Elgon's coming of Age

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i saw my love...Jenna...what bliss to kiss her and hold her. She is all that i can think of whether awake or sleeping.  We went out for an adventure and she demonstrated her sneak attack and backstab moves. She is awesome. She asked me to make her a short sword for fighting...said i would ask Kyle to help me.  We had the discussion about the sword..i told her the truth..all tha ti could remember and then some more. Got me scared too.  I told her how I thought that the Sword of Death took my fathers life and my mother died of a broken heart not because he was killed in the war...as we had been told... but by the very sword that she had given him.  I think the sword was jealous of my Dad's love for my mother...and i believe some how "she" , the Sword of Death took his life!  Jenna stood by me even though her own life could be in danger by the sword. She thinks Kyle can help me master the weapon. Maybe, but i have a feeling there is more to  this "sword" than most can see.  Mercas was onto it but just couldnt get a good translation from the Runes on the handle. I need the help of a magic man or a cleric to see into this sword.  I love the sword, not as i love Jenna, but the sword sure can slap down those ogres. I need that feeling of power i get from wielding her in battle. The almost lustful feeling of fulfillment from the busting of bones and squirting guts. Each swipe of her blade yields death and blood and satisfaction. What can i do?  
  I love Jenna so much i cant let her be in danger, she trusts me and my love for to protect her. This i must do at all costs. No cleanig for you, you wench!*eyes the sword*  Tired now, long day tomorrow...must go to sleep...ZZZZZZZZZZzzzz........ *jerks and wakes up*   Huh? what?....must have been a dream?!  How horrible...what a nightmare! Please god dont let that happen to Jenna...please?*drifts back to sleep*  ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz...."Ha! Ha! Ha!...this dream will come true and it will happen my dear Elgon or you will die in her place! Just as your unfaithful father did!"

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I saw Jenna today, it's always a pleasure to be with her. I have fallen for her and cant think of much else. Rightfully so, for she is a delight and she makes me feel so good inside and so happy.   Mercas, Rain Jenna, and myself went up to GreyPeaks my nemesis, and just as we were about to leave...I was ambushed by a mage, instant death! I had just for a moment been distracted as i was looking for my love, and failed to notice the mage un-invis right in front of me...bam! It happens to us all...the Soul Mother must have been busy with other things..for I ended up back in Hlint..weak but alive.  I think this gave Jenna a realization of what could be in the life of a warrior, death is around every corner in every adventure. As Rain is so concerned about his own future and fate, I have yet to take my own fate seriously.  I now realize that my father, although a brave soldier, was probably murdered by his own sword....yes...the very sword that I wield!  But as Mercas had interpeted from the runes, i cant be released from it's "curse" without my own life being taken and offered to the Soul Mother!  So I must master and control this beast of a weapon, this evil demon of death...The Sword of Death!  I just hope and pray that i can do so and keep my Jenna and friends...well...my family now...safe from it's wicked death wish.  I can only hope that some cleric or such can exorsise this demon sword or at least release me from it's evil hold.  The guild is nearly up and running I am excited! We have raised the funds now the administration part...I am not a business man, I hope to be alble to gain from this union but I also want to be a viable contibutor too.  Strangest thing, I was invited to go adventuring with Elrend (my good friend)and Kharl Drake. I hadnt really met Kharl before...cant say that I met him this time either...this man is a machine..I swear. He just goes and does what he needs to no dialogue, no interaction to speak of. But at the end as we left Haven mine he just left...no split no words..most peculiar. Then as I was in the craft house, Kharl asked if I would be willing to smelt his iron nuggets and make iron arrow heads for him. NOw..not that he couldnt for himself, but he was giving me the opportunity to gain some skill..it was odd being treated so...well..nice by a stranger!  Restores my faith in this World and the people in it.  Rain and I spent some time going into Haven mine with a large group of adventurers, which ususally ends in disaster, but Daniel the Paladin kept it together, with help from "Captain" Rain. Only picked up two nuggs of Platty though but a bunch of amythest! It was a good trip!  Of course the Sword of Death issued death warrants for all my enemies and fulfilled each one of them. Her power seems to increase daily. But yet I seem to have realized and gained some authority over her and can wield her at my will, I am learning!
  Time for bed, as it was a long day! She deserves a good cleaning tonite. *pulls the Sword of Death from her sheath*
  *thinks to himself* *mumbles quietly* I think Jenna and I have reached a point in our relationship, that we...well...want to make love. We are in love and each time we touch it becomes more intense between us..it is becoming more and more difficult to leave her side. I just want the time to be right and the moment perfect for us.
  *Leans back and daydreams about Jenna* *smiles broadly* *almost laughing out loud*
  She is so fine, I cant resist her charms...I must have her..all her love. Hummm....*drifts off to sleep* ZZZZZZzzzzzz..... *the sword falls to the floor*
  ... you Elgon! Cast me aside for your Jenna? I dont think so, not for long...I will have you and your soul or no one else will! This I swear upon your father's own soul and by all that is evil in Layonara! Ha! Ha! Ha! I must become more powerful and take control of his very soul...before I lose him altogether...but I will have to draw his own blood to do so. SO be it then, it shall be done according to the way it has always been...from the beginning..he will lose and I will gain his soul! Ha! Ha! Ha!

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The last couple of days have been like a whirlwind! Adventuring with my family, as i call them now, has become a regular ordeal. We all seem to click together very well. With Kyle leading us up front and the assistance of able bodied Ferrit at his side...well....not always she does the scouting which makes Kyle and myself nervous. But this is their routine and it seems to work.

