Diary of a curious Elf

[DMOE]

It’s been a strange time since my parents gently suggested I learn more about the world in the vain hope I’d learn more about myself and pick something to do with my life.  To be fair I am still young so have time yet!
I’ve met some very interesting people since coming to Hlint but all of them have been really nice and helpful.
I’ve also been learning about different people’s ideas cultures and religions.  Like the time I was travelling with Jacchri Abianca and he explained that he believes that if you hunt an animal you should give it an honourable death.  He then explained that this means you should kill using nothing but a knife and your wits.  I was collecting pelt s for a fur trader whose wife is ill and Jacchri kindly offered to show me where to hunt.  I felt it was only fair to hunt the animals in the way he believes is right.  It wasn’t easy but I collect my pelts using only my dagger to kill the animal.  I was very proud of myself for that!
I’ve also been very lucky and met two people who I often explore with.  They are Elladan Peters and Ellarha.  
Elladan reminds me of my older brother a bit, if only for the fact he seems to think I’m curious and run into things a bit too quickly.
Ellarha is an elf unlike any other elf I have ever known.  She doesn’t speak elvish for a start and often says the strangest things but is always helpful when she can be.
Spugly Fuglet is a body guard for hire and really, really nice.  I think he must be a half-giant cause he’s huge but I’ve been too polite to ask!
I know I’ve forgotten the names of some of the other great people who’ve helped me including the lady I want hunting for a lost cow with but I’m sure I’ll meet them again.
There are the odd people who don’t always want to discuss things with me but they are never rude about and you get used to that having grown up in an inn.
I’ve seen lots of new things, discovered I can use a bow quite well and that I’m developing a liking for gem crafting and a desire to know how to cook.  Even the forest is growing on me. Not sure I’ll ever get used to undead but then I’m not sure I ever want to!

[DMOE]

I met a really nice person while adventuring recently.  His name is Nosssyla Steele and he showed me how to make rings and set gems and make polishing oil.  He explained all sorts of really useful stuff and spent ages teaching me.  I owe him an honour debt as I felt it was only fair to repay him in someway and he’s said he’ll ask for a favour at some point.  I think it’s important to repay people’s kindness.
We met questing to help the bard at the wild Serge inn get her necklace back.  He also knows my friends Brit Forgeheart who he was supposed to met in the mines where the necklace was lost.  Someone else helped us find it too and he and Elladan thought I wanted to know about crafting gems cause they are worth a lot.   That upset me cause I enjoy doing it and can’t wait to see who it’ll look when it’s finished.  I’m so proud of my first ring.  I’m considering sending it home to my parents to show them how well I’m doing but then again I might wait until I make a necklace instead.  They did both apologias once I explained it wasn’t all about coins and even guarded me while I collect minerals to polish at a later date.
Discovered Blood’s forces have landed and there will be a public meeting.  Ran into a really whiney elf who kept complaining about how all the ‘humans’ did was hold a meeting and that we’d all die why they decided what to do.  When I asked him if he had a better idea he didn’t answer. I really dislike people who complain when they can’t think of anything better!!!
In contrast I met a nice Drow friend of Brit’s and we all went adventuring.  Ran into some tree things while looking for brown bears and collecting aloe.   They were really scary but Brit got a friend of his to help us out.
I know I’m not supposed to get on with the Drow but I’m learning it’s important to judge people by their actions and words not race.  Blood coming is going to be bad enough without us fighting each other cause we’re ‘different’.  Not looking forward to the coming fighting but feel I have to step up and help where I can in what ever way I can.  I’m surprised no one has said what happened at the meeting which I managed to miss.  Still as un-organised as ever but trying to get better.
Elladan is reminding me more and more of my brother every time we adventure and it’s nice to have that reminder of home!
I hope to meet up with Brit soon and go exploring again but until then I’ll be happy making my rings and stuff.

[DMOE]

Today has been a really interesting day!  I ‘cut’ all my minerals so now I have lot’s more cut greenstones to work.  I managed to polish and set a greenstone in a copper ring first time!!!  Although I did completely fail to make my ownpolishing oil.
I’ve approached someone who advertises rings and such for sale in the Wild Surge Inn to possible sell my wares to and hope to meet up with them to show them my work soon.
I ran into Brit again in Hlint and we were discussing renting rooms as I keep needing more space to put things and its strange being a guest in an inn after living in one so long. Brit was telling me about a room for rent in the house he lives in so went to have a look.  It was lovely and they are more like a family than people just living in the same house.  Ironically enough the house is owned by Nosslya Steele who I already owe an honour debt too.  I wasn’t sure I’d be able to afford the rent and Brit suggested I could always share his room with him, as friends of course.  I couldn’t help but tease him about that.  He can be so very serious sometimes.  Looking at the big room and thinking how much it might cost I decided to take Brit up on his offer assuming Master Nosslya didn’t mind.
Brit had to go off and do some forging while I waited for Master Nosslya.  When he arrived I explained how Brit had invited me to share his room and then had to explain it’s just as friends!  Think I might not mention the sharing bit in future! Master Nosslya did say something strange as he asked what the arrangement would be between Brit and me regarding rent and when I told him he commented I was getting a good deal as he told me that Brit is paying more than he said he was.   Not sure what to do about that.  I don’t think for one minute that Master Nosslya would lie to me and I don’t think Brit would either so I’m not sure exactly what is going off and if I should talk to Brit about it.  It’s at times like this I really miss my Mother; she’d know what to do.  Of course she very probably wouldn’t approve of me sharing a room with a man regardless of how much of a gentleman he is!
Another strange thing is that Brit kinda assumed I’d share a room with Elladan and then apologised when I explained he’s like a brother.  
I’m thinking of suggesting to Elladan that he has a chat to Master Nosslya about renting the room he has left.  Not sure if he’ll want to but you never know!
I’m really happy to have a ‘home’ base now plus Master Nosslya has said he’ll help me with my crafting too so it should really feel like home once he’s started working me hard!

