Author Topic: My Life spilled onto parchment, the Diary of Ash Willo (Read 2127 times)

Zelda1 · « **Reply #20 on:** April 30, 2006, 04:00:08 PM »

*a short note*
ignorance is bliss... keep thinking that and don't blow up...but then again.. See no evil. Hear no evil. Speak no evil. Have no fun. oh and I need to buy a bucket...

Zelda1 · « **Reply #21 on:** May 04, 2006, 06:55:18 PM »

*little bits and pieces have been erased*
That's it. I'm going away. Today, me being my stupid self, relized that Rhynn wasn't a virgin.. well she wasn't a virgin before. Just hard to explain. Rhynn got upset... so I'm prolly on the top of her "to kill" list. Then I had to get salt...ran into her a Frills... how lucky am I? So after a nice conversation with the turquoise bard, I went back to Hlint. And there was Ireth with her newest man. She's getting married apparently. I'm happy for her. Not going to lie about that.. I sat next to Rhynn and Frills on the benches. So Rhynn, automatically moved.. I wanted to tell her sorry... but she ran away. So then I had to find her...and eventually saw her by the pond with Frills. I gave up for the day and sat next to Ty on the bench. Then, sure enough, I heard Ireth say "Do you want me to explain to her in small words to leave you alone?" I just about screamed.. but instead I asked Ireth why she hates me. I've been wondering for quite some time. She said it was because my respect for nature was laughable. That was it. .. just looking at the sky and watering the flowers. I think I'll be here for quite some time after Ireth's words and Rhynn's hatred finally kick in. *tears blot the page and smear some of the words*

Zelda1 · « **Reply #22 on:** May 14, 2006, 12:26:39 AM »

*scribbles of dark skies line the paper* *in scribbles*
The sky that i once looked to for answers has grown dark... I don't know why everything is happening at once..
I miss him constantly.. but why? I grow weary of love and all of its nonsense... Just to think he could be having the same dark thoughts rips me apart..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #23 on:** May 18, 2006, 07:07:04 PM »

The day grows as dim as the nights once were.. fear for shadows is ever growing..
but that's why ale is so popular and the Freelancers were swamped... Quill owes me for bringing the circus there.. he seemed a bit overwhelmed so, I took over for most of the night. Being a bartender is fun..but hard.. I think I'm pretty good at it though.. *shrugs and climbs up her tree*

Zelda1 · « **Reply #24 on:** May 22, 2006, 07:06:07 PM »

Death is in the air.. I fear.. for all.. for Glenn.. for Anna.. for Addi ... for everyone that walks these lands.. The Soul Mother takes no pitty on those who beg, or pray, or love. What is there to be done? We can walk this world over a million times and never find the answer.. I feel the war in my head.. ever raging.. I hear the cries of those who have lost their loved ones.. play time is over.. war is at our doorstep, but our heroes fall everyday.. the dreams are gone, replaced by nightmares.. I fear resting, for the nightmares are getting worse..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #25 on:** May 24, 2006, 06:40:08 PM »

I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will be nice to paladins. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. I will not wear a hood. ... "there. I did it!" *Ash gets up from the fireplace and walks over to Tyrians bed to show her the progress she has made.* "gah.. asleep already Ty?" *silence* .. love..marriage.. children.. depressing words indeed..

Zelda1 · « **Reply #26 on:** May 30, 2006, 06:55:40 PM »

I hope the year ends soon. This must have a been Ilsare's year, with everyone getting married and having children. But here I am, alone up in a tree. No husband. No children. No one to hug or kiss whenever I feel like. Is this the true life of a ranger? being alone with no one that cares for you in a loving sort? well, rangers do have each other... too bad I'm in love, but then again I think I always have been, just haven't realized it till now. I know another heart broken elf running around Hlint is never good, but maybe one day he'll come back if the soul mother is defeated once more... even though he isn't gone yet, but I constantly worry.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #27 on:** June 05, 2006, 07:42:24 AM »

*Ash sits in a tree in the forest still giggling from the day that had just past.*
"I'm crazy... and why did I say that?" *she looks down to the boar questioningly. The boar oinks and nibbles on some giant meat* "they're right.. I HAVE changed.. Is it a good change though? I hope.. I talk more.. more stand off-ish I guess.. maybe I should try not wearing a hood.. and not roaring like dragons.." *she shrugs and pulls her hood over her eyes* "someday.. eventually.."

