Author Topic: The protectors diary (Read 3954 times)

Pibemanden · « **Reply #40 on:** April 14, 2006, 03:51:51 AM »

Training and getting a mentor

I have spend most of my time training and haven’t been travelling all that much. I have spent some time together with Matilda who has taught me a lot about the faith and combat. Maybe someday I’ll be able to become part of something greater than the Spellgard guard. I have been helping the fair city of Prot Hampshire together with a band of adventures. The city had a problem with their lighthouse and we had to travel all over the world to get the things needed for restoring the device that powers the lighthouse. We just recently succeeded in this task, and now the lighthouse shines bright again. Just before we went into the lighthouse Matilda accepted me as her squire and told me that she would teach me if I stayed alive through the entire process of going down to the device that powered the lighthouse. I succeeded in this task and now I have to stay alive and don’t do any foolish things for the next months. This gives me a lot of time to study as I don’t really travel the world that much as I used to. So I have been using a lot of time on my elvish training and have spent countless of hour speaking with some of the elven mages in Spellgard. Right now they’re trying to teach me how to cast the fifth circle spells without any somatic component. It will most defiantly take longer than if I just asked them to do it in common but this way I will also get a lot better at speaking elven. *Below is written some arcane words and some elven descriptions of what they do*

Pibemanden · « **Reply #41 on:** May 16, 2006, 11:46:07 AM »

Successful in some of the training

After long studies I have finally been successful in stilling the spells of the fifth circle after learning these spells I can now protect the mind against dangers and provide a strong protection against the elements I have some other spells as well but they’re not as useful to others but me. It has been a while since I have seen Matilda but I haven’t died all that much and have stayed out of harms way for some time although I did die because of a planar that decided to show her power in Hlint. She appeared suddenly in the middle of the street and killed me and Rhynn but all that business is about power and the destruction of planes and I won’t write more about it here. I have also been close to death while searching for some lost adamantinium in the Serpent Mountains on Dregar. An ancient beast had appeared because the dwarves who owned a mine in those mountains dug too deep. This beast turned people into stones slowly and was apparently controlled by some evil mastermind who trapped it near the surface to make use of its powers.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #42 on:** May 18, 2006, 12:59:04 AM »

Guarding a lot and some other things

After some time sitting in Hlint, gathering aloe, ginger and greenstone and digging sand in the Blood Desert, I have been assigned for a lot of guard duty since my superiors seems to be thinking that I have to much to spend on the things of my own choosing. So now I’ll be guarding almost 16 hours a day and won’t get much time away from the temple except some of my unfinished business which I have been allowed to participate in. *The first letter is a bit shaky but the writing becomes calm again after that* I have also heard some disturbing news today. Apparently Matilda has been killed by the giants on Dregar, the ones that live in the small camp in the outskirts of the Drift Lands. Barion told me this when I was at the Raven Trades house delivering sand. He had dispersed all the giants afterwards and made the roads safe for a while at least. I hope that Matilda is safe now and won’t get hurt by those nasty giants again. Last night I had a very strange dream – I saw a tower burning, it seemed somewhat familiar but I can’t recall having seen a tower that lays that deep within a forest. Maybe it is something from my past from the time before I became a protector, but I can’t know for sure since I don’t remember all that much… But now I am off to guard duty anyway, so I’ll have plenty of time to think about the tower and what made it seem familiar.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #43 on:** May 28, 2006, 08:08:51 AM »

The tower in the High forest

I found out by listening to rumours and asking around in the tower that a mage tower had been burned in the high forest. Apparently the wizard who owned it was a rather evil one who was trying to hide from something but then lost it and attacked a Toranite expedition. The toranites spend the better part of a year tracing him and his tower down so they could remove the treat to the commoners of that area. I had to swallow my pride and go to the temple of Toran in Fort Llast. I tried to ask them if they found anything noteworthy while they where tracing down the wizard, like his name or some of his notes. They told me that the wizards name was Ghac but that they had burned his tower to the ground together with all the books and notes that Ghac had. So I learned nothing more here than a name which means nothing to me. But now I must go prepare, I have been told to stop my guard rounds and try to do something other that sitting around. When I asked them what I could do they just told me to remember why I was even part of their order and what the purpose of being so was. So I read the notes that I have kept here in my journal and understood that I have to play a more active part in the faith than I have done the last few years. So now I am going to the Silent watch for some time and will be trying to learn more about the area than I know now from brief trips to check out if the disturbances are still there.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #44 on:** June 05, 2006, 01:14:23 PM »

