solarinas murmurs in the dark , a journal

[solarina]

today i found a township , called Hlint.  most welcome after this week in the wilds , dodging orc patrols and war bands. Seems the orcs are quite active in these lands...nothing in this town brought back any lost memorys.... I am begining to give up all hope of this , desponence is setting in. Making more trip and forays into the wilds to reflect. there i feel at one.

Meet a druidess today , intresting conversation , least of all pleasant. however as i was explaining my present fate , she droped a cryptic reply :

""" Vanya Sulie Mellonamin """ what is this ? she disappeared , no doubt through druidess trickery , or the craft as i have come to call it. Is this her name ? or one of the names of my attackers ? she stated she "" found me "" when i asked her what she ment she droped the cryptic phrase and disappeared.......

I am slowly regaining the full use of my body , the sore muscles are healing , the rips mending.

I shall go out to test my self through feats of prowess and battle.

that which does not kill ye can only make ye stronger. All knowledge , even that of death by my blade or spell , to one who deserves such a fate , holds a grain of truth.

Yet a wise man once said the most cunning demon of the planes hid 1 truth in an ocean of lies , and that his greatest trick was to get man to belive in the one truth within that sea and to accept the rest as truth defacto.....




Next entry ,date unknown :

It seems from the gossip ive heard in Hlint that indeed the world is a dark place to be living in these days , the rise of kingdoms many and the fall of many seem to be in motion. I sense a great dire omen coming ahead. Could my recent troubles that heth befallen me be related ?

[solarina]

next entry , undated

While I am not much closer to rediscovering my past , I have found the name of the caves I was left for dead in , the locals call it red light caverns. I met lady o the woods and when i wove my tale of woe , she said ""Vanya Sulie Mellonamin "" , and stated she found me , when i asked about both she disappeared.

I have come to call upon Hlint as my homeland now. Its citizens have been most welcoming ,and with the exception of a foul hafling thief , my time in Hlint has been most uplifting. Some Citizens and travelers to Hlint are even becoming my friends. I most welcome this and Pledge my bow , blade and spellfire to any of my friends defense and unto the town itself.

[solarina]

Next entry undated.

Seems Hlint wont have me as a citizen , so be it.

I have recalled some o me past , a chunk o me life at a temple of az'atta , they took me in after one o there clerics found me half dead ( maybe stemming from the inident my mother died in ? that flash back i had  of her dying to an  orcs arrow ? ). It does me heart good to recall ...something. Yet rise more questions then answers. Seems i followed there ways and considered for a time becoming paret of there faith , but my need for vengence on those whom killed my mother and my people over consumed me. Thank fully that has died down somewhat and i realize there can be such a thing as a good orc , though far and very few between and id rather see most orcs dead.

A certin other elf has taken my fancy , such an enigma is he ! a fire alights in my viens when i doth see he ! where will this path lead me to i knowrth not ! The things i could write ! makes me feel almost like a second rate bardess !

Nature has grown stronger in my veins and soul and mind and heart. The ways o the warden o the woods call ever more to me. Nature saw fit to send me a spirit bear , her name is daisey , she met her fate to a poacher , but lives on , or rather can come to me whenst i call her. I am honered to have such a companion by my side , she is noble and true , with such a kind and free spirit , a shame the rest o the world cannot be more like her ! She even gets along well with serenity my pixie friend , and serenity loves daisey to ! the three of us are but a happy family !! Its a shame i have to dismiss Serenity to the magikal realms of the fey when i enter battle , but she is not ment for the feild o battle alas. Daisey now is another story , shes a warrior in spirit , or should i say a hunter mother bear looking out after her cub ( with me being in this case her cub ? ) no , she not a pet , nor a companion , shes a true friend. She was wounded bad after i helped show a new adventuer the proper way to slay a goblin encampment and i was wounded as well , but i used my only healing scroll upon daisey. O did daisey protest !! She eventualy settled down and playfully tended my wounds with her tonque silly bear ! Yes shes a friend true indeed.

[solarina]

ive recalled all of my past , and much of it is sad alas. I was married for family politics and had a child. My husband died in the attacks on House De'Shade , but alas so did my beloved child.

While this brings me some peace , will it abate my reckless tendencys to seek death to be reuinited with my kinfolks ?  Now that i know all that happened need i rush the journey ? Or do i have something here on layonara to hold me down ?

I await my meeting with the ones who's caught my fancy but i fear i was to out right and scared him away , not having seen him in  well over a moon.

I search for someone to hold onto swiftwind my sword , and earthcaller my bow should i die in battle , as they were passed on in my family for ages and ages , I do not want them to perish into the nothingness i surely will when i pass from this world.

Some would call me dark , but i am truely not dark at heart , perhaps some wounds are just so deep at the moment i am learning to recover from them in due time.

I was told vladics dead so i do not need to seek him out thankfully.

[solarina]

Ive been reunited with my twin sister JennaJade , it sings to my heart that she yet lives , as does another distant member of our house , Morganith De'Shade. So i am not the only one to make it out of the ashes !! Like a pheonix we will rise again !! I must marry someday and produce one baby De'Shade to keep the blood line going onwards.

Finaly did i get to meet with the one ctaching my eye. At times he is rather aloof , but always charming. I find it odd he wont be as open as id like but it is a challenge i suppose and that adds some spice to life indeed. I am not sure the wounds of his past will allow for any future with me sadly. Time will Tell.

My sister ha staken resisdence near by and soon someday hopefully Morganith well as well. With time and love and luck we shall Rebuild House De'Shades numbers. Wealth matters not but the Family name does. I do not realy seak wealth anymore at all , but to find peace of heart , server the land and its good peoples , find love and happiness and maybe have a child again.

[solarina]

my sisters gone off on some quest , and left me with some scrolls and a strange flag for another. I know not realy what to make of this all , save i know shes fighting demons within herself , demons i to have fought , and perhaps i still face though i like to belive i have already won that fight.

I continue to look for eghaas , and hope that life finds him well. He gave me a wonderfull glowing flower , I carry  it with me where  so ever i go. I hope to spend much more time getting to know this person , slowly over time. We just seem to never be able to meet up for long periods of time go by without me seeing he.

My sister is to be wed , so I shall begin to take up a trade , brewing and baking to help prepare a feast for her wedding. I hope i am up for the challenge , last time i made a cake it collapsed in on itself !!

Entry update : it seems shes run off to prove herself something to do with barion , but i realy think equaly soething to prove within herself and something to do with the ghosts in her past.