attempt to kill me ...
*he puts down his journal and walks away to put his head in the pond ..trying to get rid off the angry feelings that are building ..that are threatening to overwhelm him ..*
I made a promise to M'Lady Serissa ...and i will keep that promise ...if the crazy druid ever raises a finger to harm her in the way she is threatening with in her letter , i will hunt the druid and bring her to court ...either that or have her on the tip of my blade ...dragging her sorry butt to Prantz to be trailed.
Editted: Toran temple still stands in Llast , not in Wayfare *blushes*
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*Barion takes out his journals and reads them both , he sighs and ponders a few minutes before he takes up his quill and starts to write calmly *
The journal tells my live and adventures, but even i get side tracked with the writings jumping from things happened to thoughts i wrote down.
I'll take a shot to try and get some flowing writing here to describe my life and give you , my daughter , an easier time to read this.
*he attaches a little piece off paper on the top off the page and colors it blue with gold , "in short "he writes on it and starts to write*
Your father is ,or was depending on when you read this , a simple man.
When my training started i was a little boy , new to the world after living on my parents farm and not used to anything in the larger places ,like you must have felt when i got you out off the village.
After the fight with my brother and me leaving home , i found a sponsor in a lady that was willing to pay for my training , only requesting from me that i pleased her physically .
I was young and new to that kind off things, that is why i agreed to being her toy so long ago, to be able to pursue my dream of becoming the greatest fighter ever.
My mind was set on becoming the greatest and i trained hard for that.
Then i was ripped away from everything i knew and put on this side off the world.
"dragoncalled" they called us , our reason to be here was to destroy a threat called "Synthar Blood"
In groups we trained to become strong,strong enough to have a slim change to destroy this "Blood"
That is when my focus shifted, from a fighter only caring to be the best to a man with a heart and feelings , fighting to save his friends and the people from a fate worse then death.
Your father met Shelu U'Ularune...my soul-mate as we were told by an Avatar from Aeridin.
She gave her last soul strand in an attempt to get your father a wedding-present and left this world one day before the wedding.*sighs and swallows hard, keeping his feelings closed in to try and keep his focus on the writing itself*
From then on your dad was a broken man, functioning but broken..a piece off my heart gone forever.
Friends i had back then helped to get me out off the deep hole and with their help i crawled up , but ......
Your father had changed my daughter..no longer was i happy man i was before.
In my search for that happiness i hurt people , friends at the time that i have driven away by loving them in ways that were not possible.
Ireth , Dorena and even Abi , i drove them off with the smothering love i must have made them feel nearly throwing myself at their feet just to try and find a little off the loving feeling i had found with Shelu.
Then i found myself rejected , rejected for they seemingly liked to play along until it became more them a prank.
Blow after blow my heart suffered , until i decided to stay alone and become what i am destined to be , or thought i was destined to be.
Life is strange and cruel my daughter , for after i finally decided living with another wasn't for me , i found Sabrissia....or rather..she found me.
War was close and the time the "dragomcalled "..ready or not ..would go to face Blood was close , when i met this beautiful sorceress.
She captured my dwindling spirit and with the inner-fight that resulted in my heart she made me feel again.
Long have we dated and finally we decided to get married , but destiny struck again....
On a travel to me through the planes she was caught and held prisoner.
For over ten years i have searched for her , but she was in the one place i could not search , the planes.*sighs softly*
Ten years it took to get myself to know i would never find her , thinking her dead.
Then i met your mother , a simple trip showing her the lands resulted in your mother and me sharing our stories , strangely enough i wasn't looking for anything but a friend and your mother was not looking for anything more either i think.
The talks we had grew deeper and more intense , we both must have felt the same , safe and at home , understood by one that didn't judge but listened and comforted.
It took a while until we both gave in to our feelings and became a pair , both not wanting to rush things , both wanting to be sure before opening up to each other and again run the risk off getting hurt deeply.*smiles softly*
The love we shared can be seen in you my daughter , for you truly are the result of two people loving each other no matter what happened or what was tried to drive us apart.
You scare me my daughter , for you are an almost perfect copy off your mother.
Stubborn , investigative , not used to the harsh life out there.
Your mother fell the last time in an attempt to help others , an attempt that in my eyes she shouldn't have undertaken .
There were others with her , but she didn't notify them and went off alone to aid one that was struggling to stay with the group , resulting her to get caught alone in the middle off an ambush.
With her friends too far away because she went off without telling them she didn't stand a change and her friends could not reach her in time to change her fate that day.
Her actions still hurt those there at times i think and her smile and laugh and wise words still are missed by all that knew her.*sighs deep*
Again your father was crushed , but this time i had you my daughter my love for you kept me going and i didn't fall as deep as i have fallen before.
In an attempt to ..*ponders deep*..run ..from the evil world i moved with you to the village , to find rest and peace and a place i was needed.
Being there with you growing up has been the safe and peaceful haven i seemingly needed and has softened up your old father a bit.
My work for the guild ensured i still kept up to date with the goings on in the world and was the thing that kept me in touch with the people that i know are my true friends.
Then i met JennaJade...*smiles*...
The first words i heard from her i never will forget..."I need a man that gives me five children to help rebuild my house"*grins a bit*
My first thoughts i never told her , but it was along the line off "That woman is mad "
We kept running in to each other and ended up talking long hours together.
Slowly feelings started to develop and we both were caught by each other .
My love for her is true and deep and her love for me matches it.
Your brother and sister are the proof off that and i hope that by now you know that her love for you is as big as the love she has for me and your brother and sister.
You will hear things whispered about your father in the streets my daughter,
anything from accusing him to have killed hundreds in a peaceful grove till him being an old fool that has lost touch with reality .
How those stories come about you will ask...the answer is simple .
Your father has a memory that holds the things he endured and the things he feels are not to be forgiven.
It is true what they say , your father has a hard time to leave the past be and start anew.
It is part of me that i remember why and how i became what i am today , as it is part of me that i will not forgive people for what they have done and for what they have caused .
In that regards the people are right my daughter , your father holds his memories dear and that is the reason he cant forgive others for what he holds them responsible for.*sighs*
If only your father could forget..if only he could be more like others...shrugging and forgetting themselves ..changing their lives and expectations simply to fit in and be liked by those they think are powerful.
Your father can not and pays for that by being ignored by many , but remember my daughter..in times like the ones your father is undergoing ..true friends will rise and the weak and cowardly that follow others for power will in the end fall to their greed and hunger to be liked.
Stay true to yourself and the true friends you will find my daughter , care for your family and holds the true friends dear, for live is hard if not in company off those that love you for who you are.
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*barion sits down and sighs deep before he starts to write*
What an i doing here on this world?
Why am i still alive?
What am i seeking?
What is left for me to find?
Why should i go on living?
These thoughts haunt me now for a few weeks...and to be honest ...i don't have the answers.
