Journal of a fallen Ranger

[Hellblazer]

It has been four years now, four years of painfull memories, remorces and nightmare.  I dream every day of my darling kandall and my baby girl Eloana.  Even if I know that they are no more I still feels guilty for not being there to protect them.  I never did find what had happened to my baby boy Elyam, did the barbarians killed him? I have no answer.  All I know is the lost they have bestowed on me and the pain goes on.

Since my arrival in Hlint I have met good people.  They helped me a lot to get used to the changes that I have faced since my arrival.  Althought I do not know them well, I can honestly call some friends.  I do not know where or what will happen to me but this I am sure, it will prove to be interesting.  Well this is all that my mind can think as of now.  My last trip has gotten me tired and I must rest.  Hopefully tonight I will have a restfull night and not dream so much of my past.

[Hellblazer]

Once again I awake from my night mare, sweating and breathing heavily.  I swear to all that is holly.

"Why are you still tourmanting me? Have I not paid enough Already?"

I remember the animals I have slaughter and drank their blood in rage and pain trying to rebuke Folian.  I remember this small barbaric village I had found with my friend Gafeld, the few warriors guarding the village where no match for us mostly for Gafeld magic.  I remember him trying to hold me back when I found where the women and children were hiding.  So many death that day, so much blood on my hands, blood of innocent children some not older than my own they had killed or kidnapped.  I exacted my revenge on that day but the whole inside me was not filled.  It grew deeper and darker, still does today.  The gift that I was given, probably by Folian, still comes to me with my deepest angers.  I have even frightened one of my friend because of it.  Curse golden eyes.

"I am so sorry Annalee"

I yell.  I wish to be nothingness, to be close to my little family again.  Maybe in the after life will I live with them an other life, an other story.  I do not know, what is real?  Is this my real life or did I die and revived by the Dragon.  Is this my after life?  My punishment for the atrocity I have done?  I touch my scare on my right cheek and remember the arrow slicing through my skin.  I remember the look on my father's face when the barbarian thrusted his sword out of his back.  The way he looked at me when his knees touched the ground.  I saw the barbarian lift his sword above his head and Yelled.  So many pain they have brought me but nothing in comparison to what I have brought them.  If all the warriors would have been in the village would have we succeeded?  My pain confuses me and the sorrow blinds me.  I long for her, for her to comeback and fill this whole that is my heart, but she never comes.

Sleep is getting hold of me again.  I close my eye.  Maybe this time I will rejoin her for good.

[Hellblazer]

I woke up in a temple, my whole body was transparent.  I could not remember how I got to this place nor who I was.  My mind was empty of all memories.  I stood there looking at what looked like a tombstone, asking myself what had happened.  I had no answer.  I started roaming through this strange city until someone by the name of Tegan came to me.  She seemed to know me and I seemed to find her quite familiar.  Somehow I trusted her and after she talked to some friends, we met in the city she brought me back to the city of Hlint.  

At first I was disoriented and couldn't find anything that jurke my memory. Even a man called Cymeran tried to cast a spell on me, to no prevail.  I was confused, lost, feeling Like I was the only one there.  Every face I saw was a new face, not remembering anyone.  A few persons came to my side asking how I was but I could not remember them.  The only person that seemed familiar was this woman called Tegan.  So many people asking me question rendered me quite nervous.  Wasn't not my amnesia enough that I could hear some voices that didn't make sense to my ears but in my head I understood them perfectly.  I was going mad until Sonya came.  She was reassuring even if at first I was nervous from all the people around me.  She talked to me and succeeded in calming me down.  After a while she proposed I asked someone to take me around the city, to see if it would revive my memory.  She showed me all the places in Hlint but I could not remember anything, so I proposed to hear that we go outside of the city.  She seemed nervous at the Idea so I told her I was going to protect her and winked at her.  Of course how could I protect her when I couldn't even remember my own name.  She told me that she could take care of her self and of course I knew it to be true.  She called upon her friend called Dragonia.  Even this little dragon knew me and told me how we had met.  It revived an image in my head.  There she was, laying on the ground, I thought her to be dead, tried to find a pulse but the little one stepped in between me and her master.  It told me that she was sleeping.  I looked down and I saw her so peaceful, amazingly beautiful.  I recall that mage and Sonya asked me to discribe my memory so I did but stopped on the amazingly beautiful part not soon enough.  She blushed and I felt shy looked away.  There was an akward moment, so to break the silence I gave her one small clover leaf I had found on a ox that seemed to be mine.  She blushed again.  She had to go and before parting I asked if I would see her again to witch she answered me with a quick and small kiss on the cheek *Touching my cheek as I am writing this*.  Yes we will, she answered.  She left walking slowly and I looked at her as she was getting out of the crafting house.  She turned back and waved at me, i did the same.  At that point Cymeran sighted and it got my attention, I turned toward him and asked him if he had talked to me.

He asked me If I wanted to go with him and some others to hunt some trolls.  Not remembering what they where I paused and asked him if my weapons I had on me would do the job, he said yes.  So we went.  When we arrived at the swamp we found a hoard of trolls, ugly beast I can tell you that much.  I must have still been weak because I died on the first wave.  But when I came back I wanted more.  Fury took over me and I could feel a change in my eyes.  I ran killing every troll i could get my hands on, yelling "More, I want more"  Finally something happened.  Out of my anger two beast appeared beside me, one was a Dire wolf and the other one looked like a half breed of a dragon and a butterfly.  They fought beside me until both of them died, my anger grew stronger.  I ran like a mad man yelling "more, give me more" slicing my sword and axe in every trolls skin I could find, but then again I felled.  I woke up in the city of fort Hampshire where Tegan told me and showed me to bind with the stone over there.  I was weak and didn't felt like going back to the swamps so I search my pack and found this peace of paper I decided to write this down in case I would lose my memory again.  I do not want to forget again.  Not the battle not all the people who tried to help me, not the kiss and even more I do not want to forget Sonya.

[Hellblazer]

**************ATTENTION SPOILER********************









Some of you may wonder why Rain has lost his memory so I will explain a little here trying not to reveal to much.  Yes it is part Physical after his death near prazin he lost his memory but it has more to do with his subconscious mind.  He does not want to remember the pain and loneliness, the suffering and the constant struggle that is his life.  So when he died that time, his subconscious take hold and rendered him amnesic.  The draw back, is this.  In the years that had followed the massacre at the barbarian village he had learn to control partially his anger, but with this amnesia his anger is now able to take hold of him again and send him into a blood frenzy as writing in my last post.  This is all I am writing for this, up to you to see what will happen next by following up in here or on the servers.

[Hellblazer]

Today was a somewhat a peculiar day.  I still do not remember anything from my past but I could not let this stop me.  I met Addison near the bank and she ask me how I was doing.  I had nothing really new to tell her, although i tried to keep the fine details out of my memory flash, she understood me and agreed to what I almost said.  It made me feel somewhat like a teenager living his first tease of life. In our discussion I explained to her what had happened in the Aiji swamps, the fact that I had somehow summoned two companions.  I do not have many clear thoughts on this, as I was quite under the influence of my anger.  But she seemed to think that putting me back in that situation might refresh my memory.  So we went into Silwood with a man called.. Glenn, yes that his name. Just as we were about to enter the wood, a pigeon dropped a letter for me, it was a letter from Sonya explaining why she left so abruptly the night before.  We entered the wood and the beast we encountered there were no match and as we went further inside the wood I feld behind.  When I finally manage to catch up to them, they were slaying the last spiders.  I did not have a chance to test myself against those beast and see if it would jolt my memoirs.  So she decided to lead me into the caves that were near by.  The first creature we encountered was delt by me easily.  As she saw that it did not help, we went further into the caves.  There we found a hoard of bugbears I rushed them and I remember getting slice on the right upper arm and felt myself enrage again more violently than in the swamps.  At that point I blanked out.  I woke up seing Gleen fight some odd little creatures.  I barely had the strength to lift and tend my crossbow, fired a couple of bolts and killed at least one of them.  He aid me to the side where we started to talk for some time.  At that Point i had not realized yet that Addison had staid behind to mine some materials.  Glenn pointed out that he felt I had a Ranger aura on myself.  I didn't know what he was talking about to tell the truth but I knew better than to try to argue with the man. After a while Addison reached us and we talk some more.  Glenn even felt that I was a follower of Folian in my past, then again I could not argue since I have no prior knowledge of any kind from before I woke up at the temple.

We decided to part from the cave and headed back into Hlint.  On our way, we were attacked by a deer and without thinking I just reached for it.  As soon as my hand touched him he calm down.  It was enough to convince Glenn I was a ranger.  We finally arrived at Hlint and Addison parted with us.  Me and Glenn talk for a while before a strange man with the name of Drogo came to us.  He seemed to know me, once again I can not comprehend that I knew so many people and have no recollection of any of them but a familiarity towards Tegan.  Any how he tried to revive my memory by casting healing spells on me, to wich nothing happened.  Then he brought me outside of Hlint, Glenn folowing us, because he thought that if my memory was lost by a jolt then a jolt of electricity should help.  I could hear Glenn being quite nervous of that idea and pleading not to go through with it, but at this point I was ready to try almost anything to get at least some memories back.  I think he got distracted because every time he tried to cast the lighting spell nothing fell on me. A minute after a fire bolt came rushing down from the sky.  I was not prepared for that and I lost control to my anger.  I somehow summoned the same companions and I almost attacked Drogo.  I saw, in the corner of my eyes Glenn getting nervous as he summoned his bear.  Drogo staid in front of me, still talking in elven tongue, he made me realize that the two beast where beside me.  Both him and Glenn in conjunction tried to help me remember them and seing those to beast in front of me was to much for me to handle at once.  I ran into silwood and stopped beside the cliff I felled down sitting and pounded the ground.  I do not know what my companions did but they did not follow me.  Glenn and Drogo caught up and still tried to help, but I was discouraged and could not concentrate on most of what they where telling me.  After a while Drogo left, discouraged I think.  Glenn staid there not talking so I decided to head back to Hlint.  I staid by myself for some time until I met Tegan, I wanted to speak to her but she had already something planned so I left her.  I saw her go talk to Darckchild and was compelled to stay close hidden from them and I listen to them talk through the night.  It was not a pleasant conversation and Tegan left somewhat frustrated.  I tried to talk to her but she ignored me and went away with her panther friend.  She came back after a moment and just slumbered to the grass.  I aproched her and we talked a little until Darkchild came and started arguing with her again.  At that point I just staid there silent.  I do not know how much time passed but at the end I never got the chance to talk to her.  I went in the crypts and slayed some skeletons, then headed for the inn and rested for some time.

