Journal of Sabrissia Ice

[iceyfire]

Bio/Description: 5'8, Long legs, shapely chest, and a quick wit.She is clad in a dark gray tunic with Golden-Blonde hair hidden beneath a almost magical weave of silk, a fresh face with a smattering of freckles across the bridge of her nose and under an intelligent pair of cobalt blue eyes. Hanging from a tanned leather belt are various pouches containing different potions and spell components.Beneath her exterior you feel she is wise way beyond her years, as she fiddles with her scrolls while conversing with a familar.
Sabrissia born within the walls of spellgard, of a pair of powerful wizards, she has shown an impressive interest in learning about all things magic. This interest is further expressed through her reading of books about all forms magic from dark to light and through observation of the most powerful wizards of the forces of light. As she stayed sheltered within the walls of spellgard and with her parents away for long periods at a time, she only had the influence and guidence of a mischievous female faerie dragon named popouri around. Popouri always at her side she would spend most of her days, getting into all kinds of trouble with the elders of the different orders of magic.
This mostly sheltered existance left little in the way of learning the social etiquette & general knowledge of the troubles of this world. As a result she tends to have a rather short temper and may come off as a little rude and confusing when she is trying to communicate her ideas to others, but she does however mean well and possess a kind spirit despite all that has happened to her these recent days.
An immediate inspiration and life changing event that sent her out on a quest for revenge and power in the name of the light is that of the recent occupation of the dark elves that saw her parents and many of her friends and mentors slaughtered
Although she is not yet strong with the power of magic, she knows her potential and in time of training what she has learned from books she will become powerful or die trying.As a result of all things she seeks only the most powerful arcane artifacts so that she achieves victory. She knows that evil cannot be allowed to prevail in this world and it is her responsibility as a wizard of the light to do all that she can to protect the innocent and needy from those that deem it necessary to exterminate life.
With this unbreakable will and determination your sure that she will achieve these goals or die trying, one bit of advice is not to get in the way of her and her goals.

[iceyfire]

Day 1.
With all the events that have occured in recent days I have decided to keep an account of my future travels as it seems my life will never be the same again.
The start of my confusion begins with the friendly gold dragon of whom tells me it is my responsibility to fight against the blood.
I was some how summoned to this creature thought some pretty strong magic im sure, as it has brought me elven years into the future..
After all that has happened to me in the past week i am hardly the same person of which i once was, with the distruction of my occupation of my home town Spellgard and my recent arrival in a land i know very little about.
I have lost my faith in lucinda after all these events, perhaps its best i follow my own path for the time being...
I do feel the need to help others, which is in contrast to my need to take revenge on the drow that have wronged me, this confusion is too much to bear..
I will become study magic & become stronger so that i can bring a end to my lust for revenge, perhaps even aid the forces of light against the blood threat in the process...


Day 2.
As far as i have arrived in hllint which is said to be centre in which all manner of heroes meet up and fight against the blood.
It has been a long day indeed..
I have met some very interesting folk in this quiet town, of which are a Cleric named Vestlyn & a sorceress named Alantha.. A drow...
I am suprised i did not hate her however, perhaps their is hope for me yet, as she is a very devout follower of my old goddess Lucinda.
She has inspired me some, but not enough to sway my opinion on Lucinda however, i must find clarity before i can make such a decision again...
She and her friend did however show me a great kindess by teaching me some survival skills in the real world of which i will never forget.
Some very special magical items she loaned to me for the time being in order to best combat the outside world.
I am very thankful for their assistance and hope to one day show them how strong i really am...

Day 3.
Vestlyn continues to help me much more then any other around this town. I have seen much of the way in which this region of the world works.
The dialect some use is rather peculiar but i will get used to it in time i hope...
I do however consider vestlyn to be a good friend now & hope to be able to continue working with him in the future.
I must end this journal early as he is returning soon, we are spending a very relaxing evening under the stars from a lookout point in Haven.
It is very wierd I feel for him but I believe he cares for me more then he thinks I know, I do doubt that I can ever return such feelings however, I mean how could I?

Day 7.
I have done much in the past few days & have not had a chance to write much on the occurances.
Something strange however i have not heard from poor vestlyn in sometime....
I have heard rumors of him being captured by someone he has been befriended and is currently being tortured for their sick pleasures...
I am very worried, but i fear there is little i may do in this situation, besides pray for his safe return.
I see now how gods must not intervene with eachother to stop such things from happening....
They seem to be all part of a great circle of which they will not risk all out war with eachother, but rather perform some small and large parts with their human followers.
Maybe i was wrong about lucinda?, Hmm i do not know.
Maybe one day if i become strong i will be able to save him if he still lives....