[DMOE]

Went to meet Elladan and told him about the room.  He wasn’t that interested as he didn’t think he has much use for a room but he was more than happy to come and see the house with me.  He laughed when I told him Iwas sharing a room with Brit and when I asked why it was funny he explained it was just that he wasn’t surprised.
Master Noss was at home when we arrived and discussed Elladan renting a room while I un-packed and settled in.  After a very long conversation with Master Noss he decided to rent the room and join the ‘family’.  Now all he has to do is pick his furniture!
Master Noss apologised to me because he’d re-checked his ledger and discovered that what Brit had told me about what he owed for the room was right and Master Noss was wrong. That put my mind at rest but in typical (I’m starting to realise) Master Noss fashion not for long!  He then during our conversation with him proceeded to tell me that Brit had said he sees me as a ‘little sister’ but then also went on to say he doesn’t need to know what we get up to in our room as if something might happen!  I admit Elladan was slightly surprised there was only one bed but that doesn’t mean anything other than sleeping will happen!  Master Noss reminded me that Brit is human and young.  Master Noss also said something else strange while we were chatting about how wished he was an elf sometimes and when I asked why he told he it was personal but he might tell me some other time.  I’m sure that will be an interesting story if I ever hear it!
I asked Master Noss where Brit was as we’d discussed going hunting earlier and Master Noss offered to fetch him from the forge.  Next thing we know Brit comes running in asking what’s wrong.  Took me a little while to work out that Master Noss had just told him that I need to talk now and he’d assumed it meant there was something wrong as that’s what it normally meant if Master Noss want to talk to him now. I explained to Brit that I’m not Master Noss and I’ll always tell him if he’s done something wrong so until I do don’t assume things!
I dropped the ‘little sister’ thing into conversation and Brit seemed really upset that I’d heard it without him having chance to‘explain’ it to me and then we had this really complicated conversation about how he views me as family and I’ll always be family first but that I’m also beautiful!  I wonder if it had anything to do with the conversation we had earlier about the boys at the tavern where I grew up and how they said it was the worst thing possible if a girl classed you as her ‘brother’.  
I’m really, really confused now though!  I like Brit. He’s honest, trustworthy, really nice and not bad looking.  I enjoy spending time with otherwise I wouldn’t have decided to share his room!  I assume he enjoys spending time with me otherwise he wouldn’t have asked but I’m starting to get very confused about how he views me.  Am I like a sister?  Am I someone he finds beautiful in a non sister way?  Does he even know?  Do I ask him outright or do I just get on with things and hope it sorts itself out? Sometimes I wish I had a woman to talk to!  Maybe the other lady renting a room will be nice and be able to help!                                      
We managed to go hunting for undead in the Broken Forest where we also helped another group and then went hunting for brown bear pelts so I could finish helping the fur trader. I got a bear skin cloak for all my help! I decided to turn in after that as did Elladan.  Brit decided to return to his smelting to ensure Master Noss was happy so informed me he’d sleep on the couch when he came in so as not to disturb me.  I had to say that there was very little point arranging to share a room if one of us slept elsewhere.  Elladan didn’t help at that point by offering the spare bed in his room to Brit.  I put Brit straight on the fact that he was paying rent on his room so he was going to sleep in it!  I also told him he wouldn’t disturb me and not to worry because I have a night dress. I just couldn’t resist teasing him a little bit!

[DMOE]

Went crafting again and made my first Phenalope Bronze ring today and was so happy.  A nice gentleman who was crafting arrows asked me if I’d made something special as I was making so much noise!  I was honest and told him I was just happy it had gone right!  As we were talking a guy came up and demand to know what an orc was doing in the craft hall and when the gentleman I was talking to informed him he was making arrows he demanded to know what for!  I won’t recite the entire conversation but I will say it was dam rude of him to come and interrupt a peaceful conversation between two people especially when he was armed and we were not!
After he left the orc gentleman thank me for supporting him,commented not everything is as it seems and gave me a gift of a ring to help guide my crafting.  As we were about to part he spoke to me in elvish which was unusual. Even stranger he gave me Folian’s blessing which reminded me of the Ranger Jacchri Abianca.  At this point the rude man appeared again (having the decency to not be armed this time) and demanded to know why the Mah (the orc gentleman) could speak elvish.  Well another discussion ensued which was even longer and ruder!
The rude man claimed he asked questions due to his religion but as I point out to Mah after the rude man had finally gone he didn’t have to be so rude!
I have told Mah where I live and that if ever needs anything to call on me.  I believe everyone should be judged on their actions NOT what they look like and it really annoys me when people like the rude man rant about their friends being killed and how they have the right to ‘question’ anyone of the race that killed them!  I know it must be hard to lose a friend in battle but surly we are as bad as the people who kill our friends if we assume everyone of that race is bad also?
It took the shine off my achievement slightly!

