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Messages - solarina
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« on: July 14, 2007, 12:54:39 AM »
im back online and back home i had a major breakdown and had to go away to a hospital , no shame here admiting such and those closest to me here on layo knew of my where abouts and what was going on. I mention this because theres a stigma against getting help in real life for many people , and it can happen to anyone even someone close to you , not nessicarily yourself. Please if you or someone you love dearly is slideing that way get help or or kindly mention to the one you love that things may not be right with them and perhaps its time to seek help. Loss of apatite , no longer enjoying the things you once have loved , mood swings , strange thoughts ect are warning signs its time to get help , and there is no shame in getting help. Myself i found myself more and more trying to escape online and when that failed after time , i did something realy stupid that led to me going away , but had i the strength of charector to say "" ok somethings wrong im going to look into this " , instead of what i did which is denial , things would have worked out for the best.
I say this because it can happen to anyone and there is a stigma to it in society. Dont let what happened to me happen to you or a loved one and i say this because i care and its sort of relevent to any game because many of us use online games to escape in ways that dont realy address the problems were trying to deal with. In the end putting things off or being in denial can lead one to road best not traveled to begin with.
ps im not a nut or basket case , this kind of topic while taboo to many is important and like i said it can happen to anyone , ask me a year ago if i thought id travel this road , id have said no.
anyway thanks all of you who wished me well , and special thanks to jan and hellfire for there good wishs and emails. and im glad to be back.
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« on: July 07, 2007, 05:23:51 PM »
maybe this will bring you some comfort. The Rainbow Bridge
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« on: March 10, 2007, 05:45:43 AM »
jennaJade would go shes studying her wizardly arts more now ( if i am not asleep i will be there my meds are kicking my but thou haha been zzzzzzzzzz alot )
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« on: March 09, 2007, 06:33:08 AM »
can you use your layo char ?
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« on: March 09, 2007, 06:30:25 AM »
was wondering where the bard went solarina murmured to herself before moving onwards
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« on: March 09, 2007, 06:22:43 AM »
hte best rp ive had is on layo , everyone i meet knows how and does it well
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« on: March 06, 2007, 03:18:40 PM »
after reading this
"" Indecent exposure in public
- Commiting an unsanitary act in public. Said unsanitary act being one which would endanger the health of the citizenry ""
she giggles and wonders what in the world.........and walks away stiffling more giggles.
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« on: March 06, 2007, 03:12:09 PM »
cuzukay yes please do keep the account , let me explain why i have that view. I too am a gaming addict. I had to quit an online game i played called everquest due to rl things. I had a char with 6 years invested and i gave the account away. a year later i wanted it back merely to log on to say hi to some friends and maybe go kill a few thing and i could not. the loss still eats at me to this day. Luckily i had a 2nd lesser account , but still i lost 5 years of my life by foolishy giving away my account. deleating is the same thing......... its a loss you can never get back. the 2nd time i quit EQ i did what you sggested i unistalled the game (( 20 + hhours to do all the eq patchs btw )) which made it extreamly difficult for me to choose to play but yt in the back of my mind i knew my chars were "" alive and well "" so to speak and that i had the choice , should choose to , to go back. the choice to go back ironicly set me more free then when i gave the one accout away. I dont miss the game or the chars i had because i know in my heart they are still mine and around to use so they still exist so hence my time there wasnt gone or erased so tp speak. will miss meating up with you in game you were an awesome player. and i thank you much for helping me get of that other server i wandered onto that one day 
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« on: February 19, 2007, 11:43:14 PM »
""Just because some one is strange or acts odd"" sometimes people with disabilties play too , one never knows who behind they keys has what . besides who is to say what is strange or odd , its realy just different instead
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« on: February 16, 2007, 10:47:23 PM »
twins have been borne Barion JR and and a girl , Trinity. Solarina has agreed to watch over the wee ones now that the children are a few months old and a wet nurse has been hired as well. Ive stayed around the house not leaving much but today i ventured to town and for once didnt meet hostile and volitile people filled with hate and menace. I ran into my good friend Lex'or it was good to see him again , though i was confused as to not see he dressed in his fine armours. We will discuss the wedding plans me and barion soon. I had put it off due to the pregnancy , after all who wants to honeymoon pregnant or have a wedding reception where they cannot partake in the wine and merryment ? I do however think not many will show to the wedding.
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« on: February 05, 2007, 08:36:54 AM »
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« on: January 30, 2007, 10:10:00 PM »
when i was last on alot of the new folks were leading mobs into the town and not caring when told that these mobs can and do kill peoples oxens because of there actions. yes sadly some just dont care . I watch over my oxen and where i park her more carefully now.
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« on: January 23, 2007, 08:49:50 AM »
all existing orders will be filled but glass works and olde mold shoppe will be closed till further notice due to unforseen problems //ooc havent been available online as of late 
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« on: January 21, 2007, 04:28:28 AM »
Tpday i attended the wedding of sir Quantum and serissa , twas a beautifull wedding to be sure. a priestess of toran and rofirein did the cermony. All this gave me a sense of peace about my upcoming wedding to my love barion. We have the date set adn have begun disscussing where to hold it.
