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Title: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 08, 2007, 07:21:52 PM
Tales of Duty and Deity

I'm Lance Stargazer, I'm a devote server of Toran and son of a great hero.

It has been very hectic lately, I been traveling in the roads beetween Fort Llast and Hlint, triing to make it safer to travelers, and helping the local clergy of Toran in Port Llast with some errands, I 'm happy to be asigned to this temple for support, Fort Llast has provided an excelent place to live, and help.

This part of the continent it's filled with vicious creatures and brigands, but also there are some decent folk. I've meet some adventures who has proved very trusted and kind.

In this past days I met a wizard named Lalaith Va'lash, whom is powerful indeed, I never has seen such control in arcane powers, not that I'm an expert inm arcane powers also, but he's uimpresive to say the least we traveled together to find a necklace lost by the local bar in Hlint. I ve enjoyed a lot to speak with him for a change.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 08, 2007, 07:44:02 PM
Life has been good!

I could say its grat to meet new people, I meet a group in a rest place in the Goblin wastelands. They were resting and relax, for their travels, I was traveling towards Fort Llast, carring supplies for the military there.

It was a nice experiencie , since they were playing and answer and question game, it turned to be very intresting,. we spend some time there Then we started to talk about some infeestation by gnolls near the town of Haven, so we readied our weapons to travel there to provide help. The names of this brave adventures were: Buddy Tenker, Lino the halfling, Arandwen, Krill, amoung others.

We traveled to this cave where we meet some mischivious gnolls, we explored the cave beating the moinster and giving to them the holy Justice of toran, Unfortunately When we where about to triump, I let my guard down, and I was struck badly. when I awoke I was vback in Fort Llast, resting in the temple.

This was a great lesson, I will continue my training.

I hope we meet again.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 19, 2007, 05:14:08 PM
I had a very busy days, The great Leader never stops to showing his Wisdom.

Some time ago I trveled to the Dragon Islands with a solid Group, I was amazed  to see this perople in acion, Our party was formed by Lino the explorer , Boltar the merry dwarven bard, And a wizard named Westany Smith, and me of course, Lance Stargazer.

We traveled to the Dragon Isles, to investigate some Ancient Ruins, We travelled abroad and met awesome creatures, Finally we arrived to the ruins , but the outcome of this adventure is not what granted me learning.

We traveled thru a cave , there was a lot of Harpies in that cavew which attacked us viciosly, me and my companions and I fought them bravely, and by tran grace we were succssful at last but we were hurt, by the razor sharp Talons and confused by the tricks opf those creatures.

After the battle, A female orc warrior aproaches to us, but instead of attacking us, she told us a story about how her tribe was hold by some evil Dark elves. and she asked for help. At leasty I was ready to jump at the nresue pbut this Orc wanted us to give her Money, She wanted about 2000 trues to gather a ransom. She then threathen us.

We tried to make her enter in reason, We could help to rescue their tribe, but she continued threathing us,then suddenly some Orcs flanjked us and attacked fortunately our teamwork was fundamental to overcome this new threat. Even at seeing this, This female warrior stands watching as we fought her brothers.

Finally She asked for the money, not very politely, I must say, It was sometuhing like If you give the mone Me don't kill you, , I spoke to her again triing to prevent unnecesary bloodshed, but she doesn't ear to reason and attackedus, In the End Lino stiokes hard thru her heart and she fall back lifeless.

I was terribly sad about this outcome, I serch in her body for some information regarding the captives, but we were out of luck, we didn't learn anything more, about this.

I prayed to Toran for her redemtion,and for those who were innocent in her Tribe, I asked that he could lead us to a World when we can help every other, no matter their race, without prejuice.

May Toran bless this day and The learning he gave us, We must learn to ear the voice of reason and act by wisdom, Since her failing in this was the demise of her tribe.

Oh Great Leader when we all Understand ?

May toran watches over us.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 19, 2007, 05:15:26 PM
I met a fine lady on this past days , she was a fair elven Lady named Laaren, she is an Ilaseran priest as she presented herself, also I've meet Ado, a holy Rofi warrior of Rofirenite, We went to Port Llast and meet with another holy warrior. I'm very pleased to meet Belazar My bother in Duty and Honor and Mandalre Lionsmane A Rofirenite priest, They were crafting amors in Port Llast, we traveled towards the Stromcrest crossroads, and have a nice evening, after those fine gentleman leave us, Laaren and I travelled together for a bit, we helped a to put to rest some souls, that were cursed as undead, Laaren and Myself were a good team, And she's also a a very lovely company, she has traveled a lot as from what she speaks.

I must confess I was uncomfortable at first since the realtion beetween our churches aren't as smooth as the friendship we have developed, it was a good start. She's currently intrested in exploring a fores full of Undead, she seem particulary concerned about destroying this kind of creatures.

I wonder if this is the feeling that father felt when he first meet Lady Pyra, and what would become of this friendship.

I hope to see her again soon.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 19, 2007, 06:14:56 PM
Blessed Toran That help those who can't help themselves. I pray for your mercy and wisdom, Because of me an innocent got killed.

I carry that sorrow in my soul. I shall confess to you, journal as I've confessed to the Temple.

Last days I've meet an elven Lass in my way towards Lake Allun, Her name is Lara, As She told me she was just exploring te area, looking to increase her knowledge, After we travelled a while we meet witha mighty warrior, who answered to the Name of Shiff Dragonheart,  seems that Lara was versed in the arts of Wizardy, since she mentions her mentor a lot when we met this fine gentleman, also it seemed that The man know the spoken wizard master.

Lara asked Shiff to teach her, Shiff isa  very taciturn man, who didn't understanded what does Lara wanted to learn from him, since he's a warrior, asn she is a wizard, who could tell, that Lara was the one who ending us something, I learned my first elven word, Aala, which means something positive. It is a start I think.

We travelled our way towards the gulf of Bagira, there we were ambrushed by an Goblin Worgrider, who wants revenge for his tribe he told us that his tribe was attacked before asnd severely wounded, We were innocent of that acusation , of course, but he blame us for being not goblins. We tried to speak to him, What could I tell Shiff is a man of few words, and a lot of attitude, he didn`t let him intimidate by this goblin threat and stands ahead showing the threatener his greatsword unsheathed.

The golblin finally retreated for a while , but in a matter of minutes an horde of goblins attacked us, We make the stand, triing to retaliate the offensive, but in the changing chaos of the roaring battle, OçI lost sight of Miss Lara, for a second I feared the worse.

After the last wave of raidrs, Shiff and I started to search for Miss Lara, but what we found was a big surprise for me. We meet another Goblin shaman, jut when we espect another athack we turned to be a slave goblin of the tribe, he wanted to thank us for saving him, He insisted in following us and serve us. there's when my failure started, shiff trid to make the goblin run away, I instead tell him tht there's only a way he could thank us for freeing him, I ask him to renounce the evil way of their kind and become a force of good. This reacton of mine obviously was too much for the confused creature, ans My companion Shiff make a loud critic about that.

This little fellow presented himself as Big Juju, and he told us he posses great magiks, finally Larra aperaed after some searching, She moved towards the way to call for aid, when she arrived She was shoked with the situation in which Shiff and I were involved.Big Juju, turned to be a very insistent goblin, he talked about getting richer serving us, I started to sepeak of Toran to him and how can his divine wisdom inspire us to change the world and achieve the joy of do what we must, and the graeat rewards that helping peoples carries over us. Inner peace.

Finally the goblin asked to walk with us to a Toranite Temple so he could convert to Toran Religion, I was unsure about this, wisdom adviced that w must prepare people for the arrival of Big Juju, but finally we travelled towards Fort Llast, when we arrived at Haven , the guards go crazy and slay the poor Juju's on his feet, I couldn't stop them , and by my failure the goblin was killed and that burdens my soul now  I approached to the goblin body and raised him in my arms. The guards seemed happy to perform her so called " duty.". Lara was on my side this time as we explained to the guard the attrocity she just commited that day. But she didn't show any concern about this. she turned her back to us and continued his patrol in the town, I declared to The Toran's temple this attrocity, If we continue to perform such acts of racial hate towards other races, The only sins Big Juju commited was being a goblin and trust that humans will respect his life.

I'm sorry for this Big Juju,  I raise a plea to Toran that he recive you in his realm, since you dead as an innocent.

I sang a Hymn to honor your death and tries to ammend for my shame, Father what would you have done in my place ?

I bury him in th hills near Fort Llast so he could be at least near the Toranite temple, and be close to Toran.

Oh Great Leader help us to understand, and teaches how to stop the sword, when it is necesary, so aren't we here to defend innocence and stop Villany, not to commit Villany in the name of Justice ?.

May Toran Watches over US, humans and.... inocent creatures.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on November 26, 2007, 12:13:49 AM
From Stargazer's Pen

Dear Journal .. I have you so forgotten.

Well Toran has been genorous to me...

I got a lot of things to say...

I'm still improving my tailoring skills, and I have started exploring the art of Alchemy, that will let me do healing potions and bandages for helping in my travels and to the temple.

I've meet some interesant people during last months. The most notorious are a group of small people, I think they're goblinoids, we must have an eye upon them because they're quite skillful adventurers, as I saw them they're a bit confused about the world because they act at least for the attitude of the one I think is the Leader, Nonac Foamwolf, he thinks that everyone is against him, he feel the hatred of centuries of racism, I'm not saying every member of a race labeled as evil must be trusted, but they 're those who enjoys the wicked and madness of evil , and thjose who are like that because no one has lend a hand to them. I think Nonac and his group falls in this category, re must keep a close watch upon them, even as they have tasted the taint of evil, I think is fueled by desire of comprension than evil itself. They can be saved. I hope I'm not wrong about this, but i won't hesitate in strike them down if they're beyond salvation ... Praise Toran...  

I've tried to put Toranite temple under notice of this, we must keep a close eye upon them.

May Toran guide my steps
Title: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on November 26, 2007, 12:24:47 AM
Toran be praise that showed me the way of friendship

A few weeks ago I've meet a strange people, fine people but strange, As far as I understand they're like family, Abigail Firestead , the pink haired lady, and his uncle Marcus also a Fruiend of they names Eghaas. I haven't toldo you this also, In the past I've teamed witha master Dwarf that answer by the name Omicron, or just Omi for those enought lucky people who can call it friend. we've teamed to enter the Red light goblin cave, theose creatures still atacking the merchants, so we enter and drive them back to the botom levels, but they always come back. Well it was after one of this ventures in the cave I've meet this girl named Abigail, or just Abi, Toran grant me patience for her, she started to tease me the moment i spoke to her, I still remember it She seems shocked when I called her " lady ". She tell that she is not enough old to be called like that, infact she is not, but I did it in the sence of Ettiquete. Well, we spoke little with Omi, and after some minutes , Omi told me that Captain of Haven Kit are in need of some help to get supplies. So we travel to Haven, As we arribed Kit seems to be very worried that day and it was not possible to talk to her that day, but we stayed in Haven for the rest of the evening.  Abi showed me to trat the cows, and to feed them. Then Eghaas appeared, our meeting was a bit unconfortable since he presented himself as a a friend of Abi. A few hours later I left Haven towards the temple of Llast,

A week after this , I  meet Marcus in the very same spot when I meet Abi, in the campfire near the Red Light Cave. We spoke a lot, again Abi started to tease me... I felt very confortable with this people. We spoke of our past, Abi and Marcus are util now the only people outside of the temple that have heard about my past and my grief, We speak as if we have been friends for year, I showed my mother's memento, The white hair braid I trasure with all my heart. This braid as you know was the las t gift of my mother, or so was what Andros said when I awoke in the ship.

It felt very nice to speak of the sadness of our souls with someone else. Everything started when I mentioned to them that  I lived in the Temple of Llast, seh mentioned that someone very loved by her used to live there as well, It seems I ahave a natural talent to make this girl sad, For the things she said, Her friend is gone, I don't know if dead or just gone, She depressed a lot, I try to change the tide of the conversation, we started talked about family... And yes I did it again, she began to pour down on bitterness as we spoke of our mothers, she said that she has inherited her hair, and that was everything she has to remember her. After i told them part of my story, she felt more light of spirit, I think everyone in the camp feel better about our lives.

In the end I got something positive, Abi told me how to take care of the hair so my mother's memento will last almost forever.

Thank you Toran, for granting me friends like those,

May Toran watches over us.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 25, 2007, 08:15:30 PM
Praised be Toran.. that shows his humble servant the way of Peace of body and spirit

*Lance wrote full of Joy *

From the Pen and quill of Lance Stagazer .-

Well dear journal, Strange are the way that Toran Show us his Wisdom, Or may I say put us to a test ?

I'm improving at the alchemy and Tailoring art I've chossen a a hobby, well in fact I've done my first bandage. and use it quite fast for some one. This will become useful , but I still have a lot to learn. I barely remeber Mother... well Pyra making us potions and brevages for father and me. Well not more words about this, that you should remember those days better than me dear diary.

That day started with the morning prayers and helping with some chores of low importance at the temple, I lend some clothes to some pilgrims, and then escort them to Hlint. From there they make their way back to Haven, So I sarted with my rounds after drinking some water and present my respects to  Captain Alice.

I went thru the first part of the Silkwood forest to make the first round. I've heard in Hlint that the spiders had become quite active in the region, so I went to check. I was shocked at first impresion since when I entered the deeper woods, every bug was in hide, it seems that some patches of earth were scorched, I walked cautionsly searching and listening, there was a tense calm in all the forest. Finally after some exploation I saw a fight.

Do you remember diary when I meet Indis in the forest,and I have to save her from those spiders, well that moment remind me of that so much. The only thing I saw was a sword fighting against two spiders, I ran into the fray, to help the unidentifiied victim, When I arrived, I started to make a cover stance, so the strange could withdraw from teh fight in case he or she were badly harmed, but it stayed to fight alongside. We finished those bugs in less than a minute, Then I was shocked again to se that the one what I have helped it was just that a floating sword without a body to wield it.

-Well ... the sword could have done that alone, mister- I heard an angry voice at my back, I moved out so I could see the floating sword and the newcomer, but I didn't see anything. I make a step back to have improve my defensive position, at least agaist the sword, then she appeared, from nowhere apperared a young elven lass, She seems a bit angry but not violent, I put down the guard without stopping to watch them then I introduced Myself, She gave "the look" when I said I was a knight in service of Toran, well untl now I have understanded that some people visualize us Toranites as a petulants full of pride people who don't understand people and think of ourselvers better than everyone, and this lady seems to had that impresion, that changed in little time.

Well She said she was also an alchemist, when I tod her of my hobbie, she wishes me the worst of Luck in my alchemical training, becasuse i was her competence. *sighs*, this looked very bad. Then I stopped that the size it was, I started to tell her , I haven't done anything to her, I was there triing to help, and If its true I never expect a reward for what I do, also it's true I don't expect also to be recrimined for my presence o my belief. We started with the wrong foot this conversation. Then all angry in her face dissapeared and a little smile was drawn in her face, Then , and only then she shared her name to Me: Jaelle Thornwood.

She explained me that she is a sorcerer triing to improve her alchemy, and ventured into the woods, So we say goodbye, I had real people in need to attend. I was hoping to calm down for that last moment, I traveled the forest when I turn on a there was her, Jaelle again, well she dedicated me a strange glare, I continue my way just nodding at her, she answered my nod almost politely.

I traveled the forest for a while, then I go back to he campsite near Hilnt, and you won't belive who was there.... Indeed Jaelle Thornwood was there like if she was expecting me. I inmediatelly learned that was not the case, She stand where she was and with calmed expresion that betrays the inner fury she had inside asked ... Are you following me, Toranite ?

What could have I answered? That's was not the case , but she seemed to be everywhwere I go. I collected some bug for my alchemy skills while I was in the forest, so I asked her... Don't tell me you're going to the tower near Hlint please..

She seemed shocked at the question, then started to laught loud, and Answer, yes good sir, I'm planning to go there, I asked If she would be bothered if I go there as well, She asked then if I had a lady to fight for, I answered Thrutfully to that date, The answer was No... She then started to look intrested in me, She started to tell me sweet things, grab my hand meanwhile we walked to the tower.

We ended that night in the Wild Surge Inn, I invite her a drink and a meal, and we ended as a really good friends, It was really strange that ending, We chat for a long tome , I explained about my faith and proyects, also some of my past was unveiled for her. I give her those badger gloves I made before, she needed them more than I, She then kisses me in the check and give me a a really strange look, it was like inviting, but a bit strange. She stayed there for the night.  And I got back to the temple.

Next day I traveled to Port Hempstead to make an delivery of Sand to Jako Stonehill, and his Angels, Meanwhile I was traveling it was really strange, I was thinking in that look that Jaelle gave the day before, Then Everything comes onto me, she wanted to be the lady I fight for, It was really strange, she thinok of that on me, I'm a Toranite after all, she is a nice person when she is not angry to see me.

Wehn I arrived to Hempstead, Toran has really unexpected surprised there, Jaelle was there also just by the gates like if she where expecting me again, We noded each other as we passed and smile by, I see that look again, and than dissipate all doubt.

After I make the delivery of the Sand , I go to the crafthall and stared to make a dress for her, it would be a simple dress, but it will show her my apreciation, only time will tell, if this comes to a well ending, Until now Toran has guide me to her, and for that I'm thankfull, at las I have a new friend...

Toran be praised for those opportunities that turn in something good.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 26, 2007, 11:06:31 PM
Of the making of a dress...

Praised Toran, that teaches to get better even in the most mundane chores.

From the pen and quill of Lance Stargazer :

Hard days I have left behind, while I was on my rounds i had the chance of getting some fine cotton for the dress, the most hard of this wasn't the waeving , but the picking, i only wish the best materials for this dress, after a a hard week of work it 's finally over now, I just have to add the final details, I've picked the color and design, unfortunately I haven't seen  Jaelle since I meet her near Hlint, she was traveling across Alindor for the last I know. I hope to see her soon. Well this give me time to have the dress enchanted, so it would be useful also, Fire protection I think will serve her, she seems to love burn things a as main form of defense.

In the past days I have been a bit taciturn, and strange, I think of Jaelle with some frecuency, but Toran gave me more than one chances to help people who's around, The red light are still ammasing their war parties upon the roiad From Hlint to Last, they keep me busy, I went to Hempstead t make another delivery of Sand and finish the dress. That day I've meet a strange person near the fountain, He said his name is Sall, he was a bit nervous when I started questioning him, I stoped bothering because he haven't done anything wrong, But it will be worth to put him under close vigilance. I cannot believe we ended talking about he dress I just had finished, He warned me about ladies, as he said they only like me if I keep in giving presents, I don't think Jaelle would be like that.

Then the weirdness started, To the fountain arrived a couple of foraigners who insisted in share some wine with us, they insisted too much I must say, finally they took Sall towards Fort Wayfare, I followed them to make sure Sall was safe., Eventually the little man show us he know how to take care of Himself, since they wanted him to go with then unnarmed to a empty room. Eventualy they left the city, I haven't seen those strange fellows since then.

Sall left towards Hempstead , and I went back to Fort Llast.

Praised be Toran, that inspires everyone to become better.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 27, 2007, 11:24:02 PM
Praised be Toran... That allow us to see what's beyond th glimpse of the casual encounters

From the Lance Stargazer Quill and Pen

Dear Journal... People who need help come in really strange ways.

Last day I've spend some days in Hempstead with the dress making and gathering Aloe, I've heard that the Angel's guild pays well for a full box of Aloe, I already have an almost full box, Entering the kobold territoty will allow me to get distracted, to the date I have no notice of Jaelle or her whereabouts, I'm worried, after all I'm making her a dress, not in expectation or something, I just have the desire of give her a present, and to know more about our future. It's been almost a two months since I see her.

When I was approaching near the Kobold territoty she appeared, a badly wounded lady almost crawling out of the camp, I run to help her and ask Toran for a miracle that cause her to stop bleeding. I was shocked, even with all those painful wounds she seems happy to be alive, and thank me in the best way a knight could expect, She makes her smile wider an say the magic words. " Thank you Cuty "

That make me blush, and I hope she didn't notice my face behind the helm. Father would never had blushed in this situations that's why he used a clean face, with no helm. I'm not strong enought. Shame on me.

She introduced herself as Sil'via In'Drasus, and then explained what almost cost her life to acomplish a mission for Captain Trent back in Hempstead, It seems that the Kobold Task master had another magic stick, and Trent needs it to be removed, She makes me alook with a puppy eyes as she ask me for help. It's a look a man couldn't easily ignore, I told her that it would be better to rest before we undertake such incursion, we moved near the cotton farm that is by the road to Velh, I didn't know at that time that her was a competent fighter to say the least, and I had the chance to help a lady in distress, by Toran's sake, helping people really feel good, I was thinking in which strategy would be better for the incursion, then she took me off guard, when we sat to rest, she leaned on me and fall asleep with her head in my Lap, Now I was blushed, I couldn't rest like that, it feels really weird. when she wake up, she began to change to new clothes right there not acring who was around nor where she is, I closed my eyes but she seemed to be like in home doing that. Then we started our trip, We found close to none resitance in the Kobold camp, we cornered the task master and tried as always to make some reason into him. As usual those kobold with power, the only way to force reason into them is by sword in his heart. It pains me to kill him, but evil must be punished.

Well Sil'via seems quite happy to have the stick and thank me with a great smile again, she started to call me Cuty from there, meanwhile we were leaving the kobold camp ( now with a full box of aloe ), she started to sing a beautiful elven song, It cheered me up, in my travels I usually doesn't have time to hear bards, she is quite skilled in the singing, in some way remind me of Laaren. well , it's jumps to the sight that Sil'via and Laaren are totally opposites in their beheavior, but I see in Sil'via's eyes the same passion for the music but as opposite as their behaviors, Laaren music was like water calmed and soft, Sil'via's music was like fire impetetuos and fierce, now that I mention it it was just like her eyes disguised in an emerald green.

After We finish with this endeavor, she said that she asked me to travel with her to the Ire Mountains, I cannot say the company was not pleasurable, and she still was in need of some help, the travel was full of music and laughter by her, I feel really weird with this girl, I must say, she seems to be quite a child trapped in a young woman body. She walked alongside me , for some moments she took my hand and smile in my ear, I must say I was shocked with that. Was she flirting with me? Why?

At that moment I thougth she was just playing with me, some child game of travel with the knight of Toran, but there's now way I could turn her down, she asked me to help her, so it was my duty to protect her as long as the travel last, she said she needed to gather some mushrooms, we met some gnolls in the wilderness, then I see her really for what she was, a quite capable warrior, well for her age. After some hours of strolling inthe mountains, she started to run towards a lake  like searching for something. I followed her to ensure she would be fine, then she stopped and sat near one of the shore of the lake. She again changed her clothes. I turn down my sight but then she come near me and made me sit beside her holding my hand with her both white hands. Then she said " Oh so sweet of you dear Lance, to bring this lonely woman to hart shaped lake, you're so a cute." I did not even noticed that when we arrived at the lake, I haven't been in that part of the mountains and It was like she has that prepared that to be alone with me. Then she kissed me in a cheek.


I feeled a very deep pain in my very soul, Jaelle came to my mind, I haven't seen her in so many time, And I was still carryng that dress on my backpack, as a sad reminder of a silent promise. I have failed to her, well, not in the strict way, but knowing this was not helping. I step back, to Sil'via surprise.

I'm sorry, Sil'via - I said to her - before we continue on this, I must speak with another lady, to make my toughts clear -

Before the initial reaction she had of getting really surprised, she gave a sweet look and came close again, passing her hand over my chest meanwhile she passes by my side telling me " Well friends can do a lot of things ".

We continued our stroll for some hours more, and finally we said goodbye near the point when we first met. She thank me with another kiss in the cheek, and turned his back on my walking towards Hempstead singing the same sweet song of before.

That was certianly a strange stroll, A test of Will imposed by Toran? A chance to bring some happines to a lonely lady?

I enjoyed the this day dear diary, I still hear that song and treasure it in my memories, I hope it remain there for long time.

* Lance sighs as he continue on his writing *

Jaelle I'm really sorry about this, If there's a sin in my actions I'll atone for it, But I must know the truth amoung us.

* Looking at the red dress he has near the back pack *

Toran Be Praised .... help your humble knight to see with your holy eyes, forgive any actions I've made that could have make me lost your favor... Show me the way to the truth that is hidden to my mortal eyes this days.

Toran be Praised... -* Lance cried silently *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 29, 2007, 02:09:39 AM
Toran be Praised ... That teaches us about honor at the less expected moments and people.

*From the start of the Page it can be readed  *

From Lance Dragonbane's Quill and Pen :

I'm sorry Father , for using your lastname, I know I'm not ready for it, not worthy enought, But today, I need you more than ever, I need to feel you are near me, I need your support. You've been always my example, as Toran as been my guide. There are something I need to speak with you.

I have to speak to you of Honor in our name, Toran has teached me that Honor is a great treasure it must be keeped and cared before almost anything, he also had teach that in a humble beheavior Honor will be granted, he teached me to be a humble and shun pride of doing the right thing, because excesive pride leads to a clouded judgement, and blinds us to see the people who need help.

But Is there's honor in hiding you name? This was really your desire?

I'll stay true to my word, of that you must not worry, but know that I'm proud of your name, and also proud of Pyra and my true mother. I keep you all close to my heart.

I have spoken of Jaelle to you, also I just meet a strange girl * Lance Smiles a bit as he remembers the song *, this Sil'via  In'Drasus, in fact all of this doubts have come are the outcome of my meeting with her, well better to say to his father.

I have endured one of my finnest tailoring works, The dress I made to Jaelle, embroided and soft, as her hair, and red as the fire she uses as a trademark, *smiles with satisfaction at seeing the dress* it only lacked only a final touch, One unfortunately I cannot do myself.

I traveled to Hempstead, to pay a visit to The Angels Guild, my friend Jako or his wife Sala could help me to make this dress enchanted, they've done it in the past. When I arrive their guild, seems that Jako and Sala were a bit busy, They just made the time to say hello, and directed me to a man by name Rain Darsus, I've heard this name before, or I must say I've readed it in the front place of the guild, this man was the founder of this place also I noticed it keep some resemblanse to Sil'via's lastname, I catch him up just before he leave the guild, he  seems a taciturn man, stern and Calmed , but with a look full of suspicion or should I said frustration. He goes back to bussines I asked him to enchant the dress, I ask for the use of my credit, but it seems that Jako haven't put my credit line to the date, In the end Rain checked the last transactions, and become aware of the omision, I pay the difference for of the enchantment, and made him enchant it. So it was finally done, I just need to find Jaelle now.

Once the bussines was done, I asked him he was family with Sil'via, then I saw how his eyes filled with fear, before he answered doubtful " She is My Daughter, why ?. He seems quite upset after this , I was thinking I've said some thing innapropiate, but then he ask me " What has she done now?, Is she in trouble with The church of Toran ?. I can pay for anything she broke.

I smiled for the thought, he was worried about the girl, when I just call her name, Rain must be in trouble for her very often, I soothed his preocupation, saying , "I've just meet her some days ago", He spoke of her like if he was a bit frustrated with her so called "rebel daughter", I'm not to going to tell, he seemed angry at her, he sound worried about her, like only a father could worry about his beloved sons. I hope you understand him better than I do Father. HE also said that she is a very proud girl, she takes her lastname at core, and use it with pride.

When I heard about the pride of her family, I just needed to speak to him of you, and my roots, my promise to not carrying your name until I'm worth of it. Quest I'm long to complete, but then he said I have no right to say that, If I really respected my Lastname I must use it without remorse, and no promise should keep me for using it, I explained my reasons but he seems to be a really stern man, he said I'm wrong in my thinking and I must honor my parentes using my true lastname, I explained that the last name I use is the one of My natural mother, then he made an intresting suggestion.

That's why I need to speak to you Father, and my Journal is the only way I can achieve it, I hope no answer, You're far beyond this world of Mortals, but I need to know I'm doing well upon your eyes.

Praised be Toran... And You Father, I hope To be on good stand in both of your expectations. I live for you both

For Duty and Deity.

Lance Dragonbane Stargazer.

I promise dad, I won't use this lastname until I'm worth of it.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 29, 2007, 02:11:14 AM
Praised Toran .-  Sil'via true colors.

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Dear Journal of my confidence.-

Today I was another day full of the glory of Toran, I traveled near the lake Allun, when I meet my old Friend Quintas, yes that Aragenite Monk, that I've meet some days ago, he as usual share the current news of the land, He told me that people in Haven are gathering to help the local goverment, so we traveled towards there, In the way we met Nonac, yes that goblin surely has improved his attitude towards the people and towns, I hope my conversations with him are at least a bit to blame for this improvement.

When we arrive to Haven, there was reunited a group of people, New adventurers I must say, I've meet my two old friends Abi amd Berak, I was raising my shield to withstand Abi teasing of the day. But she seem happy enought to ignore the knight for this moment. I've learned that she and Berak are a formal couple now, I gave their my blessing, Amoung the others was two man who make quite impresion on me that day. One of those was a spellcaster by name Timuty , and the other a warrior clad in a heavy armor that answered to the name of Chaynice Buld'umur, I was discussing the strategy of the mission with Berak and Abi, when she came singing by the road.

Sil'via In'Drasus made her entrance by the west door of the town, singing and showing everyone her stunnig beauty.

*Lance stops for a moment to think of what he has just wrote, he sighs and continue on his narrative *

She started to say hello to everyone in her particular happy way, then she aporaches me running saying " Hey Cutey four "

That statement really shocked me, four. aT that moment I was so suere about my theory about our last trip, she was just playong with me, but then she came by my side and took me by the arm, making me getting far for the group. Everyone seems to see this as normal, How deep she wanted to carry on this game.

On that evening I saw Sil'via flirting with almost every guy in the group, I learn a lot of intresting data I learned that This Chaynice is really resented at Toran and his followers, I've learned that he was also under the afecctive flirt game of Sil'via, I think He was the Cute Number 1, I've learned from him that his dad was a Paladin of Toran and his Mother a spellcaster, He despised me in the moment I introduced myself as a Toranite, he toldme straight that his father leave them to do Toran's will, so at his eyes we are a bunch of false predicatives. I tried to make him understand That no knight is perfect, we are still mortals, We can make mistakes even as a Toranites. He didn't ear me that time and just say something like yeah, right as long as you fight as sharp as you speak.

We made a camp for preprations, It took some time for us to get ready, and got organized, When I praying for te miracles of the day, I heard some noises by the road, when I came out I saw Sil'via in the floor all wet, And that man Timuty laughting at her, I stand in front of her and help her to raise, she was really angry at him, at the moment I stood in the middle of they both I thought That that was part of the Sil'via game with Timmoty, I tried to make some reason in the group, everyone was laughting. Sil'via throw me a killer glare, the rage seemed to fill her green eyes, She stand up turning her back to me, like if I had all the fault was mine, This event was tearing the group morale, I tried to fucus people onto the mission we had ahead of ourselves, Sil'via now throw me a killer glare. She was such childish. But I have undesrtanded then That Timuty was not one of her cuties, He attacked her on purpose.

Well, We entered to the cave , but the dission in the group made us fail at the very beggining of the cave, we were ambrushed by a gnoll war party, I stand in the way of one of the monsters and Sil'via, the next thing I remember is getting awake in the outside of the cave, I got badly wounded and fall while i was protecting Sil'via, Fortnately, everyone else seems to be  fine. I got up of the tent I was and  see Timuty right there, He was taking care of my condition, the whole group was there waiting and resting, He greet me and show his concern about my condition, I was almost full restored surely thanks to the healing cares of some member of the group.

After some time, the group seemed decided to disband, I stopped Timuty, And watching Sil'via there still furious, I ask him to apologize to her, the next minute was so hectic , he refused to do it, because he said she deserved that. Sil' then lost her temper, And raises with her sword at hand ready to attack, in aminute Timuty started to attack everyone with magics to contain, eventually he dissapear, Saying he was not the one to blame, that he has done anything wrong. He also said that he was not affraid of her neither her father.  And then he left invisible letting a Sil'lvia really hurt in her pride, I came near her and offered my help, but she didn't gave me time to anything. When she saw me she refused my help, and began to run criing to the outside of the town. Asking for being alone.

