Author Topic: Journal of a drow (Zanirth's) (Read 2229 times)

Niles09 · « **Reply #20 on:** January 14, 2006, 10:38:00 AM »

- Lellion

So I made an expedition to Dregar. I, Menidar, a hafling named Thorn, Ash andd Storold went. The first few battles outside Hurm were very hard, but I learned a lot, and we got deeper into the land.
I don’t know whether I shall cry or be in joy. The place we entered had been a wood, but hill after hill were only covered with stubs. I went in fury. It was ogres that had done it, and so we killed them, none of them should survive! First we killed their footsoldiers. Then this guy named Brualot came by. He was a follower of Katia and said the nature suffered in many other places. So now Ive finally found an exact goal, a way to repay nature for saving me from a destiny worse death. I must stop the this madness, even though I’m far from power. We killed a lot other ogres, some of the really strong ones. I hate this race now… This hate, last I felt it was when I talked with the paladin, should I calm down? No! I don’t care, they destroyed nature and so they will pay, no matter what it will cost me

Niles09 · « **Reply #21 on:** January 20, 2006, 08:17:28 AM »

- Sielwood

So much have happened lately. Suddenly Ive just been to the Haven mines several times in a row, in the company of Vestlyn usually and some others. Ive met Vestlyn some weeks ago in Hlint, but this was the first time we adventured together and in a few days, Ive really began to know him, as Isilme and Eamane. He is a cleric of Ilsara, actually we went to the great libraray together to learn more about those dieties.
Oh yes Eamane! She is alive, not in the underdark, Isilme got a letter from her. Actually someone faced the soulmother so Ayla is alive again! It is such a nice thing to be able to talk with her again.

Niles09 · « **Reply #22 on:** February 02, 2006, 01:52:12 PM »

- Sielwood

What a fool I was! I walked from the path I should follow, I threatened the woodlands and its creatures as second, because of a human. A human that feels nothing! argh! how stupid Ive been! I know my path now, I am a servant of the woods and nothing comes before that.

Niles09 · « **Reply #23 on:** February 02, 2006, 01:57:04 PM »

- Sielwood

So a lot have happened. Im getting familiar with Dregar now, Eamane, Isilme, Storold or Taislin makes excellent company. I keep my weapons clean and sharp, Ive gotten fire on my sword and Isilme has made me an excellent shield, not to mentoin the ring Eamane gave me. My tactics are going better, and my ability to see the outcome at first. Business is going excellent too.

I havent seen Spugle for ages now.. I hope he is ok, whereever he is, he will always be in my mind.

Niles09 · « **Reply #24 on:** February 14, 2006, 01:46:21 AM »

- Karthy

So alot have happened lately. First of all my training! After being on Dregar several days with Eamane and Isilme I began to be really good at hitting those soft spots, not to mentien rolling around... Heh heh Eamane just thought it looked funny, but it was useful, if I hadnt rolled between it legs that giants axe would surely had hit me. Im also finally fit enough to use my panther leather.
I've met alot of people before that. Moste noticed was some Jin Jun Lee and Mille. Jin was appereantly a very serious healer. First he ask me if Im evil, and I answer ofcourse I am, though he didnt see teh funny in that. Later he said sorry and would shake hands? Mille is a brownie, she is very small. I helped her getting some goblin ears, ofcourse, she is a creature of the woodlands and so I should help her, not that I wouldnt have helped her if she wasnt.