The journey

*The following text is loose bits of paper which are added to the journal by using primitive glue* Day 1: I have finally gathered enough food and healing supplies for the trip. Also I though that I better tell Matilda that I will be away for some time so I’ll be writing her a letter explaining everything and then send it to Blackford with one of the clerics who have business there. I will be leaving together with another protector who will follow me to Fort Hope, we will be riding over the desert to Raxwell and ride north around Lake Derius and try to avoid the Broken forest on our way to Fort hope. This will be the first time ever I have to ride somewhere and I hope that I’ll be good at it even though I have only trained riding for a very short time mostly due to my arcane studies. I am leaving my journal here just in case something bad happens and so I don’t loose it up in the Silent Watch. Day 5: After a long journey through the outskirts of the desert I finally find myself in Raxwell. The trip was quite uneventful and the only thing that bothered us where a couple of small snakes and scorpions. I am quite sore after riding because I never really trained that skill for more than a full hour at a time. But tomorrow our journey takes us around Lake Derius and beyond so there is no time to waste bed time for me should be around now. Day 8: After a short trip through the forest where nothing else that the normal animals where seen we find ourselves in Fort Hope my fellow protector took the horse and went north to Spellgard using the road through the broken forest. I will spend the rest of the day at the Caring Hope Inn meditating and preparing my gear for the journey. Day 11: I can see the outskirts of the mountains now, I have been moving in the very outskirts of Far Reach Forest because of all the rumours about missing people and because I know that Satyrs live there. So far my journey has been almost relaxing but much hard work awaits me, I still need to get into the mountains and try to move around there unseen. Day 15: I enter the mountains, black clouds are hovering above and the rain is pouring down. Lots of thunder is heard around here and the mountains look really evil. I hope that my rations is enough for the trip, but if they aren’t I am just going to starve for a while until I find some proper place to look for food. I would rather not eat or drink something that comes from these mountains. Well I better be going into the mountains now… Although the place seems a bit too scary for a person like me I don’t feel the fear in my heart. Day 23: I have seen most of the mountain range outskirts around here now, and I feel confident enough to go deeper. Nothing has really been attacking me yet but I have seen some animals or at least I though they where animals. But they ran away before I could get a closer look at them. Whenever I try to focus on the weave I feel that something is wrong, but I can’t put my finger on what and my spells seems to be working fine down here. Day 30: I have now been over some of the first peaks. The darkness is everywhere in there and the weave seems disturbed. One of my spells accidentally turned me into a chicken but else I have been doing fine. Except I feel that something is spying on me. I can’t really see anything but I feel it someone’s eyes are on me. But I am soon running out of supplies so I need to move closer to the lake to gather some food but it will properly take some days to do so. Day 45: After stocking up I am back in the mountains. Now I have gone so deep that I almost don’t know my way out of here. The whole place is weird I have never feel a so strong disturbance of the weave in any place. The eyes still seem to be on me but I haven’t seen anything yet, although I though I heard something the other night. So creature is running around for sure. I can only hope it is not hostile. Day 50: I have pushed far into the mountain range now. I have a slight idea of how I get out of here and will try to get out soon. But the storm is increasing and the noises of the creature are growing bigger. So I am afraid that something bad is going to happen soon. Day 56: I can’t find my way out of here and the darkness is growing and so is the storm. I don’t dare casting a spell because I feel that the weave is greatly disturbed in here. And I barely sleep now because of the hunger and the noises. I still think I can make it out of here if I just try hard enough*Blood stains