Sy'Ravenne: The Journey of a Wild Heart

[Evil Dad]

Autumn twilight is all but over.  This passing moon has see many changes.

The dreams of the dragon, were not just dreams, I was called to a town called Hlint to help.  I was weak, lost and without equipment.  I made my way along a road, and found this town.  It was quieter than I imagined a town to be.

I have met many people and had many adventures.  Too many for me to write down, as I hate this written word so much.  It is the only way to record what has happened to me.  I hope you reading this can understand my words.

First few weeks have been spent running errands and fighting creatures like rats, skeletons and goblins.  I have visited fort llast and krandor.  More errands!  I have started going out with parties on mining trips to the goblin caves and sielwood forest.  They bash away at their rocks and I bash away at the monsters.  It all works very well!  

Shelu and Ayla have both been very helpful to me.  Shelu especially.  She is a dear elf.  Affectionate and friendly.  She makes you feel cared for and safe.  There is a warrior Jet.  He has also been good to me and has help me gain some experience in using my weapon.

I have met Glokk the half-ogre.  He seemed a bit scary at first and I was ready to bash him, but then I saw he was carrying a tamborine.  We have become good friends.  He often comes out on trips with me and helps me.  He has promised to sing his badger song for me.  He is going to be in a band!

[Evil Dad]

Autumn Dark

Ishara is a strange creature.  A tiefling I think she said.  She is stunning and has been a bad influence on me.  She has shown me all about clothes.  How to change what I am wearing so as it fits better.  I prefer not wearing too much as it allows me to move much better.

Jet has offered to teach me to use the katana.  It is a fine blade, but it might need more skill than i can give it.  My upbringing is more just about bashing the enemy as hard as you can.  He has agreed to make me a bronze scimitar.  I know it will be a fine weapon.  I like the scimitar, it has a good feel about it and isn't so formal as the longsword that all these high elves use.

I have visited haven mines with a party that wanted to get some iron.  It was good ogre bashing, but they were tough.  I am still growing as a fighter and soon I think I will be able to bash these ogres harder and quicker.  The keep at haven is having some problems with these ogres and would like me to bring them the head of the leader as proof.  So far, they have proved too tough on the lower levels.

My current armour isn't as useful as i had hoped.  It seems to get attention from the males and doesn't protect me like it should.  I will have to get some made.  Where is a half-giant when you need one? Glokk has agreed to make some iron scalemail.  If it is anything like the shield, it will be truly great.

Me, Jet and Corsan went to sielwood for some mining and to hunt ogres and boars.  It was great sport!  

Rangers Vale has made me think of what lies ahead. I have told Jet and Corsan of my wish to become a bard of sorts.  They looked surpirsed, but did not laugh.  I did tell them of my doubts though, as the bards I have met in town are not what I would become.  I would rush into battle singing glorious songs to rally my tribe.  But I am having doubts.  Since travelling with Jet and the others I have appreciated the more skilled arts of fighting.  I have also seen Rangers and Druids at work.  I feel the bond with my father stronger now and maybe I will work closer with nature as he does.  So many thoughts!

Glokk tried to make me some armour in iron, but broke it hitting it too hard.  He did find me a very nice wolfs armour.  A fine leather suit, but as yet i do not feel the skill to wear it as i should.  I will keep it safe until I can master it.  I still want a Glokk special armour though.  Jet had finished my blade, a fine bronze scimitar.  A fine weapon it is, with a keen blade.  I really look forward to when he is working in iron, that would be a truly great blade.

Met Jet again, with Ishara, Ayla and another lady.  He did look out of place.  He told us of his armour, but wouldnt talk anymore in the open.  Me, Jet and Ayla went into the inn.  We talked for ages and Jet told us his life's tale.  Truly a tragic story, but he has come out of it very well.  He has promised revenge.  I have offered my services when he seeks this revenge.  The final fight will be his alone, but this man he will face will have many companions and I will aid as best I can.  I made a scene at the inn.  One of those ruffians kept staring at me, so I challenged him and Jet stepped in to help.  We left before things got to out of hand.  What must Ayla and Jet think of me?

I went hunting and found myself in a place called the rolling plains.  Had sport with kobolds, skunks and kenku.  I stopped at lake Ilbnoune for a spot of fishing.  I am still not very good at it, but I do like fish.

Jet gave me a bronze longsword to try out as I have yet to decide on my weapon.  I like the scimitar, it has a primal feel to it, but the longsword has good balance.

I travelled to the greypeak mountains with Jet, for a spot of ogre hunting.  More good sport!  Some of them are quite tough.  Jet told me he had a house in Lar and would I like to visit it?  Of course!  It is quite a dangerous route to Lar.  We had to go high in the greypeaks and try to bypass more ogres and some ogre mages.

