Into the shadows: Njord

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OOC this is the memoir of Njord, first son of Rain Darsus (pre-dragon called)

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Mulnari, Augra 23, 1414


I have finally arrived from this boat ride. Took all the back water roads to make sure I would loose any pursuers. It took me long months, but still I have this creeping feeling down my spine, as if something is not right.

Unfortunately, in my hastiness to escape those who wanted me dead, I have left all my belongings back to that god forsaken place. I hope never to find myself in a way that I should go back there, never again.

During the boat trip, it came to me that if I was to use my name, this could only bold trouble, as I am sure some one over here would have ties with the syndicate. So after a few hours and considering all options, I have decided to take a very common name, Brian.

I found my self to my destination, not at all what I would expect. The city is indeed a place of my keen, but it is in worse state that I would have thought. The paydays I was told were plentiful were only a handful and quickly done and I found myself out of work, so I made my way to the closest city named port Hempstead. There again, although much more civilised and apparent wealth to he city, the jobs opportunity were as low as in Vehl. Soon again I found myself out of a payday, and resorting in roaming the land best I could, mugging the kobolds. Although they did hand out their gold pieces, I found out that it would not be easy at all.

Without proper equipment, I find that my skills are very much not up to speed with the strength of the foes here. I wasn't really prepared for that. Fortunately I have found a few people, who although very sceptical of me, were willing to help me. Some to train with, like Rose; others to help me reequip myself, like Kyle and his wife. And others that seems keen to listen like one of the battle priestess of my Lady Doom, Muireann.

Although these sing of generosity of the people is always a thing to be weary of, there have been some who have asked a few question about who I was, as I expected it, but I can not reveal that to any one, not yet at least, and  I have to hide my intents, if only for a while longer.

After about a month or so, of going around doing the odd little job, mostly fighting for every gold piece i have, I was lucky enough to stumble on two people gifted with what Dorlic had talked to me while training me. Those that can dance with their shadows. He himself was one of those, which made him the perfect spotter for the clan, but he had not finish explaining to me what this was before he was shun away for his participation into what would made me who I am today.

I am sure they didn't give me their true name, after all those who dance with their shadows are expected to keep a shroud of secrecy around them. But their names, I have still committed to memory. One of them is a man call J'Ser, the other is a very cute woman named Kinai.

I have to find a way to gain somewhat of their trust, enough for one of them to show me their way. Dorlic wanted me to follow in his footsteps and I would really much like to do so, if only to bring me even more close to my goal.

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Well my search goes on, I have spent some time today with a group on what is called Dragon isles, turned into a challenge at the end. I failed, but at least I stood up to that loudmouth dwarf. Rose was not to happy about it though, I saw a elf wipe her face... could she have possibly cried?  I truly hope not, I am not worth crying for.

Spent more time with the zombies, they are getting easier but at the same time it is truly getting to be stale. I mean it is something enjoyable to do at first, but after this many time... it gets quite on the boring side.  

Seeing Kinai I thought we were going to be talking a bit more about her abilities, but beside knowing that she feels it to be strange and that she got them from a bargain with a shadow, I know nothing more about the ability or her... I wonder if showing her my face was such a great idea... Cuteness does not equal trust, I have to remember this and stick by it.

Anyhow we went to some kind of a shack and listen to this elf with long white hair and a bad tendency to coughs, he spoke about the rift, some kind of Hammer made from wraith bones and a few other things when Kinai received a bird and left there.  She was invited to go to the rift, I place i know is to formidable for my present abilities and it is frustrating me a bit. back home, by this time I would be out with the warriors of the clan, getting food and the necessities for the village. Now I'm bound by how things are so much different.

I know that I will learn more in time, be even better than the strongest of our warriors back home, but it's not enough. I want more, I need more I need to know what Dorlic was able to do. "Give it time Njord" is what he would say. Time, is all I seem to have right now, and to much for my own good.

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Satari, Novlar 21, 1415
Gee

so many things happened since the last time i had written in here. I talked to J’Ser about the ways of the shadows, he sent me to Ozy. After much looking around for him as of late I finally found him and told me he could not help me. To go talk to Kinai he said. The same one to which I feel my trust has chattered since she sort of betrayed Beil.

Beil... that’s an other subject... strange how things can turn out some times, she leaves a fool, power hungry, out of revenge wizard, gets killed by him, but beside spreading around the word of his deed, she does not want justice for it. I do understand her reason, but still there is ways to use the system without getting implicated in the system. Some how seeing him rot in a jail for a couple of years sounds appealing for me.  But I have a way to even the score, will wait for it though, for the time he less expects it, when his defenses will be down and his self ego of superiority is at it's fullest.

And then there is the closeness between us both, ok it got a bit trampled down when i got angry with Kinai, still am a bit, but I think in some way it helped it be better.  Would she had opened up as she did if not? Maybe... maybe not.  But for now it is a sweet moment and sensation. It's different from what I have felt before.  She's intriguing to say the least, layers upon layers of things to discover.

So my search to become like Dorlic continues. Have to find myself someone who would be willing to teach me or more like enlighten me about the ways of the one that dance with his shadows. I know there is an other name for it, but this has more appeals than shadow dancers. Doesn’t have the same nuances, tone to it.

Well that’s about all. Write later, got to get better and maybe see Beil again.

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Things have developed with Beil, we are now renting a room together and we have started to furnish it. Things are quite interesting when she is around. I don't know where this will lead exactly, but I look forward to see.

To become one with the shadow, expand it to it comes and embrace you. To lose all of your identity, your Ego. This is what I must learn. I have no problem keeping my ego in check but the rest I will need to learn.

Since we talked the other day, Kinai and I, I have spent countless hours at a fire, I used to look at the flames because i could see the visage of each one my real father killed from the village, in them. But now I look to the ground and to the shadows that the fire produces. How the shadows dances when the light touches them. How they grow and shrinks when someone passes by with a light source. They are marvelous things, wondrous things, I must be one with them.

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So i left..

 I told my piece to Shiff for hitting on Beil while she was drunk offering her his bed.  It came after he hit me with his walking stick the fool. I have seen him hit on so many woman and he is suppose to get married? yeah right! I pity the woman who would fall for him, bound to get heartbroken. And now Beil is mad at me for caring.. well fine she can be mad all she want. Picked my things, left her what ever gold I had and a note.

I found my way to Thunder peak where I will be staying. Reminds me a bit of Krashin, about the same coldness and a lot of snow. Well it's the perfect place to just stay here and learn to mend with the shadows, become one with them. To lose myself, my identity and any ego I might have.

Don't know how long it will take, but I will succeed.

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Well...