[Hellblazer]

When I came back out from my rented room  I stumbled on Treana and Addison. They were talking about people not being able to apreciate the craftsmanship of a bronze ring.  I staid there silent and Addison left after some time.  Me and Treana then started to talk, She explained to me some of her traditions and the reason why she couldn't call me by my first name only.  She also told me of the little she knew about my past.  I wondered if i could ever be a complete man if I did not know of my past but she seemed to disagree.  She saw, for me, new possibilities.  A chance to forget everything and start a new life.  At a point in our conversation I wondered if it was at all possible that I would have done this to myself.  It is certainly a possibility and she told me that when she first met me I was not a happy man, well this is not a change if i look at the past 3 days. she told me that I told her that my family was killed and that my mother and little son were kidnapped by Barbarians.  I felt strange to the sound of me having a son.  How could I not remember this?  I think she feared that by telling me this I would fall to my anger, as I had told her I was having difficulty controlling it, but I could not feel anything but a slight frustration to the fact that once again I was powerless in front of this amnesia.  After some time we parted and I came back to the inn, where on the same piece of paper, I am writing what happened today.  I thought I would have seen Sonya, but I did not.  Maybe tomorrow I will?

[Hellblazer]

It was a strangely pleasant day today as i spent most of my day with Tegan.  We started by going at the rolling hills where we fought a kind of creatures I had never seen yet, well to my recent memories that is.  Somehow in the combat I lost control of my rage and blacked out.  I regain consciousness at a camp fire in the woods on the way to Leilon.  She told me that she was confused about the fact that I did not remember what just took hold a few hours ago.  I ask her if I had the dreaded Gold eyes again and she said yes.  This is really starting to get on my nerves.  She told me I looked without fear, almost welcoming death.  Also that I had called her dear in something I said to her.  Having no recollection of the deeds, I could only offer my forgiveness, and she smiled at me saying it was fine.  Somehow I fear she is not telling me everything.  When we arrived to Leilon and she brought me to her house.  As I entered it I saw it was well sought for.  Everything had its place and it was really nice and comfy, it showed me an aspect I had never seen of her to my knowledge that is.  She told me that she shared this house with other friends.  We went to what seemed a living room and I saw a small indoor pool, When she saw me wash my hand she told me I could take a dip in it, but I respectfully declined as I had no proper swimming garment.  We talked a bit about her pass, where she came from.  She told me that she was from a city called Liala or something like that and that she always plaid in the apple trees over there.  I told her she seemed to have a happy childhood but she replied that she found happiness and love only where she sought it. I aksed her if she longed for her family and I was shocked to know that she was not caring about them.  She told me that she felt she was a mistake and that her mother despised, if not hated her for it.  She told me that her mother had fallen for a stranger and the he left here with a incoming child.  I tried to comfort her, telling her that what ever was the cause of her being here today the result was not an ill one.  after all she is the one who found me wandering this foreign city where I had woke up as a ghost, she took care of me then, bringing me back to Hlint and even after that until she had to leave.  She never tried to take advantage of my memory loss and that showed that She was a good person, what ever anyone would have said to her.  I tried my best to convince her and I think she somewhat did.  We also talked about what had happened between me and Sonya she was a bit amused about the situation.  She told me to wait a few more days before sending Sonya an other letter, as I have not seen her since the letter she sent me.  To give her the time to understand what had happened and see what she wanted out of it.  It seemed to be a good advice then and still now as I write this.  

After we talked a bit more she told me that she had to go to port Hampshire to get some materials off her ox. She told me that I could come or go back to Hlint.  I had nothing else plan for the day and I asked her if she minded the company, she told me that she did not mind.  She got a few supplies and we went on our way.  While we where walking toward the docks, she told me that her ox was named Stinky, what a strange name for an ox but i guess we need  every thing to make a world.  We arrived at Hampshire and  Tegan somehow fell through one of the planks, When she got back up on the dock and could not held my laugh back but I did offer her my cap to dry off.  She then took me where she had left her ox and presented me to stinky.  You would have believe that with a name like that, the ox would stink, but it smelled good.  stinky, I think, is a playful beast as it rubbed her head against my had when I petted her and then when I was looking at Tegan talking about her she nibbled my cape and chewed the corner off of it.   We wen to what is the equivalence of the crafting house in Hlint and I watched her craft he crags bags.  I must have slumbered from exaustion because when I woke up Tegan was gone.

I headed back to Hlint and met with Cronk, Nepp; Keith, Galius and since I had a contract given to me by Lord Rodor of the castle of Haven.  We went into the cave and succeeded in slaying the ogres.  While we were heading out of the cave we met Lady Addison wich was going down from where we just came up.  At the entrance of the mine we rested then split the loot.  Some of the men left but me Keith, Galius, Careigh and Noah that had joined us late in the quest.  We went to Lord Rodor and told him the good news.  He rewarded me for my contract and then we headed back to Hlint.  On our way back Keith needed some clay so we waited for him and talked.  At that point Lady Addison caught up to us with only a few scares to show that she had went into the mines by herself.  We talked for a while waiting for Keith and were attacked by a deer.  I barely had time to calm in time before Careigh could kill it.  from that point the deer staid beside me and I pet him while talking with the good people I was with.  I must have gotten distracted an lost control ever the deer wich started to attack us again, I once again calmed it down and lead him away so we would not scared him further.  A few moment after I had lead him away I came back to my companions and Saw that Keith was still not back from his mining. I went to look for him and found him playing in he clay up to his knees.  He seemed to have fun so I left him there and rejoined the others.  A few moment later he rejoined us and we headed back to Hlint once again.  In Hlint we parted and having not eaten for a while I ask Lady Addison what were he plans. She told me she had none expect to wash tom gems she had mined, so I invited her to dine with me.  I always feel that it is more relaxing to dine in good company than by yourself.  Some how she and Careigh though I had some ill thinking behind my invitation and I was irritated at that.  Why does every one think that when I man invite a woman friend to diner, it is because he has something else in mind.  I can not stand that path of thinking.  I barely know her, I would not pretend to try anything.  She insisted that Careigh join us for the diner and I had no objection to that.  Careigh wanted Noah to join us and so i asked him to.  While waiting fro Lady Addison to finish her crafting, us men talked.  My memory loss came back on the table and we talked about it for some time.  After a while Lady Addison was still not back from her crafting so I went to check on her, she had disappeared on us.  I do think that it is not a god friendship manner, but she must have had her reasons.  If I see her and remember, i will ask her what happened.  i went back to the others and bid them farewell.  With all of this, I still did not see Sonya again.  I hope everything is well for her.

[Hellblazer]

I do not know what is up with the people of this town but as soon as I got back from the sielwood forest Treana and one of her friend confronted me.  Ordering me to stay away from Addison.  What did I do wrong?.  I just invited her with diner and comply with her desire to have Careight with us??  When they confronted me by the pound I got frustrated and rushed my words.  Told them, in frustration, that I had only wished for some good company while eating and that I thought of Inviting Addison as a friend, nothing more, nothing less.  Well after those harsh words I felt bad and got back to them excusing myself for my jest.  They understood and even Treana excused herself as she had talked without asking what was my intentions.  She told me that Addison was in grief, that her loved one had died.  What good a Friend I am, going about forgetting that.  She then told me that even if I annoyed her she still considered me a friend, at that point it was just to much, what kind of bastard was I to forget all my friends and to annoy or grieve them.  I couldn't bare take an other word and left hastily, I went into Range vale where I rested for a while, two days I think.

I came back to Hlint but My mood was not better.  I went on buying some new cloths that were not stained in blood, once again.  This time I chooses a color where blood would not show that much.  And somehow in the process of trying these new clothes and getting new design for my weapons I tool the decision to push every one away.  I am cursed and I feel it best for them to stay away.  If what Treana told me was right, then Every one I get close has died or will die.  Cymeran and Nepp saw this change and tried to talk me out of this way of thinking, but I can not let them persuade me, only for their safety.  How can I control this curse if I do not Even start to understand the reason I have it.  The night passed on and I reflected on that.

Then Tegan came into town,  I asked her for a crag bag and she had one available.  Unfortunately I was a 100 gold piece short, so I asked her if she would wait a few minutes while I went collecting the skeletons due for roaming freely, undeadly.  It is there I stumbled on Sonya.  Oh sweet Sonya, as much as I would want to protect her by pushing her away, I can not resolve myself to do that.  As she said hi, two skeleton ambushed her from behind.  I manage to kill one of them as she got rid of the second one.  I healed her injuries the best I could with this puny healing spell of mine, and she smiled.  I kid you not, her smile could make a glacier melt in a blizzard.  We exchanged the normal courtesy of asking each other how we where and what we have done, then I asked her if she wanted to go on a hunt with me.  She agreed with her so tender and amazing smile.  She was still hurt and tired so we went to the Inn.  There she took one room for both of us.  At first I was a bit baffled, it did not seemed right, but my hesitation soon dissipated, when she smiled at me saying, "its only for sleeping".  So we rested.  I woke up earlier than her and thought to get her some breakfast.  Upon reaching for the door handle I remembered that she had the key and that I would be looked out of the room.  I searched in my bag and found that I had a Cook's Special Fare left.  I sat beside her and whispered her name to wake her up.  She only answer by a small moan.  I took the liberty to brush some of her hair away from her face.  She looked so beautiful again sleeping.  I passed the plate of food under her nose saying "waky waky" then again she did not respond.  Then she jolted straight up wide awake and startled.  I got up and asked her what was troubling her.  She told me it was a nightmare of something that happened in her pass.  I told her that she could talk to me about it, but did not insist.  Instead she reach for the plate I was tending her and ate it joyfully.  When she was done eating we went out of the Inn. We must have slept longer than I thought as it was already midday when we gout out.  After making our decision where to go hunt, we exited Hlint to go to the red light caves, well thats what i think its named.  Outside the gate i decided to let Arwin out for a walk.  I should have hit myself on the head, cause he mocked me all the way through the second level of the caves.  Although it was all in fun, I hope, It made Sonya laugh quite a bit.  This wolf will get me insane one day I can sense it.  We were still at the gate that she called upon Draconia her companion.  After the usual presentation for Arwin and Draconia, and the pesquering Arwin did on me, we went on our way to the caves.  Arwin reminded me that it would be good for me to let my other companion get a breath of air.  So i summoned him, to my lonely demised as he and Arwin teamed up against me.  Sonya, with her usual gracefulness and sweetness, kept laughing all the way.  We entered the caves and did swiftly with the little resistance we met on the first floor.  On the second floor, the story was quite different,  the goblin manage to kill Ehlen, my other companion.  It took all that i had to control myself and not succumb to my rage.  When she saw me, Sonya asked me if I was alright.  I felt it necessary to explain to her this affliction, I was nervous and looked away from her eyes, fearing that she could not stand it and would reject me.  Instead she took my head and guided my sight back to hers.  She assured me that it would take much more to scare her away.  We continued on our way down the caves and got ambushed by what seemed an army of goblins. We got the best of them but not at a free cost.  Sonya was badly injured and we had to stop our trek there.  She casted us into invisibility and we went back to the camp near Hlint.  We rested there and when we woke p there was this man called Jin, who seemed to know me.  Once again, I could not recall him.  Oh how frustrating this is getting to be.  At last and sadly, Sonya had other duties to attend to and she had to go, not before giving me an other of her sweet kiss on my cheek.  I hugged her goodbye and she left.  I could only sighs at her moving away from me.  I truly hope it will not take a months for us to see ourselves again.  I am sitting by the campfire, scribing this into the last corner of the paper I have.  I must get a book to inscribe all of this in. *folds the paper and put it back in his pack*  Hummm .. *touches his cheek*