fill the rest of the note* Day ?: An arrow struck me before I could finish my note. I managed to get out of sight of the unknown shooter but sadly for me it seems that I am being followed. I can’t afford to rest and I am desperately trying to find a way out of here. But for now I’ll try to get some rest in this small cave that I have found. *The rest of the notes are rather strange and doesn’t have a date* The wound is getting worse but I think I can manage to get out of here now. It seems that the forest is near. But I don’t think I’ll find any shelter in there but at least my stalker might stay up in the mountains. --- I finally escaped to the Far Reach Forest my stalker seems to have stayed in the mountains. The forest is really dense and I find it hard to get through this place. I still haven’t found any food and I am running out of water fast. So I need to find something eatable before I push too far into this forest. --- I found some berries but they don’t taste all that good and I don’t know what kind they are. The wound is still bothering me as it won’t heal up properly. I think I have seen a lake nearby maybe a few miles away so I will try to make my way over there now to get some water for my canteens. --- Disaster struck while I was washing the wound. I had take off my armour to do so and didn’t expect that anything was following me. But suddenly I heard something behind me; apparently a spider had snuck up on me while I was taking my armour of. I casted all the protection I know of and fought it. I won and wasn’t really badly hurt from the fight only a few scratches and the poison didn’t really bite on me. --- --- I have now stayed in the Far Reach Forest for almost three weeks. I have found some food and I am preparing to travel back through the Silent Watch again. I don’t want to take the way through the Far Reach Forest home since I will just be disturbing the place too much and I really don’t want to get too close to the satyrs. There will be no need for unnecessary bloodshed and chances for me to get killed. --- I have finally gotten back into the mountains. The way up here was fairly hard due to the dense forest. But now I am standing here again. There are no signs of my stalker so I guess it will be a pretty easy trip back. I just have to remember not to cast any spells up there. --- I have tried for a very long time to move east but all my attempts have failed. It seems as if the peaks are a lot harder to climb than they where to decent from. I have to try moving more south west to find a passage. --- I have given up on the peaks. I simply just can’t get up there, what is even worse is that I have lost myself in the storm and darkness. I think I can’t move north from here but I don’t really know where the paths will take me. I hope to return to the Far Reach Forest where I can try to figure something out. --- I have returned to the forest. But I have moved west so now I am close to the ocean. I can see a tower somewhere on the horizon but I don’t want to get any closer to it. I hope that a few weeks rest here can give me some ideas as to how to climb the peaks and get out of here again. --- After some time thinking I have found the solution. I have to loose my armour, although it makes me feel safer I simply don’t have a chance to get out of this mess with it. I’ll be leaving it here and bring my shield and my knowledge about the protection part of the weave. --- I have been doing very well in the mountains. I can climb the peaks now and I am making great progress towards Fort Hope. Maybe I’ll be home soon. --- My stalker has returned, I am trying to avoid it but it drives me deeper into the darkness. I am trying to rest in short intervals and I protect myself when ever arrows are fired against me with my shield. --- I have lost my stalker it seems… But it seems as if I am close to something really powerful and that might be the reason for it leaving. --- It got me… I am badly hurt and barely managed to escape*The rest of the page is filled with bloodstains* --- I can see the low lands now but I don’t know if I’ll make it down alive. I have been trying to cast one of my really strong protections without its component but it didn’t last all that long. --- I have escaped, but at what price… I can barely move and I feel my life-force slipping away. The arrows and the blade was poisoned and I can’t clean my wounds properly. I hope that someone will find me before thi…*The pen seems to have slipped*