Few days past and it's not working, I can not get her out of my head. I'm mad at her and I acted out of it, but.. what the heck.. I don't even understand, everything is new in this I.. Well I went back I just couldn't concentrate. Got there and she picked her things too, so Now i have to find her. Apologize for leaving, but not for what I did to Shiff, the guy is a fool.

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Freas, Mar 13, 1417

I found her.. somewhat

I tried to apologize, she told me she felt i was possessive.. Was I? I don't know, not intentionally if I was. Even if I did apologize she doesn't want me no more, I can't blame her really. I acted stupidly being mad at her and leaving her and I lost the only one that had a meaning to me, that i cared enough to be with share everything of my past, well most of it.

I don't know what I will do now maybe go and put an end to my running and Hiding, kill them before they kill me. At least I made sure she had a place to stay, I sold what ever i could to pay the rent for a few years and I will send Elohanna more money for her rent to be paid. I hope she will be ok.. I don't know if I will be around or if I will ever be back if I find the syndicate.

Tempest I failed you and I'm a very poor follower. Can't even let it go, she occupies all my thoughts.

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Tunar, Apreal 3, 1423

I have been in hiding for four years.. moving in the shadows from cave to cave where the syndicate could not find me.. All because I was betrayed by the one I had loved after Beil.

In those four years all I had was my self and the shadows created by the fire. For four years I have worked and worked at clearing my mind and reaching out to the shadows, to become one with them. At the end of my hiding period I came very close in succeeded I could see the shadow move towards me close and closer as I was reaching for them with my mind. I know that in the near future i will be able to reach for them, to become one with them, part of them.

On an other story, as I came out of hiding I made my way to hempstead, slowly and surely I surveyed the area to see that the Syndicate had moved on and where searching for me in other places.

In coming back after this long time I have found some old friends, and made some knew. A man named Marcus, i just call him blacky since everything but his skin color is black. He seems to be a healer of sorts. Melana, a young elf, head strong courageous and from the look of it she is hiding from the law to, for that I have called her scoundrel. Last and the most interesting is Abigail. She seemed to have had a gentle up bringing with few stumbles, like me he blood mother was killed when she was only a baby. But for the rest she seemed to have a happy family and a good father that hasn't tried to kill her, Even if he is a Rofi. I get along with her very well but to my big surpise, one of her uncle is Dalan!! the same one that was ready to behead me without knowing the story that had happened a few minutes before he came in the Angels guild hall. He is a good sort though, I personally have nothing against him.

On one of our trips, me and Abigail, I was pleased to see Rose again. Even if she is a Toranite she is blessed with having a stable head on her shoulder, one that is not self imbued with a  sense of superiority that afflicts many of the Toranites. We headed to the storans crypt once inside the first part of the trip went fine but the second part we marched on the mummies. With my special mask the mummies did not manage to frighten me. While me and Rose were dealing with them, mostly her than me I must say, the damns things are so tough that even my best attacks seems to do little damage against them. Abi Marcus and that pesky little halfling that was with us got their mind played with and. Still we managed to finish our trip.  Oh right just before that there was a mummy that was not like the others. It talked to us and wanted that pesky halfling . At first I tried to let it believed i was willing to part with him, to try and see what it wanted, but Rose and the others did not get my drift. So when I saw there was no way around them and through the mummy to see why it was talking to us and wanted him, I joined them in protecting the halfling. While he healed the others, he refused to heal me even when I was close to the end, still protecting him and the others with rose, from the waves of mummies that kept coming. When Rose finally healed me while I was sitting down, the b$%@ decided to try and kick me. he spun around in thing air missing me. I will always remember his face when I told him that if he ever tried that again I would stick his severed head on a pole. He ran as fast as his little legs could.

while exiting the area, Blacky mentioned that he had seen a woman entering the crypt. Rose ordered us to stay behind, but I am not to good with orders and it is a good thing that I did. I manage to sneak in and while the woman rebuked Rose, she did not see or heard me and I managed to follow her. She dealt with the mummies with ease and then proceeded to take a silver urn out of one of the tombs. I could not take the time to look carefully at the tomb for markings because she was already on her way out and I had to keep following her in the hope of finding where she was going. To bad that I lost her tracks with the many others on the road to fort Llast.

When I reach back the group and I noticed that Abi was all rolled into a bundle against the rock facade Crying. She wasn't ready for what she had faced in the crypt and it shook her badly. Me and Rose tried to calm her down. I don't know why but to see her like this really got to me. As soon as I was able to I tracked down a member of the Angels guild and I bought the same kind of mask that I have.  Then I got my mask customized to something else than a skull looking mask, it would be fitting her, she not that type. Instead I chose a tiger design and I asked the armorer to tint it pink like her hair. She loved the mask when I gave it to her, she was a bit surprised at the tiger and I told her that it fitted her because a tiger is a free animal, a master of the jungle a free spirit, much like she is. Since then I call her Pink Tiger. She has this funny thing of finding a new nickname for me every day. It's good in a sense because less people will remember me that way and the less that happens, the less chances the syndicate could find me again.

I have to be careful though.. Something in me makes me trust her more than I should maybe. We ended up at a lake on night and we talked while she was fishing. Her cooked fish brought me down memory lane, they taste as good as the fish my adoptive mother used to make.  We talked for hours there about her past, how she was raised, what she likes, and eventually we ended up talking about my past. I think that shook her because mine is not a fairytale story you tell before going to bed. It's gruesome, filled with pain and hate. I just hope I didn't scare her. Even more so that on our last trip together I met an other of her "uncles" He was already shocked when I called Abi "Pink Tiger". He is way to over protective of her. How do they expect her to learn and get better if they keep her in a cage. You do not keep a free spirit tied up, it will only try to free itself even more. IN any case this man got on my nerved at the end and straight into my face when I called Melana by her nickname. He approached me from his small stature.. I think he's an elf.. Trying to be all menacing and all coming close and closer

"Are you calling me a scoundrel" blah blah. It almost felt as if he was going to start with the " in man time young man... we would neeever caled our eldeers names.. we were respeectful.. (//imagine the voice of an old man)."

I looked at Abi, I could sense my anger seeping in.. he was so close that in a small and smooth motion I could have reached for my blade and slit his throat.. but.. Abi.. It's someone she cares about. SO I kept it in the best I could. I walked away only saying one phrase that was not even filled with insults.. something I never do. Instead I kept myself hidden from plain sight until we reached back Vehl. When I was sure she was safe and sound I went to the clearing nearby and passed my frustration on some of the bandits that were there.  When I came by the guy was still there and to preserve pink tiger from a bloody mess I staid by the small lake. When she was going She told me good night but I was still to angry and I just nodded instead of telling her goodnight too. The problem with that is that I was still looking with a very want to kill that guy and I think she saw that. She left mad.