Met a funny dwarf by the name of Fifur.

Ozymandias Llewellyn, what a complex fellow? I met him today and asked him how his card readin went.  We had to go into the craft hall, as the light was hurting his eyes.  Shelu joined us.    We, well mainly Ozy, discussed the faits and how we really get no real choice in what happends to us.  It was very interesting and I did manage to understand bits of it.  He also told me the highlights of his life, which was fascinating.  He is an ... er ... enigma.  I made a decision and asked Ozy if he would guide and mentor me in the bardic arts.  There are many things about that man I like and what better teacher?

A surprise, Glokk is playing at the Leilon arms.  I accompanied Glokk and spugile to Leilon as I did not know where it was.  I am looking forward to his performance...

[Evil Dad]

Winter Snow

I finally got to see Glokk perform.  What an experience.  He is quite the singer.  Before Glokk had gone on, he gave me a mandolin so I could practice.  I met Ozy just outside Leilon.  In his wisdom he suggested I started with something like a tamborine.  I think I will and I am going to try and make it myself.

Corsan, Pendar, Ishara and me venuted into Sielwood.  They all had something they wanted to mine.  Killed some spiders, kobolds and cubes.  It was great sport.  We then made our way back to hlint.  We met up with some newcomers in need of help, so down into the goblin caves.  More sport!

Corsan gave me a weaponn he had made and kept his eyes on me the whole trip.  I did encourage him, which was wrong of me.  I did have my heart set on another warrior, but Corsan is a fine young man.  You never know.

It was just me and Ishara left.  I discovered Ishara was a druid of Xeen.  Very unuseal as most priests are actual clerics.  Me and Ishara decided to visit Leilon together.  Ishara was showing another route to go by, when we ambushed by some goblins.  These were real mean and strong.  We both lost our lives and ended up back in Hlint again.  We made our way to Leilon, just as the inn was closing.  Derrick offered offered us a drink and would lend his sword so we could claim revenge.  What a fantastic warrior.  Quick, powerful, skilled.  Everything I could wish to be.  Ishara showed her skills as druid, by keeping me alive and changing to a bear when needed.  Both good allies to have, but fearsome foes.  She is a most beautiful and stunning creature.  If only I had been born a man!

Being in battle with Derrick and Ishara has reminded me what is good about being a warrior.  Will I become a bard of sorts?  I really dont know again.  I need more time to reflect.  I have seen many rangers and druids of late and all have been very capable warriors.  Rangers vale is one of my favorite places and I feel some sort of bond there.  Maybe, this will be my path?  It would please my father if I followed his path.

Fifur was in trouble and needed some help. We went to the goblin caves and later to sielwood.  He is another one that likes to mine.  We met up with Tedulas and his party.  We went gnoll and ogre bashing.  Then into the caves so they could do some mining.  I collected some stirge feathers and have tried to make some arrows.

Jet has repeated his offer to teach me the katana.

I arrived at fort hope and met up with Jet and Glokk.  They were off with some other adventurers to help some gnome deliver something.  I went along for the company and to see more of this land.  Journeyed to far reach forest.  So many things happened that i do not really understand.  An elf made us promise to keep secret, but she is dead now.  There was darkness, a rift of sorts, shadows came poring out.  There was bloodshed.  More darkness.  It was an un-natural darkness.  Even with my abilitiy to see where these humans can not, my eyes were unable to pierce the darkness.  Spores came out.  Turned into some vine.  More bloodshed and a death.  We went back to fort hope and glokk carried our friends body.  Met a druid i think.  Told us about weaves and openings.  Somthing about silent pass, whatever that is.  He said it was under control.  I do not believe him.  So much magic!  Something else is sure to happen.  Should we return to far reach maybe?

Went on a hunting trip with Glokk and Fifur.  We went through the rolling plains and into the high forest.  We stopped for a bit in harmony grove.  It is another peaceful place.  We found the broken hall.  It is infested with disease ridden rats.  Their bites were very nasty.  Back to the void again!

Jet came with me to broken hall to try and redeem my soul.  We stopped at lake ilbnoune for some sport with kenku and a spot of fishing.  I caught a carp.  We ventured into the rolling plains.  Needless to say we met kobolds.  I was still in a weakened state, but Jet killed them very quickly.  He is a fine warrior indeed.  We made it to the high forest, after fighting a griffon, and as we got to broken hall we were attacked by some orcs.  A fierce battle!  I was badly injured, so was Jet.  We made our way to harmony grove.  Another place that I feel at home in.  After resting I felt so much better.  My spirit seemed to return to me.  We journeyed back through plains and lakes and were set upon by a skunk.  Yuk!  I was very smelly now.  At Jet's request I had a bathe.  He promised not to look, but I am sure I caught him peeping.  It will give him something to think about!

