Author Topic: My Life spilled onto parchment, the Diary of Ash Willo (Read 2159 times)

Zelda1 · « **on:** February 14, 2006, 07:04:00 AM »

Bah! I can't hold all of this stuff in forever...nor can I tell anyone. So here I am writing in this little book of mine. Where should I start?
...I'll start with Glenn Thendor. He is one of the nicest people I've ever met. He pushes me into doing things I'm scared of though. Like when he left me in the middle of Fen Caves..that was pretty scary,but I made it out alive as he left me. The most horrific thing he has ever done to me is take me to a Vakhar meeting. I have yet to become a good speaker in front of those who are a lot more powerful than I (and I'm not very powerful). I loved sitting in the back of the room listening, but when I had to speak I had NO idea what to say. It almost felt like they were ganging up on me. I would be love to be in the Vakhar...but I'm not so sure they would accept me...Glenn says I can do great things, and that I will be more powerful than he is soon even though I don't know it. I'm not so sure..but he is..
*it seems here that a few things have been erased*
Well I will have to write some more later...here comes Pyyran with treants chasing him..again..better go save him..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #1 on:** February 15, 2006, 02:53:40 PM »

I'll be in the trees for a few days here in the High Forest..I really need a break...Now I will put a few things about myself in here.....
I always look into your eyes when I meet you even if you don't know it...to see if I can trust you..but their is someone that I can't look into his eyes...which draws me to him...but...love is something I keep inside and I don't even dare to write down.
More later...I need some rest

Zelda1 · « **Reply #2 on:** February 16, 2006, 09:11:11 AM »

*hums as she writes*
I have found myself humming when I'm happy. I love being in the forest...makes me feel content.
The topic of this beautiful day seems to be Folian S'pae.I have been studying him for quite some time. He seems to be the most admirable...at least he seems to fit me."Be one with the forests and live in harmony with nature’s creatures. Take no more than you need and give as much as you can in return." Aye...seems like it would fit all right.
Love is in the air today for some reason...maybe it's spring coming closer or Rhazzka getting brighter...who knows what the next few days will be like...
I need to go for another swim before I leave...More tomarrow

Zelda1 · « **Reply #3 on:** February 16, 2006, 07:01:21 PM »

I fell asleep today and had an odd dream...long story short.. the curse has been lifted. One problem though...I still like someone.Even though only one or two people know what the curse was...
I'm still tired and I need some more sleep..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #4 on:** February 17, 2006, 02:56:47 PM »

I feel as free as a bird today.Something is not right with Abi.I miss the old Abi...the Abi that I played truth or dare with a few days ago.She isn't what most people think she is.. Today is going to be a very busy day...
More later...much to do

Zelda1 · « **Reply #5 on:** February 17, 2006, 10:55:37 PM »

Well...today has been pretty fun. I had a nice long chat with Ozy...he licked me five more times as I can remember. He is truly unique. I killed a few gobos...not anything exciting really. I'm really really tired though..maybe the after effects of Ozy drool. *laughs* I need to talk to Zweck soon..I didn't get to talk to Abi today...
*yawns* Good night little book

Zelda1 · « **Reply #6 on:** February 19, 2006, 12:52:21 AM »

Love shomove...is it possible to hate the person you love? It is for me...I finally got to talk to Zweck today. He looks cute with wolf tail and fuzzy ears. Raze is in love with me...I'm in love with..um..someone...I do like Raze though...he's nice.
I think I like him because I can't have him..he isn't married or anythin' but he seems to be one of the few people that don't flirt with me. I never get to see him. He hits on women constanly...you catch my drift? Yeah..not exactly an angel...
I'm spending the night in the High Forest..I don't think I can make it back to Hlint..*yawns* Good night little book

Zelda1 · « **Reply #7 on:** February 20, 2006, 05:49:27 AM »

