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Introduce Yourself / Interia_Discordius
« on: December 05, 2008, 11:30:15 am »
If one phrase would be used to describe me, it would most likely be, "Confused Refugee." I've been struggling with depression and endometriosis for a few years of my life now, the former probably spanning much much longer back (I won't acknowledge that it does- I don't want to know), and I've always had this sort of bleary-eyed wonderment in regarding the world.

My name is Christine. Some call me a cynic, some call me a fool, and most others consider me a typical woman of my generation... That is, I'm spoiled rotten, have trouble expressing myself, and make a lot of trouble... and I can manage to be arrogant and think I'm the best the entire time.

It's pretty awesome if you prefer the delusional.

I came to Layonara around two years back as Kinai Kinsei. This time around, I'm back as Llane S. Anetheron. They don't share any real qualities despite being the same general class sets, and I'm glad for that. It gives all of you a new experience when you roleplay with me. My writing style itself is satirical without humour... rather, I like to mock things without really meaning any harm. It's how I am. Please don't take offense to it... and if it becomes troublesome, just give me a nudge. I have no problems dropping the facade and being my more actual friendly side :) Really, it's just something I do to amuse myself, in the end.


As a person, I'm a half Japanese lady-person living in Ohio. Masquerade is my significant other- He wrote his introduction a while back before... and in much better spirits than I in this one ;) We used to play together in Myth Drannor, but after DMing for a while, we ended up losing our energy and our place in the game world and moved on to Layonara. He's a month younger than I, a point I sometimes give him a hard time about, but we're otherwise about the same place in education, personality, and life in general. In our spare time, we oft' PnP DnD together, get on World of Warcraft, watch movies, or do whatever else happens upon our fancy at the time. You'll rarely see one of us without the other.

So that's all. Here's a pic of myself and Milkshake, my lhasa apso, below. I'd post a pic of Masqy and I, but since he didn't in his intro, I'll do the same and pass. It'd do injustice to his name if I went ahead, after all ;)

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Just for Fun / If Your Character Was a Poem
« on: December 03, 2008, 06:54:57 am »
I've always looked through poems and have gone, "Wow, that sounds a lot like my character..." Being a person who loves poetry, I decided to make a thread to see if anyone else ever did the same, or if they could be spurred to search through the many volumes of such to find something that matches.

Regardless, I was contemplating posting this originally in Llane's CDT, but since it isn't my work, I came here to share.

Llane is most associated with me to the poem The Hollow Men by T. S. Eliot. Enjoy.


Mistah Kurtz—he dead.

      A penny for the Old Guy


We are the hollow men
We are the stuffed men
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats’ feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar

Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;

Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death’s other Kingdom
Remember us—if at all—not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men.


Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
In death’s dream kingdom
These do not appear:
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on a broken column
There, is a tree swinging
And voices are
In the wind’s singing
More distant and more solemn
Than a fading star.

Let me be no nearer
In death’s dream kingdom
Let me also wear
Such deliberate disguises
Rat’s coat, crowskin, crossed staves
In a field
Behaving as the wind behaves
No nearer—

Not that final meeting
In the twilight kingdom


This is the dead land
This is cactus land
Here the stone images
Are raised, here they receive
The supplication of a dead man’s hand
Under the twinkle of a fading star.

Is it like this
In death’s other kingdom
Waking alone
At the hour when we are
Trembling with tenderness
Lips that would kiss
Form prayers to broken stone.


The eyes are not here
There are no eyes here
In this valley of dying stars
In this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms

In this last of meeting places
We grope together
And avoid speech
Gathered on this beach of the tumid river

Sightless, unless
The eyes reappear
As the perpetual star
Multifoliate rose
Of death’s twilight kingdom
The hope only
Of empty men.


Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o’clock in the morning.

Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow
                                For Thine is the Kingdom

Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow
                                Life is very long

Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
                                For Thine is the Kingdom

For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.
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General Discussion / Wrath of the Lich King!
« on: November 12, 2008, 07:45:25 am »
Wrath of the Lich King, which is the expansion pack for World of Warcraft, releases tonight at midnight. Since Masquerade and I are practically obsessed with the game (I've only been seriously playing for a month and I'm already gearing up in t5), we'll be taking a break to get level 80 and PvP like mad for some new gear. Until then, you won't see us much in Layonara, but we'll be back! I just wanted to write a brief reason for our absence, and that we haven't lost interest. NWN is sort of our game on the side for when we're saved to all the cool raids and there's not much going on.