Niles09 · « **Reply #25 on:** February 15, 2006, 04:14:24 PM »

- Sielwood

On Dregar I stubled into Ael, who told me he was going to some signup for a infiltration unit against blood. I asked him wehter it was under the queen, he didnt know but it was under the authoritiess. There would be yet another meeting some weeks later, so I decided to wait until that to think about things. I will not fight for the queen or king or whomever. They put the nature under the pitty plays of lords and barons, and their laws make everything into money. On the other hand, Ive seen what bloods generals have done to the forest on Dregar, and I must stop it no matter the costs.
So, some weeks later, I told the sarge that was going to lead the secret operative that the woodlands comes first to me, but so long we didnt cross it, I will stay loyal to the operative. Isilme and Eamane was there too, but some stupid elf racist called Yard scared them away... Im not looking forward to working together with him. Kobal, on the other hand, was unusually wellbehaving. He said sorry that he had knocked me down in the woods, and leaved me unconcious, as we later was splitted into two teams playing wargames, he spoked well of my ability to sneak and my keen sight, that spotted both Kloss and Ferrit as they sneaked into our camp.

Niles09 · « **Reply #26 on:** February 18, 2006, 03:16:08 AM »

- Sielwood

Isilme showed me the house she and Eamane had bought. She said it was a nice location, so I said yes, because of the sea just outside the house. It was no that, instead it was because Eamane liked to be near the Krandor crypts.... That was surely disturbing, but it got worse. In the house Eamane got her own room to magic, and in a corner there were a big pile of skulls! Isilme didnt worry she would love Eamane no matter what. Then Eamane came home. I couldnt really talk to her in a normal tone anymore, and she obviously noticed that. Her and Isilme went to talk private, while I grow to feel worse and worse waiting in her training room. When they had finished talking I decided to leave, I need some fresh air.

I couldnt act normal when I later met Eamane in Hlint, and she knew that. So she told me about why she had decided to walk the way of a palemaster and wield the cursed forces, a dicgrace to life and nature. Her past was a innocent living among elven parents, not her real parents ofcourse. She was at some point captured, and tortured for thirty years. In these years and old fellow prisoner learned her the ways of magic, but he was a palemaster. He later freed her, and since then she have wanted to meet him again. And as she says, she wants to follow his link to find him. Oh dear she promised me that she wont become evil, but goodness, what promise is that. Evil is something that slowly creeps unto you. She said Isilme would guide her, and what a guide! Isilme told me herself that if Eamane turned into a demon she would still love her. She then said her true friends would help her, havent I tried so far?! Have many times havent I said killing isnt fun, and right at that spot I tried to convince her not to be a palemaster. She just said she need to use her gifts.
But that is not how things works. Im a daughter of a very powerful cleric, but nature, I would never ever walk such a way, even if I should have talent. Though I cant say all this doesnt make me wonder about myself...

Niles09 · « **Reply #27 on:** February 18, 2006, 09:07:49 AM »

- Haven
I met Mille again, the little brownie. She was very exited about a map she had made, showing the apple trees on Dregar. She told me she had tryid to map fort blood, but a demon saw her. To hide her better I gave her my panther cloak, she will bring it to better us than I. It could be interesting to map fort Blood, maybe the sarge would be happy for such a map, unless he already got enough.
Mille asked a lot about the ways of shadows, walking in the shadows she said, refering to the legendary shadowdancers. Im nearly there, The ability to tumble and roll around is the final step I took, with a bit more practice, my enemies wont even be able to spot me when I hide right in front of them.
Hmm what Eamane said makes me wonder. It doesnt matter wether you kill the beast head to head, or by stealth, it will die anyway that at least was my opinion. Is Eamane's way just another way of reaching a goal? But her way requires the death of someone, since she uses bones, Ive seen that myself. I dont hurt anyone else than those that I train to protect myself from, by my way. And shadows, they dont have a mind, Im just using a good ability that doesnt hurt anyone...
Which again makes me wonder, where do I have it from? My mother was far from being a sneaker, and just because my skin is dark like the shadows, doesnt give me that groundbraking advantage. Could my father possible be like me? I mean, my mother was utterly evil, so I must also have gotten my, at least better mind, from somewhere else.... Zanirth! dont be romantic! *The last ends in a spot of ink*

Niles09 · « **Reply #28 on:** February 19, 2006, 07:19:21 AM »