[DMOE]

Did some more digging for clay and searching for minerals & copper with Elladan.  It went quite well up to the point where Goblins killed both our ox's  But we got back in one piece which is the important thing!

Left Elladan sleeping by the camp fire as I'd discovered a Mystery mineral and I couldn't wait to see what it was!  Washed it off to discover I'd found a Feldspar.  Dashed home to collect the rest of my crafting tools, polishing oil, copper ingot & a mould and I managed to make a Feldspar ring!  Just the one mind as I failed in my attempt to polish the other one so ground it up for the dust but I'm still really proud of myself.

I've left the ring as a present for Brit as I think he might find it useful and I've tried to make sure he knows I'll understand if he doesn't wear it cause he's probably got much better rings but I find it difficult to express myself in notes when not writing in elvish!

I hope I get to see him soon and that Master Noss isn't keeping him too busy although on the other hand I'm not strong enough to mine copper and I'm running out!  Can't have it both was I suppose

Which reminds me, I should probably collect some white mushroom so Master Noss can make me some more polishing oil without having to use his stocks!  Might mention it to Elladan later.

I've also managed to put some more feathers and things in the chests upstairs which should help out the rest of the house.  I'm really glad i've found such a great place to live.  It really does feel like a home from home.  Now if I can only work out what's happening with Brit!

[DMOE]

Went to meet Burr Gjest of the Raven Trading Company today in Hlint only to discover a tent has been erected by the Mistone Alliance and no one knows why!!!  I’m sure we’ll find out in time but very rude of the guards to ignore everyone.
Anyway back to Burr who was a really nice man who didn't make me feel nervous which was good as this was my first time try to sell my wares!  To be honest he admitted to me that he didn’t normally handle negotiations either.
Had a strange moment when I thought my rings had been taken and there was someone skulking around who Burr didn’t seem to see but turnedout to one of his friends.  Not sure why they were skulking but I think I might have offended them
Spent a very long time talking to Burr (Did I mention he' a nice man?) before we finally agreed to 75% of what the Raven Trading Company sells the rings for as my price for them. I thought that sounds fair although I’ll probably check with Brit next time I see him as I’m sure he’s had more experience with these things.  Burr needs to confer with the other members of the trading company just to make sure they think it’s a good deal and then he’ll get back to me!  I told him where I live to make it easier for him to let me know!

[DMOE]

Went with Elladan to Hlint to show him the tent that has appeared and because he had some smelting to do.  He was being kind enough to make me a coppe rdagger for the Lieutenant in Fort Llast.  I bumped into Mah and the lady orc in the craft hall and I have offended her   I’ll post a letter of apology under the door of the house and hope it finds her and she takes in the good way it is intended.
Elladan managed to make the dagger so I handed in on my way home.

[DMOE]

Oh my!  I never knew Brit was so talented and so artistic!  He has painted two pictures for our room. One of the coast as he’d like to grow old somewhere like that and one of me!!!
They are both so beautiful!!!  I think he’s trying to tell me something as I’m sure you would paint someone you see as your little sister in quite the way he did!  Not that it’s rude or anything just wild and free spirited.
I wrote him a thank you note which I hope will show him how amazing I think they are.
I also discovered my chest and bookcase overflowing with copper ingots and the odd mineral gem which I think may another way he’s trying to show me how he feels!
It could take a while to sort things out if we communicate by pictures, copper ingots and rings
I delivered my note to the Raven Trading Company Warehouse in Hlint too and discovered the tent is gone, along with all the guards of course!  They must have done what they came for and I bet we are all still none the wiser!!  I also did some ring crafting but it was a bad crafting day as  I tried to make 6 rings and only managed one but as Master Noss would say "Practice, Practice, Practice"
Brit Forgeheart - http://www.layonaraonline.com/forums/forums/thread-view.asp?tid=18090&posts=1

[DMOE]

Ran into Brit in Hlint earlier.  We spoke of feelings, finally! Although we didn’t have chance to finish the conversation as the craft hall isn’t the best place to discuss such things!
We are both so young and I don’t think he truly realises the pressure my race can put upon a relationship. He will grow old and I will barely change.  I can’t help but wonder if this is why often the elven party leaves in such relationships before it becomes and issue as I would hate to have to do that.
I like Brit.  I have strong feelings for him but I find it a bit scary when he tells me that he looks at my face and sees his purpose!  I wonder if he has ever had feelings for a girl/woman before?  I know I have never had these feelings for anyone before so I’m trying to tread carefully but I think it may be too late.
We are hoping to finish the conversation later at home.  I hope I can explain my fears without hurting him or making him blush with my questions!
I'm guessing write the questions down on a piece of parchment I get out and read from would probably be bad so I just hope I remember or the important things I want to cover!  Part of me wishes I had my Mother to talk it over with while the rest of me knows she just wouldn't think it's a good idea.  Brit is only 20 after all and if he's inexperience with love then it could be a complete disaster.  On the other hand it could easily be amazing.  I honestly don't know!