Day 8.
IT is amazing the amount of different individuals one can meet in a day, one of which who is strange and unexpected is a Half Giant named Koppig.
He has a very big obsession with "Smashing tings" but he holds what seems to be bravery and valor behind his actions even if he is not smart enough to figure that out for himself.
I respect him, and will travel with him to the planes of which the blood resides if he needs it...
On a side note i have learnt much in my training of real world magic, It seems i am becoming stronger all the time aswell as learning many new variations of spells to use.
Perhaps my goal to become a Arch Wizardress is not such a farfetched goal?

Day 11.
Today when looking back on it was a very emotional and meaningful day indeed.
I had awoke from the inn like i usually do now, and had gone out to the meeting area of which most adventurers seem to linger.
And then i saw him, he was a rather strong handsome man clad in a rather exquisite blue tunic.
I asked his name and he replied to it being Barion Firesteed, a named i will not forget for some time.
He is a very sweet man indeed....
We talked for some time until i mentioned i have not seen much of this land and its offerings to a young wizardress such as myself.
He immediately offered to escort myself and a few friends towards a cave near fort velensk and show us all the dangers and wonders on the way.
Ofcourse i agreed to this and followed him....
It was a long walk on the roads but somehow i felt completely safe under his watch..
We had reached our first stop within a few hours of walking this road, Port Hampshire they call it.

Truly an amazing city to say the least..
We had stopped in for supplies mostly, so i went off to the market place and decided to look around a little.
Finding i had little money on me, i made a quick walk over to the Bank, but on my way i stubbed my toe... And well i made the mistake of letting my poor temper get the better of me....
I destroyed the door with little ease to find a scared bank manager fearing i had come to rob the place, immediately on instinct i ran for the door and sat outside crying for a little while..
My friends never seemed to leave so i walked back in to see what they were up to only to find Barion trying to sort out a dispute on my behalf with the Captain of the city guard & the bank manager.
I walked in and was immediately secured by his soldiers.
I stood their crying my eyes out as Barion begged for forgiveness for me.... Such a sweet man....
With luck his amazing diplomacy had saved me from being taken to the prison to rot for many months....

Today i thought would just be another day in the explorations of this dangerous place.
We left the city and eventually arrived at Fort Velensk, via a very smelly but dangerous swamp.
We took some rest then headed off to a cave nearby, which had a foul stench of blood and rotting meat to it.
As i had suspected it was full of ogres, very hideous creatures.....
Barion managed to take care of them all with little effort and a unquenchable fury, by the end of nay five minutes he was standing their over a entire clan of these creatures.
All was good till a strange rumbling took me by suprise,the ground opened up in a spiked arch form and a blue disgustingly evil
creature rose from the rubble.
Barion ofcourse immediately swung into action and attacked the foul beast.
I fear however he was not strong enough to take on such a creature, none of us were so we retreated.. But barion he stayed and gave us the time we needed to escape..
Such a brave soul, our grief was given very little time to settle in however, since the creature had left the cave and was chasing after myself.

I ran as far as i could into the wood and managed to loose it before doubling back to my party.
We rushed into the cave to see how poor barion had fared, only to find his lifeless body upon the floor.
The ogres had been scared away by the demon but they seemed to be returning so we rushed his body out of that foul place..
Nay five strides from the cave however we heard the demon.... It was close and it was killing every living thing in its path, it had to be stopped.
Lucinda must have been with us for we met with two very impressive heroes as we were making our way back to the fort.
They heard the beast and ignored us to take care of it before it caused any more havok.
We made our way to the fort where we did our best to try and heal our broken friends body.
To no avail i might add till lucinda mustve shined upon us for he rose from his wounds, and they healed before our very eyes....
I can not explain how i felt at that moment, i do hope we get to spend more time together.......
We continued to the fort and we entered a cave near this fort and came across the typical ogres....

Then an unexpected occurance..
We had a demon of sorts summon from nowhere.
It was rather hideous with a blue hide.......
Barion did his best to try and hurt the beast to no avail.....
He held the beast and had us run, we did our best to try and get it to not kill him but...... We failed.....
We however did manage to get the creature to loose itself and chase after something else..
We quickly returned to Barions side and saw ogres were in the process of deciding how to best cook our friend.
As such i ran to his aid and protected my party as we carried his body back to the fort...
Among the screams of animals and creatures we heard around us we saw hope.
A shrouded warrior and sorceror came along and slew the beast which was following us and allowed us time to escape back to the fort.