- Sielwood
For everyday I get stronger with the sword, my power of stealth grows. Today I used them completly. Garnet had told me to kill the lizardking. Since that I had assembled several groups to go and get him. We always ended up retreating with several casulties, not even with Isilme and Eamane could we fight us through the moors into the lizardking. Today I decided to go alone. I simply sneaked past everyone of the kings guards, and found him. Noone saw me. Next step: I found a good spot and placed several traps there, I dont think any of them could kill them, but he would surely be wounded. After that I summoned one of the creatures of the woodlands. By carefully picking the right time, I provoked, with my bow, the lizardking to come and get me. My summon distracted him, so I could get some hits in on some very soft spots. It was a bit dissapointing. He feld even before my summon died, and so I never got to trick him into the traps. But oh well, then Ill use my traps another time!
It was a glorious moment. Garent told me to kill the lizardking, and so I did, but only him, no enomios slaughter of his guards (when I succeded ofcourse), just my target. Call it a assassination, but I dont see what is wrong with it. It was a perfect use of my skills, and only one got killed.

Niles09 · « **Reply #29 on:** February 20, 2006, 07:36:55 AM »

- Storans Crypt

After the succesful assisanation of the lizardking I went for Storans crypt, just to have a quick look. Strangely all the doors where opened, and the place was deserted of undead. I found the key to the last chamber and went to lock it up. Unfortunatly it didnt disarm the trap on the door, and like in the moors, my body was restored back in Hlint. Eamane came by, and asked to help. She turned me invisibly and we went back to the crypt, just to realize, that where there where no door before, one had appeared. I have been here before many years ago, and remembered some keys we needed. Eamanes familiar fixed the lock to the other room and I got in. The key, however, was hold by a skeleton, surrouned by a half army of undead. I went back to the door, but it was locked! I desperatly shouted for Eamane, but she couldnt open it. I went to the farest cornor in the room, and soon the invisibility went out. Soon I heard Eamane open the door, and I sneaked for it. The trap however, had weakened my body, and I was not yet fully restored, so the undead saw me. In the confusion that followed I got away, back into the room. But I was trapped now.
I stayed hidden in the corner for was must have been days for now. Earlier today, I noticed the undead had left, only a few weak was back. I even got restored, as I rested, when they where in another cornor of the room. Then I cleared it of undead. I took the key from the burning skeleton, but it didnt fit the door. Desperatly Ive tried to bash the door down, but I cant.. Im trapped here, and my water is running out!

Niles09 · « **Reply #30 on:** February 21, 2006, 08:38:28 AM »

- out in the sun

After being trapped in Storans for over a week, I had almost lost any hope of getting out alive. But then as I just had fought a group of shades, the door clicked. I didnt thought my own ears, but I just needed to check. The door was unlocked! I standed a moment wondering who had opened it... Then I ran so fast as I could to the exit. As I got out of the crypt, I kissed the ground and cried ot the skies.

Ive almost forget, how its like to be trapped in darkness.. Never shall I forget how lucky I am, being able to see the blessed moon, the smell of life in the forest, the living plants the world breathing! Even the sun is a blessing.

Though these days again made me wonder about Eamane. From my hide Ive seen the shades of men, Ive seen the most ubholy and evil twist of a life, and it deeply disgust me! How can Eamane be facinated by this!

I went away as fast as possible, I didnt want to stay in Hlint, but instead I sailed to the great forests on Rilara to find some peace.

Niles09 · « **Reply #31 on:** February 25, 2006, 04:01:49 AM »

- Sielwood

When has Isilme stopped caring?? Things are going mad now, if Eamane is allright then the world is alright, thats how she acts, she dont care anymore, nomatter what way Eamane takes Isilme things its right. I told her Eamane had said, that so long she had friends to keep her on the right track she would be ok as a palamaster, but Isilme dont care! I said to Isilme that then maybe I should start following my veins and become a priestess of Vierdiira, and thenshe laughed and said "if you must". That is not fun, if I ever should follow that way, hopefully someone would kill me. Isilme doesnt care about right or wrong anymore, do she think its right if you follow your own selfish goals? Goodness.

