Shelu's Secrets

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Dear Diary,

I've been spending much time at the temple lately and don't have much time to spend with Barion. I miss him, but I know that we'll spend time together soon.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

There was a fierce battle in Velensk and many died. Blood had called may strange creatures. It is difficult to know what spells to prepare for such battles. At one point I was woken while resting and didn’t have any spells to help my comrades. It was most frustrating, but we drove back the forces in the end.

Barion fought like a true hero! He is so very brave.

I went on a little adventure with Pendar, kloss, Leo, Shadoe and others. I hadn’t really adventured with Pendar and kloss before. We went to the Beholder’s cave. Nothing to mine down there, only aggressive monsters.

I’m keeping an eye on the heavens. The aggressive and angry influence is growing stronger by the day. It looks like things will only get better next week. I hope and pray that Aeridin and the other good gods keep us all safe.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

Another battle against Blood's forces yesterday. This time at sea. It was most exciting with the strangest of creatures I've ever seen. Giant crabs and other things that I cannot even describe because they were so weird. Luckily not many casualties. However, at one point Barion was killed by a daemon, but luckily I had a raise dead spell to bring him back. He seemed a bit confused when he got back, but after a while he was fine. Oh I worry about him so very much. I'm glad that I was there to help.

There were three servants of Aeridin at the battle (including me). At one point all three of us were praying together for help. I was beautiful.

There is much preparation for me to do this weekend. Many potions and things to make to help friends. I have a strong feeling that the war is just going to get worse during the next few days. Hopefully the aggressive energy will dissipate quickly. It is said that Blood is merely testing us with these recent battles. That means that he's holding back and will still unleash his full force on us. I'm very concerned. These next few days will see much fighting. The destruction is a pity, but perhaps one should look at it as a kind of cleansing. I see the war as a fire that burns away the deadwood in the forest, once it is over the forest can then grow again. Well that is if the fire doesn’t become an inferno and kills everything, which is what Blood wants.

Luckily, there are many people here who have a strong interest in stopping him. I am optimistic. It may not be easy, but good will prevail.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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*You find a note on one of the screens in the bedroom*

Dear Barion,

I'm not feeling very well and have gone to the temple for aid. When I heard that my cousin Mizzuth is here it made me very homesick. It is my Mother's birthday today and I feel awful that I couldn't give her a hug and kiss to say thank you for being born (tear stains).

I've been lying on the bed crying and sleeping, but dreaming of my parents. My stomach is sore and I feel weak. This is why I've left to the temple. I hope that being in that holy place Aeridin's light will shine on me and make me feel better.

Please forgive me for not being with you now. I'm sure that I'll be better in a day or two.

E ceela aey Barion. I'm so sorry that I'm not in your warm arms right now (tear stains).

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Dairy,

I feel much better now. I probably just needed a little rest.

It was wonderful to see Barion again – I missed so very much while I was at the temple.

We tried out one of the new portals and went to Dregar. Unfortunately, that place is a lot more dangerous than Mistone and we ran into some very unfriendly fairies. The Soul Mother visited me and took another piece of my soul. I’m afraid that if things go on like this Barion will outlive me!

On the brighter side, we bought a house yesterday in Haven. It is very big inside with an upstairs section. I hope that we’ll be very happy there. Barion has already begun to move our stuff from Krandor to 180 Haven. I don’t see this house as a permanent abode for us, but it is a good investment. We both prefer Pranzis, but we can’t afford it at the moment.

Barion had to borrow some money from Trysk to pay for the house and we must pay him back as soon as possible. Neither Barion nor I like to be in debt to anyone.

Oh Fifur also bought a house – 101 Hlint. He was going to give Ravenne and me a tour, but then Barion decided to buy the house. It seemed very impulsive to me, but Barion pointed out that we had to act quickly because it would have been sold if we had waited any longer.

Ravenne was telling me that she and Annun were thinking of buying a house in the Forest of Mists. Oh that name sounds so romantic! Perhaps Barion and I should have a look there because it may be even nicer than Pranzis.