Thanks to Brisbane and her friends , changing and enhancing a story , i get shunned by nature lovers...the story ranges from me killing hundreds to me damaging the druids Grove.
The Gods seem to be after me themselves...no step i can take or i feel watched ...because I'm honest to others not many will travel with me.
For the first in a long time i died ...immediately followed by a visit off The Soul mother...seems she is following me as-well.
The God i still follow with all my heart...Rofirein...His Church has taken a decision that i cant live with ...if Rofirein Himself agrees with it , i will turn my back on Him.
Loved ones are growing up and seemingly growing away from me..
Abigail listens more to Dalan then she seemingly does to me....
JennaJade is staying in the house to care for Trinity and Barion JR....
I'm left on my own to travel and gather things for the guild.
I'm a fool and not worth my rank in The Knights, for i am involved in ways with a woman that i should not be ..but i cant resist the urges or the feelings we both have for each other.
The Guild.....Voon seems gone a lot...
Serissa has locked herself in the temple and isn't coming out, i doubt she ever will.....
Kurgin is working hard but i never seem to have time to travel with him...
Tegan ...Lovely Tegan ...she still holds a piece off my heart but doesn't seem to realise it....she has a man in her live and i am glad for her..or would..if i could trust the man ...seems every time i meet him hes in the company off the same woman...a woman that has lied to me earlier and therefor one i don't trust....
Celgar...haven't heard or seen him in years ..and frankly ..i don't think i miss much...
Quantum ...Seems Quantum has a hard time with Serissa in the temple ..seems he only comes out off the house if he really has to.
What is left for me...why am i still breathing ...why ...???????????
I'll figure out the answers ..and i don't find any ...then my life is useless and i will give the Gods their way ............
I will make a last will soon ..just to be sure ...lets hope those i love get a better and fairer shot at living then i now seem to have .
*Barion closes his journal and seeks the peace off the village he buried Sa'Kura in ..sitting at the foot off the tree he planted on her grave he starts on his Last Will*
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*Barion sighs deep as he receives a letter with the official stamp off The Knights on it and reads it*
*With a sorrow look on his face he takes out another letter and his journal and sits down to write*
The will i still am working on , since i cant make up my mind as to how to distribute the belongings i will leave in this world.
I have sought answers from the Commander i directly answer to and i cant say that the answer i got has made my decision on anything easier.
*two letters are neatly folded inserted here , one with "To Sir Brethen Parth "on it , one with "His answer"
To Sir Brethen Parth :
Sir Brethen.
I would like to know how The Knights look upon the decision of the church and The Golden Voice , to accept Broegar as rightful ruler of former Prantzis and the suggestion that Rofireinites will help in executing the laws he has installed.
With many lost in the defence off the town itself ,against this dwarf, i cannot and will not aid him in any way , if the Knights as an organization stand behind the decision made by the church i request to be relieved off my title and function and my name to be removed from any list that would indicate that i am or once was a part of an organization that stands shoulder to shoulder with individuals responsible for the loss off life of many off its members.
Maybe i am an old fool , but in my understanding we as Knights are sworn to fight injustice and stand up against any that with force gains ruler-ship over others.
Humbly waiting on your reply:
Unit-captain , Barion Firesteed.
His answer :
Unit Captain Firesteed.
I trust my letter finds you in good health. I, however, am distressed at the contents of yours, as well as your distrust in His Holy Honour Barvanth Hiramun III, the Golden Voice of Justice, Rofirein's representative on our world.
As Sire Hadris Warden once did to the Kngiht of his time, I remind you of your oath, Unit-Captain, to follow the path set by our Lord's will. None can know this path, the only one with a glimpse of it is our Golden Voice.
However, even without knowing the path, we all know that it will never be a straight one, nicely paved, without any forks in it and easily trod.
No, Unit-Captain, in these dark times, the path will be long, perilous and clouded by shadows. There are many forks in the road, and only by the light of the Lord Protector can we hope to reach our destination of law, impartial judgment and order in this world.
Keep the faith, Unit-Captain Barion Firesteed, and read the declaration of His Holiness once more and consider its words and implications.
The four Divisional Knight Commanders of the Knights of the Wyrm support His Holy Honour Barvanth Hiramun III, even if we can not always fathom the larger plan of the Lord Protector.
I suggest you do the same.
Your request to be relieved is denied, in these dark times, we need all our Knights.
Have faith, Unit-Captain,
Sir Brethen Parth
Divisional Knight Commander for Mistone
*Barion reads both letters over and over softly mumbling
"What am i to do ....what am i to believe....is it really true that The Golden One has sided with Broegar ....is the church wrong in its interpretation of the signs The Golden Voice has had ....what am i to do ...." *
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*Barion walks around on Dregar ..his eyes red from crying and his face saddened.
With great anger he kills the kills the giants he meets and finally sits down near the gates off Prantz.
There he makes a small camp and starts to write in his journal.*
Finally the decision has been made ......after another discussion , nearly ending in a fight, with Jenna .
The discussions get worse and worse, slowly killing my love for her .....she wants me to change ..but knows i cant ...she wants me safe ..but knows i can only be that if i change...
I still love her ...bit it turned into a brother-sister love ...me being the stubborn brother ..she being the "know - it - all - better "sister.
After the last discussion i made up my mind ....they are safer without me...the feelings have changed so much that i can not honestly tell if i still love Jenna as i once did .....i probably don't ..*sighs*..i don't ...*sighs deep*
The other woman in my life ..i love her ...more and more we grow towards each other ...long talks and moments alone draw us together even further then we were already....my heart opens up as we talk ...my spirits rise just seeing her approach ...and all off this in secret and silence when others are around ..*sighs*
I have talked to Jenna ...and explained her how i feel ....she simply looked at me and nodded ...*sighs*
*he tends to the fire and kills the wandering giant that comes around the corner ...then he continues to write *
I met the one i love just a few hours ago here on this spot .....when i saw her coming to my fire i knew what i wanted to do and my mind and heart grew heavy ...for she could think different then me over what i was about to ask...people probably will be angry at me ..and with reason ...for i will leave my family ...*a tear falls down on the page , leaving a mark on the writings*
...they are safer if I'm gone and i hope the hurt will be for a short while ....my mind is made up ....i will stand against the church if they send orders to me ..refusing them ...if they wish they can hunt me ....i will not aid a church that works together with the likes of Broegar .
People will understand the reasons i wrote above ...but the next decision they wont ...i will continue my life at the side of the one i love ..and if granted by my fellow members i will continue my work for the guild in secret.
After a long and difficult talk ..my love and i have come to the conclusion that we belong together ...she wishes to stands with me in this troubled times ...not questioning my believes ...not trying to change me ..but simply because she loves me ...because she too is sick off hiding her feelings for me like i am off hiding my feelings for her .....when it finally came clear in my mind that she truly loves me ..i did something that a Rofireinite shouldn't ..i asked her to stay with me ..the rest off my life ...