I don't really know why I care, really.. I mean she could end up betraying me like most people. No.. I don't think she would.. I don't know. I have to be careful though.

I hope to see her soon, to let her know I wasn't mad at her. If it's not to late.

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Wedlar, Apreal 18, 1423

I die at the hands of the bugbears on their island, then I find Abi almost dead  and then later on Blake meets with the soul ripping .... To make matter worse I think that little halfling saw my face.. what a carelessness on my part.. What if she..  and then Abi tells me to get help before she weaves and disappears  in Spellguards...

Maybe I should just stay away from every one. I guess that's what i should do.

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Sunra, Mai 8, 1423

*Sight*

*Is penned on in his journal*

I am truly getting the feeling that this Eghaas fellow is going to be a thorn in my side.  For an elf, he truly is not posed. Haven't seen much people lately, kept to myself a lot, gathering things for exchange of trues. The exception being of a little trip with Kinai, Acedia.. poor girl, I gave her a fright today.. but she does ask for it, Berak, Pyyran and Teefal oh.. yeah our little Toranite do gooder paladin, Clarissa.... Nothing much to say from that trip, killing, running, fun. But I didn't see Pink Tiger Scoundrel or Blacky.. hope their are doing fine. Especially Pink Tiger.

Later I met this girl I'll call her Hunty, short for Huntemara. Talked a bit about where she comes from with other people. She can deny it all she wants.. but I know part of her truth at least. Went to get some action against the kobolds outside of Hempstead.. I think she'll get to be able to handle herself quite well. Already

Anyhow.. nothing much more to say. Fire is keeping me company again and the shadows are dancing for me. It's getting easier to make them come closer to me, but I have yet to manage to get them to surround me and take me into them. Patience I guess. Clear mind, only thoughts on them merging with me, seems to make it happen. I'm sure I will get it soon.

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Freas, Mai 20, 1423

Truce. is what is now between me and Acedia. As long as she holds on to her end I will do on my end, brining less tension to Kinai in the process I hope.

I have finally seen Pink Tiger and we talked. Turns out she was making a joke but it didn't really got out well. We walked for a long time through Alindor talking all the while, it was a very pleasant moment. Found the paradise for a fisherman in our trip and we ended up talking a lot there. I also showed her what I was training on. While the fire was lit I put my hand on the ground near a shadow. I then closed my eyes and let my mind clear it self only with the want to be one with the shadow. Slowly it came closer almost touching me but then it moved back and started to dance at the rhythm of the flames. While we were talking I tried it again a few times always the same results. As it nears touching me it would go back. Abi think this could be a dangerous ability. She fears that if I am not careful I could lose the want to come back from the shadows. I told her I would be careful and that I had a very good reason to come back. He sight shifted away from mine fiddling with a rock in front of her. "I know.." she replied. Does she really?

 We continued our walk and I found out she is a bit scared of the height, she won't say it but I could see it. Then we kept walking through the forest ended up in the swamp "Such a Romantic walk in the swamp" She said, I couldn't help but chuckle and told her I could show her a great place that I am pretty sure she had not seen yet. Unfortunately she got spotted by some trolls. I managed to fight them long enough for her to escape, but as she got in Ketharian one of the troll got a lucky shot and she went down. I fought them all as well as I could, but they left me for dead. I crawled into town bleeding profusely a big gash in my left shoulder.. A new scar to remember my days by.

I woke up as Abi was knelled beside me feeding me some healing potion. She then manage to bring me to the Xeenite temple. I swear all the lash scars I have on the back, started to itch. I had never stepped foot into that place but now I was there and even the Xeen priestess looked at me and only sold healing potion to Pink Tiger instead of healing me herself. I'm sure she was having pleasure at seeing me lose my blood in a puddle on her wooden floor.

When I was healthy enough to walk again, we made our way to the special  place I had stumbled on a few years back. On the way there she brought me close to a white stag, I was even able to pet him slowly, they are a nice animal and that place.. I think it's called the lake of Glass it's really a magnificent place. In the special place we talked for hours, in the hot tub, her on her side and me on mine. Talking a bit of my tattoos and scars and also of her scar. We had a great time here too, but then the hot water was making her sleepy. She decided to ask the residents if she could borrow a spare room and I am now outside in a makeshift leaf bed.

To be able to get there unseen I gave her my set of hiding rings and amulet and my panther cape. I will have to get a replacement for those, but truly I don't mind. If it means she will be safer, I don't care of the cost.

Oh and yeah.. how could I almost forget to write this down. She hugged me . Came out of now were, I was a bit surprised but it felt great.

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Satari, Junar 7, 1423

Me and Pink Tiger spent a lot of time together again today. I went with her and a dwarf to get some wood for her to start woodworking with. Also milk a cow and went on gathering other things that she would be needed for her cooking. Through out the day when ever she would have to retire, I would go and collect the things needed for my orders and also made a duty to take up some raspberries when i was by them. I know she likes them, but I think she prefers blackberries.

Crossing path with Eghaas today made me realize it was better to just leave, than give him an opportunity to find anything to pick an argument against me and thus having any reason to try and turn Abi against me.

She knows I had a past, but is the only one who also know me. When she found me near the raspberries I explained to her why I left and I think she was happy that I did explain it to her. I don't want to pin her in the middle of a one sided war being ran by this elf.

Earlier on that day I notice that Abi and hunty were talking together. I appeared only to say high then after the greetings were done I left. I had time to go do some gathering and come back, to see that those two were still talking. So I left a little something. It took Abi some time to realize that it was there but then took them and ate the raspberry and blackberry I had left in a bag on the ground near her. I think hunty actually saw it first.

I am comfortable, more than I have been in a long time when I'm with Pink Tiger. Don't know well see...

On a more serious note

I also met with Kinai today and showed her how much I had trained while I was in hiding. I think she was a bit stunned at seeing I was this close to being able to dance with the shadows like she does. Unfortunately she thinks there is nothing more should could teach me. She did how ever say that there was to path that was offered to me, the one that is safer, that would be the best if I wanted to be able train me with hard trials that would be the safer for my sanity. Or the one that would make me look for the shadows, the one that has the most adrenaline rush and fascination.

I must say that both has good points, I love my sanity but I also love a good heard pumping rush.

In a way I think this is what Abi might be scared of, the adrenaline rush and fascination of the shadows might easily corrupt someone so much that they would not want to come back. Losing your self completely to them and becoming selfless.

As far as training goes, I am sure it is far less than what I have been through with the clan of my adoptive parents. Those training were brutal, tarting as soon as you were able to walk and carry a weapon, in some cases as young as three years old.

