Alnusa Glutinosa journal

Finalies mes has decideds to start a journal.  Mes is goings to write about mes life as mes has arrived in Layonara.

January 26, 2005 - 7:30 pm

Mes arrival in Hlint was very good, sense mes meets a good friend named Tedulas.  Mes calls him Teddy.  Hes showeded mes around the town, mades it less confusings for mes.  Layonara bes a very big place!  

Mes has dieded enough to nevers wants to die again...

But anyways, mes gettings very use to Hlint.  Mes met some peoples, who mes traveled with muches.  Mes becames a much better ranger, and helps much of people.  Just the other day, mes and some friends traveled to the mountains... mes cants recall there name... and mes gots a bottle of something that a person losts.  Wes killeded lots of ogres, and the lady was very happies.  Mes felt very good for helpings her.

Mes alsos lately have beens training in makings stuff out of wood.  Mes cant makes my owns arrows and bows.  Mes eventually plans on makings a livings out of its.  

Mes really wants to train to become an arcane archer.  Mes deffinatly would bes good at it.  Mes can shoots arrows really strait and hard.  Mes could defend lots of peoples with this skill and wants to help peoples with its reallys bad.

*rumeges through pack and finally finds journal*  Ahh mes almost forgots about yous

So for in the past few days mes has mades a couple trips to dregar.  These have been with dom, gleadr, shrubbery, endular, one with daemon, and umm... Mes cants members who else.  *tear spot on page* mes almost fell over in some caves theres.  Wes was walkings on a bridge, and mes was abouts to falls.  Daemon grabbed mes though and saved mes life... Thank you Daemon...

So anyways, mes gots some goods practice with mes bow, and soon will bes makings mes own oak long bows.  When wes downs theres, *another tear spot*  Dom died!  Theys gots hims ands... mes thoughts hes was gones for evers...  He cames back thoughs! and wes all gots out alives!


So now to todays...  Todays was the best day ever... So mes once again has been sleepings in the inn and mes told azaria this, and she bes givings mes a key to the house in harmony grove!  Mes wills finallies haves mes own room!  Mes loves Azaria!  O and mes cants forgets Roxx.  It bes Roxez old room that mes bes takings.  Hes givings it to mes!  Uhh now onlies ifs one more things could happens, that mes knows cants... That would bes greats...

*rumages through pack finding journal faster then last time*
Right brigh in the mornings, mes decided mes wanted to climb a tree.... Mes fell once, and decided to tree again.  Mes gots highs the second times! Real highes! and then mes slipt of the branch and landed on mes head...  Mes couldnt walk, except when mes needed to try to run to the well to vomit, and, mes just didnt feels to goods.  Thens a stupid faire had to show up and just makes mes day so much worse...  That night though, mes and Azaria sat at the lake, ands, it was nice.  *laughs* mes got a good nap on her lap and wes talked somes... It bes very nice.  Later thats night to Talon showed up, and mes founds out that wes maybeys goings to create a crafting guild!  Mes was so happies that mes tackled Talon in the lake not realizing thats she had her new dress ons and she gots a little angry, but it was funs...

Later mes went to dregar.  Wes gots some menataurs goods mes gots a new pet... He bes a diar wolf.  Mes not likes leolaka much anymore... He scared mes goods!  Endualar died and mes gots said and said he dead... and Leos bes maybey he reallys not exist.  And mes said "Yes he does!"  In thens he said maybeys no one exist... and mes sais "Yes we does!"  Me means, how can no ones exist...Mes


Mes laters went for a swim in the water in port hamshire.  Azaria was theres but wouldnts come in the water... Didn't want to ruin her clothes... So mes just splashed hers.

Wes went to Rilara thoug and... Talon dieds twice! *tear drop on paper* and everyone else dies to!  Wes all had the fealings wes was goings to go bads, and it dids!  mes just wishes... mes just wishes wes never wents...  Those dams walking bears, they got us good....

So mes has had a problem latelys...  As mes walks into the house that Azaria has given mes in Harmony grove, mes always gets this weird fealings.  Like somethings is wrongs, and mes cant picks it out.  *scractches head* maybeys it has somethings to do with the families that has now been brokens?  Mes just cants pick it outs and... mes needs to talk to Az about it... Maybeys she has been feelings its to?

*pounds fists into the dirt under tree and hits a root and yelps*  Mes just cants figures its outs, but somethings not rights! Somethings that needs to be fixed!  Somethings that if mes figures it out, mes cant fix on mes owns!  Somethings... needs to happens, because somethings is wrongs and it needs to be solved befores it gets to to many peoples!  

It bes almost likes... somethings is taking aways the lifes of peoples...  Like somethings peoples bes dependings ons, is takings aways their heart, theres souls, theres... emotions... everythings!  Mes cant figures outs what it bes though! Maybeys it bes some sort of addiction?  *looks down* mes just cants figures this outs...

*Sits on a bench at his favorite spot to think and pulls out his journal*

So mes has finallies found hope...  *Thinks a bit bout his and azarias conversation*

Mes thankfulls theres still peoples out theres that understands, and not just mes...  There bes stills hopes thats all wills once again becomes whole, and the evils bes gones.  *repeately writes* mes can dos this... mes can dos this... *finally shouts Mes can dos this!*

Alls wills becomes goods again.  Mes firsts needs to finds Glenn... Or him finds mes... and wes can begins fixings what has happens to peoples...  Mes now sees it in thems, theys no cares enoughs about what once was... theys no cares about themselves... Wes can fix this thoughs!  Things wills becomes fixeds!