[Hellblazer]

Hum what a sweet these last days have been. Spent most of my time some part of the wood North west of Hlint.  There is a temple over there but never dared to disturb the followers to ask them to which Deity this temple was erected for.  These woods are soothing and I can rest here, undisturbed by the affliction.  There is nothing to anger me here.  At last, I felt ready to go back to Hlint see how the people were and listing to the news by the bank.  As I entered Hlint the town was empty, true the night was well on its way, but there was no one beside the bank which is intriguing as usually there is always someone by it.  Seeing know one I decided to head to the crafting house, and found it empty except for the usual ox's and Jan the fur man and the post master.  I went to the fletcher's table and took upon myself to modify my crossbow.  I got the look I wanted out of it but it did not enhance its aiming.  Since I had finished, I decided to go back to the temple and rest again.  As I went out of the crafting house day light was coming up, I slipped on my Hood and started to head out of Hlint.

Not far from the Bank there stood Sonya, sweet Sonya.  When she saw me she gave me her usual wide and gentle smile.  We talked for sometime about how she was and what we had done since the last time we met.  She looks so graceful and lovely.  I remember asking her is she had a good rest in the few days that had past and her answered puzzled me.  I did not push the matter as I felt she did not want to say more and also that we where interrupted by Cymeran, so instead I offered to show her my little place of predilection.  Of course she agreed and I was happy she did.  Together we started our way out of Hlint and saw Cymeran siting on the ground, he looked heavy from a burden I asked him what was the matter, and as he started telling us his tail, a small man came to me calling me by my first name.  I turned around but once again I did not recognize this person.  He told me his name was Tahless and that we had journeyed a few times together.  I did not want to sound impolite to him or Cymeran, but I had already committed myself to Sonya and was not intended to let her stand there much longer.   I turned toward her and saw that she was still talking to Cymeran, I waited.  After a while the conversation seemed to end so I passed a little joke "If I stand here much longer I fear my feet will turn to roots"  She laughed.  Oh such a sweet laughs, always brightens my day. She replied that we should get on our way as she did not want me to turn into a tree.  I chuckled and she laughed so we did, we headed Finlay out of Hlint.  A few pace into the woods there was a deer, that looked scared at us.  I did not want it to be hurted or scared and took it upon myself to calm the gentle animal.  Sonya seemed surprise by the ease I had to calm the animal.  I do not see what is so special about it, its only a matter of patience and being gentle, not doing any sudden movement and slowly walk up the animal without having a menacing posture.  Anyhow from there I told her we where near my favorite place and we started to walk back.  We finally arrived and I kid you not, this place is peace incarnated.  You could hear the birds chip, the wind blowing softly on the trees branches.  The smell of nature at its best.  Not far from us, stood a clouded leopard, calm and not moving.  It almost seemed as a statue as it was standing on his paws.  I pointed toward it for Sonya to see and moved quietly toward it.  Again, the animal responded in kind to me and approached me slowly.  I petted it and it purred, Sonya joined me, somewhat concerned.  She was sure that the beast would attack me, but it did not instead it seemed determine to sent my whole body until it reached a spot of out most discomfort for a man to see a leopard approach his head of.  When Sonya saw my in comfort she laughed, Who can blame her I a sure I had a strange face as I slowly lead the animal nose some place else. I unfortunately did not see the deer following me and the leopard must have been quite hungry as it jumped straight on it and eaten swiftly the poor deer.  then It came back to us, licking his whiskers.  It seemed quite content with his meal.  we parted way with the animal as I proposed to Sonya to give her a tour of the place.  I gave her my hand and she took it trembling of her owns. I asked her is she was alright and she answered me with a gentle smile and a I am fine now.  I think she was still a bit nervous about the big cat.  We proceeded touring the woods around the temple, I made some small jokes about the few houses that we saw, and upon arriving to this monstrosity of a house I could not hold myself to comment about it.  Frankly the owner must do something about it,  it clashes with the nature surroundings it.  At least he should paint it to match the surrounding colors.  As we were talking about the house Sonya saw that the Night had fallen,  I must say that when I am with her I do not see time flying by. I told here there was a fire camp not far our we could go and sit by the temple where some of th followers were.  She opted for the latest and we made our way there.

Arriving at the temple I saw that the chamomile plant had sprew some new flowers so I picked two up.  I gave one to Sonya who smiled and proceeded to put it in her hair.  I told her about a special property I found about this flower.  When you grind it into a small dust and infuse it to boiling water, it becomes a soothing drink.  Of course you need to let it cool until it is only warm, but this drink had helped me a lot in the past few days as it calmed me down enabling me to embrace the nature surrounding me.  I truly think I should commerce this and give it the name of Tea.  Sonya looked a bit tired so I suggested that we sit for a while.  We did as such and we talked of her past.  She told me about the death of her mother and the disappearance of her father, brother and sisters.  She cried as she told me her tale, it broke my heart to see her in such a state. All i could offer her was my ears to listen, my hand to take hers in and my fingers to wipe away her tears. When she Had done telling her tale I told her I would do all that I could to help her find her missing family.  She doubted that any one could help her, but I told her I had a tool that no one else had.  She was curious to what tools I was referring to. I told her that I had the biggest bugger sniffler and at the same time I called upon Arwin who showed just just in time to make the entrance.  Her beautiful smile could once again be seen and sh thanked me for my future help.  After that moment she was starting to be really tired and we opted to go back to the Inn in Hlint.  I gave her my hand and started to walk out of the woods.  Near the exit of it I dared her to race me back to the town, She is fast and she bested me... *grins*  From the towns gate I walked her to the Inn where we said our good nights.  I so much wanted to hug her goodnight but instead I was meat by a sweet kiss on the lips.  I was stunned and all I could do is give her one on her cheek.  We rented ourselves a separate room and told our final good nights.  So here I am today with the soft candle light, lighting this new parchment I bought earlier, scribing every word of every moment I have spent.  I know she is in the room beside mine and I wonder if she is thinking of me as I am of her.  I will go to sleep with these tender thoughts.

*puts down the feather, blows on the parchment to dry off the ink and carefully folds it to fit it into his bag*

Pfff

*the candle is put out and I lay myself to sleep*

[Hellblazer]

I will try to make this entry short as I want to go hunt some Ants.  I went  with a few people today mainly Cronk, Kison Ravenlock, Cymeran, Nepp'akyo, Sa'kura, ashiel, Royana and Keith.  We decided to go into some cave not far from port Hampshire and fight some earth elemental golems, BAD idea.  We were soon overrun by the golems because, Kinson, who was leading the group did not bother to assess the battle ground first.  We ended up running for our lives but when I saw that Cronk and Kinson were staying behind I staid and fought with them the best I could but we lost Kinson and Royana in that fight.  I can not stand people who jeopardize the lives of other, thinking that they are strong enough to fight heads on, not considering that all of the parties member may not be as advance as them. Anyhow, I must have spoken my mind out loud as Cronk got displeased at my statement.  He was intended to force his view that Kinson was a great hero for having staid behind and fought for our retreat.  I stood there beside them fighting for the other to flee to but it does not change the fact that Kinson went to fast and brought all the golems at us at once.  Cronk was not pleased as I did not change my mind on that point and he left.  after resting and fighting some gnoll at the cave entrance we went to the port Hampshire outskirt where the ants are and Cronk cauAght up with us.  He pushed me and I could not resist his might and felled to the ground.  He ordered me to change my mind on kinson but I did not.  I will not be intimidated into going against what I believe to be true.  He was still mad and I did not want him to be mad so I put my weapons away took my hood off and told him to give me his best shot.  He did, it hurted, but even if my face was a bloody mess I got back up and faced him. "Are you happy now?" I said and he replied that he was.  Even then, even with the pain, I did not let him change my mind.  Kinsnon reached us in the mean time, as a ghost, and Cronk asked if we would go with him to get Kinson back to his grave.  He must have think That I wanted to lead them as he told me to do so but I have no desire to lead people to their deaths.  So he shouted "Let me show yuzhow itz done" or something like that, and We followed him.  He might not be the most intelligent person on this planet, but he did show a sing of wisdom as he did not rush like Kinson did.  He used tactics to lure the spiders and golems a few numbers at a time.  I told him that he was a good fighter.  at the end when we stopped to split the loot, which i did not get my share, don't know why that is and should talk to Ashiel about getting it, Cronk apologized to me for getting mad.  I told him that we were both staying true to our mind and words and that he needed not to apologize for that.  After that we all splitted up and I went to the inn to rest.  Now that I have done so and written this part of my journal I will head out to hunt some ants.

*Tuck his feather away and smoothly folds the paper before putting it in his bag.*

[Hellblazer]

Coming back Into Hlint I saw Tegan.  I finally could pay her what I was due and gave her a small token of my appreciation.  Then, Darkchild, Took her on the side and they talked for a while.  While I was waiting for her Keith came by and we started to talk about what had happened with Cronk.  He think that this was one of his bad days and I tend to agree.  And we also agreed on the fact that Kinson had no clue of what he was doing leading us in that cave.  Drakchild and Tegan finished talking and I saw her stay in the same spot not moving.  I excused my self from Keith and went to lend an ear in case she needed it.  She is a proud person and told me that she could take care of herself.  I told her I had not doubt about that but implied that, between a fight and a friend, the fight was less overwhelming.  I tried to talk to her, but Keith then a man I do not know came to join us and just wisped her out of my reach.  I sat by the fire she started to cook her meal, listening to both men talk.  After a while I said my goodbye and went to the inn to rest.