Pibemanden · « **Reply #45 on:** June 19, 2006, 11:55:48 AM »

Coming home

I have finally reached Spellgard and I am recovering rapidly from the bad experience. People have a little more respect for me but I don’t know how long it will last since I am far too weak to do anything right now. I have decided to stop wearing armor and instead begin to focus more about the teachings of the weave and trust my abilities. I look forward to coming back to Hlint and see all my friends again. Meeting a new friend

I have stayed in Hlint for a while now and I have tried to help where it is needed. Sadly most of my attempts to do so fail. I tried to help a young women get to her grave but sadly everyone who went with me died. I have though had a little success as I helped Barion’s new friend Sa’kura with getting her grave in the crypt in Krandor. I have also met a really *A lot of words have been scratched out*… Well a nice elf, Nyyana. Sadly she was with me when I failed the group and every one was killed. But she doesn’t seem to be taking it too personal and she really helps me get happier when I am down. I have also show her Shoufal, she said it was beautiful but it was a bit too cold for her so maybe she could use some protection from the cold. I am trying to show her some of the uses of the weave and she is quite good at using it she might just need a little training to get the last things right. But it is good to be back in Hlint and with all my friends…

Pibemanden · « **Reply #46 on:** June 27, 2006, 08:30:08 AM »

An important decision changed

I have been spending a lot of my time in Hlint recently; I have been with Nyyana and her friends most of the time. I have taught her a new spell, endure elements, and she seems to have a talent for learning magic. If she trains more she might have a chance to become a great caster or at least wielder of the weave. I had decided not to help her more but when I went to Hlint to tell her I meet her together with some of the people who will be helping her find her family again. One of them could see what was bothering me and told me that I should not be afraid of it… I decided to leave Mistone for a while to seek danger and perhaps answers, but sadly none of it was found on my trip with some of my friends and some know heroes of the world to Xantril. I even lost part of my sould there to it put me in a even worse situation than before because I let several people down by dying, Matilda to name one, the man helping Nyyana I promised to keep safe and return in one piece for her sake. It is all so confusing I hope that there might come some sort of solution to all my problems soon. The world has changed too… Blood is gone and the sky has fallen grey, it seems like everything works towards the end of this world and the existence of the Dragon called. Espacially since the dragon that called us is dead now and the chronomatic dragons have come out of their hiding… This world is going to be a evil place soon I better prepare Nyyana by teaching her what I know and try to be there for her, maybe I’ll even tell her about the thing that bothers me some day..

Pibemanden · « **Reply #47 on:** June 29, 2006, 09:07:44 AM »

Inside the crypt

*The page is filled with blood and tears and is almost unreadable* I left her… I shouldn’t ha… All this pain…I must ret.. Not now… Later when I am done.. When will I be done, never? .. It is all so dark… no light… no light at all…

Pibemanden · « **Reply #48 on:** July 18, 2006, 03:18:07 PM »

Many things happened over the last few months

I left Nyyana, then I came back, then Abi committed suicide, I hated Nyyana for a day or so because she was being rude. I told her I didn’t love her any more, then she changed back, I leve her again, I tell her I love her, she tells me I am the second person to tell it to her, she can’t choose either of us it seems. That is basically what happened. Sadly the outcome of all this is that I am more torn than ever. I can’t decide what to do. One part of me feels like leaving her so she can be happy with the other person. Another part tells me that it is wrong, because it would hurt her greatly. I could also just tell her to choose me, but that would really be stupid. And I can’t get her to do anything else than she has done so far… So I guess I am just going to stick around and break myself as I told Abi I would. I won’t like what it will become after staying like this for a year, but leaving her will also twist my soul. I just wish that she could make up her mind and I could leave or stay with her. This is unbearable and I will break at some point. I just hope I will be able to hide it from Nyyana, because she won’t like it to end like this.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #49 on:** July 28, 2006, 12:39:41 PM »

Speaking about Nyyana

I have spoken to AnnaLee and Matilda about my feelings for Nyyana they where both telling me to do the same thing. Stay with Nyyana and offer her all you love. I just don’t know if it is right, but I haven’t heard Nyyana’s response to my feelings yet. But I don’t think she will choose and it will cause more pain than she want to that is for sure. But if she chooses she will hate herself for the rest of her life for hurting the person she didn’t choose. I think deep down she is afraid of having history repeat itself but I can’t be the judge of that. At least I hope she will find happiness somehow if not with me then with someone else. Nyyana’s choice

Nyyana finally seem to have made up her mind. I have been waiting for this for a while now and I am really glad to see her answer. *The answer; “To Storold”, is written here* Her answer answers as many questions as it rises. But I can’t be anything else than happy for it. I will continue work and do anything as I used to do before I meet her. But I will be spending all the time I am able to, within reason, near her. She makes me feel… I can’t really describe it, whole maybe. I feel like I was only a golem before I meet her, grinding my way through hordes of enemies without any purpose. I have asked her to go out with me on a picnic, almost like we used to do back when Abi was alive. But I don’t know what is getting to her, she seems distant. Not really responding the way she wants to. She told me she would like to go somewhere public, while I had selected High Lake for the trip. I must speak with her again to see if she has changed her mind. Nyyana’s choice part two