I started to run but she was really fast, I lost her track near Hlint, I asked to the people in town, and They indicated me that a girl with her description had been seen in the road towards Fort Llast. so I was on her track, after some time I was in the goblin wastelands where some mercahnts instructed me about a girl running thru the Silkwoods, I'll move to the deeps of the Silkwood. Surely that day Toran was my guide because I saw Sil'via's Trail as the best of the trackers, She seems to have some experience in the forest, she refuged near the temple of Folian, she was devasted.

I asked her permision to sit near her, she needed help, It kills me to remember her eyes at that moment, We spoke about this Timuty, she tell me a lot of things about her family, she said that we must make him pay or else her dad will kill Timuty, she told me that her dad once killed a whole town he alone, I lend her my shoulder to cry, I convinced her that the best way to resolve this case is the lawful way, We need to learn to forgive, She said that she would press charges, She was worried also for her friend Abi, in the exchanges of words Sil'via was resented to her for not backing her up. I lend her my hand and hug her so we can continue our journey, Now I owe her a dinner. I escort her near Hlint to rest, She said that she must go and speak to Abi. After some more words she gave a warm smile, and kissed me again in the cheek.

So she leave that day, with a smile I will remember for long time. a smile I help to make. Now I understand her she's not playing with me, she doesn't know what she want, like if she had a deep need of attention. I must take care of her, she is dangerous to herself.

Praised Toran, that help me understand that good , doesn't always come in form of Justice or thriump over evil, but sometimes in giving the right words to person who needs them.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 30, 2007, 11:05:31 AM
Toran be praised.- Help us against the evil we cannot see.

Toran be priased, Lance said as finish with his prayers for the night.

From Lance's Stargazer's Pen and quill :

Toran be praised, Today I did my rounds in the road, The temple has been very busy with the werewolves spreaded latelly in th woods, a lot of sows and some people has been

lost, Sister Clarissa is doing her best in this matter, of that I've heard, I ven't seen her in a while also, the temple resourses are quite at their limits, I'm still giving the little money I

can to help mantain the temple, And the rounds are getting hard day by day, The ambrushes of the Red Light goblins continue,  and I have the honor of being the only knight

assigned to that area, I must strive to make the best work I can. Fortunattely , there are a lot adventurers that present an ocasional help.

I was just about the temple when I meet a Rofirenite priest, that answered to the name of Krell Himmel, he presented himsel asaKnight of the Wyirm, and he said he was traveling

the zone searcing to Uphold the law. We traveled for some time together as I do my patrols, we spoke abot law , he seems to be a very determintaded person, It's good to have

help here, in the past It washelpful to have Rofirenites in the zone.

I left him near Hlint as he continued his travelers and I go back to my rounds.

Later dear Jornal I've meet some people near Hlint, this was really strange , I meet two travelers there, excuseme if I don't remember the name of one of them, he seems to be like

a giant, standing like seven feet, and the other a young lady by name Ayana, Later in that evening arrived also more people, An elven lady by name Iellwen, that seem to make

notes about everything., later that day I learned that she was studiing the customs an getting knowledge in human lands, quite a task I ust say, since she seems to be really

naive in or way of living, also with her was another woodsman, very mysterious. And Chaynice also showed up later

Some time after those two arrived, Si'lvia came into the town, running wild as usual, She ran towards me and held my hand, sayiing that she needed my help, To say the truth I

don't remember what did she said, the moment she toch me, I was assaulted by a quick succesion of Images, of war, death and suffering, I step back for the pain, Sil'via was

surprised, I asked her what was happening, and explained her what did I saw, she seems sad to hear that, and said  -So you see it too?- She did not want to explain that in those

moments. And sheand thhe rest of the group starting to move towards Haven, There she explained us, I 'm really sad to hear that Sil'via is under a dire curse, She has checked

with sme tempes, and no one could help her till the date, she spoke that in her visions there are also a white wizard and a Inn, I pray to Toran, that more info would be revealed so

we can help her, At this point another traveler showed up, his name is Jaigan , who seems to knew Sil'via and Chaynice, he also was shocked to hear the news about the curse.

she explained us that some time ago while traveling with a group, their group meet a Lich and some shadows, the ich alone is problem enoughtm It'sa very powerful Undead born

from ambiton and Dark Magics, The lich absorbed the two shadows, and then touched Sil'via with a shadow staff, Then the lich disappeared and thegroup become attacked by a

horde of Undeads those fall easily acord to Sil'via's Words. I came near Sil'via yo show her my support, Up to that time i Had not noticed I was being carefully observed in a not

very polite way by the mysterious woodsman that was with Iellwen, Then he approached Sil'via and started to speak with her in elven, Well I was now wofficially out of the

conversation, I thoughat that moment I was in minutes to know another one of Sil'via cuties, but much to my surprise, Sil'via introcuced this man to me as Elgon In'Drasus, He is

her brother, I presented him my respects and also introduced me, he dedicated me a killer glare, and say something like "Nice to meet you, now please stay away from my

sister". Sil'via reacted with a laught, She explained that Elgon was an overprotective brother, she said also that Ayana , was also her sister, She have told me in the past that she

has another brother who is also a Toranite, wuth those two there that make 4 brothers. Quite a Family.

Afer this te group dissbanded, But I needed to settle things straight for Once, I spoke to Elgon before they leave, He said that he must take care of her Sister and Sil'via doens't know how to take care of herself, well at that point I say to him that I'm up to no harm, I'm a knight in servce of Toran And I wanted ro protect her, just that. For a moment his eyes  sparkle with disteust, but I offered my hand to him, he made a strong grasp, and we promised to take care of her, and said it would be good to me to take care of her.... a silent but ...materialized in the air. Then we mover north and In the lake Allun One of out group was attacked by one deer, Jaigan defended himself, grantinfg to the animal a quick and painless death. Ayana was shocked by this, and started fighting and blaming Sil'via for this "attrocity" and thern this lady beguin to run criing., now I know that this is maybe a family custom, Sil'via said Goodbyr to me with quick kiss on the cheek, and those two began to run after Ayana.

I spend the rest of the evenig with Chaynice, and well now we're good friends, i hope One day he'll learn to forgive his dad, and feel the embrace of toran Again, he seems like a quite decent folk, but the hatred in his life blinds him for the teachinsg of the great leader.

Praised be Toran... To you I ask for help.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 01, 2008, 01:39:14 PM
Toran be praised..that help to me understand the meaning of the family and leads us to truth.

*From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen *

A day has passed since my last encounter with the InDrassus famly, My travels to Hempstead are becoming more often, And well  I enjoy this because it let me help people amoung the way, It's a shame there are no place to do my tailoring near Hlint, travel to hempstead takes a long road, but this travels have his rewards, It's good to see how this city prosper, also I've made really good friends that live there.

Near the cotton farm, I meet with Iellwen, and other travelers, we start speaking about ourselves, i'm rallyamused about this lady comments, she speak is thoughts in a vry direct fashion, she is still learning about the customs of our people, but it's fun to hear common things from another point of view. Well it was fun until she started to say I like Sil'via for a couple, he even called me to be Sil'via's Lover boy, that was outrageous, I explained to her I help Sil'via because she needs help, That she is just a good friend of mine but before that, alady in distress, She write every thing I said in a traveling notebook she carries everywhere, She explained us that she is writing and drawing everything that could provide knowledge. She started to make a quick sketch of me in my shining armor as she described, After some time, she said. " Oh I almost forgot to write that Lance likes one of the sisters ". Well I guess it can be helped when this lady believes something, it's quite hard to dissuade her.

I said farewell to them as I moved towards the city, The temple needed some cloaks for pilgrims, so I went to the crafthall to perform my duty and make some cloaks, this will help the temples saing some resourses, those are vital this days, with the werewolves roaming the region, I would hope to be stronger, so the temple could consider me for such important endevour as that, but I must obbey and fulfill my duty, a chain is broken by the weakest link, so i must trrain hard and follow my superior orders, So they could do theit work much in an appropiate way.

When I arrived to the crafthall, I meet with Sil'via and her brother Elgon, they were speaking with another lady, in a very familiar way, I approached to say hello to them, The moment Sil'via saw me, well it seems like I saw the sun shinning.

*Lance stops suddenly a the moment he realized what he has writed , Then smiling he erased the last line and start over. *

When I arrived to the crafthall, I meet with Sil'via and her brother Elgon, they were speaking with another lady, in a very familiar way, I approached to say hello to them, The moment Sil'via saw me, she greet me and introduced the lady, as her Sister Huntamara In' Drasus. Well that's it with her they're five children of that half elf, Wow, I queston myself how can they have such a family, Huntamara seems aquite Mysterious lady, I must tell this family have the bothersome custom of speaking amoung them in elvish, letting me out of that conversation, I've started to learn some words from those conversation, but I'm still not sure about their meaning. Huntamara was very worried about the vision Sil is suffering, or at least that was what I understand watching their moves and gestures, spoken language did not help.

When we were in this conversation a stranger ran into the hall, He seems hurt in bad way, and all sweating and excited, claiming for help, he introducedhimself as a Bard of some reputaton, he told us that the city was invaded by raiders, I did not get close to him since elgon was already tending his wounds, just listening, The ministrel said that a crowded group has attacked him wafterone of his performs, and that they have stolen his harp, We moved fast as Justice to meet with the thieves, we sarch for the whole city, un our way we meet again with Iellwen, she seems to be quite close to Elgon.

*A little smile draws on Lancce's face *

Father please you must help me to understand the relation of this family, so  I can help them better, Sil'via was really angry at this woman, making all in her power to make her away from him , I was amised at this turn of events, I feel sorry for Elgon, Sil'via was paying him back now being overprotective, I guess they love so much, Well iguess i wll never understand that because I have no natural brothers, And by this experience, I thank Toran for that. Well I must say that Sil'via was really ed at Iellween for being with her brother.

We encountered a lady near the sewers, who tell us that the thieves have entered to a sewer that was near that point , this lady was really scared, We had a hard time to persuade her to help us.

Finally we went down to the sewers, Huntamara seems to know this place so I let her to lead the expediton, after some time we meet with some goons near the entrance, they as usulay their kind are, did not speak, they started to attack us at sight, we made a short work on them, Huntamarainsisted in lettino at least one of them alive, unfortunately, that proved very difficult, they were quite capable of killing any of our group if the chance arises. And some of us ended bad that fight, we were badly injured, elgon and I started to do the healing. Then we stoped for a moment to gather strenght.

We found a rope that imerses in some dirty water.I entered the water, but someting hitme inthe stomach, all got ark and clouded. when I awoke I thought I was in heaven, I saw an Angel that had come for me, Well, that was my first impesion, Sil was there she reached me before I got out of air, she saved me, I was speechless. This is not supposed to be that way, she smiles at me, a while she raises and tried the rope her self , I got ready and followed them This time I did it without the armor, So it made it much easier.

*Lance stop at once, when he finished the writting, He doubted in erasing that, but finally he let it that way, *

- I just called her an Angel, and I spoke of her as Sil , May Ielwen has the reason with her -  he moed his head to both sides and got an splash of cold water in his face - this is not happening. -

We arrived to the other extreme of the pond, And Huntamara moved stalty for scouting, we found a group of 5 man, and they were waiting for some other group to sell the harp, at this point we understood that the harp has some other propieties, not just his worth in true, We make an aproach and strike them in the name of Justice, those people were blackmarketers.

At the end of the day , we got the harp back and escape the same way we entered, Again I almos got drowned, and again Sil'via saved me, I don't like this to happen.

Sil'via was really ed also for the presence of Iellween with Elgon, I spoke to sil'via and tried to calmeher down, she was ed because Iellwen don't think to much before she expresses, and sil thought she has no tights to judge her or her family, Well, family ties ae hard to broke.

After we go out of the sewer, i approached to Elgon to speak to him privately, he seemed shocked of what I was about to speak with him, he still see me with distrust, I explained in my pont of view, that Sil is just getting revenge at him for his overprotecive beheavior, I tell him that they must talk the whole situation, Adn try to loose his grasp of sila bit, she is also an adult woman, and is quite competent to take care of herself, and when real threat appears , then is whrn we must must act, not before.

he seems to start thinking in my words, and smiles at me, a bit shocked still I was the one who told this, His face changed, and nod politely to me, so we entered the crafthall and Huntamara was speaking to the ministrel giving him his harp.

He left smiling, and very thankful,

We spend some time berfore I say goodbye to them. I feel very well with this family, sil makes me fell very useful, and now I owe her my life twice.

*Lance stoped again and was surprised he was criing he touches in his check and feel the wet tear,*

Praised be Toran, don't let me fail, don't let me commit this, please, I'm bound to duty, and this happiness I'm feeling is no good sign, Please grant me your wisdom.....

Toran be praised, Toran be praised, Toran be praised.........

*And so he prayed untill he fall sleep tired *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 03, 2008, 11:13:03 PM
Praised Toran... That let your knights stand against injustice, and carry peace and hope.

* From Lance Stargazer's quill and Pen *

Toran is with me , and I'm his hands.

Today I traveled to Hempstead again, much to my surprise there was a great conmotion in the city, the guards were in the move, clming down the people, near the tribute of Alluriel , I hurried to the point where the crowd was still gathered, I mad my way amoung the people, when I fianlly arrive to the center I saw Chaynice some other people face to face against Krell Himmel, the Rofirenite priest I've meet near Hlint.

The situation was out of cotrol they were yelling at each other, in the very gates of the Angel's Guild, with weapons on hand, yelling and threatening. After some moments I learned that Krell was there to arrest Sil'via, under the charges of being possesed by an evil force, I was about to act but then I noticed tha there was another man behind Krell, another Advebturer I've seen in the past, he was known as Fritz, and he was really insistent in the fact that Sil'via is possesed and must be punished by that crime, I learned that this Fritz and Krell had chased Sil'via all the way from Fort Velh, and that they attacked her for resisting the arrest. Well that did not sound well, My duty was to truth, and if is the thruth that Sil'via was under a dire curse, it was not her fault, and she may not be punished for that.

I spoke to Krell triing to get reason into him, but he's a stern man, I ask him to report this case to the temple so we can solve this with the counsel of the high priests, we must ahere to their wisdom, we're speaking about somemajor here, and Sil'via is no threat, Fritz insisted that she must die to prevent infection or possesions advance any further. He told me that he's going to press charges against Chaynice, my friend can be such a fool when womans are involved, he threaten Krell of killing him, not very wise to threathen a Rofirenite, I must speak to him, because what he did is wrong, but I must say that he did in behalf of defending Sil'via, And Krell was a bit out of reason right there, in his so proclamied duty and the discusion we were spreading chaos and distrust in the people of Hempstead. I finally persuade both parties to get away one of the other, I walked along with Krell and Fritz hearing of his pleas, I spoke in behalf of Sil'via, with all this curse upon her, she needs all the help she can get, and that the law must be followed to the spiit of it not to his letter, Laws existed  for helping society to stand togheter and help the whole society to get better, not to punish everyone who seems to be wrong, This is what Toran has teached me.

I say Farewell to Krell and Fritz and ran towards the guild with only Sil in mind, I needed to see how is she doing, at was pretty sure she may not find that last events quite pleasurable nor helping. When I came near the Guild the crowd was starting to disband, and amoung them I saw her, my heart was pierced at that moment, Jaelle Thornwood was there helping Sil'via thje whole time, Now that the people were disbanding she was leaving also, I ran after her calling her, she seems to be in real hurry, she turn her face at me, and I see joy and sadness in both of them, I asked to stay to speak I was shocked by finding her here, I need to ask her if she  was still intrested in me, at that moment I saw the thruth, sil'via needs me at that moment, the words that spoke Iellwen sounds hard in my head, but I feel guilty for Jaelle. She said a fast hello and staring move again, I asked her to stay, I really need to speak with her, moe than two months have passed since the last time I had her ion sight, But she said that she was in hurry, she cannot stay, I opened my backpack and unfold the dress I've made to her, She opened wide her eyes when she saw it, then I gave it to her, She was speechless after this, I saw sadness in her eyes to go deeper, and smiling said. " Thank you Lance, it's beatiful, I'm really sorry I cannot stay, let's meet in some other time and place, I must go " And so she dissapeared in the Hempsteadian crowd. I walk back towards the guild, without knowing how will this enconter will change my life in the next hours. Jaelle pick the worst time to come back, this was a painful encounter, but it was not until late that I feel the pain in my heart.

When I arrived at the Guild, Sil was near the entrace weeping all over the floor, she ask me to not come near, also there was Chaynice, Jaigan and Spider, Suil wa in the worst state since I have meet her, She was in the floor weeping with her sight lost, and rocking into herself, speaking about the images tormenting her, Chaynice gave her a some clothes, to change , her clothes were ripped apart by a blade, then It was the truth, Krell or Fritz atacked her, that must be reported to the temple,  they abused authority, and this will help the case of Chaynice. Then after some moments Sil stand and began to say she needed to go somewhere, and began to walk outside the Guild, We followed her, at that time I was really worried.

Well we ended traveling to Leringard, I took care of Sil'via at her room door for the whole trip, when we arrived she started to walk slowly, like if she was draming, and so she walked thru the city until we arrive to the Lerigard In and Arms, There we were greted by the hostess Kali, and another gentleman whose name eludes my memory at this point, Then he appeared , a wizard clad in white robes by name Meradryn, He was a proud man , he denied his help up to this point, but at least he seemed concerned.

Sil'bvia was in a rallyu bad shape, I spoke to her but she did not understood anything I said. But I knew, I just knew She noticed I was with her, she was sitting near the fire place with her sight lost, meanwhile the wizsard left promising that he will tried to stop the nest step of the lich plans,  The wizard did say that we cannot do anything for her at this time, but in time chance will arise to stop this great evil, he left us only with this promise.

I spend the evening taking care of Sil, Why Toran is allowing her to suffer this way, I started to sing to her that song she performed when we meet near Hempstead, She started Humming it back at me, And for a moment I saw inher eyes the hope and happines that in that moment was absent. I spend the rest odf the Evning with her, until her family come to see her, Elgn saw me in a very worried way, And start speaking and criing at Sil'via state, I keep silence and respected his pain.

The hostess of the Inn make acomodations for Sil'via free of charges, I left that night with my soul sunken in deep sadness, I left her in a calm sleep, I promised her to come back and see her.

Father tell me, why ? If the love is sucha beautiful feeling why I do feel wrong about this, I'm clouded and confused, Is this a signal that I'm failing to my duty, or to your Ideal.

*Lance looked around in his room as if he was waiting for an answer, after some time he just put his eyes in his journal again, and after a long time meditating and reading what he just wrote, continued with it *

Now I msut confess I think I'm falling in love with her, but she seems not yet prepared for that, Why did I fell for her, she is a good person, caring and good, but she is not dissiplined, Rash, impulsive and Inmature, What is happening to me. I must let this thougths Go away, and focus on helping her, In the end she may end with Chaynice or someone else, then When she's free of this curse everything will go back to Normal, Well, I must speak to Jaelle as soon as I can.

Toran be praised. Give resilance to my heart, and iron will to my mind so I can do the right you aspire for this world. Let my sword and my words be your tools.

* Lance closes his journal and spend the whole night in meditation and praying *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 08, 2008, 11:11:51 PM
Toran be praised... Of the light at the end of the Tunnel.

*From Lance Stargazer's Pen and quill *

Today I woke in the room I rented in Port Hempstead, I felt strange to wake in another place than the Temple, I usally don't stay outside Fort Llast, but this time I need to perform some duties, also I have to go back to See if Sil'via was improving,  and bby boat I cold do both things, I ran some errands in the city, helping some people with indications, It was over noon, whem I walked into the Central square of Eagle Memorial, I was heading towards the docks, but then I see a group adventurers reunited at the bench, I was about to say a quick hello to everyone , when I heard her laughter, Sil'via was there playing and laughting, My soul filled with happiness as I saw her happy again, For a moment I had a rash impulse to run and hug her, but that would not be appropiate, so I calmed down while I came near, Right in that moment I see Elgon too, watching closely at his sister, Well I guess habits are hard to break, When I came near, Sil'via smiled and greeted me as Usual, "Hello Cuty" she said to me, but keep her distance, and beguin to continue on her talking, The group was planning a travel towards Krenshin, I travel along to care about Sil'via I have put the temple under the knowledge of her possesion, and I must observe her progress on that, there's also a quite pleasurable company, I enjoy a lot speaking with her.

*Lance stops at his writing and observe the fire in the camp that give him light and heat, and return to his weittings after a sigh*

Once we arrived Elgon and Sil'via starting to joke at each other, Sil'via lied down and started to make an Angel in the snow, with her body, Elgon started to speak to her sister in a strange way, like reclaiming, And Sil'via answered in the same way, I was looking and tried to put some peace beetween them. They looked at my way at the same time and started to laugh, and they then explained to me they were joking, I did not understand that siblings relation and I expressed that way.

Then something really weird happened, a lady who was traveling with us jumped at me and hugged me, putting her head agaist my shoulder meanwhile she said , Oh sweetie, just for today I'll be your big sister. I did not understand at that moment what was ahappening I was worried about this lady, some affliction had affected, then I saw Sil'via's face, She was really mad, the rage showed in her beatiful eyes glaring at us, then he turned her back to us and start walking off: I put my "new sister " in the floor with a genle smile , she has a mischievous look upon me I must say, like if she was having a great time, As we walked off into the Wolverine camp, I introduced myself to my "sister", her answer was really amazing , Seh said Oh My, My brother is a toranite, great, I'm Izzy Stargazer then broder Glad to meet you and in a way she imitate the sligh bow I made in my introduction. I was shocked by this... But I did  not notice at that time that Sil was even more shocked, She moved away and Rode over Elgon as he change shapechanged into a bear, And from that moment she seem to do all in her power to ignore me.

Well the travel was a good one, We face giants and Kobolds, and Sil was as cold as the weather. This behavior has nothinng logical, I have done nothing wrong to her, After some travel she asked me to use a skinning knife on a fallen wolf, unfortunately I have given my knife to a traveler in need of it , so I ended owing her another dinner.

We traveled for some hours getting being entretained by the songs of Sil'via and another Fellow Bard by name Flynn De Balard, they make the gray cold to be a bit warmer and the travel more confortable.

Finally we made back to the Wolverine Camp, and Then I asked Sil'via what happened to her, She said she was I angry about that woman, seh asked me why did I hugged her, At that moment I explained to her , that I have not done such Thing, she hugged me, but Sil'via was closed to reason in her head it was the same, thanks to the soothing words of Flynn, Silvia understood that nothing of that was my fault, and we leave towards hempstead, once there, we bid outr farewell to everyone and I started my walk towards Llast, I stayed in a Camp for the night , tomorrow I'll continue on my travel towards the temple, But now I'm happy to repport that Sil'via is fine now, she is still being haunted by the visions, but she is showing great will power enduring it.

*Lance took a moment to breathe, then continue on his writtings*

Sil'via also teached me another couple elven words, At least in there I think I'm going to an end with her, I tried to undesrtand her reaction to my Sister. I think she was a bit Jelauos, but why ?, I don't want to think She loves me, that can't be, and also I must purge this feeling from my heart, she is dire need of help, Not To think  of Romance , and by her beheavior of course not with a Toranite. I must ask her, but I'm, pretty sure there must be a logical explanation about this

Toran be praised in your wisdom, give me resilence to Uphold what is true, And clear in my mind to unveil such truth.

*Lance closes his Journal, and do a small pray before he falls sleep with a wide smile on his face, sleeping well for first night in some weeks*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 08, 2008, 11:26:03 PM
Praised Toran...

*Lance said asking his god for enlightment before he open the old book he keeps since the last time he saw his mentor, An old brown covered book by Title "Thougths about Chivalry By Linus Swordshiner"*

* So Lance Stargazer read in the old book he trasures ... *

The knight must remain pure on his heart and deeds because such purity is the his best weapon against corruption that polutes the world, A knight must be noble an true to his words, he must think twice before act, and use the words first and the sword last, Act swift in the name of justice , but don't allow this a rash beheavior that brings chaos nor injustice, One of the most common faces of evil is sometimes virtue, the knight must learn to look with his heart and mind thru this disguise, a endevour only a true knight could achieve if he has faith as a shield.

Who need most of a Knight. A land invaded by raiders, or a litle girl with no parents. The answer of this is both, each in a particular way and perspective, The raiders will cause a great pain to a land and destroy goods and material matters, a knight must stand fast to defend the village and help them to stand defense for themselves, putting his life on the edge if it's needed, but in time the raids will be over, So we must know that the damage done to the village will pass soon and in time it will restored. The girl will need help of the Knight in a very diferent way, She has no inmediate physical threath, is her soul who is in danger, The knight must help her to not falling in madness and evil, The knight must teaches her and helping her into a good way of living, know this well Knight of Toran, that our god is good and just, he never refuses help to those who look at him. So the temple could help in this matter, The knight must help her to understand the joy of helping others, So she needed the help in a deeper way than then village, because if the soul of the girl is lost, it will be hard to recover it...

* Lance Closes his book * Linus be in peace with Toran....

Toran be praised. Show me the way, give me strenght in time of war and wisdom in time of peace so your knight could do your will.

*Stands smiling and after packing his goods in his pack, walks steadfast towards the road *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 12, 2008, 12:21:04 AM
Toran be praised... Of truth and Love

The Journal stand open besides a sleeping and smiling Lance Stargazer

*From Lance Stargazer's Pen and quill *

Today I feel ease in my soul

My day started in Fort Llast temple, we held a ceremony for some pilgims that arrived from Hempstead, A lot of people reunited prainsg and praying for Vigilance and guidance, Toran was amoung us , I can feel it in the air, I felt stronger and blessed this day. The ceremony started with the first beam of the sun and ended with a grat hymn to Justice at Noon. I left the town and head towards the road again, Ready to help all im my way, It has been a while since I saw Sil'via In'Drasus, I hope she's doing fine with that curse, but she is strong and have a grat family taking care of her, Knowing all this can't help to feel some worry for her, I know in a way that she need help and guidance, and well I want to help her, and let Toran help her also. Togheter nothing can stand against us, nor lich , nor curse, nor evil.

My patrol went with no nevelties, but an ocasional ambrush party of the red lights, those creatures must be up to something, but nothing has been revelaed yet, I must stand vigilant and ready to show any evil the swift Justice of Toran.

After some time in the road, I meet some people in the campsite near Hlint, After some moments I greet everyone, but then I felt a sting in my heart, I realizaed that Jaelle was there speaking with Chaynice, amoung the travelers was also Jaigan  lady Randy Tynne, that elven lady priest of the runner, I must be wary of that woman, she is no current threat to us at this point, Those people are just crazay, thinking about us as controlers because see us a cancer to their beloved nature. I must say that she is a very nice person to all no Toranites, I should have know, since she was very kind to me when we first meet some time ago , well it lasted only hours until she learned I'm a Toranite, After that she has made all in his power to show that her tonge is sharper than her spear. I felt some anger at this time, and I admit it was not a pleasurable feeling, I had enough of this rebel chaos-lover priest, they only disguise chaos as freedom, after some time a pup came runing to the camp, It was strange the pup seemed to have been chased, I stand up an moved towards the road to check if there are some people who was in need of help, Chaynice and Jaelle seemed to enjoy a lot their shared company.

Well I must say That Jaelle was happy to see me and greet me witha grat Smile and the words Irrace Lance, later that day I learned that trhe word Irrace means Hello, or a kind of greeting, I was surprised that she started to speak of me in high standing, saying that my work as a tailor was exquisite, Randy was shocked that she and I carry well enough, After seeing her with Chaynice I undesrtand that she was no longer intrested in me, That free my soul from a burden, I needed to speak to her, because it would be unfair for her to wait for me, when I have no other feelings that a true friendship for her, Even after this easy my soul, I still was a bbit annoyed at the situation, Randy started to speak of the dog and said that she will give him a place to call home, she called Omaa, or something like that, She started to explain her faith to the group, saying that she will give him a place to call home as long as the puppy wanted, and then she attacked again, saying that she will not try to steal the freedom form it. Lies all of those, she was keeping her for personal pleasure and acted the same way as anyother person woluld havingthe "ownership" of a Dog. I stand anjd walk to the road waiting for some space to think, I stand guard and let Chaynice take a rest for the guard.

After some time Jaelle came near me from behind and spoke to me, She was sensible enough to see my uneasiness in the group and ask me in a sweet voice " what's happening to you?, You're not just standing guard? "She was sensible enough to notice it, I answered that I needed to speak to her in private, at any time she will dispossed , It was importan to me.

After some time we entered to thetown of Hlint near the pond, I made the time to speak to her, Of my.., feelings and all the trounblesome times I had after meeting her, I tell her that I cannot at that time be the knight that fight for Her, since Sil'via was in adire need ; I said to her that I'll fight for her because she needed all the help she could get, Then the question came, She ask me if I love her.

That' was a dire question againsta this knight, I know Sil'via have been kinfd to me, flirting and all, but that's was a difeerent , she only need some atention I would not think in romance with her , right now, Even under the knowledge that she'll never fall for a Toranite, so I answered to Jaelle in the beast way I could, the truth.-

I told her That I might love her, but that was not the first motive to help her, she was in a dire need, And also she has a lot of better suitors that will fullfill her character, but even ion that case, she was under the close eye of people who would like to harm her, like Krell and that lich. She smiled at me and tok my hand in an understandin gesture. Then she smiled at me, saying , you're a good man Lance, An don't worry I will not steal you form that mysterious woman. I told her that was not my intent to keep in secret her name and then I told her I'll fight for Sil'via In 'Drasus.

Once we had this settled we came back to the group and Jaelle came back and Sit beside Chaynice dedicating him all her attentions, I was happy to see that Jaelle has spoken the truth, she not intrested in me, I spend some time standing guard in the road searchig for more indices of the puppy former owners, but with no luck.

I came back to the campsite to say Good bay to everyone, Chaynice and Jaelle looked a t me in afunny way i must said, But I left them mostly because I had not the intention to stand Randy's words when there are wrongs to righted in other places. I left them and start traveling back  to Fort Llast, feeling lighter in spirit.

Father, I hope you would be proud of Me, I hope someday to find a virtuous woman and have a family, like you, but my duty to Toran comes first, and fistrst of all.

Toran be praised that allowed me to find clarity of toughts, and let us know the wonderful feeling of helping others
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 15, 2008, 01:43:43 AM
Toran be praised... Of Deception and Love

*From Lance stargazer quill and Pen*

Toran Be praised To you this knight ask for guidance, since Lie has fallen upon my name and in away by my fault, i have been prideful and that is hurting people I care for. Today was an awful day, For Chaynice, Sil'va and myself.

I woke up in the morning and prayed with my brothers, I helped in the morning service, and make some sword practice in the outside of the town, I pollished my armor, And moved towards Hlint, I needed to check on the poor Arthur, and help that fine old lady Clara with some endevor she needed, She has asked me to come at her house, when I arrived there she told me that her kitty was lost again, she said that "Whiskers" liked to be near the red light caves, She ask me to bring it if I saw him in my patrols, This lady lives only with her cat, and it's her only reason to live, I had to put some effort in finding him.

I started my travel in the road , when I was atacked by one of ther scouts, Toran guides my sword and shield to overcome the  war party, at the least moment Chaynice showed up training as he heard the noise of combat, he was a bit disapointed when he saw me strike down the last of the attackers by Toran's Might.

I saluted My brother in arms, and he nods in agreement with a smile, he asked me abuout my presence in the place, I explained him again of my patrols and the lost kitten, he told me he needed to go into the cave to retrieve something really important to him, I gladly offered my help in his endevour.