She started crying and my heart started to break ...i told her i was already hurting her and that i was sorry ..a lump in my throat preventing more words to come out ...she looked at me with tear filled eyes and suddenly smiles ..."you are not hurting me ..you could only do that by not asking ...i never thought i would these words ..the words i longed for to hear ..."
She came over and clung to me ..tears falling from her eyes ..."I love you Talia "
She smiled through her tears and told me that she longed to hear me say those words from the moment we met ....she told me that it would be hard for both off us and that we should finally be honest towards others ..we both have a difficult time ahead ...she was to be married ..and i need to tell Jenna ..*sighs* and the kids ...*sighs deep burying his head in his hands*
*he looks up again ..his face stricken by guild and hurt *
The twin wont understand completely yet ..but Abigail ...she will only see that her father is leaving ..leaving for another woman ...*sighs*
Many will not understand it ..i doubt even my closest friends will ....many problems we will face ..but i know that if we stand together we can overcome them ....she has somehow put the spark back into me ...she has showed me that she loves me no matter what ..as i learned that i love her like i once loved another ...*sighs*
"My heart is my weakness "..how true those words are as i told Tegan long ago .......
*he sighs deep *
I now need to find Jenna and talk to her ...i only can hope that she wont kill me when i tell her ....and wont blame her if she does ...how our love could turn into a brother-sister love i will never understand ....all that is left as prove off our passion for each other are the twin...and i will miss them and Abigail dearly ...*sighs* but it will be better ..they will be safer with out me ....i will ask Tegan to provide them all with anything they need ...payed from my share in the guild ...it will not be given in my name ..but by the guild itself ...for i think that keeping in touch after i leave the family would only longer the hurt i cause ...*sighs as he closes his journal ...he slowly gets up and starts on the trip he fears ..the trip home to tell his family his decision ...*
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*Barion sits down at the grave off Sa'kura in the hidden village*
I arrived here after weeks off searching ...Jenna had contacted me ...telling me Abigail had ran off from Haven ....
She told in her letter that she thinks its because off her and my leaving that Abigail left ....
The talks i used to have with her ..open and loving ..now in her letter Jenna returned to them ...telling me that she misses me ...that she has been walking around like a zombie ...*sighs*
Because off it she had neglected Abigail ...probably giving her the feeling that Jenna blames her i guess ...Jenna herself was clear ...she only blames me ...she said that the moment i told her i was leaving them ...the moment i told her about Talia ....her eyes shot fire ..and then went dull ......i hurt her more then any other could ever do ...*sighs deep*
After the note i have been searching for Abigail all over ...then i got an idea ...so i went here ..the village ...right before i came here ...i met a few people ...Jin was among them ...so was a dwarven lass ....
They told me that they had Abigail with them in the past weeks ...my heart felt overjoyed ...then i realised what they just had said ....i guess the anger was visible in my eyes ..for as i reached to the hilt off my blade every one stepped back ....Jin quickly explained that Abigail didn't wanted them to send word out ...it calmed me a bit ...but not much ...
They have been training her in searching and other wood-lore ...i guess i should be thankful ...but had a hard time uttering those words ....Jenna was worried sick ...i have been traveling non stop to find Abigail ..and they listened to her regarding the not contacting any one ...*grumbles *
I hope they never have to undergo what Jenna and i have the past month and a half ...i know Abigail is here ...and i will sit here near Sa'kura's grave till she shows up ....i'm not sure if i can refrain from yelling if i was now going out to collect her ...*sighs*
*he writes a note to Jenna explaining where he is and that Abigail is safe , he sends it out with a bird and sits ...quietly looking to the cherries growing in the bush he planted so long ago ...tears falling from his eyes ...from exhaustion and joy ...for finding his daughter ...and for missing his love *
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*Barion walks into the room in Haven 180 and picks up his journal , after reading through it he rips out the last ten entries and watches as they burn in the fire that is lit to warm the room.
With a face completely without emotions he sits down and starts to write *
Again life has been cruel and again i was at the receiving end .
Talia has left without word and Jenna has done something that took her out of this life .
Solarina is caring for the twins and for Abigail ...that is ...IF and WHEN she is home .
I slowly am picking up my crafting again , made myself the best with the tinkering devices and now again trying to work out the final flaws in my smelting and weapon-making .
I also picked up armor-making again and i guess i'm getting good at that soon as well.
Abigail is a almost grown up woman now , with all the things that come with that i guess *sighs*
She picked up a friend and they came to me for aid ....
Her friend was in the past part of an organization off thieves and cutthroats .
He asked me to help him get rid off them ...or something along that line .
I told him i would help and told him what i need to try and get them arrested and he will provide what i need he said , so i guess i need to find that organization and put an end to it ...or at-least the branch he was involved with .
To make things even better ...after i gave my word that i would help he happily told me he's a Mistite ......*he stands up and walks the room calming himself down *
I dislike Mistites ...but i never turn back on my word ...so i still will look into this ...solve it if i can ...and keep an eye on him while doing it .
Abigail seems to like him ...so i'll give him the benefit off the doubt for now .
Quantum had a rough time lately ...turns out he had to kill Sonya ..his adopted daughter ....she was turned into a vampire .
The guild seems to be in stasis or something ...i dont hear from any one or see any one ...maybe its time to again try to restart it and call for some meetings to see if we now finally can re-introduce ourselves onto the market .
Life has changed me ....i now am growing more and more towards what my old trainer saw in me ...a bitter man ...only wanting to serve his purpose ...killing criminals and try to extinguish evil from the world .
Never will i go back on my word ...nor will i ever allow evil acts in my presence ....people are afraid off the future ...the gods and their followers .
Some youngster has put up posters to try and get Rofireinites together ..to have us " lock shields and protect the people visibly " ...or something close to that *grins*
I heard Miss Jennara has worked herself up a bit more in the ranks , i wonder how she will look with a shield ...*he laughs and closes his journal*
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*barion picks up his journal and sits down , the dirt from traveling still on his clothes *
Alright , just a few quick notes so i don't forget them .
They are the information i got from Brian about the " syndicate " as he calls it .
Town : Point Dart
Name off leader ( at the time Brian was there , might have changed now ) :
a Xeenite named : Tarsia , woman , uses a lash to " help " others put in some effort while training .
members to be recognised by the following mark : A cobra head holding a gold coin into its mouth a sword piercing both from the top of the head through the coin and out the lower jaw, always branded on the right shoulder blade
It seems this organization infiltrates in the leaders off the towns they are in ,number off towns Brian knows about : fifteen , or so he seems to think
since i never before heard anything about them , i doubt that it could be so far spread though .
They form things called " rings " , every " ring " holds up to about one-hundred and fifty members with one leader .
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*barion walks in to resupply himself and takes the time to write some notes*
Nothing i could find in Point Dart ...either the "syndicate " moved on or people are too scared to tell a thing .
