For Duty and Deity

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... About pain and love

The duty of accepting choices and the  is hard make them.

*The journal lays open in the floor, in a messy room at Toran's temple, around it there area a lot of sheets of paper teared, the room are silent and calmed as a single moonbeam enter thru a small shaft in the high, There's also and sleeping Lance Stargazer, tired and with frustration in his face*

*The journal in the floor has the remains of some sheets ripped from it, like if if they were teared apart in a violent way, as the last page reads as follow*

From Lance --------- ( Surname Ommited ) quill and pen

Toran be praised..... Toran be praised ..... Toran be praised ..... Toran be praised ...... Toran be praised .....

Send me your strenght, send me your light and your endurence, to you I humble ask you for this virtues... SO the pain may pass.

It's seems that in the end I fell in love...... and It pains me, because I live to my promise. I know that it's the right thing to do, I would gladly do it again, but why I do feel so bad about it, Why I feel pain in my heart and sorrow in my soul.

Why I cannot stop criing at nights? I don't even want to cry, When I wake up, I'm already criing, I cry while sleep.

Sil'via has found her heart and It was not me who dwells in it, She choose Chaynce, my friend and my brother over me, I evebn congratulated them and it's killing me.

I had .... No.., I never had anything, I only have faith... I must be vigilant and noble, but Whay I cannot stop criing for this, I have done nothing wrong, I did the right thing to do, She is now going to be happy, but alas....

I guess it's my fault for not keeping my heart guarded as I was adviced, but what can I do, I was too late, I feel in shame and pain.

I even felt rage, and angry, and those feelings I must put away from my heart, they will only brings destruction and chaos, Love is not supposed to be like this, If so Why Toran allow us to love, no Love must be in a diffent way, which takes me to what if this thing I feel is not love?, how could a knight be sure of this.

I cant belive I fall asleep in the street, I still cannot believe that, But Thank Toran that never let's his faithfull alone, I 've meet Lex'or, the former aerindite, and found that he has converted into our brother, he will carries the teachings of the Vigilant one from now on, At least this fills my heart with some joy, There was alos Lady ielwen there with me in Leringard.

I jsut don't remember so much of that day, It is like if it never happened, I jsut remember talking to SIl and Chaynce, then meeting up with Lex'or and Ielwen, then nothig, I just woke up in the street, they said I was asleept for a whole day, }but alas I cannot remember what happened.

LEx'or spoke of a story of his life and how is to live witha broken heart, he said I must let Sil'via go from my heart, if i want to find happiness again but I simply cannot do that...

I dont't want to lose my friends, but it paisn me to see them, I'm dyiing of pain, And he said I msut let it go....

Toran be.... *the writing stops abruptly  and some parts of the paper has some parts of it with wet tears *

*Near the Journal rest an engraved ring also throwed with violence*

As he criies in sleep, Lance says... I forgive you Sil'via and Chaynce, why cannot forive myself... Toran be praised...*sobs*

// For the sake of development.. I will resume here the contains of the teared sheets of the journal..

It relates basically speaking with Chaynce, and asking about his feeling for Sil'via, and Chaynce saying he has not interest in her, and asking about his feelinga, he narrated also how  Siklvia spoke with Chaynce and that how he said that had no feeling for Sil'via in the spite of friendship, Then he narrates how he searched Chaynce and his feeling of being betrayed, not just for him but for her.

Lance thought that was wrong if Chaynce step back because that would close the dor to sil'via, So he found Chaynce and hit him in his facefor betraying him, he narrates how they travel together and spoke afo the matter, also in the end Sil'via getting mad at the tw of them,

Lance narrate his pain in hitting Chaynce but his inner peace he has done the right thing For Sil'via

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... About joy and love

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen:

Toran be praised, he who see for us, and complete us.

Father. some days has passed since I last write here, And a lot of things has passed since that.

I am getting better after losing Sil'via, I have sleeped some hours and the criing is stoping, I think I my heart is understanig Lex'or words about Letting go. After days in meditation here at the Temple, the vigilant one had granted me insight to understan what love is, I am affraid I AM in liove with her, but what is the love , if not to be happy knowing of the happiness of the loved one, It still hurts a bit, but I guess this is normal, after all, I am still human with a all the imperfections it has, So...