We'll be on the forums and MSN, regardless.
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Introduce Yourself / Atonement
« on: November 03, 2008, 11:40:00 pm »
Dear Layonara,

I never thought I would be making this post, but as the years went by, I realize now that this is one of those things that deserves done. The idea was toyed with for some time, considered, and rejected, but now my conscience seems bent on keeping me awake until it's finally done.

Layonara, I once joined this server as a bright-eyed, uncertain girl of age 14 (or was it 13? 15?). My roleplaying style was awkward and shallow, and I myself was a person of arrogance. The legacy I created here need not be rewritten or restated, but I made a severe mistake that still reflects badly on me even today, and made a fool of me during my stay here.

I came here to apologize for it.

Those years ago, I met up with a man who went by the username Hawklen and took his side to the point that, on the day of his banning, I would join on a decision to make a mockery of Layonara. We made a website dedicating to the overall "fail" of this server, and I even went as far as to help him play here under a false identity to find more ammo towards ruining this server's public face. I honestly can't remember what that fake username was... I'll dig it up for you all if you really would care to know.

- I don't know what I was thinking. I thought I knew, I thought I was doing something right and that I was justified, but on hindsight, all I managed to do was make a complete fool of myself and wreck someone else's definition of fun. This was a game, I forgot that then, and I'm sorry for making this place, for some time, a personal act of revenge.

Dorganath, I don't know if you remember me, but I can still recall the kindness you showed me clearly. That goes for the rest of this server... Sallaron's player, Steel's player, Stephen_Zuckerman, Mike, Tiffany... It's been a while, but I'd like to think my memory's not completely failed me. I came here as a girl struggling with illness, depression, and trauma... and I left here bitter and hurt, lead on by a guy I probably should never had spoken to. What I forgot to remember is that I had fun on this server... I was taught maturity that never registered until years later, and I met people I still remember today.

That means something to me. Heavens above, I know I sound like a bloody freak saying that, but it means something to me.

Regardless, what's needed said was written... so I'll close this by saying that I would like to return, if you all would have me. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I would also like to believe I've learned a lot of lessons. A part of me wanted to write of who I am now and where I've gone, but it felt inappropriate to do so, at least here. This was an apology.

I'm sorry for doing you wrong, those who remember me. If you would have me back, perhaps I can do something to redeem myself for what I've done. If not, then I hope this post at least can be acknowledged so that I may leave with a cleaner state of mind.


General Discussion / Well, Folks
« on: October 19, 2007, 02:28:20 pm »
Unfortunately, if you noticed the brief mention in my other posts, my dad had me delete NwN. Now, I had been considering for some time to just sneak an installation back on and play nights, but I realized that isn't quite possible... I know my parents, and as insane as I am, I'm not that crazy.

So, I've got my CDs, CD keys, and well... The works taken. It's alllllll gone. My dad even went as far as having me take it off my external hdd. To somehow find a way to put it back on and play again would force me into losing this whole computer, and I do so like my computer...

With a heavy heart then, I bid you all farewell. This "addict" has to go find some other thing to do, and because of that, I won't be checking back on the forums from this point on or give a wave any longer. It's a bit difficult for me myself to stick around and watch everyone else have the fun, after all :) I hope you understand.

Contact information is in my profile... Check the About Interia post Shiff wrote for me to know times that I'll be on :) Thanks, guys, for all the support you've had for me over these months. I've been getting Lupron shots since yesterday and will for 6 months, once a month, so health-wise... I should be getting all better! No worries on anything there.

If possible, I'll try to log on one last time to have Kinai do her IC thing and give her stuff to her father figure, her friends, etc. For the sake of staying IC, I won't give EVERYTHING away...Just whatever she feels would help them while she leaves to some land far far away. No promises...I might have Stephen or someone do it for me since he knows how Kinai works (if you don't mind, that is, Stephen...And if you GMs are cool with that)...Maybe I could write her a will if no one would mind carrying it out for me. Whatever.

