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« on: January 27, 2006, 11:28:48 am »
Mai 21, 1395
Once again I write my thoughts, something I dont do often as before I've never been in the mood to do so. Theres been so much I've forgotten, habits died when one could say my very person died. Whenever I felt hurt or was just in a but of a flux, I always found books to be a refuge. Only now after all that pain do I seek that refuge again. I've now located myself in the great Library for recently I realized something and now find myself in need to confront it the best way I know how.
I should have noticed it the moment I was free, the signs were obvious. What was it he said again? erratic? Of course I saw a cat run by and I'm already wanting to play with it, my attention span, everything, has changed hugely. All those years without a feeling and my meditations to control my anger, it all made me less and less of who I am, what I am, an elf. As nessesary as it was, it also held a price, like everything in this forsaken world. I began to forget what it was like to feel and now that I'm free again things once again get complicated. For now, do I notice that I'm like a 40 year old child trapped in an ageless body fueled with intelligence and wisdom from my life and experiences.
I beleive because of my studies, I am an enchantress over all, I deliberately refused this lack of control I now have. To think that I did not learn enough of my art to be prepared for this is truely discerning, but I hold faith. What better to test my art, my power. I beleive I know of something that can help with this as well.
Before if a man told me he loved me after one day of meeting me I would hit him hard and call him an idiot among many other things. Normally that is the reaction one would see, but this time things were definately different, my heart was stricken and I succumbed to him, fortunately my mind was still in tact enough to overcome my heart, which has now brought me to the library now, or perhaps it is also my heart that brings me here.
Theres nothing more I wish to speak I must go back to my studies. There are things I wish to learn.
Mai 22, 1395
I search and I search but I cant find a thing about the amulet, it appears this trinket might be older then even the great lore within this library. All I could find are clues that might speak of this very amulet I hold. I found a picture of it somewhere, but these books are so old that it was torn off and alone without any binding to hold it, I will continue searching though.
Eventually I grew weary and decided to read my journal entry from yestereve. It reminded me of the much work I need to get done, specifically of the help I can get to increase my art and thus control. I hope the help can do more then just that though. I remember origionally I was going to have its help with another matter, before the curse was broken. I think now I will help Kobal, my other alliance will do nothing for me, they are not like I, then again, one man out of all that defied and hated me for my affliction, one man understood and helped me where most would not. To betray him would pain me so, if I'm to leave, I must ask him to join me.
First though, I must take care of that matter, the matter of utmost importance, for it could be a matter of life and death for me. I remember long ago, I found my life unimportant, and would have gladly died as long as it would mean my freedom, though I knew I could not even free myself through death. Now, though; I refuse to think this torture is all thats here for me. If it is, I shall gladly take leave of this world and never return. I've had much thought on this, Lucinda herself helped me, perhaps through her I can find what is needed of me. Can I trust her though. I held trust in a being of that kind of power before, even far less, and payed for it. She is a god, what use does she have for me?
Mai 27, 1395
Two days have gone by and still no luck on finding anything of the amulet. It makes me grow weary. On the bright side, I feel I'm gaining control, I've also found books of my art, basic things I've forgotten. To think this curse would have held such a huge toll on me, even gone it still affects me. Then again, after awhile through the curse and my training I started taking up schools other then my natural art, Divination and Abjuration come to mind expecially as I found those two most useful in my goals against the demon. As much as I'd like to continue my studies with those schools I also cannot stear away from who I am, I must refocus my enchanting.
Lucinda crossed my mind alot through those days as well, the gifts she granted me were truely what I needed to keep my sanity through the last year of this curse. I must say if it weren't for her I do not know what would have come of me. Still to think she would do this to me out of the goodness of her heart is hard to beleive. I know there is a price, something she wishes in return but what could it be? I need to speak with Allurial, and perhaps another I learned of. Through them I will have my answers and for her help I will return the favor, but should I devote my life to her? The question still lays in my mind. Perhaps time will tell.
