She is gone.
I had finally gotten the last items of her gift, A mage robe, A greater ring of sorcery but more important, a specially made amulet of charisma. My own blood was mixed with the gold, giving it a deep red tint and on the back, inscribed are these words.
"So that my heart and soul be with you for ever when I can not be. With all my love, Lex'or"
She found me at the docks of Hempstead looking out at the sea, wondering if she had gone away before I could see her again. Approaching me from behind, she laid her hand gently on my back. I was stunned and turn to see her. Standing there in front of me as always so beautiful. We talked for a little while and we made way to one of her favorite places I had showed her. There we talked as long as we could stand it, knowing that it would be the last time we would see each other, maybe for ever. She knows I am going onto a mission that may end up getting me killed and I know she may never be able to come back from the claws of Samson. I would give anything, everything to be with her, to protect her, even my life. And this is exactly why she has pushed me away and is now gone.
As she red the inscription her eyes filled with tear
D: “Lex’or, you are too good to me. I don't deserve it”
Her voice slightly shaking I did the only thing I could to try and calm her fears. I reached her cheek and brushed it gently with my fingers
L: “I do not believe that, I believe that you deserve every bit and more of what I feel for you. You have swayed me, rampage through my heart, showed me wonders just by looking into your beautiful eyes. For the past two years and more, close to you or not, I have always felt the same. I have always felt you close in my heart...”
I gently tapped my chest over my heart
L: “... and without knowing it, you became one of my pillar, the center one and strongest one. So yes, I believe you deserve all of that and more. Even my life for yours”
She tried to smile at me but she looked down as if she was trying to hide something. I lifted gently her chin with my curled index
L: “What is it?”
I gently ushered her
D: “I can't...I don't want you to worry even more.”
She ushered back to me.
L: “I can not worry more than I am already worrying, please tell me ... everything.”
My eyes begging her to know
D: “No...You will. I know you will. There are things you don't know about him....that I did not know till recently....he never really died.”
L: “Trust me”
I told her almost whispering. She sighted before continuing to tell me and I nodded slowly as she spoke with her gentle voice.
D: “He let me go...so I could find hope...so he could hurt me later. He is not fully human Lex'or. He told me he was a tiefling......that means my son....he is one as well, not completely from this world.”
I looked at her, my eyes as always filled with love and admiration for her, offering her a small but comforting smile.
L: “Only partly, his best part undeniably your traits.”
And then she continued to speak
D: “He knows about you and my friends...if I don't go....I can't stop him for taking everything I love away.”
L: “But with us you may be able to.”
D: “No....I don't think he is going to let me go Lex. He will let my son but not me. He wants to hurt me too bad.”
I closed my eyes feeling my frown heavily on my face and then I felt her Warmth surround me as she hugged me
D: “I have to go. Now...if I don't leave now. I won't be able to.”
I could feel my anger brewing in me. This man I had never met had such a hold on the woman I loved. It was intolerable and my mouth started to speak of such truth in me, buried in me.
L: “I swear to you, to every thing I hold dearly and love, if he hurts you, Aeridin be my witness, and I will hunt him down.”
And I closed my own arms around her remembering he smell, her warmth and how she felt in my arms.
D: “I will miss you Lex'or. If I don't return find someone worthy of your love. Please be safe. Please don't try and find me.”
She held the necklace I gave her in her hand as she continued to hold me with the other arm.
D: “This will never come off. I will forever wear it to remember you. Please don't forget me.”
The last thing I saw of her was tears running down her face and she vanished in front of me. But a whisper remained.
D: “Please don't forget me.”
And she was gone.
I sat there in the same spot where we had shared our last moment together at the Miranet of symphony exterior gardens, I don’t know how long, days maybe. I felt empty, shattered and alone. In the next few months I know that many things will happens, I will have to get up and walk some paths that will for ever change me. Some paths I never thought I would walk. And now as I am writing my last words in this journal, even though many people around me that calls them selves my friends would say. You are not alone. There is only one truth. As long as she is not by my side with me.
I am alone.
*He closes his journal and binds it with a leather strap never to be open of his living days again.*