She told me that if I was going to choose the first choice, the training one. That I should be looking for a group called the guild of thieves and someone called Nathalia. Apparently her and J'ser were connected and mentioning that he was a friend might open some doors. Before I left she also asked of a favor. If I was to find them, to slip in her name. I'm guessing she is looking to join them.

Sanity, friendship versus adrenaline and fascination. All things I love, I love my sanity, truly love the only friendship I have. But I also love feeling the adrenaline course in my body and I must admit that the shadows are fascinating.

I guess all there is for me to decide now is, do I keep only thinking of what is best for me? or do I keep in mind the one that orbit around me?

I have to think about that and I know just the place for that. The quietest place I have been so far still filled with the beauty and wonder that is Nature.

*packs a few things and takes a bunch of tinder and fishing arrows, rights a little note and sends it to the attention of Abigail*

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Mulnari, Junar 23

Abi came to me when she received my message, I was relieved to see she came. I wanted to talk to her about the two choice Kinai had set forth and see her reaction to them, hoping that at the same time I could better understand where she stood about me.

After some talks it was getting clear that she wasn't indifferent to me and even more so when she understood what the second path was about. SO my mind is set, I will try to find that group and get the training they can provide me. I am not ready to lose my self and my sanity due to a deal, which would ultimately make me lose Abi. SO guild of thieves.. Nathalia.. here I come. Seeking you out for the training you can give me.

through our talks I have revealed to her, mostly, how I felt. At first I wasn't sure because she did not seem to respond much, but later on as the day came, she let more and more signs show that she was feeling the same.

For all of the talks we had and seeing how she was uncomfortable with the possibility of loosing me to a deal it is clear that it is time I stop running from them, time I fight back and regain freedom.

In that essence she suggested that I would talk to her father who is a knight in the Wyrm. A misty asking help of a Rofi.. I am unsure if it has ever been done, but even if I was a bit not keen on the notion that he might have to go with the strict sense of the law and arrest me on spot, because lets face it. Even if they are corrupted the locals authority of where my crime ring was located, they probably dispatch a mandate after me to all the other offices of law. But still I put my trust in how Abi viewed her father. Turns out he did not arrest me on the spot, and turns out he is willing to help me get rid of them, the lawful way. But for this I need to get on paper all the information that is on my mind about the local branch of the syndicate I was a member of, the branding on my right shoulder blade and any valuable information that could help his investigation. If this is done right, my actions might not only set me finally free of them, but also rid a town of a very dangerous group.

After he had agreed to help me I felt somewhat relieved. And Abi and her father started to talk about the new weapon she wanted and that she wants to work for it. SO he asked her to get some molds and lumps of clay, so we did.

On our way to dig up the clay we met with a halfling that was daydreaming in the middle of the roan in Hlint. Her name is peanut and she was daydreaming about her sweetheart that she was waiting for. That's when Abi clearly showed that her feelings for me were more than friendship. It made Peanut giggles and she let out a "Oh so you are also two love birds" Abi giggled to and so did I. After a little time we left to get the clay.

We had amassed a great number, and my ox was filled.. oh yes turns out the name of my ox is not dummy but Durmel. Thats what Abi found out when she talked to him. Anyhow, he was loaded up and still we had more on me. I can safely say that I understand what Durmel feels when I load him up with heavy materials. We slowly made our way back to Hempstead.

As we were about to go and process some of the clay, miss Ferrit came out of the craft hall in a  rush almost trampling on Abi. When she realized that it was me she ask me to meet one of her friends by the angels guild hall. Her friends turns out to be Sala. Well apparently they both got word somehow that Omer and Rose had gotten stuck into Storans crypts and that they needed my help to open and disable the traps.

We packed Durmel again and got rid of the excess and we all got to Storans. As we arrived there Omer had found a way to get both Rose and him out safely, and after chatting with Rose and Sala a bit me and Abi decided to go back to Hempstead to make the molds for her father.

As we were getting the clay I heard some water splash from the pool surrounding the statue of Aluria. I told Abi this fact and we went to check what it was. Turns out Dalan, the "uncle" of Abi was bouncing some pebbles on the water. I was a bit reticent to see him, knowing he doesn't approve of me but nevertheless I staid and chatted with him and listen to Abi chat with up until Eghaas showed up.

As I had told Abi a few days prior, I stepped away and left them talk alone. I waited for her in the craft hall and I must have dozed off, because when she came to get me, she had already processed the clay she had on her and were now ready to go on a walk with her uncles and I on Alindor. Now I was getting a bit nervous.

On one side I have a dwarf who think he is her uncle, ready at any given time to chop my head off, and on the other side, I have this elf who seems also to think he is one of her uncles and is ready to pick an argument over anything at anytime with me.

Well none the less turns out we had a great trip, I used a recipe that Anika, my adoptive mother, had showed me before she was killed. And all of them seemed to really enjoy the fish. Even Abi pseudo dragon seems to like it. It kept diving to get some every time I showed it a piece of my fish. Although I plaid a little trick on it and used a pepper chunk and thrown it toward Mica, who picked it off mid flight and started coughing immediately.

It wasn't to happy and refused to take pieces of fish off of my hand but it did take one I laid on the ground for it. Abi laughed a bit when she saw what happened and told Mica " that will show you to gulp everything that is shown to you".

While we were relaxing by the fire and looking at Eghaas trying to cleans his fish and failing a couple of time. Abi leaned her self against me and we sat there, like that for a while. Finally after some time she fell asleep because she was exhausted from all the clay digging we had done. And me and Eghaas were left alone to talk. It wasn't so much an amicable talk, but I think we both have a better understanding of each other, somewhat.

He asked me the reason why I liked feeling the rain on my face, as I had somehow told someone that before and he heard it. I showed him the branding on my heart of the boat of mist. He then was surprise when he understood that me and Barion had talked, and nothing bad had happened.

I simply told him that neither of us are Priests and that I think Barion is able to see past the curtains of the faith to the person that is asking for his help. He left after that and I set myself for the night. I left Abi by a small fire covered with my only blanket, well not close enough of the fire for her to catch on fire but enough to keep her warm. I took the precaution to put more rocks around the fire and dig around it putting some water where I dug. This would prevent the fire to get out of control. And I went to sleep at the camp I had left there when Abi came to me earlier that day.

And well this is where I am now, writing this down, looking at the moon and at Abi sleeping not to far away. Truly this lake is a wonderful and special place.

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Mulnari, Jular 9, 1423

A gathering day it was yesterday.

I almost finished gathering what is needed a few more nuts and that is it, this order will be completed.

At the same time me and Abi have went for more clay lump and processed them into the molds her father requires. I had my first try on the furnace and out of seven molds I was able to make five.. I guess I'm not to bad at this stuff.