Barion showed me a temple to Aeridin in North Point. It is very easy to get to from Hlint and I can see myself spending much time there. It isn't as beautiful as the one in Ranger's vale, but at least one wouldn't get wet if it rained. Hmm unless the roof leaked of course.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

Ooh I had such a superb day yesterday. Well I died twice, but besides that. Barion and I decided to go to Dregar. I do love to travel and I especially like Dregar because it is so beautiful and interesting. We found a little Inn somewhere and made wonderful and passionate love, but then Barion had to leave to attend to something. I considered going back to Mistone, but got a message from Ravenne that she was also on Dregar somewhere. I decided to stay and adventure with her. I was getting directions from her by mephit messenger. I was unsure at first, but decided to just go for it. And I was fine besides falling flat on my face a couple of time trying to climb rocks. Thank Aeridin for healing spells!

We met up with Ael, a very dark skinned Drow monk that I’d met once when he had the form of an orc. He showed us some lovely houses in Pranzis including a most magnificent mansion and a charming place that Ravenne and Annun want to buy. After the little tour we met up with Mith, an elf with a strange skin tone. He’s not like other elves and I should ask him about it sometimes. Ooh that reminds me! Ael made some darkness and put strange lights around me. He said that the light help him to focus on his enemies. Oh these friendly Drow are such fun, but I never really realised how they suffer from being so sensitive to light. It must be most uncomfortable for them until they get used to it. Poor dears.

Well the party went to some caves in the Forest of Mists. Many giants blocked our path, but we got there okay. Once inside and deep into the cave things got very dangerous with giants popping up and attacking us. How rude! But I suppose they were just protecting “their” gems. That when Ravenne, Mith and I died. Luckily I had a raise dead spell to help Ravenne and Mith back to life, although Ravenne didn’t have a sol stone on her. Silly thing must have forgotten it at home, but it did teach me that I should check for one using that strange eye I got from the temple in Hlint. After I’d died the second time I decided to just rest in Pranzis. I was so tired from all the adventuring and it is amazing how dying can make one tired.

Barion was kind enough to allow Mizzuth to have a key to our home so that he can store some his stuff in a chest there. I had to laugh because Barion asked if Mizzuth was single and I answered that I don’t think he’s interested in girls or boys, only magic. Wizards can be so strange, but it is very interesting to watch them work.

I hope that the rest of the weekend goes okay.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I had quite an eventful day yesterday. I was on Dregar and met up with Ravenne and Annun. To get to them was a most interesting experience. All I had were simple directions, but I somehow managed and met them in Pranzis. We then went to the desert and into the silver mines. Annun left us and Ravenne and I continued the adventure. I saw a scorpion the size of a dragon and many, many giants. At one point in our adventure I was playing in a pond in an oasis when some giants came. I was so busy worrying about my armour getting full of sand and rusty that I didn’t realise how close I was to them and Ravenne and I got killed. My foolishness must have caught the Soul Mother’s attention because she paid me a visit. Oh but that reminds me to polish and clean my armour!

After a little more adventuring Ravenne and I sat next to a beautiful lake and fell asleep. I woke up a while later and decided to head back to Mistone on my own. Perhaps another foolish mistake, because I took a wrong turn and climbed down a mountain where I should have climbed up some stairs. I was caught by a bugbear without my armour on and fell while trying to climb back up. That also caught the Soul Mother’s attention.

I am now very close to death. I was in such shock that when I finally got to Mistone I ran into Barion and fell into his arms and sobbed. He was very angry with Ravenne thinking it was her fault, but it was all my own foolishness that caused me to die both times. When I was with Ravenne and Annun they gave me much protection and advice on how to stay safe. Annun is so very knowledgeable. She made darkness for us again and made Ravenne light up in that strange light that Ael had shown me. She told me that it is useful to use on monsters that can make themselves invisible. I thought that it was a spell that Drow learn, but she said that it’s an innate ability. She also mentioned that some Drow can levitate, she said in passing that she can’t anymore.

