a peek into the mind of an angel (journal of Angela swann)

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I visited Ranéwin in krandor today she found a nice little house there and she and trysk are moving out of the arms, barion and shelu live there too so its going to be lonely in leilon, especially since I cant find Nor, while Ran was busy getting settled shelu and I went on a hunt with Sy and Annun, we traveled into the blood desert and fought ogres, manticore’s, snakes and scorpions. it was going really good, even if it is had to get Sy to wait, she always was a impatient on Shelu suddenly remembered that she had to met Vivian to get her wedding dress, and since I didn’t want her to walk all the way to hlint alone I offered to accompany her, so we parted with Annun and Sy in front of Port Hampsire’s gates, we thought we would be safe enough just the two of us, but we were attacked by griffins outside fort hope, if we hadn’t been so involved in talking about her’s and barions wedding we would have spotted them a mile away, but as it was they were able to catch us with our pants down so to speak, damn I most get a enchantment to my swords I was to slow and it nearly cost shelu her life. we limp into fort hope and took a short rest, shelu seem a little off, I never gave it much thought I just figured that been close to death had spook her a little.
we never made it to hlint to get her wedding dress for when we got to broken forest barion was there, he seem angry and was fighting like a mad man I couldn’t find out what was wrong, he just mumbled something about not wanting to live, I later found out that he and shelu had had a fight something about a rumor about shelu and kai I couldn’t make much sense of it for kai flirts every women he sees but I wasn’t about to get caught in a loves sprawl so I left for hlint hoping Nor would be there but no and no one had seen him for a week the same time i saw him last I hope nothing have happened to him.
I accompanied shelu and barion to storans we were going to get shelu some bodak teethes for her potions making we met sable on the way and invited her to joins us, everything was going fine and we had gathered the teethes for shelu when she suddenly left for hlint, I could see that barion was hurt he wanted her to stay with us and have more adventures I tried talking to him but her just got that mad look again and I decided that I better let him blow off some steam on the gnolls then take it out in me.

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I finally found Nor but dammit I think someone don’t want us to talk because I was busy trying to talk some sense into shelu when he arrived, and I couldn’t just leave my friend even if it broke my hearth to see him leave again, shelu had gotten into her head that she was useless and that no one liked traveling with her, she also said that she didnt like to travel in large groups and that had been why she left the other day at storans, she hadn’t said anything because she didn’t want to spoil anything for barion and I, bah I told her to grow up and that if she didn’t want someone to come she should just say so and if she really thought that we would think less of her because of that, I told her that she is my friend and that I would much rather travel with her then anyone else, so what if she don’t run as fast as the rest of us, she’s carries a damn big armor around she off course she cant run as fast, then she started on how bad she was in fight oi what a load of bull, well luckily I got her to understand that she was just as good as the rest of us and that she should speak her mind instead of letting eat her up from the inside, after that we had long talk about Nor and I, why is it that when ever I try to help people we always end up talking about my problems,
the arms was open again and trysk Ranéwin and I decided that we had earned a night’s fun, I went to get a new dress since I hope that Nor would be there and trysk wanted a new outfit to impress Ran as he said, we lost track of time and when we were ready to leave we couldn’t find Ran, we thought that since we had been taking longer to finish the cloth then maybe she had run ahead, we ran to leilon but when we got there, there were no Ran and Nor. we still had a nice evening and i got Ozy to tell us a story, how I love to hear his story’s heh and his cookies too, now I just have to get him to stop licking me he says he does to taste my soul but I think he does it because he knows it tickles, I stayed to hear acacia sing and to see if I could win a pie but no luck ozy won it heh I think he cheated I left right after to get some sleep I had hope to crawl to be with Nor but he didn’t show up so I just when to the temple, I really hope I’ll find him soon I have so much I want to talk to him about.

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I help kaizar move some things around his house and met a charming young women by the name of Abigail or Abi as she calls her self, she has become a good friend even if she if hiding some thing from me, when we were fighting the golems I berhagen she made darkness to cover our escape  I asked if she had use a scroll but she said that she could do it without, weird since I know that she its not a wizard or drow, well maybe she will tell me later for now im content with her friendship.
I ran into Amarath in hlint and he asked me if I have seen Thais and if she seem okay to me, I told the man that I haven’t seen her since the thing with Ly and that I feared that Thais didn’t like me very much anymore, but I promised Amarath that I would keep a eye out for her and try and talk to her I found her.

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Another month have gone by and still no word from Nor, I have given up trying to find him since it has become clear that he don’t want to be found. so much has happened and don’t now where to begin, abi have forfeited her heart so that geir and his new love could fine happiness together, I didn’t belive her when she told me but now I most admit that there is nothing left of the abi I have come to love she is a empty shell that doesn’t feel anything, there is still hope for her though she told me that before she feel in love with geir she had dreamed of becoming a shadow dancer  and that she had giving part of her heart to that, and that I if we could help her in that there would be a chance that she can be redeemed and have her heart restored, then there is thais, I don’t know how to explain it, she seems to be two persons one who loves Amarath and one who loves Ravenne  and either of the two knows that the other exists, or maybe there is two thais and one of them is playing with the other but I very much doubt that since both abi and Ravenne have conformed that there is only one. it leaves me in a awkward position since the thais that loves Amarath have asked me to help her hunt down the fake one, I told them that I would try and speak to a priest and a wizard to find out what could be done but in reality I just wanted some time to figure out what to do, I am beginning to believe that the gods have put a curse on me everyone I seem to love end up being hurt someway  or the other and I cant stand it anymore Angela needs to die and im going to be the one to kill her, my last act will be to write Anoron a letter.

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*Anoron’s letter*
Waum Ninde.
E irilela ceenaw oem aey aelamaamirama. E amilla iretyely ane vaan ane anacc aey El tya mleal amirilan irilla faal veely el ameanor sao. E anilna eon cmes aeym looealnya anirilan eay wel’an amilon ane fa ameanir sa. E ilanaw Quin oem il naa ane aeyn mess el anira ilmsla, fyan ira lailew aey laelam anecw aey wel’an arillan sa el aeyln ceaa, E nyillian lada anirilan efcilsa eley sa ceeæa, E irilelian faal veew ane eay em illaela aclaa oem anirilan silananam. Eilan aey ane naaty anira laeyclaanela E vilela ay. lllw masasfam anirialn eceelaw aye sema anirill illaanirelv el anirela amemcw. E nyill le ceicann laanillw ane da lllvacil, eon irymanla ane synyir, E’s weely anira elca anirely. E nyill anirein eo ane laanity anira tyiliel, E’s veelv an necc irawh illa aey amanma lilsaw fa aeym oilan iram, amiral eay caoon eaml cillw, lea E ils laan lilsely salacca. Aikanara, veew faa sa ceela, wel’an illw oelw sa.  



//Dear Ninde.
I have looked for you everywhere; I was hoping to get to tell you in person what has been going on with me. I take it that your silence means that you don’t want to be with me, I asked Quin for a key to your room in the Arms but he said that you never told him about me, another sign to that you don’t want me in your life.  I can’t say that I blame you my love, I haven’t be good to you or anyone else for the matter, I ask you to keep the soul stone that I gave you, and remember that I loved you more then anything in this world. I can no longer stand to be Angela it hurts to much and im doing the only thing I can think off to stop the pain, im going to kill her. as you was named by  your father when you left your own land so am I now naming myself, Aikanaro, goodbye my love don’t try and find me..