Glenn got me those two topaz rings today and a pair of boots. Glenn is too nice sometimes...
Well I've finally decided... I'm not going to be with Raze or umm..errr...the "someone"...even though I'll have a heart ache for a while...I don't really know how to break it to Raze. Ah yes..forgot about that sea elf. She likes him...he likes her...she told us to go drown though...but I'll just have to talk to her...That would make everyone happy if I could get her to rub off on Raze.
Places to go, things to see..write more later

Zelda1 · « **Reply #8 on:** February 20, 2006, 06:33:32 PM »

Well...Miss Vetalla is nicer than I thought. And Alas...she has no interest in Raze *sighs*. I went to Fen Caves today with Glenn..he didn't leave me to die...but I already passed that test. I dred what is next. Who knows what is next... Not much happened today..Raze was killed by the flagbearers...again..this time in Hlint.
My light is going out..night little book

Zelda1 · « **Reply #9 on:** February 24, 2006, 11:03:56 PM »

Welp...how do I put this? For the past few days my life has been...yadda yadda yadda. Except for Freldo of course. He's scraed I'm going to send bears to come and get him...haha. Too bad he doesn't know I'm too nice to do that, but it is funny... I mjean really, who would ever want to eat him anyway?? It's been fun being half way evil almost. Oh well..I suppose it's ll over now.
I'm losing my mind.
I need to kill something...a person. Maybe I can kill Zweck...he wouldn't mind...hehe...but he's focused on gettin' a girl to be with him......I REALLY need to kill something. Must be my mind on overload or something. Who knows?...Anyway..I hope something exciting happens soon; I'm getting bored. Nighty-night book *puts her fire out*

Zelda1 · « **Reply #10 on:** February 26, 2006, 01:01:39 AM »

Well, today has been a..good-ish bad day. I died three times..Once I was a ghost...
Today I got really depressed..so I made an all black outfit. Kind of scary..with my hood on I look like Chanda almost. I took a trip to Arabel with Zweck today...Corath is a very odd god I must say..a little creepy.
I ran into Ty and we had a drink with Zweck. Then Zweck got tired so we took him home. Their room is just wow..wow is the only word to discribe it...just wow.
I met with a bunch of others in Pranzis, with the help of Ayla of course. I can't really explain it or I would be writing all day. It was a bit confusing all that went on.
I ran into someone today. That's why today is good. Ty figured out who it is. And Ty and I are headed to the arena if the Weave doesn't burp again.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #11 on:** February 27, 2006, 06:49:25 PM »

Well...yesterday I went to Vale with Glenn. Aralin went a little..er..crazy on Renji. Renji worships Branderback..I can smell it. Everytime I go through Forest of the Mists I realize why I'm a ranger..for some reason I feel a stronger connection to nature there. Anyway...today.
Went to the desert on Dregar. Fought giants..not alone of course. Druids are very nice. I havea strong feeling that I will be te topic of someone's conversation. I really do need to learn how to talk more. I need to spend more time in Vale..I'd like to explore Dregar anyway. Not much time...I'm in Pranzis right now.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #12 on:** March 01, 2006, 06:39:27 PM »

Well....today was a drag...I spent most of my time in the crypts and crafting. Although, I did see Ty. And met a ranger who follows Folian. He's not very experienced..but still.
I made a poem...not very good..but I like it. I don't think I'll put it ib here though. Not right now, when it's finished.
Nighty-night

Zelda1 · « **Reply #13 on:** March 06, 2006, 05:36:11 PM »