I love her, And for that I want you to be happy, I am telling you father that If she is happy I will be happy, no mattter the circunstances, Thjat is what love is, As long as she is happy I have nothing to worry, That is what love is about, About self sacrifice fore the loved one, that is why Toran instruct us to help those who cannot help themselves, I know that you are smiling at me by now, since I know you loved my natural mother untill she was taken from you, then you found Solace to your soul in Pyra, And She always spoke so high of you, And how you loved my natural mother, and how she loved her and me. and the hopes you had on me, that one day I would fullfill your dreams, Unfortunately i never knew whose dreams, but I am still fighting to bring glory to you name, Once I am worthy enough I will use your lastname with no shame, fullfiling my promise.

Well father getting to this state was no easy, a lot of things happened.

First... Well I have writen about Lex'or Gravedigger in the past, he was really resented to Aeredin, and his church, and has converted in my brother in faith, he has been a great support, the way of a knight is not a easy one as you should know, I have traveled a lot with adventurers that Toran don't see worthy, only for a greater good, I have standed their company, some are decent folk, as Belazar spoke to me : A knight must weight the heart of the person, not label him by his alliegance, it has filled me with joy that I can count on Lex'or for traveling, since Toran resides on him now as much as in us, but has not yet been recongnize by the church as one of us, In the near future I hope to accept Toran's miracles and grace chaneled by Lex, I am happy for him, he has suffered a lot, and now he is going to be father, and he has found happiness, because he is going to get married, I need to do a new suit for that ocasion, So I will need to gather Silk again, He is Sil'via's uncle, and having him near is one of the things i have to thank to Toran. Because he know how do I feel, and know Silvia also. The good Lex was with me after the incident in Leringard, He was there when I pass out, I still don't remember what happened there, but since that happen I feel a bit ease on my soul. Thank you Toran for My brother Lex, and I must support him as he has suported me.

Second .- Lady Iellwen has become very close to me, She is a very wise elven lass, But a bit naive but a pleasurable company,  Unfortunately she is a priesstess of Aragen, and that could be a issue our friendship could have, since I will not accept blessings of her god, Knowledge is good with measure , but those Aragenites uphold them even when life or a great good, I must accept they have vigilace and discipline for protecting their duty, but thier greatest flaw is to serve knowledge for knowledge itself, not for goodness or prosperity. Well At least lady Ielween is a good person, she is a caring person. I have asked to not cast any of Aragen blessings on me, and she has accepted to my terms, I recognize her determination, I also won't cast any of Toran's blessing on her, She seems a bit uncomfortable for this, put has accepted. I must thank my brother Belazar, since once he adviced me on that matter, One must weight a person for its heart, to say if that person is worth of being called friend, This applies to Laaren and for lady Ielween. She has acceted my terms as I said before , using only potions on me, Can you believe Father, she has the Idea I need of someone to take care of me?, she insisted in that so much, she say that I must improve my self preservation sense, since I have fell to my wounds several time for saving her, And you know father that I will do this for anyone, its my duty to protect people, But she don't understand that. Only time will tell how long this friendship last, She needs to learn how to laugh.

Third .- My brother Chaynce has been really hurted in all this matter as I, He was the chose of Sil'via, and I must say it's not his fault, Since I guess Sil'via is afraid of my compromise to Toran, he was the apropiate option, he is a decent fellow, he is not perfect but he tries at least to be a good person and help those who need help, his lack of faith is what makes him lost his stability, Still I love him as a brother, and I will trust him with my life, As I know he would do on me, He is really resented to Toran, but I guess I am acting In behalf of good, since he now trust me, and he is learning to fogive his father, and in time maybe he will love Toran as much as I do,  

Fortunately I cannot understand him in the family matter, because I have you and your ideals to guide me, I miss you father, I would like you to see me now, to hear your advice and aprobation, but since that is not posible, I am doing my best to fullfil my duty to Toran and you.