Zelda1 · « **Reply #28 on:** June 05, 2006, 10:41:24 PM »

I am either crazy.. or very confident. I think crazy suits me better. Today has been a blast..one of the best days ever! I finally, after years of sitting and it bottling inside me, told him.. it took all the guts in me though.. I bit my tounge a lot.. but it finally popped out.. I'm not sure how others will take it.. I know the dwarves might be a little hurt.... or they might go after him.. which I doubt..sorta. I just hope he really feels the same way. *she smiles to herself and climbs up her tree*

Zelda1 · « **Reply #29 on:** June 07, 2006, 07:01:00 AM »

*Ash climbs up her old tree in Wolfswood and starts talking to herself as usual*
"life is hard but full of new experiences and much love and thinking.. I wonder how Exo will take all this.. Oh gods.. I hope no one gets hurt.. heh.. And Glenn.. it'll be weird.." *she smiles and sighs* "Now I remember why I haven't been with anyone fer years..but at least he isn't all mushy gushy.."

Zelda1 · « **Reply #30 on:** June 07, 2006, 02:07:35 PM »

*Ash walks into the Forest of Mists looking for the boar she saw a few days ago. She quickly spots him still eating a giant's leg and climbs up the tree beside him*
"h..hhh..he..kissed me.. Boar.. I think I'm still dreaming.. but.. I swear he.. but that.. he couldn't.. oh gah forget it I can't talk.. so how have you been the past few days little boar?" *she smiles.. obviously still in awe and listens to the boar blabber on about how many adventures never say hello to him*

Zelda1 · « **Reply #31 on:** June 08, 2006, 09:51:13 AM »

*Ash sits in Folian's grove, where she feels most content*
"I need to think of what's most important. Well that's really easy..what else have I been dreaming of for ages? but.. who is most important?... that's even easier.. my friends...*she looks around a bit, realizing who she truly cared about the most* "if it wasn't for him.. I prolly wouldn't have a faith... or a goal.. or a dream.. but he replaced me already.. like I am gone.." *she lies back and looks up through the trees into the sky* "he better leave me a really good pie in his will is all I can say"

Zelda1 · « **Reply #32 on:** June 13, 2006, 09:13:47 PM »

*Ash walks through Rilara, pat Dinen and into the Belgaer Hills. She spots one of Blood's dwarven merc and quickly falls into the shadows* "someone's been where they're not s'pose to be" she mumers to herself.. *she keeps walking, not sure exactly where she's headed.. and ends up beside the Delwin River when she sees a skeleton staring at her from the other side. She draws her blades and demolishes it* "ok... I smell a fish.. and it isn't in the river" *she progresses toward Bone Hill, still muttering a bit. Another skeleton appears there, a little to the left of the enterance. She does the same* "ok.. this isn't funny anymore.. this cant be a good sign" *she slowly walks straight into Bone Hill absentmindedly. The demonflesh golem smells her coming and charges straight at her. She is mortafied but has enough sence to run. She quickly approaches the Delwin River and lets out a long sigh* "well..I guess now I know why people don't wander into Bone Hill.. even when they're off in their own little world.. but this is getting weird.. the guard, AND two skellies.. Maybe I'm having a nightmare.. I should go back to bed." *she sighs deeply and heads for the nearest tree, mumbling the entire way* "why... do I miss him so much?"