For the Seras interaction I had between Drizzlin and I...Sorry, Drizz, I won't be able to do that anymore. I think you know how Seras works well enough to roleplay her thoughts for me... Maybe someday someone will roleplay her. That would be cool! Kinai herself will take her leave in her search for the avatar of Shadon and never be seen again, I suppose. Simple vanishing...Maybe a bear got hungry and ate her. Again, whatever on that.

So that's that. The door is closed, and I won't have NwN till I move out and start my own life in my own home. Save your cheers, tears, whatever you feel like you need to do...I think Layo will be long gone by the time I'll have a chance to return, so, again... Take care, everyone.

It was nice knowing you.

Hearts, Hugs, Waves,
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General Discussion / Teaming and Scheduling
« on: October 16, 2007, 10:53:34 am »
Hey guys,

I've been noticing that there's been high level runs going on through the more difficult areas, but not when and where. Last night, I was invited to one, but otherwise, I've felt a bit left out of the loop. - A bit of a note on that, sorry I couldn't join... 10pm EST is a rough time to make during school days, even if I'm not currently going.

I always thought high level would be something along the lines of grand and fun with more areas to explore and special items to have, but all I've noticed is that my bank account is losing more money than I could ever put into it, and that quests around the times I can manage are all for levels below 17 or 13. Now, I'm not trying to get this into a discussion for low level and high level quests, it's just a brief observation of why high level doesn't feel as grand as I first thought :)

With all that combined, I've been left to running about with lower levels and roleplaying. No complaints on either of those alone, really, I never realized Mistone could be so fun...Yet, you know, I've kind of wanted to check out East with different folks now and then.

I always thought that the "clique" attitude was mentioned constantly because of certain people or the deal, whatever, but I'm more along the lines beginning to believe that it's because people who ARE left out of the loop don't know how to join. By the time you realize there's a group out in East, they're way too far for you to go with them.

And then you're left back in West sitting around in Hempstead...

So, just as a suggestion, but why can't we have more forum based posts inviting people to East, Central, even West runs? Stick more into the calendar so those who have trouble getting into that stuff due to schedule problems, not OOC'ing with the proper people enough, etc can join. Set aside some time so it's not ungodly late all the time and then launch people through mass destruction of the lands combined with beautiful roleplay.

It would be fun for all of us to have some newer people, after all...

Curious to hear your thoughts,
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General Discussion / A Suggestion to All for "Concerns"
« on: July 24, 2007, 12:29:27 pm »
Maybe it's just me, but the negativity in posts lately seem to have been on an uprise since v3 really began. I'm not going to go into the whole, "Weee, Layo so awesome," or, "You bad bad peopleses should be slapped with yardstickies..." Instead, I'm just going to write a simple suggestion 'cause of the fact my head is spinning from all the locked threads, arguments, and unnecessary things in general.

Concerns are great, problems being addressed are great, buuuuuuut...

My (not really needing to be answered) question is, why aren't these concerns PMed? I can understand posting it on public forums because then everyone is aware etc etc etc or maybe you think the GMs will be fair or something, but look where the last few "concerns" have gone...

Locks, bans, and in general icky nasty.

This is just a suggestion, I don't really want an explanation or rant thrown at me to say why I'm thinking wrong (Hey, PM it to me!), but if you really want a problem fixed, take all the evidence, names, support from people in-game if you need it, and make sure to present it in a polite and proper manner. If it's done in a way of treating the other person like a person and not just screaming at them for a mistake you're not even completely sure is happening (as looks can be deceiving), it shouldn't be ignored and I can't imagine you'd be yelled at.

My point? PM it to the GMs before taking any weird and inappropriate reaction with them where you attempt to humiliate people...If you want a real discussion, slandering them on the forums isn't gonna get you it.

Just a suggestion, folks, hopefully one that isn't too brainless.
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General Discussion / IC and OOC
« on: June 21, 2007, 06:31:35 pm »
IC and OOC. There's no blurry line, but a thick black and white difference. A difference every roleplayer is familiar with. Yet as much as there's a difference between IC and OOC, at times, negative emotions from the character can travel into OOC. Whether it'd be a misunderstanding, something not quite clarified, or an argument leaving a few things left untraded etc, sometimes even the best roleplayers can find themselves irritated at another in the real sense.