Next i will go investigate the cemetery there , maybe i can find a grave or mausoleum in-witch "members " are buried when they fall in the line of work .
I am hesitating to ask for help from the Rofirein church , there have been corrupted priests before and it seems i'm not important enough to be kept up to date on what is going on in our faith anyway.
Maybe i get lucky and they completely forget about me , maybe they finally understand that one doubting the highest people that " so-called represent " the faith is not one that without questions will follow their orders .
*Barion ponders over the last lines he just wrote and then closes the journal . He fills his bags with things he thinks he will need and he goes out again in search of the " syndicate *
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*Barion sits in the Haven house and watches the half burned candles on the edge off the bath , he smells the fragrance off the oil he has used earlier while massaging and he sighs deep . He picks up his journal and goes to write in it on the chessboard where he earlier won a game *
No word on the syndicate but i did find some that had the sign on their shoulder .
I got myself pulled into a wrestling match and fought three that had the sign .
I couldn't ask flat-out what they knew , because there were far too many to handle alone it seems .
I need to investigate this later .
On another , more personal note , the one i still love after all these years was here .
I offered her a bath after getting sand and we played a game off chess .
The price for winning was to be massaged and with some cheating , i won *blushes*
Since she didn't know how to massage with oils , i offered to massage her to show how it should be done .
Nothing but a nice massage , avoiding her more intimate parts or those close to them , happened ...but i still can feel her skin under my hands when i think back ...i still can feel the trust she has in me ...i still can feel her muscles relax as i worked them gently but firmly ..*he sighs softly*
Something is wrong between her and her partner ...i must not interfere ..i must try to keep my distance ...for losing her trust and her friendship ...that would be enough to make my life obsolete ...
*he sighs again and closes the journal , laying his head on the pillow as he turns in the bed smelling the oils and thinking he can still feel the warmth off her body on the spot she was laying when massaged .He closes his eyes and drifts of into a wondrous dream , for the first in a long time resting well while a smile more then once crosses his calm and soft looking face *
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*a bunch off papers is entered in the journal , they are folded and upon it are the words : Last will and testament off Barion Firesteed . *
I finally made my last will , Abi and Quantum listened and Quantum wrote it down .
Abi didn't like to hear it , guess she doesn't like the idea that one day her old father will be dead .
If its up to me i wont be dead soon , but one never knows .....
//this is the conversation they had , it includes Barions wishes .
Barion Firesteed: Lets talk in the guildhall
Abigail Firesteed: *looks concernedly
Abigail Firesteed: alright
Quantum Windword: [Party] The round table *grins*
Quantum Windword: [Party] please continue Barion
Barion Firesteed: Alright ...*looks serious* First ...this is not because it will happen soon ...but because i want you both to know what i want ...and why ..
Barion Firesteed: *looks to both * i want you both to know my wishes for in-case i might die ...
Abigail Firesteed: but
Barion Firesteed: shh
Abigail Firesteed: um
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Barion Firesteed: i will explain what i want ..and why i want it ....this will give you both a better understanding off this old man
Abigail Firesteed: hm...*looks sadly at her hands as she listens
Barion Firesteed: i want to be prepared in here .....people who want must be able to say goodbye ...
Quantum Windword: **nods in a understanding that most can not understand*
Barion Firesteed: I made a few things ...you will need those to put on me ...
Barion Firesteed: I made for myself a completely gold armor and a sky-blue cloak
Quantum Windword: *takes out a pen and paper and starts to write*
Quantum Windword: Your gold armor, and sky-blue cloak...
Barion Firesteed: I also made an open helmet ...blue and gold
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles sadly as she listens
Abigail Firesteed: *committing it to memory
Quantum Windword: **nods and writes*
Barion Firesteed: My blade will be the one I'm using ..the knights claw
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Barion Firesteed: My shield ...hang it on a wall somewhere ..cause i don't want Rofirein signs on me
Barion Firesteed: On my heart ...i want something i made ...
Barion Firesteed: a golden leaf ...sign off the Lifebringer ...
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Barion Firesteed: To symbolise Shelu still holds my heart ...*looks to Abi*
Quantum Windword: **smiles* That would be very nice Barion..
Abigail Firesteed: *looks at her hands silently
Barion Firesteed: I found out my heart has four chambers ...which is exactly how many holes i made in the leaf ...
Barion Firesteed: I want four items placed in them ...one for each woman i loved with all my heart after Shelu
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Abigail Firesteed: *gulps
Barion Firesteed: A cherry ...for Sa'kura ...
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles slightly at moms mention
Barion Firesteed: a miniature fireball ...for Sabrissia ...
Barion Firesteed: The blue rose from my chest in Haven ...for Jenna
Quantum Windword: **nods and writes more*
Barion Firesteed: And last ...a blueberry ......*looks to Q *
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles sadly at her mention
Quantum Windword: For Tegan ?
Barion Firesteed: For Tegan
Barion Firesteed: *blushes*
Abigail Firesteed: *looks surprised at dad
Abigail Firesteed: Miss tegan?
Quantum Windword: My friend
Barion Firesteed: *looks to Abi smiling* Yes ...the one i loved for many years ...but never got together with
Abigail Firesteed: i guess...i guess that explains a lot
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles to herself
Abigail Firesteed: i had no idea
Quantum Windword: *smiles to Abi* Yes it does..
Quantum Windword: *looks to Barion*
Barion Firesteed: I want Tegan to hold on to my things ....personal things ...to keep them for when you my daughter ...have earned them ..
Abigail Firesteed: *nods
Barion Firesteed: In the near future i want to sell the house in Prantz ....hopefully to get a better armor or jewelery for it
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles
Abigail Firesteed: i thought you had the best armor
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles
Barion Firesteed: I want Abi ..to have the Haven house ...but she needs to keep room for Destiny and Barion jr and Solarina
Quantum Windword: *smiles*
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles
Abigail Firesteed: always
Abigail Firesteed: you know that
Barion Firesteed: Almost done *grins* three more things ...
Quantum Windword: *still writing*
Barion Firesteed: I want Abi to be free to join the guild ...either when she has learned a trade well enough ...or when i am gone ..with or without a trade
Quantum Windword: **nods* My friend it will be before you are gone.. I can assure you of that.
Barion Firesteed: *smiles*
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles at mr quantum
Barion Firesteed: that is up to her old friend ...i wont force her to join
Quantum Windword: I have been working her hands to the bone with gems
Abigail Firesteed: yeah he has
Abigail Firesteed: *rubs her hands
Abigail Firesteed: hes a regular slave driver
Abigail Firesteed: *giggles
Barion Firesteed: the next two things will sound strange ...but i want them ...
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Abigail Firesteed: *arches her eyebroiw curiously
Barion Firesteed: i want a paper on the table i will on ...explaining the items on my heart ...