Well on bright side I do feel stronger after all that.

After I’d collected myself a group of us went back to Dregar to get mahogany. Afterwards, we were back on Mistone for topaz and then to the Barbarian Islands for alexandrite. Angela and Abi were so very helpful and accompanied us on both adventures. We also got some help from Quantum, a servant of Toran and a most skilled cleric. He also glows like Justain.

Anyway, I left the others on Leilon dock when we came back because I was so very exhausted.

I hope that today is better than yesterday. I’m sure it will be.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I had a very busy day yesterday crafting gems and things. Luckily the monotony was broken by trips to Haven Mines and Storan’s Crypt. Barion brought Abi and Lokri to the house for a visit and we were talking about Ozy. I mentioned that I feel a little left out because he’s never licked me and he’s always licking Angela. By a weird coincidence he was there to help us in Storan’s Crypt and all he wanted were the bodak teeth. Since Barion and I can quite easily collect those I gave him all that I had. Unfortunately, I only had three, but he seemed happy enough with them to lick my helmet. Barion said that he wouldn’t be very happy if Ozy licked me, but I guess it would depend where I was licked.

I visited Fifur’s house in Hlint. Pendar was there, being his usual charming self. There was a painting of Fifur’s father in the one room and apparently he suffocated to death when a prank on his birthday went wrong. These dwarves are strange. Two of the father’s friends took his favourite cow and threw it off a cliff and it landed on Fifur’s father, but unfortunately for him his head ended up the smelly end of the poor cow and he died before the other dwarves could get him out. Apparently the cow died of constipation. Fifur said that his grandfather, a great storyteller, had told him that story. Hmm, he seemed convinced that it was true, but hmm I wonder… then again stranger things have happened. I was trying very hard not to giggle because I didn’t want to show any disrespect for Fifur’s dead father.

I’m still making some items for Abi and her leather crafting. She makes such wonderful things and was telling me that she’s been planetouched. I was most fascinated by this and should ask her more about it. Apparently Ozy is also planetouched, but in a different way to Justain. I’d always wondered why Abi’s skin was so pale.

Ravenne told me that the Soul Mother had visited her for the ninth time yesterday! It was very bad news for me to hear. I’m so very concerned for her now. I wish that Annun would just chain her to the bed and only allow her to go to safe places.

I’m going to be extra careful from now on since the Soul Mother finds my soul so appealing. I was telling Barion that perhaps I needed to be visited by the Soul Mother all of these times to be convinced that I should think carefully before taking risks. I’m enjoying my life with him too much for it to end now.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I had another visit from the Soul Mother and it is with great fear that I write this. I heard a rumour that two black crates went missing from Leilon, and Barion and I went looking for them. They are (or were in case they’ve been found) underground somewhere. We went to Broken Halls, but Barion felt that we needed more people to help us there.

A large group of us gathered for the adventure. I wanted to leave the party because I don’t like to travel in large groups. I start feeling all dizzy and confused, but I went with anyway. We didn’t find any of the crates and I started feeling very claustrophobic so I left the party and tried to run out on my own. I ran into some rats and instead of just continuing to run I stopped and tried to cast a hammer of the gods on them. They swarmed around me and… I… exploded. That’s what the Soul Mother does to one’s body when she takes a piece of one’s soul.

Well looking on the bright side of things I got out of the dungeon eventaully, but not in one piece.

I’m feeling very afraid now. I may never see my family again. Well cousin Mizzuth is here, but my close family especially my mother and sister (who I haven’t really mentioned to anyone). I left Voltrex without saying a word to her and feel so guilty about it that I just pretend that she doesn’t exist so that I don’t have to feel the guilt of leaving her behind. If I don’t speak about her I don’t think of her that much and I don’t miss her. But I’m lying to myself, because deep down I do miss her and the guilt is always there even if I don’t acknowledge it.