But we are human, we all make mistakes. It's not about making the mistake, but moreso learning from it and becoming a better roleplaying individual through it.

I've been playing the less getting along side and more conflict seeking individual as Kinai lately, and the responses have left a rather bittersweet conclusion. The roleplay is fine, the reactions in character, yet I've seen nothing exchanged OOC.

Now, I usually do this myself, but there are times I don't, for example, when I notice my real life mood gets a bit sour. I usually refrain from IC and OOC conversations when I'm not at a decent or my best because I've always focused on being a good person to discuss with.

This is a reminder to those who roleplay conflict to keep a VERY clear connection OOC. It's fine to have conflict and the reactions, but you realize that by playing conflict you can just as easily tread on the fun factor of the players.

For both sides, be it the action or reaction, my request is that both parties send the occasional tell inbetween with a smile or a "good roleplay" or anything, and then make sure both have no questions about the outcome and the further actions that will be taken when all is said and done. You don't need to ask the other player's permission about "Hey, can I go to the law about so and so you did?" No...Just tell them hey, this is OOC knowledge, but my character is going to be "action here" to your character, so just a head's up!

You'd be surprised over how much happier some people will be.

General Discussion / Interia's (Kinai's) Fan Art
« on: June 03, 2007, 09:33:12 pm »
Since I felt inspired recently thanks to a few players who dress totally awesome, I decided to work on fan art... I guess I'll be keeping everyone up on my progress as I go along.

I might even be inspired enough to draw others :) Who knows! For now though, just people I come across that I want to draw.

First, I decided to start on Daralith Del'Mar. I'll show the steps in which I go to complete it...

Here's pencil sketched dark elf guy! Next post by me will be him in color, hopefully.

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General Discussion / Just a Thanks to Dorg
« on: May 27, 2007, 12:33:31 am »
I wanted to say thanks to Dorg for taking the time to change my character's name and description and doing all that jazz :) Really, it's great that a person is willing to go through and do all that for another, and I just wanted to say it's appreciated.

Thanks for taking the time to fix or change or reimburse each person/character that requires it :)

NWN Ideas, Suggestions, Requests / Eye of Storm Suggestion
« on: May 02, 2007, 07:02:10 am »
For the monstrous races, I was wondering if they would be able to craft their armor inside the Eye of Storm area when they first log in, have a merchant selling helms or some such. Sort of like a step by step progress instead of a two room area.

My idea:
Log in, do the rest, log out, log back in.
Start with enough gold to buy things from the merchants.
Have an appearance changing area.
Then the portal.

Of course, this can all be stuck in one room too...I just find step by step areas a lot easier when I first join a server, although simply placing a noticeable marker on them can work too.

Whole point of why I'm suggesting this? Because the first three seconds in Hempstead can get messy if you're drow or tiefling and you have to ask for directions on where to buy a helm that hides your scary face :)
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Introduce Yourself / The Christine Behind the Character
« on: March 12, 2007, 09:34:51 am »
Okay, before I begin, just want to warn you, I hit Back just now, so I'm going to be a bit moodier in my introduction than I was in my first attempt. I hate it when that happens.

Anyhow, some of you may know me as Kinai Kinsei or Seidahn Xyvorn, maybe even by Khanschei Crystiin (but she's dead now so no one cares)... I've played here for roughly two months, the 15th of March marks the point. I'm still new, so I'm not sure if most of you know me...

So, player behind the character! Right! Hello, I'm Christine Adams, high school kid who doesn't quite fit in...But getting there. Ever so slowly. People still love me! I'm more into the creative arts (my muses!) than sports...I'm mostly called the Drama Kid at school. If there's a play or a musical, I'm bound to be a part of it somewhere. I also love to write, draw, play piano, and volunteer at the vet's when I've got nothing better to do.

I live in the state of Ohio, an only child born to my human and American father and a Japanese mother. So yes, I'm a hybrid with the Japanese language ear. That's about the only real unique thing about this girl.

There you go then. That's me. What you see is what you get. I'm on the right with my cousin Kaytie on the left. No, my hair isn't that short, it's up. Any more questions?

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