Rena's Black Diary

[Foxy]

Journal Entry 1.

I picked up this book at the general store. Should work fine for 25 gold... better be... 25 gold is alot for a stinking black book with a lock on it... Anyways. I met some interesting people around Hlint. Buppi as an interesting halfling, quite a little scaredy cat from what I see. Should be fun to scare her more and distance myself from others through her. She shows fear quite well. Good girl though. I finally got the wet ash to pant my nails black. Cost me a bit, also in search of a Lich Skull, two Rakashasa Eyes, and a Slaad Tongue, there going to be tough to find but I'm sure I can locate them in time. I paid homage to Ilsare today away from the prying eyes of others. I did alot of good deeds, makes me feel good inside... Ozymandias is an interesting person, seems like a good heart, should be someone to stick close to in the future. A Half giant who is quite a... well he's a little stupid but I won't hold it against him. He tries his best. Thats all that counts really, wow listen to me being all soft. I think that stupid dragon did something to me to turn me so soft all of a sudden. Or maybe it was that near death experience... I'm not entirely sure. All I know is that I feel new again, like something had been on my shoulders and now all the weight was lifted off of me. Feels good. I'm getting some income in this adventuring business and its really doing good. I'm glad things are starting to look up. For awhile I didn't know if I could go on but now things are beginning to go my way. Maybe one day..... well lets not start fantasising Rena... one foot infront of the other... Maddison is a hyper active strange woman. Note to self: Watch out for her... she's wierd...
-Rena Blackrose-

[Foxy]

Entry 2 -
Sitting on the side of the pond here in Hlint passes the time away. Met up with Ozy again today, seems like he's had quite a life. Met several other faces. Also saw one human guy that I hope not to see too much of until I get his money... Blacklung seems kinda strict but I guess so when he's that rich... His house is near castle like...  huge mansion... 3450 gold, its alot to get in a week but I think I can do it... Coming here was good for me though... I found a new world in the old strife. Ismaru is starting to become quite a fighter, he just needs to learn to keep up the work and he'll get places. Last night I had a dream and I just remembered it. I was standing in white robes, older... holding a white staff made from some strange unknown slick wood. There was a man infront of me, his armor was a strange metal, thick and heavy full plate mail. He held up a sword and as I looked up I saw a horde of demons, huge demons... there was a huge glash in the earth and a bridge between us made from mithral and I looked behind us and there was an army of warriors dressed in strange clothing. The man infront of me led a charge and the men rushed out infront of me in amazement and all I could do is watch... no spells nothing came to my mind... I was standing in the midst of a war I could not prevent... Then it all disappated and I thrown backwards and blacked out when I awoke I was back to my old self, the robes and staff were gone. I stood infront of a young bard in the midst of a crowded bar, the band playing loudly as I looked up and watched as an elder elf grabbed the bard and took him off stage. Just then I blinked and there I stood in the snow of a ruined palace, the dust and snow thick in the air, I looked up and saw a young woman in light white dreadlocks, her skin light like the snow falling around. She came over and took my hand, her eyes were strange and blue like mine. She took my hand and led me across the destroyed palace, in the center there was a stone of blue. The stone had an aura of cold around it, as I grabbed it the stone cracked and I heard a loud piercing scream as blood oozed from the stone. I woke up by the swamp, the will o' wisps were active and I looked up, there was a Raven screetching its song at me, looking to pluck out my eyes if I let it. I had fallen asleep in the inn in Hlint and I woke up in the swamp... deep in the swamp... I'm not sure how I got there but I got out of there with haste! Finally I decided never to crush up Ginger and MonksHood in my ale again, doesn't do good things with the mind. Well time to get back on coming up with a plan to get 3450 gold for the blacklung fellow.

[Foxy]

*sits down in the Sielwood Forest, holding herself for a moment then taking out her journal*

Entry 3 -
Its been awhile... since I wrote in here. I suppose because I haven't had alot to write about except Hawk and the Circlet and people I've met... I guess what sparked it was that I wasn't invited to come along to save a forest... I suppose I'd just end up harming it instead, I guess thats why I am what I am. Even when I try to help I only hurt, why can't I just find happiness and love? I understand how things are though... as people say I'm a little hell raiser and a demon to boot... but am I really? ... I don't know... Everyone I meet always has another agenda involved... something more, something like saving someone else or killing someone else... They never care or notice how I feel... Everyone except hawk pays attention to me... but Hawk is loved by another woman so I can't do that... I'm a bit saddened by the turn of events as I sit alone and contemplate about my past, my future, and the stuff inbetween called the present...

*takes out a locket with a small picture in it, the chain is broken with three links left on the top of it, inside the locket there holds a picture of a young boy*

I just wanted to let you know... It's so tough... Even though you past, what now... four long years... I still wake up late at night crying tears... Just thinking about those days you use to talk to me... Smiling while I'm thinking about that fantasy... bragging about how rich we would be... to get away from our blood was both our fantasy... All the little annoying things you use to do... makes me miss you... How I wish I could hug you now... wish we could talk somehow... I know your in a better place... but I still wish I could see your face... I know your smiling down on me, saying, everythings ok... This adventuring stuff has caused nothing but stress, I sware I'd trade in all of my success... They look at me and say how I'm nothing but troublesome at best... They really don't know inside, my unhappiness... Sometimes it gets as heavy as a ton... But its the only reason I'll never run... Voice in my head tells me to go away from the temple of ilsare... but I know Ilsare is the only way to stop this hurt... Waking up to my life sometimes makes me feel worse... The only thing I ever wanted was to grow up to be a human... but I can't pretend in this land... The dragon wants me to save this world, I don't understand... how does a demon belong in this land...

*wipes the tears from her face and closes the locket putting it away sniffing a bit holding herself rocking to sleep in the forest night*

[Foxy]

*sighs again alone in Sielwood*

Entry 5 -
I don't understand it... everyone is turning on me one after another... I'm never heard... I'm being thrown out of Inns, merchant places, and even the sielwood witch who never had a problem with me before suddenly snapped and yelled at me to leave... whats going on... what did I do? Why does everyone hates me suddenly... I don't understand anymore... Ignored, ridiculed, and shunned... What did I do?

[Foxy]

*getting tossed back against a wall in the Krandor Crypt, rubbing her neck as her Imp flys at the Undead Captain in a rage* Ouch... *rubs her neck* that hurt... *the Imp gets hit once and nearly dies* Holy Gods... *summons a fireball up to disentegrate the Undead, right then the imp takes its finally hit and dies in an unsummoning spark of blood and screetching, the psychic spike of pain is enough to throw off her concentration and blow the whole fireball spell up in front of her sending her back out of the Crypt door and into the graveyard sliding back against the road where she finally stops and lays drifting off and waking back up in Hlint* good gods what exactly happened? *rubs her neck and shakes the spider webs out her head*

Entry 7 - Undead

I've been playing with the undead I've found on this continent... To say the least the undead are remarkably capable of taking care of themselves. They are agile enough to dodge my fireball attack and fast, strong, and quite evil enough to hurt without warning. Very fun to fight though, if not dangerous. I gotta remember to learn how to summon these things... Wow... *smirks* Powerful undead... I'm no necromancer but infernal if they don't beat down anything in there path... I may get a bad rap from being people back from the dead to fight for me but its better than them coming back to attack others. I also have a soft spot for those Shadow things out there. Very amusing how well illusions and undead can work miracles out there... May be shunned apon but ha, I'm shunned apon as it is. *stretches out again* Back down there to rip them apart...