It was their we tried our best to raise our friend from death......
To no avail i cried for this dead man........
But the unexpected happened, a Cleric raised out fallen breathren and brought him back to our world.
I could not contain how happy i was to see this....
He helped me much this day.... much indeed.......

[iceyfire]

Day 13.
Today i did something that suprised myself greatly...
I met with Barion again, but today was different, i felt different.
After that event days ago i had grown to feel different about this brave warrior.
Against my better judgement i confessed my undying love for him, i half expected him to be tell me he did not feel the same way.... That i was a fool to even try... But he told me he had felt the same, that he had never felt this way about somebody before in his life....
Needless to say we spent a very romantic evening together in his castle in haven, and a night i will never forget....
Trully Lucinda shines upon me once more... Perhaps i should go to the temple some day soon and ask for forgiveness for my past blasphemy......


Day 15.
I am glad i met Barion, he treats me very well.... He cares so much about me which suits me fine since i feel the same way about him.
Although we do not see much of eachother, we make every second count.
He has taught me a lot about myself and lent me tombs of great magical knowledge.
A problem however i feel within myself.... Something i feel is starting to consume my heart...
I feel like some form of darkness is shrouding my inner being & the stronger i become the stronger it becomes....
Perhaps my love for Barion will be enough to save me from this darkness.... For he means the world to me...
Someone once told me that we are the only ones that can choose if we are to be good or evil...
Well lets hope i make the right choice for the sake of those around me especially my love.....

Day 17
I have been adventuring much of these late days with a interesting Elve named Lilly, she is very kind to me...
She gives much more then she takes for me & has even offered me a key to her house to stay...
I took her up on this as i recently got kicked out of the inn for blowing up a door in my sleep.........
My intentions with her are as friends but somehow i dont know if thats what she is after from this relationship.
Time will tell i guess.

Day 19
Nothing much has happened as of late i have halted in my advancement of magic to take up a profession.
This profession is alchemy which i can say is very enjoyable for me.
Lilly has been kind enough to supply me with materials to make some pretty potent gem crafting potions, and i get the pleasure of learning more and more about how chemicals and different materials react with eachother.
At least i havent blown up anything yet!.
She is however confirming my suspicions i feel she wishes to become more then friends with me, whatever can i do.
I hope Barion comes back from his job soon i am feeling sick not seeing him..
I need his support to help me battle the darkness growing within me, or perhaps what i really need is to give my faith with lucinda another attempt..
I should stop blaming her for the mistakes of mortals as she is responsibly for a lot more then that.
I must find out more about the temples on this island.

Day 21
Today was one of my longest here..
I heard much troubled talk when i had spoken with Ranewin.
She told me of some rumors of which had circulated... Ones that are hurting my poor Barions heart...
I put her mind at ease and told her these were untrue, that my love for him has remained the same.
She had also sensed my troubled soul as she is a cleric and knows when something is very wrong...
I told her of my past and my current feelings..
She was shocked but gave me some good advice, to see a priest by the name of celgar and discuss with him lucinda.
One day soon i shall go and talk with him.
I also hope to see Barion later this evening as she has said he will be back from the company soon enough...

Day 22
Last night was a very special night i spent with my Barion, he has taken care of me very nicely....
He offered me a key to his home and said that i could live with him.
I graciously took this offer with tears streaming down my face....
I am so very happy to be staying with my love now.
He has helped me much to put my darkened heart at ease.
And to finally regain the clarity and rejoin my order by becoming a servant once more of my lady Lucinda.
I only hope she has it within her to forgive me....

[iceyfire]

Day Unknown...
It has been awhile since i last wrote here...
A lot has happened, i did not wish to record it as i could not take the chance of anyone reading it, nor did i know how to word it.....
I Sit here and think to myself how is it i am going to solve all of this?.
So many problems, and yet so many good occurances..
Where to begin hmm.....
I know...
The Dreams, yes... The dreams..
For awhile now i have had a varying sort of dreams, i consider to be unnatural... They are forced on me.. By a very ghastly creature.
The dreams.... they picture me practicing necromatic spells... Destroying forces of the light with a smile on face... & images of a place i do not know... With a face abrutly ending my dreams...
The face it is that of my old master.. Arkalis... But it is not his face well... Maybe his true face i guess...
He is a lich.. A very powerful one at that..
He fooled the entire tower of the Arcana into believing he was an normal Arch wizard...
Anyway.. needless to say i think he was my mentor for an entirely sinister reason......... The dreams he sends me make me feel as though he wants me to become a lich myself........
*Shudders* Sick it is...
Anyway this is not the worst of it...
Just the other night i was attacked... Taken, by vampires... Under the wishes of this lich...
They poisoned me.. Knocked me out and tainted my soul.. The leader even went as far as to develop a blood bond with me.....