I have meet Silvia and him, I needed time to understand and deal with them both, I guess unconciently I put all the guilt on him, since I offended him, not accepting a gift he has offered to me, near the stromcrest, I don't want to lose him, he is like a brother to me, I guess we can work better now, I have meet him after my breakdown, I send him a bird to meet me near Hlint, In a place we have shared happier times than this, I have asked him for forgiveness, and I made peace with him, I asked him to take care of Sil'via, I have asked to make Sil'via happy and to take care of her. He said me he is not sure if that relation is going to work for him, but I asked painfully to do his best, because is her happiness what matters. Only time will tell, but I hope they can work it on their relation. I gave them Toran's blessing.

He is really concerned about me, he is triing his best to cheer me up, but I guess I cannot accept that of him as easy yet, I need time so my heart will heal, I asked to travel with him and Sil'via again, He agreed on that, as long as she agrees, so his final descicion has to be known, I huged him and he returned the hug to me,  he accpted my apologies, and I also asked to understand if i leave them when they kiss or hugs beetwen them, I guess I am not ready yet to stand that. He thinks I need another woman to heal my heart, but I will ot have another woman, at least in a time, My heart is To Toran and Silvia, no matter I have to act as a friend, to both them, It's the right thing to do,

I thank him the intent I must say father, He convinced Lady Ielween to search for a Toranite woman for me, and ask her to go to the Toranite temples to ask for woman to date, and strang thing si that she accepted, I forbid them to do so, As I said I no need another woman right now, Tell me father you loved two? How do you understand women?

*Lance stops his writing to rub his yes and laughs to supress some tears, then resumes *

Last in this letter Father I must speak of her...

Maybe this is not making me any good, I am triing to avoid saying I still love her, but I need to cleanse my heart of this, and you must know of my feelings also father, so there I go. I had dark toughts on this matter and have attoned after confessing at the temple for some moments, I desired that her relation failed so she could go back to me, But I banished those feelings and toughts at once, Now I am calm on this matter father, trust me, your son will not fail Toran nor you,

I have undesrtand that Love is a marvelous feeling, one that could help us Toranites to perform our duties better, since Toran loves this world, that is why he asked us to take care of it in his holy name, Self sacrifice, honor and duty are part of the love Toran has for the world, and I as His knight must do His will, and Love the things He love.

He has showed me thru meditation that To love is to give, I still love Silvia, I want her to be happy, If she is happy I will be happy, I will no longer interfere in her relationship, since in doing that I am atempting against her happiness, she is suffering a lot in this matter, I know she cares about me, she wants me as his best friend, unfortunately that best friend I cannot be yet, Maybe in time , but not right now. I have harmed her presented myself in this state, she know of my plans of proposal, and she seems quite consterned, I will not harm her more, I have thrown the ring I bought to a well, renuncing to her.

I meet again with Jaelle, she was not the same caring elf I have meet before, she seems cruel and painfull, tried to confuse my mind So I could charge to Chaynce. Toran granted me Wisdom that day, Linus teachings saved me for losing Sil'via forever, no matter what people said I trust Chaynce, He has lied to me before, but I hope he has learned the lesson, I will reclaim him if he hurts Sil'via, but until then I will not took action no matter what Jaelle do or say.

That is how my life goes father. But don't worry I still working in making you and Pyra proud of your son.

Father I need to understand you, and I need your advice, Since the incident in Leringard, I have been dreaming things, like memories, but that cannt be mine, they are awful memories of death and despair, I must trust Toran to help me to bring easiness to my sleep.

Toran be praised, in his name Justice is served, and the world becomes better, let me show your hand to those who needs it, and your just sword to those who deserves it. Let me do this a better world to bring glory to your name...

*Lance closes his journal, then meditates and prays before he sleeps in his now oredered room in Toran's temple*

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised - He who help us to face our demons

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen .-

Father, I have traveled with my friends again, Sil'via and Chaynce,

I dont know how this happened, I am still criing at nights. while I sleep, and I have blanks in my memory this days, something pains me and get me thru nightmares, I dream about death and dispair even more than before, One of my dreams start as I am standing in a room full of bodies with my hands and clothes full of blood, and while I advance even further in it more and more death appears. I must say It feels like if I was there, But that cannot be posible, I have dreamt of you forcing me to kill a girl with your Great sword, But I cannot remember much of those dreams, I also have blanks in my memories, this late days, like if I was sleeping meanwhile I walk, I guess I am a bit tired, fortunately I still have Toran in my heart and that brings me joy, I feel stronger in His faith, And with His help,. I am pretty sure I will succed against this nightmares.