After seeing Nyyana again and talking to her about the picnic I understand what she was really trying to tell me. She doesn’t want to love me or give me a chance of getting her to love me. She has been hurt and needs to recover now, only time will tell how long it will take for her to be ready. She had agreed before to let me try and find a way to her heart but she seems to have changed her mind. I almost got to telling her what I think of the whole situation but I realised that I would like what I would turn into if I did. She doesn’t need to know just so it will hurt her more. At least not if it will change her from the lovely elf she is now and into a shadow of herself like she was just after Abi committed suicide. But I really leave it to her now to decide when she is ready for my return. Returning as a “Friend”

After a month away from Nyyana I meet Lady Eldárwen and Alleina. I was trying to avoid questions about Nyyana but when Eldárwen asked me how Nyyana was progressing I couldn’t get around telling them that I actually left her. They talked me into writing a letter explaining how I felt and that I would like to return. After a week or so the letter was done and I got Alleina to bring it to Nyyana at the Freelancers tavern. Nyyana accepted that I could return as a friend an that we should avoid situations like the one that caused us to move away from each other. What the future will bring I don’t know, but I hope for the best.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #50 on:** August 21, 2006, 06:17:57 PM »

A dream like experience

There have been many things happening over the last few months, I don’t really feel like even writing about some of them because they are still too hard to even think about. The strangest thing happened while I was travelling with some Lucindites and a few other people… We are investigating something but I am still gathering information trying to figure out what it is all about. But we entered a dream like world, it all seemed real, but I know it weren’t. We faced five different dreams which tested us in several ways. At first it all seemed harmless since we where just playing along and everything seemed okay to us… But when we entered the third dream we began to move into parts of the mind that not all liked. Foul things where done there, but I am sure that it was all worth it and that since it wasn’t real would affect anything. What really happened in the dreams I wont write here as it was one of those experiences that shouldn’t be put down on paper but rather stay fresh in your memory forever, and for that we got a small talisman to remind of what we learned from the dreams. But before we could reach our goal we had to pass some kind of mirror… It seemed harmless to me when I first looked it over as it seemed to work like any normal mirror. But that was before I was put in front of it getting ready to travel through the mirror and to the other side and the reward for all our time in the dreams. I stood there and expected to see my, at the time, rather strange self appear on the surface of the mirror. But instead the mirror kind of entered my mind twisting the image and turning it into something rather unexpected. I saw my more normal self standing at a crossroad, many paths lead into the darkness which I couldn’t see through. I was taking a few steps down every path and returning looking even more confused at the crossroads. After some time the image turned to me and asked me: “Is this your real self?” or something along those lines… It really hit me hard and I had to take a few moments to gather my thoughts… I kind of wanted to lie to the image and tell him.. No that wasn’t me… But nothing good comes from avoiding the truth so I ended up nodding to his question. He then gave me a bit of advice which I am still thinking about, I don’t want to draw any conclusions from it really… But at the same time I want to try an use it… It is hard, I feel many hard choices are ahead of me and I don’t like making a single one of them…

Pibemanden · « **Reply #51 on:** October 05, 2006, 02:22:40 AM »

It has been a while and many things have happened

Well first of I want to make a note telling myself not to jump on ships leaving Arabel ever again, only thing that episode ever got me into was trouble. Lia…*Storold stops and thinks for a while* Well she is dead now, and I don’t really want to speak bad about those who has passed away. But I was expecting more from her, from what her friends told me about her. But it all turned out to be, well strange and she meet her end, probably by the hands of the people she was so desperate to serve. Luckily we saved both Lillian and Ralinda from the drow, but they are marked for life now by what happened to them. So all in all that was a really bad experience but we sorted most of the trouble out in the end. Other things that has happened… Daren and the lich, oh yes that was bad to. But solved now, made me think a bit about other things than just the trouble that the evil part of that lich was causing. But he showed up in Hlint and went bezerk for some strange reason. But the other part of the lich, never had I meet such an evil looking creature with such a sad tale, turning to lichdom to keep his promise to his love. But he lost it as he turned, and ended up destroying more than he mended. Good thing that he became split and seemed to have made peace with his love again. Sadly many died in the effort to bring the evil lich down for the ritual, but we won and the lichs soul now rests in piece I hope. AnnaLee… Well she seems to have gotten herself into a lot of trouble. But I am trying to be there, but many things are keeping me from it. I helped getting part of the key to a plane that might hold some answers for her and might be able to bring us closer to the solution of all the problems. But there is still a long way to go. And the path isn’t easy, many fell trying to get the first part of the key I heard. But I have seen the portal now, and I heard that the biggest problem will be getting back from the plane, but I am sure that the other people who are helping her will find a way. Zan… Well she seems more busy than before she left for the forests, but she seem to be happy with Cymeran who has gone a long way in his faith now. She still needs to be up to date with things since we never finished our talk in the maze. But she is surely a great support and I am sure she will find that the choice I made was good. The trade, well now I am official part of it. It took a while to figure out if this was a good idea, but with some help I came to the conclusion that I can help them and still stay true to Lucinda. They don’t really seem to mind that I put the weave before their company and therefore I am sure that my membership will be both beneficial for me and them. The choice…*Storold sits back and tries to regain focus* Well I can really tell if that was a good idea or what, but I feel that there might be some light at the end of the tunnel now. Although I am still very confused with the answer I got. But people are telling me that I should just keep going as I said I would. But I don’t want to force things on people so going on will be a really hard challenge… But not impossible… I hope it will all work out, but one thing I know… I wont leave, not again, not this time.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #52 on:** October 15, 2006, 03:20:17 AM »