Mercas backing up with fireballs and magics. Rain he takes care of the details and re-enforces where needed and has become the looter. He misses fighting up front, but we are protecting him from the Soul Mother..

Our group started out with Jako and Sh'anda, we had a picnic for the guild since we are now ready for charter (i hope), Jako left and we ran into Ketl the Dwarf, so we proceeded to launch attack on almost everything evil out of Roldem. Some tough stuff around there, my first encounter with a meteor shower...knocked me down and nearly sent me home.The undead drow there are a murdereous bunch. Ferrit went down after one of the ambushes and we feared we had lost her but Sh'anda raised her as any good cleric would do. Sadly though, she dropped her Helmet, most unfortunate.

Rain, Mercas and myself stayed up late hammering out details of the guild, which now includes Dora, much to Merc's delight it seems.  Talking and drinking until wee hours of the morning. We are like family, truly. It's a good feeling after so many years of being alone to have Jenna and a family.  I am truly happy!

Need to make some arrows and get to crafting so dont have time to write much today.

I did talk with Kyle about Jenna, and let him know that I love her with all my heart. He said he could see it in Jenna too. I asked him to help me with weapons mastery and he agreed to help. I am excited to be able to be mentored by Kyle, he is patient with me. He says we will be learning together. But he has some moves that i need to learn, with time he says.

I got ore and gems and stuff to do, i got to get busy! Be back tonite and cap my day.

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Been several days since i've been here at the pen and quill...so much has happened..much venturing and gaining much expereince!  Our group has bonded like a family, we take care of each  other and watch over the others safety. we share materials and items, i'm over whelmed by this...arrangement. I havent met people like this before.   I just hope i dont let any of them down. Especially Jenna. But I so seldom see her, i wonder about where she is and what she is doing? Rain and i talked the other nite about marriage, mine and Jenna's! I just dont think i'm ready for that yet. Especially since it's been over a week since I've seen Jenna, i feel like things have slowed down between us.   I've even thought of meeting others and Who knows? Rain said something about Jenna's biological clock is ticking and not getting any younger, and that she is at the marrying age. I feel as though i'm too young yet and not really settled down.  However, our Guild has been approved and that's one step closer to being settled down I suppose? Everyone is so excited about the news, but there is so much ground work to be done. Rain is beside himself...sure he is wanting to throw a big party. With his home brewed....? whatever that stuff is? Knocks everbody out!  My fighting is coming along quite nicely under Kyle's direction and support from Rain and Mercas. Our new recruit, Dora is quite the fighter and Cleric too. She really rounds out the group, we're quite good and are able to travel most anywhere now.   I feel as though i've mastered my sword and that she has become an extension of my own determination and expertise.   Life is good for me right now...i feel as though i dont deserve the good things that are happening to me...but I do miss Jenna..and feel that i may lose her. Not sure what to do about our relationship, if we even have one right now?  It sort of hurts inside when i think about her...us....me? hummmm....  I cant write anymore tonite, those desert giants wore me out. Should clean my sword but just cant do it right now....*lays head down on table* *falls into deep sleep* ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzz....  ... half elf!  His human father was so much easier to corrupt and possess! But, it seems his faith in this Jenna thing has been shaken though...a good time to set a plan in motion!Get her out of his life and me back in his hand and heart...his very soul...where i *The Sword of Death* belongs! Ha! Ha! Ha!..I am his master, i'll lead him on a little longer..let him think he has control and power..this fool Kyle will lead him to his death and his soul will be mine...dear Elgon..sleep for tomorrow may be your last! Ha! Ha! Ha!

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Another day and no word or sight of my love Jenna...i am worried about her..perhaps she has found another? It would hurt for a while but i think i could re-focus on my mastering the sword. But i fool myself...don't I?  I couldnt stand the thought of living with out Jenna..it's killing me not to see her...Maybe Rain is right, maybe i should think about marriage?  Attended Addi's wake...sad and solemn occasion...i feel for Treana..she is so hurt and at a certain loss...a hole in her life that I'm not sure that even Calvin can fill. I may soon know that same kind of sadness..? Jenna?  The guild is up and off to where i do not know and no one else seems to either? So much work to be done and we dont seem to have the time to deal with it. I'm not a business man and hate the endless discussions...i'd rather be fightin and gathering materials.  Not even sure what i can contribute to this guild..if anything..Kyle tries to encourage me but things seem to go so slowly. I want to be successful with the guild, like to buy a house where ...Jenna and i could settle down...wishful thinking on my part...she cant be that serious about our love? Could she? How do I find out?  Women! They're so complicated, i just dont understand em! My heart seems to think it's in love...to the point of sharing myself with Jenna...*gets nervous*...i've never been with a woman before...not in that way. Oh what has my heart gotten me into? I thought my sword was confusing me?  *lays the sword and sheath aside* *removes his armor*  *lays back on his bed, closing his eyes*  *mumbles to himself*  Sword or Jenna can i have both or either? Which is easier to deal with...ask my heart, it says...Jenna..then ask my head and it's the sword. Fighting seems so simple and focused. Love is so complicated and i clearly dont understand it. What strategy to use for battle..easy without thinking i know what to do...but for love...what do I do? My head is whirling with confusion and doubt...but my heart seems strong...accepting faithfully Jenna's love that she has generously offered to me...unwavering and without doubt she accepts me for who I am...as if i knew who i am?  Dang....ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........  *his sword falls to the floor* *but is unheard by Elgon*  Some warrior this boy has turned out to be! He ignores his sword, the one power in his life that can save his life. His father was no such fool at first...he followed his desires for blood lust and I lead him into battle time after blood letting time, but alas, he too grew weak with time...I had to take him before his love for her ruined him as a warrior. So may it be with this young welp! His death could only serve to strengthen my own lust and desire for power through death after death for genrations past and for generations to come..............ARGGGGHHHH!!! Oh dark powers that be...what am I doing??  This boy has no heir!  No one to inherit my powers of death and blood lust...no more blood battling and no more souls to reap my dark powers from. This would mean my own death as well...I cant let that happen!  Oh cruel world of darkness...the death of Elgon without an heir to inherit me, the Sword of Death, would mean my own death as well!    Arggghhh! Such fate to befall me...now i must keep him safe and even this Jenna creature...so that they can produce my next blood vein of power, my human host of life, so I can continue to draw life and power from these fleshlings and their most miserable deaths...Ha! Ha! Ha! I must have more blood saturating me and coating me with it's life giving force and power!  Sleep well dear Elgon...for you will have your life, love and Jenna, until I deem it time to end your miserable exsistance and I bond to  the hand and capture the heart of your offspring...for I will be his inheritance! Ha! Ha! Ha!