[DMOE]

Well we finally sat down and had our talk.  It was fairly stressful to be honest.  Brit really does have to stop assuming things other wise I’ll use him for target practice!!!
The up shot is that we are going to give it a try taking it nice and slowly.  I just about managed to convince him that feeling that you want to hurt someone who say’s really,really crude things about someone you care about is normal.  I suggested he talks to Master Noss about it too although I don’t think he will.
I think we possibly stand a chance if we keep actually talking to each other and at the very least he’s promised to not think up excuse not to come home to sleep!
I’m so glad we finally got our feelings sorted out and we both know where we stand.  I really like him and he is handsome too.  Just got to remember he has a protective streak!
Went looking for copper and minerals with Brit and Elladan after our talk.  When we returned to Hlint to visit the smith I finally got to meet Argos the second Master dwarf in our little 'family'.  He seems really nice and has invited us both to join him in trips to the mines in Haven.  He also offered to help Elladan work metal and myself to make arrows.
Brit and Argos invited us both to join them in another mining trip but I felt my ox need to rest and Elladan said he was behind in his meditation and prayers so we both returned to the house.  
Brit's Photo Album - http://www.layonaraonline.com/forums/photos/photo-thumbnails.asp?albumid=307

[DMOE]

Heard Brit come in to our room last night.  He is quieter than most humans but I’d be worried if I hadn’t have stirred.
I couldn’t decide whether to speak to him or not.  We have only just decided to try and explore our feelings for each other.  It all seems a bit sudden although with Blood coming how much time do we all have?
I like him very much and certainly find him attractive.  In fact having climb into bed with me and feeling him next to brought to the surface some very interesting feelings I’m just not sure I’m ready to act on them yet, not that Brit would ever pressure me to.  I think it was just easier to pretend to be asleep.
I waited until his breathing told me he was sleeping and then held him in my arms and watched him at rest.

[DMOE]

Went into to Hlint to do some crafting today.  I managed to make some polishing oil first although I’m still not very good!  Then I tried to make 5 rings and 1 amulet and actually managed to make 4 rings!!!  I also managed to cut and polish some gems so now I have no polishing oil left again.
I then ran into Master Noss, almost literally!  I was so excited about how well I’d done making my rings.  We chatted about Brit.  Master Noss is very worried about Brit.  He thinks there has been a change in him.  I was worried he meant since Brit had developed feelings for me but Master Noss seems to think that Brit’s feelings for me are good for him and may help him with whatever it is that is plaguing him.  I do hope so!
Master Noss also seemed to think he could see revenge or pain in my eyes.  I put him straight on the revenge part but I did wonder if the pain he thinks he can see is the knowledge that I’ll bury Brit and any children (if we are blessed) while still young myself.  When I mentioned that to him he did seem happier to know I had though about that careful!
Master Noss then vanished into the inn.  After a while I got bored and went looking for him to discover him in the inn talking to an ‘orc’.  He introduced him as Rolf and said he’d been cursed.  This may explain the strange orc’s around Hlint.  Rolf hope’s to sort out the curse soon!
It turns out that Rolf is one of the founders of the Raven Trading Company so we had a chat about rings and he’s going to send me a letter telling me which rings he needs most and we’ll work something out!
Master Noss and I then walked home.  We talked some more about Brit and Master Noss’s worries!  Master Noss thinks the problem may come from Brit’s childhood and have something to do with him being teased.  I hope Brit feels able to tell me at some point but I won’t push him to! I assured Master Noss that I only have Brit’s best interests at heart.
When we got home Master Noss was kind enough to give me a Feldspar mineral and a ring which he hopes will help me in the future.  We then went our separate way’s, him to clean and store the fish he had caught and me to ‘rest’.
 
I hope to see Brit soon but I must remember that he has jobs to do for both Master Noss and Master Argos!

[DMOE]