One of this blanks took place today, I just wake up in The Campfire near Hlint in the same spot I have talked to Chaynce, I don't remember how I got there, Ans I am sure that I was nod reaming of being there, I make a pray to Toran, in that moment,  and headed to the road, Once I got there, Sil'via came running, I greet her using all my will, She was searching for Chaynce,  I told her that I have spoken to him the day before and that he left in her search, I spoke to her of the conversation I had with my brother, and she understood, She has agreed to allow me travel with them again, also acepted the same terms I gave to Chaynce, She spoke of me about what happened when we meet with Jaelle in that town, She asked me to get rid of the ring, so much for her surprise I tell her I had already disposed of it, she seems a bit uncomfortable still, as I am, I still cannot be that friend she search in me, just not yet, We moved as we saw an red light ambrush party, We charged unto them, driving them off of the road and followed into the cave, We advanced thru the levels fighting along like the old times, like if all our problems did not existed, At that point I tought that this is about to work again. I still feel strange when she addresses me by my name, before all this I have asked to do it , and she insisted in calling me Cuty or hun, Now I miss that,  and pains me even harder when she call Chaynce like that, But That is not no one blame, some days has passed only, I just need more time.

Our travel into the caves developed well until we were aqmbrushed by a shaman and his elites, We made a quick work on the melle fighters, but Sil'via got flanked and fall, I tried to save her trowing a magical potion to her, unfortunately , I got hit by an unnatural freeze and fall to my wounds.

I woke up in the Temple, As I feel weak I moved near the entrace of the cave, It's hard to travel in this debilitated state, I must become strong, to protect people, Once I got near the entrace of the cave I saw My brother near , he greets me and asked what did happened, I explained our fall, his face turned to the definition of worriness, then Sil came criing all the way from Hlint, when she saw Chaynce seh jumped into his arms, aasking to be holded, I turned my face towards the road, and walked a bit, then she moved away from him and ran criing, My brother stood there with a worried face, I am thankful for his intents, I have not this confirmed , but he might turn her because I was there, I asked him to go after her, Sil needed him, more thatn ever since her only words I figure she said while she was criing were " Soul mother ".

I have feel that pain too, to lose some part of your soul, He left me near the road, I started to think about good things that life throws at us, like friendship and well in a way love, I had the desire to hug Sil'via at that point, but that would not have been apropiate, she needed her true love at this difficult point.

They returned after some times, interwined in a hug, Some people have gathered around the cave, and offered to help us to return to the place of our fall, Father, I hope you see me in that moment as I standed the pain to see them, but feeling happy for them, I am really triing in this matter, and I am in good way to achieve success. For my sake and for their, But i msut admit I almost said something thatt would be harm us a lot, Thank Toran she grant me wisdom to keep my mouth shut.

It was at this point father that I understand that our travels will not be as used to be, since I cannot act freely in their presence, I will be fine as long as I travel with only one of them. But with the both I msut be wary and wise in what I say and do.

Once we got inside The cave, we encontered the shaman, but knowing their position before entering we counter all the surprise of their ambrush, and ended put an end to the overlord as Well.

Once we got to the surface Chaynce said us goodbye, He said that he need to go to work Father at last I am happy because he is putting his gest effort, to provide Sil'via. Well nto that any of them needed it, they both belong to very rich families. succesful adventurers, but at least he is triing and that speaks highly of my brother.

On the road we meet with some people that was forming a scouting group to go Dregar, So we traveled, I must say father , that our group was striong but quite disrganized.

We traveled to Prantz and gather near the Lake Corax, In the way there I Lady Ielween joined us, Since Silvia loss I hav started to have soeme esiness in my speak, I have started to call people for their name, as requested of course, So Ielween has asked me to be called Ell, I don't feel quite confortable doing it, I guess habits are hard to break, But I feel very well with her in the group, we can speak long and she is quite a good listener, she is encouraging me to sing and to be happy, I am thankful for that, She has also some dealings regarding her life, since she got married not even knowing his husband, adn also closing the door to Elgon, Well I have not speak of that with her lately, the night she come at the camp, the same night I spoke to Chaynce, she just confessed me that she still don't know anything of her husband and she is still waiting a response from her Temple abvout lawfullness of her marriage, I still cannot believe how she got caught in that, but alas she seems to enjoy enduring knowledge by personal experience. A dire mistake I guess in this matter.