Perhaps, though; she knows of my true ambition, before the demon, my quest for vengeance, since I practically came to this world. It is said that what I seek is a true relic of her power, of her faith, and can grant its posessor such a vast knowledge of magic and the weave that would even rival that of the grandmasters of eight. Perhaps what she wishes of me involves this goal, this relic I seek. But, as I said earlier, only time will tell.
Mai 30, 1395
I've givin up on finding information on the amulet in this library, perhaps there are things I'm not meant to know, not yet anyways. I have no idea why I spent so much time trying to find out about it, the amulet never really concerned me. Perhaps it was just the convinience of time and place.
I've come to think of Duragen though, my homeland before Layonara. If it wasn't for Lucinda I might have forgotten about it completely. There are some things I wish I could have forgotten though. When I first visitted this world I thought I could start anew, noone knew me and my being here had to be of importance. Like many others I had a dream of a great golden dragon seeking my help, he appeared to me right after I entered the rift with my master on our vessel. Later I woke up in Hlint, still rather hurt and unknowing of these lands or where I was. I still dont know if this was what my master wanted to show me, he was nowhere to be seen when I awoke, nor any of the crew on our ship, infact the ship itself was missing.
My master was an elf who knew and loved my mother dearly, one of the few with this very description who truely accepted me. Its saddens me to speak so, I never meant to kill her, but it was out of my hands. A child was born and thus a life was taken, many blamed me and said the sacrifice for my life was in vain. My father loved me though; and later sacrificed his honor to save my life. So many sacrifices... for me...
I've already said to much...
Junar 15, 1395
Once again delays in my journal writting, not suprizing really, but I needed the time for my training and control and I must say progress is looking up. Still I find I'm extreemely emotional, atleast more then ussual, well more then a ussual person, not hard to be more then what I was. Time will be the greatest healer I beleive though, as long as I keep to my studies I shall have no problem. As I look further and further though, and start to control myself I begin to realize the betrayals and harm that has been done. I hold no sympathy for those who call themselves heroes, where were they when I was in need, yet so willing to help those of evil nature. I will hold no evil intent towards them though, not unless it is nessisary, for that is not who I am, not anymore.
I know what I need to do though, what I need to figure out. Concerning Lucinda, the Black Wizards, but there is more as well. I saw a demoness through a vision, when I was told I had eyes watching me it was not Xandrials eyes I saw but hers. I need to find out who she is, and why she is interested in me.
I've written to much here, when I finally leave the library, I shall burn these pages...
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« on: November 23, 2005, 09:30:00 pm »
I tried to make potions of barkskin. It said I dont have birch bark but I do.
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« on: October 04, 2005, 08:24:00 pm »
Well I'm off to the seas again. Leaving early tomorrow morning and wont be back till the 16th of November. Have a great time on Layonara everyone and you'll be seeing me again. Farewell for now.
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« on: July 12, 2005, 07:10:00 pm »
title says it all, its been down for over an hour now, how much longer is it expected to be down for. Planned to do a quick little thing with a GM on that server.
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« on: July 08, 2005, 11:16:00 pm »
*a note is posted on the boards of the wild surge, the writting is a fine flowing text with a sky blue color to it*
The Arcane Alliance is going on an expedition to Saudiria to discover its secrets. Were accepting mercinaries to protect our wizards on our study on the secrets we seek, so if your interested contact myself, Lia Di'makiir, and I will give you what details I can of our journey.
//Event is on the player run events on the calendar and will be GM'd by Rhizome at 9:30pm PST, Sunday. I won't be around all day Satureday so if you wish to join the best way to contact me will be via PM on the forums or on this thread.