Could swear I heard Master Noss banging about earlier so decided to venture downstairs and see who was about.  Also Master Noss said he might take Elladanand me exploring.
What a surprise!   I came downstairs to discover a new table in the hall.  Not the most usually place I’ll admit but it certainly fit’s and will come in most useful! Got an even bigger shock when I went into the common room!  Master Noss now has a nice big chair with the couches around it.  I think it works well as an arrangement.  There is also lot’s of flowers and plants and a couple of pictures. I forgot to ask if Brit had painted them.  Must remember to do that!
Had another surprise as Elhara came to visit.  I had mentioned to her we might go exploring but wasn’t sure you’d come.  I introduced her to Master Noss and they seem to get on although Master Noss is very friendly so I’m not surprised!  Elhara said some very strange things for an elf again!
Elladan come out of his room and had a private to talk to Master Noss who then decided to catch up on his reading.  The rest of us were chatting when Brit arrived just as I was explaining to Elhara about ‘jugs’ being a slang term for women’s breasts.  I showed Elhara my new dress and she commented it did show off my ‘pottery’ very well.  I couldn’t resist admitting this was the point.  Brit made some noise about not wearing it out of the house but I couldn’t tell if he was serious.  I tried to make light of it.  Introduced Brit to Elhara and within minute he was offering her some of his armour. He really is sweet!
We decided to visit the crypts in Krandor as Elhara has heard of a little girl who has lost her Grandfather’s ashes but there are undead in the crypt so she can’t get them back, although Brit felt we should solicit extra help as it would probably be quite dangerous.  We got ready to leave and Brit commented that I shouldn’t forget to put my armour on.  I informed him it was safe in my pack!  Elhara and Brit ventured outside first and then I followed leaving Elladan to sort his kit out in peace.  I don’t think Brit was pleased to see me still in my dress.  I’m not sure I understand why but as it did distress him I changed into my armour straight away.  I did point out to him that if men wanted to make crude comments about me they will do so regardless of what I’m wearing although I do have to admit the dress does show a lot of flesh.  I also pointed out that what Brit thinks is much more important than others.  That seems to please him!  I pointed out I’d need another dress if this one is unsuitable to be seen in public and maybe Brit would like to help me pick it so I know he likes it.  He thought this was a very good idea!  Elladan came out and we headed off to Hlint.
When we arrived in Hlint it was off to the bank first for Elhara to put her new armour there until she can craft it into certain coloursto do with her religion and myself to put money in the bank.  That’s something I’m getting used to slowly!  Actually having so much money it’s safer in the bank!  At home I’d be lucky to save a few gold but that’s mainly because my parents provided all I needed!
It was very quiet in Hlint and we weren’t sure if we would be able to find help when I noticed a quiet man standing off to one side.  I was very forward and went over and asked him if he was busy.  I must say he was a bit strange but polite.  He informed that I wouldn’t wish to travel into the crypts with him but he might be able to help in other ways.  Elladan came over at that point and really didn’t seem keen on him and another group of ‘adventures’arrived and started talking to Brit.  My conversation with the man got lost in all the talking.  The other group decided to join us in our quest and we set off.  I think I recognised some of them from a different time but only one person introduced herself and for the life of me I can’t remember her name!
They were not very good at working as a team.  They ran off without a thought for the slowest member of the group.  If we had been attacked it would have caused problems! I did have to gently remind Brit that his legs are longer than mine also but as always Elladan made sure he was close by in case of trouble!
Part of the group also managed to have a fight once we reached the crypts! I have a bad feeling about this!
Well true to form they all ran in and it was a bad fight.  Elladan fell!  Once the monster’s had been killed they carried on with no thought for Elladan. Brit said we should wait for Elladan to rejoin us and agreeing we went outside the crypt.  The strange gentleman from Hlint was there.  He made a comment on the fact we were still alive and how we hadn’t needed his help.  I said I didn’t remember not asking for his help and he said I hadn’t asked either and he only does things if asked.  I find that strange but I also hadn’t realised I hadn’t asked!  I then asked him for his help and Elladan arrived just as the rest of the party shot out of the crypts being chased by undead.  We dispatched the undead and then the strange gentleman who won’t tell me his name cast lots of helpful spells on us.  We headed back into the crypts and Brit and I waited while Elladan prayed at his grave.  True to form everyone else ran ahead!  This included Elhara which surprised me a little.  I think I need to work out if this was because she was caught up with the rest or will always run ahead.  Eventually we worked our way into the deeper part of the crypts although Brit didn’t give me chance to open any locks or remove any of the traps.  I don’t think he likes me to be at the front! Will have words about that if it continues!!!!
Elladan died a second time in the middle of a group of undead.  I can not say for certain what happened but he seemed to be getting little support.  Then one of the spell casters made a very sarcastic comment about him ‘just being clumsy fighter’.  Brit was as angry as I was and whispered to me to just get out and not to try to fight. I must admit I no longer had the desire to help protect people who care not for one who has died trying to protect them!  Brit had words with them about this and they really didn’t seem to care.  Brit had to walk away!  I tried to make them see Brit’s point but they basically told me that Elladan was a Paladin and they were Necromancers so he didn’t like them anyway.  I was so angry!!!  Then they explained the luring tactic they use where they ‘bring’ monsters to the fighters.  This could be an interesting tactic if you know the strengths and weakness of all your fighters and EVERYONE knows it’sbeing used!  When I tried to explain mypoint of view they didn’t care!  At thatpoint I had to walk away because I was so angry and I wanted to see how my beloved was.  I will say this though, I will never adventure with them again unless they have changed their ways!!
I found Brit standing by the waterside (He seems to like water a lot!) and he was still very angry. Not only at the others but himself for not defending Elladan.  I explained that as far as I’m aware Elladan believes violence is a last resort so Brit fighting to defend his honour wouldn’t please him but by walking away he had allowed me to defend Elladan’s honour and are we not all of the same family so as such it shouldn’t matter which one of us defends the other!  Brit decided I am cleverer than him but I’m just better with words!  Little does he know the times I’ve had to talk my way out of things!!!  Brit really does need to talk to Elladan about his faith at some point!  I gave Brit a big hug and that seemed to help lots.
Elhara and Elladan came over at that point just as Brit was about to kiss me so he didn’t.  Bless him for being shy!  We decided to go to Port Hampshire as Brit wanted to show us around. Elhara nipped off to do something so I managed to signal to Elladan to leave us for a moment (“Why is that a cow over there Elladan?”) and claimed my kiss!
We went off to Port Hampshire.  Elhara and I got bitten by ants on the way and it made me at least (I can’t speak for her) very weak and feeling ill but thanks to Elladan’s healing and a good rest in Port Hampshire I felt much better.  Brit gave us a quick tour and then we headed to the inn!  Elhara brought us all a drink and we toasted friends! After the drink Elladan decided he wished to return home and Brit and I agreed.  Elhara decided to head towards Hlint so we set off together.  I got bitten by another ant and felt ill again. This time Brit healed me but it was a while before I could rest.
We were wondering through the Broken Forest when we ran into the people we went into the crypt with and Argos.  The other group tried to get Brit to go with them but he would not!  Argos walked with us to Fort Llast and then was heading to the mines in Haven.  Brit assured him he’d tell Master Noss that’s where Argos was when we returned home as he was sure Master Noss would wish to join him!
We took our leave of Elhara and Master Argos and returned home.  Then we bid Elladan goodnight and retired to our room.
Brit told me I look like a noble lady in my dress.  He really is so sweet!  He asked me if I had actually been asleep when he returned the night before.  I hesitated a moment but I could not lie to him so told him the truth.  He asked me why I had not spoken and I admitted that I have never shared a bed with a man before.  He suggested we settle down and go to sleep if I wanted to.  I asked if he wished me to hold him in my arms while he fell to sleep.  He really did so that is how we ended our night and if truth be told it was the best bit!