Also when I was with Scoundrel, Blacky we met Acedia today in the cave in silkwood.  Guess now she has someone else to give eyes to as both her and Blacky got into a little word fest. I guess Blacky is not use to see women dating each others.

But the most important thing today is that I finally got to make a full sentence of what I wanted to ask Abi. Took some doing, things kept crawling up and interrupting me, but I did ask her and I'm happy. Abi and I are together now. She did say I would be watched over even more by her family, but I don't care.

With her father willing to help me, and me closer to complete my goal of being able to dance with the shadows. Things are finally starting to look positive for me.

Now to go get more nuts and clay.

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Freas, Jular 27, 1423

hmm should I trust Huntemara?

Big question there. We talked for a while she told me her story I told her part of mine, the beginning. We got a few things in common, but I can't say that I trust her. Yet she says that it feels somehow familiar when she sits near me. Not sure what she means there.

In any case through our talks, we ended up making a deal, I teach her what i know about the shadows and she teaches me elven.

I told her what Dorlic had taught me, that the shadows are alive, not just a phenomena due to the light being stopped by an object.That it was rumored that a whole plane existed where the shadows live lives almost like we do. Thats what I started with.

She started to teach me some words in elven:

Tyamoanyan means perfect
aala means yes
le means no
Tyelna means pinky.

with the few words i already knew that makes a couple. Not much of a phrase yet but still before she left Krys had came to the stormcress and I was happy to know that he and Elohanna had wed and were now proud parents of a young boy. As she was leaving I asked her to translate a sentence I wanted to tell abby it too me a very long time to get it right.. i think, by the time I was practicing it and gotten all the words as close as how she had said them, she was gone.

this is the sentence:

Iracce sa laamaaan, iream ela sa nyacalaanelic failyana anewila?

it means

Hello my sweet, how is my celestial beauty today?

A real tongue twister this is. But it was fun to see the blank look on Abi's face. She doesn't understand elven but when I told her what it meant she thought it to be cute.

Before that though, Marcus had a slight problem. A rather good looking woman named Saida, had made him fall in a trance like and following her saying he loved her only. When I know far to well that he has strong feelings for Melana. I had to actually knock him out of it. Later on me and Acedia, who told me her name in elven is Ilnynya, had some fun teasing him with that.

Later on I met with Abi, and like i wrote before, she liked that I was learning elven. We gathered a few things for her then went to process them, and thats when we met with Eghaas. I still am not comfortable around him and still think he is trying to get me so mad that it would give him grounds to tell Abl not to see me.

Well it doesn't work with him but does with this halfling called Rose. She doesn't understand that the colors of my armor changes to better conceal me in an area. At first I didn't mind, someone else trying to be a smart mouth. But as I crossed path with her again, it just kept going on and at the end, I actually lost my temper. I reached for my sword but saw the guard and also the expression Abi had. I manage to restrain myself and went out of town. The fishes in the pound were my pray to calm myself. When i had enough I Sneaked back in town and saw that Abi was kneeling. She was actually vouching for me and it was enough to come out of hiding. I just can't believe i lost my temper this way in front of her.. I have to learn to control it. Anyhow I proposed to show to Rose what I met but she preferred to walk away. I then apologized to Abi for losing my temper and she dismissed it as no one can always keep their temper in check. Still for the rest of the day after she had gone to rest.. I felt terrible.

That's when I met Scoundrel and Eghaas.. again. I didn't stay at first because I do not wish to pin Abi into his futile attempts, but as time went one I remember that Abi asked me to try so I went back and started talking with them. More Melana than him but still. it's a start. And the once again he started to argue about how no one should ever lose temper and that he would never had. I reminded him about the mountain and that changed his speech a bit. Now it was not that he would never lose it but that it would take much more.

Me and her kept talking for a while and then came Muireann who needed help to get sand. Well not really help, more company I think.  Scoundrel was to tired so I went with this priestess of mist.  We talked for a while and how so funny things can be. Apparently he had eyes for Muireann years ago. She did tell me to remind him that he calls a misty priestess friend and shouldn't be giving me such a hard time since I am a follower of the mist to. Not that it would do any good I am sure.

Anyhow enough of this none sense. If he please to try and irritate me, he will play at that game alone. I will not hurt Abi and will not let her be pinned by his childish games. I'll keep trying to get to know him, for her, but I wont enter his games.

// for the GM:

through out the rp with Huntemara about learning the language and even when Brian was alone practicing I used perform rolls, with the standard 15 and over are successes before the mod. So if i had 15+2 and over i was getting it.

An apology to Tanman, he had crashed and hadn't come back by the time Muireann came to us. I personally don't like to write that people just disappear like this so I thought that writing he had got up and left without saying goodbye wouldn't be to much problematic.

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Threas, Augra 12, 1423

*comes out of the bath only rapped of a towel and sits on one of the cushions and starts to write in his dairy.*

I don't really know what's is up with people but Blacky and Scoundrel seems to take pleasure in teasing me asking when the wedding is and yesterday Muireann told me it would only cost 500 more gold if Abi was to move in..

I was a bit shocked at that, not that I wouldn't want her, but its to soon. Build the relationship on solid ground instead of just passion. I don't want to make the same mistakes again. It wouldn't be good for me and it certainly wouldn't be good for her.

I got a huge orders today and I am already almost half way through. I thought I was going to go mad of just running around all day but thanks the heavens I met Abi, Blacky and Hunty. Seapking of Hunty she showed me new words today.

Vmailan which means great
aeym amacnyesa means your welcome
anirilln aey means thank you

I am getting to like this language even more than before. I also explain to her a bit more of the shadows, on how they were alive, and that when they covered you, you didn't just be covered but you actually merged with them, and if you were not prepared you could easily be lost in them not wanting to come back. I also explained to her that it was only by a focus but yet cleared mind that you could reach them and get them to merge with you. Als that when your connection was strong enough, she would be able to call upon a shadow herself for aid. The more strong her connection would be with them, the stronger the shadow would be.

We went on a combat trip on deaders that plagues the outskirts of Vehl. It was fun.  But throughout the day and yesterday, I couldn't get the event that happened with that Halfling, out of my head. Even after talking with Abi who reassure me it was alright, I still felt bad. I don't want her to second guess her choice to be with me because I can lose my temper. And the way she seemed a bit distant all day left me wondered if she was having second thoughts about us, until she announced to her other uncle Quantum, that I was her boyfriend. It quelled my strange feeling.

We spent a lot of time me and her listening to stories, at one point she even hit me for some reason saying to stop that. I wasn't doing anything!! But then not to long after she took my hand. My thumbs and fingers couldn't have enough of her soft skin.