Abigail Firesteed: *nods
Barion Firesteed: then once and foreall every rumor about me hunting women will be gone
Barion Firesteed: or atleast i hope it will be
Quantum Windword: You dont my friend
Barion Firesteed: and last ...i want the table to be in the shadows at all times ...
Quantum Windword: Rumors are hurtfull but you must look past them
Abigail Firesteed: yes..who cares what they think of htat after your gone
Barion Firesteed: i want the door unlocked ...and someone to travel to silkwood ...
Abigail Firesteed: your deeds are what will survive mor e than anything
Barion Firesteed: There is a tree there ...the tallest one ...i want that someone to shout three times into that tree that Barion s dead ....
Abigail Firesteed: i..i..dont understadn
Barion Firesteed: *he looks to Abi smiling*
Quantum Windword: *looks to Barion* It will be done....
Barion Firesteed: My best friend hung herself there ....she wa a shadowdancer ...her body disappeared ...i want to give her the chance to say goodbye ...
Abigail Firesteed: oh...
Quantum Windword: **smiles and nods* She will my friend
Abigail Firesteed: *nod sin understanding
Barion Firesteed: If Abigail still is around ..it will be there
Barion Firesteed: The things i'm wearing ...they will go to the guild ...
Barion Firesteed: I have worked for the stuff ...so will my daghter
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles
Quantum Windword: Abi will find you in the after life, Barion
Quantum Windword: I am sure of that
Abigail Firesteed: *nods
Barion Firesteed: *shakes his head * No ...that is why i dont want signs on my body ...
Abigail Firesteed: i dont understand
Quantum Windword: *smiles to Abi* Not you Abi, are friend Abi the one your named after.
Abigail Firesteed: oh
Abigail Firesteed: oh yeah
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles sheepshly and sadly
Barion Firesteed: If Aeridins Avatar was right all those years ago ...i will be re united with Shelu *his face seems to light up a bit *
Quantum Windword: **nods* I belive you will my friend
Barion Firesteed: I hope i'm right ...i think i will see everyone i ever truely loved
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles
Barion Firesteed: *he looks to Q * Can i have those for second ? *points to the paper he was writing on *
Quantum Windword: *hands the paper and pen over*
Barion Firesteed: *he signs them * Now they are my official last will ***smiles as he hands them back*
geohall has joined as a player..
Abigail Firesteed: *smiles sadly
Quantum Windword: **nods*
Barion Firesteed: *he looks to Abi smiling softly* Dont you worry ...i'm not dead yet ...but i wanted this to be done ...
Abigail Firesteed: *her eyes area bit red
Quantum Windword: *takes the paper and smiles*
Abigail Firesteed: i..i understadn
Quantum Windword: it will be done
Barion Firesteed: *smiles and caresses her face gently* No you dont ...but you will one day
Abigail Firesteed: *bites her lip and smiles halfheartedly
Abigail Firesteed: yeah...
Quantum Windword: *smiles to Abi*
Barion Firesteed: I better do it now that i still can ...then leave this life without ever making it
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*Barion barges into the Haven house and rumbles trough his mail , seemingly he can't find what he is looking for since he throws everything in the fireplace.
He barges out and returns half a day later , smeared with blood ...not his ...and after washing it off he grabs his journal and starts to write *
Sooo...i'm not important enough to inform me that my daughter has to be present at a trail for one that she has captured .....
A trail led by Rofirein magistrates .....*he grumbles*
I'm not sure how in the nine hells they thought they could keep this secret for me ...but they failed ...i'll do my utmost best to be there.
*he puts the journal back on the small table in his bedroom and gathers the things he thinks he will need , after saying goodbye to the twins and Solarina he moves out again *
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*Barion quietly walk into his bedroom in the Haven house , he walks around the room a few times and stops by the chess table on-which his journal lays .
He picks it up and reads what he has written , then he sits down and gets his quill out to start writing *
Abigail did good in court ....she answered the questions to what she thinks is the facts and truth .
I'm not sure if all see it as she saw it ...but she kept true to herself ...i'm proud on her .
*he stops and walks around the room pondering a bit before he goes on *
I went on a little gathering trip earlier ...we met up with different people and the trip went well ....then we went further on the trip and met more people ..one of them was a young woman ..i forgot her name .
She kept pestering me about my age and about the fact that i'm , as she calls it , fat .
It was fun at first ...but the longer it went on ..the more it started bothering me *sighs*
Then we met Quantum and Peanut ..they had fallen in what we call " Troll Central "..needless to say we went with them to get their stones ..and did so with ease .
After that i just wanted to leave ..the ramblings off this young woman about me had me doubting myself ...yes...i know ...i had that earlier ...what can i say ..i'm sensitive about my skills .
To prove to myself i still am good enough , i tried to quietly walk off and find some fight ..but Quantum must have seen me ...for he came after me .
We went into a cave and before i knew it everyone was there and Quantum was running off ...*sighs deep*
Lovely Tegan was there too ...her bags filled with coal ...she was walking slowly ..but didn't want me to carry the things .
As i went after Quantum , i heard her sigh and she sounded mad .
After finally reaching and getting Quantum out , we started searching for Tegan ...my blood froze soon after that ..we found her stone ..*he wipes away something from his eyes before he continues *
I failed her once again ...she left and i should have accompanied her ...but instead off that i ran after Quantum .
I guarded her stone with some others and waited for her return .
When we were in safety again , i sat away from the others pondering and thinking .
Maybe the young woman is right ...maybe i'm just an old man ..that kept spinning through my mind .
Tegan came over and we talked ...i'm afraid it turned out to be a complaining session from my side ...up to the point that she threatened to cut off our friendship *sighs softly*
I spoke some more and explained the core off my problem ...then i left ..telling her she could find me at the end off the row bodies ..and that i hoped mine wouldn't be the last she finds .
I went to Prantz because i had agreed on buying something from Pyyran ...two flying rocks ..Ioun stones .
I had a talk with Pyyran ...and somehow ...i don't know why ...the talk i gave him ..it was a talk someone should have given me ...for now i see things different then i saw them before ..as does Pyyran .
I agreed that i will try to be there as he and others will aid ..or try to ...Sallaron in reaching an emerald vein and maybe more precious materials .
The stones i bought ...they were Kinai's ...one i bought to give away ..to the one that is still precious to me ...more precious then i think even she understands ..the other i will use ..as a memorial to Kinai and Pyyran ..and Hawk i guess .
*he looks up as Solarina knocks on the door . he opens the door and she gives him a small note ,he closes the door and while walking he starts to read ...he stops in his tracks after three words and curses loudly *
*he quickly puts the note in his journal and gets his armor and things he needs for heavy battle ...cursing all the time ...he runs out and while going out off the house he shouts to Solarina that she needs to keep Abi in the house if or when she comes . After that he searches every place he could expect his daughter *
***the note he got ***
Dear Barion,
I am not sure when I will see you again, but you must know this as soon as possible. There are people out there who put a price on Abi's head. There is more then one, and whoever kills Abi first will get the coins. They do not want her to make it to trial alive. I know this because I overhead a man in black talking.. to Lino. The only person I told was Eghaas though Wren was with us at the time. Please do not do anything rash, I'm sending this note to you, Dalan and Abi.