I met up with Drake Evermont, a bard.  He has offered to make me a harp as he believes this to be a nice instrument to learn.  I think he has mistaken me for a lady of some sort.

[Evil Dad]

Winters Night.  A new year and a new cycle.

Back and forth to haven mines.  Fifur and Tedulas both like mining here.  It is good sport with a large party.

Glokk has made a new suit of armour for me.  It is a beautiful suit of iron scalemail.  It will be a wonder when I can wear, but at the moment I have not mastered it.  I am still too clumsy in it.  For now I will keep to my old copper suit.

Ayla has made some sandpaper for me, so I can practice my woodcraft skills. She has told me a bit about baking and said how to make this sandpaper.  I have learnt a bit more since being here!

Corsan wanted to visit Krandor.  I went with him.  We didnt stay too long and went off to fort hope.   I stayed there for a while and Corsan went back to Hlint.  I decided to explore the area some and got attacked by several griffon.  The void again!  I did some more fishing and on my way back to Krandor I had sport with some ogres trying to bash a mage.  I bashed them instead.

[Evil Dad]

Winters Deep

Dargo was in trouble so I went to help him.  Those goblins were very nasty and I visited the void again. Tedulas and stonesmithy helped us retrieve our stones.  We went and bashed some gnolls on our way back to Hlint.  Good sport again!

Went mining with fifur and gloin in haven mines.  These men do like to bask rocks!  I was prepared for a tought fight against all these ogres, but gloin made it so easy.  With a wave of his hands and a few words, the ogres should stood there and let me hit them.  I like that!  I have never understood or liked magics much, but this was good.  He is a very powerful dwarf and nice too.  A great worker of metals is gloin.

Jet has made me an iron scimitar.  It is a great weapon.  Such a sharp edge.  I will truly enjoy wielding this and it suits me so much more than that longsword.

Tedulas and party wanted to go to the greypeaks.  Apparently Juanita at fort llast had lost her oil of vulkas there.  We bashed the ogres good and I was having great sport!  But we met some ogre mages.  They hurt real bad.  Their spells went straight through my aromour and hurt be bad.  The void again!  Tedulas made us all disappear so we could walk past the ogres to get our stones back.  That was fun!

[Evil Dad]

Spring Dawning

Went for some sport deep into sielwood forest, with Corsan, Gelden, Shae, and Trysk. We were in Rangers Vale getting healed, when the healer asked us to help him out. Some traveller, Trenton I think his name was, was gone missing and would we help find him.  We found an elf ranger and tried to talk.  Trysk foolishly moved behind her.  She turned and Trysk was killed.  We caught up with the elf.  Me and Corsan asked to talk and lowered our weapons.  The paladins just wanted their justice for Trysk.  I was told I would have to face justice for my sport with the animals.  She is probably right.  I do take pleasure in sport of most kinds and some I have killed have not truly deserved their death.  She escaped again.  Me and corsan were ambushed by these vicious   goblins and the next thing i remember is the void.  I do not believe this is over yet and we need to continue our search for the traveller.

More mining and sport.  I have become better at making arrows now and in making wood generally.  I have also discovered how to turn cotton into cloth.  My skills are getting better all the time.  I still live for the fight and would rather have sport with the enemy any day!

There was a meeting of people in Leilon.  I was not going to go, but Jet told me he was taking soem Vivian.  I had to see what she was like, so I accompanied Teddy and Zeos there.  Justain was looking good and gave me a drink and it made me feel all funny.  Jet turned up with this vivian.  She is a very peautiful females, with long red hair.  Quite a sight really.  I feel hurt now, like i am second choice.  I got a bit upset with Jet and may have been a bit loud in my thoughts.  This vivian was nice and offered me to sit with her and Jet.  I said no as I wanted to go bash some things or someone!

[Evil Dad]

Spring Rain

I slept in leilon last night.  I didn't want to go back to Hlint incase I met them.  I think i made a fool of myself.  I decided to go back to Hlint with a little trip to the high forest first.  What a mistake!  I was peacefully chopping some oak, when I was attacked by a pack of spiders.  Before I knew it, I was poisoned so bad I couldn't even lift my blade to defend myself.  It was agonising just being attacked my these monsters.  I think 1 or 2 of them were sword spiders.  Back to the void again!

I met with Jet.  He was sorry for what happened.  We both let each other know our feelings, but I do not really know where we go from here.  He has history with this vivian.  He says he likes me.  We shall see.  What of poor Corsan?  I like him a lot, but Jet stole my heart first and I suppose it is a bit like him and vivian.  I must talk with him and hope he understands.

Jet repeated his offer to teach me the katana.  I think I will have to accept this time.  It will mean some hard training and I will have to try and give up some of my rather barbaric ways.  But, I believe the journey will be worth it.  I have grown so much since arriving here and I see this as just a progression of myself.  I had dreams of becoming a bard, but I have realised that I am a simple warrior.  I live for the battle and the sport of killing.  To be a more skilled warrior would be good!