Anyhow after the storyteller night we took Quantum who was a little bit under the bottle, back to the orc's bahsers. Apparently he has not receive any words of his wife in three years and is now alone at home with his daughter gone to a training temple. I have to say that him and Rose are the odd exception. They do not seem to have the usual hot head that the clerics or paladins of Toran usually have. I know it's very unsual, but he is Abi's uncle and because I care for her very much, I will try to keep an open mind about him the same way I try with Eghaas and Dalan.

Which reminds me, I hope to see Eghaas soon. I want to let him have my box of silk. I know it's not much, but it may be a step into getting a off a new start for a better relationship.

Quantum also asked me to make a delivery for him. He gave me a flower to give to Miss Annalee at the freelancers. So I went and gave her the flower. She looked at it and rolled it in her hand for a while not saying anything. I waited a little bit and asked her if there was a message she wanted me to return. She said no that she would deliver it herself.


Well off to bed, tomorrow is an other day, more people to question on if they had seen or heard of Nathalia and the guild of thieves, more gathering and most important, Seeing Abi.

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Freas, Augra 27, 1423

fool , fool,  Toranite fool.

I try to save his hide because he is the god father of Abigail. Because by getting badly hurt or killed would have pained the one I love.

I don't know what miss lee told him, nor do I care anymore. But I know that when I had done talking to MR Dalan, Mr Quantum was no where to be found and miss lee had barely curled up on her self at the tree. I understood what it mean and I asked again the direction he had left and ran after him.  stupid fool.

I found him getting beat up by the deaders near velh, not even in armor, not even with his weapons drawn but kneeling in front of them as if he was waiting to be killed. And when I managed to kill the undead that was attacking him. He got up and Ran. I yelled to him asking him, what he was doing and he yelled back "I am dying". He jumped right in an other band of deaders and I reached him barely in time to give him many healing potions, while the deaders where taking their pleasure in killing me. when I though he was healed enough, I took a few myself. He told me to run, I told him to run that I would not leave him there because of Abi. Its only then that he casted a spell that killed the remaining deaders. He then proceeded to run again as I was trying to heal myself. I found him fighting the poisonous Giants, in front of the cave. He fell before I could reach him. I killed the Giants without mercy and then tried to drag him out of to a temple but I wasn't able to. it's then that I went back to the Stormcrest, baldy injured, bleeding from the leg and arms. I couldn't help but to collapse near there a hafling healing me. When she did I rushed to tell them that Quantum had fallen and that I needed help to get him to someone who could help him. THey stood there in aw, looking statue like. So i rushed back, I manage to strugled him up my right shoulder after dealing with new giants. It's only then that I saw the man in blue appear near me and cast a spell on me. I felt stronger, but it was nothing against how heavy that fool was. I painfully walked with him to the Rofi temple in Velh. But I knew that If I went in there, I was done for, so instead Miss Lee and Miss Jennara took his body inside. Late on they all came out as I was waiting in front of the temple. The man in blue asked me if I wanted the polite version or not, I just told him to tell me. He said he would be fine an they all went.

Thats when He showed up slapping me behind the head for saving his life. I was furious at him and told him "what am I to do let Abi get hurt?" he replied no of course and he walked away. I followed him as I had a big piece of my mind to give him. Of him ending up hurting Abi and every one around him. Through my sever reprimands at him that it would have hurt Abi, he told me he was indeed trying to die once again. Daft Toranite.

Now that after he has came back to the Stormcrest and said I was not to be blamed, after I have made apologies to Miss lee for possibly saying in a jest "such friends you are" when I saw them standing there statue like. And for when that Man showed up near me only after I had manage to lift this corps that weight as an ox, off the ground. Miss Lee thinks that I am the one who killed him.

What in this land is wrong with people. Me killing mr Quantum, the god father of the woman I love??. they are as much daft as he was for trying to get him self killed.

The happiness of Abigail was my only motivation, she loves her god father.. Killing him would have done nothing to make her happier. Killing him would have done nothing to repair the wrongs I did. Killing him would have made me as worse as the Syndicate. And there I try to be more amicable to her other uncle Eghaas, giving him my box of silk as a show of good will into forming a better relationship between the two of us. And this happens

Now somehow I have to keep faith that she will trust the person she knows in me more than some rumors that are not even true.

Again, the people around me betrays me. My only hope is for Quantum to come clean to Abigail. To tell her all the truth, that I tried to save him almost dying myself in the process.

Teaches me to think a Toranite can be different than the others.

[Hellblazer]

Satari, Seplar 14, 1423

*he sits on one of the cushion*

What painful few days this has been.


I left Abi sleeping in her living room in front of the fire with my camping blanket as cover. She had gotten drunk.. I pains me to see her hurt like that. She found out for herself what she didn't want to believe, that MR Quantum was indeed trying to kill himself.

The day started like so many others, except I had not slept since the event of the Stormcrest and MR Quantum. To many things running in my mind. Abi found me on the bridge in south of Krandor. I was still fearful of her reaction to my letter but I still asked her if she had received it and she told me she had. THat she did not believe that I would hurt her uncle but at the same time she could not believe that he would try to kill himself.  We talk for a little why and she needed oat and wheat for milk so we proceeded to get it.

We met with Hunty later on, then with Marcus and decided to go fight some Gnolls in the mountain. Big mistake, beside Marcus, the party fell. I Reach them back in the fields of Heampstead only to find out that Shiff

*you can see anger in his handwriting style as he writes his name*

Was there with a Toranite Paladin.. meh. They decided to come with us to help us get our graves, me completely disregarding the paladin and Shiff. I even went on ahead because this married flirter machine on two legs was yapping so much it sickened me. Finally we all got our graves and had a bit of fun with the rest of the Gnolls. I personally pictured Shiff's face on every one I fought.

Ah right MR Omer had came with us and as usual he was his good and charming fellow. I truly believe he is a great guy and maybe I'll get to know him better. Turns out that he is an uncle of Hunty. This is getting to be very peculiar. For me an uncle is blood related, but to the people of Mistone, any one can be an uncle it seems.

When Hunty left tired of the first trip, and Shiff was busy flirting with the wife of the Paladin. Me, Abi and Mr Omer went to mine some platinum in the swamps near Velh. Lots of trolls in there but the trip wen rather well. Abi was having so much fun Mining for Mr Omer she was really a sight to see. Mr Omer was also happy by the trip and left us split the findings between me and Abi as he moved of to other business.

While Abi was mining he was gracious enough to teach me two new words in elven.

Amac which means good
Ilma which means are

Me and my sweety found ourselves sitting on a bench in Stormcrest where we met a man named Craigh something and Miss Jennara. While we were splinting what we had found, we overheard them of a trip exactly where we had just came from. Abi jumped on the occasion of being able to mine again and so we went with them.