Niles09 · « **Reply #32 on:** February 26, 2006, 02:50:54 AM »

- Sielwood

I finally set down at talked with Eamane, I tried to give her my view of things. I said that the difference between good and evil was in acting, evil was selfish acting, and good was thinking of others. I said that both kinds could have the same goal, but the way to get there where different. The evil was faster, though it would be at teh cost of others, while the good was longer, but in the long run ti would be better. Then I said that sometimes Eamane and Isilme act like selfish little girls, cause they only talk about following your nature... I said that, that was what goodness is about, placing bounds on yourself for the sake of others. Eamane said I didnt have to worry but goodness, then she said Isilme will be ok so long Chanda guides her to Corath. So I asked who Corath was.... Bloody the god of descrution! I nearly shouted at Eamane saying that she didnt have heard anything that Ive said, but she said Isilme woulndt turn evil! Are they blind! Do they think they only can serve a god of evil, by only killing evil things in passion?! What will they do the day Corath tells them to wipe a village?! I asked Eamane the same question as I asked Isilme, should I then follow my veins, and become a priestess of Vierdiira, should I sacrifice my won children, cause that is what followers of Vierdiira and Corath does: incredibly evil things to make missery and hatred. Eamane said... bloody if it wasnt because I had led bound on myself I might have attacked her.. I dont know what to do, its beginning to be too late.
I went to the great library, and that only maked things worse as I discovered exactly what Corath expects of his followers.
Im beginning to loose trust in Isilme, I cant swing a sword side by side with such a person.

Niles09 · « **Reply #33 on:** February 27, 2006, 12:04:58 PM »

- Sielwood

A group of adventures assembled and I was with them. We needed to destroy some powerful orb. Ozy explained that it could be done by overloading it. E would do that by cathcing a demon in it, and so far I remember some lich would also die in the process. We went to some caves in grey peaks. It was cursed and dark. We fought alot of undead, nature Ive come to hate them now. First after we had went deep into the mountain I realized I had gotten ill or cursed. We went on though and catched the demon. We will soon throw the orb into a vulkan and destroy it, when Ozy have located a good position.
This curse is bad. Makes me dizzy and all the coughting is disturbing. I hope we soon can get it finished.

Niles09 · « **Reply #34 on:** February 28, 2006, 08:17:32 AM »

*While the other pages are written in beautiful and elegant writing, the following part is written in a shattered writing with many spots of ink*

- Sielwood

The forest is still beautiful, the leaves are still falling down in many colours, and the sharp sun makes it a symphony of fire, yet there wont go long before the trees stand naked and the forests are quite like a grave... It wasn’t supposed to turn out like this.

I can feel it deep inside me, not the curse, no its that old familiar feeling. There have gone many years since the few cases in which I had it for maybe a day, but now it wont go. I don’t know who I hate anymore, maybe that’s why it keeps being there.

In the underdark I never got used to the sacrifices, even though my mother did it to me as far as I can remember. Every time that one or two or tree or many times in a month the guards came I screamed and cried. I hated them all, my mother, the guards, the sadistic priestesses, my people and Vierdi'ira. I never cried for mercy, cause I didnt know such a thing existed.

When I got away after a hundred years I fast learned to love goodness and kindness. I found out that mercy was an incredible strong thing, even though many have died for my bow or sword, I’ve always felt remorse, except when I killed the ogres in Iron Hills. I've learned how precious, how unique life is. Only a very few times since the underdark have I felt the hate.

Now it is here, I sense it inside me, waiting.

I talked with Sabrissa, she was very worried too. I’m happy Im not alone to feel that. She nearly couldn’t believe they have joined Corath *big ink spot*. We couldn’t do anything. I said that at least I wouldn’t follow them into the darkness, yet I feel like they are dragging me down into the hole.

*this spot bears traces from tears* I told about Chanda, Sabrissa had heard it before. She thought that it was she that killed Vestlyn...