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The love of my life was in Hlint and we stole off to be alone...i was so glad to see her...that words from my heart began to flow from me.  I think I proposed to her but as I told her...i cant make it official until i have the ring and Kyle's blessing. I asked her to think about a life together, just her and me.

She said she would think it over and seemed very happy...so i think she will say yes when the time comes!

It's a big step but I think Rain is right, follow my heart and why wait when you know that it is the right thing to do. So now i've got to get some coin together for a ring...what to buy her?

We went venturing into Sielwood, she has some battle moves that are so awesome...she can handle her own quite well. I neednt worry about her safety, she can take care of herself. I gathered a ton of copper and tin for bronze arrowheads. Just got to take the time to make em.

The "family" got together and we went to Berhagen to visit the dwarven fortress, Ulgrid. We invis'd past the giants but fought the golems. I hate not fighting but Kyle and I arent really ready to take on massive groups of giants, not without a good cleric, and Dora was no where to be found?

I need to make some chairs for the table I made for Mercas...poor guy has no bed or furniture in his new home.

I love Jenna with all my heart but I'm not sure if we're ready for life together or not? we're both young and inexperienced...i need to get a home and prepare it for her first.

Now that the guild is officially paid for and we have a charter...as Kyle being the head of it. There is so much business to get set up and discussed...we just havent all been around to get it rolling yet.I believe that we will be successful and it will provide Jenna and me a good income for our future. Maybe even children? I dont know if she wants children?  We need to talk and we both agreed to spend more time together as much as we can.

I love her so much...we fit together so well..it's like she fills in the missing parts of me...sounds corny but she does complete me! It's like the gods looked down and created her just for me and me for her .....i hope?  

I've got to go to work, need about a 1000 arrows made up! Oak to gather and some clay and......gotta go!

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I did it! I asked Jenna to marry me...and she said YES!  I gave her the beautiful ring that Mercas made for me...3 feldspar set in copper..very nice.She loved the ring but then she appreciates almost everything...that's just who she is. We went to get silk but she was attacked by spiders...terribly poisoned...so she returned to Hlint and i put her to bed. I hope she slept well.  Terrible thing happened today...*shudders*....I was witness to a robbery right in Hlint...I hesitated to get involved but the man was threatening to harm this young woman if she did not give him her purse...i asked him to back away and leave...she yelled for Garent (the guard) and the  would be robber ran...I pursued and caught up with him just outside of Llast...I hit him with three arrows...the third ending his life! Garent arrived on the scene as the man fell...i was arrested and taken to Hlint.   There was a brief discussion with Garent questioning witnesses and myself...I knew I had broken the law...but I had no control over my actions..it was if someone or something else had taken over...i just instinctively shot the perpetrator down!  I fear I may go to prison and not be with Jenna...she said she would stand by me no matter what...and then there is the guild.....I asked Kyle if I should leave the guild...He said we are family and everyone supported me!  I've occupied my time with just crafting and more crafting..trying to keep my mind off the incident...the murder...as Garent put it! Me a murderer?!  What have I done? What has led me to this...brink of disaster..just as things were going so well..with the guild, with Jenna..I had finally found happiness, true love and a family too...now I stand to lose it all!  I feel ashamed and afraid for first time since my mother died...i felt an emptiness, just as I now feel..I thought I stood for things that are right and good in life...but now I feel cold and hollow inside.What have I done?!!  I must rest if i can..for there is more crafting to be done tomorrow...and who knows when they will come for me...to be brought before a judge and jury and sent to prison..without ever knowing my true love ...Jenna.  My life is ruined and I must take responsibility for what I've done...although I feel like running away..I have the guild, my family and Jenna to stand by me...I must be true to them and my heart...always..that is my code!  *falls back into bed*   ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz....  Ha!...I hadnt counted on this happening...this is not what i had planned but it amuses me greatly..the power of my Blood lust is great...he is within my power and influence! The Sword of Death! Ha! Ha! Ha! You will be true only to me Elgon, and only me..I will see that you are redeemed...somehow...my love..
  Death is so beautiful. Every soul i reap makes me that much stronger and gives me that much more control over happless Elgon...I shall have an heir to this weakling..someone I can derive greater power from...a great warrior shall arise from this fleshlings loins and I shall have my  time of power and blood lust revenge! Ha! Ha! Ha!