Moving toward the mine I noticed that Mr Caigh was also a Rofirein and even if he noticed I was a mist follower he didn't make such a case about it. Just a remark that my branding could be removed somehow. Told him I had received it at the age of 4 and that I was used to live with it.

Right from the first part of the mine, things started to go wrong. It was actually the first time I saw Abi fell and I was crushed. I never really understood this thing they call the bindpoint and miss Jennara was kind enough to explain it to me, but some of the things she said made me fear for Aby. I knew she had knelled in front of those strange cross, and I had done the same as her, but still. Finally she came back. Right away when she saw me she said not to say what I was about to say. Never the less we all apologized to her for not reacting quickly enough. We proceeded to go further in. She mined again but this time, without the help of Mr Omer she was having a bit more difficulties. When we went even further there again she got caught. I tried to use a potion on her as I saw her fell, but it was already to late. She hit the ground dead. By that time I was truly furious at myself. I had promised her father, her three uncles to take care of her and protect her and yet I kept failing. She never came back and I was starting to worry.

We hurried out of the place, splitted in four our findings and I left them. I went to fort Wayfare to get some roses in case i was going to meet her then. In fact I did she was sitting on the bench in Hempstead. I came to her and gave her the flowers and I tried to apologize again but this time she really got mad. In short, she was mad I was blaming myself for things that are out of my control. Even when I though after a while things were a little bit more settled, she got angrier when I attempted to make a small joke. I even tried at one point to just take her hand to gently massage it, hoping it would calm her a little bit but she just shook it off and coldly said don't.

I am so confused now .. she was more open before we got together or at the lake of glass where she fell asleep leaned on me. Now I can count on a single hand the time we actually held each others.. I know there is a lot of things happening fast in her life at the moment, I just hope that it will pass and that things will settle down a bit.

Anyhow when she felt strong enough again we went to do some venting on the local bandits and on the undead near Velh. I couldn't believe my eyes. That  fool of Mr Quantum was there knelled letting himself get beaten all over again. We hurried to dispatched the deaders and when he finally got up, Abi shoved me out of the way and landed one hell of a punch straight on his jaw. She couldn't believe it, she was almost hysterical. She screamed at him and her voice broke down almost crying.

He led us to the fort near by and started explaining why he wanted to die to Abi. She didn't comprehend anything at first, still to much under the shock. He found out that many youngsters of the Toranite academy had went to test them self some place and they all died. His daughter was with them and she was turned into a vampire having fed herself. I am no father.. but I could understand the pain he must have felt when he explained to Abi he had to kill his own daughter. Abi was even more crushed then. And with each passing seconds I felt my heart being ripped out looking at her.

Finally after a while, he asked me to get closer, which I did and again he asked me to take good care of his Abi. I couldn't talk.. I just nodded. He then told Abi to take care of me, that I was a free spirit even if a misty, but a good man nonetheless. and he moved off into the night out of the fort.

After he left Abi collapsed sobbing and I didn't know if I should hold her or not. I mean if I went by what I had saw.. she would reject me again. But after a while I went to wrap her in my arms to try and comfort her just by holding her and before I could finish she got up. She needed to let her emotions go violently. We went on a killing spree of deaders, bone golems, Poisoned Giants, and then in Velh of skeletons and other things. In that crypt I let her fight on her one, I knew she was in no immediate danger and just kept healing her when she needed it.

After some time we made our way back toward Hempstead and stopped in the forest.. more like she collapsed again in sobs. This time I sat by her and Let her know after some time that she could lean on me if she wanted, simply by tapping on my left shoulder and telling her that I could be her rock only if for this night. She looked at her hands at that point and a small smile appeared. I was relieved that she was starting to feel better.

We talked for some time, her thanking me for being there, that she had still so many things running in her head, unanswered questions and also that she wants to organize a search party to find her uncle. I let her know that I would be there by her side, every step of the way and we started to walk again toward Hempstead.

Just as we were about to enter the town Miss Lee came out, I was surprised so was Abi. Miss Lee took Abi aside. I was sure she was going to tell her untrue rumor, but I let her do it,knowing that Abi knew the truth and nothing miss Lee could have said would have changed the facts and event.

At one point I saw Abi take her sword out and it lit on fire. She started to walk toward the fields and I caught up with her. She told me she knew where her father was going, but she needed to talk with the Toranite temple.

I followed her there, even walked up the stairs and stood in the entrance, but it didn't take long that I moved back down the stairs. She came out after some times and we headed back to her fathers house. And well the rest I already wrote.

The past events have made me think a lot. I have found that Many people I should consider Enemy are in fact decent people. And that the most gentle and shy person, as Miss Lee could turn out to be very scornful and I even dare say, a possible back stabber.

I'm starting to wonder if the teaching I was taught as a youngster about Mist, the changes she bring to test her followers and non followers, to make the stronger through trials, is still the path for me. Things I thought were a certainty in the teachings, I found to be untrue in some cases.

I have some serious thinking and soul searching to do. And with that I still have not found the guild of thieves and Nathalia.

[Hellblazer]

Sunra, Oclar 1, 1423

*He steps out of the bath, towel to his waist, plops down on the cushion and starts to write into his dairy. His hand writing is precise, direct and confident. He is happy.*

HA! Take that! And one for the neutral guy and gal!

We caught her. She was in disguise, but her voice sounded familiar. Then she went back on her old habits, this time on a elf called Lance. Again when I tried to interpose myself to her she used her magic to render me motionless. When Abi saw that, straight ahead she yelled, "Hey he's mine". Sweet words to my ears. She got her self engulfed in the same spell as me. But still, once it wore off, we ran after them, Randi following us not sure of what was happening.

We caught up to Lance and Saida just outside of Hlint. Lance didn't seem to be in the same trance as Marcus was, but yet he was still trying to defend her until he finally gave up. Our resolve was unquestionable. She tried her tricks on me, but by now I knew some of them, never looked into her eyes. Abi trying to grab her, my sword to her throat, Lance enjoying the show, Randi still not understanding why someone should tell her how to use her magic.

Nonetheless, we kept one, we submitted her.. she gave up. Abi tied her hands and I moved behind her, sure not to look into her eyes, my sword now pressed on her spine. She was pleading, almost crying to what it seemed. Ruse, masquerade it was. in Hlint she yelled for help, used the town crier, who beside talking never dared make a move after I intimidated him into standing down. Abi got tired and she tried to knock her out, failed. I got tired and the feel of the metal pummel of my sword, she tasted on he back of her head. Ha! never thought I would hit an unarmed woman:\\ But Abi later put this thought to rest telling me she was armed in other ways. You have to love that pink haired free spirit that is her:p

To the Rofies she went. On the shoulder of Abi bound, gagged and veiled. A bit shameful I must say, but my sweetheart is stronger than me haha!. No mater I lover her for who she is. Into the temple of Velh, me, Lance and Randi waiting outside talking. I can't enter that place, I'm no priest of Mist, but still it doesn't feel right.