May Folian protect you and yours,
Tegan
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*barion walks into the Haven house and bathes himself , then dresses and finds his journal . He reads the last few entries and sits down and starts to write*
Things have changed .
I went with Dalan , Brian and Huntemara ( former known as Sarah ) and found Abigail .
Before we left , i had Tegan search us for any signs off magic upon us but we all were clean .
We made sure we weren't followed and finally after finding a few signs found Abigail .
It was there that i decided to go with her to the hidden village and hide her there till a few hours before the trial ,then meet up with friends and escort her to trial safely .
We spend a few days there when i got a visit and was asked to join Tegan to get mahogany ...which i did .
When i met up with her in Dalanthar , we met Timothy ...he asked me if i had seen Abi lately .
When i asked him why , he told that a man was looking for her in Hempstead .
According to him the man took seat on a bench there and kept checking the Orcbashers Shop .
Since Abi is safe in the village i have decided to seek out this man ...maybe he can answer some questions i have .
On another note .
Maybe its time to change some things , things that keep happening and don't seem to change by themselves no-matter what i do or say .
Again i joined a guild member and a friend on a trip to gather things , again i ended up with nothing i myself use and again the things we got will be used by others outside the guild .
I'm slowly getting enough of this ...there are times i wonder why i still bother .
Maybe its time to find others to travel with ...others that i can help and let them help me get the things i need .
I right now am learning how to tailor ...to stop from losing my thirst to learn ...and to be able to make some things i soon will need to improve in my armor-making .
My smelting has nearly gone to a full stop since i cant get the metals i need to get better , same goes for my weapon-making
My tinkering is my best craft right now ...and that is fulfilling ..but also boring .
All it requires is getting sand and coal to make rods of the highest circle , i still can learn a little from that but every-time making the same things is mind-numbing .
Maybe its time i pick up the crafts that i am already getting the materials for , the materials i stash in chests again and again to let others craft ...maybe its time i got a bit selfish and simply use everything myself ...*sighs as he ponders*
Well ...i have my gear cleaned up and checked ..everything is in perfect condition ..time to find the stalker that stalks the Shop.
*he closes his journal and for the first in a long time he puts it in his backpack*
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*barion sits at the bottom of a cave and takes out his journal *
So here i sit at the bottom of a cave ,a cave that supplies me with platinum .
The trial went well , not sure what will happen next but i'm glad that part is over .
Lately i haven't seen many people ...and i must say ...its refreshing .
The last i went to travel with was Miss Drea ..a bit stuck up ...very young ...very immature in her speech ..but fun to be around .
Still ...what i am missing in my life ..it seems i will never again find it .
M'Lady Tegan is avoiding me ...or am i avoiding her ? ...not sure ...
She seems happy again with Sall ...and its not my way to pry between them .
Crafting is mind-numbing ..no matter what i pick up ...gemming ...tailoring ..armor-making...tinkering ...it all comes down to three things : getting the materials ...getting them home alive ...and then destroy most to see if i can learn from it .
I start to think its the life off a front-liner unworthy to craft as much as i do .
What is the use off all the years off training ? i hardly come to see places that challenge my skills like they should be challenged ...and for what ?
To be there for Abigail ? ...to wait till maybe Sall dies and i finally can find out if M'Lady Tegan and I fit together ?...to be here for the twins ?
Abigail can take care off herself ....Sall is a lucky bastard that seems to find new life whenever he looks nearly dead ....M'Lady Tegan ....what would she need an ugly old human fighter for ?...and the twins ....they are in good and capable hands with Solarina .
I think its time to do what i was meant to do ...explore and find new challenges ...hopefully to die in a grand battle ...
*he sighs as he looks up , he hears the trolls have send new troops and he rises .he puts his journal back in his pack and gears up *
" time to fight myself a way out again "
*with that he draws his blade and puts up his shield , he uses the magical items he has with him and charges into battle *
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*Barion sits in The Amphitheatre high in The Thunderpeaks , he warms his hands and takes out his quill and journal and starts to write*
Things have changed ...i no longer craft as much as i did ..and i love it ...this place i have found and it is the perfect place to train for me .
No magic other then magic placed on things holds here ..this is a mountain created for fighters that know how to use their skills and weapons.
*he ponders a bit before he continues*
Lots of things i have learned lately ..my body is in better shape then it ever was before ...my gear is partly updated and I'm nearing the time that I'll have all i need .
Abigail i haven't seen in a long time , my guess is she doesn't need her old man anymore ..i heard her say that rebuilding a school for spell-swords was the legacy she wishes to continue ...guess that means that my legacy rests in the hands of the twins *sighs*...well ...i decided to let her go ...i no longer will be searching or going out to find her unless she sends me word .
She has succeeded in excluding me from everything that i could even find remotely important in her life , so be it .
I know i have a daughter called Abigail ...but the feeling of joy seeing her is fading every time i hear she has been out searching her dream or bettering her life ...guess I'm going to give up completely on me being part of her life ..its probably for the best .
*he thinks and a soft sigh escapes his mouth *
There was to be a meeting between The Explorers and The Orc Bashers .
We were to discuss to find out if we both could combine our forces and become one ..The Explorers as the gathering and exploring part of the new guild with us joining and helping them ...The Bashers as the selling part of the new guild with them helping out in creating and possibly selling the stuff .
From my talks with Pyyran and Sall i thought i knew their members ..boy was i wrong though ..*looks mad for a moment , then composes himself and writes on *
The meeting started fine ...i met Sall and Master Beli and showed them around our guildhall while we were waiting for the others to show up .
Then the trouble started ...seems Shamur is a member as-well ...not too bad a bloke i thought ...but then ...he was with Muirean ...a priest of Mist * spits on the floor before he goes on *
This woman has told me before a trip to get her friend Sall an emerald , that she would not raise or heal me in battle or after it .
We both know why and i had peace with it at the time , but i never will be part off anything that she is in ...I'm not going to spill my blood while the wench can run after us invisible to learn from those in front of her nor will i make anything that she will get a share of the sales price from .
I already heard that Shamur wasn't too keen on the two guilds merging , guess he saw this as the perfect way to stop the meeting even before it started .
Well ..he was right ...what he however didn't know is that he has sided with a known Mistite priestess and the result of that will be that i nor M'Lady Serissa will aid him in any way again .
During the conversation i heard more then i knew before ..of-course i suspected it ..but now it was openly said .
The Explorers have been going out together and their partners are always welcome on their travels ...that was stated by both Beli and Sall .