Well...so much to put down in here...I will start from the top.
I am the happiest person that ever lived...and I mean THE happiest. I feel like jumping in the air and screaming my lungs out...too bad I'm not a bard. They seem to do that sort of thing. Oh yes, that reminds me. There is a bard that loves me. Freldo. I hear he bought me a necklace. But none of this seems as important as yesterday.
I ran into Glenn and we took our second trip atempting to go to Folian's temple. Well...we didn't get past Pranzis again, but that is one of the reasons I am so happy but I can't say why. Kloss was there, I got to teleport from his house back to Hlint.
I met with Glenn and the nameless druid in Krandor later. Third time's a charm. It was a very confusing trip, but everything along it was so beautiful. Many vines connected it. The nice nameless druid made Glenn and me promise not to show anyone...so I won't even put the way in here. Anyway, the closer we got the stronger the connection to Folian. I feel different now like I have found something lost long ago. His only temple is well hidden and protected. There is one word for it: amazing, but even amazing doesn't seem to fit it. When I first sa it, my heart must have skipped a beat... It rains there all the time, but it isn't just rain to me..it's softer..sweeter. You hear the wolves howl and you don't get frightened. It's like a greeting. If there will ever be a god that I could believe in or put my faith in.. it would be the Prince of Wolves, the Longstrider...Folian S'pae.
I found out a few things about why they had to make the path. Goes to show some people aren't what you see. Aparently, Brisbane is the "Queen" of the evil little minions as I call them..candle is going out..Long story short, Brisbane has a deep hate for Luna. I have no clue as to why, but I have a few guesses. So, she blocked he path with them so Folian's followers couldn't get to the temple.
Need to go...my candle is going out and something bad is about to happen..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #14 on:** March 10, 2006, 08:30:53 PM »

I miss my best friend...I haven't seen him in a while. I wonder where he is...

Zelda1 · « **Reply #15 on:** April 01, 2006, 12:18:28 AM »

It's been ages since I wrote in here last. Much has happened...most good but there is always the bad. I have learned a lot about nature and the balance..I really can't quite remember much. Half because I'm so tired. So I'll just write about today and put in more later...
I went to Folian's temple to meet with Aralin. He answered my questions and I was happy with all the answers. He says that Folian is the Wood, the plants, and even the animals. I asked him if he thought I could become a follower and he said that if I protect and preserve the balance and nature the I already am one. The balance and nature are all that I am. And I'm hoping..praying that I'll get into the Vakhar. You can do a lot more to protect nature and the balance in a group than alone. I always try to protect nature and everything within. As I always say "take very little and give back as much as you can".. I guess that applies to nature and the balance as well.
Well...my candle is going out and I'm so tired...bed for me...

Zelda1 · « **Reply #16 on:** April 02, 2006, 09:58:42 AM »

I'm in the forest more than ever now mostly on Dregar. It's amazing how much you can learn by just watching what all goes on in the forest. Well, that and talking to Kara. She likes the company and I like to spend time at Folian's temple. So, therefore, we have become very good friends. Faith is very important in these hard times and I think I've found mine. No, not think..I know I have.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #17 on:** April 13, 2006, 02:25:46 PM »

Have you ever wondered why you love who you do?
Take Renji and Tegan for example. A shadowdancer...and a beautiful mage. Complete opposites. Let's see..hmm.. Glenn and Silool.. A Xeenie priestess *and* bard...and a Folianite ranger.. that's just about crazy iffn' ya ask me...and... Kyle and Ferrit...fighter of Ilsare and rogue of no one. Still, I guess that old saying is right. Opposites do attract.. No wonder no one thinks I'm crazy...
I got a new bow yesterday...it holds great power.. It was the first oak longbow Glenn ever made, Rodlin made it into a compound, and Enzo put a mighty on it... I feel special...so we made today my official birthday..I've never been happier... having someone to be proud of me is an amazing feeling...
I haven't had the time to write that much lately...I'm always busy now a days..speaking of not getting to write I need to run..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #18 on:** April 19, 2006, 11:34:39 PM »

My life just get worse and worse even when it seems to get better it is really getting worse. Such an Optimist aren't I?
Truly...the past couple days have been so horrible I want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I feel like I'm in the treshold already but I still have another 150 years to go...if I live that long...
I ache all over...half from depression, half from exhaustion.. so it's off to bed for me...maybe my dreams will lift my spirits, as crazy as they are and even though they will never come to life.. everyone is allowed to dream though...

Zelda1 · « **Reply #19 on:** April 24, 2006, 01:53:23 PM »

If it wasn't for my friends I don't know what I'd do... I need to get my priorities in order and stop worrying about silly stuff. If I spent more time doing something than thinkin' maybe I'd get somewhere...but reality always gets in the way.