We moved fast into the cave, The first levels don't change much too often, soe we made with ease until the entrace to the third, there we saw a goblin shaman and his elite warriors in middle of a ritual , they had like 10 cats traped in some rustic cages, we stormed the place fighting with grat courage and skill, finally beaten the elitte guard of the Shaman, unfortunately he used the fray to hide and run in the lower tunnels, Chaynce and I destroyed the ritual preparations, ]I spilled some holy water upon the place whwere the runics where and ask Toran to channel some energy positive upon this place, Meanwhile I finish with this Chaynice ventured into the entrace of the third level to check if reinforcements for the  dire creatures come, As we where picking all the cats in the cages we started to move to the exit.

chaynice was up to this time a bit serious, and after some minutes on our way to surface he started to speak to me, And said " Lance I want to congratulate you, I just heard and I'm pretty hapy for you ". At this point I tougth he was soeaking of the succesfull mission we just finished, I answered, " Brother, I think there are better places for that than this, we sholud speak in the surface ". After some minutes more, Chaynice left the group towards a cave, he said that needed some ingredients dfor one of his spells and thar he'll see me in the campfire, then he started to chant some arcane words and vanish from sight. I did not agree with his procedings, but there was not much I could do to prevent him of do his will, I moved towards the exit at fast pace.

Once in the outside I traveled to lady Clara's house with all those kittens, She was amazed at seeing me with all those cats, she moves towards me and picka  cat from the crowd hugging him a as a careful mother, and criing of Joy, well seh felt so happy that she decided to take care of the rest of the kitens, finding them a cozy place to call home. She offered some trues for the help, I tell her that there's no need of such thing, Finaly she offered a glass of fresh lemonade, Ia ccepted it for the sake of courtesy, and then took my leave, she said that if I don't accept her money , she 'l donate to the Temple in her next visit. I walked towards the exit of Hlint, as the sun was hidind behind the mountains.

It walked toiwards the campsite as I had promised to Chaynce, When I arrived there, he was waiting there with some rations and juice, I came near the fire, and before I could do anything he stands and Smiling took my hand in a strong grasp , putting his other arm in the shoulder of my armor, and with a great smile said again.

" Lance, congratulations, I just heard of it and I'm quite happy for you both, I'm pretty sure you'll be happy with Sil" I was shocked at this revelation, and as he saw my face he reactioned so confused, in some minutes he explained that he has just learned That Sil'via and I were coupling, and he wanted to say congratulations, I was about to right that wrong, but at this time I heard a voice in my back, the angry voice of Sil'via yelling with some hatred " YOU ".

I turned my face t her, and move near her to greet her, but she with ice in her eyes said "No, keep your distance, I don't want to be near you, how could you did this to me Lance?" Now I was shocked, she was blaming me for something I had not even knowledge, To make things Worse Chaynice at this point just had finished in giving to her his congratulations, Sil'via throw him a killer glare.

I explained to both of them I had no idea of this gossip, Sil'via seems relly hurt at this matter, At this moment she said that she's in love with noone, and she 's not searching to be, Well not at this time she corrected hersel, She explain us that she still was in love with a former boyfriend named Christian who left her some time ago, but she didn't know how to react, she explained us that she was flirting with everyone in hope to forget Christian, but now she said she was so confused, because she don't know how to feel about us, Chaynce then spoke of the last time I saw her and lady Jaelle.

It pains me to write down every detail that happened that night, I only write that sil'via was mad aat Chaynce because he and Jaelle spend te night together, Chaynice explained to Sil'via that they slept in separate rooms, I do believe Chaynce, but I msut admit his attitude is not helping him to support his words, he seemed nervous, eventually he said to Sil'via that he was tired of this, and was about to leave, She said that he don't want to suffer this, that he was just tiing to be nice and congratulate, and left us. Sil'via wa really shocked for this, I stand there with no idea of what to do, After a moment  I aproached to Silvia, and offered a apologize to her, I explained that I had spoken to Jaelle as I have told to her, and that all this was a great misundrestanding.

I don't know what happened at that moment, I poke with my heart to her, I said that I maight love her, and I will help her, but I will not wxpect nothing in exchange, I'll respect her descicion and gave her time to think about herself, Adn I'll try to fix all the damage this gossip has done to everyone. She said that she don't know what to say, she don't know what to feel, I explain her that I wanted the best for her, Isaid to her ta we must focus in removing the curse cast on her, And she agreed. She soften her expresiion once we spoke, I ask her if she remember what happened in Leringard, she nodded and smiled to me.

We then leave the campfire , we meet Chaynce in the raod latter as we were traveling towards Hlint, I escorted her to the entrace of the town, for rest, and I said goodbye to her, I ask her for a meeting with her father, I have to explain to him all this misunderstanding and vouch for her to her family.

We said goodbye with a deep sadness I must said, I must put my best effort on Fixing the damage done.

I taveled for some hours until I arrive to the temple and here I am, writing this under the light of a candle, Now I cannot sleep but I must, tomorrow my true test will start, In fixing the wrongs of the world and the shame of the ones I care For.

Toran Be praised .... show me the way.. Let the truth triumph by my deeds and words.

* Lance closes his Journal *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 21, 2008, 02:01:59 PM
Toran be praised ... OF words and Wisdom.

*From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen*

Toran be praised tha Channels your wisdom thry those you love.

Is hard to fight an enemy hidden, and even harder when this enemy has no physical form, but to fight falsehood is what a knight must do.

Today I made some quick endevurs in the temple and make a quick prpaations for a travel to Homestrad, I needed to start fixing that gossip, and speaking to those near Sil'via would be the best coutse of action.

The whole trip was very desperating, I prayed to Toran all along the way to calm myself and after few hours I see the buildings of Homestead, When I arrived to the Crimson eagle memorial, I started to look for familar faces, but much to my surprised I enconter one Idid not expect.

Near the central point, sitting near some flowers was she, Sister Clarissa, I aproached to her to show her my respects, She nodded in respect also, she seemed a bit tired, And of coutse she must be, She is one of the most respected members of our order, A lot of people comes to her and ask for help, and she always gladly answer as long is a just cause.

She asked me about my travels, And I answered the truth about my life, I must say this was driven me mad, And no that I think about it, I was abit confusing in all my way to expainthe situation to her, nevertheless she seemed to understand the problem and gave me a warm smile, and gestures to sit in the bench beside her, I  obbey.

She spoke of the truthof Toran and bring a lot of clarity to my soul, she saw my concern in the faith and the risk I'm of falling from grace, she said that I will in the end make the final desicion, and that I must trust Toran to guide my heart, because One never must forget that our heart belongs in first place to Toran, and that must never change, she said that there could be a place for another one in my heart, but that one must onderstand and agree tha always ill be in second place, And that one are Toranite first a and a man later, She said i must think in long term about love, That i must not get dazzed by first impressions, She confided me that she has rejected four suitors in her life, and she did it because she feels that Toran requires her full atention, That confession but some sadness in my heart, I must say, But I admire and respect her more now.

As in the matter of the gossip she said me that I must lead by the example, and prove thru actions what a lie is, she said me that I must help Sil'via but keep my heart guarded, and in that I must agree with her,Love is a powerful force that can make persons forget what they are and make them to think unclearly, She adviced me to not thinking in romance now, That will not help her, seh adviced me to say to her that my heart belongs to Toan and Toran only and that I cannot love anyother at this time, I nodded in agreement and said toher I need to pray for guidance, She put her hand in my shoulder and smiled to me , then apologize herself, she said that some endevour must be attended, I stood and bow to her in respect.

So I'm writting about this now, Alotof wisdom for this head and some guidance after the confusing times, Now I feel stronger my faith, I msut speak to sil'via about this, I have inderstood a lot of things this day, but I cannot deny I feel something for her, Love, friendship only time will tell, The most important thing is her happines and salvation, and for that I must fight, And Toran will be behind me giving me his Mighty support.

Toran be praised that in you name truth will triumph

*Lance closes his journal *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 24, 2008, 10:13:21 PM
Toran be praised ... About pain and love

The duty of accepting choices and the  is hard make them.

*The journal lays open in the floor, in a messy room at Toran's temple, around it there area a lot of sheets of paper teared, the room are silent and calmed as a single moonbeam enter thru a small shaft in the high, There's also and sleeping Lance Stargazer, tired and with frustration in his face*

*The journal in the floor has the remains of some sheets ripped from it, like if if they were teared apart in a violent way, as the last page reads as follow*

From Lance --------- ( Surname Ommited ) quill and pen

Toran be praised..... Toran be praised ..... Toran be praised ..... Toran be praised ...... Toran be praised .....

Send me your strenght, send me your light and your endurence, to you I humble ask you for this virtues... SO the pain may pass.

It's seems that in the end I fell in love...... and It pains me, because I live to my promise. I know that it's the right thing to do, I would gladly do it again, but why I do feel so bad about it, Why I feel pain in my heart and sorrow in my soul.

Why I cannot stop criing at nights? I don't even want to cry, When I wake up, I'm already criing, I cry while sleep.

Sil'via has found her heart and It was not me who dwells in it, She choose Chaynce, my friend and my brother over me, I evebn congratulated them and it's killing me.

I had .... No.., I never had anything, I only have faith... I must be vigilant and noble, but Whay I cannot stop criing for this, I have done nothing wrong, I did the right thing to do, She is now going to be happy, but alas....

I guess it's my fault for not keeping my heart guarded as I was adviced, but what can I do, I was too late, I feel in shame and pain.

I even felt rage, and angry, and those feelings I must put away from my heart, they will only brings destruction and chaos, Love is not supposed to be like this, If so Why Toran allow us to love, no Love must be in a diffent way, which takes me to what if this thing I feel is not love?, how could a knight be sure of this.

I cant belive I fall asleep in the street, I still cannot believe that, But Thank Toran that never let's his faithfull alone, I 've meet Lex'or, the former aerindite, and found that he has converted into our brother, he will carries the teachings of the Vigilant one from now on, At least this fills my heart with some joy, There was alos Lady ielwen there with me in Leringard.

I jsut don't remember so much of that day, It is like if it never happened, I jsut remember talking to SIl and Chaynce, then meeting up with Lex'or and Ielwen, then nothig, I just woke up in the street, they said I was asleept for a whole day, }but alas I cannot remember what happened.

LEx'or spoke of a story of his life and how is to live witha broken heart, he said I must let Sil'via go from my heart, if i want to find happiness again but I simply cannot do that...

I dont't want to lose my friends, but it paisn me to see them, I'm dyiing of pain, And he said I msut let it go....

Toran be.... *the writing stops abruptly  and some parts of the paper has some parts of it with wet tears *

*Near the Journal rest an engraved ring also throwed with violence*

As he criies in sleep, Lance says... I forgive you Sil'via and Chaynce, why cannot forive myself... Toran be praised...*sobs*

// For the sake of development.. I will resume here the contains of the teared sheets of the journal..

It relates basically speaking with Chaynce, and asking about his feeling for Sil'via, and Chaynce saying he has not interest in her, and asking about his feelinga, he narrated also how  Siklvia spoke with Chaynce and that how he said that had no feeling for Sil'via in the spite of friendship, Then he narrates how he searched Chaynce and his feeling of being betrayed, not just for him but for her.

Lance thought that was wrong if Chaynce step back because that would close the dor to sil'via, So he found Chaynce and hit him in his facefor betraying him, he narrates how they travel together and spoke afo the matter, also in the end Sil'via getting mad at the tw of them,

Lance narrate his pain in hitting Chaynce but his inner peace he has done the right thing For Sil'via
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 28, 2008, 02:29:14 AM
Toran be praised ... About joy and love

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen:

Toran be praised, he who see for us, and complete us.

Father. some days has passed since I last write here, And a lot of things has passed since that.

I am getting better after losing Sil'via, I have sleeped some hours and the criing is stoping, I think I my heart is understanig Lex'or words about Letting go. After days in meditation here at the Temple, the vigilant one had granted me insight to understan what love is, I am affraid I AM in liove with her, but what is the love , if not to be happy knowing of the happiness of the loved one, It still hurts a bit, but I guess this is normal, after all, I am still human with a all the imperfections it has, So...

I love her, And for that I want you to be happy, I am telling you father that If she is happy I will be happy, no mattter the circunstances, Thjat is what love is, As long as she is happy I have nothing to worry, That is what love is about, About self sacrifice fore the loved one, that is why Toran instruct us to help those who cannot help themselves, I know that you are smiling at me by now, since I know you loved my natural mother untill she was taken from you, then you found Solace to your soul in Pyra, And She always spoke so high of you, And how you loved my natural mother, and how she loved her and me. and the hopes you had on me, that one day I would fullfill your dreams, Unfortunately i never knew whose dreams, but I am still fighting to bring glory to you name, Once I am worthy enough I will use your lastname with no shame, fullfiling my promise.

Well father getting to this state was no easy, a lot of things happened.

First... Well I have writen about Lex'or Gravedigger in the past, he was really resented to Aeredin, and his church, and has converted in my brother in faith, he has been a great support, the way of a knight is not a easy one as you should know, I have traveled a lot with adventurers that Toran don't see worthy, only for a greater good, I have standed their company, some are decent folk, as Belazar spoke to me : A knight must weight the heart of the person, not label him by his alliegance, it has filled me with joy that I can count on Lex'or for traveling, since Toran resides on him now as much as in us, but has not yet been recongnize by the church as one of us, In the near future I hope to accept Toran's miracles and grace chaneled by Lex, I am happy for him, he has suffered a lot, and now he is going to be father, and he has found happiness, because he is going to get married, I need to do a new suit for that ocasion, So I will need to gather Silk again, He is Sil'via's uncle, and having him near is one of the things i have to thank to Toran. Because he know how do I feel, and know Silvia also. The good Lex was with me after the incident in Leringard, He was there when I pass out, I still don't remember what happened there, but since that happen I feel a bit ease on my soul. Thank you Toran for My brother Lex, and I must support him as he has suported me.

Second .- Lady Iellwen has become very close to me, She is a very wise elven lass, But a bit naive but a pleasurable company,  Unfortunately she is a priesstess of Aragen, and that could be a issue our friendship could have, since I will not accept blessings of her god, Knowledge is good with measure , but those Aragenites uphold them even when life or a great good, I must accept they have vigilace and discipline for protecting their duty, but thier greatest flaw is to serve knowledge for knowledge itself, not for goodness or prosperity. Well At least lady Ielween is a good person, she is a caring person. I have asked to not cast any of Aragen blessings on me, and she has accepted to my terms, I recognize her determination, I also won't cast any of Toran's blessing on her, She seems a bit uncomfortable for this, put has accepted. I must thank my brother Belazar, since once he adviced me on that matter, One must weight a person for its heart, to say if that person is worth of being called friend, This applies to Laaren and for lady Ielween. She has acceted my terms as I said before , using only potions on me, Can you believe Father, she has the Idea I need of someone to take care of me?, she insisted in that so much, she say that I must improve my self preservation sense, since I have fell to my wounds several time for saving her, And you know father that I will do this for anyone, its my duty to protect people, But she don't understand that. Only time will tell how long this friendship last, She needs to learn how to laugh.

Third .- My brother Chaynce has been really hurted in all this matter as I, He was the chose of Sil'via, and I must say it's not his fault, Since I guess Sil'via is afraid of my compromise to Toran, he was the apropiate option, he is a decent fellow, he is not perfect but he tries at least to be a good person and help those who need help, his lack of faith is what makes him lost his stability, Still I love him as a brother, and I will trust him with my life, As I know he would do on me, He is really resented to Toran, but I guess I am acting In behalf of good, since he now trust me, and he is learning to fogive his father, and in time maybe he will love Toran as much as I do,  

Fortunately I cannot understand him in the family matter, because I have you and your ideals to guide me, I miss you father, I would like you to see me now, to hear your advice and aprobation, but since that is not posible, I am doing my best to fullfil my duty to Toran and you.

I have meet Silvia and him, I needed time to understand and deal with them both, I guess unconciently I put all the guilt on him, since I offended him, not accepting a gift he has offered to me, near the stromcrest, I don't want to lose him, he is like a brother to me, I guess we can work better now, I have meet him after my breakdown, I send him a bird to meet me near Hlint, In a place we have shared happier times than this, I have asked him for forgiveness, and I made peace with him, I asked him to take care of Sil'via, I have asked to make Sil'via happy and to take care of her. He said me he is not sure if that relation is going to work for him, but I asked painfully to do his best, because is her happiness what matters. Only time will tell, but I hope they can work it on their relation. I gave them Toran's blessing.

He is really concerned about me, he is triing his best to cheer me up, but I guess I cannot accept that of him as easy yet, I need time so my heart will heal, I asked to travel with him and Sil'via again, He agreed on that, as long as she agrees, so his final descicion has to be known, I huged him and he returned the hug to me,  he accpted my apologies, and I also asked to understand if i leave them when they kiss or hugs beetwen them, I guess I am not ready yet to stand that. He thinks I need another woman to heal my heart, but I will ot have another woman, at least in a time, My heart is To Toran and Silvia, no matter I have to act as a friend, to both them, It's the right thing to do,

I thank him the intent I must say father, He convinced Lady Ielween to search for a Toranite woman for me, and ask her to go to the Toranite temples to ask for woman to date, and strang thing si that she accepted, I forbid them to do so, As I said I no need another woman right now, Tell me father you loved two? How do you understand women?

*Lance stops his writing to rub his yes and laughs to supress some tears, then resumes *

Last in this letter Father I must speak of her...

Maybe this is not making me any good, I am triing to avoid saying I still love her, but I need to cleanse my heart of this, and you must know of my feelings also father, so there I go. I had dark toughts on this matter and have attoned after confessing at the temple for some moments, I desired that her relation failed so she could go back to me, But I banished those feelings and toughts at once, Now I am calm on this matter father, trust me, your son will not fail Toran nor you,

I have undesrtand that Love is a marvelous feeling, one that could help us Toranites to perform our duties better, since Toran loves this world, that is why he asked us to take care of it in his holy name, Self sacrifice, honor and duty are part of the love Toran has for the world, and I as His knight must do His will, and Love the things He love.

He has showed me thru meditation that To love is to give, I still love Silvia, I want her to be happy, If she is happy I will be happy, I will no longer interfere in her relationship, since in doing that I am atempting against her happiness, she is suffering a lot in this matter, I know she cares about me, she wants me as his best friend, unfortunately that best friend I cannot be yet, Maybe in time , but not right now. I have harmed her presented myself in this state, she know of my plans of proposal, and she seems quite consterned, I will not harm her more, I have thrown the ring I bought to a well, renuncing to her.

I meet again with Jaelle, she was not the same caring elf I have meet before, she seems cruel and painfull, tried to confuse my mind So I could charge to Chaynce. Toran granted me Wisdom that day, Linus teachings saved me for losing Sil'via forever, no matter what people said I trust Chaynce, He has lied to me before, but I hope he has learned the lesson, I will reclaim him if he hurts Sil'via, but until then I will not took action no matter what Jaelle do or say.

That is how my life goes father. But don't worry I still working in making you and Pyra proud of your son.

Father I need to understand you, and I need your advice, Since the incident in Leringard, I have been dreaming things, like memories, but that cannt be mine, they are awful memories of death and despair, I must trust Toran to help me to bring easiness to my sleep.

Toran be praised, in his name Justice is served, and the world becomes better, let me show your hand to those who needs it, and your just sword to those who deserves it. Let me do this a better world to bring glory to your name...

*Lance closes his journal, then meditates and prays before he sleeps in his now oredered room in Toran's temple*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 29, 2008, 02:22:45 PM
Toran be praised - He who help us to face our demons

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen .-

Father, I have traveled with my friends again, Sil'via and Chaynce,

I dont know how this happened, I am still criing at nights. while I sleep, and I have blanks in my memory this days, something pains me and get me thru nightmares, I dream about death and dispair even more than before, One of my dreams start as I am standing in a room full of bodies with my hands and clothes full of blood, and while I advance even further in it more and more death appears. I must say It feels like if I was there, But that cannot be posible, I have dreamt of you forcing me to kill a girl with your Great sword, But I cannot remember much of those dreams, I also have blanks in my memories, this late days, like if I was sleeping meanwhile I walk, I guess I am a bit tired, fortunately I still have Toran in my heart and that brings me joy, I feel stronger in His faith, And with His help,. I am pretty sure I will succed against this nightmares.

One of this blanks took place today, I just wake up in The Campfire near Hlint in the same spot I have talked to Chaynce, I don't remember how I got there, Ans I am sure that I was nod reaming of being there, I make a pray to Toran, in that moment,  and headed to the road, Once I got there, Sil'via came running, I greet her using all my will, She was searching for Chaynce,  I told her that I have spoken to him the day before and that he left in her search, I spoke to her of the conversation I had with my brother, and she understood, She has agreed to allow me travel with them again, also acepted the same terms I gave to Chaynce, She spoke of me about what happened when we meet with Jaelle in that town, She asked me to get rid of the ring, so much for her surprise I tell her I had already disposed of it, she seems a bit uncomfortable still, as I am, I still cannot be that friend she search in me, just not yet, We moved as we saw an red light ambrush party, We charged unto them, driving them off of the road and followed into the cave, We advanced thru the levels fighting along like the old times, like if all our problems did not existed, At that point I tought that this is about to work again. I still feel strange when she addresses me by my name, before all this I have asked to do it , and she insisted in calling me Cuty or hun, Now I miss that,  and pains me even harder when she call Chaynce like that, But That is not no one blame, some days has passed only, I just need more time.

Our travel into the caves developed well until we were aqmbrushed by a shaman and his elites, We made a quick work on the melle fighters, but Sil'via got flanked and fall, I tried to save her trowing a magical potion to her, unfortunately , I got hit by an unnatural freeze and fall to my wounds.

I woke up in the Temple, As I feel weak I moved near the entrace of the cave, It's hard to travel in this debilitated state, I must become strong, to protect people, Once I got near the entrace of the cave I saw My brother near , he greets me and asked what did happened, I explained our fall, his face turned to the definition of worriness, then Sil came criing all the way from Hlint, when she saw Chaynce seh jumped into his arms, aasking to be holded, I turned my face towards the road, and walked a bit, then she moved away from him and ran criing, My brother stood there with a worried face, I am thankful for his intents, I have not this confirmed , but he might turn her because I was there, I asked him to go after her, Sil needed him, more thatn ever since her only words I figure she said while she was criing were " Soul mother ".

I have feel that pain too, to lose some part of your soul, He left me near the road, I started to think about good things that life throws at us, like friendship and well in a way love, I had the desire to hug Sil'via at that point, but that would not have been apropiate, she needed her true love at this difficult point.

They returned after some times, interwined in a hug, Some people have gathered around the cave, and offered to help us to return to the place of our fall, Father, I hope you see me in that moment as I standed the pain to see them, but feeling happy for them, I am really triing in this matter, and I am in good way to achieve success. For my sake and for their, But i msut admit I almost said something thatt would be harm us a lot, Thank Toran she grant me wisdom to keep my mouth shut.

It was at this point father that I understand that our travels will not be as used to be, since I cannot act freely in their presence, I will be fine as long as I travel with only one of them. But with the both I msut be wary and wise in what I say and do.

Once we got inside The cave, we encontered the shaman, but knowing their position before entering we counter all the surprise of their ambrush, and ended put an end to the overlord as Well.

Once we got to the surface Chaynce said us goodbye, He said that he need to go to work Father at last I am happy because he is putting his gest effort, to provide Sil'via. Well nto that any of them needed it, they both belong to very rich families. succesful adventurers, but at least he is triing and that speaks highly of my brother.

On the road we meet with some people that was forming a scouting group to go Dregar, So we traveled, I must say father , that our group was striong but quite disrganized.

We traveled to Prantz and gather near the Lake Corax, In the way there I Lady Ielween joined us, Since Silvia loss I hav started to have soeme esiness in my speak, I have started to call people for their name, as requested of course, So Ielween has asked me to be called Ell, I don't feel quite confortable doing it, I guess habits are hard to break, But I feel very well with her in the group, we can speak long and she is quite a good listener, she is encouraging me to sing and to be happy, I am thankful for that, She has also some dealings regarding her life, since she got married not even knowing his husband, adn also closing the door to Elgon, Well I have not speak of that with her lately, the night she come at the camp, the same night I spoke to Chaynce, she just confessed me that she still don't know anything of her husband and she is still waiting a response from her Temple abvout lawfullness of her marriage, I still cannot believe how she got caught in that, but alas she seems to enjoy enduring knowledge by personal experience. A dire mistake I guess in this matter.

I need to atone to the church This day too much Father, since I have commited sins, Lady Chiara , yes that sea elven lass Of wich I have spoken to you was with us all the way since the caves, she is a priestess of the Deep mother, another godess that Toran don't see worthy, Down below I was fighting one of the goblin elites and Iwas wounded, just took a minite to rest then I feel the pain, Before I could do anything , she cast a a minor healing blessing on me, I step bakc before she did that again, She was surprised at seeing my reaction, And almost ofended, Silvia explained her that I cannot recieve blessings of her godess, becasue Toran don't find their cause worthy, I expalined to her that I cannot recieve her blesings, she seems hesitant as she showed me a bandage, I explained, that aI could recieve healing treatment, as alchemical healing potions and bandages but not blessings , since It will pollute my soul, She seemed a bit contrariated at this , but she needs to accept that, I am so sorry foer her, I know her intent is up to no harm, but I will not ahave doubts in my faith, I trust Toran ans his teachings a and to him are my loyalities.

We were ambrushed by some giants, they had wizards amoung their ranks, and beat them proved a hard task indeed, They got Ell in the middle of the fray, I was fighting two giants at the same time and the enemy was superior in number and strength, SSo I did the best for the group, Ell could heal the whole group in a wink Os I did a defensive manouver and quaff a potion to her lips, saving her for a certain death, Then  I saw a shadow behind me, then the darkness fall upon my eyes.

I was dead father, I feel the urge and a calling towards Toran, I saw the glory of His realm for a moment, but all vanished after some moments. I woke up in apainful way, My body feels broken, When I awoke Silvia was there to greet me with tears in her eyes, and a big smile. Or I just imagined that , I did not see well enough, I feel tired and weak, She helped me to stand and We walked towards a near town, I don't even remember its name.

Then they explain me, Ell was really worried and she did not say athing meanwhile Sil'via explained that She used Aragen Power to bring me back from the dead realm. I was shocked, My soul polluted by such powerful blessing, I got away from the group to rise a plea to Toran, I understand that It was not Ielween intent to do something bad, she was triing to help, but that doesn't change the fact that she did not respected my desires in the matter, also father If I were as strong as you were i never have falled to that giant, I need to Improve, but first pf all I need to atone and clean myself of this Taint. I cannot be angry at Ell, she did what her heart and duty asked on her, I am the one to blame of not beingstrong enough, I stood with some work and walked to the group, Ielwen was really shocked, since she knew I did not like the outcome of the events. Seh tell me that it was fate that I was raised by her, sionce she fall and someone heals her. I smiled as I heard that knowing that my duty was fullfiled at leat in that part, I showed her the empty bottle of healing I used to stabilize her.

Then her face turned from shame to surprise and then for a moment a glimpse of Anger crossed her face, Sil'via spoke to her, saying that I have to understand that a dead paladin, is no paladin at all, Father, Why they cannot understand?. Sil'via left us as the group disbanded, Only Ielween stayed with me in that town. Once we rested for some hours we spoke again. Seh was witha  calm expresion again, I asked again to never do that again, I was hoping at that moment that she will come toa terms with that and agreed, but much for my dismay, shs stood at me and ask me to not help her in the future, Seh trid to make me promise I will not risk my life for her, I smiled and deny that, it is my duty to help those that cannot defend themselves, and if a friend is need I will help her, no thru miracles, but thru healings potions or bandages, she was mad at me, and walked away, saying I am not being being fair to her, helping adn not lketting her help, I explained her that isn no truth in that words, I help her becase I feel the urge to help, because I cannot stand people suffering, more it the one who is suffering is a friend of mine.

The way home was long and silent, she start to speak in elven, still not good at it father, I even have forgottern the few wors Pyra teached me , I guess languajes are not for me, she insisted that I need someone to take care of me, and still call me stubborn, I have been thinking on it lately, adn yes somtimes I could be that way, And I have accepted it to her, Unfortunately, we don't get an agreement about our future adventuring dealings I guess only time will tell.

Father I feel good at this times, I have spend a whole day in praying in meditaion cleaning my body in holy water and my soul in HIS presence, I feel sleep today, I want to sleep as I used in my child hood days, I want to feel love around me, I miss you and Pyra.

Toran watches over us, and grant us strenght.

*Lance closes his journal and  sleeps *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 30, 2008, 01:00:48 PM
Toran be praised ... Of a new begining

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen:

Father life is going back to normal, I have found solace to my pains in my duty as a knight, Some days has passed since I last saw Sil'via and Chaynce, I guess this is the healtiest thing to do, since they deserve to be happy and not being worried  for this knight, Or it's not a knight duty to help those who cannot help themselves, father? Also Iam their friend not only a knight to them, I really desire that they achieve happiness, Any way I will be there for them when they need me, But Since I am not doing them well, i must keep my distance, for the sake of the three of us.

A shame because finally I had true friends outside the temple, but it won't be by my hand that they have trouble, My face must be high, and my soul ready to help, I was gratned the honor to speak to my brothers and sister about honor in some services, So I must prepare a proper speech, I am excited becaiuse this is the first time I have this honor, I will pray to Toran to fill my heart with wisdom.

I feel stronger in my faith after all this, I have started to bless water and create minor potions, I feel so good to do things that eventually could save lives, This is not like the bandages I am learning to do, this is greater, I feel His power running thru my veins, aiding me in helping other people, I feel Him and the easiness of soul his presence brings, Meanwhile I am doing this I feel peace, His peace, Like a water that heaals and clean my heart for all stain.

Father and Pyra, I guess alchemy its not for me, last time i just ruined a full box of materials for Escence of Cure, I jsut spill it over all the table in Moraken tower, I cleaned it for the grumpy old wizard, but this drawback won't stop me for becoming better, Someday I will be as talented as Pyra was, and I'll make you both proud. Also I have lost my muse for tailoring, It seems that I have lost the inspiration to create, I still feel the skill in my hands, but I don't see my creations as before, Lately, I have done just cloaks for the pilgrims, but not the way I used to do them, I need to find some inspiration.

I am a bit worried about the blank pasages and the nightmares, they seems to repetitive, I have checked with a priest for see symptoms of any sickness, But I simply know that this is no sickness, I still triing to figue it out, Fortunately this happens only at night. and has not interrupted my duties. Still is painful to see such despair and pain.

Father I want to ask you for forgiveness and compresion, I ahve observed myself lately, and I am sure Lex'or is right, I will put myu duty to toran first, I have relaxed a bit in my manners, at first I was ashamed, when I adress someone without a proper title, but now I feel a bit more free to do good, like if some burden has been removed from me, Don't misunderstand me please, I mean no disrespect, I have respect to everyone, but I guess somethimes speaking people in a very correct way, scares them, So I have to learn and let them know that Knights are to be trusted, Also I am going to use helmet again, but Iwill use one with an open face, so they can see me, and show them I have nothing to hide, I am clear as the morning and fair as a summer day. I plan to fix the helmet in my next visit to Hempstead. Well I ask you forgiveness becasue in accepting my duty to the temple I will no loger search for your aprobation I will bring you glory to our name as Toran give me the chance of doing it. Please understand this , because I don't want to fall in arrogance. I hope you and Linus understand this.

Now up to my day, Read this well father because it will bring you happines to hear how your son is helping to the world.

Last day I meet with another lady in distress, she seems a bit unsecure at first meeting, Her name is Slip, I almost run onto her at the entrace of Fort Llast, fortunately she was fast to avoid me, I must go with more caution into the town, I introduced myself to her as a knight, She was shocked when she heard that, She asked " You're a knight? A real one? " - I smiled at her and nodded to confirm her question, I explained about Toran and the faith of the vigilant one so she could know was dealing with someone to trust, She was a bit lost or confused, when I asked her why , seh said that she is not acostumed to light, Poor girl, I dont imagine the suffering she has sufferd, as she moves with an instintive caution, searching the shadows at first chance, but she is a happy lady, always smiling and asking for something, I don't remembver how we ended in conversation abot crafting and goods, Well I spoke of my experience in tailoring and how I use to weave the cotton when I first started, unfortunately I did not have much time to spend with this lady, I have an important meeting to attend in the Temple about the next service, I invited to visit The temple if she need something , And I took my leave.

It was a wonderful meeting Father, I was filled with joy once we started to discuss the current alarms near the Temple, fortunately the crusade against the Red light war parties has been succesful until now, I am happy to know that more militia man will be asignet to that matter, this will makle my rounds easier and more eficient since now we will be able to protect more people.