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« on: June 01, 2005, 06:00:00 pm »
*Written in fine flowing script. The top center of the parchment is written in a Larger script " The Arcane Alliance"* The alliance has finally formed. Are you a wizard or sorceror who feels there is still much for you to learn about your powers and of the world of magic and the weave? We are an organization formed to allow Wizards and Sorcerors of all kinds to work and learn with eachother the ways of the weave, layonara, and places/things beyond. Our tower will be home to a school for wizards and sorcerors, as well as wizards to be. We will have a Library and open resourses to allow wizards to excell in their studies and research. We will help in defending our home, layonara, from those who threaten us.
You can chose any of our four professions within the guild; Lore, Observation, Science and the Planes. These professions will allow our wizards to learn things differently and see things in different views, so ideas can be attacked and argued from different angles; though, you can chose more then one profession if that is what you wish. Your progress will show with a ranking system for your individual profession, as well we will give rewards for your hard work. Our wizards and leaders will assist in anything we can to have our members excell within their capabilities, but to insure that our organization gets return from the wizards we help, we decided that to join you must sign a 10 year contract. If your interested in joining, just contact Elinmire Thel'dinarae, Lia Di'makiir, Tathnolu, Oholibama or Connor Garvill. Who will all gladly explain the different profession for you.
Lia Di'makiir//I also wanted to add something about the "wizards to be" part. As soon as we have our tower and we can train wizards in a school environment, we will ahve a first rank called the student rank, all wizards even lvl 1 ones will be beyond this rank, it will mostly be an NPC thing, but its also in there to allow and RP oppertunity for those who may wish to multiclass into wizards. If our guild accepts you then we will train you in the arcane, allowing you to make that multiclass via RP. I already talked to Leanthar about this and he loves the idea incase any were thinking I should talk to him first  . I also wouldn't mind this being stickied for that very reason, but that will be up to the DM's.
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« on: May 12, 2005, 07:27:00 am »
disconnecting in Halifax now wont be online again till Friday evening, hopefully? I'll try and contact you Zero if there is something wrong and I wont be able to make it to the Wizards guild meeting Satureday morning.
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« on: May 08, 2005, 09:27:00 am »
since I had to take the GM portal from east to west servers because the Great Library portal wouldn't work, my character has had the movement speed decrease on her and I cant get out of it. I can carry 80 pounds and right now I'm carrying 75. I tried casting bulls strength and haste and neither of them have affected my movement speed. I dont have any death effects on me, though I just got out of my death effects about 2 minutes prior to portalling. Hali, who was with me, had the same problem as well when she portalled, I dont know if she still has that problem. Could someone help me out here.
Oh and I just tried resting not too long before I posted this to see if the rest would reset it, it didn't do anything, problem still exists.
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« on: April 24, 2005, 06:00:00 pm »
With the new system, how long does one have to wait to request another CDQ after the previous one is done?
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« on: April 19, 2005, 12:10:00 pm »
*Lia sits daintly on her chair in her personal library. She opens a drawer to the desk infront of her and pulls out a book. The book looks shody, brown in color. It has a symbol in the front of it resembling a sun, covered on the lower left hand side by a crescent moon. The book looks worn like it has been written years ago only to have been used by a deliquent child, but when she opens it it becomes clear that the book was never used, the pages blank. She grabs a quill that looks to have come from the feather of a peacock, dips it in a blue ink, and begins to write*
Autumn Twilight 28th, 1382
It has been awhile since I've written my thoughts on a parchment, since the dissapearance of my previous journals and the incident with the Mistone Alliance. I've no doubt the two are connected. Lately; though, I've found the need to do this, reading has always givin me more peace, perhaps writting could do twice as much.
Peace.
Peace. I cant stop thinking of it, I've tried so hard to control my anger, so that I may control myself when I finally confront the very being who did this to me. I beleive I'm progressing, not to long ago an obsessive man and his immature dwarven freind consistantly taunted and mocked me with the same jouvinile demeanor, I've controled my anger and left them to their dillusional victory. Of what price though, I found myself in a dwarven mercinary camp not to long after it, and I was merciless. I know I still have work to do, but it is hard, the further I delve into this calm state, the more I forget. Forget about other emotions, of who I was before Xandrial. Perhaps that is what he really wanted. Everytime I look into my situation it almost seems there is no way of winning, like he has every corner covered. Perhaps he does.
