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Messages - Alazira
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« on: February 26, 2013, 06:07:22 pm »
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« on: January 04, 2013, 05:50:21 pm »
Happy Birthday !!!!
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« on: November 30, 2012, 04:04:57 pm »
Thank you everyone!
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« on: August 14, 2012, 10:04:53 pm »
Already said it in facebook, but I'll say it here too... Happy Birthday! Hope it was a great one.
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« on: July 08, 2012, 09:08:08 am »
Happy Birthday
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« on: July 07, 2012, 05:20:45 pm »
//@ Lance - we'll take your word it happened before the price change.
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« on: June 03, 2012, 08:19:20 am »
Jillian agrees with Daniella when there are discussions of what should be done. As is characteristic for her when she is in public in Siphe Principality, she keeps her mouth shut but merely sends for her horse and mouts up. She does however nod at Nijau when he specifically invites her along. "Thank you." She then looks to Daniella, takes in a deep breath and lets it out slowly and mutters to herself.
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« on: June 02, 2012, 01:32:43 pm »
Happy Birthday!
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« on: May 24, 2012, 05:57:49 pm »
*grins as Daniella tells them to find Najua* I'll find him ... he and I tend to think alike anyhow. Besides, it will vex him to be summoned by you.. *heads off to find Najau for her*
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« on: May 20, 2012, 02:16:00 pm »
Mouth unusally quiet, Jillian is about. During the day and the interrogations, she can be found outside the tent, eyes sweeping the surroundings and ear trying to eavesdrop on the conversation from inside. She gives Daniella space in that she isn't always 2 feet from her, but obviously takes her position as bodyguard and advisor seriously by trying to be close enough to act without being stifling. When her eyes aren't on Daniella or Siphe, they tend to follow Nijau.
As night falls, and the sense of evil approaches, Jillian doesn't leave Daniella. She is max only a few steps away from Daniella at any time. Her sword is out and ready. Her only words being that of mumbled prayers.
Once Siphe storms off angry, Jillian simply makes eye contact with Daniella.. having what to them is a whole conversation, but to most around them would simply be just a quick look and then makes herself helpful without distancing herself from Daniella more than a few yards.
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« on: May 07, 2012, 08:01:36 pm »
Things to never tell Him:
1) I went out with some of his kind, knowing it was his kin. In fact that it was the very kin we hid from just the last time I was with Him.
2) That while with that kin I died and felt a visit from the soul mother.
If he finds this out, he will call me all kinds of colorful names and then likely kill his kin for my death. Vengence and all.
In the end, it's what I get for toeing that line and wanting to get to know more about his kin and thus being around them. I have never had a problem with the giants before. Only excuse I have is that I must have been distracted by making sure that they weren't at my back.
I am a fool to have gone anywhere with them to begin with.
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« on: May 06, 2012, 10:12:49 pm »
I ran into Him again. He apparently has been spending too much time with his kin lately. He is... jumpy to say the least. Doesn't trust anything. It took me a few days just to get him to be normal with me. It didn't help that while we were talking in the inn, some of his kin walked by. I had to make us unseen and we scurried out like scared children. It makes me wonder who could make Him be so afraid. I know he doesn't fear the actual confrontation, but rather the fallout. He won't admit it, but he fears that someone will use me against him. If he didn't care, it would be easy for him to allow them to hurt me. However, he knows that if they associate the two of us together he will hurt for me when they hurt me. So, scurry out we did.
I took him back to the shop in Haven. He hadn't seen it. According to him it is "quaint". From there we just went upstairs and talked. My word of the trip was Nau, it means no. He was not "in the mood" for lessons this time. I think with the recent addition of more of his kin, he is truly worried though. He wouldn't even discuss it with me.
Our conversations are the same as always. It's like the time I was with Kae never happened. I give him a headache... he argues with me no matter what I say. We go round and round until one of us finally gives in and just kisses the other to shut them up. I feel guilty sometimes. I wasn't raised to be with a dark elf, but he isn't like they told me dark elves were. Instead, he makes me a better person and gets me better than anyone else.
We discussed his god, the surface elves "betrayal", and many other serious topics and all I find myself sitting here thinking is.. I didn't realize I loved him, til now. Like really, truly, give up your heart because it belongs to someone who doesn't want it kind of love.
I have no intentions of ever admitting that to him though. He would just think it another weakness. He already thinks his feelings for me are a weakness. I think I will just not push the envelope and enjoy the moment.
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« on: May 03, 2012, 09:55:19 pm »
I read this and realize that on top of everything else, I let this go. I haven't done much other than run the Saddlebag in what feels like ages. I finally decided to step out and first thing I did was pick a fight with "Him" or he with me. In either case, my feelings were really hurt. Ironically, it took a talking to from his current .. I don't know what to call her, to see things clearly again. She thinks he loves me, but he isn't sure what love is. She's probably crazy, but maybe she is on to something. I hate gods.. but if anyone was to know about love.. she does follow Ilsare.
Raz says he'll be my friend, but he wants more than friendship. I don't know that I'm ready for that. Zari has decided to befriend me. It's odd having people give a darn again, after so long of having noone.
I found Him.. and it actually picked back up as if things had never gone awry. I missed him. I didn't realize how bad I did until just now. SehKy thinks he is my friend, but he doesn't get me. Raz and Zari may eventually be my friends, but they are still just earning my trust. "He" is the only one I have who knows me and likes who I am.
He's gotten colder in the years since I was in my own world running the shop. Not colder to me, but colder to the world. My time away back fired. I hope that I can still reach him somehow and help him learn that his heritage isn't the only way. I don't want him weak like an Az'attan, but not a blood thirsty man always expecting to be stabbed in the back might be a good start. I actually got him to apologize to that Ilsarian friend of his today. I didn't think I'd ever hear those words pass his lips. So.. progress is being made.
He continues to teach me his language.. one word at a time. I have a sinking suspicion, the words he plans to teach me will be better in a Xeenite temple than in keeping myself alive if ever it is needed, but.. beggars can't be choosers. Today's word was Laanmety. It means, "strip".
I have decided that normal doesn't work for me, so I'm going to try for abnormal for a while. Try making a few friends, so I'm not always so alone and see where that leads me.
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« on: May 02, 2012, 06:07:44 am »
27k
~Robin
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« on: May 01, 2012, 07:57:29 pm »
24k
~Robin
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« on: April 30, 2012, 08:15:52 pm »
21k
~~Robin
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« on: April 27, 2012, 10:00:57 pm »
17k
~Robin
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« on: April 26, 2012, 10:04:26 am »
14k
~Robin
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« on: April 26, 2012, 10:00:57 am »
Ok then. *smiley face* 25k
Zira *with a heart around her name*
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« on: April 26, 2012, 07:02:52 am »
11K
~Robin
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