I need to atone to the church This day too much Father, since I have commited sins, Lady Chiara , yes that sea elven lass Of wich I have spoken to you was with us all the way since the caves, she is a priestess of the Deep mother, another godess that Toran don't see worthy, Down below I was fighting one of the goblin elites and Iwas wounded, just took a minite to rest then I feel the pain, Before I could do anything , she cast a a minor healing blessing on me, I step bakc before she did that again, She was surprised at seeing my reaction, And almost ofended, Silvia explained her that I cannot recieve blessings of her godess, becasue Toran don't find their cause worthy, I expalined to her that I cannot recieve her blesings, she seems hesitant as she showed me a bandage, I explained, that aI could recieve healing treatment, as alchemical healing potions and bandages but not blessings , since It will pollute my soul, She seemed a bit contrariated at this , but she needs to accept that, I am so sorry foer her, I know her intent is up to no harm, but I will not ahave doubts in my faith, I trust Toran ans his teachings a and to him are my loyalities.

We were ambrushed by some giants, they had wizards amoung their ranks, and beat them proved a hard task indeed, They got Ell in the middle of the fray, I was fighting two giants at the same time and the enemy was superior in number and strength, SSo I did the best for the group, Ell could heal the whole group in a wink Os I did a defensive manouver and quaff a potion to her lips, saving her for a certain death, Then  I saw a shadow behind me, then the darkness fall upon my eyes.

I was dead father, I feel the urge and a calling towards Toran, I saw the glory of His realm for a moment, but all vanished after some moments. I woke up in apainful way, My body feels broken, When I awoke Silvia was there to greet me with tears in her eyes, and a big smile. Or I just imagined that , I did not see well enough, I feel tired and weak, She helped me to stand and We walked towards a near town, I don't even remember its name.

Then they explain me, Ell was really worried and she did not say athing meanwhile Sil'via explained that She used Aragen Power to bring me back from the dead realm. I was shocked, My soul polluted by such powerful blessing, I got away from the group to rise a plea to Toran, I understand that It was not Ielween intent to do something bad, she was triing to help, but that doesn't change the fact that she did not respected my desires in the matter, also father If I were as strong as you were i never have falled to that giant, I need to Improve, but first pf all I need to atone and clean myself of this Taint. I cannot be angry at Ell, she did what her heart and duty asked on her, I am the one to blame of not beingstrong enough, I stood with some work and walked to the group, Ielwen was really shocked, since she knew I did not like the outcome of the events. Seh tell me that it was fate that I was raised by her, sionce she fall and someone heals her. I smiled as I heard that knowing that my duty was fullfiled at leat in that part, I showed her the empty bottle of healing I used to stabilize her.

Then her face turned from shame to surprise and then for a moment a glimpse of Anger crossed her face, Sil'via spoke to her, saying that I have to understand that a dead paladin, is no paladin at all, Father, Why they cannot understand?. Sil'via left us as the group disbanded, Only Ielween stayed with me in that town. Once we rested for some hours we spoke again. Seh was witha  calm expresion again, I asked again to never do that again, I was hoping at that moment that she will come toa terms with that and agreed, but much for my dismay, shs stood at me and ask me to not help her in the future, Seh trid to make me promise I will not risk my life for her, I smiled and deny that, it is my duty to help those that cannot defend themselves, and if a friend is need I will help her, no thru miracles, but thru healings potions or bandages, she was mad at me, and walked away, saying I am not being being fair to her, helping adn not lketting her help, I explained her that isn no truth in that words, I help her becase I feel the urge to help, because I cannot stand people suffering, more it the one who is suffering is a friend of mine.

The way home was long and silent, she start to speak in elven, still not good at it father, I even have forgottern the few wors Pyra teached me , I guess languajes are not for me, she insisted that I need someone to take care of me, and still call me stubborn, I have been thinking on it lately, adn yes somtimes I could be that way, And I have accepted it to her, Unfortunately, we don't get an agreement about our future adventuring dealings I guess only time will tell.