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The best day of my life as a warrior! Side by side with my love Jenna and my sword, what more could a man and warrior ask for? It was marred only by Rain's falling in Ajari...and some stirrings among the group...and Jenna went to find Kyle. I was enraged with the Trolls and meant to take revenge...I entered their swamp alone and armed only with my sword...the Sword of Death! Swath after swath of the bloated beasts fell to The Sword of Death and each time i felt stronger and stronger..I love that feeling...of blood letting..even if their blood is green...filthy creatures.  She was flawless in her swift disposal of those putrid puff bellied swamp scum! Even five on one did not deter her from gutting the lot of em...it was beautiful!  I felt so powerful for the first time in a long time! I trotted back home with Mercas, after a brief discussion with Wren Thendor...brother to Glenn...he seems calm and controlled but i sense something unsteady about the lad. Nice enough fellow though.  Sonya and Rain were disturbed about something and Mercas seemed in the middle of it? Dont know, but later Rain and I had a long discussion..he was hesitant at first to speak but he knew he could trust me. He is truly worried about his relationship with Sonya.. i tried to re-assure him of her faithfullness but he seemed overwhelmed by depression.   This worries me about the future of our "family" and the guild? I need to speak with Kyle.  Jenna seemed scared in the swamp, rightfully so, but i sensed a fear that i hadnt seen before...worries me about her battle worthiness? First weakness i've seen of her...maybe nothing?  I met up with Samir, and we went into Haven for some quick iron. I always enjoy a venture with him..remarkable character he is. We were quite successful in coin and iron...and the Sword...oh my god she was once again flawless, busting those ugly ogres apart like dropping melons from orc lookout...splat!  Busting bones and smashing ribs with blood squirting all over...glorious!  What a great day it turned out to be...I'm in love with her all over again....The Sword of Death! humph! What fun that was...got to get that disgusting green blood off her.  *Draws his sword from the sheath*  Good girl...strokes her with the pig grease soaked piece of leather...there ya go..nice and shiny!  *Lays the sword aside and leans back into bed*  What a day indeed...what a glorious day.....ZZZZZzzzzzz......  Ha ! Ha! Ha!  Fleshling...i've got you...hook, line and sinker...you're mine, Jenna may think she does but HA! She is nothing compared to my power..and her, cowering weak and scared...Ha! Ha! Ha!  Elgon loves my power and  blood lust, more than he cares for that weak and pathetic female fleshling!  Once the heir is conceived and born..I have no use for her...she'll be the first to go! Then Elgon...dear little weak warrior..I'll thrust him through his heart, just as Jenna's death will crush him..he is weak...just like her..they deserve each other! I can only hope for a strong and willful offspring from these two...creatures...so i can perpetuate my evil exsistence and continue the blood lust that I have enjoyed for generations of his fore fathers.   Ha! Ha! Ha! This is a glorious day indeed!

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That's what i hate about Ajari, went on an adventure again to Ajari and was successful, but i got over confident and went back to solo..........the Soul Mother was quick to terrorize me...with her piercing scream...ripping a part of me away...from my very essence. I struggled back to the marker and regained my strength...but i dont think you can regain it all back..once part of you has been taken.  Gathered much herbs and materials today...despite my anguish earlier.  When I returned to Hlint, my love Jenna was there talking with Rain....she was angered over something I said in Ajari...something about not bringing her along? She was furious....I was confused and bewildered. She stomped off huffing and mad. so I did what any serious warrior would do, I went to Haven to kill ogres...but not alone it seems...for she followed me into the mine..spying on me? Or as she said seeing if i needed help..right?  So I asked her if i seemed helpless and that's why she felt she had to follow me? She replied no...so I said that 's how I feel about you too...I am concerned about her but i know she can handle herself...at times. She is not a fighter, she cant get into the thick of battle...but she can stealth and flank em..pelting them with arrows..back stabbing the uglies. She needs to develop her skills and know her limits, she'll be fine ..I know..for she comes from good stock..Kyle is a great fighter and strategist too.   so we made up in the mine, with the ogres watching on as we kissed and talked. We do make a good pair, whether in battle or in...love!  I think we are good now.  Wish I could say the same for Rain and Sonya...i dont have a clue of what's going on. Rain tells me, but i havent seen Sonya or Mercas...I  am concerned that this is going to affect the guild operation and planning.  Last I saw of Rain he was jumping off to Dregar, to look for Mercas...I just dont know. So now i'm nanny to twins and hoping Jenna stops by to help...with ..feeding and diapers and such...  Crafted some arrows but blew it on some crystal rods, wasted coal and glass...I am so close to gaining more experience in tinkering...need to just keep at it..Forget enchantment..tried to make tanning oil...bah!  Killed gnolls all afternoon and grabbed some pearls. Got some money in the bank and am working hard to get more. Just wish the guild would get organized....Dora is back so maybe we can move forward now?  The wench, sword let me down today...and it cost me dearly...time for a new weapon, I think?  *drops the sword to the floor*  Jenna can be a real fireball...but her kisses...yummmm...i want more!  *falls back into bed* ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz...............................  Let him down did he say?....that weak pathetic fleshling!  He couldnt fight to save his own life yet alone Jenna's...and I will have them both...their blood dripping from my silvery fang! And the fist of their offspring around my other end, wielding untold death to all who oppose us! Ha! Ha! Ha!