Corsan had to get some chicken eggs for someone.  I journeyed with him to krandor and fort hope.  We parted company and I met Freya who wanted a packaged delivered to fort velensk.  I didnt know where this was, but I knew a man who did.

Jet took me to fort velensk.  I was quite a bit further than I thought.  Jet took me to see the Berhagen Mountains, but we met some golems and our weapons would hardly work against them.  Back to Velensk!  On the way back, we mat a man called Sand Krows.  He was a fighter/priest of lucinda.  He offered to show me and jet around the berhagens.  I was a grand trip.  Sand put so many spells on all of us, that we are able to walk through the Berhagens and bash golems and giants without talking hardly any damage.  He is truly a powerful man.  A man to be admired!

On the way back to hlint, i visited direwood.  I battled lots of spiritis and nearly died.  So, I would go back through hope.  Would you beleive it!  I met with Teddy and his party.  Back to velensk with them, then a spot of cougar and troll hunting.  Those trolls were tough and I very nearly died again.

Ogre bashing in the greypeaks is always good sport and I am much stronger now and able to bash them good.  But what happened?  An ogre mage cast something called death magic on me and I felt all my energy drain away.  Back to teh void again!

I met a creature called  wemic today.  A strange creature half man and half lion.  From somewhere called the dragon isles.  He was a good warrior and we went ogre bashing in sielwood.

A strange end to this luna cycle.  Corsan declared his love for me today!  I was flattered, of course, as he is a good man.  I told him I could make no promises.  I did not want to be held back as I am not your normal female.  He said that was why he liked me.  He is sweet!  I told him that there was another I liked as well, but I did not tell him it was jet.  I think he knows though!

How could he not?  I saw jet with that vivian again.  I think corsan knew something was wrong, but did not want to say anything.  I am going to leave this place I think.  Maybe try and get back to Dregar.  It is too painful being around them both.

[Evil Dad]

Spring Blosson

Met a barbarian by the name of Jharl.  He was a cheerful fellow and keeps chanting some tribal song.  It is good to see others like me.

I am learning the art of leather making.  I have been practising to cure the hides so they can be sewn into outfits.  It is a tricky thing, but I am getting better at it.  I hope one day I will be able to make my own armours.

I have continued to hunt!  In fact I always hunt.  It is good sport!  Sielwood is my favorite place.  There are ogres and werewolves and these strange creatures that can turn you to stone.  I often visit Rangers Vale whilst there.  I can find peace there.  I often run through sielwood, past the lost ruins and up into the broken forest.  What great sport it is!

Vivian! Vivian! Vivian!  This woman i hate so much.  Yet, I can't help but like her.  She is so nice and clever and pretty.  It is no wonder that Jet likes her so much.  She is everything I am not.

Met a woman name Key, a rogue and good warrior.  She spoke to me quietly about joining a secret group she has.  She asked why i fight?  Was it for money or glory?  I told her the truth.  It was for fightings sake.  I live for the kill.  She seemed pleased with this answer.  I think we will become friends and I will most likely join her group.

I joined a party to help rescue trysk and his party in the greypeaks.  Bah!  Damn ogre mages!  Me, Trysk, Gelden, Brit, Buradin and Alissa finished off the ogres.  We then paid a visit to king storans tomb.  I hate that place!  In fact I hate all tombs and crypts.  The are not natural places.  Give me the trees and open sky any day!

Jet has started to teach me the katana.  I went with him the haven mines.  He is so strong and great warrior.  We just made it out of there alive!  I did try to pay attention to how he uses this blade.  It is long like the sword, yet single edged like the scimitar.  A strange blade that cuts deep and true.  I shall enjoy using this blade!

[Evil Dad]

Summer Home

I feel so much stronger now.  I am quicker than I used to be and can aim my blade with more precision.  It is a good feeling and I look forward to continuing my learning of the katana.  I am no wiser though!  I still rush into battle even when I shouldn't.  But I am not afraid.  Should I die, then I will run with Kithairien and hunt by his side!

Went with Trysk and Alissa to Velensk.  Buradin joined us a bit later.  We went ogre bashing on the way and near dire wood.  We were bashed hard ourselves.  The void again!  But we are working much better as a team.  Single out an ogre lead it to the party and bash it.  See an mage then spread out to confuse and then bash it.  We are getting good!

On the way back from Velensk, me and trysk ran into Dorena again.  She seems to have grown since I last met her.  She is so quick with both her swords and hits with so much force.  It was good to fight with her.  She is a ranger and has a wolf companion and summoned a big bear to help us as well.  It was good bashing!