[Hellblazer]

I do not know what is wrong today but I it just felt like every one were not acting like their usual.  It started when I got in Hlint earlier last night.  I saw Tegan and Darkchild talking together, witch is not unusual, but then he left here there alone.  I walk to her, or over her should i say *grins* but instead of greeting me with her usual sweetness she went directly on the offensive.  Stating I should watch where I walk and If a had a reason for being, is spending some time with a friend not being a good reason?  Also, she told me that she saw Sonya pass by earlier and wondering why I as not with her, I think she was just trying to get rid of me so I left.  I went to the goblins camp near Hlint and felt like taunting them so I undressed and started running naked through their camp taunting them all the while.  I am sure that if anyone else would have seen me, they would have tough of me being mad.  The goblin surely did not appreciate and while I was running out of their, camp laughing, I could see the arrows fly by me.  I  did not try to fight them until i got hit by five consecutive arrows, I got dressed as fast as I could and went on killing them with no mercy. I could smell their skin burn when thrusting my ax and sword into them.  *takes a few long breaths* Well needless to say that I won the fight but not without some injuries.

I headed back into Hlint and saw that DarkChild and Tegan were talking again and when she saw me bleeding quite a bit, she asked me what had happened.  I told them the story and DarkChild thought of me as being mad.  At that moment I saw Sonya coming out of the bank and go sit on a bench by herself, I excused my self and went to see her.  I greeted her but she did not answer, she looked preoccupied and sad, lost in her thoughts.  I started to go back toward Tegan and Darkchild when she answered me. She told me exactly what I thought, that her family was still preoccupying her.  I sat beside her telling her that I was all ears if she wanted to talk.  I waited silently for her to start until Rhynn showed up. She mumbled inetelligibly and tried to heal me, with little success. I told her I would manage and she went off mumbling again ignoring me.  I tried to pick up a conversation with Sonya after that but was again interrupted by Rhynn coming back and trying to heal me again. I got up and told her I needed not her help then she jested me about how i was ruining the bench and that she couldn't stand the stench of blood. I walked in front of her asking what was her problem but she only told me that I couldn't not remember because of my amnesia.  "fine be that way" I replied and went to sit back beside Sonya.  I could only apologize to her for my outburst at Rhynn until I heard Rhynn mumble something about it being typical from me.  I was fuming and I started losing control of my anger.  I decided to head out of town while I still had control over me, I paced for sometime then knelled and started to take long breaths in and out slowly. When my temper smoothed out I went back in Hlint.  Rhynn was still siting on the other bench and I went back to site beside Sonya.  I told her that I had an Idea that could take her mind off her family business for some time at least.  She asked what it was and I told her about the ant problem near Port Hampshire.  I asked her if she wanted to come and do some vermin extermination with me, she agreed to it but we did not leave yet.  Keith had came in bleeding profusely and felled in the grass.  Rhynn rushed to help him and he explained to us what had happened.  We talked about that for sometime until Sonya asked me if we could go.  I told her that we could go as soon as I had filled my canteens and asked her if she needed some water, she did not need any.  As we were getting ready to leave keith asked if he could join us.  I looked at Sonya and said that it was up to her.  She agreed to the inquiry of Keith and we started our way.  We had not reached the gate yet that Keith left us to go with some other friends of his.  

We were once again alone and we made way toward our destination.  We took the long way and talked on the way. At one point we entered an area that seemed familiar.  I remember being here in this place before, but I did not remember with who.  I also remembered that there were some ogres near that bridge.  I said so to Sonya and took my crossbow out.  I had to see if I was right so I proceeded on the bridge carefully.  I was right, there was one ogre.  I carefully walked near him enough for him to see me and lured him back to the bridge.  I was hoping that Sonya waited on it but she had followed me for a few pace.  Seeing that she had done so i lured him a bit closer then turned around and faced him.  We vanquished our foe but no without some s...es.  We did not stay around for an encore, we carefully crossed the bridge, I , making sure we were not followed and went back on our way.  After a few moment of walk we found a suitable place to rest.  I stood watch over Sonya while she did than I rested.  I did not rest well, I woke up and most of my wounds where still hurting.  Making due with what I had, we got on our way and we arrived after some time to fort hope.  I needed to rest and properly tend to my wounds, and with that in mind I proposed that we rested there, surely we would find an inn in that town.  

Fortunately we did find one and as we were going to enter it I saw what seemed to be a flower merchant.  I told Sonya I needed to check something out and she replied that she would wait for me in the Inn.  I went to the flower lady and bought her a bouquet of mixed red and blue rose then rejoined with Sonya.  She told me she had no gold pieces so I told her not to worry the dinner and room renting would be on me.  I bought us a pair of meal and rented us two rooms.  We found ourselves the best table in the house and I helped Sonya to sit down, being the gentleman that I am *gins*.  I served her her meal and gave her one of my canteen.  I will have to buy a new one as i do not feel right asking for it back.  We ate and talked and when we were done I walked her to her room.  One of the commoners bumped into Sonya and did not even excuse himself.  He was already walking away and I did not want to start trouble so I let him go.  Reaching her room, I bid her good night and hugged her.  As she was going to get in her room I gave her the gift I had bought for her.  She smiled so beautifully.  It was as if all of her concerns just dissipated at this moment.  She smelled the flower and tanked me for it telling me that she found them beautiful.  I sighted in my head, I was not sure she would be fine with such a gift.  She kissed me on the cheek and I hugged her back then made my way to my room.  I had taking to rooms that were beside each other.  So here I am, writing these last word on this piece of paper.  She seemed distant today, I wonder if she feels the same that I do.

*Puts the feather away and carefully folds the paper and put in my bag*

Pff

*The candle is out and I lay myself to sleep*

[Hellblazer]

Hum this day was not a great one at first.  I woke up and found that Sonya had gone on without me,  I looked for her around Fort hope but did not find her.  Being so close to Port Hampshire I decided to press on alone.  I was attacked by a griffon but manage to escape, it is a magnificent beast and I do not want to kill it unless I have no choice.  I arrived at Port Hampshire and rested in the Inn. When I was done resting I headed out to do what I had come here to do, exterminate the ant problem.  Unfortunately, I was ambushed by the ant queen herself, striking at me by behind.  Never underestimate the power of a sucker punch.  I woke up back in Hlint, looking as a ghost.

Fortunately for me I met Keith and we decided to team up to get me to my grave. we made it barely out side of Hlint when I saw Lady Lee.  I asked her if she new of a wizard or a arcane archer that may be looking for an apprentice and she told me the name of Talan Valash. She told me he was a Sun archer.  I asked her to warn him that she had sent me, so he would not wonder to much from where I had heard of him.  We got to the same place with the griffon's but this time they were to many and I had no choice.  I am not sure if it is me or Keith but I know I must have killed at least one of the four we encountered.  Pity, such a majestic animal.  We got to my grave and i praied on it, then i exerted my revenge on the ant queen.  I had to calm myself as I was starting to feel my rage taking hold of me.  It brought Keith to a pose and I explained to him this dilemma.  He told me that his half-brother seemed to have the same thing as me.  I am not sure if it is the exact same thing but I am at least appeased to know I am not the only one with this.  We entered port Hampshire and parted way.

I bought my boat fare to go back to Leilon and embarked the boat.  I do not know how long it was but the sea were rough.  At last, I arrived in Leilon and while walking toward the city gate I met with Sa'kura.  She was sad that the arms inn and bar was closed and said that she needed a beer. I was in the mood for one to so I proposed that we walk back to Hlint together and have a drink afterward, she was pleased with the Idea.  On our way to Hlint we decided to make a quick stop to the mercenary camp.  I tried my best to protect her but felled in the process.  I woke up back at Port Hampshire and had to walk back all the way.  I got to Hlint and Sa'kura aided me back to my grave.  After a quick stop in the crypts to get some money, we went to the Inn with a dwarf name Dalan, joyful fellow.  Sa'kura got the first round and we drank, laughed and drank  again.  Then Dalan got the second round and Elgon joined us.  We must have had at least 5 rounds, I was getting a bit more than tipsy myself.  Sa'kura was a sight to the sore eyes, she is so funny in her normal state but when she is drunk...  We laughed a lot.  Finally she left to go rest and when she came back we where all still there talking.  I got out And dipped my head into the well, making sure to shake my head to spray some on Sa'kura.  she hey-ed me and I laughed.  After that We found Keith, in the same situation I was not long before.  Once again he had fallen in the Seilwood caves.  We aided him, me Sa'kura and Dalan with a goblin of sort, don't remember his name.  I got Arwin to help us, but when I saw how he was looking at the goblin drooling, I had to Ask Keith to hide the poor little man as Arwin was begging me to let him have a taste.  In the cave he had more than enough to eat and he was pleased.  Keith got to his grave and we manage to kill everything we saw and had a good mine run at the same time.  We headed back to Hlint and at that time i decided it was time for me to rest.  So here I am, writing again on a new piece of paper, wondering what my dear Sonya went.  Hope she is fine.

*Puts the feather away and carefully folds the paper and put it n my bag*

*wet the tip of my fingers and put out the candle in a fizz.  I lay myself to sleep*

[Hellblazer]

Such a strange day this has been.  I started it by siting down on a bench near the bank in Hlint.  On my left were Ireth and Rhynn talking.  I had this bracers that I could not identify and Rhynn was gracious enough to do the identifying for me. It is use to cast darkness, will sure come handy when I am strong enough to use it.  We talked, us three, for a while and Ireth asked why I was now in black clothes.  I explained to her what had happen with Addison and Treana.  Rhynn seems to be through trying to bear Treana's condencendance and must say that I can understand her somewhat.  While the silence had taken hold of us I felt that my money pouch was quite light and took a look.  I had no coins left on me at all so I headed into the crypts to replenish my funds.  

While slaying some skeletons I took a good look at my crossbow and decided it was time to ask for help with it. I could make some design changes to it but changing the color always seemed to elude me.  Coming back out from the crypts I took a knuckle fist right on the right temple from a skeleton that was hiding by the hallway.  I threw my ax and it lodge it self straight in the middle of it skull ripping it off of its body and rolled a few feet away, the skeleton body staid up wobbly for a few seconds then it collapse like a cup of china falling on the ground.  I went to take my ax but the bugger was still not dead, even with the ax splitting his head almost in two he manage to bite my hand when i had it on it to pry my ax out.  I slammed the skull against the ground and it shattered.  I came out of the crypts and walked by Rhynn.

This fist hit had giving quite a headache and I asked Rhynn if she could help me with that.  She was stunned by me asking as she remembered that when she tried to heal me the other times I seemed quite unpleased by it.  I explained to her that I did not like to have people coming into my personal space and start working on my body without asking me first.  She understood and smiled as she proceeded to cast a spell on me.  The headache was gone and I remembered about my crossbow, I asked her if she could help with that and she was pleased to do so.