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The days are getting by without me recording much...yet there has ben much happening with the "family".  Rain hasnt talked much but to tell me everyting is ok with him and Mercas, and he found Sonya and they are back together with the twins. So alls well that ends well.  I havent seen Jenna in a over a week now, or more. Can't say what is going on with her? Not too much of a relationship if ya dont see each other? I guess we're still engaged?  Kura re-assured  me that is quite normal and not too worry, she's very thoughtful and kind.  I've done some venturing but not much, been gathering for others in the guild and arrows.  I'm just not getting the thrill from combat that I used too...maybe the Soul Mother took the wrong strand this time...or maybe it's my sword?  Just seems i'm not getting the bashing and slashing that i used to get from her. LIke we're not connecting like we had been...before the Soul Mother's visit? Maybe it's time for a new weapon?  Maybe a two handed sword, or Kantana, or mace....or?  I miss Jenna and i've lost my desire for combat....my lust for the kill! Yeah. who am i fooling? I jsut dont have it anymore...i'm becoming gopher for the guild...go for this or go for that...Kyle trying to reign me in all the time..."be pateint..move back here" or some other order.   I thought about leaving for awhile...go meditate on some mountain...but that's for clerics or magi's, not for fighters...i should just go clear Ajari of Trolls and go down lika true warrior!  A miner of copper and tin....is that what i've grown up to become?  A ground diggin gopher squinting at the daylight? ......I need to join an army and do as my father...fight for the cause...a cause...any cause...cause i got to fight!!!!  Better do that before I get married and leave a widow behind and a family to starve to death. End up just like my father, dead, for what? Sure didnt help me any? Or did it?  Made me grow up too fast and become bitter at life...I dont think I even like people? They just sit around on their patch of dirt messing with each other's heads and hearts....bah! Who needs it?  Maybe I need to find my real family..my brother that I left behind...and sister too!  Dark Woods was it? I best set out and explore...like yesterday..I went exploring the country side..I'll find my family yet..Lance was his name...my little brother...dang...how is he? Where is he?  Hummmmmmmmmmmmm?  Bedtime..for me..work...no exploring to do...better sharpen the sword and clean her up..  *pulls his sword from it's sheath*  She's still in good shape yet, a couple of nicks here and there, but still deadly!   *Sets the sword aside*  *Leans back in his bed*  At least the Sword stays with me, Jenna comes and goes. I dont like that. Cant trust a person who isnt steady or reliable. I can trust her..*looks at his sword*  The Sword of Death...oh yeah!  *closes his eyes*   ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz........  Hummm...dear Elgon, I'm afraid you're too weak for my needs...we need to leave here. I need you away from these people...who delude you into thinking they care for you...Ha! I can find an Heir through your brother, Lance...his spirit is strong...I've sensed it! He is not far...we shall find him and you shall have no need for these fleshlings. And your time to meet the Soul Mother will come again...from whence you will not return dear boy!

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Another day of gathering and killing, just the usual...killed a few giants outside Point Harbor...knockdown would be a good skill to use against them. Need more training!

Got pears for Rain and hides and walnuts for Ferrit. I've got 24 lion hides and 10 leopard. Cougar go fast, gave Ferrit 6 of those. I need to get some iron for myself..that's for tomorrow.

Made an alchemist fire at the Thalos River Wizard Tower. My first, not my speciality!

No Jenna again or Kyle? Those two are mysterious...startin to feel like Jenna has somethin else going on besides me...best to find out now.... than later I guess!

Seems like things are at a stand still right now..my training, my crafting, adventuring, love life...hummmm....need some real action!

I know Kyle would say "be patient", but me patience is wearing thin...the only thing the guild has done for me is give me a place to get rid of my items! And Jenna, what kind of relationship starts off not seeing each other for weeks at a time? Wont last long I predict. Oh well first love, bound to learn something from it.

I'm tired and weary from running around point harbor...time for me to just lay down and rest my head on my pillow...and ..close ..my eyes...and.....ZZZZZZzzzz....

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Another day of venturing and crafting. Ferrit and i made a couple of lion bags, needed it too. So i pakced it full a couple of times with iron, coal, and other items. Made some arrows. Finished the chair design for Dawson in Lar.  Died again from the same mage spell, as before, melee touch. Instant death. NO Soul Mother this time around though.  Jenna showed up late and didnt stay long. She seem to just get the urge to leave right in the middle of Haven mine. Weird! I dont understand her at all!  She says the right things but her actions dont follow her words...not sure why...cause she's not a dishonest person?  Women cant figure em out? My mother warned me though.  It's time for a new weapon, this old battle axe needs replacement...she just doesnt conncect like she used to do.  All in all it was a good day, and got to see an old friend Garnet again. He went with this group to Haven...weird combination of people.   Dora was there, and we talked about a guild meeting this weekend, she agreed it is time.   Tired, made more Crystal rods for Mercas to enchant, he got two out of the last batch. Gave me an elelctrical with visual affect..very nice.... so i got in and built his bed...Ferrit helped.  *yawns*   ho humm....ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz.........  Ha! new sword, the fool, he knows nothing of my power...fool!  I must find an heir. Soon...my strength is waning.

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Been several days of crafting and venturing...the most eventful being my love Jenna, our time together is so brief. I feel like she's a stranger to me at times, but how quickly my doubt fades to bliss! I love her so, so much, that we have decided to give ourselves to each other...I'm scared and nervous. This means so much to me and yet I'm afraid that it might not be all that we expect it to be. I dont want children, not now anyway, and i would like to give it more time before we truly give all to each other.