Later that day I travel to Hempstead, to buy supplies for the temple as I used to do, I had also the intent father of changing my helmet for open show my face, I started my travel in the evenig sttoping to rest near Krandor, i saw the towers of the Criomson Eagle memorial with the first sunbeam, I am no longer bothered by showing that I have cried in past days, my eyes are still red and a bit irritated, but I must not be ashamed of the love i feel, I msut say father that this still hurts a bit, but It's healing, But I must admit it was painful to steep back in Hempstead, particularly when I walked near the cotton farm, I feel a bit wrong with myself again, fortunately I did not meet with sil or Chaynce in my travel there.

Once my bussines in the city where done I move out of it as fast as I can, I did not stand being there so much time. I need some fresh air, so I left towards Llast again, Once I arrived to Vehl, I meet again with Slip Seh was there as sif she was waiting for someone, As I aproached I greet her in a very polite way, I must say, Seh greet me and Asked me to help her in her gathering opf Aloe, I have learned by our conversation that she is a merchant, gatherer and deliever to make a life, There was no way I could denmied her my help, since I have learned that she is currently ruined and In debt, since she lost all her goods when her Ox was killed by some brigands, So we traveled to the Kobold camp, I msut admit this travel stinged me a bit, since Now I was seeing Silvia in her, That is how all this started father, A lady indistress asking a knight to help and defend her from the kobolds, Well I msut say that Sil is a lot diferent from Slip, I asked Slip if she served any god, I msut help her in that matter also, She seems to have no idea of what faith is, since she answer me that she is a godess, refering asPhysical beauty, I guess, So I spoke her of Toran, and the faith that filled my heart, Our incursion to the Kobold camp was succesful since we retreive the aloe she needed, And moved out, Once we did this, I guess I was careless as she saw in my heart and see the sadness I still carry, I explain her a bit about my past troubles and asked her to not worry, she has enough troubles with herself.

She asked me to show her the landscape, SO I agree to travel with her, before we leave she asked time to buy a new bow, seems that she lost hers too to the brigands as well, we traveled back to Hempsetead, There I meet with Tadashi, the Voraxian warrior priest, and much to my dismay, Lady Ielween, I have not set things straight with Ell, father she is still mad at me for not letting her cast her blessings on me. But she don't understand, she thinks I am forbidding her to help me, but that is no true, I would gladñy accept her help in form of a potion or bandage, but not a miracle, That is just not going to happen.

Well, Once Slip got her new bow, Tadashi Ell, Slip and myself meet another traveler by name Ramus, he was a bit pale, and needed help, he tell us that he had fall inKrandor crypts, We headed that way so we helped him, I must say it was an awful battle in the end we found ourselves surrounded and facingf a terrible vampire, I fall first helping Ell and Tadashi, but in the end orur brave eforts did not come succesfully, I awoke in Toran's temple, and by toran's grace I meet with Sister Rose, there, I explained our tragedy adn she offered to help us, So we marched towards Krandor , once we got there a small army of adventurers have gathered by the crypt, all the vision is still bluring, but amoung them I saw Berak , The Dragonheart couple, even Lex'or was there, And so we stormed the place, I did n not see the actual battle as we ventured in the dungeon, and in my state i served as a scout and guard us from ambrushes, letting Lex, Rose and Shiff serving as frontliners, Once we destroyed the undead menace we got backto surface and after some time the group disbanded, Lady Ielween, left us first, and after sometime I meet with slip, We said our goodbyes to everyone, and moved forward Fort Llast.

something strange happens, when I was packing somethings she gave me, seh notice how much I am having trouble to acomodate my crafting goods, I explained that I need to buy a house, and that it is my goal to do it in some years, seh invited me to move with her, she said that shi was getting a contract to rent a room there in Krandor, I was shocked at first, but seeing this lady witha all her debts, I would help her with that, paying half the rent, if the contract is done of course, having a chest or two would really help me in crafting, Don't get me wrong father, I am not planning to sleep in that room, unless she is not there, the temple has good acomodations for a knight, and she needs all the help sho could help. she said that she can gather aloe for me, I will buy it from her of course, that will make easier my crafting.

Once we left Krandor, a strom get loose, it was pouring as we moved thru the road, heading for Llast, Once we got to the Ziange River i saw lady Ielween at the shore sitting there all wet , I asked a moment to slip , I remove my cloak and I put it over her shoulders, she was surprised at first but when she saw me, she smiled whrn she realized it was raining. We had another discusion about our future adventure dealings, I did save her again in the crypt and I guess she is still mad at me for well , I don't know why she is mad at my attitude. We traveled towards Hlint, now with Ell on our group, She handed me the cloak once the rain was over, O have to stop at the temple to change my clothes,

And then hit the road again, I showed Slip the Silwood forest as I had promised, but there, something strange happened, We meet with Skullcracker Headbang, that dwarven fighter follower of Vorax, HE was in bad shape, she was saying that Vorax has ordered to kill humans, We followed him thru all the woods, and to the Red light cave, I tried to stop him, But he has an unnatural strenght I was not able to hold him, It was my intent to take him to the Toran Temple in Llast so he could get tratment by the priest, AT some moments his voice changed and Said that our friend does not longer inhabit that body. We eluded us in some time, But I have ingformed of all this to the temple, so we might keep a vigilant eye upon him, after all he is an ally of the temple.

Slip was very worried for him, she seems to know him very deeply, but there was no other thing to do that report him, now that he is lost in the forest, I said my farewel to lady Ielween near the witch hut in the Silkwood, And escorted Slip to the road near Hlint.

Then it happens father, she took me off guard, I poit her to the entrace of Hlint and she jumped onto me and hugged me smiling, and thanking me. I was surprised, father, to stay true, then she moved towards Hlint and I headed to the temple, to inform of this.

Toran be praised... and praised again because you are returning this knight the chance of serving you.

*Lance Closes his Journal*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 31, 2008, 02:53:18 PM
Toran be praised ... About Family and anger.

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father , Today I saw Silvia again, I traveled to Hempstead to buy supplies again, also I got 3 more bandages for the temple supplies, I must say that I am getting skillfull in their preparation, Now I need to get more Aloe, since I am now out of Materials for Esence of Cure,  On the next days It would be wise to get some greenstone,since my reserves are also running low. any way I have started the design of a new silk Suit, I am just designing it since I still have to get the proper materials to start doing the work, I hope I could do this before Lex wedding,

In my way back to Fort Llast. I stopped In Fort Wayfare to have a meal and some grape juice, I had been in good mood lately until that day, when I entered the Inn, the place was crowded, As I entered I feel the stench of the tobaco and kitchen smoke, this was pretty upseting since my eyes are still a bit irritated, and this smoke bothered me a lot, Once in there I see Elgon in there, he seems surprised even unconfortable to see me there, He greet me and throw me that look again, his sight betrayed him and as I follow it I saw Sil'via and Ayana watching me as well, They are to kind as I entered Ayana and him come to my side and start looking at me, and asking me how I am, they seems nervous and was watching Sil from time on time, until she blew up, I still don't know what happened there, I guess my presence was bothering her, Since she moved out of my way and run for another table, Ayana moves away to watch over Sil'via, I explained to Elgon that It was not my intent to bother, I just came to that place to buy some food and drink for the travel, I moved towards the barkeep and asked for the special of the day, and some grape juice, I picked a table in a corner, triing to not bother to Sil'via and her family.

I meet lady Indis also in this place she is a very kind lady, trying to cheer me up with a nice chat and conforting words, I explained her how I am managing this situation, and asked her to stop getting worry for me, A knight must stand strong, and since I am a knight I must lead by example, this doesn't mean I will swallow my feelings, but I want to protect Sil'via since I know that seeing me as this is affecting her, and Everyone is blaming her, She did nothing wrong, she just followed what her heart said, I would not like it another way, that is why I hit Chaynce weeks ago, since He was stealing Sil chance to be happy, Indis understood my feeling and after puting her hand in my shoulder left me with a big smile.

Well after some time, the place become all messy, father I still cannot believe that a food fight stated across the hall, at that time I was almost soffocated by the smoke, So I headed towards the exit of the establishment, Once we got out I meet again with Sil'via and her siblings, when i got out Ayana and Elgon surrounded me and started to ask me about how I feel?, again. But for Goodness sake, How those folks think I am feeling?, Sil'via was obviously bothered to by this situation and moved away from me again, Seeing this father I understand I need to be strong and get over with this, Since If this continue this way, I will lose Sil forever even as a friend. Ayana moved to follow her Sister.

Father ? Did you face Angry and hatred in your life? Is this what you felt when my mother died?

*Lance stops for a moment reflecting on the question he has just done*

Father I am tired of this, I stopped Elgon To explain him how do I feel I tell him the truth, I asked him to stop getting worried for me, now that her sister needs him, and all her family, I told him that I still love her, and that As I have explained to you, How to love her is to do any sacrifice to see her happy, and for her good I am enduring this and have let her go, I asked him to explain this to lady Ayana. And that not speaking of this conversation To Sil'via she has enought troubles without this knight meddling in her life, She must concentrate in be happy now.

Much for my demise We were Overheard by a strange man, he has the cinism to ask me money for keeping his mouth shut. I don't know what happened me at that moment, I felt a primal urge in my soul, I feel anger and hatred as never before, still I did not do a thing taht could bring shame or remorse unto me, but I laught on his face, and tell him that that would never will happen, and I moved away for him, It's strange but I had a feeling about that strange man, he seems to know who I am and Sil'via and her family, But I guess that could be a missinterpretation of my state at that moment, I moved out towards the cotton fields triing to calm myself, restraining me for letting that anger take control, I am ashamed since, I lost my temper for a moment, The In'drasus family followed me to the cotton fields

Sil'via was really worried, but at that moment I just cannot said a thing, she asked me what was happening to me , that she never has see me that way, I moved away from her, asking for some time, I said to her that I would anwer her questions in time, but now at that moment.

I still don't understand why father but I ended Swimming in the pond near the entrace of Hempstead, I swam until the anger vanished, I swam like I used to do back in hour home in Karthy, I must admit father that I felt you nearer than before like if you were with me at that moment, but I did not recognice you, since waht I felt was not happiness, nor justice,  and I felt diferent after that, I feel like freedom,  That time is a bit confusing, I don't remember exactly what happened in the later hours after that, I traveled with they to the gloom forest,to hunt some undeads, As far as I remember, I spoke to Elgon about what the strange man said, he is a bit temperamental he was about to go and search for him I asked to stop that we must think with our head clear, since Silvia will not trust a unknown person that just come and said something to her, Elgon nooded in comprenstion. I had a blank out there, when I got back to concience Elgon and Silvia had a big fight, She was treathing him to kill him, I had nothing to do there, We ended in the Stromcrest crossroads.

Thank all that is good Their mother was passing thru there at that moment, And she started to speak with Sil'via, I cannot explain you father of what they were speaking after all , thet have to mend their problems as a family, I did waht I thougth was right, I go to the nearer outpost and Send a bird To Chaynce, I wanted to Hug Sil'via and confort her, but that would not be wise, She needed his true love at that moment, not just a friend. The hawk flew and some hours later returned with Chaynce answer, He said that he was busy at that moment but that will be with her when his bussines ended. I moove forward to give Sil'via the Message.

She was happy just for hearing about him, I guess that I did the right thing, I saw hope in her eyes and an smile drew on her face, defeating for a moment the tears and anger, I enjoyed seeing her like that father, geting me also a bit more relaxed of  mind. She introduced myself to her Mother, she gave me a look like if she was measuring me, with that look I understood Sil has been telling her about the past days, I did not know why father, As I said I was pretty confused at that Time but without noticing it introduced myself as Lance Dragonbane Stargazer, and for that I apologize to you, Silvia smile got even bigger, and said - Hey you used it - I was shocked first at notice what I did, and then even more shocked to know that she knew of your last name. Finally I left both ladies bidding my farewell and moved to speak for last time To Elgon and lady Ayana.

Before I left I asked Elgon to do as I have asked to him and to explain my motivation to lady Ayana, so we could help her sister, I explained to both of them that Sil'via is not to be blamed, and that I am not a victim in this case, I remind them My promise of not harming her, and this promise still stands but at another level. I did not finish my explanation since Sil and her mother aproached to Elgon and Ayana to speak, I left them to let them fix their issues in confidence.

Father I walked back towards the temple and here I am, I don't feel like making the tie in my hair today, My hair has been loose the whole day, and I feel confortable with it, as you used it.

I have spend the rest of the day in meditation and praying, I feel Toran inside me, but todays feeling were strange, I am changing, maybe growing mature, But still Iam bit worried I have seen myself saying things that I would not be saying, Anwering no politely, but I just cannot stopped in the moment like if something inside was pulling it out. I must meditate

I humbly pray to toran to enlighten my way, and grant me wisdom and peace, I pray to you Toran so youcan help us, Give Chaynce patiente, Give Sil'via wisdom, and give your knight the chance do do your will and bring easiness to my soul that way. I humbly ask you Let me be your hands.

*Lance closes his Jornal as he continues in meditation*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 04, 2008, 01:51:57 AM
Torean be praised ... Times fo Peace and reminicences

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father..

I am knowing what peace is again, I am feeling Toran healing my heart and making whole again, and for that I am thankful.

Last days I am getting better and my performance in the field is improving, helping people always brings me a good mood, as you know, I am a dedicated server of the goodness, Nothing makes me happier than help people in need. That put me on work and keep me awoke, I guess it's a good aproach to the situation, since I still have troubles sleeping at night. always the nightmares coming to visit me, also the blanks of memories continues, I guess once I become whole again this will end. and In Toran I will find peace.

Yesterday was a great day, another travel to Hempstead, nothing outside normal to report, my skill in tailoring continues to grow, since I can do bandages much easier now, still I have a lot to learn yet, I started my day as I left the room I rented for the night in the Scamp Mug, I did my morning prayers, and move to the crafthall to finish with the cloaks for the temple,  I still don' start with the suit confeccion, I guess I will not be able to get it at time, Silk is hard to get this days, I cannot spend money in that also. Once I finish with the cloak endevour, I go and pick my things from the Inn, There was time to go back to Llast, and make the delivery, I leave the Inn taking the road towards the gates of the city, I meet with lady Ielween.

She smiled at me as I aproached to her, and I answer to her smile with a polite nodding, "Good day Mister" She said, She noticed the happines and freedom I am feeling lately, she asked me why I was so happy, and I answered to her with the truth, As I have been freed of a great burden lately, still don't know why, I started to sp   eak to her about my late days, She stopped me when I spoke of the man who tried to blackmail me, I don't know how this lady feels about Elgon, I don't want to bring more sadness with my words, so I omit his participation in the incident, I spoke him as a friend, but she saw thru my intent, she asked me to a company to the tribute of Allurial, and ask me to tell the whole story, She seems truly concerned by me since some days ago, Well weeks now that I am thinking about it, she was not even bothered by Elgon participation.

After I explained all the situation to her I ask her to acompany to Fort Llast, she said that was free at that moment and would be nice to travel along, so we departed. I feel strange with this, since Toran doesn't see Aagen as a worthy ally, I guess is wrong that I have a priestess of the lord of knowledge as a close ally, But this lady has a kind heart and seems to be motivated by good intentions and emotions, I guess there will be no problem if she lives up to my desires of not casting Aragen blessings unto me, or other Toranites, If that situation continues, I will take the right action.

We traveled all the way from Hempstead to Fort Llast at steady pace, laughting all the way, I am glad she is learning to enjoy life, Still she has a lot to learn yet, she is so naive sometimes, In our way to Llast, I explained her my future plans of rent a room for storage, she seems a bit shocked when I tell her I am going to move in to help Slip, I guess she misunderstood my intent, but I wxplained her , that I will help with half of the rent to help the poor merchant lady in distress, I mean I don't even think in sleeping in that room, my acomodations in the temple are fair enough, but I will need some space to put chest or two, I am traveling very heavy this late days, I need a place to hold all the crafrting materials also.

After we arrived to Fort Llast, Lady Ielwenn wait me near the entrace to town, so I delivered the cloaks to the temple and make a prayer to the great leader, then I head to the exit of the town, there Lady Ielwen and I meet with a traveler that answered to the name of Lance Merric, I must say that it was quite strange, to meet someone that share my own name, in fact i have heard of another one, but I don't have the " pleasure " t meet him, that one is the fiancee of lady Randy.

On tat point is that I am worried , As we traveled more towards Hllint, lady Ielween mentioned those both, I still don''t know what did hañppened to me, since I said things about Randy , I should haven't , well for thesake of ettiquete, I said othing wrong, but neither nice about her, even in that case I must vigilate this beheavor, since I must respect everyone.no matter their alliegances.

After all this incidents Lady Ielwen and I stopped, by the campsite in the waste lands, Se we spend the whole evening ina very intresting talk, I asked her about her "marriage" with wren, She was relly confsed at this matter, since She said that a month has passed since she got wed and stil don't know anything about her husband, I tried my best to help her with soothing words, It really felt good giving her her own advice. " A very wise friend of me said me once, You are worthy" she saw me with wide eyes then laugh at me saying "That was not fair, mister". I just look at her showing that my intent is to help her only. We stay there for some hours just talking, It relly help to speak of the inner issues with someone in this way, When I am with her speaking I can feel that I am not being judged, Eventualy we moved towards Hlint to get some food and drink, I still cannot believe whrn she dare me to beat her in a race, I must say I am surprised that she runs as fast , for someone of her height. After some food we continued our talk near the pond.

It has been a while since I stoped in that place, I haven't been there since the start of the gossip beetween Sil'via and me, and that eventualy lead our conversation towards there, Ielween asked me about how did I meet Sil, I tell her the story, all the flirting and my attitude, I must say father that I amsurprised that telling that story did not get me depressed, I tell her the story with a singular joy.

I asked her abot that night, in Leringard when they found me in the streets, she seems reluctant to speak about the matter, Seems that in that night I spoke of my childhood, with you and Pyra, She seems also a bit confused about the matter, She said I had dealings witha little girl, It's strange since I usually dream about a little girl in my nightmares, Still I don't know what does this mean. I explained about my nightmares, the things that seems to be there but that they aren't, that cannot be there. I must have fallen asleep because I had a blank out after that.

Without counting that I had a wonderful evening with this lady, I did a notable achievement as he wrote in her Journal, I made her spechless for first time in her life, strange that someone record this, she also promised to buy a new Journal just for Lance Stargazer, Iam really flattered by this words, but I know that they are just polite words.  Also I have learned that she was really asking around the Toranite temple for a honorable toranite woman for me, Now I understand father some attitudes of peoplea rond the temple, like those girls giggling when I was passing, I asked her to stop doing that, but she said that she will not stop because Chaynce asked her to, I must speak with that airhead brother of mine, I also had a great surprise when she showed me the first drawing she ade of me, the day we meet, She has talent for drawing I must add. She got an idea in this , So I must get ready to "enjoy " the attention of people in the temple, since she promised me to carry drawings of my portait next time. I guessit's useless to try to stop her, so I must speak to Chaynce as soon as posible.

We ended our talking as I acompany her to the Wild surge Inn, so she can rest fr the night, Another race was held, and again I lost, she is really quick. Once we said our goodbyes, she came close and kiss me in the cheek. Still I don't know why.

It's a shame that she seems still a bit reluctant about the idea of my help when she fall in combat, she has not yet convinced of on that being sttuborn enought to say tha I must not help her and let her die, anyway father do you know what I think about working in groups, and help the helpless.

After our goodbyes I headed towards the temple, and here I am, telling you all this, Father, I feel good today, I don't remember the last time I ran for fun like today, It really was weird, I guess I need to sleep now, after my prayings, The temple help me to sleep  is there such peace in here, I would like you could see this. I must stop writtig now Father but you will have notice of me, soon. Father and Pyra send me your ideals to guide myself.

Toran be praised.

*Lance closes his journal as he got into the bathroom to take a bath* Toran be praised..

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Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 13, 2008, 01:57:00 AM
Toran be praised  .... Reminiscences ....

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Life is getting complicated, Last day I awoke in the Goblin wastelands near the campfire, Lady Ielwen wake me up, since she was passing towards there, It was pretty weird since I don't remember being there when I got asleep, The last thing I remember was taking a bath in the Temple, so confusing, Anoter memory blank.

Well, anyway, that saved me the walking to the Camp, and so my day started, I spend some time with lady Ielwen, as we drove off some goblin back to the lower levels of the caves, and then enjoy some grape juice and some feline meat I am geting from my huntings, I have started to work with leathers again, Finaly I found a place to hunt cougars, I will try to do some leather working in te future.

The nightmares continue, I still don't remember them well, and I don't understand them, I vaguely remember them...

The most vivid ones are that of my father and that boy killing a little girl, still don't know what to think about it. Also the one of the Dark knight, he seems weird that he was like younger version of my father, he stands there killing always bathed in blood like sending a challenge, Toran be praised, to him I pledge, In the temple and his presence I feel confort, but I must find a way to deal with this nightmares And memory blanks wharn I am not there.

Excuse my short comunication father, but I have to fullfill some chores for the Temple.

Toran be praised ...

* Lance finish his writtings and set his belongings for departing towards Hlint *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 18, 2008, 02:32:58 PM
Toran be praised ... The armor of a knight...

*The diary lays open in a little table in Lance's cell in Toran Temple at Fort Llast, the scarce words seems to have written with haste, and the room seems as if its habitant had to leave in hurry. *

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen.-

The only thing I have of you now is your Name...

Some days has passed since my last writtings and toughs.

What is an armor? What is the meaning of a name? Is family honor as important as doing the right thing and fulfill your duty? I think not. No matter if he wears rags, if his soul remains pure the knight will triumph.

Toran be praised and help me to find peace on this times of turbulence. The nightmares and memory blanks are getting worse, As I have spoken to people that say that sometimes I act a bit weird. I feel peace at the temple and helping people along the road fills my soul with easiness and joy. Father my armor got stolen some days ago, So I bougth a new one from the merchants In Fort Llast, Well father to stay true I must say that I remember buying the armor, but the fixes I cannot remember ...

It was like one of yours father, I noticed it thanks to Sil'via, It was black with the Toranite deep blue, a quite simple design of plates, I think in a way it was a way to feel you near, I have used that armor for some time, but not more.

I have changed with Sil's help into a more toranite fashion, She seems concerned about me, she said a lot of Nonsenses about me triying to live your life, Don't misunderstand me, I now that her concern is true, but how can she understand me, how can understand the live of honor and duty I carry, I am a knight bound to Toran, and my duty to your rememberance, Any way, she helped me with the design, Now I am wearing this dark blue and gold armor , and I do it with joy, Since I carry Toran colors with me now, at first I did not like the idea of wearing something she has done, but Toran has keep my heart guarded.

After all father... What is an armor if not only the cold steel that protect the soul of a knight. So as long the knight keeps himself pure, no matter which armor is he wearing, he is still a knight.

Is the soul and the intents what matter in faith. Not the garments one is using. A knight is measured by his deeds not by his  looks.

Toran be praised ... That show to this knight His wisdom everyday in the most mysterious ways.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on March 24, 2008, 04:33:11 PM
Toran be praised .- About friendship and doubts that it brings

*From Lance's Stargazer quill and pen*

Friendship love and marriage, father that are matters that can change a one's life.

Some days ago I meet with Wren, the so called Mr. Thunder by lady Ielwen, his "husband" in that wedding made by Trith, As Ielwen has said me the marriage is not a legitimate one, and they haven't seen in months as they both have confirmed. He called me when I was on my way to the crafthall, Bandage making is still improving, soon I'll be able to work on leathers.

Well the point is that he called me to come near, and greet me with a smile, He seemed a bit insistant in talking to me, At first I tought if that was for not being able to see me in a long time, He asked me if }I have seen Ell, inthe past days, I answered the truth t him, Ell and I are quite close by now, I have spend a lot of time together, traveling and supporting us each other, more since the problem she has with Trith, and her meeting the soul mother for Trith not helping her, and letting her dying, ... Seems I am getting lost in this story agian Father, I am sorry...

Well, I tell Mr Thunder that Ell and I have spent a lot of time together in the last weeks, he nodded once I ensured I hava made all in my power to protect her. He nooded for second time, at that point, our conversation was interrupted by a wizard, Wren asked him to let us finished our converstion, again he seems a bit too much insistant, he left us but our conversation was again interrupted by a pseudo Dragon who materializes itself in the middle of the place, as we aproched with or arms ready, he started to speak about gethering information about vampires, I asked the creature to leave the place, since such invocations of creatures are forbidden inside the walls of the city, he moved towards a corner and in the end he disapeared.

Once we got there Berak join us when he saw us near the Bindstone of the crimson Eagle memorial, after some time a crowd was gathered there, I fail to remember every one of the presents, but the wizard came back asking what have happened there, he asked us why we were so upset for that incantation, Again I explained him the rules of the city, Eventually the wizard left us a bit upset I must say, at the End only Berak, Wren and myself stayed.

*Lance stops his writtings for a momentand smiles a bit *

Then is what the unbelivable happen, Berak asked Wren what were we doing there, and he said something like Asking me if was Smitten to his wife, refering Lady Ielwen... At first I was so shocked I tought he was joking, but his gestures did not make any fun, he was really serious about this matter, Berak left us so we could talk about the matter, From that point on, everything gots blurry, I just remember him asking me If I love her. As far as I remember I answeed that there was no such posiblility, since she is an Aragenite, and Well Aragen are not in the best stand to Toran.

Another memory blank and this time when I was awoke, At that time I did not noticed but eventually I remembered the conversation. He seemed a bit concerned about that memory blank adn drop the theme of discussion for another time I guess.

Once we ended hat weird conversation we gathered near the fouunain witha group of adventurers, there was lady Randy and his now husband, Yes I finally met Lance Coyle, the elven warrior. I had myself enough troubles with him , even without knowing him, Since a lot of people thought It was me the One lady Randy refers as her Lance.

The group agreed to travel towards a place named Vanadar, unfortunately I did not finish the trip, since I got ambrushed by an dark spell that eventually left me almost for dead, when I awoke I was again in the Toran temple back in Fort Llast.

Father in a way I am a bit sad, I got the notice that Lady Randy died in that trip after my fall, She was an enemy priestess, I know, but I don't feel rejoice in the death of people even my sworn enemies, I have send condolences to her friends and families, she was a worthy oponent to deal with, always fighting and teasing. But one less priest of the runner to attempt to wreak havoc in our society is at least something good, again I don't take rejoice in her death.

Toran be praised, *Lance closes his eyes and start to pray*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on March 24, 2008, 04:33:45 PM
Toran be praised ... About the meaning of a kiss.

*From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen*

Father.-

I have been praying, and mediating. About lady Ielwen. sil'via and Chaynce, I have seen how destruction love can bring, and why a knight must have his heart guarded from it, No matter this knowledge, friendship makes me get worried about those I care.

Last Time I have met them, it was a weird experience, sil'via has started to make musical instruments,  Chaynce and sil seems well enought, well for being they, As usual, Chaynce acts I don't know how to  describe it, he is always acting like iof things were not important, And Sil well, she see him as her whole world, in an extreme way as always, I was trying to start to go back to carpentry, I have picked some breaches to start, I found Chaynce and Sil'via taking a stroll to the fields. After some talking lady ielwen apeared also and start talking to us, I t still feels weird to see them together I must say, and I stand on my descicion of not searching for them, and let them live thir life.

sil'via told me that she has sterted to make musical instruments to aid her in her performing, I guess she has still some influence on me , since I inmediatly handed the breaches of wood I was carrying to myself, that is when it happened, as Sil and I were speaking, chaynce and Ell were whispering about something. I just hear Ell speaking about trying to get me a woman, against my wishes.

Father I felt myuself betrayed by them, I feel anger like never before, I feel that they were just playing with me all the time, that is not what friends are supposed to do. The worst was whrn Ell tryied to hide truth from me, but her eyes betray her intent, I just cannot stand more of that.I move away from them towards the city, or at least that is what I barely remember of that moment, those three catched me up near the pond of the lake, Sil and Chaynce started to make fires all around, meanwhile Ell was trying to apologize . I just cannot see her that way, I made her cry, Seh was there in front of me asking for forgiveness, telling me that she would never harm me.

I am weak father, Did I the right thing in granting forviness with such easyiness, But at core I know she was speaking truth, I know they have seen me in a really bad shape in the last months, and in their opinion searching for a woman for me was the best solution for me, In their intent and concern is what I must see, not the methods, I just say them to not doing that again, I am really not in need of another woman in my life, romance is up to no good to me, at least not by now.

Chaynce and Sil, leave us as they walked off the road extinguishing all the fires near the road. Lady Ell explains me that she feels weird about a druid that  we had meet in the past, a elven short tempered lady by name Aryanna, And that she feels bad about me accepting nature blessings of this lady and not of her.

*Lance smiles to himself as he stops his writtings to read the whole page again then resumes*

I just told her father what I feelabout that, I cannot accept Aragen blessings, I must not polute my soul with such untrusty power, but she is something else, I have seen beyond her symbol dear father, I ahve seen a caring and loving person trapped in a woman searching for herself, And I have expalined that not healing me was the best thing she could do to me, I explaining her, that in not healing my body, she would at least help my soul to heal, Since I am no commited sins in that way. She was spechless after that , she said that it was the most lovely thing someone has tell her.

She was making references about parting ways before she do something I would regret.. Father I still don't know what to think about this, once we are about to say goodbye with a smile in our faces, she jumps at me and kisses me in my lips, then she ran off waving.  I was shocked, This cannot be happening,  I just walk off towards the city and rent a room to spend the night.

Toran be praised.. Allow me to see what is ahead in my way...
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on March 24, 2008, 04:34:17 PM
Toran be praised .... About truth and time.

Father .-

Some days passed since last time I had a memory blank, I think I am getting strong enough to overvcome them, also the nightmares are becoming standable, mostly because of my meditations and prayings. Also I am starting to work on leathers I have made my first cougar armor.

Father it's sometimes hard to see how Toran guides me to face the truth, for that I am thankful, Some days ago I was finishing one of my patrols in the way to Hlint, and I moved towards the campfire, just to meet Wren and Lady Ielwen in there. As soon as I show myself they spotted me, Wren gives me a look with a grin and Ell smiles a bit but then came back to her frowning face. As I see the scene, I apologize for interrupting and was about to get off to the road again, but Wren stoping me from doing it, saying that It was not a bother to have me there, and that they were just arriving.

That converstion was very odd. Wren asked Ell if there is something that she would like to say, The tension feel so hard in there, As they started to speak about her dealings with his absence, saying that there is nothing to say after a year of absence.

I really don't remember much of the cvonversation they had, but in the end Ell, told him that even that marriage was not a legal one, there was a point there when Ell did not stand more of that conversation, and she say farewell to both of us and moved towards the road to Llast.

And So Wren and I end alone in that campfire in one of the most uncvonfortable situation I have lived up this day. Wren gave me a look, full of calmed fury and pride, he started to say things like that he was not worried about this, that I must remember that in some years she will think again on her vommitment to him, when all her human friends were dead and she found herself still young and beauty, I msut say that the way he spoke were filled with spite.

He finally asked me to say good bye to her in his name. At that point I was really annoyed, he spoke to me like if all was my fault, like if I stole something from him, I ahve spoke him in the past about this, and about I only care for her as a friend. Even after that he still blame for this. Even in this  feeling I told him that I t would be better to speak himself of that, that will show her that there is no hard feelings of his part. he smirks at me and say that he would do so. And then he bid his farewell and hit the road towards Llast.

Some hours beforweI meet Ell, she was showing a long and sad face, we said our goodbyes with a lot to think by ourselves, I see how she is harmed by this encounter,

Toran be praised ... that shows us how truth can harm sometimes. but lies hurt more in the long way.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on April 09, 2008, 01:09:24 PM
Toran be praised... When doing the right thing was not enough.

From Lance Stargazer's quill and Pen

Well, it has come to this.

Chaynce finally left Sil'via forever as their own words, I have meet both of them, and seems that Sil was the most affected by this break up, she now wears a grim look and black clothes, losing all the happiness she once showed, Alas there is nothing I can do about it, and my concience is clean, Since she seems to be enclosed in herself not allowing me to help her.