We started to walked toward the crafting house and I do not remember exactly how it came on the subject but we got talking on how I was looking for a master wizard or arcane archer to become it's apprentice.  She was stunned to see that I had interest in magic and she proceeded in asking me what was my circle and which spells I had.  I obliged her and she ran off asking me to wait here.  When she cam back she had a couple of scrolls for me. She told me to memorize them and the one I could not memorize to keep for future usage.  She also told me of a not so secret organization that could help me achieve my ascension to arcane archer, she told me it was run by black wizards and that I would have to sing a ten year contract.  This did not worry me and I agreed to join them.  She told me she would get hold of her contact and get back to me on that.  

Finlay we got to the crafting house.  I proceeded to lend her my crossbow so she could work her magic.  The result was exactly what I was looking for.  The top and bottom part of it to be gold and the middle to be black.  Unfortunately she modified, without noticing it, the design I had given to the weapon and I will have to try and put it back to the design I had made for it without touching to the color.  After that, she asked me to wait again and she went away, she came back with a couple of other spells for me to use.  

I went by to the bench beside the bank and proceeded to study the new spell she had given me.  I looked at the effects the range the experience needed to safely use them without having them backfire on me.  When I was done, I tried a couple of them on the trashcan that was in front of me.  The burning hands are quite a site.  Rhynn who was not far away came to see on my progress and she showed me what I could expect in the future with the growth of my powers.  At that point a man called Celith started cursing at us.  He seemed so confident but with a quick glance I could see that he would pose not much of a threat.  I mean how rude can you be to call people you do not know Idiots, even more so when one of the person you are cursing at is a Lady.  I told him what I though of his attitude and he left.  Unfortunate we where heading in the same direction and he heard me joke to Rhynn about trying my new spells on him.  He tried to make himself look tougher that I am sure he is really and before I could even say a word he ran out of the town.  

Rhynn showed me one of her spells out of town.  At first when she casted it I did not see anything happening but then right on the head of the goblin ice glaciers big as a wagon came crashing down on him.  I would have hated to be in his shoes.  We went to the gobbling camp and Rhynn barley broke a sweat as she slayed the goblins. There I saw Drogo and we started talking about the new spells that Rhynn had tough me.  He tough of her as being a good teacher and I agreed but Rhynn though of her self not skilled enough to be called that.  Then we here this woman cry for help as she felled out of the caves. we all rushed to her aid and came in time to prevent her death.  As she was thanking us Celith came out pale as a ghost.  I could not resist to comment on how he should take better care of his friends and I headed in the caves to see if there would be other people in need of help.  this woman came following me and agreed to what i had just told Celith.  We proceeded to bring him to his grave and I was able to practice my new spells on the goblins there.  We teamed up to get the had of the chief goblin and mine a bit.  On our way back Arwin got attacked by some bats and I had no choice to kill them.  The small woman was furious at that and I tried to explain to her that as a Ranger it was my duties to help nature keeping balance in between predator and foes.  She argued that these bats were harmless and from experience I told her they were not.  And beside if we do not keep the bats population in check they will grow out of hand and the insect realm will only suffer its consequences. I think that she still did not understand as we did not exchange any words after that.

I headed back to Hlint after resting by the fire camp and letting go roam free the woods and proceeded to go make some more gold into the crypts.  While fighting in the lower crypts Sonya came out of thin air and it startled me enough to get hit by behind and seriously injured.  With the little strength i had left I manage to keep out of the way and let Arwin do the rest of the work.  As soon as I saw they were all dead I collapsed.  I aid there on the ground and waited for my strength to replenish it self then I casted my healing spell on myself.  It was enough to get me up and out of arms way to rest.  Then we talked for sometime.  She told me that she was studying and that she needed a new book.  I thought to myself it would be a great idea to have one to scribe the spells I learned into it and we started hunting the undead, looking for the gold we would need for the book.  When we had what we though would be enough we headed out of the crypts.  

Close to the gates, we saw a man being chased by some skeletons.  Arwin and I made small pieces of them and the man thanked us.  He then headed out of the crypts and we did the same.  We walked close to the bank where there was a huge gathering.  I asked someone where to find the books and a small man told is he was selling them.  It cost us 600 gold for 2 books and after that I splitted what was left of the money we had collected in the crypt.  I still needed to rest and tend to my wounds and Sonya told me that she needed it too.  I went to the bank and got the rest of my money out of the vault then rejoined with her.  I asked if she wanted to eat before resting and she though of it as being a good idea.  When I told her that I wanted to pay she told me that I had already paid the last time and I told her that I did not mind.  When we got in the In she told me she was going to get us a good table and that  I only needed to fetch the food. I got the innkeeper and rented two rooms and also bought two cook's special fare. Then I went to the bar keeper and got Sonya some grape juice. I didn't want to get her anything else as I did not know what she liked to drink.  I got the table she had gotten us and I served her her food and drink.  While we were eaten and talking, I asked her where she had went in the morning, she told me that she woke early and went out of fort hope to study.  I told her that it had gotten me worried and she told me she was sorry for that.  Apparently it had been 3or 4 years since she had an traveling companion other than Draconia, even after being summoned into this place.  Obviously I could not remember that summoning and she rubbed my back stating that I was going to remember some day, that is was going to be alright.  I though I was only thinking the sentence that I actually blurted out "With you by my side, I do not mind."  She asked me what I meant and I could not believe I had spoken out loud what I was thinking.  I got shy and had trouble looking at her.  but I took my guts in my two hands and revealed what I was feeling in the past few months.  It was no use to hide it anymore, so I told her that in the past few months she was greatly occupying my thoughts and that I could not stop but to love her presence and company.  She got shy, and told me that she had the same experience.  I told her  that I did not truly believe in destiny and in the plans it could have for us but I knew what was groin in my heart and Hoped she was feeling the same.  She answered me that she had never felt those feelings before.  I sighed seeing she was unsure of what she felt, and then I told her that I am willing to wait until she would be sure of her feelings.  I looked in her eyes tenderly and she smiled, she straightened her hair but miss a few that were sticking on her cheek.  I slide my hand on it and tucked the hairs behind her ear, she smiled but then promptly got up.  She was shaken  by the situation and I saw that she wasn't not prepared for this moment.  She went to buy a key and I told her I had already bought it for her, she thank me shyly and started her way to her room.  I was stunt and did not know what to do so I stood there like a mast on a boat fixed into the planks of the floor.  She turned around, looked at me then enter her room.  I finally remembered how to move this clumsy legs of mine and entered my room.  I wrote this down my parchment and now I can not sleep.  I am looking at this candle burning its last drop of wax asking myself if I did the right thing.  Maybe I should have changed the subject or try to hide what I really felt, but I can not and WIll not lie to her.  What a strange day indeed.

*The candle fizz out by it self*

Hum, cant see I'll fold this tomorrow

*Lay down and look on the ceiling until I finally fall asleep.*

[Hellblazer]

The starting day was peaceful. I woke up in the Inn in Hlint and again, Sonya had left before me.  This time I knew that she had left for her studies and I did not worry about it.  I did how so ever worry about her reaction of the day before.  When I got out of the Inn I met up with Sa'kura, Celith, Drogo and an other man the name I forgot. They were talking about exploring the desert a few miles past castle Heaven.  On our way there we fought some sort of beast that resembles the like of knoll and some goblins.  When we finished that part of the journey we rested at the entrance of the desert.

It was a hot day in the desert, and I must say that I prefer the woods any time, and I had forgotten to fill out my canteen.  I still did not buy a new one after giving the other to Sonya.  We fought some snakes that were quite solid.  I mean when you get one of my arrows straight in your head and you still come at me, you are pretty solid.  After that we got deeper in the desert and found some ogres.  They did not pose any threat to us at first and dealt them with relative ease. But when we went further into that region of the desert we met some mage ogres.  I was surprise to see mage ogres use ice spells in the desert.  At that point my loyal companion Arwin was killed, I lost control of my rage and just blanked out.  I woke up when Celith, Sonya and a few others waken me.   was surprise to see Sonya and the others as they were not part of the party when we left Hlint.  Apparently I had felled and Celith had group a rescue party with Sonya to rescue me.

Seeing Sonya in the desert pleased me a lot but I was still nervous about the reaction she had to the revelation I had told her in the Inn.  She was worried not of that but of me.  Sh explain to me the reasons of her reaction, the fact that her mother was a wild one and that after marrying her father, she had settled down.  Sonya seemed to think that, her mothers settling down may have been the cause for her to prevent her own death.  I understood that what scared her was the consequence she thought would happen if she just let go to the feeling she may have for me.  I did not hesitate and I told her that I would never tie her down and forbid her to continue on her studies.  In fact I would be glad to accompany her on them, but that I neglected to tell her.  She smiled and I think it appeased her somewhat.

From the desert we headed to Hlint where some of the party disbanded and Shilin joined up with us.  We decided to go to port Hampshire and try to deal with the ant proliferation.  We walked the whole way and got attacked by some griffons near the outskirt of Hampshire.  I hat killing those magnificent beast, but I can not let them attack my sweet Sonya.  We finally got passed and right away started to deal with the Ants.  At first our attack where disorganized as we had not planned our action.  We manage to deal with them nonetheless but not without cost.  Battered and wounded we entered port Hampshire to rest.

Sonya and I decided to go to the Inn while Shilin and Celith staid at the gate to rest.  On our way to the Inn I could believe how heavy me legs where and the comment I made seems to have amused Sonya as she giggled.  We got to the Inn's door and as my usual I opened it to Sonya and gave way for her to enter first.  She paused a moment and the sighted and shook her head.  I was baffled and I asked her, after entering the Inn, what was the problem.  She told me it was nothing but I could see right away that it was not so, after renting to rooms, I asked her to tell me what was bothering her.  She told me that I did not have to wait for her to enter first every time.  I explained to her that it did not seem right for me to do other wise.  Her reply to that puzzled me even more.  She told me that she loved the attention and the fact that I treated her like a lady but to her eyes she was no such thing.  I quickened my self to tell her that In my eyes she was.  she smiled,oh her sweet smile, how it restless with my heart is such a mystery to me.  After that I gave her her rooms key and I told her that the room I pointed to was the best room in the house.  Naturally I left her that room.  I hugged her good night and gave her a kiss on the cheek, then what she did next caught me by surprise. She embrace me with her arms around my neck and kissed me.  I did not fight the kiss instead I accepted it with all the feelings I have for her.  After that we bid our good nights and she entered her room and I the room next to hers.