Zelda1 · « **Reply #33 on:** June 22, 2006, 10:58:15 PM »

I dunno how.. but he will pay. And I'll stand by his grave and laugh. I have gained respect for someone once hated today.. and lost all respect for someone once loved. I spent a while talking with my friends at Axo's.. It was just what I needed to light the beacon once more.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #34 on:** June 24, 2006, 11:09:53 PM »

* Ash sits in a tree, over looking Lake Rillion. She tries to ignore Kiva and Rhynn, as sickening to her as it is. She climbs down slowly and makes her way past them to Wolfswood. She sits a corner of the forest trying to gather her thoughts* 'War. Death. Betrayal. I set out to help Dregar, so I could protect Folian's temple and all of the friends and memories I have there. The succubus ruined it all.. it came right at me.And the thought of seeing around twenty people along the road in Pranzis makes me sick. Jareg.. Tegan.. both lying there. I didn't get there in time.' *she looks into the dark sky and sighs* 'What do I have left that she can ruin? She's like my sister..almost my twin. But she's really starting to piss me off, even if I do love her. Oh well, there are more important things to worry about. I am Ash. Hear me roar.' *She slowly drifts off into a meditation of sorts* 'howl.. not roar.. howl..'

Zelda1 · « **Reply #35 on:** July 01, 2006, 03:23:54 PM »

*Ash stumbles into North Hlint, trying to keep her sanity, their words still ringing in her head.

"You are my hero Ash Willo.." It was so unsettling.. eerie to see Glenn like that. She could imagine herself doing that, but never EVER Glenn. She walks around four feet and colapses in tears. She finally stumbles up after quite some time of just laying there, crying. She walks behind the tower and prays feverishly.

"Longstrider, keep him safe. I don't know what I would do without him. I'm counting on you Prince of Wolves.. take care of my Glenn. Let him heal on your cliffs.. keep him sane. Don't let him lose hope as I once did.."

Zelda1 · « **Reply #36 on:** July 02, 2006, 12:35:05 PM »

*Ash mumbles to herself in the kitchen in Krandor.

"Nepp, Nepp, Neppy, Glenn, Glenn, Glenny, Glenn. insanity, depression... hope, love, faith.. Why the hells am I talking to myself?"

She grumbles and goes on digging in a chest.

"Love.. hope.. faith.. pride.. and there I go again.." *she finally finds a piece of blueberry pie and enhales it.* "Pie.. just think pie.."

Zelda1 · « **Reply #37 on:** July 08, 2006, 12:09:49 PM »

He is gone. She took my Glenn. I will find her. But first I will make Glenn proud.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #38 on:** July 09, 2006, 03:45:31 PM »

I hope he is watching my ever move like he used to. It would make him so proud to see me. I feel my connection to nature once again.. I can summon an ancient dire bear.. something Glenn would love to have done I bet. And I can shapeshift... maybe with his passing came my wisdom, but oh how I wish he could have lived for just another week! I still can't say his name without tears coming to my eyes. I got him a diamond.. polished and fine. I can't wait to see him again! I'll bring it with me and make him so proud.. how I miss hugging him.. I should've done it more often.

He's looking at me. I know he is. He's in the shadows right behind me.
*She smiles a bit and wipes tears from her eyes*
I'll be with you soon.

Zelda1 · « **Reply #39 on:** July 11, 2006, 12:37:48 PM »

*Ash sits atop a cliff, the wind rushing thru her hair and drying her tears*

She must take me soon.. I have a debt to repay. My Glenn ripped away.. soon to be another I love. Maybe I'm meant to be alone, to not feel the great pain of those I love being taken from me. I know I've changed a great bit since the dragon called me. Looking back at my diary I miss the old me. Fun, carefree.. but I was lost, without a faith. That's when I met Glenn.

We live life for a purpose, no matter how life treats us we must fullfill that purpose. When you fullfill that purpose, there is no point in you being around.. is there?

*She sighs heavily and tosses her old journal into the forest below* ''It's a new day," she says as she watches the sun rise.