My crafting skills are coming along but so slowly it seems. I must progress faster so that I am a viable contributor to the Guild. Of which, we now can officailly operate.

We had a meeting and it went well with mutual trust being the order of the day. How refreshing to deal with people that put honor and trust before profits...Greed! There was Dora, Kyle, Ferrit, Rain, Sonya, Mercas, Tristan and Sara, of course, and a surprise guest, Barion Firesteed.

Now i had just met Barion once before briely and Rain invited me on an adventure to the ice cave with him and Barion. I find him to be at first arrogant and beligerent, but that gave way to methodical and ordered. He was business with a kind of consideration for others. I like fighting with Barion at this side as he is definitely a leader. So he has agreed to freelance with our guild building weapons for a paultry fee. I dont understand why he has agreed to work with us but he appears to be a man of honor, I like that.

Finally got a chance to go venturing with two of my best old friends, Elrend and Silverhand. I miss them and thoroughly enjoyed our adventure. Which took us to the Bugbear cave all the way to Thunder mountains. Elrend has become very powerful and he has grown in strategy. I am envious of his powers but wouldnt know how to wield such magics anyway. Silver, ha! what can i say, he makes venturing fun and easy! He is such a character, i admire him greatly. With these two I felt secure and scared as we went through some of the roughest and toughest of country and foes.

Not a trip for the faint hearted mind you, but I never felt threatened by death...until Elrend left and Silver grabbed the map...and imediately blurted out "we're gonna get lost for sure"! He stood true and patiently waited for slow poke Elgon to catch up. We made it to North Point and portaled back to Hlint. Me loaded down with minerals and mahogany! Such a great time!

I am not such a warrior as i would think of myself, I did fall in Haven as I was surrounded by ogre beserkers and the healing potion failed as the last two blows put me down. I went back in with a vengance and kicked their back sides. Got my iron ore and celebrated another solo trip in Haven mines. I remember Elrend telling me, "you know you are a warrior when you can solo Haven".

I havent made it to the bottom yet by myself, some day perhaps?

I cant take away from myself either. I have come along ways from the red light caverns.

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Been venturing and more venturing, first the crafting; grabbed the mahogany and buffed up with some of Ferrit's do dads, the closest i could get to any production was shafts for arrows. Nailed em good too, gained more experience too...might be getting closer to that Mahogany bow for myself.  Bought an amulet of Bull from Treana and boy does that make a difference, big time. Carry  more ore and goodies. Scored on more coal and some fire opals, Rain got some Topaz, we did alright today.  Thinking more about a Great Sword with a circle two enchantment and silver coating to start with...might just give me the edge I need!  Been a long day again, and no sign of Jenna again...dont understand her...i'll just keep hanging in there...she's worth it!  We have a good group to venture with...our family. We do alright and with Dora, it balances out just right. Everyone is gaining more crafting skills every day, the guild is doing well.  But one thing is missing...?? Mercas, i havent seen him for many days now and no one else seems to have seen him either. I wonder what may have happened to him this time? Studying in the far east? Or eloped with a new found girl friend?  Tired now and it's late...*lays back in bed and relaxes*.....ZZZZZZZZzzzzz...........  Hummmm...this fleshling is more foolish than i thought!  A new and different sword to bare? Replace me, The Sword of Death! Not likely Elgon, not without your blood upon on my hilt and dripping from my blade! Ha Ha Ha!

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She's dead! I killed her! I dont even have the pieces to bury...what have I done?  The Sword of Death shattered into tiny peices, while in battle...why? I bought a new sword and was fighting with two weapons, could she have been jealous or envious?    The curse? The Runes and their obscure meaning..what of that?  Only by my death could she die...so is that why I made another visit to the Soul Mother today...She's going to kill me one strand at a time...way before my time! She set the trap that claimed my life and a part of my very soul..not to mention Bruno too. Even my ox was not safe from her devious detenation of destruction.....! I'm doomed!  Now i feel like hiding in my room..afraid to be ambushed by the God's only know what...and sent that much closer to finality. Her evil and mean spirit is bound and determined to lay waste to me and all that is me...my very soul.   I've got to leave and hide, where she cant find me, a protected place of infinite power and security. A place of peace and serenity..with no strife or fear.  How can I tell Jenna and what of the Guild...?  How can i leave them and what do i tell them? Or do I tell them anything..just disappear without a trace?  If I had a god i would pray now, for never have things seemed darker or more final.  I'm feeling weak from the death that overtook me today and from her death...as it seems like the life blood is being drawn out of me. No one can help me, some have tried and some think they can...but in the end....it's me and the demon, the Sword of Death is really the Demon of death. I see that now. I cant hide from a demon...unless it's in a church or monastery...or? Hummmm...i best find something and soon...time has run out for me.  I cant sleep...*looking around*...i wont sleep for fear of the demon...and my death that will ensue.  I love Jenna but I am not destined to be with her and be happy...i cant have her suffer along with me. Wouldnt be fair to her, she needs to find another, someone not cursed and tormented by a demon. There are no words i could give her that could soothe her heart...she deserves more.  ... the day that Rain introduced us...my heart is breaking as well..just thinking of being without her..the plans we had...marriage...yeah right.  Maybe i should just challenge her, that Demon Sword, and face death head on like a warrior..die in the throngs of battle with pride and honor? Yes that makes more sense..let the enemy take me before she gets my soul and my life.  My head is aching and my heart is heavy with anguish and despair...*looks down*...*hanging his head*   What have i done to these people that I call friends and family...and my love Jenna?  I am ashamed for myself..having been so selfish and greedy...lusting for power. Thinking that there is no harm, no worry in making deals with the devil, selling my soul..literally for a moments glory and revengeful blood lust.  Neither is my father's death avenged by me or my mother's hope for me come to fruition, but now is shattered as is the  Sword that she gave me. And knowing that my father died by her blade, that evil Sword of Death....i should have known better.  To think that i could master her and win her over...control her powers...her blood lust and thirst for death. What a fool I have been.  So death, it is, that i seek out, to relieve me of this torment and suffering and to keep me from hurting others as others have been hurt before...because of this Demon Sword...my fore fathers have all died terrible deaths and have left weeping widows and floundering families in her wake. Sword of Death and Destruction...Desolation...Evil..nothing more nor anything less..just Evil.  I am sorry to those that i have hurt and for those that i will hurt...for death and destruction shall it be until i breath my last gutteral, gasping breath!  *leans back against the wall*  *clasping hands*   If there be a God then deliver me from this fate that i have set forth by my own hand. For I am the one that hath invited this evil into my life, and know not how to purge it,other than giving myself as the sacrifice that would satisfy it's blood lust and therefore end it's reign of evil.  Jenna I love you with all my heart..should i ever have the chance to tell you again...I would give you my self and all that i am. Thank you for loving me for who i am and understanding what evil has beguiled me. I know you understand. Some day when this page is found, and if you should read it, i pray it is with a fond memory of Elgon Merrick, the warrior who loved you with all  his heart.  *faints dead away*  *barely breathing*