Father I feel good at this times, I have spend a whole day in praying in meditaion cleaning my body in holy water and my soul in HIS presence, I feel sleep today, I want to sleep as I used in my child hood days, I want to feel love around me, I miss you and Pyra.

Toran watches over us, and grant us strenght.

*Lance closes his journal and  sleeps *

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... Of a new begining

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen:

Father life is going back to normal, I have found solace to my pains in my duty as a knight, Some days has passed since I last saw Sil'via and Chaynce, I guess this is the healtiest thing to do, since they deserve to be happy and not being worried  for this knight, Or it's not a knight duty to help those who cannot help themselves, father? Also Iam their friend not only a knight to them, I really desire that they achieve happiness, Any way I will be there for them when they need me, But Since I am not doing them well, i must keep my distance, for the sake of the three of us.

A shame because finally I had true friends outside the temple, but it won't be by my hand that they have trouble, My face must be high, and my soul ready to help, I was gratned the honor to speak to my brothers and sister about honor in some services, So I must prepare a proper speech, I am excited becaiuse this is the first time I have this honor, I will pray to Toran to fill my heart with wisdom.

I feel stronger in my faith after all this, I have started to bless water and create minor potions, I feel so good to do things that eventually could save lives, This is not like the bandages I am learning to do, this is greater, I feel His power running thru my veins, aiding me in helping other people, I feel Him and the easiness of soul his presence brings, Meanwhile I am doing this I feel peace, His peace, Like a water that heaals and clean my heart for all stain.

Father and Pyra, I guess alchemy its not for me, last time i just ruined a full box of materials for Escence of Cure, I jsut spill it over all the table in Moraken tower, I cleaned it for the grumpy old wizard, but this drawback won't stop me for becoming better, Someday I will be as talented as Pyra was, and I'll make you both proud. Also I have lost my muse for tailoring, It seems that I have lost the inspiration to create, I still feel the skill in my hands, but I don't see my creations as before, Lately, I have done just cloaks for the pilgrims, but not the way I used to do them, I need to find some inspiration.

I am a bit worried about the blank pasages and the nightmares, they seems to repetitive, I have checked with a priest for see symptoms of any sickness, But I simply know that this is no sickness, I still triing to figue it out, Fortunately this happens only at night. and has not interrupted my duties. Still is painful to see such despair and pain.

Father I want to ask you for forgiveness and compresion, I ahve observed myself lately, and I am sure Lex'or is right, I will put myu duty to toran first, I have relaxed a bit in my manners, at first I was ashamed, when I adress someone without a proper title, but now I feel a bit more free to do good, like if some burden has been removed from me, Don't misunderstand me please, I mean no disrespect, I have respect to everyone, but I guess somethimes speaking people in a very correct way, scares them, So I have to learn and let them know that Knights are to be trusted, Also I am going to use helmet again, but Iwill use one with an open face, so they can see me, and show them I have nothing to hide, I am clear as the morning and fair as a summer day. I plan to fix the helmet in my next visit to Hempstead. Well I ask you forgiveness becasue in accepting my duty to the temple I will no loger search for your aprobation I will bring you glory to our name as Toran give me the chance of doing it. Please understand this , because I don't want to fall in arrogance. I hope you and Linus understand this.

Now up to my day, Read this well father because it will bring you happines to hear how your son is helping to the world.

Last day I meet with another lady in distress, she seems a bit unsecure at first meeting, Her name is Slip, I almost run onto her at the entrace of Fort Llast, fortunately she was fast to avoid me, I must go with more caution into the town, I introduced myself to her as a knight, She was shocked when she heard that, She asked " You're a knight? A real one? " - I smiled at her and nodded to confirm her question, I explained about Toran and the faith of the vigilant one so she could know was dealing with someone to trust, She was a bit lost or confused, when I asked her why , seh said that she is not acostumed to light, Poor girl, I dont imagine the suffering she has sufferd, as she moves with an instintive caution, searching the shadows at first chance, but she is a happy lady, always smiling and asking for something, I don't remembver how we ended in conversation abot crafting and goods, Well I spoke of my experience in tailoring and how I use to weave the cotton when I first started, unfortunately I did not have much time to spend with this lady, I have an important meeting to attend in the Temple about the next service, I invited to visit The temple if she need something , And I took my leave.