Perhaps. *a few dots get blotched up after that line as Lia thinks for awhile, tapping the paper with her quill*Perhaps, he doesn't know about the book(*);infact, I'm sure of it. He can't know about it, I feel it is my only escape now, I've spent more then 2 years now studying it, and now I must make the next step, but I fear it, fear it more then anything in the world. Perhaps this is also what he wanted, he has me fear very little, but *more dots blotched here* I cant help fearing.. Moraken, I dread the day I would have to meet him again, for any reason, but now I must seek him again, for the same reason as the last just a different book this time.
The time is comming soon, I will have to be careful with how I approach him, that is if he doesn't wish to kill me on site.
I grow ever so weary.. I wish I could just get this all done and over with already.. so I may die in peace.
// (*) the book- represents and ancient tome Lia, not too long ago gained possetion of. Because of the dissappearance of her other journals, she refers to it as "the book" so if the same incident happens again, noone would know of what book she is refering to and thus, she hopes, won't care.
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« on: September 10, 2004, 09:24:00 am »
We finally caught the witch Lia, but to no avail. The elf is very stubborn, I doubt we will get a word from her. It is unfortunate that they wish her alive, her attitude is getting on my nerves, I had to stop 3 gaurds from killing her today. I thought we could finally be rid of her when we found her journals, but they hold no information on the circlet as well, still I found them interesting. I'm beginning to wonder who we are dealing with. She mentioned in one of her earlier journals an event that happened, a few freinds of hers were playing a little joke, she found it odd though, not the joke itself, but normally she would have laughed, but now, she felt nothing, like she could no longer laugh, then she wondered, life without laughter, wouldn't that sadden a person, but she felt no sadness, she felt nothing, nothing but anger, frustration. What could leade a person to be void of such emotions, where all there is, is anger and frustration. She then wrote "No, I am free now, I can do what I wish, I can feel once again, I will feel once again". Free? From what? I have seen her inact other emotions. I think I understand, from the previous quote, she wants to beleive she can feel, that she has emotions, so she fakes it. Sometimes I think it would be better off to just put her out of her missery, we will find nothing on her anyways, and it seems the only emotions she feels rubs off on people around her as well.
I did find something else interesting though. She spoke of a freind named Kasha, who was pregnant with another freind of hers. Somehow this brought joy to her, family, children. Suddenly she realized what this joy was comming from. Her own family, she somehow completely forgot about her family like they didn't even exist, until this very moment. 10 pages long she wrote about them, so to never forget again, and hopefully feel the same joy everytime she looks at it, but in later recordings, I found out she did not. Her family, she had 4 brothers and 3 sisters. She was the youngest in the family and her father loved her dearly, some would say the most, which I found odd, for she never knew her mother for she died giving birth to Lia. Maybe its because she reminds her father of her mother. They lived in a community called SunnyDale out on another plane then Layonara. SunnyDale was a combined town of SunnyGrove and CloverDale after the alliance between man and elf, it became an elven and man community. Her father was a successful merchant and exported his materials by sea to many cities. Lia went on many voyages with him and learned much about sailing and navigation. She became a student in the best school in Sunnydale and learned magic there, she never wanted to harm people so she practiced Enchantments more closely, funny how some people change so quickly. She also studied fencing with her magical practices, she loved the finesse of the art compared to the brutal tactics used with many of the other weapons. Something happened though, a civil war was waged and all men sought out to kill every elf in the town. To protect her, her father had her change her name to her mothers maiden name, dyed her hair red and had her sail off, she hasn't seen them since.
End story. Well I'm not the best story writer, but this does what I want it to do, give you some good info about my character, but not too much there are many secrets in this.
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