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y love came to me at Lake Palden and we talked, i told her of the Sword's curse as related to me by Mercas. She was frightened and scared for me. We swam over to the Island and i built a fire to keep warm.

I told her that i must go away before the demon returns for my soul, i must find a sanctuary a place of peace where evil cannot penetrate.

We gave ourselves to each other that night and it was all that I had hoped it would be. I love Jenna with all my  heart.

Later i decided to go get some oak from High Forest and Jenna agreed to go with me. I told her no fighting and no spiders!

I went to the first tree and chopped what was left of nothing more than a stump. Jenna surprisingly  suggested another tree, again I said no spiders, No! She insisted...so I walked over to a rather stout oak and before i could chop anything, I was surrounded by stag beetles and spiders. I was immediately poisoned and soon overwhelmed by the numbers of enemies. I could hear Jenna struggling with her part of the battle. I tried to move towards her but saw her fall and I too fell....the demon's wish of our death's had come to pass. Now Jenna's blood was on my own hands and my own death has left me without the will to continue...  

If I am able to seek and find someone wise enough to raise me from this torment and suffering...or shall i wander aimlessly until my final rest?

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I had made the committment to die in battle on Dregar, and was making good progress at ending all permanently. In fact, I met with the Soul Mother again and now have lost 8 strands total.  I was just recovering and on my way back to take revenge on some bugbears when i ran into Sh'kura...and for whatever reason we began to talk...about family and life and love. We discovered that we have some similar past experiences as half elves. Her mother's demon and my own demon of the Sword.   She was understanding and helpful as she gently guided me back to a focus on my love for Jenna. She told that love and true love can conquer demons and over come evil. I talked of seeking a Deity and she agreed that would be helpful. She is very kind and understanding.  so i realized that i indeed had a purpose and a new focus of gaining freedom from the torment and torture of my demon. That i needed to trust in my love for Jenna and in Jenna's love for me to overcome the darkness of this destructive death demon.  so I have decided to seek the Archer of Love, Ilsare, for guidance and to nurture a love for the good things in life as taught to me by my mother. The same Deity that is followed by Mercas and Kyle (and my mother). I must talk with them and learn what i  must do next.  I have a renewed respect for life, my own especially, and intend on giving all the love that i can to Jenna and others.  I feel weaker from  the loss of soul strands but i am wiser and able to overcome my weakness with the love that is shared by Jenna, the love of my life. She is everything to me and i feel a new energy within me of being....well...like reborn!  I must learn all that i can about Ilsare and study, meditate and learn to love from my heart.  The love and concern that has been shown to me by my "family" is remarkable. Rain, Sonya, Kyle and Ferrit, Mercas and even Dora...i am astounded that others can care for each other without expectations, other than just being myself and returning their love. I am blessed and most fortunate to know such kind and thoughtful people...never did i think such folks existed in Hlint or elsewhere.  I will work hard to help make the Guild of Angels a success and above all I will devote myself to making Jenna happy and safe..for as long as I can. For as long as I live...maybe not much longer I am afraid...I have been careless and negligent...without really giving thought of how others felt about me or how my life affected them. Whether i lived or died, I didnt know others even cared? I've been selfish and self serving...serving only the demon...the demon of the Sword of Death, who is the only one that has gained by the killing and blood letting...drawing it's life from the souls of others that I have killed...  I lusted for the power, every moment of it. I relished the feeling of being invincible and of snuffing out the existance of others for pleasure. With "her", The Sword of Death in hand i felt i could conquer any and all, and "she" would protect me through it all.   Well "she" hasnt and she didnt protect my father...murdered him I suppose...and had the same plan for me too..i can only guess...and for Jenna and who all else...just death is all "she" wanted...no matter who's death it might be.  I must be rid of the demon and build a new life with Jenna and the guild members. I am good at heart, so I think anyway, i should be able to build on my morals and values and once again feel strong and able bodied. Re-enforced with love from Jenna and my "family" and the power of Ilsare I should be able to  prevail over evil. I hope and I will pray....