In the morning I whole up and waited for her to get up.  When she came out she gave me an other of her sweet kisses and asked me if i had slept well.  I told her I did and could not resist to give her an other kiss.  We departed the Inn to meet up with Celith and Shilin then headed out to do some ant hunting.  We were more successful this time.  By the Time we had finish a man came to us and helped us clean the few one remaining.  We partied together and decided to go hunt some gnolls in the swamps.  Our first attempt was a successful one, but after resting in fort Valenske and binding to the temple stone, we went back for more, with two new group members, Noah and algazoth or something like that. That time the gnolls left no survivors and we all woke up at the temple of Valenske.  I think Noah got the visit of the Soul mother on that run.  I took us a long time to reorganize and finally make a decision to what we were going to do next and in that mean time we met Sand something and one of his friend.  We finally decided to go for some more ant hunting but I took the wrong turn and we ended up battling some nimphets.  We dealt them with ease and got back to Port Hampshire to deal with the Ants.  At that point the group disbanded.  Sonya had to go back to her studies and I did not want to leave her but at the same time I was compelled to go with San and his friend to the dwarves at Berhegen.  She told me it was alright that I could go with them and kissed me goodbye in front of all.  I asked her if she was sure and she told me she was.  Before leaving her I gave her a kiss and asked her to be safe on her way back to Hlint.  That where she told me she wold go to study the crypts some more.  I left her to go with my new found friends but we got separated and I had no choice to go back to Valenske.  As I am resting there, I am happy to scribes these words into the parchments I have.  Happy because now I know that Sonya feels the same for me and that we may have a future together.

I have to rest now as for tomorrow I will go back to Hlint and aid Sonya in her study, how ever I can help.

*Folds carefully the parchment and put it in his bag.*

*puff the candle out and lays himself to sleep.*

[Hellblazer]

I was in the battle fends with a good group tonight.  Tegan, Darkchild: Jin jun lee and a few others gathered up to go in the caves and mine some iron.  The trek went pretty much smoothly although I still have a lot to learn compared to Tegan or Jin.  My magic is not that great but I am sure it will get better with time.  After we got out of the caves I have receive a letter from my sweet Sonya.  She wrote in that her studies would take longer but that she had plenty of supplies.  It only made me think of the time we would spend apart but if it can help her then I am happy.

Back to Hlint I sat on the bench contemplating the Crypts until a elf came to sit in front of me and start talking with a lady that was already there.  While I was listening to what he was Saying, Ryuuik came by and asked me if I was feeling better.  I told him that I was and that I was indebted to him for his kindness.  I also told him that If Sonya was there she would be thanking him to.  After Ryuuik left, the elf started to talk to me so I introduced myself.  It turns out that this elf is actually the person Lady Lee was talking to me about.  The Arcane Archer master that may be able  to take me under his wing.  We exchanged some politeness but his attention he was giving to what seems to be his love got me thinking about Sonya, this time I had to look for her.  I went down in the crypts and started looking.  I could not find her and I assume she had put herself her invisible spell.  I went back up bruised and got attacked by a hoard of skeleton.  I had no time to call for Arwin and I had to fend them off by myself.  They had gotten me good and I barely made it outside alive.  I stumbled on the grass near the bank, got up and tried to heal myself but I was to badly hurt and it did close to nothing.  Then while walking toward the Inn i tripped over the bench and hit my head on its corner.  It opened a gash on my head, blood profusely flowing out of it.  I got up and walked to the Inn in total dizziness, I felled down again near of my goal.  I mustered all that I had left and got up and walked in the Inn.  I got my usual room and rested somewhat.  Now I am still hurt-ed but writing these few words onto this parchment before sleeping again.  Hmm I miss her dearly.

*Carefully folds the parchment and puts it in his bag*

*Falls asleep without putting out his candle.*

[Hellblazer]

Hum where to start?  The day started with me  going down to the Crypts. After entering the graveyard I saw the biggest gathering of people I have seen yet into this small town.  There was Addison and Keith all of them were talking about some attacks made by spiders.  It got me worried about my love and I hurried to the Crypts.  I started making my way through the skeletons laying waste to them.  A small woman  Was there too trying to get her share of the action.  At one Point I remember that if Sonya would be down here she would have been under her invisible spell so I called upon Arwin and asked him to sniff her out.  We got out to the big hall near the gate to the lower crypts when He scented her familiar sent.  He pointed to me in her direction and I started to walk in that direction until I saw her fighting some skeletons.  I don't know why she was not using her spell but the small lady got to her and I waited for them to finish talking before joining her.

When the woman left I approach her and she looked please to see me.  She asked me how I was and all I could think was that now that I was by her side I was well.  I told her that I was fine of course and wrapped my arms around her waist.  I hugged her and she rested her head on my shoulder sighting her words of how she had longed for my presence.  I gave her a tender kiss on the forehead and asked her how she was. She told me that she was well and I kissed her.  She rested her arms on my shoulder and kissed back.  Then she started to talk to me about her sightings all exited.  I was surprise to hear about some undead spiders and the like, such of things I had never seen down here.   I asked her if she wanted to go back down below to search for the creatures again and she was happy to go.  I kissed her again before letting go of her and we made our way down.

In the lower crypts she showed me where she had found the spider but it was not there.  We then decided to go further into the back rooms.  We manage pretty well against the first room of undead and ghoul but the second room was more hazardous.  By the time we got to the hall way and the third room before the hall with the lesser soul, we had been bitten and poisoned by the multitude of ghoul present in that room.  Sonya was not feeling well and asked to go back up.  I was not in the best shape either so we headed up and to the Inn.

In the Inn I rented our usual two rooms and bid my good night to Sonya and wished her to rest well.  She entered her room and I mine and I proceeded to rest.  When I woke up she was still sleeping and I decided to let her sleep.  I went back out and saw Lady Lee.  I talked to her for sometime about the man she had told me about and how I could not understand that such a man of his stature could overly publicly display his affection to the woman he was siting with two nights before.  I also told her that I did not feel he would be the person to take an apprentice.  Then Rhyyn met up with us and we talked a bit.  even if she tried to hide it I could tell that she was not to happy.  I tried to talk to her and let her talk about what was troubling her, but she did not want to talk about it.  At one point I told her that I was in the mood to go explore Dragar, a land I  had heard many talk about but had not visited yet, to my knowledge.  She agreed about my idea and went to get some bandages.

While I was waiting for her i saw Cymeran and I went to him asking if he needed some knuckles, he told me that he was in dire need of it and I gave him my box and the almost filled second box of knuckles I had on me.  He asked me what I wanted in return and I told him that I wanted nothing.  I did ask him, however, if he wanted to go to Dragar.  He told me that he had business there but was going to go only with his trusted allies.  I found in his comment that it meant he would not go with me so I told him that we could always go an other time.  I sat by the house near the gate of the graveyard and waited.  Finally Him, Nepp'akyo, Kila and Rhyyn was talking about finding a meatshield and Cymeran told Kila that I would be going with them.  I was happy to hear that he counted me into his trusted allies and got up to walk by them.  Kila was baffled at the expression of meatshield and I told her my understanding of the word.  

"a meatshield is someone you sent in forward to lure and take the beating off the caster and archers."

Finally, me, Cymeran, nepp Kila and marceas left Hlint to go to Dragar not before having Drogo and a small man join us.  We went to Leilon where we took the small mans house portal to pranzis.  From there we headed toward Saundria, as Cymeran was looking for the temple and see from his own eyes the rumor of the attack on that temple.  We made our way to that Little town laying waste to the giants we met on our way.  Finally we met up with Tegan and a man called jareg or something like that and proceeded in the deserts caves.  In those we fought the giants and I can say that it was all to easy.

We got out of the first cave and made our way to the second cave and again we crushed all the giants we encountered.  I must say that we where well prepared and organize and the spells Tegan and Cymeran casted on us all helped in a lot. but on our way out of the second caves things got ugly and we Lost Tegan.

After the mines the group splited somewhat back at Saundria, and Tegan started to split the loot between the people who where left.  In that trek I found a platinum bar and two new weapons, a bronze ax and a iron filchor.  Since I had taken up the loot after the fall of Tegan and her resurrection by Cymeran i had kept the gold on my self and looted the rest of the giants we encountered.  It is only at Saundria that I gave the gold to Tegan for her to split it with the rest.  I told her to split it as I was sure the other people would trust her more than me the new comer.  Cymeran and nepp'akyo told me that they trusted me and it felt good to hear that.

After that me Cymeran, Kila, Nepp'akyo and Tegan made our way back to pranzis and to her house where we took a portal back to Hlint.  Not before being attacked by a vampire on our way to Pranzis.  Buggery little creature that was dealt with good teamwork.  Back in Hlint we parted ways with Tegan and Kila and after some talking with Cronk about his dislike of th sea elf, Cymeran asked us to go to the campfire.  It was I, him, Cronk, nepp'akyo and robert siting by the fire camp that Cymeran told us about his plan to set up base in dragar.  He told us that some certified crafters of Hlint had threaten him to bring justice on him for selling his craft at a better rate then theirs.  How low must you go to protect you r business amazed me.  I was quite hesitant as Cymeran was talking about us leaving minstone and permanently set base in pranzis.  I kept thinking of Sonya and in the end I told them that I would help them with the buying of the house but I could not make my decision about leaving minstone without knowing what would happen with Sonya and if she would come with me to Dragar.  Maybe after her studies we will but I still have to talk to her about that possibility.

After that Cronk left us we decided to head to the Haven caves.  Before going I ask Cymeran to enchant my new ax and if he would do me credit for it.  he accepted and I will have to raise the money in the next few days.  I do not like to be indebted but I felt that I needed the extra power an lighting enchantment would bring to my weapons.  We headed into the caves in this following party.  Me, Cymeran, Drogo, Elgon, Nepp'akyo and Robert.  Our way down was more than easy and up to the third level of the caves we had little problems.  It is only after doing some minings that trouble lurked for us. We where ambush by the Ogres reenforcement and we lost Drogo and Cymeran.  Even I felled to the ogres, while trying to aid Robert in the cover of our escape, but I was blessed and stabilized.  I waited for the Ogres to move away and when I had enough strength I sprinted out of their sight.  If it was not for the fact that we met Silverhand I do not think that we, Nepp'akyo and Elgon, would have survive the sortie.  We rested at the exit of the caves and went back to Hlint.  At Hlint we found Drogo by the binding stone and we splited the remaining loot as it was Drogo who was looting for us.  After a few talks I parted and went to the Inn where I am now writing this.

I miss Sonya even more than I did yesterday and I hope to see he soon.  I will go to rest with her in my thoughts and hope she will bring me a will deserved rest.  I think that In the morning I will start right away at amassing the funds for reimbursing Cymeran.