Turns out M'Lady Tegan has gone with them many a time and helped them gather ...i always wondered how Sall got his hard to get wood ...also wondered how Shamur could keep up with my training in smelting and armor-making ...guess now i know *grumbles*
All those years i have risked my life and my strands to get every one in the guild what they needed ...all those years i accepted that the things i need to train and learn are too deadly to go out for to collect .
Yet it seems that with others , members can go out and risk their lives in getting the things i needed so hard for years ...only not for my use ..but for the use off those that i compete with to become the best in my crafts .
I need to ponder over what to do now ...*sighs deep and closes his journal ...he looks around and listens ..then he grins *
" You wished you wouldn't have been send here my Ettin friends and one-eyed giants ...my mood is not too well ...and you'll pay for that ...."
*With that he gears up and recklessly charges the group he heard ..coming out of the battle victorious ..but badly hurt *
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*Barion opens his journal and writes a few lines , then he inserts a letter *
A father is not allowed to defend his daughters good reputation and name by making a statement that those that call her a liar can seek him out and tell it to his face and face the consequences.
I guess the part that i added , telling those willing to try it to have said their final goodbyes to those they leave behind is a GRAND crime .
I am ripped of the tittle i didn't want in the first place but still they try to keep me in their grasp by NOT removing me from their ranks completely .
Over the years i NEVER was contacted by The Knights to investigate or in any other way take action , many faiths have posted pleas for help but never have The Knights had a call themselves or given orders to us to go out and help with the plea .
The organization is slow and i feel that being part of it restricts me more then allows me to help others .
I have send a reply and will wait on their answer to that before i decide how i will continue .
*A letter is folded in here , marked " Degraded "
Barion Firesteed, Knight of the Wyrm
When brave men and woman are called forth to serve under the banner of the Great Dragon a sacred oath is made. Our oath is to serve and protect, to maintain ourselves as pinnacles of Justice, to be above corruption and above reproach in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of those we seek to serve. These standards are what set us above others who serve chaos and who would act outside the law and hence harm those innocents whose very lives we protect.
Unit Captain Barion Firesteed, for some time I have personally held in a drawer of my desk the letter you served to this office some years ago requesting demotion. It was my hope that it would stay there unanswered and that you would, with time, grow into your role and find within you the strength of knowing required to serve the Great Dragon dutifully.
Alas, in recent days news of an incident has been filed with me. Whilst the circumstances might generate an emotional response I can understand, I simply cannot condone nor ignore. It is unacceptable under the oath to the Great Dragon for a Unit Captain to issue threats involving death or grievous bodily harm to those we are meant to guide and nourish in the understanding of the laws of the Gold.
Therefore it is with heavy heart that I hereby withdraw your commission as Unit Captain. Your rank will henceforth be that of Knight amongst the ranks of the order. I ask that you see this move as a chance to look within and learn once again what it means to truly serve the Dragon.
The claws of the Gold be your sword, His scales your shield and His wisdom your guide.
Divisional Commander Sir Breten Parth
Knights of the Wyrm Mistone Chapter headquarters, Fort Vehl
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* barion takes up his journal and puts in two letters , he scribbles some words previous to them and some after them *
I promised i would be complete in my journal for others to learn from , i am putting these letters in but need to take one passage out due to it might inflict harm to one that is seen as hero .
Every word i uttered in these letters is in my eyes true and i will always stand by them .
*two letters are attached under these words *
Sir Brethen Parth , Divisional commander .
It is with a feeling of gratitude that i have read your letter , but i request you to acknowledge my complete request .
I do not see nor have ever seen myself as someone that stands "above " anything or any one else .
The letter in your drawer speaks of my name being removed from The Knights as an organisation completely , not just to be removed as Unit-Captain.
The lack of trust people and other faiths have in The Knights as a whole and the church of Rofirein in general , have , as i feel it , restricted me in the help i could have given to others .
*here are a few lines blacked out and turned to unreadable blobs of ink*
Faiths calling for aid in openly posters in the Inn's and taverns with out a single request to our church or The Knights is another thing that has been bothering me for a while now .
The lack of reaction to these kind of things have made me wonder even more about the role i am supposed to be full-filling and the role The Knights in general are full-filling .
On the occasions i have asked for guidance in how to respond to these , the answer either never came or came far to late to be of any influence , hence the feeling i have of being restricted while serving The Knights .
Don't understand me wrong , i will always try , and yes ..i say TRY , to stay a loyal servant of Rofirein , but both the church and The Knights have so-far only restricted me , never aided , asked for aid or send me anywhere .
That is why i feel that i will serve The Great Golden One better as a single follower instead of part of an organisation that seemingly is too busy with itself and too slow in reaction to see and react to the trouble in the world .
If you wish you can strip the names from my blade and I'll dig up my old armor to have the name stripped from that as-well .
If the feelings of a father about the reputation and the good name of his daughter and his reaction in anger can not be understood and can not be dealt with in the form of an order to retract the note and an openly written apology , then the bureaucratise of The Knights is even worse then i already suspected and the human factor further lost to the rules then i ever could have suspected .
Awaiting your reaction , what-ever it may be , i will start telling those close to me that i no-longer am a Unit-Captain and that with some luck i will have more news for them soon .
Barion Firesteed , fighter for law, justice and Honor , but still human .
Barion Firesteed
I am saddened to receive your missive yet I accede to your request.
I am uncertain what to write to you Barion. Shall I write of what I believe has been your fundamental misunderstanding of the tenets of the order? Shall I write to you of the potential strength of an order when it's individual members forget about their personal goals and desires and all strive for a greater purpose? Shall I write to you of my disappointment that your path diverges from that of the order in so many ways?
What is to be gained in such? I fear very little. Instead I shall thank you for your service and express my hope that you always seek the will of the Great Gold in all your future deeds.
I hereby revoke your appointment as Knight of the Wyrm, including all titles, duties, privileges and responsibilities. I request your blade and armour be returned at soonest convenience and an armourer shall see to the removal of the insignia of the order.
The claws of the Gold be your sword, His scales your shield and His wisdom your guide.
Divisional Commander Sir Breten Parth
Knights of the Wyrm Mistone Chapter headquarters, Fort Vehl
*he sits down and reads them , then he takes his quill and writes *
This chapter off my life is concluded , the Knights have in my eyes become the puppets of the clergy and i do not agree that they should be .
The lack off response to calls for help are heartbreaking and even now , after many years , still true .
A call has come from our , or should i say their , brothers of Vorax , but no reaction what so ever from either The Knights or the Clergy .
I guess the organisation is either too big to answer ...or not able to look beyond their own troubles .