The bond as far as i can tell means that i am bound to this vampire... That in time i would feel as though i was in deep love with him.. That he would draw me back to him..
Making me what to become his... I can only assume this is when he would turn me into a vampire or turn me over to his master...
Anyway.. Needless to say this a very disturbing thought...
I would be absolutely terrified if it was not for Matilda...
She has been my first piece of good news lately besides my obvious engagement to be wed to Barion that is.
She met me... And took me as her ward, She has sworn to protect me from any evil that hunts me.....
A big job indeed...
Anyway she enchanted a ward to help me stave off the mutterings of this blood bond.. And protect me from further attacks....
With hope anyway...

Another thing.., Afirmation.. With lucinda. Matilda has also taken upon herself to teach me about lucinda, magic and other parts of the world. In time i am sure to become fairly fluent in these subjects as she is a very good teacher..
I am lucky and with hope she will help me enough to gain sponsorship with eldarwen to become affirmed... Something i do so desire..
Anyway back ontopic.. Matilda has spoken with eldarwe and she has promised to help me find this Vampire.. I must gather some materials that must be mined by Matilda and I.
With these we will be able to track it to its lair.. And find out what it knows about its master.. With hope.. Find out where this lich lives so that we may destroy it......

Many have pledged their aid to me..., So i am sure we will be able to destroy this evil.....

[iceyfire]

*Sighs as she writes again in her journal*
I never really get time to write in this book, anymore these days..
Anyway.. So much has happened since i had the chance to write in this...
Life is how you say somewhat uneventful then it has been, no more trouble with undead nor anything else for that matter..
Actually i have been having a lot of thought on a few things.
Like, the time when Barion and I will be joined in Marriage, the possiblity of a child, the effect these will have on my magical studies.
So much.... *Sighs*
All i know is i love him, and it scares me that the soul mother has given him the message "Halfway".
Heh, i think i may have to tie him to the bed to keep him from going off to fight if he gets anymore pieces of his soul taken from him.
Anyway.. I have a few decisions to make as of late, regarding a whole range of things...
A recent offer from the Arcane alliance to join them and have access to their facilities, Hmmm well maybe.
Anyway... Soon im going to have a talk with him, and we are going to have our ceremony, and maybe that will help convince him to settle down and not get himself in danger...
I dont know what would happen if he was to be taken from my life.... Maybe the darkness would return, no i dont want to think about it.
The power i have is to be used for good, mischief maybe but never to endanger any of the good still left in this world.

[iceyfire]

More and more occurs.....
I do not like the idea of writing this down as i fear it may be seen by those who should not..
However it is something important, i have been charged with a special part in the creation of the Shadow blade..
It is however physically made... But the weapon itself the magic behind it still needs to be.
I will not dare write these words here but i have been granted the words of the gold dragon god, the words used in creation... Such powerful words are not to be taken lightly... I feel as if i have been granted a burden more then anything.
Ozymandias does not seem to think i can do this, that i can withstand the temptation to use these words for something they should not be used for.....
I will show them, i will not fail... Even if i have to do it alone, i will make sure the blade is forged and is complete for the sake of the world.....
If i die... it is acceptable... As long as i am not forgotten *Sighs*
No i will not become just a memory....
*The rest of the text is highly incoherent and indecipherable*

[iceyfire]

I dont know what it is but i feel something is wrong with my love...
His lust for battle grow's every day that i see him, he tries to hide it but he ofcourse cannot.
I love the poor fool, and i will do anything to prove this to him... Perhaps with a child and a family to worry about he might have this lust quenched...
I only hope so because these are the my most cherished dreams...
Not only dreams of being the greatest wizardress to walk the lands.... But to be a mother and have a daughter or son...
*The page is a little wet as if someone has been crying on top of the text, smudging a lot of the passages ahead*

......But yes.. In time everything will be ready for our special day, i only hope we can make it one to remember.
And well if he visits that soul mother again... he is going to be in much trouble from me...