*Carefully folds the parchment and put it in his bag.*

*Does not bother to put out the candle as I fall asleep with my thoughts of Sonya, my sweet Sonya, my love.*

[Hellblazer]

It has been months since I Have written my memoirs, it feels strange to do so after so long. I have spent a lot of time on Dregar alone, away from my love thinking of her every day. I do not know why but it seems that every time I go to Dregar I find myself left behind while resting. I mean, do I snore or something loud enough to get my companions to leave the campsite?  I chose to make the best of that time and I decided to train myself even harder. I even dared to venture myself against some pirates and this lonely giant that I saw outside of Pranzis gate. Both attempt were not successful and I visited the Soul mother on both occasion.   Me ans Sonya exchanged letters in all this time. I felt horrible to be away from her all these months. She wrote to me to be safe and get back to her as soon as I could and to tell Arwin and Ehlen to guard me. They did just that and many time to their lives end. When I finally decided that it was time for me to go back to Hlint it was because my thoughts for Sonya were impending on my Training. It was getting harder and harder to focus on anything without having a thought for her and my night were getting even more restless dreaming of her. That is when I decided to go back to her and tell her about Cymeran's proposition to the group a the fire camp.  I got help from Karana to get back to Hlint as I did not know the way back. I did however visit the Soul mother for the 4rth time before I met her. I do not see what the People are so afraid of. The Soul mother seems nice enough although I think she has an eye for me. Could she be jealous of Sonya? That said Karana showed the way back to point Harbor and from there I was able to make my way back to Hlint without any trouble.  Back To Hlint, I could only think of one thing, finding Sonya. I search the crypts, the crafting hall and the Inn but she was not there, finally I found her in one of the merchants store. I got close to her and called her name she looked at me, in disbelief asking if it was really me. After a few second she was sure of it and i took her in my arms she kissed me and I her then from the Joy of seeing her again I lifted her up in the air and spun around myself all the time looking at smile and laughs. When I got her back to the floor she gave me a malachite mounted copper ring that she had made herself. She told me that it was not what she had wanted to give me from the start but I told her that anything coming from her was precious to me. I took a look at the ring and it was gorgeous finally detailed and the rock was well cut. I put it on and I could feel the special properties of the ring flowing in my vein the moment i set it down on my finger. I told her that we should never be parted for so long again and she agreed then she took me back in her arms again.   In that matter I finally told her about the proposition, made by Cymeran, for us to by a home in Dregar. When I mentioned that to her eyes glittered more strongly that i have seen them do before, she was at a lost of words but she was happy that I had remembered our talk and my promise to be by her side in the search for her family. "I.. you are the best Rain.." Of course she agreed to it but I asked her if she would prefer to wait for us to get a home just for the two of us, "as long as I am with you I am happy" was her answer. I guess that raising 25 thousand is more easily done than 300 thousand. I was getting tired by that point as I did not have a proper sleep in a long time and seeing that i was exhausted she told me to go rest and that we would see each other before long. Just before Leaving I showed he my training garb and she was shy at first having trouble let her mouth speak "oh.. oh my" then she got exited about seeing my torso and tattoos "Rrrrr you look sexy" I was all smile as it was quite a sight to see her react that way. Before Leaving I held her back once more in my arms and gave her one last kiss good night then I headed back out of the merchants store I heard her say good night and I turned around and saw her waves at me I waved back and headed out. As soon as I opened the door I ran back to her and stole a kiss from her than ran out of the store and headed to the Inn where I slept for the night.  When I rested I went out to the Crypts and made some money out of my training. The best of both worlds I guess, training and making money at the same time seems good anytime. I was a bit hurt and decided to go to the Inn to rest some more. There I saw Treana, Kyle and Sa'kura having some drinks and talking. I nodded to them the proceeded to get my rooms key and Treana and the rest invited me to join them. I did. I bought us a round that no one else but me needed then I sat and listen to them talked while eating my food. Then, out of no were, comes Talen rushing at our table ordering Treana that they needed to speak. She told him that they could speak here at the table but he insisted for them to talk in private. Getting the hint Kyle ask Sa'kura to help him with the jukebox and I went to rest.   Coming out I did not see either them so I went out and saw Sa'kura and Kyle going to the east side of town. I joined up to them and express my feeling that this did not seemed like a fun talk. They then told me that it was over between them. I was so surprise, to my knowledge it was going fine between them and they were suppose to get wed soon. Kyle and Sa'kura did not want to talk about it but I could not get out of my mind the way Talen acted and I asked them if it was in his habit to order her around. Their answer angered me somewhat. When Talen came by and went to the crafting house then back out again he asked to speak to kyle. As they were walking away I glared at Talen, and unless he has eyes in the back of his head he should not had seen it but he did. He got his swords out and rush to me trying to look tough and enraged but I had seen worse in Dregar when I was alone training there with only Giants to keep me company. He asked me if I had a problem and I told him that I only had when people were hurting my friends. It enraged him further more and he started threatening me. I was about to laugh when he asked me what I knew of the situation. I told him that from my recent memories I knew nothing but what Kyle had just told me and at that point Kyle was trying to get in between the both of us he Asked for me to leave him some time with Talen and I told him that he could take all the time he needed. As a mark of defiance and to let Talen know I was not scared of him, I turned my back to him, thing I never do to an enemy I know nothing of, but at the time it felt right. Halfway to the crafting house he yelled at me that I was a fool. I turned around and came back closer, at that point I was starting to struggle with my rage and I could feel the pain in my eyes slowly stinging me. I told him that up till now i had no problem with him but not to push me and I left as my rage was starting to take hold of me.  I went to the crafting house and found no peace there so I headed back out to the pound and meditated there, asking nature and Folian to help me control this beast that is lurking inside of me as I do not want Sonya to see this side of me. When I had calmed my self I went back to the east side town and leaned against the merchant store building when I saw that Treana, Sa'kura, Kyle and Talen were talking together. Treana left after giving Talen his key back and Sa'kura went with her under the pretext she needed more copper. Talen staid there with Kyle and i listen to them talking until they went away. I got back to Treana and Sa'kura and I felt I needed to apologies to Treana for the action I had taken against Talen earlier as I knew they would show up at her door step some where down the road. She told me that I had nothing to apologize about and that she was sorry that this had spilled into my life. I told her that it was not her fault, that if she felt this was not right for her she had an obligation toward Talen but mostly toward her to stop it before the wedding. She agreed and gave me a flower when I saw she had given one to Sa'kura. Then they left and Kyle arrived. I apologized to him to and I explain to him what had happened and what could happen if I had lost my self to my rage and anger. It was a close call nonetheless as the only Image i had in my mind was one of Talen bloodied on the ground and me thrusting my ax beheading him. He told me he understood and then he went to his house to rest and spend some time with his wife.  I went back to the Inn to rest and met Sonya. She was getting out of the Inn when I saw her. I went to her and Kneel in front of her "M'lady please accept this flower" I told her and presented her with it. She took it and smiled then kissed me. I also gave her the robe I had seen in the store that I thought would look good on her. It does but I love more the person wearing it that the robe it self She asked me if I could help her go mine some copper and I was thrilled to help her out and I also told her about the copper ingot I had in my bank vault. I went to get it for her and came back to give it only to find out that i had no gold on my to buy the pick. I rushed back to the bank and took what I had left and went to buy a single pick. When we were ready we headed out of Hlint and arriving to the gate I saw Tegan. I though of it to be a good opportunity to present Sonya to one of my friend so I did, with Tegan was Remiel and Jin jun lee. I was surprise to know that she knew Jin and Tegan was happy, I hope, to meet Sonya. After Jin gave Sonya some silk he winked at her, I did not feel bad about this, its only a wink after all. he then asked me to help her get more silk and I will if she needs me to.  We finally got on our way to the red light caves and started making our way down. After the first trivial fights we got surrounded by a gang of goblin and their leader. I was took down by what seemed an arcane spell. A huge falling, blinding light sap my life out of me and I fell only to be healed by the same flower I had given to my love. We got down to the last level, dealt with the goblins there and after guarding Sonya so she could rest I started mining her copper only to find my pick brook after 5 meager hit on the rock. It is getting worse every time I buy some. I think the merchant is trying to make more profit by selling shabby made pick at the same price as the good pick.  We headed back to Hlint she gave me the money she had looted and I sold a couple of knuckles and spells that I would never be able to learn as they are not from my line of casting. Back to the merchants store I bought 2 new pick, but since we were both tired we decided to wait until we had rested. So here I am now writing this on this parchment thinking of the last few months spent away from my dear love and the joy I had when I saw her once again. I think that, I am ready for more and I want it to be with her.  *Puts the feather away and carefully rolls the parchment. Puts the candle out with his fingers and lays himself to sleep dreaming of his sweet Sonya*

[Hellblazer]