Now it looks as if I’ll be leaving my darling Barion in a way that neither of us can really prevent… Death. Death seems so final even though our spirits continue living in other forms, on other planes. I suppose one becomes attached to one’s body and life, so much so that it is difficult to imagine existing in another way. But the adventure continues even when one casts away the body at the end of a particular life. Barion and I will always be together.

Oh gosh, listen to me – I’m writing as though I’m dead already! I’m very much alive, my soul is just a little lighter than it was yesterday.

I’m feeling so very sad to know that I’m going to leave all of these wonderful people behind. All my lovely friends. I’ll miss them so very much. My best friends Ravenne and Angela. Of course I’ll miss the other wonderful people I’ve come to know the shadowy Abigail, Fifur with his funny stories, the charming Pendar, naughty Kai, very naughty Taislin, the tiger Trysk, lovely Ranewin, Justain, kloss, even Ozy. But I’ll miss Barion the most until we are rejoined on another plane. Oh goodness, I refuse to feel all sad and depressed. Everyone dies eventually and I’m going to make the best of the time that I have left. Hopefully it shall be for a long time still. It may very well be, but I refuse to mope around feeling sorry myself. That would be terrible not only for me, but for those around me.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

[Leanthar]

//Just so you know. This will is invalid and is considered muling between characters. A will is allowed when it is between two seperate players and two seperate characters. In this will you are transfering items from a character that you play to another character that you play. That is against the rules.

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//Sorry, I didn't think of mulling when I wrote it. I've taken the will out for now. Thanks for pointing that out.

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Dear Diary,

I’m sitting here in my favourite place, Ranger’s Vale, it’s so peaceful here. Nim told me that Ravenne is dead. Barion apparently found her body on Rilara. Oh I miss her so very much.

When I saw her yesterday she gave me a hug, said that she loved me and called me her bestest friend. I had a strange feeling then that I’d never see her again, but I tried to shake it off and wiped the sad tear away so that she wouldn’t see that I was crying. Oh Ravenne my bestest friend is gone. *tear stains*

My bestest friend Ravenne. I will miss you so very very much. *more tear stains*
You’re now gone, but I know that wherever you are you are okay.
Trysk said that you’d be in your tribes Happy Hunting Grounds and I wish you very happy hunting there.
My dear Ravenne I love you my dear and bestest friend. *tear stains*

Love and sadness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I’ve just found out that Ayla is also dead. Oh dear Ayla. She gave me potions when I first got here that helped me to stay alive in the sewers.

Oh I feel terrible – so many wonderful people gone in the last few days.

I must go to the temple at once and meditate on her passing. She was also a priestess in the service of Aeridin.

Oh my dear Barion must be so worried for me now. I’ll leave him a note to explain why I need to be in the temple for a couple of days. I hope that he understands that Ayla may need spiritual support from a fellow cleric.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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*You find a note on the bed with a flower next to it*

My Darling Barion,

I've just found out about Ayla's death and I feel shocked. I wanted to tell you this in person, but I couldn't find you anywhere. I must leave immediately to the temple to meditate and give Ayla spiritual help as best I can.

I'll probably be gone for a couple of days, but will try to come home and see you in between the meditations and prayers.

You know that I'll be safe in the temple so please don't worry about me, but please look after yourself my darling.

I love you forever.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I felt the kiss of death yesterday, but luckily the Soul Mother didn’t visit. I was in Direwood Caves with Barion, Rylok, Rugo, Aries, Rakan, Sen and a wemic whose name begins with a Z. Everything was going fine until a huge group of ogres surrounded me and Rakan. I tried to run away, but there were just too many and I fell. I found myself in Leilon where I’d bound my soul. A lady with a hood covering her face (I later found out that her name was Alantha) was nearby drinking water, but I was so shaken that I just wandered a bit, stood there and stared at nothing. I hope that she doesn’t think that I was being rude. I saw her again a while later in Hlint, but there were many people around so I didn’t get to apologise.