I attended the Knighthood trials of those who would become knights. All my teaching about rofirein and the laws and duty starting hitting me hard then , seeing such devotion in these men and women and the words that were being spoken also hit me deeply.
When my House fell I thought there to be no justice in the world , and it led me to chaos , a feeling that with no true justice only choas , the choosing of ones own laws or codes , or anarchy was the only true way to keep what you have and find happiness. I know now there are those who stand for justice and the laws of the peoples.
After the cermony i sought out reus , and spoke to him in the temple about becoming a member o the church and for swearing my anarchistic ways. Perhaps someday I too will serve the chrch in some way. I have sworn to follow rofirein now. Tis my 2nd vow since meeting my love , the other being to seek the soul mother should he perish before his time is yet done up this world.
Master reus bid me to attend next week to be welcomed into the church and i cannot wait to begin my new path in life.
I was proud of barion this day , he held himself up well. Regaurdless of what happens , I know in mine own heart he is my knight true.
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« on: January 17, 2007, 10:24:46 PM »
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« on: January 17, 2007, 03:39:58 AM »
We Have begun to fight , perhaps things arent quit right. Fights over stupid things too realy. I feel like cattle tonight , not an equal. He said he doesnt want to do some things a with me for three weeks because i continued to work while sick. Sickness can only make one stronger , and to give into weakness is to accept that one is indeed week.
I fled the house after hearing him say "" not for three weeks , and if ye nag me i shall seek out ye causin "" that hurt much. I ran off to the mines to work out my sadness and grief in combat. I love my causin but we had a snap in the past over Flarinious Rumblecrush in my youth. Those words he spoke stung me heart much. Ive worked hard trying to make nice things to sell to spice up the home in heaven to make it a true home and not a warehouse of things.
Well during these three weeks he may search out morgana then if that is his wish. I wont stop he. Yet i will not allow myself to be around this , nor will i be around whenst i am not being treated as an equal. I look now to his sleeping form and i woner what goes on in that daft head o his. I wonder what places and adventure the next three weeks will bring.
Least ive finished the house work and i do think it looks quite nice , furniture moved here and there , it looks cozy even. I alwats hated the indoors and now this place has grown on me. O well tiss under the stars for me fer the next few weeks it seems. I must reconcile these feelings stired within me the only way i know how , through me blade and bow becoming one with meself. Something about that state , of mind and being , empty yet full , its a time when an epifhany may strike true bringing one a closer understanding towards ones goal.
( she lays the quill down next to the ink and journal on the purple linin table next to the bedroom door packs her rucksack and departs. one corner of the page has been torn off )
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« on: January 12, 2007, 09:30:07 PM »
no order to small or to large , all makes and type of molds , ring , helmet and such. Glass Ingots to order !!
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« on: January 12, 2007, 04:35:00 AM »
Wedding plans Journal:
I will leave parts of this page and update accordingly.
chef & Cook : Arynne , a loacal women in hlint has agreed to be our chef. I paid her 2000 gold coin in advance.
Wedding date : set !!
Inviations : cant do those yet as the goof hasnt set the date yet.
Brewer: Rain Darus i think he calls himself said he would brew but i need to find grapes by some xeenite temple thing. It seems i will need many as we will most likely have many guests.
wedding band - done
entertainments : am thinking of getting one bard by the name o karn. Will look for a second bard as well.
Wedding dress: o my havent done thats !!!!
wedding party : o my havent done thats either !!
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« on: January 12, 2007, 04:14:43 AM »
I have finaly begun my triaining again. My feeling and the things they inspired kept me in and around hlint way to much. O i had thing to do however, Such as making many cloths , dresses , skirts and outfits. I didnt want to appear poorly dresses to me love or his people , so i went to work making an extensive wardrobe. My love was kind enough to place some armories around the haven house for me to store all my pretty cloths. I spent close to two months working on these.
My sister i fear will do something rash. Having found the news in her recent past along with her memorys of the past. She wanders hlint empty looking and forlorn. How long she will keepeth like this i know not. I fear for the worse. Strange how i found so much happiness and she in turn found so much saddness.
I Have begun trade skills under Barions teachings. Truely am surpised the time he would spend with me , teaching and nrightening me world yes. I have taken up tinkering and smithing. I also plan to tailor and do alchemy.
I went on a few journeys and travel for my martial training in the bow and the art the other day. With a group ive never met no less , save for one gentlemen with a strangest manner o speaking , he goes by the name o karn , and he is a bard. I shall have to ask the honor of him being one o the wedding entertianers , as i found his sea scurvy songs tantalizing to say the least. I feel not at all in the heaven mines i am happy to say !! once i came head to heaad with an orge and i did very well , taking few wounds , not even needing agic wards to keep me alive. After wards we went into grey Peak mountins to help the horse lady. I came close to falling thrice there but common sense and strategy allowed me to survive where others would have fallen in my shoes.
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« on: January 10, 2007, 06:36:17 PM »
Chongo - 1/10/2007 4:14 PM
Is it cool to spam *str check* to all the ladies in Hlint before initiating conversation?
Because I personally think this is as cool as it gets.
 that made me laugh hehe.
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