Wandering thoughts

[jrizz]

It has been a long time since I have taken the time to write about my travels and the people I have met. There is so much to say. When I first was called here I was brash and confused I was focused on the coming war and nothing else. I am still putting my efforts to the fight against Blood but much has changed for me. A ranger named Rodlin took me under his wing and tought me many things, I would say he completed the training started by my frist teacher. Also I found love in a wonderful and wise woman and at a time when I thought my time in this world was almost over. Here I must give thanks to those brave people that gave me a second lease on life, I wont waste it. Back to my thought; Silool is the light in a dark forest for me, she keep s me focused on life and not death, and for that I cannot thank her enough. (We finally got a house, it is small but nice.)

I joined the Vakhar a group that has charged it self with the  protection of nature in the dark times that upon us. I was glad that they accepted me into there ranks. I feel that they have helped to focus my purpose and guide me.

I have found purpose here I use my craft to help arm those called here by the great gold, I seek out those who are new here and help train them in good battle tactics. I feel this since Rodlin helped me so much that I should give back and help others. I have spent quite a bit of time with one ranger named Ash, she is in my opinion destined for great things. She has found her way to the Great Wolf as I felt she would. Perhaps she would make a good Vakhar.

[jrizz]

myself and some others hunted down a demon circus group that were trapping and abusing animals and creatures of all sorts. We we caught up with them the battle was fierce but we won the day. We captured the leader of this particular group but before we could question her she attacked on of us and I killed her. It was as much out of anger as protection. It was the wrong thing to do, no excuse. But she left behind a book and with the help of Ozy we were able to get some clues. They call them selfs the battorian circus. I have continued to search for inforamtion about them or sing of their activity. One night I was in the Arms and Rhiz and Enzo with another very interesting woman were discussing this very cicrus. I traveled with Enzo, Ozy, and Rhiz to another plane called abboriea (spelling may be wrong) it was, well more then words can say but just amazing. It was also very deadly. We fought demons and we met some of the same bears that the Battorian demons had with them when they were here. They were the smartest bears I have ever encounterd (sorry Pooh), they helped point the way for us. We found some of the Battorians and fought them,  I fell but was saved at the last second. I am sure it was a divine hand that wanted me to go on. We found a few more and fought them, I felt we were hot on their trail but our time on that plane was runnign out and we had to return. I hope to continue the hunt someday. I have informed the Vakhar on all of these events they like me wish to investigate this futher. For now I will continue to look for sign of them. Some fo the clues pointed to Xantril, I traveled there in search of more clues and walked the length of the great forest. It took my breath away, and on the far side I came near to the Great Oak! I tried to go up to it but I could not I was pushed back by the pure power of the Great Oak. That encounter has affected me in a deep way.

[jrizz]

I have traveled far from my friends and from the struggles of the world, although I am finding that all places are touched by the evil that Blood has brought. I am wandering deep in the Great Forest keeping to myself avoiding towns, forts, and cities. I need to spend time looking inside myself to find that fire that kept me focused on the good fight. I feel that I have lost my way that my reasons are not as clear as they have been. In some ways I have stayed on a clear path but in others I feel lost, consumed by the world of cities and merchants. So I will stay away for a while and commune with the forest and my deeper self.
The other day while exploring more of the Great Forest I spied Rhiz nad a bunch of others, many members of the Vakhar were with him. They were traveling north, I knew it must be to plant the silver veign by the great oak. I felt a great pull the join them but I must stick to my solitude if I wish to find myself again. I did ghost them for some miles, sometimes staying ahead of them to see if the road was clear (there was nothing that they could not handle) and sometimes behind to make sure that they were not being followed. I am sure that many of them were aware of my presence but they did not hail me and for that I am thankful. I am filled with sadness that I could not stand with them in the shade of the Great Oak (a dream of mine) and witness that event.
I think of those that I left behind and how they are doing. My thoughts are with Silool, I was not able to say goodbye to her before I left. She knows that I wander far a wide but I should have told her that this time I would be gone for a while. She knows me so I am sure she would understand. I hope all is well with Ash, I am sure she will find her way to the Great Wolf and that she will grow into the greatness that I see inside her.
For now I wander and cover my tracks, I will listen to the trees and the animals. Perhaps my first teacher will find me for I call to her now in my time of doubt and need.

[jrizz]

Made my way to the northern coast of Xantril through the Great Forest. It is beautiful there. The sea called to me so I shed my armor and immersed myself in her, with each wave that hit me I experienced a deeper feeling of calm, a rightness with the world. I stayed on the shore for three days and nights and each day I spent time in the water letting it wash away my confusion. I am packing now for the long trip back, I feel the call of the Great Wolf so I will go to his temple and speak with the priest there and spend some time some time in Folian’s forest. I am beginning to feel like me again.