Another visit to the greypeaks, but this time we go to Storans tomb.  I do not like it there.  These crypts and tombs are full of things that are dead yet still live.  It is most unnatural.  The void!  Some creature screamed at me and I felt ny lifeforce just drain from me.

Corsan has sent me a letter indicating his intentions of love.  A rose came with it.  He is really very sweet, but my heart waits for Jet.

A whole night with Monshira!  Just talking!  We found a spot near haven mines that was nice and secluded.  Monshira was very interested in me.  Where I was from? what I did? what did I want to do?  The questions were endless and suddently it was morning.  I enjoyed myself though.  Monshira was good company!

[Evil Dad]

Summer Run

It is now the month of my birth!  I give praise to Kithairien for guiding me.

*notes*
training with jet
meeting corsan
house with alissa?
trip to velensk
rescue at velensk
direwood caves
direwoods
- naughty summons!
another letter from corsan

[Evil Dad]

Summer End

*notes*
training in berhagens
jet give me new blade
getting close
rilara
- trolls
jet & corsan
a final letter from corsan

[Evil Dad]

Autumn Harvest

*notes*
greypeaks
- faile & massa
baalor hunting with teddy
jet & vivian
received another letter from corsan
hunting with ranewin and lili
- ranewin is beautiful and would suit corsan?

[Evil Dad]

Autumn Twilight

Where is Jet?  I feel so angry with him at the moment.  Since our incident he has disappeared.  He said he was going to talk to vivian.  But not even a message from him.  Was he too much of a cowardly dog to tell vivian?  Well he best had or he will be running back to her like a frigthened puppy when I have finished with him!

Saw Corsan again.  He says he is still waiting for me and still loves me!  I told him I was not worth it and he should find much better than me.  He refused to listen.  I do like corsan, but I have promised myself to Jet .. if that man ever appears again!

Been to haven mines with Pendar.  He wanted to mine some gems and he gave me some, which was nice.  There was good sport to be had there.  After I went off to the greypeaks for some ogre bashing ... one of my bestest sports.  Then I went deep into the high moors to bash some lizardmen.  I came across some real tough ones and onyl just escaped.  Damn!  They folowed me all the way back to hlint.  I stood my ground but fell from a real bad wound.  I was lucky the bleeding stopped and I was able to crawl back to hlint like a wounded animal!

Met up with a man named Kaizer who was going to the mines.  What a great warrior!  We went deep into the mines.  Deeper than I have ever gong before. It was great sport.  Dorena had been looking for me and had tracked me to the mines.  We met her on the way back out.  She is become a good friend.  We visited the mines a second time with Kaizer leading the party again.  It was the best sport again.  So many dead ogres.  The pleasure was nearly unbearable!  I mined plenty of iron for Dorena so she could make some arrows.

Me, Dorena and Faile have decided to go on a trip to the Berhagens.  A bit a girlie giant bashing!  Faile has become another good friend and it will be good for the 3 of us to spend some time together away from the town.  I am really looking forward to this trip.

Jet appeared.  Finally!  I was talking to Shelu and Ranewin in our native tongue.  Jet nodded to us and told us off for speaking elvish in front of him.  We were simply commenting on how handsome he was!  He was not his usual self.  There was no affection or warmth from him like I would have expected.  I can only assume he has not given up Vivian!  He is a coward and I will not be made a fool of like this by the likes of him.

Justain!  What an arrogant pig!  "You women stay at the back while me and jet fight the ogres" he said.  I am insulted.  He is an arrogant fool of a Paladin.  Thinks far too highly of himself.  If he speaks to me like that again I will take his sword and stick it where no Paladin should have a sword stuck!

[Evil Dad]

Autumn Dark

I have spent a lot of time with Ranewin.  We have become close friends and been out hunting together.  It is good to have another female to talk to about things.  There is also Shelu who is a dear friend.

Kaizer Thell!  What a man!  He is strong powerful and utterly bad.  I like him!  He has taken me into haven mines several times now and I feel that he wants more than just a fighting companion.  But, he is married.  This is bad news!  He jokes often about sharing me with his wife.  He is such a tease.  Isn't he?

I met another elven male called Unthuz.  He was a pleasure to watch fight.  We ventured into direwood caves together and then went troll  hunting with teddy and friends.  He has an air of evil about him .. almost drow-like.  I did not get to see his face.  Could I have interested in a drow?  What am I becoming?

[Evil Dad]

Winter Snow

My skills with the blade seems to have improved somewhat.  I can hit faster and more accurate now.  I also seem more able to dodge enemy attacks.  I am much more skilled.  It is a good feeling!  I have had some good training.  But what of my mentor?  Jet!  I still have hardly seen him.  I wish I knew what I had done that was so wrong.  Maybe he realised what sort of female I am becoming?