Working and studying harder

After having a lot of time outside Blackford I seem to have missed a lot there so now I have to work even harder to catch up. So right now I have no time for helping at the trade, travelling the world or just settling down for a while in Hlint. I just picked up learning elven again, it is quite hard to learn how to speak it. But with some time, which I certainly doesn’t have now, I will be able to get far with it. So far I almost know how to say hello and goodbye. I know the words, it is just hard to say them. I found myself in quite a dilemma right now, but I have been encouraged to stay on the path and not be too afraid of what might happen in the near future. Right now I feel like things are progressing in a good way… But it is hard to tell really for now I just hope that things will not change since I like the way it is going right now.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #53 on:** December 06, 2006, 07:56:00 AM »

What became of my dreams

After some time reflecting about what has recently happened I feel like I both lost and gained a part of myself. Gained might be the wrong term though, maybe rather remembered something. Although I now see that my choice was a silly one I still struggle to understand what it means to me. Some would say that I am denying myself something by choosing something that will never be while others will understand that there is more to it than friendship. I regret though the period of doubt and the troubles it caused others. People became afraid, wanting to leave is a great leap, and also the whole faith thing. But I remember now and I will never even doubt again. The things that happened had nothing to do with my faith rather my faith in myself. Now I just hope that I can be forgiven for my doubts by Lucinda. For now I am glad that I have found what I looked for. Not in the way I thought I wanted it but rather in a place where I thought it would be silly to look. I will never be good enough and I know that, but for now the feeling I have about it is that no matter what happens and what I am, I will always have something that matters just as much as my love for the weave.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #54 on:** December 18, 2006, 03:14:28 PM »

Dreams again

What happens when you actually stand before your dreams and try to touch them? You get burned and walk away? Do you try again... This time knowing that you might burn the last part of your soul out? Or do you turn away dreaming other dreams wandering different paths? That might happen... But what happens when the dream comes back...? Stronger, brighter and more promising than ever. I wish I knew, I truely wish...

Pibemanden · « **Reply #55 on:** December 27, 2006, 07:30:14 PM »

Many things have happened over so little time...

I have seen many strange things these days heard of even more. The seeds, Storans... Everything is just not right, or is it. So times you seem to loose part of the outside world but in doing so you gain something inside yourself. Some time getting there just takes a good beating or wacking as some would say. Thinking about it that was what I needed, someone telling me what I was missing and what I was trying to get. I think I have now finally closed a very long chapter of my life and this time I think it will stay closed. Friendly feelings doesn't disappear but neither can they keep on draining a person for what he should be. I don't blame anyone but myself for what has happened to me, but looking back from where I am now only a few days after I can't say I am sorry I choose what I did. I might have been a little too sure of that everything would work out no matter what, but some things are just too messy to work out in the time I have left here. So I better stay out of that unless it is something that will be to the benefit of anyone. But as I noted before I might be too lucky, seeing that I can sit here and write this today with a big smile on my face knowing that I have gained way more than I ever lost I feel like the luckiest man alive, and I hope it will stay that way forever.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #56 on:** January 08, 2007, 07:48:51 AM »