*Sits under a tree in fort hope and watchen a little kid run by*

So mes mades a news freinds todays!  Her name bes Andarielle... She bes really prettys, and mes would likes to spend more times with hers.  *says to self, mes thinks mes could end up liking hers... lots*

Wes got chased bys an army of orcs tryings to helps someones reach their graves in em grey peaks.  Wes killed ems all those *smiles*  Andarielle bes good with a bow...  Anyways mes hopes to sees hers much mores!

*sits north of hlint in the forests thinking over the conversation him and azaria had*

Mes nows realizes, everythings of the world is livings in some ways or farm.  Everythings haves a spirit and its own thoughts.  Everythings lives, evens this rock mes bes ons, it alls lives.  Mes has always in some ways believed this, but Azaria has helped mes realize how the worlds reallys bes arounds us.  Mes not feels the needs to write what else was said between mes and hers, but mes nows feels a sort of greater purpose in the world.  Mes first needs to satisfy mes basic needs, thens once mes bes comfortables, everythings else matters.  From there on outs, what mes loves comes firsts, then everythings else, then mes.

Mes needings to bes comfortable made mes things, does mes reallys bes comfortables.  The answer bes nos...  Mes bes lonelies, mes needs someones whose mes can holds ontos tight when mes scared, and kiss and hug when mes happys.  Mes needs to finds this person, and mes feels maybeys the worlds nots wants this, but mes needs its.  Maybeys thats right persons just has not been reavieled to mes, mes not knows, but mes knows mes needs someones...

*rips a page out of journal and wipes tears off of face*

Mes killed azaria todays... wells mes didnt kills hers but mes caused it.  Mes carelessness brangs ems to hers ands... mes hates watchigns hers dies!  Mes knows this because, mes took a visit to the soul mother todays... She tolds its!  Why shes dos what she does!  Whys shes has so much hatred!  *sighs* Whys does she dos this...

Mes has been thinkings even mores... About what Az told mes...  Mes is begginings to sees the patterns and wells... cares mores about everythings...  At first mes wonders whys buts, mes thinks mes understands...  Once ones becomes intouch with the feelings of alls, yous cant helps but cares about its alls.  Even the ground mes walks ons, mes cant helps but feels for its and what bes dones to its...  Everythings bes different nows, nothings wills ever bes the same...

*sits at his favorite spot near leiloon on a bench looking into the distant water*

Mes would likes to leaves agains... onlys fors a few days, but mes would reallys likes to trys to figures some things outs... Mes would likes more companies then Diaz thoughs...  

*Looks ups* mes reallys needs to havs a word with hers.  No ones can bes evils for just no reasons.  No ones is just bads just for the sake of beings bads... She has to haves a purpose, and mes needs to understands whys.  Mes needs to uderstands why she steal the souls of so manys importants to mes...

*smiles* mes had a fun times with vesath's kitty todays.  That kitty bes quite strongs and fasts!  Mes couldnt keeps ups to its, but it stills had funs with mes and mes was glads to haves hims theres.  He made mes feals much betters todays

Mes has mades great progress todays in mes thoughts and struggles.  Wether she knows its or nots, Azaria has givens mes somewheres to base mes observations ons.  Of course this could easilies change, but for nows what she has told mes wills bes whats mes compares all mes finds tos.

But why she nots feals bads.  Hows can yous not feels bads for thoughs thats you still.  Yous bes stealings souls, and eventuallys their lives, and yets dos yous not cares?  Dos yous not cares what happens to ems?  How can yous nots cares?!

*smiles and quickly rights down his thoughts*  

Mes so happys Vesath decided he wants to joins us.  Wes wents and gots a bunk bed todays and nows he wills bes sleepings right below mes!  Mes hopes he learns to bes able tos trusts us thoughs, mes thinks he knows hes cans, he just likes to bes independent its seems.

*sighs*

Mes likes hims much, and mes wants to bes goods friends with hims.  He seems to bes a better mans then mosts, and mes hopes tos bes ables to feels of hims as a brother.  

*laughs* wes gots in a quarrel with somes dire spiders.  Mes was gettings somes oak woods and hes was with mes, and hes didnts realize ems dire spiders weres just littel ways aways and rans right into thems.  Hes had ems all arounds hims, and looked likes hes was about to dies.  Mes ran overs to through him a potion and jumps right ins the middles of ems spiders so hes hads a chance to runs, but hes put himself and mes invisible.  Mes thanked hims for savings mes life, and mes still shivers at the thoughts ofs ems spiders prickings mes tos mes death.

*pulls out his journal while siting under a tree in hlint*

*tear marks* Roxx is gone... How... How could this happens?  Why it haves to bes hims?!  
He no deserves this!  He bes such a good person and yets, she had to choose hims...  She had to choose the ones that mattered so much to so manys.  She had to hurts so many peoples...

Does she enjoy hurtings us?  Is it fun for hers to watch the pain everyones gos through?  

How can someones bes filleds with so much evil and hatred that theys would dos somethings likes this!  How coulds someones takes aways someones so importants!  Roxx has beens so goods to mes and so manys, and yets, she just makes hims bes gones... Wells mes wills shows hers!  Mes nows has made mes mind about hers...  Mes no longers questiones hers intentions.  She bes evils and deserves to bes dead.  

Mes wills nevers thinks of hers the sames...