[DMOE]

Was relaxing at home when Brit arrived back and asked me what I fancied doing.  I pointed out that I needed to buy a new dress as he’s not keen on me wearing the one I have out of the house.  A bit too revealing and I think he’s worried how he’ll cope if someone comments on it.  I can understand this especially after my recent talk with Master Noss about our relationship.  I have told Brit he can pick everything about this dress so I know he is happy with it.  His piece of mind is more important than a dress!  We also had a discussion about our pasts.  I asked Brit if he was ‘experienced’ with women as he never tries to kiss me and always waits until I make the first move.  It turns out he is but suspected I’m not ‘experienced’ so didn’t want to push me.  He also worried it might bother me that he had known other women.  I told him it was to be expected and I really wasn’t something that bothered me.  I admitted I have never know a man and that some of the feelings he brings out in me can be scary.
Then Brit told me the bad news!  Master Noss is very unwell. Sharhar is by his bedside and Brit asked ever so nicely if he could spend his nights outside the door.  I told him he must do what he feels is right!
He asked Elladan to keep an ear out for ‘un-invited guests’ at night.  I pointed out that I am better suited to do that and he very nearly told me I couldn’t till I put him straight!
Master Argos returned and told us he was going mining and to collect Aloe to help Master Noss.  Elladan has decided to go with him.
Brit took my to a quiet island where I continued our talk from earlier and asked him why he didn’t kiss me.  He really is scared he will push me to hard to do something I’m not ready for.  I pointed out that showing me affection isn’t pushing!  I also pointed out that any feelings of confusion are my problem to work through and I’m sure I will with him by my side.  We then had a really romantic and quite steamy moment, well for us any way!
Then it was off to Hlint to collect cotton and make a dress.  There are orc’s by the cotton plants and I dropped one with a single arrow between the eyes which I think is a good reminder to Brit that while not the fighter he is that this cat has claws!
As were entered the craft hall I saw then gentleman who held us at the crypts so went over to thank him.  He apologised for forgetting my name and I had to admit I hadn’t actually told him my name so we introduced ourselves to each other.  I also met the dwarf he was talking to.  I took my leave of them after that as Brit hadn’t followed me and was waiting.  The gentleman is called Ozymandias.
God’s I don’t like tailoring!!!  Cotton has no soul, not like a gem.  A gem whispers what it wishes to be and if I’m careful and lucky I make it so but not cotton!!!  While I managed to make a dress from now on I buy them.  Now all we have to do is pick the colours and style!
Brit finally decided on a style and colours he likes.  Thank god he’s offered to pay for another dress as there were two styles he liked and I get to pick the colours of the next one!  It’s not bad I suppose but it’s very ‘human’.  I just hope he’s not trying to mould me into something I’m not!
We had a slow walk back to the house via the bank.  I asked him why he hadn’t joined me when I thanked Ozymandias.  Brit told me that while Ozymandias had been good to him, he could also be evil.  I promised him I’d remember that!  Brit also told me that Ozymandias also has a habit of licking women and Brit knows he would not be able to stop him if he wanted to lick me.  To cut a long conversation short Brit has promised to stay calm if Ozymandias does lick me and I have promised to do as much as possible to ensure I don’t encourage him to lick me.
When we got back to the house rather than go straight in I headed to the bench by the waterfall as water seems to calm Brit’s spirit and commented as such to him.  He asked me why and I’m not sure he agreed with my observations but this led to us discussing where we might live.  Brit asked if I wanted to live at my parent’s inn.  I think I handled that quite well because I can think of nothing harder than him being surrounded by elves as he grows old!  He has told me that as long as I say where he will build us a house to raise a family in.  He then asked me what my long and short term plans are.  How do I explain to him that choosing to have a relationship with him and (hopefully) spending the rest of his life with him are my short term plans?  I don’t want to keep reminding him of that difference because I know he’ll decided I should be with an elf regardless of what I say but it’s so hard to think in the ‘human’ timescale.  I did tell him that at some point I will take him to meet my family but that I also don’t know what they will think of him.  I asked if I would meet his kin and his answer was very strange.  He said something along the line of probably not unless they chose to.  Hopefully I will understand this time.  By then it was getting dark so we thought we’d better return to the house.  Brit to sleep outside Master Noss’s door and myself to guard the front door.  Elladan will guard while I rest.