I was sitting with Barion on the bench listening to all the people and he was rubbing my neck. He gave me some minerals and I made the excuse to go home to drop them off so that I could be alone with him. We made wonderful love and had a relaxing bath afterwards before going to bed. I love him so very much. I told him how scared I was of him when we first met. He’s such a strong and brave warrior, and I felt so very small when I was with him. I feel so very comfortable around him now that looking back I can only laugh at my silliness.

He told me that he didn’t think that he was good enough for me and I was afraid of not being good enough for him! It’s strange how fear could have prevented us from connecting like we have and loving each other so completely. Oh he is so beautiful and thoughtful.

Aries is getting very skilled and can change her form to become baby dragons that breath fire, cold, green stuff and even lightning! I asked her what it was like to fly (when she turns into a colourful bird) and she said that she feels free up there and can see everything without being seen. However, she did mention that griffins sometimes try to have her for lunch.

I’ve been doing quite a lot of crafting lately. Been making some jewels and electric arrows. I showed them to Jacchri and he was interested in buying them. I’d never considered selling them before, but was pleased to traded them for a crystal rod and a fine fire opal that I made into a ring. I made him another electric enchantment for his arrows and he gave me a crystal rod that’s stronger than the ones I can make. I’ll try to enchant it soon.

I haven’t seen Angela for quite a while – I wonder how she’s doing. I should ask Abigail when I next see her.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

Mizzuth has selected our wedding date by consulting his star charts and I’ve written to Reventage asking if we could be married on the 23rd of Winter Snow (Decilar). I’ve asked her to marry us because she represents Ilsare the Goddess of love, but I’d also like a representative of Aeridin to be there because Barion and I are planning on bringing new life into the world.

I asked Reventage to marry us in the Aeridin Temple in Ranger’s Vale. It is a most beautiful place, I just hope that it will be available. If not I’m sure that we’ll find another suitable place for the ceremony.

We plan to have a big party afterwards sometime, but I’ll leave that to Barion to organise.

At last I’ll be able to wear my wedding ring! Barion wants me to take his surname, but perhaps we should take each other’s surnames? Barion U’alarune and Shelu Firesteed? Hmm, I think I’m being silly again because what surname would our children have and people would be confused.

Love and kindness,
Shelu

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Dear Diary,

I didn’t have a very good day yesterday. I decided to collect some mushrooms in Krandor Crypts, but my protection spells faded and I didn’t even notice. Some nasty green and fire bones killed me, but luckily the Soul Mother didn’t visit. I met up with Barion on the way back from the bindstone in Hlint to get my grave. He got very angry at the undead and rushed into the crypts wielding his sword, but he’d forgotten to put his armour on!

I remember him taking his flaming sword out and thought that he’d change into his armour when we got closer tot he crypt, but in his furious state he forgot. We both died, but unfortunately the Soul Mother visited him. I felt terrible. We were walking back tot Krandor and bumped into Nim and Rylok. That was when Barion said that he’d forgotten to put his armour on and I laughed because I’d done that before in the Goblin caves. He was not very impressed and felt that I was making fun of him.

I felt even worse after that!

Eventually we got to our graves and I spoke to him outside of the crypts. He felt like a failure and was berating himself. I tried to tell him that we all make mistakes and learn from them, but I could sense that he was very upset. I’m not sure if he was upset with me, or himself or both of us.

He seemed to be okay when I left for the temple, but I’ve been very worried about him. I hope that he’s okay.

Maybe it’s just nerves before the wedding or something. Hmm, it might be because I’d put myself in danger, but I didn’t think that I was in danger because my spells usually keep me safe in Krandor Crypts. For some reason when I could see that I was likely to die I wasn’t concerned about the Soul Mother. I didn’t feel that it was my time to die just then. Perhaps I was being foolish and deluding myself.

On a brighter note I’ve been communicating with Reventage about the wedding arrangements and will probably hear from her in the next few days.

Love and kindness,
Shelu