It was a wonderful meeting Father, I was filled with joy once we started to discuss the current alarms near the Temple, fortunately the crusade against the Red light war parties has been succesful until now, I am happy to know that more militia man will be asignet to that matter, this will makle my rounds easier and more eficient since now we will be able to protect more people.

Later that day I travel to Hempstead, to buy supplies for the temple as I used to do, I had also the intent father of changing my helmet for open show my face, I started my travel in the evenig sttoping to rest near Krandor, i saw the towers of the Criomson Eagle memorial with the first sunbeam, I am no longer bothered by showing that I have cried in past days, my eyes are still red and a bit irritated, but I must not be ashamed of the love i feel, I msut say father that this still hurts a bit, but It's healing, But I must admit it was painful to steep back in Hempstead, particularly when I walked near the cotton farm, I feel a bit wrong with myself again, fortunately I did not meet with sil or Chaynce in my travel there.

Once my bussines in the city where done I move out of it as fast as I can, I did not stand being there so much time. I need some fresh air, so I left towards Llast again, Once I arrived to Vehl, I meet again with Slip Seh was there as sif she was waiting for someone, As I aproached I greet her in a very polite way, I must say, Seh greet me and Asked me to help her in her gathering opf Aloe, I have learned by our conversation that she is a merchant, gatherer and deliever to make a life, There was no way I could denmied her my help, since I have learned that she is currently ruined and In debt, since she lost all her goods when her Ox was killed by some brigands, So we traveled to the Kobold camp, I msut admit this travel stinged me a bit, since Now I was seeing Silvia in her, That is how all this started father, A lady indistress asking a knight to help and defend her from the kobolds, Well I msut say that Sil is a lot diferent from Slip, I asked Slip if she served any god, I msut help her in that matter also, She seems to have no idea of what faith is, since she answer me that she is a godess, refering asPhysical beauty, I guess, So I spoke her of Toran, and the faith that filled my heart, Our incursion to the Kobold camp was succesful since we retreive the aloe she needed, And moved out, Once we did this, I guess I was careless as she saw in my heart and see the sadness I still carry, I explain her a bit about my past troubles and asked her to not worry, she has enough troubles with herself.

She asked me to show her the landscape, SO I agree to travel with her, before we leave she asked time to buy a new bow, seems that she lost hers too to the brigands as well, we traveled back to Hempsetead, There I meet with Tadashi, the Voraxian warrior priest, and much to my dismay, Lady Ielween, I have not set things straight with Ell, father she is still mad at me for not letting her cast her blessings on me. But she don't understand, she thinks I am forbidding her to help me, but that is no true, I would gladñy accept her help in form of a potion or bandage, but not a miracle, That is just not going to happen.

Well, Once Slip got her new bow, Tadashi Ell, Slip and myself meet another traveler by name Ramus, he was a bit pale, and needed help, he tell us that he had fall inKrandor crypts, We headed that way so we helped him, I must say it was an awful battle in the end we found ourselves surrounded and facingf a terrible vampire, I fall first helping Ell and Tadashi, but in the end orur brave eforts did not come succesfully, I awoke in Toran's temple, and by toran's grace I meet with Sister Rose, there, I explained our tragedy adn she offered to help us, So we marched towards Krandor , once we got there a small army of adventurers have gathered by the crypt, all the vision is still bluring, but amoung them I saw Berak , The Dragonheart couple, even Lex'or was there, And so we stormed the place, I did n not see the actual battle as we ventured in the dungeon, and in my state i served as a scout and guard us from ambrushes, letting Lex, Rose and Shiff serving as frontliners, Once we destroyed the undead menace we got backto surface and after some time the group disbanded, Lady Ielween, left us first, and after sometime I meet with slip, We said our goodbyes to everyone, and moved forward Fort Llast.

something strange happens, when I was packing somethings she gave me, seh notice how much I am having trouble to acomodate my crafting goods, I explained that I need to buy a house, and that it is my goal to do it in some years, seh invited me to move with her, she said that shi was getting a contract to rent a room there in Krandor, I was shocked at first, but seeing this lady witha all her debts, I would help her with that, paying half the rent, if the contract is done of course, having a chest or two would really help me in crafting, Don't get me wrong father, I am not planning to sleep in that room, unless she is not there, the temple has good acomodations for a knight, and she needs all the help sho could help. she said that she can gather aloe for me, I will buy it from her of course, that will make easier my crafting.