Me, Ranewin and Dorena were getting all sort of attention from the men in town.  Kai was flirting as usual.  Ozy, was well ... Ozy.  He licked Ranewin and then me.  It was an experience to say the least!  I am so bad.  But what fun I am having.  It covers the terrible hurt I am feeling from my dearest Jet.

I was venturing into krandor crypts with Faile, Ranewin and Corsan.  He continues to follow me, after everything I do.  I fear love has made him blind.  We made our way deep into the crypts.  I was fighting a dead thing when I fell.  Ranewin managed to heal me.  What?  I was next in the void!  Corsan had slain me.  He claims it was an accident and that he was sorry.  I feel so angry.  What is it?  If he can't have me then no body will!  I do not despise him, but I will make him suffer.

Kai made me a new katana, as I shall return Jets to him.  Kai also put a stranged enchantment on the blade that made it shine.  He is good to me.  I told him I would do ANYTHING for him.  I am becoming a bad girl!

Vivian ran up to me for a chat.  I told her i didn't want to, but she insisted.  Jet appeared again.  I left them both.  They followed.  I was cruel to Jet.  I dropped the katana he made me at his feet and walked away.  He thinks I hate him.  I do not.  I love him dearly!  He places special worship on these blades and holds them in high esteem.  Me?  I like them as they cut the enemy well.  But I do not regard them as Jet does.  I feel unworthy to wield his blade.  Vivian caught up with me again.  I told her plainly that Jet did not love me.  he avoided me, was cold towards me and even told me he had no time for me.  I am in such pain!  She told me to give him a chance and I said that I would not play his games and I would not wait around for him to finally decide he wants me.  I begged her to go back to Jet as he deserves someone good like her.  She told me about Daniel and I wish one day I could meet someone this special.  I thought I had.  I told vivian that if Jet was to come looking for me and told me he loved me then I would know he really wanted me.  I would like that!  But I asked her not to tell him this.  It must be decision.  The pompous idiot Justain came over and said Jet was all upset.  I sent Justain away rudely as I do not want that arrogant pig invloved.  If nothing else out of all this, I have become friends with Vivian, which is far more than I deserve!

Kai took me and Ranewin into haven mines again.  Corsan insisted on following again.  I was cruel!  I flirted badly with Kai, who really liked the attention.  Ranewin thought it was all funny.  Corsan went mad and charged some ogres.  He died.  Oh well!  I mined amethysts and Kai mined iron and platinum.   There was great sport to be had with ogres.  Me and Ranewin was at Kai's beck and call.  We would have done anything for him I believe.  Well I would have!  

Kai was messing around and asked me and Ranewin to move in with him and his wife.  What a wicked thought!  At that moment I would have done anything... but I knew he was joking.  I kissed Kai on the cheek which pleased him.  Ranewin! Well I gave her a hug, perhaps a bit longer than I should have.  It was a strange feeling.  Not one I have felt before!

Berhagens! What great sport!  Went there with Kai, his wife, and a party of strong fighters.  His wife is nice, and a powerful cleric as well.  She cast lots of protections on Kai and he ran off killing golems and giants.  We all followed and helped as best we could.  It was great sport!  His wife had to get back somewhere and left us all in shoufal. Pool Party!  We travelled back through the broken forest and sielwood.  Again, more sport to be had.  Eventually we all split up but me, kai, joran and angela were left.  We went back to kai's house and things went a bit far.  Good job his wife wasnt there!  And what of Angela?  A beautiful female who showed me things I had never dreamed of.

[Evil Dad]

Winter Night

What of Jet?  I am so confused at the moment and I hurt so bad.  My dearest Jet does not want me.  A close friend killed me.  Now I am getting attention of all these males and am experiencing other strange feelings.  What now?  I do not know.  Maybe Jet will wake up and realize what he is doing to me.  Perhaps then he can rescue me from the path I am on!

Shelu, dear shelu!  I really like this elf.  She was one of the first to befriend me when I arrived in Hlint.  She has remained a good friend ever since.  We have become very close.  Exactly how close I am not sure, but after meeting Angela I am intrigued to find out.

Well things have taken a strange turn.  I have spent days hunting with Shelu and we have become even closer.  We were resting in Rangers Vale, when she rested against me.  We kissed for ths first time and spoke long about our feelings.  She is a truly beautiful creature, who makes me feel so happy.

We travelled up to direwood caves, where we met up with Teddy, Alissa and some dwarf.  There was good sport to be had that day.  I was able to lead the party through the battles.  Shelu kept healing me and casting protective spells.  She has good skill and wonderful hands.  I managed to mine some topaz for her which she liked very much.