I am ready to lose her friendship for the sake of her own good, I have learned to stop pushing my help, since it can only bring more harm to her now broken soul, I know how she felt, For goodness that I know, And it's worse than a sting of the blade thru the flesh. the wound of a broken heart.

She has even shoot me with bow and arrows, and got a nervous breakdown, again, She seems to hate all men now for what Chaynce  and Christian did to her. Well I think I can take some of the guilt also, But I also know that only time will heal that wound, when my heart got broken I always had Toran watching me and caring for me, he was always there to bring light to my life, bur Sil, she does not have that advantage.

As for Chaynce, he seems to be doing well without her, well that was expected since he was who took the descicion of leaving her, he has his reasons I think, but that does not make him less be seing like the villain of this whole issue, last time I meet him in the campfire of our old adventure days, there we spend the night together with lady Ell, I feel some shame in this matter, since I feel really good being with him now, like the old times, we talk and laughter, he brougth some wine for us, I declined as usual, but that wine seems to be too strong for lady Iellwen who just fained after a drink of it. Chaynce seems to be lying to himself about Sil'via issues, I see in his eyes that he loves her, maybe not the most pure and sacred love, but love anyway, burt he is lying to himself, It can only bring laughter to me to hear him saying that he was done with women, such foolishness of his part, if you consider I have done that promise to myself, at least not for now, toran's will is about to be known in my case.

Anyway, Chaynce seems determineated in ending his love relationship with Sil, A shame, all the pain it brought and now it has come to ashes. And the only thing we can do about it is to move forward and heal our hearts, I have some advantaghe in that issue.

Well, I spoke to chaynce also of my life events, I explained all that was happening with Ell lately and our conversations, he was quite concerned about it, for goodness sake father I can tell you, he will never learn when to shut up his mouth, Once Ell awoke he start to ask her questions about her marriage issues, and well, we bid our farewell,  No damage done to anyone.

Now I hope this whole issue got fixed soon, at least Chaynce and me are able to travel again. and for that I am Thankful,

Toran be praised ... For the wisdom granted to me, and the chance of perform my duty.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on April 17, 2008, 03:18:43 AM
Toran be praised ... About faith and duty.

*From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen*

Father  .-

I am quite confused with lady Iellwen, I feel wrong in both ways,  only when I pray to Toran and do my duties I find true peace, but then it came back.

It seems that Lady Iellwen has decided to go away, I think I must tell you the whole story as it was,

Some days ago I was crafting some lion skins when she came up with a question, I have give her flowers as a token of apreciation in the past, with all that we have pass, and our diferrences she has accepted to my wishes to not bring any of Aragen's blessings upon me, and everything has worked fine until now.

But she came with a quiestion about flowers and love, she told me that she heard in a conversation that men only give flowers to women when there is an no honorable intent in that, only to .... intimate with her, and she was worried about that situation, I explained to her that it was never my intent, that I cannot think like that of a woman, I am first to my duty and my honor, and there is no honor in abusing flattery to get ... intimate with a woman.

Some days passed since this, we helped Abi and Berak to go mine some gems near Krashin, a missadventure if you ask me, Abi started to speak about gods and how they have ruined her life, and eventually she ran off, we were ambrushed following her, and eventually we all fall. It was in this trip that Lady Iellwen gave me a blue rose, That surprised me a lot, she is still gathering information about flowers and then she came with this.

Some days after, She asked me about how I was, to stay true father I don't know how I ended her telling how was trapped in this confussion. I told her of the fear I have for heresy in traveling with her. She simply left me father. She said that she never would like to harm me nor cause me trouble, She said that it seemed that her friendship caused me more trouble that good, and left me as that. She ran off to the docks,  I followed her.

I only spoke truth, then why I feel like if I have done something wrong.

We parted ways in the docks as I tried to speak with her.

There I meet with Balthazar Woll, this man seemed to be a troublemaker by profession, he seemed to have crossed hard words with the captain of a ship, as things got a bit more violent, I intervined to calm down the situation, well, Balthazar seems to not really like to get himself out ot trouble since he started to insult the captain again, eventually everything go fine as they apologize each other.

We ended traveling to Fort Vehl, as we set foot on the dock, Balthazar noticed my mood, and start speaking about the issue, Sosmetimes father I just wonder why the people don't understand how this is. I feel Toran running to my veins, making me feel alive, and giving me strength to go on, In Him I found stranght. But people continue saying that I am wrong. I know I am no wrong in following His principles and Aragern is simply not to be trusted, But.... then what about loyalty, what about paying friendship with friendship, how Could I pay in discourtesy or in pain, the good things people have done for me expecting nothing in return.

Toran be praised.... To you I raise my plea.... help your humble knight to see your will.

Toran be praised....
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on April 23, 2008, 03:13:00 PM
Toran be praised ... The shining hand of Toran.

*Lance's Journal is find open in a desk near as he is asleep in his cell at Toran's temple*

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father:

The world is changing way too fast father, and sometimes Toran acts in a mysterious ways to show us His will. I have been hiding from the world the pain I feel for the situation with lady Iellwen, concentrating my actions in helping people, that at least have brought joy to my heart, and have remind me of the things that are trully important, and where my alliegances should stay.

Well all this started, when I spoke to Izzy, she has been quite good to me, but she is stubborn as an Ox, or should I say as stubborn as Chaynce sometimes, She has quite quality, i feel really good when I speak to her , she seems to be trusty enough and I can speak freely with her. I have spoken of the situation with Lady Iellwen to her, and she has Insisted that I must leave the faith issues, and follow my heart desires, of course she does not know the happiness that Toran brings, anyhow she adviced me to send a letter to the shinning hand itself, Master Quantum Winword.

I have never speak with him, I have just see him once or twice, on our meetings at the temple, He has been busy leading the way to spreading the word. I started to writte the letter, but I never sent it, I feel that something like that must be fixed between Toran and Me.

Even , in that Toran has showed me HIS holy favor, I did arrive to Fort Hempstead some days after, when it happened, Near the fountain I found that Lwx'or and Rose where there speaking with another man, they were speaking about church matters, Figure out my surprise when I learned that the man was Master Quantum itself. Toran send his Shining hand to my encounter, this was obviously one of his signs, an omen.

Lex'or introduced me to him, he spoke highly of me, saying that I am one of the knigths of the order, and a faithful one, but that I need to learn some things before, Lex spoke that, my information would be found in his report.

I asked Master Quantum for an apointment, so he could give me an advice about the situation, he agreed in that, puting on a date to be confirmed.  

I am surprised to see that Master is a humble and simple man, one should expect that The shinning hand itself portrays pride and a regal presence, but much to my joy I see him speaking me like an equal, not that I will do the same to him, I must respect his position as one of our leaders.

After some time with us, he needed to leave us , Lex'or, Sister Rose and Omer traveled to Fort Vehl arena and do some training, I finally was able to meet with the young Scott, Lex'or son. He is a healthy boy and has a lot of the facial features of his father. And seems that him make Lex life shine with hope and love. I am happy for him.

Before we leave I asked Lex about what he was speaking with Master Quantum, And that was another way that Toran has sent me HIS omen, Lex'or said that I am being studied and reviewed as a possible rectruit for the Shinning hands, Could you believe that Father, I am really honored by this possibility, only time and dedication will tell, I am not sure that is my calling, but if Toran needs me there, I will answer swiftly.

Toran be praised... That Allow this knight to see your favor.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 02, 2008, 10:01:03 PM
Toran be praised... So the hand spoke.

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Father :

My toughts were right, and also Linus teachings, In humble I can see the right way of performing our duties, And in loyalty we found true peace.

Virtue is not always an easy path to walk, we are put to a test everyday and everywhere, we must remember we are mortals, not outsiders to emotions and our concience is our guide, Toran know it and chooses us because of that, We his knights has something in comon, Free will and the will of use it for the good of the world, In a way to be put to a test mostly a test of heart, it makes us feel alive, My heart has healed since Sil'via and it's not only whole again, but stronger now. I still care for her, but I will never fall for her like I once did, No matter that she is an important person to me. No matter she is far from me now.

This tests father, as you should know, made our life challenging. But once they passed, it fills us with insight, and joy, the joy that made us feel alive, the sensation of satisfaction one feels after understanding the world we live.

Finally I had my meeting with Master Quantum Winword, I must say It did not go as I would have expected, No matter the fact that he is a humble man, focused and wise, I would have hoped to meeting with him in great hall on a desk, wearing a royal tunic, but there was nothing like that, We meet in the open field, as a sign that we have nothing to hide, he greet me as an equal, answering with politeness as I spoke to him.

And so The hand Of Toran spoke to me. In his wisdom and life, I can see in him the humble way of performing I have persued, And in thatI feel and know that Linuw was right in his teachings.

I explained to him, the situation with Lady Iellwen, and he gave me his advice , I explain him the fear of heresy, in the name of loyalty, he smile at me and sighted as he was seeing something really familiar, as I explained him all the situation we have been thru, he watched me with a wide smile and a nostalgic look, He then adviced me to follow what my heart feels, sinc etoran resides in it, He said me that Toran teaches us to be loyal to those who are worthy, he said that he cannot be sure of taht , but maybe Toran put her in my way to show her the true path, To teach her about the ways of the leader, and beside that  as a test to us, that id she is so intrested in learning, then I should teach her the way of Toran, as our meeting end he said to me that there is no heresy in traveling with her, and paying her friendship with friendship, as long as I understand what she is, She is a Priest of Aragen, and I shall remember that before her name, he adviced me to keep my heart guarded, because if that friendship becomes love one of us would have lost the grace, That I could never do, I copuld neverleave Toran, After I said that, he gave me a sad smile, saying that I am faithful and that in that faith I must rest on hard times.

And so I left him, now I feel better and calm as his wisdom made me see what 've failed to see, A test of mettle, a chance to prove myself, and to be loyal, He remind me a lot to Linus, reserved and humble, watching always against arrogance.

I need to find Ell, soon, I need to apologize for my past actions.

Toran be praised... To you I trust my soul and my mind, to you I raise my plea for wisdom. Please guide me to the best for your church and to those you love... Let me be your hands to raise the weak, and your sword to punish the villanous..


Toran be praised
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 03, 2008, 11:30:04 AM
Toran be praised ... conclusion

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Father no much to say really, I have found lady Iellwen, the tension was hard at first , she was cold on her words and actions, I asked of a moment to speak, And well we end in the pond Near Hempstead, a usual spot for our dialogs, I have explained her that now I am more focused about my dealings with her, Also I asked her to forgive my past actions, since it was a non apropiate way of beheave.

We ended the night with some grape juice and laughter.

I am thankfull so my elven lessons can continue, she is quite a good teacher as she always use new words as we say farewell,

Toran be praised that teaches to do the right thing.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 16, 2008, 07:46:24 AM
Toran be praised .- For the sake of friendship,

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen :

Father:

Words are powerful weapons, they if misused can harm almost as the most keen blade, That must be applied to my two choosen brothers, Chaynce Baldu'umur and Izzy, they really are making this whole situation hard, saying all the time about Iellwen and me, This whole situation is escaping my hands, Now that everything seemed on Place, those two are making it harder.

For goodness sake I even insulted Chaynce, calling him a morron, Something I must admit fills me with shame.

But he doesn't hear to words, he's so self concerned regarding to it's opinions.

I might gather strenght to forgive and forget, I know they love me, but I must understand that they are blind to the grace of the great leaderl, they don't see why it cannot be done, Unless Toran send me a miracle.

Toran be praised ... resilense to our heart. sharpness of mind. Justice be served.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 25, 2008, 12:36:40 AM
Toran be Praised. A ring of Friendship.

Father:

I finally got that big buy for the bashers, I brought a new armor and some Jewerly that will make my work as a knight easier I hope. Also a very special gift. A ring of Divinity. I hav asked to be customized to Show an ankh in the front and the letters LS inscribed into the inner side of the ring. Also made it blessed in the holy pond at Fort Llast.

I met Iellwen at the central square of Hempstead, we spoke there about some things, then I escorted her to Mariner's hold near Alindor , the travel was quiet and calm, It feels weird since I haven't spoke to her about the incident that generatesd our last disagreement.

I wait till we walked out the Mariner's hold, Then I spoke my mind about it.

I have said to her how deeply I am sorry for the way I have trated her, in the past, since she is not the one to pay for the actions of my choseen brothers. I spoke clear and sound about that.

I gave her a ring, father, A ring to show her my friendship, nothing else, I acted as wisdom indcated I tell ehr that she is not the one who must pay for the actions of third persons, I respect her, since she has done everything I requested regarding Aragen, no blessings, no prayers. Only comprension and  friendship

For that acord I have sealed my friendship to her with this ring, I told her that no matter what happen in our future, I will always be her friend, an loyal one, no matter that people say, or what other people do.

I put the ring in her finger, and look at her as I spoke, So it ended, She smile back at me and give me a forgiving look.

As we continue or talking, we have came to another agreement, I have accepted that Aragen is in her life and Toran is part of mine, So no matter wha will happen in the future we are first to our duties, and second to everything else. If sometime fate and gods themselves put us in differents ways, we will do our best to fullfill our duty without detriment to our friendship.

So we depart, my heart and mind are in peace. She has been really good to me, father, I hope to continue on my elven lessons with her, and to travel.

She has proven to be very different to every other Aragenite I have met in the past, she is caring and a virtuous woman who has help me a lot in my past, My heart is whole again in part thanks to her, and she has been helped me a lot also with the understanding and learning of the elven languaje.

"Sila Anemill amulannyr eelam ama"

Toran be praised, he who gave resilance to our soul and understanding to my mind.


// elven reads : May Toran watch over we.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on June 10, 2008, 09:18:27 PM
Toran be praised. - Of the hands of the knight.

*From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen*

Me an Orcbasher ?

* Lance smile at himself as he sees the words written *

Strange is that My skill in the trade of the tailor is getthing unexpectadly higher , by now I am able to try to do lion bags, unfortunately I feel I am reaching to the top the training is able to getting me, it seems harder to learn new tricks on the table. Anyhow I was starting to wonder what should I do with this skill, then Toran send me an answer.

Lady Tegan spoke to me the other day, and have offered me full membership to the Bashers, I must say I have my doubts on the matter, since It snot my desire that such obligation impides me doing my sworn duty of helping those who cannot help themselves. The Orcbashers seems to be decent organization, and able to help a group such this is a great honor, Nonetheless, I must see how this works, I have asked to Lady tegan a trial time, so both parts can evaluate the alliance.

I must say at least seems like a good group Abi is the salesgirl, she can be a bit self centered sometimes, bur she is a good soul not to say Miss Tegan, Also one of my concerns is about the two Rofirenites who lead the guild Sir Barion Firestead, Abigail's father and a knight of the wyrm itself, Also Lady Serissa Winword, High protector priestess and Master Quantum separated wife, Marcus a traveling priest of Azzat'a seems like a nice adition to the group, that also ensures me at least someone who could heal me in the fabbled trips of the guild.

I have heard also that a Berylite is also a member, Master Star Saphire they call him. This is a minnor drawback I am willing to endure in an exchange of a greater good. Anyhow I'll try to put my best onto it.

May Toran light shine on my path, on this new endeavour.

*As Lance closes his journal and rest in his cell in Llast Temple *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on June 10, 2008, 10:40:17 PM
* Lance takes sometime in his travels to arrange his notes on elven languaje as he continues to study *

E .- I                  sela .- mine

aey .- you           aeym  - your
we .- ama          

alaa .- yes
il .-   a
illw .- and
ilma .- are             'ma .- 're
illa .- As
el .-   in
EO .-   Of
ane .- to
ean .- it

we .- Do
Fa .- Be
anireln .- think
laaw . -  need
saan .- meet
amulannyr .- watch
tymeananyean  .- Protect
cena     .-   like

amacc .- well
enila .- ok
ilmeviaran .- alright

Fyan .-     But
Amama .-    Were
ameec .-    Will
Sila .-     May
anirilin .- thank
Irrace -    Hello
amacnyesa - Welcome


aillaa .- easy
Lailoa .- Safe
Lasilman .- smart
ecw    .-   Old
Laamaaan .- sweet
ilvilel  .-  again
eelam .-     over
irama .-    here
anirela .-  this


mulelaaw .- raised
queyamlaa .- Journey
Iryl .- hun
Anemill .- Toran
nleviran .- Knight
tyilicilwel .- Paladin
Laem .- sir
Selaanam .- Mister
Anmiltya .- Traps
sal . man
nnyn .- kick
Anemilleana .- Toranite
feanir .- both
weesaw .- doomed
amilanamla .- waters
cilyviram ´.- laughter
vew .- God

Cilnya .- lance

* as he reads and practice in the deck of a ship he starts to write on his Journal*

Father, It has been some time since my first steps into this learning issue, A lot of lessons this elven has teached me , and I am not refering to the languaje itself, but to the other pains and joys it has granted to me.

I started this learning trying to understand Sil. She use it a lot, and well, sometimes is hard to reply to her when I can't understand her, Once that page on my life turned. Well I am not a man that easily quits an endeavour. And the chances has Arisen with Ell teaching me by the sole propose of doing it, I must say that is quite challenging since she uses the languaje as a Riddle, at first she used it to give hidden messages, those that in time after I found the answer makes sense and she was not around to reclaim her.

Like four long years has passed since that, I can barely remember those travels with Sil and her brothers, Elgon has helped me also with the languaje, not to let Chaynce out of the thanks of course.

By now I am able to understand specific questions, And I even have started to say my greetings and goodbyes to my elven friends in their mellodic Languaje.

I think I am getting near understanding it, or at least to speak it a bit more fluently. I still cannot believe I had a conversation with Ell in elven, A simple one , But a convestation itself.

I am by now traveling towards the Dragon Isles in search for that " laanyfeel " brother of mine.

Toran be praised, send his holy light to shine upon my path,
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 09, 2008, 07:53:27 PM
Toran be praised.... Family ties... truth, balance and wounds.

*This page is stained with some drops of Blood as the diary is laid open in Lance's chest in Toran's temple in Fort Llast*

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Father:

Why?

Why?

Is that true? Is my whole life a lie. What I am now? What kind of person have this doubts in his heart and soul. I have lived my life thinking to be fullfiling an oath of honor, but Now that I think of it it was never for you, I really never felt you, It was just my mind telling me what I wanted to hear?

I met a man, father, A man by name Aesthir Stargazer, my cousin and now my sworn enemy as he spoke of me, He said awful things of you, he said you were not the hero I have proclaimed, but a murderer and Tyrant, he proclaimed detaily how my mother's family was killed by his actions and plans, he said he used them for his own gain during the war, and that thanks to that militrary achievements I enjoyed the life I had in Kartherian. Father at first I doubt of his words, but then  my nightmares, all come to sense, I still believe in what you are in my mind. There is no way goodness can be born form evil, But....

What if they were right? What if I am Tainted. What if the priest during my training has right?

Linus teach me to not judge people without knowing, I have only acted in behalf of what I think is right, and I continue that way, No matter what people said, if I do otherwise I 'll be betraying myself and my Lord Toran. I have greater duty to attend and for that duty I must live.

Today father, I seal my oath to you. I must find the truth about you and in that the truth about me.

I am really sorry about what this will overcome, Since now my only alive cousin has declared himself my enemy, I hope to make him understand that I am not as good, but I hold little hopes for that.

One must learn from our past, if not we are condemned to repeat it. And as a Rofirenite he is not quite fond on Forgeting and judging a new once an idea has set in his mind.

I put our blood in this parchment Father, With all due respect I hope Aesthir is wrong about you. I really want to know, but I'll warn you that I won't live in a lie... no more.

Signed
*The letter is signed with blood*
Lance
-Dragonbane
-Stargazer
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 18, 2008, 06:00:57 PM
Toran be praised ... Tainted.

*another Joural page*

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen...

Tainted by heritage, is there a way to overcome this?, I am supposed to be a champion of goodness, a beacon of hope, an ligth to those who live and fear the darkness, or that is also a lie? I feel Toran still running thru my soul, blooming in my body with renewed energies. Conforting me and giving me hope. But that does not change the fact of my last events.

It seems that all around me gets harmed, even if I try to stand true to goodness, there is always something wrong, Am I guilty of this? I don't know, is like if I unconciently end doing a great harm to those around me to those I care about.

Ell...
Have I lost her?

I had a moment of weakness. And at the end in that I must live this pain, this one that tears me apart like a piece of paper, I knew it, i knew it , I knew it could not be done, I knew of before happened, But how can I be wrong, I have acted the way I have been all this years.

I think I must start form the beggining, Ell and Caerwyn met me near Leringard It seems that I was distracted and I did not see them as I passed, or simply can't remember.

In the last years I have found solace in her words and company, and as usual her presense filled my day with easiness, and her words gave another perspective, and for a moment I everything seemed to be alright when I was with her. She said that she believed in what I am, a true knight,

A knight of Balance she said.

One to exist to bring balance and wash the evil that was in my heritage if there was some on it.... A knight of Balance, ha...How can this be balanced,

Finally, i fail to heed Linus advice, Virtue is usually a recurrent face of evil or corruption, but how can I fail to see this how can I be wroing with her, she is virtuous indeed, A great advantage Aragen has in his power. And I blame him while i should be blaming myself for this. Aragen is the one who has steal her for me? How can my deeds be wrong?

To whom I am speaking, I am the one that turned her, When I tell her my feelings, I have been running for them for long time, Yes, I love her, I love her . yet I cannot be with her, and that is the right thing to do. Is it?

She said that she love me as well, but now I have lose her, she ran from me sayiong that I have not accepted what I feel, that I don't care what she was losing that day, That she respected me enough to mourn her loss, but I care, I cry silently for this, yet , my duty is first to me.

A knight I am... A knight Am I ?

Toran how can this feeling be wrong? Send me your light and enlightment, Send me the answers Please... Send them to me ....

Am I tainted ?... Send me a signal...
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 25, 2008, 08:51:23 AM
Toran be praised ... A life of selfsacrifice.

From Lance Stargazer quill and pen:

Life goes on, and certainly seems that I have destroyed her, she doe not longer smile as she used to do it, at least not in my prescense, she speaks of friendship, but why I don't feel what her words express.

I have shrug off the feeling of guiilty, there is no gain in that, I have decided that I need to do something about it. I am sure that Toran is sending me this as message, a test of mettle, a learning experience,  One that I must be ready to face the concecuences of finding my true self. Concecuences.

I must say that this situation pains me more than the one of Sil. but i certainly hope that Ell don't do any violent action against me. like her did.

Mariner's hold is getting better fast with the help of the comunity, I am prod to be a member of the Orcbashers, because I alone could not have done all the good we have done as a group, In my last trip I finally ended the document process, for the youn one, yes that baby I found half dead beetwen the debris of that cause a year ago. An orphan like myself.

I haven't seen Aesthir, nor heard of her doing. Maybe he has retired to some other places, who know , but I doubt I have seen the last of him. Better he stays away from the people I care for. Toran be merciful on him if i found that he harmed someone I ....  care for.

Good tidings as well, I have met a lady in the past days, a Initiate of the Order of the Shinning hand, one that studies under the wing of Beacon Anne Rivenwind, she has a strong grip of her sword and determination that matches, not to say fair face that matches. she acts strange sometimes, I have done the best of me to help her to se the path of Toran as I have been instructed into it.

As for my duties : Well Brian is in dire need, his soul has been in danger, he killed his own half brother, and I am doing the investigation, but seems that this has become quite late, he cannot be found him, instead there is a rumor on the street that says that he has dissapeared in a boat.

Not to mention the case of Muhk, he finally got caught. by Port hempstead autorities, and his hearin will be soon. He has afected the whole Angel guild with his actions. I must speak in the name of the truth if requested. and unfortunately the truth does not help Muhk. The truth is that one man died and another is incapacitated, Only because Muhk want to enter a city that has warned him that his prescence were not allowed.

*Lance waits a some moments as he thinks the next lines*

Caerwyn said ... give her time.... How could I do that as easily?, Last time I met her resting in a dungeon, I stand guard for her sleep, when she wake up and saw me there, she keep her cold posture, like if we were only just passing comrades,  How can i make her understand? I have expressed my intentions to her, and yet still...  * Lance sighs as he let the sengerce unfinished *

Anyway, her presence gave me a moment of happiness, she asked me about if I have ... been with a woman in the past.... I answered truthfully, That not, she has not done that as well, I fail to see why does she asked, or maybe I know too well, But i don't want to face this harm, not yet, not untlil we hve settled our lifes. And all the concecuences that await us for our descicions,

Lance ... Knight of Toran.... Trying to overcome himself.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on September 03, 2008, 10:26:25 PM
Toran be praised ... Serenade of truth.

From Lance Stargazer quill and pen:

Last night was wonderful, Toran be praised, on the truth that has come to us, I still cannot believe how after a few moments all the pain has gone.

I had some differences with Daniella, she seems to be holding the posture of the old orders of Justicars, we had a strong discussion on the matter of Redemption. She seemed too eager to find the evil in the hearts of creatures, not stoping to think on the matter of redemption. Anyhow I hope she sees the light that Linus teachings has shown to me all this years. The life in search for Redemtion and justice.

As for Ell. I headed to the small shrine on whrere Great Juju rest, I needed to pray, that place always bring me peace, like a reminder of my own failures and achievements, that is why I was not surprised to see her there.

She was standing below the pale light that the moons gave us, She stand there in her beautiful dress, waiting and meditating. I must say that the meeting was a bit strange, unconfortable I must say, We spoke and she started to speak on the marcus wedding, she will be doing the ceremony, And since Marcus has asked to me to be one of his best man, there is no way I could miss that.

Then it started she told me that she had dealed with her feelings and that she had let me go. I spoke to  her, I explaining her my reasons and my toughts. In the end my words matched my feelings. And she accepted into her life. She will be there for me, and we will be fighting on this,

Anyhow, Is this wrong? I am commited Injustice in the name of love, I must not let Aragen's blessing fall on me, I am still his knight. As long as I am true to myself, I will be true to her, and foremost true to my lord .

May Toran guide me... May Toran allow us to find the path... May Toran be praised.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on September 18, 2008, 09:22:35 PM
Toran be praised ... Love, a test of faith.

*From Lance Stargazer quill and pen*

My journal.. the one who knows me and has learned with me all this years, you know the trilas this knight has passed, and you know how hard last tests had been, I have done it, I accepted my love for her, and I that is the true I hold in my heart. Toran knows that my faith is still in him, not a single doubt on my resolution, but....

Ell is worried about me, and my standing as a knight. She said to me that she has nothing to lose, and I ... she is affraid our love destroys what I am... I must say that at first those fears assaulted me as well, but I am what I am no matters what happen i am true to myself in this... I leave the descion to Toran , he will measure if I am worthy of his favorr.

She went to the temple of Llast, and requested an interview, she want to know why? And since I understand why, she wanted to find a way. The high Priest Marl attended her, I was amazaed to see the support Caerwyn  Amanda and Trouble has given to her. they are certainly her friends.

Ell was troubled in there, she feared for her to be thrown out the temple, but as expected that did not occurr, MArl acted polite and answer at his best ability all the questions thrown at him, then she asked ... At that moment I felt my soul being teared... I know where my place is. asn observing that I stand there watching and observing as she asked.... she asked....

IF there was a consecuence of an Aragenite to court a Toranite.

Marl aswered that it would be possible but not advisable, that eventually we would be find something that The Toranite and aragenite would differ... and then if they act as they do they will be fighting to honor their duty.. I must agree on that with Marl, I am sure that Ell is a good and caring lady, but she is still true to her convictions, that at least i respect of her, she always has spoken to me with truth.  

I stand to the front and speak to Marl, since it was not fair that she was carrying all the weight on this...

Now some days has passed. The love of this woman would be your most dificult test of faith... A test of mettle.. Is there a way to make her more special? In loving her and standing true to myself, I  will be honoring HIM.

I am so happy, for me and her... We are finally together.

Argos is getting better each day that, he is getting awoke more and more time each day that passes soon I'll take him out of the temple, Ell has seen the boy and well this little one has filled my world with hope. again.. well our world.

Toran be praised to allow me to recover in them the family I lost so long ago.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on November 07, 2008, 10:47:16 PM
Toran be praised .... the way of the knight...

*As the evening falls over the Haft lake district of Prantz, Lance is seen getting out a black leather covered book from a chest in one of the rooms, he smiling remove the dust of it as he smiles looking at the family crest that adornates the cover, for a moment some hessitation invades him, but finally with secure step he walks off the the main room and sits on his desk and the great chair opening the book, he stretches feeling unfamilar confort as he passes the pages and reads thru the passages , with a smile he reads until he finds the first empty page on it*

From Lance Stargazer quill and pen :

Oh my old journal I had you quite forgotten, didn't I ?

I just wanted to write on again on you, to update my memories to the date and that it serves as testify of all the blessings the Great leader has send to me. I could not see how to start ..

First and foremost a lot has passed since I write here.. Master Quantum was in dire need, he was abducted by his nemesis, undeads and Corathites, those were stressfull moments. Oh joy of joys he is safe and alive, he has suffered too much but he endured as Toran protected him, he will be back in his old self with no failure, of that I am sure and I pray for it everyday.

Milady Daniella has become stronger in faith, I am proud of her and all her achievements, certainly a sould that could lead this church where I cannot take it. Praised be Toran in her deeds. I think we have come to understand ourselves with the absence of Master Quantum, where there was once differences , now there are only sound respect, it was due our leadership on the searches that we were able with Toran's guidance to find a lot of clues to find him, and a lot of undead abominations were disposed in order to find him,

With this said I have finally come to a mind towards my future on the church. I am glad to see Lex'or still in good health, in all this I have decided to chose the path I have followed since the start . I am knight one that should bring with my deeds balance to the lands, atonement for the sins commited by my blood and flesh.  So I have declined my invitation to join the shinning hand order, I must live humble as I have been teached. in that humility I will find salvation for my soul and the ones I love.

*he stops abruptly observing a blue rose he keeps on his desk as a rememberance, then he gets and put on the desk a simple memento.. a braid made of white and auburn hair blend into one braid with a jade brooch of smple design, he stays there observing the momento for long time then put it on the desk to be able to see it when he looks to the  far end of the desk*

Caerwyn has finally joined our great Orc's basher's family, the man is as I have seen it a shadow of his former self getting strenght of Toran knows where, since he and Amanda are no longer together. I must say that I feel shame for being unable to help Caerwyn in this matter, but maybe.. this is just what he needs to find his true way. Or maybe just a test to his love. Only time will tell on that.

Not all are good news, Trouble tempest has passed away and quite young, a man full of spirit and energy, this has striken Ell quite hard, and I felt so ... frustrated on that time.. unable to do something for her. .. Like if .. I don't know how to say it.. Like if part of her dyied with him, I was shaken to see her that way, she is as usual quite strong to the world but inside she is still a little girl learning and testing.. she stand the worse test one should face, to tell to the parents of the death of their son.

*he stops again to cleanse his sweat, meanwhile a small white cat sleeps at his feet, with a smile Lance take some grape juice and returns to his writtings just glancing at the braid again *

Toran has performed such miracles to me.. and for that I am thankfull. Ell ... my Ell will marry me.. We have overcomed our problems. Well almost all of them but our love is strong. As our souls and convictions, She left my life for some time, understandable with Trouble departure, but she came back to me and for that I am so thankful, Journal we bought a house. A place to call our own to be able to rest and smile at us, to enjoy ourselves on our common presence. and she has accepted me with all in my life, My past and my future, my duty and my heart, and the more important she has accepted Argos as her own .

Sadly is that we will not be able to have natural children on our own, I would never question the gods design for the bigger picture, I must say that for that reason Argos has been a a blessing to our life, the young boy has recovered his strenght ..and now wields and trains as I started to do it long years ago, with the trademark weapon of my family.. the greatsword. A wooden great sword made by Caerwyn not to say the least, and he is learning fast.. way to fast if I must say, I am afraid that soon I will need to remove the sword form him, he has at least found company on Marcus kids in the neightborhood., some blocks form home , well he and Jill seems to be doing quite well as Well.

For all this Oh great leader I want to thank you. For allowing me to serve you and to put all this blessings on my path.

With Devotion, Lance Dragonbane Stargazer .