[DMOE]

While sitting here guarding the entrance to my home I can’t help but think, my mind constantly ticking over.
  How do people manage to have relationships?  How do they cope with it all?
  It’s scary and wonderful all at the same time.  It makes me happy and frustrates me so also!
  Brit is a wonderful person but Master Noss is right he is young and so am I.  I worry it will not work and he will be hurt!
  I find it so hard to think as humans do where time is concerned.  Had Brit been born on the same day as I it is likely he would either be dead or crippled by age.  I know he tries not to think of this as then all he does is think of the pain I will feel at his passing.  I think if anything will cause us the most problems it is that difference.  I know he say’s he can cope now but it will only get more difficult.
  But having said all that as we grow and learn together our bond will become stronger and who is to say it will not stand all that time and fate will throw at it!
  I’m also excited by his strength but intimidated by it all at the same time!  I have seen him kill with a single blow yet he always hold’s me so tenderly.  Speaking of holding me, my body reacts in the strangest way when he holds me close.  It gets all tingly and part of wants to explore this more while part of me would rather run & hide.  I know Brit will never push me to do anything but how long will he wait for me to be ready?  Human’s can be so much more impatience than elves.
  I do wonder if I would have acted on my feelings so soon had Blood’s forces not arrived.

[DMOE]

I asked Elladan if he could guard the door while I sneaked out to Hlint.  While I ws there I managed to use my simple tailoring skills to make a very intresting outfit to show Brit when the time is right.  I just hope he likes it.  It is rather daring but I hope that when the night happens it will make it very special!

[DMOE]

I was in Hlint earlier when I ran into Brit.  He was bleeding and badly hurt I was so worried!  He’d been in the Haven mines with another fighter and it had gone badly. The other fighter had fallen and Brit was so hurt.  He asked me if I would help him return the fallen fighter to his grave to reflect. As if he needed to ask!
The fallen fighter arrived introduced himself as Ty.  I sent Brit off to rest before we ventured anywhere!
We headed out to Haven and ran into a wizard on the way who asked to join us as there is safety in numbers. We got Ty back to his grave and then Brit decided we should help him collect pelts for the fur trader in Hlint. Brit was really strange and just didn’t speak to me and hardly responded when I spoke to him the entire time we were with Ty and the wizard..  Eventually I asked if all was well with him and he basically told me to shut up! Well that made me really angry and worried.  Am I such an embarrassment to him that he can’t talk to me in front of strangers? Am I some dirty little secret to be kept behind closed doors?
I ignored him when we returned home but he hardly seemed to notice.  Elladan returned home and he seemed to notice straight away.  I would have left the house but I couldn’t see how without Elladan getting involved.  Brit offered Elladan some food but Elladan sensibly left to do some errands but not before offering me the chance to talk.  He does so remind me of my brother!
Eventually Brit realised that I wasn’t happy.  Took him long enough.  It’s safe to say we had our first row!  I asked him if he was embarrassed by me and he told me not to be silly and never say that again.  He even raised his voice to me! Bad, bad move!  I demand to know what he’d do if I did.  He didn’t answer.  I explained that while I understood his was distracted and had a lot on his mind that a kind word did not take much effort and he’d hurt me.  He was commenting about how he’s always screwing up so I asked him how long his other‘dalliances’ had lasted to try and illustrate the fact that we were in new territory so he immediately assumed I wanted to finish things, MEN!  Eventually it calmed down, helped I’ll admit by him telling me he loves me.  He’s neve rsaid that before.  It made me feel all warm inside.  I wish I could have said it back but the words were not there and it needs to be said in truth or not at all!  He made some reference to me having a bad day so I took the opportunity to point out I’d actually spent a large part of it making a surprise for him.  He asked me if he deserved it at the moment. I pointed out it was something I was planning on saving for a ‘special’ night so he’d get to see it in the future and he commented that would probably be when he was acting more like a husband and less like a young punk!
This really is scary now. It’s all happening so fast and he thinks I’m perfect too.  I keep asking him not to put me on a pedestal as it only means I have further to fall but I don’t think it’s sinking in!
We kissed and made up and he went to sit watch outside Master Noss’s room.
Elladan returned a short while later and I realised my ox had wondered off.  I was hoping it was in Hlint so asked Elladan if he fancied a walk. He being the nice soul he is, agreed. It seems like he’s had an ‘interesting’ night too.  He was out collecting plants and ran into a couple and accidentally introduced them to some tree ents.  I know he is worried about them so I helped  him search the inn and treated myself to a quick drink.  Elladan understands how rushed this all fees to me.  I have a horrible fear that once Master Noss is out the woods that Brit will propose marriage and while I’m certainly not against it and part of me is excited by the idea I can not understand how Brit can be so certain about it all after such a short time.  There is no point asking him either as I know he’ll just tell me how wonderful I am and scare me about the pedestal again!
What am I going to do? I care very deeply for this man and my feelings continue to develop but it’s also all so fast but then if it’s not then his life will be over and we will have done nothing.  I should not get ahead of myself and actually wait until he does ask me to marry him before I worry about it!  Ah to see the world in the simple terms Brit does!