While writing these words, I am sad that Sonya sad the worse part of me.  She said that I had warned her before but still... I wish I could have shielded her from that.  
  It all started when I was returning from a successful run in the three crypts.  For once the ghouls did not pose a problem and Arwin and I went through and out of all the rooms with ease.  That run got us a good little a mount of about 700 gold pieces and I mad sure to deposit it at the bank as soon as I got out of the cemetery.  From there I went to the crafting house to see who was there.  
  When I arrived at the crafting house I looked around and Saw Cymeran, Nepp'akyo, Robert and Elgon.  We talked a bit and we decided to go make a Gold run near Silara or something like that.  And after talking some more we went on our way.  Before exiting the gate of Hlint, Drogo and Fredon Joined us and we made way to our destination making sure to kill every Ogres we found on our way.  We even stopped by a tower that some of us had not seen before.  I remember seeing it when I came by that way with Tegan a while back.  
  We arrived at the mine and we saw an ox tied not to far from it.  Cymeran decided to go take a look and ask us to wait for him and after a minute or so he came back out shortly followed by Talen...  He was hurt and I still thought of him the same way I did when he flurried his sword under my nose, but I nonetheless, tried to heal him the best I could.  He did not say anything and I did not expect a thank you or anything.  As much as I dislike the man, I still can not let him walk around hurt.  Then out of no where Kyle appeared, he and Talen spoke for sometime but not before Kyle did the usual greetings as did we.    
  While they spoke our troop decided to go around and find some tigers.  We found them but we also found some elf ranger that did not seem pleased to see us there.  The poor guy did not have a chance against us seven and we shortly made due of him.  We went back to the mine and entered it.  There, was a group of bandids in that mine and all I saw at first, was a fire ball coming right at us.  I manage to avoid most of it but these things splashes their fire as if it was water being splash from a bucket.  We charged at them making sure to avoid the second fireball and we teared them to pieces.  We looked around and could not find any vain so we went back out and talked for some time.  
  We must have waited to long and not pay enough attention as when we got back in, the bandids reinforcement had arrived.  How they manage to pass us without being spotted is a miracle.  Once again we got greeted by a fireball and once again our group showed no mercy.  After mining the only to 2 vain we could find we headed to port Hampshire, where a few of us disbanded, mainly Fredon; Drogo and Elgon.    We decided to go to Dregar and get ourselves some Giant heads, I splitted the loot i had collected all the way and kept the share of Drogo and Elgon on me.  We then took the boat to Leilon then to Hurm and we sat in Hurm resting from all this sea faring not before meeting with Mercas and Zan, I also told Cymeran of  that I had talked to Sonya and the buying of the house seemed to please her.  
  When we where ready, we headed out and dealt with the pirates that we saw standing and laughing at their supossibly superiority.  So much for that, they did fall in a spectacular way and showed that in fact they were superior in how they died.  After that I had a strange feeling I had forgotten something in Hurm and I went back.  I looked around the small port and when I arrived near the Docks there, was My sweet love standing, looking at me smiling.  I was so surprised to see her here.  The only thing I could say was "Love, what are you doing here?"  I am sure she was laughing at my facial expression but she just kept smiling.  Knowing the others where waiting for me I hurriedly showed her where to bind and we made our way back to the group.  Once we where all together, I presented her to Cymeran and the others.  Zan told me she had already met Sonya, hurt, bleeding and invisible on a road a while back.  I looked at her and thought that I should not leave her side to make sure nothing would happen to her again.  From there we made way to the Giant caves making sure to get a good view of the scenery and a good taste of the Giant scorpions and the snakes that where in our way.  I found the Scorpions to be to easy and somehow between what I said and what Zan said about there being bigger and stronger Scorpions, I could see that it made Sonya truly uncomfortable.  Nevertheless we pressed on and made our way in the caves.  
   Our first round was relatively easy, except that zan fell.  Cymeran raised her and we found ourselves a nice and quiet spot to rest.  Of course since we where in the desert earlier, I had put my training garb which was a lot less hot than my leather armor and I could feel Sonya gazing at me through out the resting time.  There I saw that she was still uncomfortable with all that had just happened to, I took her in my arms and we talked.  I tried my best to comfort her and when I saw that i had done well I kissed her on her forehead then I slowly and regretfuly let go of her.  I curled up on the floor trying to catch some shut eye until I heard Cymeran and Zan debating about how the only good drow Goddess truly cared for Zan and how zan did not believe so.  Since this was a heated talk I could not find rest and it got to a point where Zan talked about how we should not kill any living creatures even the Giants.  I felt I had to put a word into that and I did,  
  "I do not believe in killing for pleasure but will do it for protecting my love one, Although sometime it is necessary to do so we should always look for an other option before going to this extreme."  
  There was a short silence and Robert made a comical remark but no one felt like laughing.  When Zan had recovered we started our second round.  It was there that things got wrong.  While we were fighting the giant one of them blasted us with some magic and it got me enraged. At first i was controlling it somewhat but I lost my battle and from there I only remember being stared on by Every one but mostly Sonya who, I think, had almost cried.  We made our way out of the caves and out side we saw 3 speciously looking man on the ledge of the cliff.  They disappeared one by one and we were left wondering who they were and what they wanted.  I had my suspicions and voiced them still being unsure.  before heading to Saudiria I apologized to Sonya about not being able to control this affliction of mine.  She told me it was alright but as I previously written, I could not help to feel powerless in not being able to protect her from seeing me like this.  
  When we got to Saudiria me and Sonya binded there and I took a small splash in the oasis.  When I got out of it I felt it was time for me to rest and when I did I got whole again.  At that precise point one of the black wizard appeared right in front of us as I was walking up to Cymeran.  He looked at me thinking that I was going to jump him or something and told me to back off.  Not knowing what to do and being surprise of seeing him appeared out of no where i did and nodded.  He then turn around and started to warn us that blood was up to no good, preparing something that they did not know anything about.  He then told us to search and learn what the plan was but to also spread the word.  When He disappeared the same way he appeared we where left in aw.  
  I did the only thing that went through my head and I started to tell the others that we had to go back to Hlint and from there spread around the other cities and spread the word.  I must have a good charisma as we were all in agreement and after splitting the loot Sonya, Robert and I decided to go back to Hurm to take the boat to Leilon.  On our way we stumbled on two snakes and could not resist their will power.  The three of us felled a few meters from each others.  When I woke up I saw only Sonya by my side.  I did not know what had happen to Robert but I was sure that he was fine.  I suggested to Sonya that it would be wise for her to render us invisible and she did.  From there we had no problem getting back to Hurm except that we got lost on the way but we managed to find our way back.  Her spell was working so well that I even got to tickle an Elf ranger that was in the woods not far from Hurm.  he did not appreciate it and started to cast magic on him self all the while being baffled by what just happened.  I laughed a bit still running along side of my beautiful love one.  
  We finally arrived in Hurm and took the first boat back to Leilon.  In Leilon, we binded and I saw that Sonya was tired so I proposed to her that she rested and after hugging her and giving her a sweet kiss we parted ways.  I headed back to Hlint where I found Robert already spreading the word around and I joined him in doing so I also manage to give Elgon his share of the gold run and I was pleased to see that Robert was fine.  
  After that I turned around and Saw Freldo, Treana and two new comers called Ellis and khell.  I quickly went to tell them what had happened and I found myself drafted without knowing what it was for.  When I finished telling them what had happened in Saudiria the earth shook and we scattered around trying to find what just happened.  We found nothing and made our way to the swamps and killed the Lizard man that we found there.  
  Ellis felled to a mage and we got back to here.  When we where going to go and take her back to her grave we were ambushed but manage to circumvent their plan.  Being under the invisible spell of Freldo Ellis got back to her grave and back to us safely.  We went back further into the swamp and there I got hit by a poisoned bolt and then a volley of bolts just rained on me.  I swear i must have seen fifteen bolt planted in my thorax just before falling to the ground and waking up back to Leilon.  
  I made my way back to Hlint where I found Sa'kura, Robert, Kyle and a man I never met before and all of them except Robert who was busy aided me back to my grave.  I restored my self and we all, the first group and the newly added, made our way back to Hlint.  From there I needed to meditate and I went and done so.  After that I went back to Freldo and he gave me my share of the loot and I went to the crypts and made some more gold.  
  I was unfortunate this time and barely made out of the last crypts alive.  If it was not for Arwin, I would have died there.  He dragged me out and Howled. Lady lee saw us and she proceeded to heal me.  ONCE again, someone comes in my vital area without asking first.  I would not have minded if she had ask or if it was Sonya but she did even though I am sure I heard Rhynn tell her not to do so before asking me.  When I got up I must have been in a foul mood as I got both Rhynn and Lady Lee mad at me.  I had asked her, and I must admit it sounded harsh,
  "Lady Lee what was wrong with you".
    We sat by the bank Me a bit aloof of the group and I heard Rhynn complain about me.  After getting rid of the headache I had I sat by their side not before excusing my self to Lady Lee and explaining i was truly concern about the way she was now speaking.  She left even more mad at me.  I sat down and i could not believe how every one here was such on edge lately.  I think I even commented on how I should have stayed in Dregar.  I went o sit on the bench and there I heard Rhynn talking to Freldo on how it was normal for a pregnant woman to be prone to mood swings.  I was at aw, I could not say anything.  Lady Lee pregnant?  I thought and wrote into my my note journal that I should find her a present for her and her baby.  from there I went to the Inn and I am here writing these words.  This was not such a good day, if only saved by the fact that I have spend a good deal of tie beside my beloved.  *Tuck the feather away and carefully folds the parchment*  I think I need a book I have to many folded parchment in my bag.  *Blows the candle out and lays myself to sleep*

[Hellblazer]

There is not much to say about today.  I have not seen my beloved Sonya.  
  In Hlint, I saw Rhynn and tried to be courteous to her even if in the previous day her attitude towards me greatly tested my patience. Finally this morning when I saw her and Said Hello, all she grumbled was that I was right and that I was probably happy of that. I had strictly no idea, at the time, of what she was talking about and when I came to her to ask her what she was talking of, she only said leave me alone. So, "fine" is the only thing I said and moved away. After some time I went beside the pond and reflected on what this could mean and I think I have an explanation.
  I remember telling her to be careful of Freldo, that my guts feeling where letting me know, he may be playing her. That's how I perceived him anyways, as a womanizer. If it is that, and this is what I get for caring for a friend then She can rot all she wants on Bloods sword, I do not care anymore. That said I must have been in a foul mood as Addison and Treana stopped me from pacing and asked me what was happening. I blurted everything out and did not care to hurt any ones feelings.
  They told me that that was Rhynn all along changing mood as the wind changes directions. I have no time for such mood swings, I want to concentrate on Sonya and the house buying and my training to be up to the task of protecting her while we search the desert of of the drifts for clues of her family disparition. I truly think that if it was not for Sonya, i should had stayed in Dregar. Even after apologizing to Lady Lee for my abruptness of the other night and explaining the reasons for it I still think that she is mad at me. Things where such easier over there only me, my training and my constant though and longing for Sonya. As soon as we are ready to leave I will bid my farewell to this god's forsaken place and never turn my face toward that city again.
  Speaking of the house, I got closer in raising the money. After a successful quest in the town of Krandor, actually I should say twice the success As we manage to help that little girl twice. I truly don't know how she manages to lose these ashes in less than 10 min of us finding them for her. And after a very successful run at the giants in and out the cave. I have amassed the total some of more than 3000 gold pieces. If things keeps going that way I should have my share for the house soon.
  We were a good bunch of people for the ash quest. Me Sa'kura, Nepp'akyo, Robert, Elgon, Silverhand who joined us a bit later and two others i have trouble remembering their name, and not to forget our gatherer by excellence, Mercas. After doing that quest and being back to fort hope, Sa'kura left us with one of the non named person. then at Port Hampshire Nepp'akyo left the group. We did, how ever, manage to impose our will almost to no cost on those Giants and the golems we faced on our way to Berhagen.
   I truly think that Sonya would love to visit the crypts where we found the ashes but before we go I must be much more stronger to protect her as I almost died in those soon after dying in our foolish attempt to clear the broken forest. Now I am in Valenske and I am contemplating staying here and sending a message to Sonya to join me there an never set foot into Hlint again. I will rest on this and meditate some more. But I do not look forward to step back into that town.
  *Throws the unfolded parchment into his bag and clamp his hand over the candle to suffocate it under a fizz and a slight stench. Lays himself down and stare at the ceiling until he falls asleep*