*he looks a moment for what he just wrote and sighs a moment and then scratches the Dragonbane word saying to himself ... - Not ready  yet - Why? *

*he then closes the journal as he hears sound coming from the entrace, as he raises his sight a slim and gracious elven lady is seen walking within the house in her hand he is carrying a joung boy in his scarce 6 years  , they aproaches smiling with pies on their hands, Lance stands to met them, with care he comes and kiss the lady and  uncombs the ordered hair of the boy. and they together leave the desk hall in middle of laughs and pie jokes *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 05, 2008, 03:32:18 AM
Toran be praised .- The faces of the duty.

*Lance is seen sitting near a young apple tree on his backyard, resting in a confortable silk tunic with his hair loose and his journal open, he observes a young 8 year old boy playing near the lake that is near his home, with a smile and his eyes full of spirit *

Strange is how duty comes to every man, years has passed and it's hard to believe how things have changed, Now I am responsable of a life, In order to teach him to be a good man. I don't know what to think, now that my life is a bit more stable if that is the word I would apply.

*he then gives a glance to the tree then to the house then to the boy*

Time has passed yes, and I have grown as person in all this years, what can I say, sometimes I miss my old life, roaming the land as a free knight, but duty is not only that. Now Argos is filling my life with the joy I never had as a boy, In him I found the salvation of my soul, and my redemption.

*a slight trace of saddness appears on his face as he continues to write *

Sir Barion has passed out, finally it was too much for him, I wonder sometimes if I end as him, a bit sad I must say, he saw his wife die, and his daughter as well, and he seemed taciturn, like just waiting for the final strike, He has passed and I feel his duty falling on my shoulders, I must say that I have seen this outcome, I have been training to become a help to him when he decided to step out or die, but I am not ready, my training of metalworking does not even comparates with his, Anyhow, I will not let all his work come to ashes, The guild will not die, not in my watch.

*he then takes a breath and lays the journal to one side observing the landscape, after some moments he takes his journal back *

The dark Elf, Sion, I am starting to feel guilty about Miss Daniela leaving her room at the temple for this situation, I am really intrested in his rehabilitation, but this situation is not making easy, May I be wrong about this, what about all that I have been teached about redemption?. I must not give up on him, he need help, and it's our duty to help him, And we must accept the consecuences of our actions, that is what makes us learn. This might be a lesson for all of us, Even Miss Daniella and myself.

*he shakes his head* Ell suggested that I might bring the dark elf home, to see Argos, I am not sure if that is a good idea anylonger, after the mob we face just outside the temple, this need some thinking.

I just needed this , this tree, Ell planted it from an apple I gave him some years ago, in a trip to Alindor, and it's growing as my love for her, observing it reminds me all the good things that this new life has brought to me, how duty is not a burden but a blessing. Somethimes I miss my old life, but observing the new one and the blessings it has brought, I would not change what I have now.

Toran be praised . L.S.

* Lance closes his book and put it back on a lion bag as he closes his eyes falling asleep under the tree, enjoying to finally be at home *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 09, 2008, 03:56:56 AM
Toran be praised ... Of weakness and Strenght.

*In the fields near Dalanthar, near the viper's teeth on a ledge over a lake the blue and gold armor of a knight rest on the sweet weed near a mantle on the floor where two figures are seen. The knight in a blue tunic observes his elven companion as she rests in reaverie state with her head on his lap, the rests of pie roasts and grape juice are seen around. The open book is seen in the mantle as the knight toys with some strands of hair of the resting lady *

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen :

What is this ? The test of a knight ?

Dear Journal is love such a weakness for the heart ?

I had not felt this sensation in so much time, almost since my childhood. My lady Ell was in dire danger today, and I am feels sometimes not strong enoungh, she trust me, she has said it, but what would be if I am not strong enough to protect her, My faith is strong, but my body is still the body of a mortal.

She found me at the guild house, she came all the way just to see me, Fortunately my chores at the guild were over by  the time she arrived, So we decided to do a minning trip to get iron. We had a lot to speak, We went to the iron mines near Dalanthar. as usual Ogrillons deny to negotiate, and it end in bloodshed, Ell is usually able to defend herself quite good , but today something happened that made me go cold.

On our way down to the mines, we got ambrushed, The creatures swarmed her using the knowledge of the caves to their advantage. Time stoped for a moment as I saw clearly how one of them pushed her taking her off guard.

I saw it clearly. as she fall back she moved fast enough to avoid fall totally defenseless, I paled at that moment, I saw it clearly as the rest of the creatures jump to finish her, It is strange how relative distance can be, I was some feet away yet not even able to do anything to avoid her in danger.  I lost control of myself, I charged not even worring for my own safety. I have seen what an oponent in the floor is unable to do, and the advantage that is to an enemy not to say to a horde of enemies as well prepared as the ones we were facing, I jumped to the hitting and cuting, flesh and blood was all i saw at that moment, I felt so powerless, as my sword slashed foes around, they were simply too  many of them.

I know what would happen if I fail in reaching her, I figth that way sometimes, the lack of training of my oponets are used to turn his own strength  or weight against them, then finishing them in the floor is not a dificult task.

Fortunately I get to her in time, I was oblivious to the pain, and when the battle ended I noticed the strike and the blood on my right side, a deep wound of axe that hitted as I ran to protect her, fortunately I was able to reach front her and once she got herself up, the rest of the battle ended quite quick.

I don't know how to describe what I felt. Rage. Impotence, Is the love I have for this woman a weakness to my technique ? No. It must not be seen as that. She healded my heart as Toran did. She gave me reasons to fight for, but ... why then I felt that way ? In time here with her, I have been thinking on this, A weakness, no, A strenght of sort, If feels this is what make one to be sure to be alive, this way is how you know you are still human, She is my greatest test Marl said, and this is only part of it, Toran put her on my way to draw strenght from her, To honor Him in loving her.

We have spoken and seems that I cannot speak to her parents yet, she said they are on a trip on Kuhl helping to the war victims, a noble cause I must say, yet she was a bit sad as I am,  when I spoke of Argos.  She has diferent reasons to be sad, I told her that I spoke to the handmaiden of Az'zatta, she is fine dark elf lady, she was kind enough to leave the temple to met me on the outside, respecting my bows.  And she said that Marcus spoke to her of the matter, And that they welcome my son in the temple. I paid her for his stay, I don't want for him to be a burden, Somehow I know they just accepted the trues due cortesy. the handmaiden said that the only condition for him to be accepted, is that the boy would be delivered by both parents.

Of this I spoke to Ell, she is sad for not having the boy around the house.. A month is too much time to not see our boy, my hopes are that he wants to back in a week or so, We might deliver him soon, this is another part of the test.

Some weeks ago, when I spoke to the lady in Audira, Miss Daniella was shocked about him not following Toran, I must say that I am kind of disapointed myself, and I think Milady Daniella might think I am not doing quite fine with the boy, of course that she will never say something like that. Even knowing that she hold no ill will her words harmed me, but I stand still, Faith is not a matter of obligation, its a matter of the heart.

My duty stands in teaching the boy to be a good man, and to speak to him of the virtues of the great leader, and to lead by the example, Other than that I cannot do, he is a free soul, I just hope he come to follow my steps, but if he doesn't he still be my son, and nothing can change that.

Toran watch over us.

Lance Stargazer, knight of Balance in Toran's service.

* As the sun goes down he observes the lady again and makes himself sure his sword is at hand, with a smile he caresses her cheek and then whispers the words "E ceela aey, Acc" then leans over a stone and closes his eyes to rest as well *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 05, 2009, 11:27:47 PM
Toran be praised ... Farewell ..

*The rain fell had that day over the hills near the Ziange river, there a crowd gathered to say a final good bye to someone, the knight is seen, with a grim face observing the fresh grave, behind him an elven lady is holding a little boy who is observing the scene with melancholy

As the evening progress  people are coming and going, after some hours, only some people stays,

Chaynce comes closer to his brother in arms, and they share some words, The knight can't help but to frown at something his brother said, but eventually, they smile sadly at each other, as the "Protector of Paladins" leave the area greeting to the elven lady and to the boy.

Lance looks back towards Ell and Argos as they aproaches to hug him, Lance with a grim face tries to smile at them , but his usually cherful smile is betrayed by the inner sadness he felts over his soul

They take the way off the small sanctuary, leaving two graves alone *

From Lance Stargazer quill and pen :

It's gone... he is just .... gone.. .

In a way I feel like I failed to him... Scott, my Scott is gone..

I have sent letters to his family in regarding his death, this will not be that way, I need to learn, I need to know if really was him who is behind this.

In Toran I'll swear that I'll find him and if he is responsable he will paid. People around the temple said that he was frequented by a man in gold and white, under a hood to cover his features.

Please Toran don't let HIM be behind this, but if he is lend me your strenght to punish the guilty and to serve true justice, by word and deed.  Don't let me fail in this feeling that burns me..

In Toran I trust..

I cannot help to think if I am doing well in accepting Lex'or son under my tutelage, Worse is that he shared the name with my fallen squire.

Scott gravedigger, I have met him and It's just unbelivable i hold him on arms some years ago, the boy is growing as a strong man as his father, By now I have just seen him during the trainings that is given to the rest of the squires. he shows spirit in a way. In time I'll start to speak with him to start his formal training as knight, Linus teachings will pass from me to him I think. That is what must be done, that is why Linus wrote this book.

I... just need to rest.... to meditate..

Toran be praised,... toran be praised.... toran be praised..
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on March 28, 2009, 11:34:32 AM
Toran be praised. .. About mercy and evil

*The sounds of movements are heard in the house, an elven lady carrying bandages all over the place is seem real busy, walking thru the rooms on the house, in the main room the knight is seen resting in his bed, with the journal at his side, he seems rested and in a way happy, as the lady comes and goes checking on him, they are seen sat spending time together, and just speaking, laughing and enjoying their company *

From Lance Stargazer's quill and Pen.

Mercy... Is that an instrument of the evil to cheat on the weak of spirit? What does that means ? By mercy I put Argos life in Danger, thankfully no much damage was done there, yet Alas, if something had happened to him, i wonder what Would I have done.

It was in Audira last week, I heard that a crimminal was going to be executed, and a carnival was held to see that, I went there with Argos to look at the carnival, when we arrived there, we heard that the prisioner was asking for a last wish, I understand that redemtion can be gained even, but in a way, One must be wary that it might be used as a tool to seed strife.

I was with Argos at the beach, he was visiting his friends near the Az'zattan temple, I was interviewed by the head priestess about him and when we will deliver him, Seems that Marcus still speaks of him on the temple, I have been trying to avoid taking him there, but it all depends on Argos, he has been calmed on the matter lately, mostly because of his training and the scarce friends he has in home, I just hope it keeps that way.

Well it ended as expected, the criminal was not repent of his actions at all, he reeks of evil, when i saw him, my head hurt, his soul so putrid that the stench could be smelled in all the room, but strange enough only could have seem to notice it, he wanted to show a token of apreciation to a former exgirlfriend. I was in the idea of giving said present "after" the execution, unfortunately i was not heard. it seems taht the cur has set up an ingenous plan for him to go away, with the help of some people he was able to seed all alomng the city small gems, enchanted to explode in due time, the declivery of said rose it was the trigger for those events.

It was the first gem that hit Argos. I saw how the explosion happened in the docks and how the sand and Debris were raining all over the place, As the people run and the wouded lies there I started to move the ones I could near the temple for them to get help, at first i feared the worse, Argos was not where he was moments ago, My heart stopped at that very moment, yet a moment of hessitation would cost lives, I shrug off the moment and i keep helping people meanwhile i was looking for him with the sight.

It ended that lots of gems were spread all over the city, giving time to the prissioner to escape with the help of some of his associates.

At the end of the day. I found Argos, he was helping at  the temple, he was bruised and with mild burns, and yet he was still helping people, I am so proud of him, seems that he is learning the bandage aplication and cure techniques from her mother, yet his work is still crude, he is doing his best, he ended tired, when he saw me he ran towards me, and started to check on me as well. I must say I did not ended well after the last search I cannot hear well, and by that is that I cannot walk very well right now. he was alive but really tired, Toran be praised for that.

We took the first caravan back home, a shame, I was hoping to give a lesson to Argos regarding mercy with this man, and seems that I was the one learning one, Also i now see Argos in a very diferent way, he is no longer the weak boy he was when I met him, he is becoming a man of convictions and spirit of service, I'll propose him to take to the citadel of Toran, maybe he would like to enlist himself as a knight or as squire, his training will serve well there.

By now since I cannot do good on the field I am in home resting. My lovely Ell is taking care of us, She has stayed home with us and taking care of ourselves, she lends me her ears, as time passes with her, I told her how I feel on this matter, I feel a bit guilty on putting our son in danger, she as usual have conforting words, yet the feeling simply does not go away. She seems distant sometimes, like if she was thinking on something, but we are spending time together thanks to this, and that per see is a blessing bestowed upon us.

I really miss them, and this moments i treasure with my soul.

Lance Stargazer, knight of Balance in Toran's service.

*The room is filled with good mood as another lady enters the room helping the boy to walk, she carries a pie that is started to get sliced and shared *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on March 30, 2009, 07:49:15 PM
Toran Be Praised .. Time for the standing

*The eerie light enters the campsite in the moors, near the road a tent is seen, the rain falls witout mercy upon the pelts that covers the knight camp, who is shivering with the cold, the exploration has surely taken his toll, as his eyes show tireness and his body is seem bandaged all over, as he prepares himself to rest, renewing his bandages, and Setting for rest the journal lays over one of his packs open as  the ink starts to dry*

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen

War is at our door, and I must answer to the call, finally our fears become a reality, I have been spending a lot of time in patroling the moors. hopefully my shinning armor would serve as distraction to those more skilled explorers that must be putting their efforts on this issue as well.

Sleeping has been rough lately, if any at all, The patrols are taking their toll indeed. But one cannot become too confident, the battle with the small group we found in Storan's are the living proof of this, Now it seems that the army of the cult has set step in Mistone. they are acting as small cells, acording to what that Cultist soldier said.

We must stay focused on these, with sharp eyes ready and sword at hand, At least we now know that the enemy is looking for something really special, not an ivasion per se, This is even worse, with an invasion we know what to expect, but with this. It's rumored that they are looking for some kind of artifact, It could only gather that they are looking for the fabbled bloodpools, or however those things are called, I tought they were gone with Blood being defeated. I must look to Haartwarden Truaxe and the bird Lord.

In dire time is that Master Quantum has left us, I pray for his guidance on this time of need. Toran has deem worthy to send his hands to help, All of milady Daniella's brothers has come to Mistone, and another lady that answers to the name of Ava Straus, They are getting real good on their trainings. I wonder what happened to Arthur. Last time we spoke I was intending to start teaching him of Toran's words and deed.

I wonder what is happening home, the last expedition is taking longer than expected, I miss Ell, and Argos, it has been more than a month since I have known of them, Once this expedition is over, I'll go and see them, I have been gathering a nice surprise for them, I just hope to finish it soon, It's a mighty cart all full in blue roses, Resembling a lot our place at Hlint, I..  I must stop thinking on this. I am no good if i find myself dead on this investigation, Keep the toughts for when peace is at hand, by now Duty calls on me.

Lance be Strong, have faith and remember why are you doing all this?. Gather strenght in the tougth that this war threatens  the life of inocents, and in a way, your family, If the enemy is stopped here, then they'll be safe.

Toran, look over us, and concede your knight the grace to fullfill my duty, and if it's on your will, to see my family soon.

Lance Stargazer, your knight of Balance.

*The weary knight stays moveless, resting on the floor of the tent, as the rain starts to lessen the punishment of the it, the knight rest is troubled, his expression does not make him seem quite relaxed, as he pronounces words of home in his sleep"
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on April 10, 2009, 01:27:41 PM
Toran be praised...  The measure of duty.

* The journal lays on the front desk as the sound of thuds are heard on the house, back in the warehouse a Keia is preparing something to eat for the the knight and the boy who are practicing, with ease, the knight does strikes and blocks on the boy movements*

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

I am home.

Am I?

I don't know what to think, It should be a happy moments i would have been living, but not this time, I feel strange here, Its all the same house, the same roads, but ... it feels so weird, no longer at least for now I feel welcomed here. Ell ...  She is not well. . And it pains me to see her that way. Argos still look at me oddly, yet he does not say a thing, he has accepted fairly well the sword and shield style, seems to have started to understand the basic movements, That is real good, since I am teaching the way of the knight.

Even with the strangeness here, I see that he and Ell are quite well, they are quite united, She is taking good care of him, And sometimes i just miss to see how he is growing, After his beheavior at audira, i am real proud of him.

Speaking of Ell. I .. just don't understand it. I am home to be with her, I am so excited about seeing her again, it has been some time, this was meant to be a joyous situation yet, she has been away, here but not here.

My trip here was a eventfull one, I was finishing my last exploration trip, when i met Miss Drexia, She was in need of some Saphires as she said, and she requested aid, she has been honorable in my dealings to her, and certainly, I honor her friendship but that is all what she means to me, On the trip to Dregar, I was telling her, that I was going home to see my boy and my love, She seem pleasant to the idea and happy to hear, I am getting this life, As We walked towards The Sinester forest, we found Ell resting at the entrace of it. I was so happy to see her before time, but she ... she smiled at me but her pulse spoke diferently.

We went into the cave named by explorers O' Teagor, and we battled the fierce trolls, Aided by the grace of Toran we got victorious on the task, We made camp outside the cave to rest and get some mine.. In the mean time I aproached Ell meanwhile miss Drexia was resting. And well i don't know what triggered her attitude. I started to tell him I was on my way home, and that i met miss Drexia on the way there, then her reaction really shocked, She said that I don't have to give any explanations, unless I was doing soem liason. I just looked at her. I don't know how she can say something like that, how even she can think of something like that ... that harmed me real deeply. yet i kept my wits on me, and told her that she would never fear for that , I am honorable and good for my word. She then said that she was waiting to study my reaction from it, Geez. she said that she was worried .. she said that she was wondering if i was tired from her.. how can i be ?

Well the rest of the trip went eventless , adn when we were on the way back to the civilized lands Ell, simply left us, she said that she had to go home to see Argos, yet she made it sound like if she does not wanted me near her.

I Spend some time in the woods as I saw her leaving, I was so crushed, What did I do this time? I just have been fighting for inocents, the war is coming to us, and Mistone is in dire need, Drexia stayed with me and brougt conforting words. As usual her wisdom is apreciated.  She said that I need to show her that I care for her.

I have decided to stay a month here, I will stay with them for the whole month, The war in Mistone, My family. I know where my place is, I know where my duty stands.

Toran give me your grace, on this moment of need, give me the strenght to stand what life has brought to me on this day.

In your grace , Give me the confort of a duty well done..

And take care of my family. As I know I cannot take care of them myself, A month I will be at home, only a month..

For your grace, In your holy Name..

Lance Stargazer, knight your knight in so much need of your balance.

*the sound of the training stops as Keira aproacehs with the breakfast for the ones doing the training, in the house the ambient feels so tense, and the breakfast pass without not much words exchange.*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 05, 2009, 08:12:12 PM
Toran be praised .... The tests of Solitude in a crowded place

Dear Journal :

Time goes quite fast, I have already passed some weeks since I came home, two weeks and half to speak truthfully, I have been trying to "live" thru this situation, Ell is not here, she has been going in and out quite recurrent, Last night i was speaking with Argos and practicing , Preparing a big trip for fishing, We were just waiting for Ell, we three would had at least a family trip. yet she came and wait for us to be toghether to say that she had to leave, to attend matters on the Temple, In a way I was broken, yet.. I am so confused. I know she has her duty as well, I admire the dedication she puts into her belief, that is part of the beauty i see on her soul, even if that diligence serves not the right or the most noble cause, she is a caring lady, and she is quite different from her breathen. . Or was that me trying to justify the fact she does no longer wants to be with me ?

I... I must not think this things.  We have been honest to each other, and we have passed thru a lot, yet I would hate to harm Argos on the verge of this, We need to work on this.. but how can I , if she does not allow me to.. Time will help us I hope ..  I pray to the Great Lord to show me the path with his light, and to give patience to my mind and resilence to my soul, With his help the best will come for me...  no... for us..

I wonder what happened to us. The war is said that destroys families, but I am just doing my duty, she should understand that, I have been always like that, now I wonder how much guilt has to be put over me for this situation,

I love her, but had i shown her it?  Seems that the cart of flowers was a bad idea after all, she does not even look at it, and I have pierced in my mind her reaction when she saw it....  I ...  made... her ... cry ...

I am thinking on dumping the whole thing, I guess there is no good in having it around to keep harming her. I ... What should I do..

what should I .....

*the writings ends suddenly*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 10, 2009, 10:28:55 AM
Toran be praised - Departure...

*the rain falls mercyless over the house as the pile of bags is seen aligned over the main hall of the house, As the knight observes to the lady in meditation on the bedroom, he just sight as he hessitates with a blue rose on his hands, finally desciding not leavint it near her, he turns tries to smile at himself, failing totally on the intent, his face is expresionless, and for a moment doubt shows in his eyes, yet the moment passs quite fast. he returns to the bedrom and gently places a soft kiss on the forehead of the meditating elf, leaving the room with slow pace whispering  "Anecc aanamleana sa wailm". as he walks he restrains himself for sheding a tear, he knows where his duty is and why is he needed there, the month passed too fast, in a way too fast for his liking, yet he had to come back,

He picked his packs and heads towards the boy room, as he observes him resting and tired, The knight smiles, he mutters a small prayer for protection of his family and then closes the door

As he see the portal he stops and turn around to look at the wooden walls of his home, he sighs and finally realizing that he is still holding the blue rose on his hand , he smiles at himself, finally he leaves the rose over a small table near the portal, and gather his spirits, whit a determinated look he gives a deep sight and the steps thru the portal heading back to Mistone.

The house is silent and quiet for some moments, until a femenine figure comes near and pick the rose with a sight, putting it back at the table after observing it for some moment and sigh as well , he then give a last look to the portal.

Ell had been observing Lance departure after being disrupted by the kiss, enters the boy room finishing his meditations there.*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 16, 2009, 08:26:33 PM
Toran be praised.. For the sake of Posterity. The son, the mother and the father choices.

*As the sky got wild, in the desertic city of Audira, as the anouncement of the incoming storm, three figures are seem over the sandy terrain, As the casual obserber looks closer, Lance , Ell and Argos share their moments together as much as they can, near them The Az'zattan temple awaits with both of his big doors open, as the dark elf priestess comes out with a smile and slow pace.

The moment seems to be tense, as the priestess comes closer, The knight and the elf are holding hands tightly, his face expressionless, his movements tense, her instead with with a calmed expression yet, her nervosism is aparent, The boy instead looks proudly at his parents from time to time, as he looks at the dark elf coming near him.

They look at the priest and gulps as he sees how with each second the boy is far from him, he had descided to dedicate his life to the lady of mercy, The most hard test the knight has faced, losing his son to Toran's light, no matter how good the intents are, and how much his head tells him that there is nothing wrong with it, his heart bleeds and aches, as an old pain, an old wound that never closes, he winces and holds even tighter the lady hand, producing a reaction upon her, She reacts looking at him oddly but giving a reasuring smile, he smiles back yet his heart got a bit calmed.

Finally minutes passed and the priestess finally met the trio, they greet each other with courtesy as the boy is being relased by their parents grip and being held by the dark elf, The couple looks at the Priest and the young man, gathering his will, the knight smile, And the boy the dark elf enters starts to walk inside the temple.

Ell comes near the knight which stands inmovile at the scene and lays a kiss on his cheek, and caressing her other cheek, whispering some words at his ear, Then her moving to follow to the Boy and make sure the acomodations are fine.

The knight stands there observing , knowing that no matter how much he would like to be with his son, he won't under any circunstance break his vow. He is what he is, And nothing can change that, Gathering his will, he starts to walk towards the inn, once he lost the sight of them.

As the knight walks the sky breaks with the fiercest storm that the desert has seen in some years, as if the heaven reflects the trioubles the man is feeling.

Yet life continues.... *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on June 02, 2009, 05:18:43 PM
Toran be praised ...  Of the death and the loss..

*The knight observes the broken blade as he waits for the the person, he are supposed to met, his face looks troubled, this is an encounter he had been waiting, yet his reasons are not the ones he expected

As the man dressed in white and gold apears with his face filled in pride, his hatred shown in his face, the cold stare deposits on the toranite knight, the gaze of both men clenched, in a duel of wills no word spoken beetwen them, yet the scene was specific as it can be.. they hold no love for the other

The time started pass when they finally step forward, the blades ready to answer in case it was needed.

The Toranite his hand high as the Rofirenite aproaches him, with a straight expresion the knight in blue gets a package in a golden cloth and extends it to the one in gold, The Rofirenite smirks as he does it, and with untrusthy steps ahead to take it without removing the sight of the other a single moment.

As Aesthir takes the package and open it , his eyes are filled with Anger for a moment, being that replaced to by his cold stare and return to the other knight *

This is for you, - Lance said - A very brave man and one of the few that amoung your kin, that deserves being called worthy descided that it would rest in your hands.

Aesthir smirked at Lance

Well done Dragonbane, I heard the story of his fall, how he bravely fought to help you, and in the end he perished , *his smirk become a cold stare * yet you are here. It was well planned, On that i congratulate you, I could have not done it better, and that you are here, and your son alive is the living proof of that.

The toranite frowned at him, - Don't even try to insinuate that , corrupt one, you are not half the man that was lost there, and Don't dare to ever call me that again. he fell and his lost is a burden to my soul, because with people like him your church still have hope. now what we have... you... And with that the lost of the soul and the inocence. you don't deserve to be called his friend, nor the honor he gave to you. Only due the will and his honor memory is that I don't strike you down , right now, right here...

*The rofirenite with a cold stare and serene look shaked his head at him *
Now you deny it, Dragonbane? , now you'll plead your inocence on the demise of a inocent. Oh.. you could have decieved everyone, everyone but me. I know who you are, I know what is in your soul , and your very acusations here, and the threat to kill another official of the mighty gold just proves your guilt. what are you going to do now?. Kill me and then will tell to everyone that you are the good guy?, that you don't know who and what your father comited? That your blood is not tainted with evil and corruption?

No , you are not going to do that. Because you love who you are in the deep, you need the corruption to feed your ego, and you cannot negate your very foundations. If not, Why to revive your father in your son, Why Argos Dragonbane will walk the lands again? But rest asured.  I have been observing him, and that lovely lady of yours as well. so distracted of her duty. so protective and parcial when it regards to you two. to her soul you have corrupted with your sweet words and schemes. and she'll be saved once your deeds are gone.

*The Toranite looked at him with serene expresion, gathering his will to not fall into his words *

you are sad man, you know. you claim all this things without knowing the truth, you are condemning a man for his name. and a lady for love, I wonder if you ever understand that. No, I think you not, you'll be condemned to walk this path alone, always alone. To bring dispair and pain instead of hope and safety, Do you really like a life like that?

Does Scott demisse wasn't enough for you ?  *the Toranite loses his temper finally letting that out as the rofirenite smirks on that*

Oh you are blaming me for that incident. Pretty bad , Dragonbane. it's not my fault the boy was undertrained.  Or it was? Tell me who was in charge of training him ? Surely it wasn't me. *a cold grin apears on his face *

*the two men look at each other for a moment * Then you don't deny it, you told him to go there ?  - Lance said -

And what if i did? What would be the change on the result? he wanted so to be like you ? brave and strong, he say, I say corrupt and unworthy. and yet the result was the one expected. the boy died,... died for following the wrong ideal. for portraying a false image om a role to follow. Sounds that familiar to you?

*The toranite fist clenches as the rofirenite answered *
you know nothing. I hope that sword that Aeronn left you. give you some sense, and may the burdens of your deeds fill your nights of the rest of the days of your life, By the honor word I gave to Aeronn. is that i don't strike you down, right here  Aesthir... But don't even try to harm my family. Because if you do. then you'll find the man you are saying I am. I'll come for you and deliver the true Justice of the all watching.

*A smile can be seen on Aesthir *

There is it ... the Lance i want to see. the one that shows guts, and the one that the people will see on time, just wait. just wait. I wonder what will happen when your lady turn on you ? What would happen to the pure knight , who decided to share his life with an Aragenite, oh and the best part is in a life outside marriage *grins *

But you are right, and at least that i concede to you, your honor I praise today, you are a worthy adversary Lance Dragonbane, worthy indeed.

*Aesthir taking the pieces of the sword again raised it towards him *
By the honor of a fallen friend who will be avenged soon, We shall depart today to each other and no blood will be shed on the other,  We are in truce Dragonbane, A year of truce as a gift to my friend. After all with his demise you saved him into falll on more of the corruption of your ways. We'll speak in a year. *the rofirenite put on his hood and walks backwards towards an alley, not removing his gaze of the Toranite *

We shall see. Aesthir. we shall see.. I'll pray for your demise will be quick and painless, and that you'll find forgiveness for your acts in the other world, because i am not giving it to you in this one..

*As the rain start to fall , Lance put on his hood and walks towards the city getting lost in the crowd *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 14, 2009, 05:28:25 PM
Toran be praised .- Achievements of a knight.

*Lance is sitting on his favorite chair in front ot the desk, his eyes closed in a peaceful expression, the night is calm and there is no other sound than the one made by Shiny, the white cat that shares that shares the house as well. In front of the aslept knight and old journal is seen open as the last page ink is dryies*

From Lance's Stargazer's quill and pen.

Toran be praised. I could not say it enough. I am starting to feel tired on me, yet happy, I see how the next generation steps ahead. Miss Daniela, and his whole family, steping on his name and they will stay when I am gone, I feel the church is left in good hands.

I have decided to sit and write down, It something i have not done in some time. To write my memories before they fade into the fogs of fogotten memories.

I do remember, I remember the feeling, To hear the screams of Admun Raa, The vile shadow lich that poluted and threatened Krandor, That was a glorious day, we put to rest a lot of abominations. the flag I had all this years I left it there to serve as a beacon for the lost souls, The vile creature was exiled as his ashes were destroyed for the light of Toran, led by my hand, I felt his power that day, all running thru me like a cascade of light, It blinded me and in a way healed me, That warmth Its something I fail to speak with words. A lot of people were with me that day, some people I'd call allies, some that were brought there by fate. It was a day of victory that one.

The Finding of Quantum. Another of the things that burden my soul, He was found bur was never the same, I remember him bringing Lex to Toran's light, I remember him speaking to me about Ell, he gave me hopes, I'd wish he would have met Argos, and had a lot to learn from him, I don't know, but i feel odd when i see him, he was a great man, one that led a life of virtue, yet he ended alone, his wife separated from him and always with that sad look on his face, and end like he did, shattered, tortured by the enemy, he made a lot of sacrifices for Toran, and I am sure he did it gladly, hard his tests were.

Yet I feel sad, he observed me and asked Lex to invite me to join the shinning hand order, I was honored by that, yet I declined the invitation, Why did I do that? I wonder does the life of the undead hunter condemns you to end alone? Would I be able to do such sacrifices if the time arrives? I must stop thinking of this things. I have my own test to live and Toran has set my path in a diferent way, I understand the importance of the destruction of the aberrations, yet, I feel that they miss sometimes the most important thing, We are here to empower the weak, not only to punish evil, What cause has to destroy evil if there is nobody to save? I walk the path of the knight. I look for no glory on my actions, not any longer.

I have found peace, and Toran's way, he brought me Balance to my life and that is how I must serve him, I am humble, I ask for no recputation, I have done a lot of things for the church yes, but most important ... for the people. yet I feel that There are still a lot of deeds that I will perform, I am not done yet, I am alive and willing.

I'd only wish for something else, To have my family share my duty, yet Its something I could not press on, Ell is her, and always have been honest in that regard, she cares, and I harm her, but that is the way it is, Aragen is not to be trusted, I hold hopes that one day they change, after all, he still grants his powers to Ell, And Ell is the most kind woman that I've seen, I love her dedication even if not the most worthy cause, she stands valiantly over it, and defend it with passion, she does not lie, not hide her feelings, even if that sometimes that put our belief in jeopardize, its not her fault its mine not being as strong as I should be. I'd wish she embrased the same ideal I hold, yet I'd never ask that to her, It would be against my promise, And against myself, yet I cannot help but to wish, after all hopes are food for the soul. I could not ask her more than she is actually being, she took good care of Argos, and has decided to share her life with me. After all what else i could ask for her?