Great succes and all the things that followed

I can now finally say that I have found happyness in my life, something that changed my life completly. I have finally found someone to share my life with. I thought what happened that day at the lake was just a dream, but when I saw her again in Hlint I could see in her eyes that it wasn't so. Looking back at my life I can see now that I wasted a lot of years looking to wrong places for the missing piece in the puzzle of my life. Although I find great joy in magic and my duties this is beyond that. I still remember what I am suposed to do, but still I know that I am now complete. I can't wait to see her again so we can spend even more time together, just doing things like getting stuff that one of us needs or just sitting together. But for now I better prepare for the trip to Storans, and find out to go after than...

Pibemanden · « **Reply #57 on:** February 06, 2007, 02:42:06 PM »

A conversation at the Arms and some random thoughts

Well if you asked me a year ago if I would ever be so happy as I am now I would have said that it was impossible. But for now I better focus on my work too, I will try to spend as much time with her though. But still I have to train my enchantment skills... I think I payed my last visit to the Arms a few days ago, I can't really return after what happened. I feel that people should rather judge people for their actions than their purse. Seems that the only way you can make a difference in this world is by burrying some town or country in trues and claim that it is all going to a good cause. If that is the way people feel I would rather stay away than walk in an be looked down opun. Maybe if some of my friends ask me to go I could endure it for a while, but staying there just because would be silly. I have other places to be and other people to see who actually care about what I have done and not what true I have spend. But back to enchanting, I still have a lot of training to go I feel. But the reward will definatly be worth it.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #58 on:** March 23, 2007, 11:09:58 AM »

She said yes!
I don't believe I could even ask the question when I had planned to do it, I was almost shaking as I was about to ask but when I looked to her and she took my hand I could feel that this was meant to be and not like the other times I had loved someone. She just makes me feel so happy and special when she is around.
Now I am busy preparing for the wedding but everytime I see her and hold her in my arms I feel that it is all worth it, I am getting the best woman there is. No one I have ever meet and will ever meet can match her. She is just so special to me.
In other news I spoke to Kathrien again, it seems that she doesn't hold anything against me after all. Jharl on the other hand... Well I don't know but it matters little I will answer him if he need something or wants to talk.
I spoke to Matilda and she said I had finally completed my training, I have found the meaning in my life and that is not only to defend the weave at all costs. I have other things that are equally important, most of all Mylindra the woman who made me who I am now instead of the shadow I was before. Maybe in time there will be others, maybe even a familly, my own that I will have to stand up for.
After this I began to focus on my arcane research again since my focus have been revolving too much about my faith and too little about my research and training. I now see my true calling in serving the weave while I care out my place here in life. And that place I have found now, by Mylindras side.

Pibemanden · « **Reply #59 on:** June 08, 2007, 09:34:36 AM »

Becomming a father... I guess I have to get used to the thought now even though Mylindra hasn't felt anything yet. My long experience as a healer tells me that she indeed carries a baby inside her.
The wedding was wonderfull and so has all the days and nights that followed been. I have finally found the happyness I have been wanting all along, and with our new house everything is perfect. We even have the room for the baby prepared and lots of room for the child to play in when he or she grows up.
I spend most of my time reasearching these days, the next steps I am going to take within the realm of Abjuration wont be easy. Especially not when I spend a lot of my time on training with weapons too I want to master both but so far I have only managed to master the art of abjuration to the extend of some of the top mages in the Broken rune. Disjunctions and banishment seems to have become part of my every day life now...
I guess it helps a bit too that I can now study and home and test my spells without the constant fear of the Pranzis autorities. I live in a nice and quiet place now where I can practice my magic in peace without any laws forbidding my passion... Although it brings me great pleasu to see the wards and spells of others fade I must though still remember that it isn't the only thing in my life, so I spend a lot of time with Mylindra often reading together with her during the evenings by the fireside. Although we study two different things we can still have a lot of fun doing it together as none of us ever feel lonely while we are studying.
For now though I must do what I can to secure my family and make sure that the house will be the best there is suitable for raising all the children that Mylindra may desire. But however I must not forget my commitments to the weave and Lucinda, as we agreed on from the very start of our relationship, duty always comes before pleasure.