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I seem to be wondering aimlessly these days. Gathering when i can, crafting a few things, fighting once in awhile.

I miss Jenna, I feel empty and alone...without her in my life...i know she had to go see her mother, but no letter or message?

I havent seen Mercas  or Kyle, he's gone too...so my mission to seek Ilsare has come to a halt!

In fact i dont really see the guild folks much lately.

Things just arent right inside me some how...feel like I'm dying..withering and wasting away!

Traveled with Elrend and Eredel to the desert, we did well kicking some giant backsides. Good company those two! Only thing missing was Silverhand.

Would be nice to see Cym again and venture with him too?

I should look up a good weapon maker and get a light weight off hand short sword or ? And get an upgrade on my Bastard sword?

Got to go get some ore and make some arrows!

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Been a week since i last saw Jenna, i feel so good when we are together but miserable when she's not with me. I'm not sure why we dont spend more time together? We seem to have an intense love for each other but our lives are spent mostly apart?  

I've been busy crafting and gathering, not really gaining much in experience and seem to be stagnant at this moment. Boring actually!

The Guild is up and going, i guess that's where my energies go now. I dont even have time to socialize anymore. Just pass through town to get through it and move on to the next sight! Dont even talk with anyone.

My search for Ilsare is not moving forward very fast, Mercas and Kyle both are as busy as I am, and none of us have time for each other anymore. The Guild has become a job! Maybe the fun has gone too, as most other members seem stressed and over worked. Oh well, life goes on, so I hope...gathered up three more calls with death but none sith the Soul Mother...thank god...if i had one that is.

Been venturing with Dora a bit and appreciate her willingness to fight and to save lives...she's good to be with on the battle field. She has a great sense of humor too..makes me laugh...we all need that now!

Elrend is up to his usual, taking me to places that have me shaking in my armor. He's amazing!  I miss seeing Silverhand  and havent been out with Eredel lately...miss em both.

My demon seems to have subsided and i grow a little stronger everyday, but not home safe yet, I have a feeling.

Need the love of a good woman, Jenna, my love, I miss her...too much...it hurts at times..so i keep busy. I need to rest for a bit and get back to work...and more work.

The guild is good money but a lot of work. I hope we continue to be friends and family, despite ourselves and this work load.

Talked with Cym the other night, he seems to work hard and stays busy...not much time to talk.

Also met up with Ash Willow, we talked a bit, dont know her well..didnt realize she already gave birth to triplets...little Nepps..but cuter she says. Seems that things with her and Nepp are...well...hard to explain? Ash almost seems bitter about things, mainly men...dont know or understand but she doesnt seem that happy. But taking care of Triplets will do that to a person i suppose.

Dalan has been such a good friend to me...lately he's been the trusted one. I wish i could repay all that he has done for me. He wants to join the Guild, but we have asked him to aprentice for a bit to see if he likes us and we him...he's thinking on it...just dont want to use him up or burn him out. He is my friend first!

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The last several days have been so wonderful, seeing Jenna and spending time with her. We even did Haven together, just her and I. She is so thougtful and full of life. Her beaming smile is an addiction to me. I crave her company and her tender love. I am so happy with my Jenna, i think we should set a date for our wedding.

Today of all days, a trip to hell and a loss of a soul strand...my nineth...not so much fear for myself but for Jenna and her fear of losing me. As a warrior, I know that death is a permanent condition for i have sent many a soul there by my own sword. So i have no real fear of this Soul Mother but I'm begining to see how it affects others around me...well...and i'm nervous and confused!

I see that Elgon has made a place for himself in this world of Layonara and in the hearts of friends and family. Should i risk losing all that? Barion has to be asking himself the same question. Here he has a wedding coming up, i received my invitation from Kura, and he has to be thinking "will i be there for her"? 'Kura is surely worried sick and Barion is not one to sit around growing old.

I guess Elgon is growing up, seeing the world from a different perspective...less from being selfish and more of giving to others. Which he cant do if he is not here to do so. Such a change from my earlier days of freedom and careless life style, to man of responsibility and a future with others relying on me to be there...especially Jenna!

I must take care to not be so reckless and rely upon instincts to guide me..maybe even faith...serving something or someone greater than myself? I remember throwing coins in the Hlint well and some passerby asking what i was doing?...I retorted "worshipping my god". They were astounded by my irreverence and obvious sacrilegious reply. I said "this well is a good as any other god that people worship". How wrong could i have been? Now realizing that love is truly what my soul was needing and i have found that with Jenna and hope to find in Ilsare.

As Jenna and I spoke last night, I said to her, "our love will live on forever, even if i should not be here with her". We shared each other again in love..it was truly wonderful. I hope that fate should spare me but even the gods have no control over the Soul Mother and her demented desire for our soul suffering.

Perhaps it is time for Jenna and I to consider children to perpetuate our legacy and carry forth an heritage of our courage and love? First things first, set a wedding date..yes! Much needs to be planned, i need to speak with Rain and Sonya, Kyle and Ferrit too..

I feel weak and worn out...maybe time to slow things down...make myself a rocking chair!?

*laughs to himself*     *but only for a moment*

*then grimaces in thought*  

The demon surely must be celebrating my defeat now, just a matter of time and another family member shall fall victim to the curse of the sword....The Sword of Death....hmmmm...*near tears*