Finally, proud Abi came out with the thanks of the priest. Her father should be proud. I am proud. I am feeling very weird to.. I helped the law! Of course I was going to help it, to get rid of the syndicate that was running after me. But now, I helped the law, for no more reason than doing what's right. I didn't cared when Abi said she had gotten no rewards. I am changing. For better? For worse? I have no clue.

But the best in all that story is. By twice today she held me, and kissed me. And a third time in the same evening, she put her arm around me. I'm happy, happy, happy, happy. Crazy sure, but happy!

Okay... time to be a bit more serious now.

I talked to Rose Blair today. She found me gazing in the lit fireplace in the arms in. She knew something was wrong, she succeeded on sneaking on me in her armor. We talked for a long time about how my views were being shaken, how what I though to be true, were starting to be revealed as not so true. It all came down to one simple answer from her. Since you did not choose to follow mist, maybe you should take a look to the other faiths and find one that you believe or maybe you should just not follow one.

Why? simple. More and more I am feeling sick when people are pushed behind faith. Who is completely sure that he understand all the intricacy that are the will of the Gods? Zealots maybe, but still only mortal with only few exception of truly meeting the deity. Zealots maybe, but still subject to their own interpretation of what they think to be true. Should a child of a mother be left to die because they do not follow your faith? Should a living being be killed by your inactions because it did not think like you do? Even worse.. let say one day I am a father.. Mist requires me, in a test of faith, to give my child to death.. would I do it?... Never!!

So I guess that answers my question. I will not let faith or the illusion of faith guide my judgment. There is more to this life than believing in something that may or may not be there when you need it. That may or more probably not care about us simple beings.

For weeks my thoughts were unclear and the branding of the boat in a storm, the insignia of Mist, branded on me at the age of four, was itching constantly. Unconsciously, it was my mind, my incertitudes. But now it I know, it stopped itching but it doesn't feel right anymore.

I have found good and bad in all people, in all faiths and doctrines. I do not believe there is only one truth, but the one that we are all living beings and each deserves its chance to prove themselves as individuals, not based on simple doctrines.

I change. For better? For worse? I don't know.

on other issues that still presses on my mind..

I saw the horse that Mr Quantum used to ride. It was tied up to the tree that is in front of the Orc Basher's guild hall. I knocked on the door but no one answered and I did not hear any noise inside either. Later on I saw Miss Lee and even if I knew she felt of me but like a bug to squash with the heel of her boots, I went to her and inquired if she had news of Mr Quantum. unfortunately she had none and said that she was searching for him. I told her I was also looking for him and that I had seen his horse in town but not him. She decided to go look with the undeads.  I think I don't even want to imagine what she might have done to those undead, while looking for him.

And last but not the least less important. No news of Nathalia or the guild of thieves. I keep searching and asking around to the locals, but no one has seen or heard of them, that I have found. It is getting a little irritating, but I will keep looking for them. I am ready, I know I am.

Fight.Gather. Love, Search. Makes my days pretty busy. But I like it.

*Goes to put his book away but stops and says "Do'h". Sets himself back into a comfortable writing position.*

I found out today that one of the words Mr Omer showed me was not what I had comprehended.  Amac does not mean good, but fine.

Shiff.. yes Shiff, but Rose said he changed.. lets see.. and Miss Tegan showed me a few new words today.

Ceen, which means look
Oela, which means well
Amac, which truly means fine
Veew, which means good

Not really getting better on my accent, but at least my vocabulary is expending.

*After writing this, he now closes the book and goes to lay on his bed, falling asleep in a record time.*

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Sunra, Oclar 15, 1423

Old and new,

Early in the day, Me Abi, Omer and Hunty went on a trip for Alex on my home.. well... where I was raised in my childhood. It was a good trip and we have fun. As they were resting and heating them self up a bit leaned her self back to back on me... I could have heated her better if she had been in my arms but for some reasons it seems that those sweet moment are few and sporadic in between.

As they were heating themselves up, Hunty tried to train a little but she couldn't concentrate as the cold was getting to her. I told her that this was actually the best thing for her. If she could succeed to concentrate and clear her mind in the harshest climate, she would be able to do it anywhere.

A lot of old faces from before my hiding time showed up today. Amilia, Go'rk, and the new faces Marcus and Blake, of course not forgetting my sweetheart Abi.
During out trip Go'rk proposed to me a job that would bring me five thousand trues. The catch, it was a termination contract. I had never been allowed nor wanted to take those contracts and now that I was finally living a seemingly peaceful life, with a wonderful woman in my life, I was not going to let it go. When I tild Go'rk the whys Abi had not understood, so I took her aside to explain what it meant and she was happy that I had refused the contract.

We continued our way to the mountain past Storans, it was a interesting trip until finally by a well prepared counter attack, the ogres greatly outnumbered us. I tried my best to cover Abi escape but it was to little to late. I don't blame myself though, like Abi said, you can't control everything and I tried my best to have her escape. We all fell and Amilia dinned with the soul ripper heartless mother.

We al got back together to fort Llast and Abi decided to go ahead and try to get her grave. I wasn't for that idea not and I took upon my weighted and weakened self to follow her. It didn't take time that she was already to far ahead, but since I was already there I would go get my grave. We met on one of the suspended bridge, she took a few tings from me so I could walk more easily and said that she would wait at a safe place.

When i reached er back whole again, I couldn't help but smile at her and gently caresses her check. She was Glad that I have made it back safely, except for a cut on  my forehead. One of the boulders throwers had seen me and caught me straight on the nugget. She damped and applied some of the healing potion directly on the would, tenderly. I would have held her just there but Marcus was waiting for us, and she remembered.

As we were getting back to fort Llast we stumbled on Miss Sala and her husband Jako. They were heading into the crypts of Storans and again, Abi couldn't help herself but jump on the possibility of a new adventure and off we went. The first room went pretty badly, Abi got pretty hurt and was being chased by vampires and skeletons. I ran as fast as I could after them hitting them for them to leave her alone and they did. Now they were beating on me.  undead and their inability at feel pain or bleed. My attacks are worthless against them. Finally with some major work, we manage to clear the first room. The others went much smoother but we didn't go to the anti-chamber.  We made our way out and Abi was now tired so she left and I went my way.

Gathering Gathering and Gathering with talking to the locals to see if they have heard of Nathalia or the guild of thieves.

All in all, beside dying.. it was a good day.