Me and Shelu ended up in the lost ruins.  We met up with Ael and Sophia.  I really like Ael, he is a great warrior, even if he is an Orc at the moment.  We rampaged through the lost ruins, broken forest and then back through sielwood.  We decided to all try storans crypts again.  What a mistake?  The revenants all rushed us.  There must be been 6-7 attacking us each.  The void!

I was saying goodbye to Shelu and we had just shared a kiss, when Jet turned up.  He had not seen us.  Shelu left us then as she felt a bit awkward I think.  Ranewin, the dear, stayed through the entire talk to support me and annoy jet.  She is funny.  Jet said how sorry he was for how he had behaved.  He said things did not work out between him and Vivian.   Is that it?  Am I to play second best yet again?  He assured me it wasnt like that.  Jet wants to continue my training in the katana and insists I take his katana back afterwards.  I dont think whe was impressed with the blade Kai gave me.  Jealous I think!  I told him as plainly as I could.  I would be honoured to train with him again, but me and him are over for now.  I did not tell him about Shelu as he has no right to know now.  He is set on chasing this Tyde soon and I have promised that I would help him as I promised once before.  I still hold Jet very dear, but I cannot see it working.  I have different tastes now.  But we shall see!

Ranewin!  A delicious elf.  She realised something was going on and I told her about me and Shelu.  She coyly asked whether the 3 of us could still have fun together.   Did she mean what I thought she meant?  We ended up kissing.  She was wonderful!  I did not take it any further as I have Shelu to think about.  I would not want to upset her.

A trip to haven mines went bad.  Me, pendar and thjord were down there.  Somehow we got mobbed by ogres.  Thjord fell.  Pendar was able to heal me enough so I could fight off the ogres.  Ranewin heard what had happened and she came charging into the mines to rescue me.  What a dear she is!  We went further in again ... but we were overwhelmed.  We just managed to defeat them and make it out.  I am glad Ranewin was there to take care of me.

I took her to that quiet little spot near the mines.  We talk for a while, then kissed and rested.  We became initimate.  I truly love this elf.  I still have to think of Shelu as she means so much to me still.  She says she understands and would see me happy.  Me and Ranewin went back into town.  Very tired!  We bumped into Angela.  It was a bit awkward but she seemed pleased for me.  She still lusts after me, I could tell!  

Corsan was about ... well it was time to get this over with.  He looked at me and i said hello.  I showed him Ranewin and held her hand.  At that point he realised.  He accused me of lying and I said I had always told him the truth.  "I love Ranewin now" I said.  He went on about how elves toyed with his heart.  What could I say about that?  He threw my old scimitar at me.  I just said it was jets and ran off laughing! ... and what of jet?  I have to tell him what is happening.

The future is looking good!

[Evil Dad]

Winter Deep

Shelu is still close to me and even though she doesnt want to be intimate thats doesnt matter.  She has never said she would and has always been there for me.  She is my very dearest friend!

Jet saw me in sielwood.  I think he thought I was with shelu!  He was so cruel to me.  But maybe I deserved it!  He said I was bad.  He had never loved me and that I had forced my love on him and tried to force him to love me!  These words hurt!  What did I do?  I laughed at him and told him to run back to vivian.  If she'll have him?

Dorena!

I have been so lucky.  Me and Ranewin were very intimate again.  I am so happy.  We went and hid in a room in the sielwood witch's house.  We had to be very quiet, which was so hard to be.  Ranewin knows how to make me feel good!

We went to the inn to get some food.  We were both very hungry!  Ranewin noticed Ozy, Shelu and Barion talking.  Me and Shelu were so bad!  We sat at Ozy's feet and teased him.  He loved it!  He kept stroking my ears.  Mmmm I do like that and it seems to make me purr!  Ranewin continued to tease Ozy while I teased Shelu a bit.   We had good fun and long may it continue!

Angela!

*cries uncontrollably*

Shattered! My whole world had collapsed!  My reason for living, my dear sweet Ranewin gave me some crushing news!  She has been thinking about her future.  One day she will want a husband and children.  She has told me that what we have been going is wrong, but she still loves me.  Will I stay friends with her?  I was in tears and havent stopped crying since!  I told hold I couldnt deal with it and ran to our little place near haven.  She found me!  Tried to comfort me!  I told her to go away!  I ran back to Hlint, grabbed my ox and ran all the way to Velensk.  I sent her a few messages and told her not to follow.  In my state I blindly went into the berhagens.  Passed the golems and faced a hill giant.  What!?  A golem had followed me.  I was bleeding to death!  I stabilised, fought again and fell.  I made it to shoufal just about.  I collapsed!  Word reached me that Ranewin, Angela and Kai were coming for me.  I sent quick word back that they shouldnt.  I desired death!  Release from this pain I was suffering.  I ran into the hills.  Ouch! Rocks came crashing onto me.  Three giants fell and I was feeling good.  What!?  When snuck up on me.  I was bleeding.  All was dark.  Even the soul mother didnt want me!  Kai and Ranewin made it to me.  She spoke of loving me and remaining friends.  We went for my stone.  I was foolish.  I blindly ran upto a golem and I fell.  In my foolish haste, kai nearly fell and dear sweet Ranewin did fall.  Kai was there, as he always is.  A brave, kind man and good friend.  Ranewin sent word that she loved me dearly but did not want to be intimate anymore.  It was my friendship she desired.  I have told her I cannot give her this at the moment.  I hurt so much.  It aches when I see her.  I feel so lost and lonely!  Maybe it is some punishment for the way I have hurt others?  I will stay up north for a while and maybe I will return to Hlint when I am feeling better.