I chose not to response , not even personally , to not further the gap between myself and others following Rofirein ...but it breaks my heart ...*sighs as he dries the ink and puts the journal away again *
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*Barion unloads a huge amount off iron in his Haven home and checks with Solarina if there have been messages delivered , on finding that is not the case he goes up to the master bedroom and writes a few lines in his journal*
A huge order was made in various crossroads for items , i have expressed that The OrcBashers were interested in fulfilling this .
Until now there has not been any response even-though Abigail has send a personal post to the person asking for all the things .
I put up a notice in our Guildhall even before the ink on the poster was dry , so i guess either the order isn't too important or it has been revoked by the one requesting all the items .
I saw this as a good opportunity to strengthen the bonds between the members off our guild , since i noticed that most only seem to be looking out for their own interests .
Most are seemingly too preoccupied to train themselves as fast as they can , others are publicly selling gear that others off our guild could really use to upgrade their gear .
Guild outings are still not happening much and with M'Lady Tegan sending us word that she could be leaving this world in the near future we have another problem .
She proposed some one to replace her in tailoring that could , in the future , present us with more trouble then it seemingly is worth .
The person is a " holy knight " of Toran .....Toranites don't go well with Rofireinites ever-since the trail of one off their hero's.
Not to forget that Toranites don't mix well with Berilites as Master Starr .*sighs*
Even if things work out well , we will have to search for an arcane spellslinger to reach the materials we need most if we want our "top " crafters to learn more .
*he blows the ink dry and looks around , then after removing his armor and cleaning it he goes down to play with the twins *
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* with a grey face Barion unloads some adamantium and cobalt , then he changes into his free-time clothing and writes with a sigh*
Today i did something that i thought was impossible .
I mined diamonds , cobalt and adamantium alone .
I'm nearly through my supply off healing potions , but i made it alive ...barely ...*sighs deep*
To top it off ....my last off five mining-picks broke on the first vein off cobalt i found .
There was no way back ...i had to continue ...fighting golems and some flying statue like creatures and dark elves on the way out .
I made it though ...so i guess i can do it again , but the price is high in healing potions .
I met M'Lady Tegan's replacement the other day ...he seemed alright .
Abigail is finally replacing the platinum gears and wires as she promised , she was surprised over the amount needed to even try once to make her cams .
*he sighs deep and slowly stretches his sour muscles *
I had a few close calls , but i have proven i can make it ...i guess dying down there isn't too bad ...it sure beats the useless feeling i had before as a Knight.
*after blowing the ink dry he closes his journal and slowly sinks on the bed , a look off pain on his face as does so . Then he turns and falls into a deep restoring sleep *
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*Barion rushes into the bedroom and cleans himself up , then he writes a few lines in his journal and after kissing the twins goodbye he rushes off again *
Two port towns have been ruined , Leringard was attacked by a dragon .
Mariner's Hold was washed mostly away by a huge wave off water .
According to stories , the dragon was send by Fisterion to give a message about a treaty broken .
I'm not sure what to think about that , but since it's close to the damned Mist temple i found it better to send someone else to offer aid on behalf off The Bashers .
It may be my hate for Mist , but i can't get out of my head that it is Her that supposedly commands the waters ......
If this has anything to do with Her , I'll hunt down every follower She has and bring them to trial for cruelty against the population of Mariner's Hold .
So far i kept my thoughts to myself ...and will continue to do that until investigation either proves I'm right or wrong .
We have send word and people to both Leringard and Mariner's Hold to offer our help as OrcBashers , we now are gathering raw materials that we will turn into things they need once they find time to tell us what it is they need .
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*Barion sits down and sighs , then he takes out his journal and Ad's an official letter written in his own blood *
Last will off Barion Firesteed .
It is my wish that all my property will be auctioned to aid in good causes .
This en-holds the property : 180 Haven ,after it is stripped from it's contents and the people having key's been allowed to get their things from the house .
The same goes for the property : 254 Prantz outskirts .
My equipment , or what's left off it , is to be brought to The OrcBashers guildhall .
The members will be allowed to use what they can and the rest can be auctioned again for a good cause .
I made this will in a normal state off mind and i agree with everything written .
Barion Firesteed .
PS : If any off this is not allowed , please let me know and i'll see what i need to change .I also like to state that i give no one permission to play either Trinity or Barion jr .
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* a few weeks later Barion lays in his bed , he explains to Solarina what his wishes are concerning his children .*
" i want you to take them to the Village with both Sa'kura's and Abigail's grave and raise them there . If it is given , then i want to be buried right beside them . You can find my last will in my journal and i hope that people will respect my wishes for the things i have written . With Rofireins mercy i will overcome this illness ...if not *he sighs* ...if not ....then i guess my time has come .....if that is the case , then try to find some-one to relate my journal into a tale ....so others might learn from it ...and the twin have their fathers complete life told by himself ."
*he coughs heavily and he slowly falls asleep , his breath becoming irregular ..but he still doesn't seem to want to give up , judging the sweat and frowns on his face as-if he fights a lonely fight ....*
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* when awake between slumbers , Barion lets Solarina bring in people to place two new chests in the house and has her placing his gear and everything that seems useful in them . *
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* Barion reads over his will and nods while reading a few times . He looks tired and trampled , but a light still shines in his eyes *
" I hope i still get the chance to help out Mariner's Hold as offered by The Bashers .....time is running out fast ...and i'm not sure if i have much longer ...."
* he sits and writes *
Again i met the witch that no one wants to meet too often , it seems my soul is ripe and tasty for each time she has the chance she takes a piece .
I'm not sure if i ever again can write in this journal , every trip i undertake can be my last ...*sighs*
I stayed true to my principles , no matter what the price was .
Those i see as murderers and not worthy to travel with , i have mostly ignored from the moment i left them .
My honor is in tact and my soul is pure .
Those i will leave behind in the end , will be taken care off and i'm proud to say that i owe no one anything .
Even knowing that every trip can be my last , wont change how i look at the world nor will it be sufficient to have me stop traveling and go to dangerous places .
I am who i am ....and those that don't accept that can choke in their arguments for all i care .
* he closes his journal and undresses to take a bath , then he puts on his free-time clothes and plays with the twins . His laughter fills the house while they are playing ...but alone in his bed his tears stream down on his pillow , the fear off ultimate death becoming too much for a short time ....*
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** a pair off adventurers arrive at 180 Haven , they carry the remains off a full plate marked with Rofirein signs . Their faces are somber as they hesitate to knock on the door . Finally one reaches over and knocks . As the door is opened , they step back after putting the remains off the full plate on the ground . " We come with sad tidings M'Lady " they look to Solarina " The man leading us down to diamonds , adamantium and kobalt ...the man known as Barion Firesteed ....* he looks down * ...he fell protecting us ...and never returned . We went to the stone we know he was bound ..but his soul never returned to claim his body ...*he sighs deep * ...we are sorry Miss "
//he didnt perm , but i cant find the will to play with him for a while now . I'll be requesting a char deletionrequest when i'm emotionaly ready to say a final goodbye to him :(