Toran is with me. Within me. outside me. yet I feel alone sometimes. This feeling will pass. It must pass.

Lance Stargazer, knight of Balance of Toran.

*Shiny tumbles and round as he listes to steps arriving at the desktop room, the sound of small foot in high heels walking in the room as the fireplace burn the last remanents of Tinder, a slim femenine figure enters the room and smiles as he observes the knight, she moves near him and look a moment to the journal, her eyes goes shifty as she reads over it, she purses her lips for a moment and then put a blanket over the sleeping knight, tucking him with care of expert hands, she finally bends over laying a kiss on his forehead , she sighs a bit and fix some of his hair that fell over his face, once done this with a loving smile she just turn and start to walk towards where Keira is to continue with the preparatives for the house.*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 23, 2009, 05:16:20 PM
Toran be praised . Fears..  Duty ... And the Eternal fight for justice

* The darkness start to fall upon Prantz, the couple united in a hug as they rest on a couch, the knight tired and bruised his left arm bandaged and restrained is seen contemplating his companion , Ell the fair elven lass resting her head over his chest covered in a fine blue Silk tunic, their expressions are of people enjoying the other company, The knight removes some hair of his lady forehead, and moving to allow her to rest a bit more confortable.

He looks at her lovingly and lays back his head to try to catch sleep himself*

From Lance's Stargazer's Quill and Pen .-

What is wrong with people on this days?

I've always strive to fight for the right cause, to try to empower the weak, and yet I continue to get surprised how far people can get to get his goals, and how people react to some situations. I have finally met a test to my skill, I've been in Belinara helping the Hilm castle with their giant problem.

It turned that the fort for the defense against giants was destroyed, The foot they said it was called, And there was an effort to be made to built a new one, Called "The Hand" nonetheless. I must say that it was a titanic deed, And I felt used on that place, Don't misunderstand me dear journal, I am more than happy to be able to help in the construction against the giant menace, Its just that I think the people in charge of the built have the wrong motivations. It sound as if they were a bait, like if they wanted to sacrifice us to the giants in order to get the deed done. Again, not a misunderstanding there,  I would gladly risk life and limb for the safety of the lands, But I am still surprise how people can't think in the well being of the rest of the world.

I am surprised not only on how the giantslayers acted , but also the druid enclave, We found that a druid was serving the giants as diplomat, She is not very good at it, Because she deny to serve as conduct for peace, She strive to help them to destroy the peace and the tranquility.  She says that the giants were up no harm, She is kidding? They have attacked caravas and killed an innumerable people, just for their whims of doing so.

I don't get what those druid is thinking, And I would not be surprised if She is the main brain on the actual tactics giants has started to develop, Only further investigation will reveal more information.

I am afraid I am being idealist again, Its a vice hard to lose, I guess , Why to keep trusting that everyone is good and willing. just to be disapointed time after time. I have been wondered on this situation, and I guess I Can't help it. I see good in everyone, If i ever lose that, I probably lost my mind, Why to keep figthing if we'll lose in the end to corruption, There must be hope, With each life saved, with all soul saved, We become stronger and seed some hope on the mortals soul, one day all those seed will give sprouts, And then our world will be better, I migth not be able to see it, but well that is my own hope, no? One has to have dreams and hopes, If not what keep us strong and willing, what keep the life worth of being lived.

I can't help but to think on Ell as I say this. I am blessed she is still with me after all I've done to her, not everyone stand as she does, She recieved me with that disarming smile, and frown at me when she saw my arm, I love to see how she worries for me, I felt her care and her preocupation, What else would be needed to show her love she felts? I have no reasons to doubt her . and I honor her patience, he recieved me and took care of me as the first day. I must say that her dinner migth not be the best food of Dregar, but she tryies very hard. That is what is really important here.

Self preservation. How can I do that? She has lost a lot of interest in traveling, now with Argos home she is using the time to get some scrolls done. I'd wish I could be with her more time. I don't know what would do without her in my life, that smile awaiting me at the end of the day, Even with all the bad things are overwhelmed by the good ones. I felt a sense of loss when i was facing those giants.  My limbs were tense and my senses sharp. An old feeling one gets used as the time passes, yet I found myself fearing for my life, not for me.. . but for her ... she is sad now Because of the departure of Trouble from the land of the live, I would only fanthom what would happen if something happens to me. It is somehow prideful to say that, yet I have my duties ... she knows that.  ... . She has to understand....

She would never say that. I ... why she can't understand ... and Why quenching the feeling is not as easy as before ...

Toran be praised, Send your ligth upon us. and put us on the right path

Lance Stargazer, Beloved knight.

*As the time passes the elven lass moves observing the sleeping knight, a trace of sadness is seen on her face, one that last only for a moment as she looks towards his holy symbol , moving around he lays a kiss on his forehead before resting again against his chest sighing happily
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 23, 2009, 09:25:17 AM
Toran be praised .- Time of tribulations.

*Lance is seen preparing the last detail to his travel, The echoes of his lonesome steps sound all over the place, the arms tense, as all the other movement, he finshing with the cleaning of his blade and shield, as he sits over chair in his room he observes with longing to the empty bed that is there, with a sigh he stands and keep on his preparation *

From Lance' Stargazer's quill and Pen :

The time of the testing has come, and the knight have to stand true to what he is, Life is not easier as in the past years, And does not seem that would change soon. I am heading back , The army is on the move, And Its time for putting a stop to this from once asnd all , I am not feeling as before, The weight in my soul grows even more as the time passes, yet I am the knight of balance,  And that has costed me a lot, already, So I will make it worth. For Toran's sake I will.

Argos, I don't know what to feel about him, I love him, but Why he does not come home, he is love they say, With an ilsarean, Oh Toran, just don't make him suffer as I am now, Spare him of the pain of feeling ripped,  And please send him back home. Toran show him your light in the middle of the dark, we need him more than ever, I need him more than ever. . Please let him be well for his mother. .. .

Ell.. Why? I love her with all my body and mind, How could this have happened to me? to us? It has not been easier, I did not expect to it to be easier, I love her , and now that I need her she is not with me, yet I am still with her, I won't give hope, that is the least one got, right,

I've put her in my prayers, but the war is coming, And even if all go wrong.

I told her my farewell, She was precious under the light of the moons, A picture I could take in my mind to keep me feed from hope. Anyway I love her, What more can I do?.

Lance Stargazer, knight of Balance in Toran's service.

*The knight moves around the house , and takes some time to sit over his chest looking to a brooch made of silvery white and auburn hair, he leaves the momento alone over the table and opens one of his books getting an envelope out it, the knight glances over it, and wih a heavy sight open to read the contents again he smiles a bit and folds the sheet again, over the fold can be read the last will of a knight. (http://forums.layonara.com/development-journals-discussion/242622-last-will-knight-lance-stargazer.html#post1395682)

Lance stops with the acomodations, he lays a simple kiss on the envelope and then put it on her desk , a single lone blue rose beside it and a small note with the words "E Ceela Aey" written in a neat blue ink.

He then looks at the journal, with a sad smile he just close it and tie it down for avoid it to be open again*

You are not comming with me today, old friend. I don't need you where I go, I need you to stay here, to keep this house full of her and me,

*He can't help but to clean a small tear over his eyes , but steels himself, he retakes the braid memento and put it as one of his cloak broochs, he gives a final look at the hall, as the ghost of so many smiles echoes on it fill his mind, finally unable to hold any more he falls down on his knees, Allowing himself to cry, he stand there for hours, till Keira founds him and help him up, the knight cleans himself and looking with a grateful look at Kera, he hands her a bag of trues, he says in sweet voice, "Thank you for everything this far ,dear lady, May the great leader find you and give you all the happiness you deserve for all this years", he finally steps away and start to walk towards the portal, his gaze not showing the slight doubt, he goes out singing heartly his song"

"I'll be the knight who will fight for your honor , I'll be the hero you'll be dreaming of "

*The house stays silentl again once he takes the portal*
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 30, 2009, 09:11:16 PM
Toran be Praised .- Walking into Toran's light

*Lance is seen resting in the temple of Toran In Llast, his eyes closed as he focuses on his prayers, his breathing slow and calm , his muscles relaxed *

From Lance's Stargazer's quill and Pen .-

It's over for good, I am finding peace in here, as in my early years, Toran is strong within me, With him what could I be missing, In him I've found the strenght to endure the trials, my mind is an ease as alwyas should have been stayed.

About the war what Can I say?, It was a large group that was met to face the armies of the enemies, and thanks to his grace I am here in shape to keep fighting, This war has cost me greatly, It finally shattered my family , but the prize of the safety of the lands would be well worth a small sacrifice as this, My fast submission to his will must be resilent, No doubts shall be allowed in my heart. Ell life was good with you. I wish for your safety, And pray to my lord to guide me the best way regarding this, I'll always respect you as the mother of Argos. The promises I made you stands, still my dedication would be to you, as the mortal that most I've loved.

Some part of me had died with this war, but I'll live, I have to live, I heard the people at Hurix was saved in the end, Good, at least that choice does not burden onto my soul any longer, It was an awful choice, but Our duty stands for finish with the greatest evil. Though choices on the knight concience and toughter choices they are aproaching.  We don't know if this is the last thing we heard about the said Dragonstealers.  This must be a small step, a piece is missing.

We traveled thru the Thunderpeaks, meting with our enemies, an army of Drachs which boots made the earth tremble with their pass, Our mission was clear, to recover the thing that started all Things, the Tuhral Araljanm journal, the first one to walk the magic test named as The path of the claw,

False promises, to mislead the noble souls, That made me believed, but this should not be posible, In the end I fell figthing the enemy, yet the journal was secured, Our duty fullfilled. Jennara Creekskiper, still a noble Rofirenite, was the one who say that, it yet has to be proven the consecuences of our "Victory"

Even if I put my doubts on the end of things, We achieved the goal, But at which price, There are some rumors that another as The very same Tuhral Araljan, would be walking thru the face of Layonara. I must return to my duties.

I am a knight of Toran, I am his hands and his sword.

The report is almost done.

**Lance continues on his confinement in deep meditation as his prayers elveates themselves to the heavens *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on September 03, 2009, 12:34:23 AM
*Attached to the journal in simple yet elegant Caligraphy *

Quote
Conducts of Virtue
-Valor
-Empathy
- Conviction
- Humility
- Sacrifice
- Honorable Combat
- Restraint

The path away from our Leader can begin from a position of good as well as evil. Remember that young Lance  
~Linus Swordshiner



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1.- Truth, honor, and loyalty are your highest calling. Never deviate from these principles, even if it should mean your death.

2.- Never question Toran, nor his priesthood. Your loyalty to your God will be put to the test in a time of trial. Remain steadfast and loyal during that time and all shall be achieved.

3.- Aid those that you can, and neither ask nor expect reward. Your valor and honor will bring glory to Toran's name.

4.- Do not suffer evil, hatred, or corruption, for these are the greatest sins of mortals. Battle against these sins and those who commit them, but be mindful that there is no shame in retreat, especially to preserve your life and the lives of other innocents around you.

5.- Your word is your bond. Keep your word, even should it bring you to death's gate. The faithful of Toran must honor their word and trust in their valor and their God to aid them in keeping their promises. There is no honor in a vow that calls for the death or dishonor of innocents, and such promises may be freely broken.

6.- All life is sacred. Rapine, pillaging, and other crimes of war are strictly forbidden to those in Toran's service. Killing should be an act of last resort.

7.- Honor your enemies, regardless of their race, even in defeat. Make no demands of others. A knight of Toran should be proud and self sufficient. There is no shame in accepting offers of help, but a Paladin in Toran's service should NEVER REDUCE HIMSELF TO BEGGARY OR DESPERATE PLEAS.

8.- Unless specifically directed by Toran or his priests, do not enter another god's temple except in times of extreme duress. Even when desperate, you may only enter temples of gods sympathetic to Toran.

9.- Remain virtuous and honorable in all ways. Do not participate in anything that would require you to compromise your Code. These are the laws of the Paladin, and those who would treat them lightly are not worthy of the title.


He is calling, I shall Answer!!!!
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on October 06, 2009, 11:09:08 AM
Toran be praised .- The knight in search of balance, year one.

*The journal lays open on the desk, the sounds of steps thru the empty house echoes all over the place as the fugure of the knight is seen moving things from one side to another, Shinny the cat observes as he lays lazily over the place*

A year has passed so fast, I can still see feel her presence here, Why do I linger here?  The situation got tense, Sweet and bitter at the same time, I've seen her a few times in this year, she and him.. At least she is healthy. All smiling, happy in a way of speaking that should be enough isn't it?

I've started to clean the house, so many memories, So many joys and pains, I've found a lot of things around and I don't know what to think.

She left here all the things that I tought it would had some importance for her, The dress, the gem with her name, The books i bought her, I wonder if she even still would have that lock of hair I gave to her.

Am I really surprised of this? Is this really unexpected?

When he was lost for us the first time, she left my side for two months, I remember that , I looked for her, and no word for her presence, I saw her near the temple of Folian, I ran for her and tried to hug her, to confort her, and she simply said she was not ready, and shunned my presence.

Then the pasiveness. She stayed home .. She took care of my son, but was she really her? her spirit was lost, no joy, we ventured out a few times, but not as much as I could wished . I would have wished to have her at my side at the time of war. I needed her so much, and yet my heart was in pleace knowing that she'll be safe at home. That I'll keep her safe of the war.

I've just given her frustrations with my continual persue of my duty, and I fail to see that, would she simply stopped loved me? No.. It can't be as that I see her look, but.. still I don't know.

He came back from the death, and a month before... She jumped into his arms. What in toran's name should i think.

And then he came back, and she started to get out, am I really surprised She and him are togehter by now..

I must shun this feelings, I must persue my duties,

The most important here is that she is happy..

Lance Stargazer, Strong in Toran's faith.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on October 14, 2009, 04:33:14 PM
Toran be praised .- The knight in search of Balance, year two.

*The journal lays over a table over the inn of Audira, the room empty as the night start to fall *

For Toran's sake that this are rough times, My continual persue of duties seemst to have give me a rest since the war, What this means, the calm before the storm?

I've finally recived word for the contractors on Leringard, Our Castle ... No, my castle will be finally built, yet I don't see the idea of it now, I bought that place for us, To allow her to live her faith freely as well as do mine. Argos is doing fine, She seems to have stuck with Milady Zira , this has been keeping me wondering on him and myself, I just pray things work well for him. I am not intervening anymore in his life. he has to face his own tests .. And he is one of my own.

Ell keeps coming to me, She is asking me about things she has never done, the stance the proper use of the armor, I don't get it, I've seen something in her , she has given up on me.

She no longer even bothers with the blessings, I should be happy upon it I guess, yet Its not the blessing what matters here, well It matters to my Lord at to me of course, She just gave up. She said she used to do that, because she loved me and was her natural way to show that love. I must pray for diligence, And understanding, This is the way Toran wants the things to happen, so I have to follow, he'll provide  

That look on her eyes, Is lost . I guess that is what pains me .. I tought....

On other issues, I have spoken to Master Michaelis and Milady Daniella, I am worried about his health, As Milady Daniella is, I can see my own words mirrored on Master Michaelis, "You are the future of the church" I can't help but to smile at this means that the vision instiled on me still is true. I've asked Master Michaelis to send a priest towards "The hand" To serve there as healer in the efforts agains the giants. I've told them about the results of the war and the cultists. Master Michaelis knew part ot the story at least, and she knows the importance of the events there.

On other things, I was invited to a reception by The Kyomoto Family when my meeting with them ended , It was a lovely reception, they asked me to be the personal guard for her bautiful daughter, Milady Yuki, of course due the urgency of the call and the importance of that family, there is no way I could refuse that invitation.

The night was lovely, and the lady was nice enough to keep me entretained with her intresting conversation, she is a smart lady, Very well versed in diverse aspects of the life of Huangjin, Measuring her, I know she knows more than she shows, she knows over politics, and its not easy to decieve as one of her status would be expected. I don't know about all this, she was respcetful to me and keep the ettiquete and the respect, but there was something on her eyes that might confuse my toughts. Her family insisted in me to spend the night with them.

I refused, of course I explained to them that even if I was honored to be in such high regard by said family, I've things to do back in my duties. They haven't missed a chance to invite me to do them a visit each time I reach to Huangjin, I've tought by now that they want to marry their daughter, I can see the social movement tough. yet ...

I wonder is this what he wants for me?  May I find a new wife ?

Lance Stargazer , Knight and servant or the will of Toran.. Still in search of HIS balance.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on November 22, 2009, 03:47:07 PM
Toran Be praised - The knight in search of Balance , year Three.

I am Toran's migthy hand and as that I should stand Disciplined and strong , even when things does not seems to have sense,

I am finding it again , the long lost balance and understanding is slowly coming back. I've started to move the rest of the things back into the Stargazer's Castle, my castle, The place is still a bit empty, With only Keira around to keep the place om one piece, but soo that will change.

I've opened the door of my home as house of the order, Richard Watchman is my first inquiline, I am waiting for Aarcus to show as well, I am a bit disapointed on Aarcus aproach, I don't see as if he were real proud of the teachings I've passed to him, I guess I might have given too much importance to the task of my master,  maybe I am expecting too much of him, he seems to be dedicated but sometimes he seems to lost the objective of the task. I need to keep working on his discipline. At least I hope that the new sword is helping him to dominate the style, he seems to be doing it quite well.

I've seen Milady Jillian of late, she has been working for the fellowship it seems taking the craft of tinkering. She has given me more molds that what i know what to do with them. But better to have them than not, She is disciplined and loyal, I've heard form her voice that milady Daniella's house was attacked, So she asked me autorization for staying here in the meantime the place is cleared.  how could I deny that, Of course I am not putting her with Richard in the common room. The guest room was prepared for her, That would be the same Miss Daniella would have done for one of my protegees.

I am feelins strange lately, Something inside of my head had started to pull me forward. a kind of premonition, an omen, I don't know how to call it, But it is still there, Pulling strong. I feel as if one test is finally coming.

*he looks at a bag that he's holding on his hands * We've set our diferences apart, he said he'll be put himself out of the hook, Something about trust, how can someone test trust as that , We spoke and As I said since the start I have nothing against him, my soul is clear on this regard and he's my friend.. is he? maybe not a closer one, but we've battled long enough together. Its time for giving peace to this.

*he put the bag over a small table and start to fill it with gems and other tools* Its painful to see, that she still loves me, I don't know how to manage this, I see in her eyes the love, yet the pain, She is getting away from me for a reason, I would no wonder what would that be, But now i understand that most of the things she said at start were said in anger or she changed her opinion.  I don't know what to do on this regard. Other than pray. Its just that when I look into her eyes, I feel lost. My muse .. no... its no longer my muse, It should not be ... yet, why are you still trying Lance ? What will await you at the end of the road? Peace?  Balance? ... Silence is the answer to this now. I must fill the silence with HIS voice.

The only thing that is certain as the light of the day ... Is that I still love her as the first time I met her.

I've finally got over with the Kyomotto family issue, I told them that i am not what they were looking for, I am not a man to be used to gain social position,  am just a knight trying to do what its needed for.

I humble myself into the idea of being special, I am choosen to be HIS knight, but i should not show pride...

*he closes his eyes and slips into a deep dream .. leaving the journal entry unfinished , getting a restful night *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on December 21, 2009, 06:51:44 PM
Toran be praised - The Call that came at least.

*The knight clad in blue and gold is sit amoung the troops taking a breath of a patrol, the sun hiding in the horizon send its last rays to the wall, filling the enviroment with peace, one of the most things the people in Hilm  valorates more than gold.

Leaning over near the fire, the iron rations are shares and a bit out of place as the camp is filled with Ale, the man dressed in a well tailored but simple silk tunic drinks some grape juice , his gestures serene as he enjopys of the moment sharing with the troops. *

From Lance Stargazer's Quill and Pen :

I've called to assist the Hilm protectorate by Master Alexander himself, It feels strange to be back here, after this five years in official mission, Not the best memories, the war agains the giants left me marked and the scar is not likely to heal soon, I did what i had to do, I won't regret and in my lord I shall embrace to keep the pain inside me, There are still a lot to do in this realms.

It seems that my services had made Master Alexander and his men of trust to look for me as a trusty ally, I could not be more honored with this call, It was nice to see the people I trust here as well, This of course is a lesson, Another one my good lord has sent me, One can find where your allies are even when you don't know, he won't never leave me alone, on Him i can fully trust, He and duty, is that all i got now.

She came to the summon as well, My promises made to her are still up, This is part of what is burning inside of my soul, and that should not be go out, Ir should be quenched and contained, I could not do other than feeling well to see her.

Amoung the numbers I come, Xaltotun, that man is strange, but he has proven trustworty, I don't know why he is so kind towards me, yet he has offered his sincere friendship and has trusted my judgement. I could not do other thing than honor his help and friendship.

My Guild Brother Caerwyn, always taciturn and figthing his own demons, But with everything aside, a man in whom i fully trust, even with our diferences, he has changed from when i met him, and his joy has been killed, I cannot help to wonder if that would be my fate without Toran, he reminds me of my own life, What would have become of me if  I become Lance Dragonbane? Another reason to be thankful to Toran.

Marcus Kendall, came as well, And here is where irony comes, Marcus, my friend, the portayer of redemtion, Redemtion  that has made me suffer alongside all this year and how is that he shares the name of the one I need to help, to redeem per se. It is this just another Omen?

Tenton , Another ally of worthy note, A priest of Vorax, honorable and trustworthy, we have ventured a few times, but the bond is innegable. We both fight for Justice and honor. Always good to have someone as that.

Haartwarden Argali True axe, Confident and ally, The trust in Dwarven lass embodied, the blood we have shed together along all this years has made a good blend, I could not count the times she has saved my life, nor the times her help has been worty for the success of my missions. But alongside Truth and sincere friendship

And Ell. . What can i say of her, Once we done she held my hand and gave me her support, I feel bad for her being there. Since now my words had fallen as an iron press on me, I told her once that with her i would go to the pits and back, and now it seems that our destiny is there.

I am worried for Master Alexander, Hilm is strong, but it needs the strong leadership he has mantainded since the war with blood, And his state is not helping him, To see him as that and how we saw Master Michaelis, The old guard is standing but ... What would happen when the times comes for us to stand. Milady Daniella seems to have been chosen, she always has been chosen, I have been by now an advisor, her issues with the shinning hand order and the problems with the Corathites. Well. She does deserve to that burden to be taken from her, I pray for her everyday.

By now I have my own problems here, I need to keep myself true and focused, there is a hard deed at hand..

Oh how i wish Master Quantum were here now, The words of Master Alexander does not seem to be hopeful, facing an old enemy of the faith, This is nothing like Admun Raa, this is a real dread lich, one that had to be confined and coldn't be destroyed. Oh Toran .. Send your light to my heart

**The night finally falls covering in darkness the lands, but not the hearts of this men, used to face demons and the worse nightmares that the mankind have phantomed ever *
Title: Toran be praised .- The
Post by: Lance Stargazer on June 15, 2015, 01:14:17 PM

Toran be praised .- The portrait

*The knight stands in his bedroom, in front the only portait that decorates his room, ornated in a golden frame, in a careful done canvas with exquisite detail is it there, the young elf lady attaired in the elegant light grey dress, smiling, almost as if smiling at him, he has been there standing the gaze of the portait for hours now, it was a long day, one filled with hard tasks that the knight is not used to do, to be an acual father, the echoes of the laughs he had in the last few hours was still roaming in his head, making his mind to travel back to the moment where he had to charge to poofy the dragon in his wooden personification of a small wood carven knight for the amusement of the little girl. That nigth as he stands there observing the portrait as many times in the past, secluded in the sancticity of his room, the night had something strange on it, something magical, somethic eeric, something just out of the ordinary, the cold air of the Northern mistonean city of Leringard, did not help the mood of the enviroment.

For a moment the knight percieved a movement over the corner of his eye, as he turns around a small white cat had made some boxes to fall, not a big problem, just some more work for the next day, he returned his sight at the portait again, the lady painted there seemed to smile a bit more, it was surely his imagination , he keeps pondering in meditation the knight mind was filled in thoughts old and new, good and bad, watching the portrait usually help him on dificult days, he liked to speak to her, her beloived painted there as in the years past,  as if speaking with it and tell it his problems would give some peace, some tranquility , the noise was heard again this time to his back, with a small smile the man turned around expecting to see the white cat again, he was surprised  just to see nothing, his only reflection on the mirror on the other side of the room. he took his time to searching for the little cat in hopes to catch where the little menace had hidden, yet the cat was sleeping comfty over his bed without any trace of recent activity, he just sighed and moved towards the bed, taking the cat in his arms moving towards the entrace of the room and let it out of it, as he opened the door the dark corners of the Stargazer's castle greet him with a solemn silent hymn, is then when he heard the laughter, after dropping the cat on the floor he turns quickly looking for the origin of the laugher, but only the portait greeted with the very vivid smile, her eyes on him as always and never again at the same time.

 

As he return his gaze to close the door, he saw the old lady walking slowly towards him, something diferent on her as she aproaches in a slow but steady pace, Lance smiled a bit as seeing Keira moving that way, but before he could leave the room, she gestures him to stop as she was walking towards him, Lance waited as the figure of Keira comes near him, with a smile* -Master Lance, * the woman would bow at her * - Keira, what are you doing over here?, you should be resting,- *Lance said to her with some concern but with a bright smile as he looks down at her * - Don't worry any more for it Master Lance, The sickness is past, I'll be fine now *she said with a radiant smile, looking up at him* Its finally time for me to rest, I'll miss you *the woman would reach for her cheek as the confused knight gazed upon her, as the realization finally reaches his mind he looks at her shaking his head* No, that can be true Keira, how can you say that when I am looking at you right here, right now, *she smiles at her with that caring look putting her hand on his cheek* Don't worry Master Lance its only the natural way of things. you will not miss me too much, and you'll see me soon enough at this rate master.  *The words of the woman pierced thru the mind and heart of the knight as he observed how she started to walk away of him, the light of a lightning stroking in the sky filled the room making the knight to turn again towards his bed , as he returned his sight towards the hall the woman had gone, he gathered his wits and closing the door behind him returning his sight to the empty room, the solitude whispered in a soft and gentle breath a tune of sadness on his ear, as he walked back towards the center of the room, posing his sight on the portait, he smiled a bit towards the smiling image in the canvas, and almost appeared as if the painting smiled him back, he closed his eyes and shakes his head when the voice made him turn back in a quick reaction towards the door,

-Who's her , Lance? -

The small girl asked with an air of inocence looking from Lance to the portrait, The young Myla had entered his room, probably being awoke by the words of the convalecient and delusional Keira and him, the girl walked and stood beside him carring her arms as if hugging herself looking towards the portait in awe , Lance looked down at her , how could he explain it ? to a little girl.

- She's a friend of mine, Myla, a very good friend of mine , She is milady Iellwen, - 

Said in a calm voice towards the girl, The girl made a big O with her mouth as the couple turned his sight to the inquisitive gaze of the portait , Lance kneel beside her and smiled at the little girl* - What is it Myla? can't sleep ? - *The girl shakes her head no * - Lance what are we going to do without her? - She asked with a hint of sadness on her voice - *The knigth looked at her, with an encouraging smile,* Don't worry about her, Myla, Keira will be fine, If our lord decides to take her of our side to be on his glory with him, its not a lose, She deserves rest, If not he'll return her to our side , and we'll be enjoying her food soon enough, all we can do now my little one is to pray , In praying we have to find solace dear one, I know that the options does not seems as good as we would like to hear, but you have to have faith, alright?  *The girl smiled a bit sadly* She said you would say that, she said I have to take care of you when she's gone, I don't want her to be gone, Lance

* Lance put both of his hand on her little shoulders* Neither I Myla, neither I, but its not in our hands now, *the girl look up at the knight and nods firmly * You won't let her go, right? you'll do your best ? *she asked finally* [COLOR=#0000ffyes , my dear , I'll do my best [/COLOR]*he said firmly , the girl nodded at him and steped back a bit glancing at the picture again, Bye Miss Friend of Lance, -the girl waved to the picture and then look at Lance *

I am going with Jillian, *and then the girl stomped out of the room ,the knight stood and sighs a bit, asking to no one in particular * Why is so hard of late ? *he looked at the picture as if expecting an answer, Only silence came from the painted lips of the canvas with her intense sight still posed on him*

- Its not hard always ? you should carry that as a burden no, ? - *Lance turned around to his back listening to the new voice, as the young boy attaired in a blue turncoat over an initiate tunic was smirking towards him, The young Argos was standing there as it was more than 20 years ago, * What is it father? surprised? - Lance unable to speak at that moment just looked at the boy standing on the corner of the room with a smirk * Argos.. you...  - Can't be here? What are you going to do Lance? What is wrong with your mind, Don't you learn? Are you going to spoil her as you did with me?  

*The now teen Argos attaired in the classic Stargazer blue and gold armor started to walk towards him* You did a great job dad, and for my cause your life got destroyed, what do you want to do now? Why with her? Will you love her more than me? Will you scheme to let her alone as well ? Tell me?

- You don't know what you are speaking here, you are not even here * Lance said frowning a bit to the now grown man attaired on a dark plates and long hair, The man smirked at him* You don't have any more burdens to lay on her, right father? you put all those on me, I carry it on my very name, *smirks*, or she will be your Mylanna Dragonbane, you can't deny it have some ring on it. Looking at the brigther side, you dont have a mother for her to lose  *With a final smirk he said* - Or maybe you have ? -*Lance frowned at the man that only remotely would look as his son and instintively reached to where his sword would have been, unfortunately the sword was not there that night* -Maybe there is hope for her if you keep yourself away from her as you did with me.  

*Another lighthning stroke over the room and the figure of the young man disappeared from sight, without noticing before Lance found himself in the room alone again as a singular laughter was starting to spin all around the place, the voices of the thousand people start to laugh in his head. and the world start to spin around.... *he opened his eyes and found himself standing still on the middle of his room, his eyes widen as he get used to the scarce ligth produced by the candelabra, the constant sound of the rain over the roof was the most prominent sound of the night, just the far bark of a dog break the sounds of the calm rainy night , the knight took a deep breath as he looked over the door of his room and his bed, the small cat still sleeping over it, when he turned his sight towards where the portrait wall..

He was surprised by the sight, upon turning he found the very face of the woman he loved, the very hazel eyes watching him scarce inches away from his face, The image of the portrait had escaped the canvas, the dress only joining the canvas on the lower part, as her body extended out of it towards him to almost touch him. Her other time smiling lips showed a cold smirk, and watching him with her penetrating gaze, Lance became silent for the moment, unable to move or even speak.  The elven lady, extended her arm and touch the knight's cheek, with her gloved hand, givinga soft caress.

 - What is it Lance sir? Aren't you happy to see me? -

The lady asked in the same voice he ever heard, The same voice he will ever remember, his eyes possed into hers as the touch in his cheek lingered - Ell - *he said slowly*

- Yes Lance sir, Its me, * the lady removed her hand of his cheek * It has been too many nigths and the day I speak to you , you are not going to say anything? Eight years now Lance Sir, Its unbelivable how fast time pass. *The lady smile turn into a soft laught that made the knight, smile with a mixure of feelings * Why I am still here Lance sir? - ,* she asked with genuine curiosity  

* The knight with calm voice answered* - You know the answer to that, you know why you are there , and why you have been there all this years. -

- Oh Lance Sir, don't be naive, please, you have your Toran to stand for you, Don't do this to yourself anymore, What are you going to do when your Keira is gone? you know she'll leave you soon, What would be of that girl? -

- You have a lot to live now Lance Sir, to still Living in a past that is no longer on your hands. It did not worked as we expected and you know it, Look at your household , just look at it.  -

*The elven maiden aproached to the still shocked knight and whispered to his ear * - After all .. you are only other of the things I have to let go....  