I didn’t know he was dead. Even though he was after others as well we had something. I will find out if Chanda did it, and if she did I have yet another name to add to my list, yet another life to take. Goodness I hate that woman.

I gave Isilme some papers about Corath, a last hope that she would see the madness but she didnt. Eamane didn’t care either.

I dont know who it is, Chanda, Eamane, Isilme, Corath, Singrathe or Vierdi'ira, but I feel the hate burning.

Niles09 · « **Reply #35 on:** March 01, 2006, 06:59:49 AM »

- Sielwood

Im growing worse, it was quite a shock I got starring into the pond this morning... The feeling inside is still there.
Yet I see hope, its not too late to stop this madness that have fallen over Eamane and Isilme. I've gotten a plan, it will be risky and I dont know where I might end myself, I must be strong. I will do this for them.

I prayed to the forces of goodness this night, that they will aid me in my journey into the dark.

Niles09 · « **Reply #36 on:** March 03, 2006, 08:53:49 AM »

- Sielwood

All that work, all that risk and I am where I started. I sent a letter to Ozy, not even mentoining that some of my friends joined Corath, but he figured it out and talked with Eamane before I could talk with him.
Eamane told me this, and said she would join Corath, even though Ozy had mentoined other ways. So much for the great plan and the prayers. Eamane still dont belive that Corath would slaughter innocents if he got the chance, and it tires me. Ive givin up explained more about good and evil and how sick Corath is, fine may that be her way, but not mine. Should she ever kill an innocent our ways will depart, and thats finale.
And what?! The hate is still there, everything is just great! *The last bears marks of the book being shut to fast for the ink to be dry*

Niles09 · « **Reply #37 on:** March 03, 2006, 05:13:06 PM »

- Krandor

If I cared I would cry.

First I got mad add someone that have killed a panther, without knowing completly why... Then I talked with Brenden about my anger, I still fought at that time, but then Isilme and Eamane came by. They had marked their bodies with marks. I said I would give a world to get my own off... Isilme said it was none of my business, and Eamane asked why I cared? I asked if I should care, should she get swallowed by a demon. A few weeks ago, I would have argued on, trying to say that friends care for eachother, that is what makes them friends. But why do I care? Why should I care about anything. Isilme went off for a moment, saying to Eamane that if I maked trouble she should call... So much for being friends.
A short moment I remembered times ago when we wandered across Dregar, being a team, being friends. It is all lost, Im lost and I dont care.

Niles09 · « **Reply #38 on:** March 06, 2006, 06:25:04 AM »

- Somewhere on Dregar

First I got really angered by my last meeting with Isilme and Eamane. How dared they! Ive cared for them as a friend, bringing myself to the egde, going on even though some most unfunate feelings was winning ground inside me. Bloody I'm beginning to get enough of them.
Eamane then come by and said sorry. I dont know with her. Sometimes I still see what made us friends in the past, sometimes I dont. Isilme.. I dont know she acting range from a nod to hostile. Im beginning to get enough of this, why should I even care about them anymore? They arent the same as I once befriended.
I really miss Spugle and Taislin. Its a very long time Ive seen any of them. I really hope they are ok.
Im returning to the woods for now. Ive gotten enough of so called "intelligent beings"

Niles09 · « **Reply #39 on:** March 09, 2006, 12:44:55 PM »

- Sielwood

I was getting tired of things.. The last months have been nothing but talking and shouting. I havent really seen how Isilme or Eamane act yet. So I decided to change way. I would know how things are when Ive done what we did back, I would go on adventure with them.
Unfortunate they acted rather undfriendly to me. Goodness, I have been mad they way they acted before, but this time I decided to swallow it, and insted of defending myself, do something Ive never done before, and bow to their words. I just wanted to go on adventure, maybe that would change things. Though it never ended up in anything.
That hate is still there, but its like its hold down for the moment, now it just feels a bit hollow.