*cries loudly and wipes tears off of journal*

I want to be held and comforted.  But who would even want me?  Maybe shelu would be there?  She is a dear friend!  Angela would no doubt comfort me!  But maybe she will want more than I am in the mood for now?

Maybe I will return home to dregar?  I just feel so weak and tired.

Dear Shelu! Dear kind Shelu! She always manages to say the right thing to make you feel better.  I still really like her! She has given me some comfort and given some advice.  Never criticising and never judging.  She is the best of friends!  I do not know what I would so without her!  Since coming to Hlint she has been the one constant in my life.  It has just taken so long for me to realise it.  I think I might just wait and see what happens.  No pushing her into anything and maybe it will work and maybe not?

Met up with Teddy, Thjord and gang.  Went bashing ogres in direwood caves.  That feels so much better!  There is nothing like relieving tention than some murder and mayhem ... especially when ogres!

Ranewin?  What should I do about poor Ranewin?  Well, I think it is time to head back to Hlint and speak to her.  I still love her, but I will be just a friend as she asks.  Maybe it is for the best after all.

I met Ael on the way back.  We were attacked by some vines and ogres.  Still, it was some good sport!  He looked very sad.  Some trouble with Sophia I am sure he said.  He told me discovered her with another man.  A man in red armour!  Was it Jet?  Ael said he had to fight all his orc instincts to not kill the man.  Me?  I would have slain him and skinned him in front of her.  That would teach her!  But Ael is better than that.  He seems a good man and does not deserve this treatment.  I only wish I had met him before his change.  I would like to meet him again if he ever changes back.  He seems interesting and maybe he can give me a taste for males again?  Ael told me the mans name was Jet and he had tried the same with another woman as well. I could not believe it!  That arrogant self righteous pig, would judge me!  When what he has done is far worse!  When I see him I will make him suffer!

A group were in haven mines and were in trouble.  Thjord was dead and I offered to help him get his stone.  He didnt tell me it was on the third level!  Still, when the men are in trouble whos is going to save them?  The girl of course!  And the girl did good!  The party all made their way to the surface and left poor little Sy to fend for herself.  What great sport it was!  The trail of blood and bodies was invigorating.  I feel so much better now!

[Evil Dad]

Spring Dawning

*notes*
shelu
lin
ranewin
bodak hunting
grey peaks

So much death!  And all mine!  I have failed Shelu so badly.  I have met the soulmother so many times now, I can feel her close now.  Again today I failed Shelu in her need to get some oil from the greypeaks.  I have gone to Shoufal for some guidance.  It is cold and harsh up here, but I find myself at peace.

I must make peace with some people before I fade.  There is dearest Jet.  I would not part this world with him hurting me.  I have done him wrong and I would put that right.  Corsan has been hurt bad by me and I would at least try and put this right.  Ranewin?  Dear Ranewin.  It hurts so much to be near her, but she does not want me like that and I have to accept it.  She wants to stay a close friend, but I keep hurting her.  It is not because I dont like her.  It is because I love her so much still and I ache to be near her!

What of future loves?  Shelu is a dear friend, but I fear she does want me in the way I want her.  I can accept this as she has never said otherwise.  Angela has been close to me, but I dont know about this.  Does she want me just as a play thing?  or is there the potential for love?  I do not know!  I have met a few others that I like, but is there a chance? I do not know.  They are Ry and Sahala.   Both are delicious creatures but I do not know what all this means!

What of males?  There is dear Monshira who has always been there and always will.  I like him a lot and maybe if I gain a taste for males again he may be interested in me.  And Ael?  I like this man.  I would like to see him in his normal form!  I think he wants me more as a plaything though!

So much to think of and so much to do.  In what I fear is such short a time!

[Evil Dad]

Spring Rain

*notes*
Sahala
Ry
Angela!
Angelica?
Sahala
- berhagens and rejection
Talk with vivian
Vivian will make me a dress
Talk with Ry?
Angela!

[Evil Dad]

Spring Blossom

*notes*
sahala and ael
- so sad, so very sad
ly
angela finds out!

Ly!!! A pack begins!