*The Knight opened his eyes as he sat on his bed, all covered in sweat , in the middle of the night, the figure of a very sick Keira, with Myla at her side were there looking at him with worried looks, instinctively the man turned to the far wall looking at the canvas, as the lady there returned the same look with her mysterious smile, alwyas there for him.- The pale light of the moons left the trio in the room speaking in the middle of the confusion *

Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 12, 2010, 10:45:01 PM
Toran be praised : The aftermath  

*The knight is seen kneeling in front of the fountain, the lights of the moons reflecting over the shrine giving the enviroment an Eeric feeling, the calm expression of the knight as he opens his eyes, and takes a deep breath , the old recovered Journal at his feet, it was a gift that was never claimed, maybe the message on it, maybe just a token of gratitude, no matter he had the journal and that is what mattered, he smiles as he passes the pages full of joys and sadness finally setting on the last page written *

From Lance's Stargazer's quill and Pen :

Dear Journal, how many time has passed since you and I were here, together, Reading you i almost don't recognoze myself, I am not but a shadow of what I used to be, and yet I feel as the path opening to me and all the posibilities that this deeds has made, the burden is still on my soul, and the joys become scarcer and scarcer,

I've given a rank into the Hilm Protectorate, I am the captain of the Company of the Star of Hilm , under direct supervision of Master Alexander Fortain, I must say this brave men made me proud to be part of this army, each one of them has the determination that forms the elite warriors of the world. And the task requiered just that, I must say that I had the best help I could have gotten, and just what I needed, all my friends that helped me and joinied their strenght into fullfilling the deed , Almost 20 years with those Riddles and finally are solved, I must thank to all of them, without them this could have not been done.

It has a big prices tought the end of this mission, as We lost Trenton on the way, his bravery will be missed, and his friendship as well, At this rate I'll see you soon in the holy grounds my friend and toghether we'll fight alingside again as the old times, Save me a grape juice on the holy combat grounds. yet I plan to stay here some more decades.  

Other of the burdens I carry , is the knowledge that Mechidil will be free again, yet the soul of a repent man could not be allowed to pay for the sins of another, Marcus Steadfast has returned to his light , Toran be praised, how you guide your knight all this years to this soul, for years you gave me the hints and you got me on the right track. And with your strenght we were successful .

Its almost ironic tought that it was Love who saved Marcus in the end, Just maybe another test. I don't know, now I question your wisdom, I understand why you choosed Daniella for that grave task, You needed conviction and to teach her to be nearer to you, I feel that she and I are closer than ever, Maybe even we'll stop arguing from time to time, yet i would not give that much hopes.

Jillian Stuart, She has finally became a Full Beacon into the Shinning hand order, I am proud of her military achivements, She has made Miss Daniella even proud of that even if she's no longer under her mentorship, I've set my mind straight on her, *a long blot of ink here*  I see her looks and i can't but feel bad over it, I am not good for her, she's a wonderful woman that deserves to be happy, and after years of thinking I've decided to not harm her since i could never be what she needs me to be.  If she had arrived maybe 30 years before. But Toran has set this for a reason, maybe a test for her. She's still quite near of me since Mylanna loves her, she has been there on the times i've not being able to be. Guess I could never reward her enough for that.

*Another blot of ink here*  Ell  was there with me all this years of tests, and I simply don't understand it, She .. is dying,. And part of me if dying with her, As other part died the day she left me, She has been around all this years and She confuses me, badly, What a knight can do with this ? I know i still love her, and yet she has implied that she loves me, Its just ankward, She's a taken woman, I must remember that. I must remember that and keep that on my mind, Guard your heart Lance. No matter how much you love her.. *the sentense is left open after some spaces its written *

I don't want her to die.

On the brighter side of my Life .. well there is Myla that is growing more and with each day she becomes more beautiful and big, and in a way more a headache for her age, she's becoming quite Artistic oriented tough. And she has a wonderful voice that has a great potential if it is well trained. I love her and she fills my days with joy and light.  

*the knight closes the journal and stands looking at the fountain , as he salutes to the soldiers on vigilance of the fountain , and walks towards the castle, holding the beloved diary on his hands *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 12, 2011, 10:50:24 PM
Toran be praised : Stardust and renewal.

From Lance's Stargazer's quill and pen .-

*The cold night find the knight standing on the middle of the study, his finger tapping the desk almost armoniously in a rhytm that marks an old Kartherian song , the candle shedding ligth over the room as the man looks at the book on his desk *

And so the cycle closes and start again, How strange are the things and how is that Toran set the tests on our path, I've not been able to foresee the turn of the events as they have transpired, and have decided to not even question things.

How that start?  The night on Krashin was cold and the stars bright when it happened , the largest stardust comet i've seen on my life appeared and crossed the sky, The feeling of it was too stong to resist, the gale of wind over our heads. There are things that happened that I still don't understand. . . Magic. . just incomprensible as that.  Wonders or woes ?  depending on the point of view.

It was for first time that this "lady" Sophia was approaching to me, speaking with candied voice for first time ever, yet the poison of her tongue was still seen over her intent.  

I don't remember much about how that happened, I am not even able to describe what happened. what i felt, I felt sorrow,.  and anger. . I felt love and weakness, and at the same time I felt strong and daring, As if i was the luckiest man of the world. Ell was there with the group, and anger was in my heart as I saw her there, when this elven lady was doing what i've done all my life, protecting her and procuring her,   At the same time Haartwarden was taking care of me, all the trip, and .. That.. . elf. . .  speaking of. ..  Designing .... pink .... full  .... plates *written as if still fighting the urge of it *

I don't know what got me that night,  but i spoke to her, I told her i wanted in my life even if I had to share her, I cursed myself for doing that,  I came to my senses some days after that, It was that..  feeling of weakness that i spoke before, And still  .. It brought something good.  

Miracles happen, no matter how odd they happen, those are the things we have not to question. .  

She has returend to me.  My Ell has returned to me. We spoke , and now i am able to watch over her, as I should have always been,  That trip to the peaks and the shadow of death creeping over her, worried me a lot, and yet it was not my call, so many times i was tempted and so many times i had to resist. Now It turned that her and Trouble were no longer together, And .. she came back to me.   I am still a bit confusing on things. .

Things are hard to understand. .

I only can say . . . .

Miracles happen..    

Lance Stargazer, knight in service of Toran.

(http://images2.layoutsparks.com/1/112391/red-whie-blue-roses.jpg)


// Thank you Nimrod for such excelent quest.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 10, 2011, 04:20:43 AM
Toran be praised :  "The dream of the knight"

**The day was clear on the castle as the rays of the sun started to caress the walls of the Hilm castle, The marble white and bright and the birds flying around, making a wonderful day to stand .

There he was the knight in blue and gold, smiling after his matutine round, running always in the morning to keep oneself in the top form, and here he was standing in front of that place , that had brought both joy and shame to him, The path was not easy to reach there,  and here it was Redeemer's rise in all is simple majesty, A small fountain to the naked eye, but full of blessings by the great leader, this has been one of his favorite spots, the place was filled with peace, During mornings it was enjoyable, the popularity of the fountain had just raised and more and more people came to see it,  It was good for the faith , Alongside his participation in Daniella's test, he could feel the faith on the world strengthening*

- Busy there , brother  ? , Am not interrupting ? - The female voice rang at his back , turning slowly he saw there standing no other than Daniella Stormhaven, which came to greet him with a small smile, Lance smiling at her back , nodded as he approached to her.

- We haven't lost the custom of the old days it seems milady,- he answered the greeting in a friendly way .

- The arguments will come brother, but no, The morning exercises is what got us in form , aren't they - She answered

- Indeed and allow us to catch up, isn't it?  . he answered to the retort. She smiled at him back as he answered that-, then he keep speaking.- We have to enjoy the time of peace we have right now. We'll get to our disagreements later.

- Daniella Looked at him, with a concerned look , then says - Perhaps , perhaps not, you know. after all this time, and with all what we have passed thru, We have always been on diferent sides of the balance, even with us being on the same boat so to speak, Don't you find this funny?

*Lance looked at her , nodding slowly* Indeed.  But that is how we are milady , there is no use in dwell on that, the important about all this is that at the end of the day we are in good terms , isn't it? you know i consider you a friend and ally, even if we disagree, that is what we are . isn't it?

*Daniella returned the look to him, and nodded slowly*  Who knows brother?, perhaps all this fights over the last years , perhaps is for a greater good, Perhaps the day will come when we all leave thsi diferences already to work as a perfect team, thinking as the other, *she says with a smile*  I know that sounds as something unreal . i know*

**Lance smiles at that perplexed, perhaps a bit amused *  I hardly doubt that Milady , But it would be good indeed.  I've stood for you more times than you think, but thinking like you . well please don't be offended but world has to be on the verge of destruction for it to happen

**Daniella shakes his head at that*  Perhaps you are right, but yes it would be good. *then smiling with a knowing smile* Or perhaps...

*The sentence was broken by loud sound, suddenly the knight opened his eyes as the sound of the crashing rocks hit another tower of the castle, looking around he sees his Ell on reaverie there at their room at the castle, attaired in a silk gown, for a moment looking at her the knight could forget the dream, and the reality he was living, the moment didn't last long, as he stood and walked over the window, looking at the horizon he could see the pillars of smoke, the enemy was coming closer to the castle, and for a moment he felt desperate, he in fact felt desperate more often that he would like to admit, or show.  A dream, all was a dream, it was funny how life had turned and that conversation was his own concience speaking to him.

The war was wearing him, and yet, he had to keep up, lots of lives were resting on his shoulders now, It was the time Toran had prepared him for a life time , it was not the time to be weak, he slowly reached for a small blue rock on his desk, the magical device was there to help the comunications, he felt the warm of the stone on his bare hand, his eyes returned to the window, slowly he observed the preparations of the wall , the shifts on the drills, and a bit more far, the light that shined at nigth, the beacon of hope that "Redeemer's Rise" was given to the fort, looking again at his hand he observed the stone with intrest, and hessitation, he pressed the stone against his hand and slowly uttered a small command word on it.  but he stopped in the middle, the stone ready to send the message.

The lone star shinning on the night sky eternal and Shiny, the Toran's light that so many times had guided him was there for him again... at that moment. . it was time to pray . ....

At the same time, some miles in the south, a very similar stone glow in Fort of Last hope . . .

// Daniella's remarks on this entry are just made on Lance's concience, its not expected or intended to force emote upon her or anyone else. It was just the way Lance's concience put some odd factors on his life.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 12, 2011, 03:35:19 AM
Toran be praised .- "Dragonbane"

How is that the subject had returned to his life, the knight was unable to know, or even understand, the war had changed him, it would never be the same, it was late for thinking on this things though, the battle was already engaged and the armies on his next door, the lives of his men were at stake and yet he was unable to remove those thoughts during all this months.

He looked to his bed on his war tent, the place was prepared with the maps of the battle field, and the diferent areas in the diferent flanks, as well as lots of letters yet to send.

The journal open with the word "Dragonbane" in red letters written by himself several minutes ago, his last name, how things would have changed if he had taken it as it was adviced.  Was his pride stronger than his needs , or perhaps something else,  was he affraid of turning in what he was suppoesed to be, a tool of revenge, a weapon to pierce the heart of his own blood.  His father final objective .. was his last name the tool for it?

It would have been diferent,  Lance , his own name was a weapon to pierce the heart of his own blood and flesh, that was what his fahter wanted for him  to grew a soldier loyal to Morhold to strike Roldem into the very heart, a Roldemian destroying Roldhem , such irony , such poetic justice on his father's head .

Now.  with Murhold as part of the axis on the enemies, and the dragon as symbol of his enemies,  Dragonbane would be such morale boosting but what he had to pay for it, Would he be the same man ever again. Lance Dragonbane, The very sound of the name made him shiver for a moment.

He looked over his shoulder as he hears someone comming, with a fast and natural movement he closed the book and look over the incomming prescence .

Walking tired Iellwen presented herself into the tent, with a tired and loving look she approached to the knight slipping something into his belt, as he lean down to lay a single kiss on her cheek .

- My lady - the knigth spoke softly to her removing with a fast movement his hand off the journal to lay it to rest on her waist  .

- My heart desire - she answered as she finished to put the things on his belt - Some rations for you . The man smiled at her and and for once his problems disappeared , the woman looked at him with an eyebrow arched * Are you alright ?  you seem tense .

*Lance looked at her down, he was about to speak to her, but how that could be fair, he had tried to speak of this with her, but now it was too late for it, for once he felt a sting on his heart as he smiled at her and moved to kiss her again *  I'll be alright my princess. *half hugging her he started to guide her towards the table *  I am glad you came,  i am hungry, and we have to get ready for the next campaign.

**Ell gave him that knowing look, she know him too well, and even if Lance did not lie to her, something was on his mind and heart, but was perhaps not the moment,  still her stern gaze went to him to met his gaze  * Lance.  What is it?  - She asked on the most polite voice she could gather  -

**Lance looked down at her for a moment * I will tell you once i know what to tell you Ell, for now I like to enjoy a meal with you, I've missed you

*The woman still not convinced gave her a stubborn look at him , but she had seen her cut of stress on the battle field , and right now the idea of a meal and company seemed way more pleasurable  - Perhaps - *she said finally with a smile *

**Lance and Ell sat on the table, enjoying each other company was one of the small good things they had during the war, they were learning of their past mistakes, slowly working thru their diferences and this time staying together, speaking yet somehow, the knight knew this subject won't come out again, and somehoiw he knew he'll have time to deal with it , with a loving look he observed to his companion, that elf that was serious, and with scholarly personality that somehow was able to gain his heart , he felt happy *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 13, 2011, 08:40:21 AM
Toran be praised :  The long awaited redemption

**Fort Miritrix had been the scenario for the meting, the fated meting to happen finally, Lance and Ell had just found again the way into their relationship, and this was a major event for the Stargazer's family reunion,  finally their lost son will come to speak with them, and not just that, he was bringing company, Ell had found him wandering on the streets of Miritrix and they had exchanged several greetings and agreed for the boy to met with them to introduce them to his girlfriend  *

**Lance was nervous as they sat on the table awaiting, Ell slipped her hand under the table to his knee to stop it from being moving, with a smile he answered to her and let his knee to stop, slipping his hand under the table to reach for her hand , the food was going to be not that bad as well , a big venison leg for the four of them, time was ticking and then the couple appeared on the door to the stairs up,  slowly they approached and Argos being him pulled the chair for his lady, under the approval of Lance's look towards his son manners,  the girl was wearing a long dress, confortable for the weather in white with blue motives, Lance smiles a bit at the detail, his son at least worried for trying to make a good impresion, same thing Argos mother noticed as well, Rory turned out to be an agreable lady, with modest manners and gentle beheavior*

*The morning transpired speaking as the good old times, so much time to catch up, and speaking of things that should have been spoken years ago , near ten years had passed since they had sit together, near ten years happened since they expeled him of their lives, Things change, for good at times , Once the breakfast was done, Rory excused herself , leaving the Stargazer family to speak, they traveled over the coast of the Lake in Miritrix . At the end of the evening the three of them were melt in a hug , leaving their diferences to be gone in the river.  *

*Slowly the Stargazer's family start to get together again *

// Events happened way before the war.
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 20, 2011, 06:11:37 PM
Toran be praised .- The time draws near another page, another war.

**The last month was stressful for the knight, the war and everything that it carries, but for once at last , the end of this one he had his family, Myla was there as well. and as the preparations for the evacuation of the civils had started he could finally take a moment on his office to think, his fingertips over the paper , he then took the quill to keep writting  *

Quote
To my Dear princess :

Its that time again were the world comes too closer to an end, I know , I know, i've been perhaps saying this for too many times, and that perhaps This won't be the last war we'll see.  Still I am here writting the letter again. I feel that is the right thing to do, and nothing that is written here is not said to you in person.

I once heard a term called , the song of the warrior, its a long story, but preety common, and i must say that it applies here, I am drawn to this conflicts, no matter how much i try, someone has to step up and well .. do what i do  I know this at times is hard for you, You my dear wife, an observer of how the world changes , how is that we fall in love with each other, I don't really care, the important is that it happened. And that in that you are the most wonderful event that has happened to me. Thank you for being my wife.

I want you to understand that my position here is going to be a high risk one, I know you know it, but I want to ask you to take care of our family if by the sunset of the battle you walk out and i don't, War is a terrible thing, And Myla would need someone to be there for her, I promise to do the same , so stop looking at this letter with that stare please. I know what you are thinking,  That I am writting this words again, perhaps, that I've written this in the past, true too,  But i'd rather writte them over again and hope for you to tease me tomorrow about it. Cause it would mean that we are there and that we lived over another war. I'd love to hear your teasing on this one.  And yet if its not the case, I've told you before the demise.

Finally not much i can say other than . I love you, I will and always love you.

Yours ever, in his holy light .

Lance Stargazer.



**the moment draws near as he folded the letter and placed the wax oil over it with his signet ring, he stood and move to place the letter delicately over Ell's dresser on their room, he then smiled and hearing the voices outside he closed his eyes on a small prayer as he goes out to greet his wife,

Always fair on his eyes, he gave her an appreciative look, taking her hand , the couple was left alone to enjoy the dinner and the nigth together *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on July 10, 2011, 06:50:25 PM
Toran be praised  . - Grandfather

**Lance still looks perplexed at the note held by Ell, sent by the very hand of his son, detailing with words the birth of his grandsons. he was taken of all words he smiles at her then knowing that is a great news for her too,  she is a woman after all, despite her serious nature, the motherly side of her always have came to play in the past, a demon that they both had fought, the fact that they would never have a son by their flesh and blood, a demon they have beaten, but still linger on the deep of their souls.

The knight was happy though, Even with the war still on their door, he looked at his bride with new eyes, she was shinning of happiness on the news, Two little Stargazers to be held and care for when they have some time to do it. Definitely good news amoung the chaos.

Hilm stood proudly after the battles , The enemy withdrawing back to Kuhl, There will be then the retaliation. The war will be taken back to their territory. Lance smiled at Iellwen as she returned to the room, holding her hand the couple walked towards the "Redeemer's Rise" to spend the evening there *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on April 03, 2012, 10:23:35 AM
Toran be praised .- About politic and worse things

**Lance sits on his studio looking to the small silver chain on his hand, the memento he had from his mother long ago, the letter not finished yet, or better said not started, he pull the quill away not feelinng the stomach to write on the moment, he has to be strong, he has to support a heavy burden, not only for himself, but for the whole kingdom, and the worse was still about to come*

*His thoights were filled with ideas, memories and strategies, always has been the tactician, shaking his head, he still dreamed the day where he could live in peace working the land with his wife beside him, sadly that would be life for someone else, he'll do what is needed ,because its needed, Toran has set the path for him and he will gladly follow to make the world better, even if at this moment he couldn't help for what the hard choices that will come in the future *

*Things were not all bad after all, he can count himself a proud grandfather of five, The last one came with surprise, The young Lislette Iellwen, Argos gave him such surprise, and the name had more meaning that a simple name, it meant that his son wanted to close the gap that was formed with the mother, those events years ago he still feel some times, but he loves the woman, She had been his love always, And Argos naming his daughter as the writter of the Quartus Toranis and the name of his own wife, speaks volumes of intention.*

*Things with Ell are a bit hard to explain at the moment, there is love of course, but she doens't trust him at some point, and well why would she had to do it?. Everyone can make mistakes, he was certain that he would never do anything dishonorable, nor with his sister in faith not with anyone, It hurt deep, but they are working together on this and he understand that she is hurt as well, The whole situatuion with Daniella was weird over the years. Cursed be the day when Miss Tegan spoke of that dress over the campfire*

*Now that the war is in tense calm, the troops have started to move back to their territories, not sure about the wise movement of this tactic, but alas Its perhaps good time to not tense the relationships beetwen the allies, Khul we need to retake evntually, but after the information we got, we need to secure our frontiers first, and stop the comunication beetwen Nessar and them.*

*His mind were busy mostly for the actual situation, he looked again to his silver pendant, simple but linked, as his older life used to be, He had to be there for the execution of one of the man that once served over him, he always believed on Redemption, his own heart yelled at him "Give the man another chance", but the sins the man commited and his own choices left him for what is to be done, The man's heart belonged to Toran, and Lance respected his choice, and his devotion, he simply couldn't see the greater picture, and same as him the man had flaws that didn't allowed him to see beyond what he was told, not by him nor Toran, by some unknown shadow that will await to strike again, perhaps claiming more lives as this man actions had done already. And he had to be there on the execution, he has to lead by example, Its an old Tilmarean advice  he heard from Linus : "A man who hides behind paid executioners soon forgets what death is." And he had lived with this on all his life. He stood in front of the man and looked at his eyes, he prayed with him before the execution, helping with the final rites, The man still considered Lance a betrayer to Toran's principles, and he has pity of his soul.

The head was cut in one single hit, Lance being there in first row gave the order, showing strength of will, but in deep of his eyes the burden of his actions. To kill your own brother for duty, Is there any worse burden than that? And yet it had to be done. And this was by far not over, more choices to come .. and worse.  more actions to  come ....

*Lance looked again at the white sheet of paper, and gave in for a moment taking the piece of paper with one hand and crushing it, then he threw it away, finally punching the big mirror he had closer, the sound of the crashing made a couple of maids to arrive, the man looked at them with hard look, and then closed his eyes , calming himself yet his features of being angry didn't disappared, he looked at the maids and ordered to clean the mess, then he'll move away towards the healer tent, he needed to someone to see his hand of course ... and now that was there to speak with his Ell. *
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on May 02, 2012, 08:09:45 PM
*The knight smile a bit , just for a birt as he places the pauldron on his office, *

A small package addressed to Commander Lance Stargazer is delivered to him. It contains a small, neatly folded parchment and a worn bronze pauldron. It is scared with deep scratches and nicks, and dented in some places as well. And despite all this, the ankh that has been graved into it is still clearly visible. The pauldron has been cleaned but not polished, and some dust from the travel has settled into the corners. [/COLOR]
  With great patience and precision, a prayer (http://forums.layonara.com/development-journals-discussion/284247-williams-journal-letters.html#post1737807) has been engraved into the pauldron most likely over the time of a few weeks.
 

 

  The letter reads:
 

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Dear Commander Lance Stargazer
 

  You taught me how to forge armor and work with metal. This is a pauldron I made for my very first own armor, and it has seen a lot of action since. Time and combat being what they are, I recently needed to replace my pauldrons. I want you to have my right swordarm pauldron. You taught me how to use my arm, mind and heart in craftsmanship, combat and life, and for that I am eternally grateful. Please keep the pauldron as a reminder of the time when we were younger, learning and training to be who we are today. A reminder of brighter, more hopeful days where today's devotion and focus roots deeply.
 

  Be HIS Light,
  ~Paladin William Leox
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on October 30, 2012, 02:14:07 PM
For Duty and Deity... And yet another war.

*The knight seems to be resting abit , a newer but worn old diary on his side that has seen plenty of reading of late, as his own journal lays open into the desk*

Its consumated it seems, This war has brought way more casualities that the lives of men on the field on both sides, its been somehow somber when all this turned into a political game. Its been kind of rough and I know that My sister feels betrayed, and yet I was doing what we thought better for the plot we designed first, this was one of the hardest things that I've ever done, No matter on this, we "won" which only means that much more people could have died if we had not won this war, Hilm stays idle on the fact that Now the choice had to be on Siphe's side, I'd can only pray for the best.

The young Raelyn has returned to Llast, she didn't said goodbye, her soul was perhaps not ready for the call on the lines, but what we work for if not for saving the inocence of souls on that?  Not every people is called for the same endurement, and she is blessed in the power of the Great Leader, may she find her way on the way the great leader sees better.

This bring me great pain to hear that Marinus is nowhere to be seen or known, I had great hopes for that man, I do hope to hear from him soon, I pray every day for his safety, and for the return to the beloved arms of his brothers.

Mari seems to be doing well and Hector as stubborn as always seems to have gotten some respect amoung the ranks of the Garra. It seems to be well going for them, they make me proud.

And yet there is Will, as troubled as always he had returned to us apparently not fitting well on Siphe's eyes, i really don't know what to do with the confidences he gave me, it make me think something that Siphe "wanted" to see, and not just the reality, he has returned and that is the positive about it, we have start to chat, its true that if one wants to help someone, one has to know that one, the man has dedication or stubborness my dear Ell would say, and his strong points its the conviction he has on the tasks he perfoms. He has stayed here to help to clean the remanents of the war. And Khul still looms over the west.

Things with Ell are well, as always she is been around near the places where i travel, and I do try to put some time for her too, things was hard on that trip we did before the war the trip to Tau'ren, we found another proverbial book of discern. WE have solved our diferences somehow. I guess that stuborness we both have is part of the charm. I love to see her along the areas where i am, she has been.

She has somehow under a lot of pressure after the war, but she is a resourseful woman, It still amazes me the way he handled that cult cell that was in Hilm, working undercover, she had made some good ties with the Aeredinites of the area, and the general healers on Hilm, her actions were worth my liege admiration, and yet I was not quite happy about the other task that she was needed to perform.

For now we need to keep moving, The new sun arises, time to lick wounds and to get ready for the next bout.

Lance
Title: Re: For Duty and Deity
Post by: Lance Stargazer on January 28, 2013, 02:14:49 PM
For Duty and Deity ... Family, Statecraft, diplomacy and duty.

*The knight in blue and gold  reads the note , was recieved this morning confirming that the gossip of something nefarious was happening in Nessar, as if that is something new, the traitors Nessarians always with the Corrupter behind them to sow chaos in the world, under the guise of a respectable goverment *

*Now he seemed amused a bit at the contents of this particular note, coming from near the temple where he lived on his younger years, speaks of people hoping him to do his best and not in the best way to put it, he was used to it, If only were that easy*

*The whole thing with the birthing of his "niece" now, This crowns the failure of the plan to get the people together, to erase the diferences perhaps in some generations, well it could always been worse he thought, He certainly don't expect that his sister stay in there, but of course that is her call, and he knows what influence a son or daughter can have on one life, specially on a life of duty, on this regards he needs only to wait and see, this was a failed plan yes, but there are other plans that he can still put to work, he can't help but to smile and shake his head as the proverbial time bomb that the situation had become, with Khul growing up their defenses to the west he had more concerns than the current state of affairs, Siphe after all its on his portfolio as well, and he mayneed as many allies as Hilm could get, the armies of the world slowly had retreated, abandoning the cause, Rael is a strong force still, strong enough to not care about 10,000 soldiers stationed on foreign lands to prevent him to do this, he had to include this raelian in the activities of the kingdom, he needed to keep an eye on them*

*And yes, last but not least , the child, Daniella finally had a child, a daughter none the less, he looked upon the open package on his table, inside two letters, some vials of water for the Toranite blessing of the name of the child, mostly as a gift to the girl, and finally two fine silken clothes for her as well, he made them during the nights, spending time back in the weaving of the fabrics as he used to do to recover his center , to keep things humble, as he always have tried to be*

*This girl he felt sorry for, she was not guilty of the situation and yet she was doomed to carry a heavy burden, to be the heiress of a state that is being pulled apart by the greed of men, no child deserve such burden, still he was going to do all in his power to help her in any way he can, it was his "niece" after all, yet politics always in the way, Of course Siphe won't allow much interference, and he won't press the matter as well, he has been called self-righteous for many people who believes they understand him, he won't push more than he is able, Hilm is in danger, and that was enough to worry , as to try to help more than the other allowed him to help, Empathy comes to his mind.*

*He looked at the door, the healer had arrived , he closed the package and deliver it personally to the woman in charge to deliver the package to Siphe principality, probably he won't see her in long time, her duty was to stay beside Daniella for helping her, and she would do it glaldly*

*Finally he smelled that well known perfume, he smiled a bit as he saw the femenine figure of his wife walking over the main court of the castle, attaired on that blue and gold dress he liked so much, she walked with secure stride , and a humble step, carrying herself with elegance, she looked up at his window, flashing a simple yet full of meaning smile , a brief smile, then she kept going carrying all those books back to the building that serves to hold the healers, he stood there  watching her for the whole way she walked , he closed his journal, and walk away, locking his office as she does, the sun was already painting the horizon ready to dissapear for the day, he had indeed a heavy burden on his shoulders, but for now It was time for his wife, for this night he'll see about her needs, about her well being, Hilm and Siphe will have him back in the morning. .. yes. . as every morning*
Title: For Duty and Deity .- Pride
Post by: Lance Stargazer on February 22, 2013, 10:55:46 AM

For Duty and Deity .- Pride and diplomacy

*Lance smiles a bit amused perhaps, the letter arrived after too much time, his thoughts were lost on the subject, and the political arena he is into now, how to deal with someone who doesn't trust the help, he look down towards the small stone that may of course help him to get in contact with his sister in faith, but he discards the thoughts inmediately, as his eyes return to the letter, his eyes reading it fast, twice for that intent, he folds the paper in half and returns it to the envelope where it arrived, looked at the remains of the Siphe crest seal wax that was destroyed so the letter could be opened *

- Well.. they are a perfect match in pride at least -

*he mutters to himself, as he let the letter down, to be placed into the safety box on his room, he had a lot to think about, how to crack the nut when the man doesn't trust him enough to open, Spies. the very thought make his stomach turn over, he had not been insinuated such thing ever, nor his mind ever considered it as an option, he really hate politics at times, as he thinks that, he looked upon the bed on the room, the elf laying down there, the Aragenite that decided to be his wife, laying down there,  he couldn't help to think on that part of the letter again when seeing her, to remember the task that was going to be imposed on her, make his stomach turns around again, he took the thoughts away this time *

*Slowly walking towards the balcony, dresseed in his sleeping tunic, he steped to see the exercises of the night, the watches, the long yell from the guard as they call "Clear" for the morning patrol, he looked towards the south, then to the north towards the forest of the Horn Kingdom, he is still awaiting the reply from Maran, somehow the letter brought the information he needed, and glad that he replied since now he knew the next step to go, and how to help their mistrusted neighbours of the south, The person he needed had been hard to be located in the past, that small halfling druid if she was still the one in charge of the land, she may be helpful she may not. alas he'll help .*

**He smiled a bit narrowing his eyes , as the first sun rays appear on the horizon, he stood there, enjoying the sight for a moment, then shaking his head start to head back to bed, Ell would worry if she found that he was not able to sleep, the less he needs is to give more worries to the people he cares about, the world keep moving anyway, and the pieces were in place*

Title: For duty and deity  ...
Post by: Lance Stargazer on August 06, 2014, 03:20:14 PM

For duty and deity  ... Eaornath D’lisk,

*The couple of travelers arrived at the small village, the glum feeling could still be felt in the air, the death and sorrow felt could not be washed from the inhabitants who still had just had no other thing to do to keep going with their lives, of every thing that had changed on him, this never had been, the feeling of impotence on how the enemy had once again threw dispair into the lives of inocents, he had heard once to one of his many rivals that there is no such thing as an inocent, and despite this, this people had no guilt or deserved what happened to them here, Hilm gave him a purpose, something bigger than his life where he could help people to reach for some of Toran's grace, but at times he missed to be able to do the small work, the real work, the politics .. that was his burden. *

*He moved into the field, he and his wife walking side by side, with traveling clothes, the long and sturdy cloaks hidding their true selves, to avoid suspicion... even if this people weren't as suspicious of any new strangers in town, hard and cautious faces recieved them during their stay. *

*As they walked they saw the remains of a house that was previously burnt, the new dig graves being blessed by the priest to prevent the bodies to raise again, the sorrow of many sons, daughters of Hilm lost to the senseless massacre, and the distrust... It all hurt on his heart as if it were his own loss, but the face of the man remain unfazed*

*They did not found an inn, it wouldn't be the first time they had to camp in the wild, it was no problem at all for them*

*The stay was as expected, after a couple of days and the proper visit to the temple, the couple left the town back towards Hilm, He didn't mentioned his rank or name, not even to the priest in the temple, there was no need to bring more trouble to this people, he had work to do, rebuilding work awaited, His visit served to oversee the damage, and to help him plan the rebuild effort, Lance Stargazer won't stay idle upon this people, Hilm people, his people suffering this way. The plans already drawn on his head....

... On the following days from arriving to Hilm, preparations were made, and materials prepared with engineers and builders dispatched towards the small village*

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