[DMOE]

Went Hlint today and saw Brit chatting to the rude gentleman who interrogated the orc at the craft hall.  I still went over and said hello!
Brit introduced me to him (he’s called Pendar) and the first thing he did is apologise for his behaviour.  There is hope for him yet!
Actually I over heard him telling Pendar about our relationship.  He worried me slightly as I could swear he told Pendar that we just enjoy each others company and it’s nothing serious but yet he told me he loved after our first row.  How can we not be serious and yet he love me?  I just don’t understand.  I might ask him about it later but I’m sure he’s sick to death of my silly questions!
On a happier note Pendar turned out to actually be really nice and we had a very fun chat although I’m not sure poor Brit thought so!
It also turns out that the orc Iwas talking to when I last met Pendar is actually the Ranger I know.  He is cursed the same as Rolf.
Pendar was trying to talk me into join Brit and him down the mines but I think I’ve had enough of mines for the time being!
Another lady joined us for a short while and she seemed nice although as usual I can’t remember her name!
Pendar said he looks forward to getting to know me better and was giving the impression that I’m good for Brit so I’ve told him he’s always welcome at the house!
Ty then joined us and was asked to join them down the mine.  I took my leavea t this point to go and craft.
Well my crafting went badly insome ways and amazing in others!  I tried to make 3 rings and only managed to make one but oh the one I did manage to make!  It was a Feldspar similar to the one I made for Brit but I just seemed to know exactly how to work the gem and mental as it turned out so much better!
Elhara very kindly gave me some more mineral gems including a garnet so I think if I manage to make a garnet ring I should give it to her.
I also managed to make myself 20 arrows!  Not completely from scratch as a large armoured fairy left me copper arrow heads in my room!  But I found the shafts and feather myself on earlier trips.
I retuned home and tidied a bit until Brit came looking for me.  He had a present for me, a mystery mineral!  Theyare my favourite type.  I love waiting tosee what is revealed as I gently wash them.
We had a really good chat (just for a change!) where I managed to get across to him that sometimes fear of the next step prevents me from taking it and that as he more experienced in some areas he may have to take the lead even though he doesn’t wish to push me into anything.  He told me that he wants somethings to be special and plans a nice meal, fancy clothes and stuff.  I pointed out that all we really need is the two of us and that I already have something to wear!  He also insited on going outside to shout to the world that he loves me!
I made Brit rest before he went tosit outside Master Noss’s room.

[DMOE]

I have made an arrangement with Rolf of the Raven Trading Company!  Unfortunately he has little use for the rings I have made so far which if I’m honest is no surprise but he his willing to give me gems on a 2:1 ratio. He gives me two lots of gems to craft and I give him an item back to ‘pay for the gems’ which while not getting me gold helps me practice.  He also gave me a list of the things he needs most which will be really helpful as well as suggesting I ask Geir if he'd be willing to teach me as he also Gem Crafts.
I also ignored my shyness on these issues and ask him if in his experience as a healer he know of anything that would prevent a lady from becoming ‘with’ child.  He said he didn’t know himself but would ask round people he knew to see if there is such a thing.  I then realised I hadn’t asked him not to mention who it is for as I have no idea how Brit would feel know I had done this.  Rolf assured me he would be discrete and not mention me.
The only things is do I tell Brit I have done this?  We are both young and not ready at all to bring a child into the world never mind Blood’s approaching forces!  I just feel if there is someway of delaying the chance until a time we are more settle both within Mistone and our relationship it can only be good but men can be so strange about these things.  Also if I don’t tell him then technically Iam keeping a secret and I promised him no secrets.
Having a relationship is so very hard.  I wonder if it will get easier with time!!!  I suppose I could leave until Rolf finds out if it is possible or not. I mean if there is nothing that can be taken then Brit hardly needs to know I asked but if there is something and I can get hold of it then it would be wrong to take it and not talk to him about it.  
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I think I will leave until I know there is something that can be taken.  No point in having a possible ‘interesting’ conversation to find out it was in vain!
Now I just have to await Rolf’s letter.  He did warn me it might take awhile!