Once we left Krandor, a strom get loose, it was pouring as we moved thru the road, heading for Llast, Once we got to the Ziange River i saw lady Ielween at the shore sitting there all wet , I asked a moment to slip , I remove my cloak and I put it over her shoulders, she was surprised at first but when she saw me, she smiled whrn she realized it was raining. We had another discusion about our future adventure dealings, I did save her again in the crypt and I guess she is still mad at me for well , I don't know why she is mad at my attitude. We traveled towards Hlint, now with Ell on our group, She handed me the cloak once the rain was over, O have to stop at the temple to change my clothes,

And then hit the road again, I showed Slip the Silwood forest as I had promised, but there, something strange happened, We meet with Skullcracker Headbang, that dwarven fighter follower of Vorax, HE was in bad shape, she was saying that Vorax has ordered to kill humans, We followed him thru all the woods, and to the Red light cave, I tried to stop him, But he has an unnatural strenght I was not able to hold him, It was my intent to take him to the Toran Temple in Llast so he could get tratment by the priest, AT some moments his voice changed and Said that our friend does not longer inhabit that body. We eluded us in some time, But I have ingformed of all this to the temple, so we might keep a vigilant eye upon him, after all he is an ally of the temple.

Slip was very worried for him, she seems to know him very deeply, but there was no other thing to do that report him, now that he is lost in the forest, I said my farewel to lady Ielween near the witch hut in the Silkwood, And escorted Slip to the road near Hlint.

Then it happens father, she took me off guard, I poit her to the entrace of Hlint and she jumped onto me and hugged me smiling, and thanking me. I was surprised, father, to stay true, then she moved towards Hlint and I headed to the temple, to inform of this.

Toran be praised... and praised again because you are returning this knight the chance of serving you.

*Lance Closes his Journal*

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... About Family and anger.

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father , Today I saw Silvia again, I traveled to Hempstead to buy supplies again, also I got 3 more bandages for the temple supplies, I must say that I am getting skillfull in their preparation, Now I need to get more Aloe, since I am now out of Materials for Esence of Cure,  On the next days It would be wise to get some greenstone,since my reserves are also running low. any way I have started the design of a new silk Suit, I am just designing it since I still have to get the proper materials to start doing the work, I hope I could do this before Lex wedding,

In my way back to Fort Llast. I stopped In Fort Wayfare to have a meal and some grape juice, I had been in good mood lately until that day, when I entered the Inn, the place was crowded, As I entered I feel the stench of the tobaco and kitchen smoke, this was pretty upseting since my eyes are still a bit irritated, and this smoke bothered me a lot, Once in there I see Elgon in there, he seems surprised even unconfortable to see me there, He greet me and throw me that look again, his sight betrayed him and as I follow it I saw Sil'via and Ayana watching me as well, They are to kind as I entered Ayana and him come to my side and start looking at me, and asking me how I am, they seems nervous and was watching Sil from time on time, until she blew up, I still don't know what happened there, I guess my presence was bothering her, Since she moved out of my way and run for another table, Ayana moves away to watch over Sil'via, I explained to Elgon that It was not my intent to bother, I just came to that place to buy some food and drink for the travel, I moved towards the barkeep and asked for the special of the day, and some grape juice, I picked a table in a corner, triing to not bother to Sil'via and her family.

I meet lady Indis also in this place she is a very kind lady, trying to cheer me up with a nice chat and conforting words, I explained her how I am managing this situation, and asked her to stop getting worry for me, A knight must stand strong, and since I am a knight I must lead by example, this doesn't mean I will swallow my feelings, but I want to protect Sil'via since I know that seeing me as this is affecting her, and Everyone is blaming her, She did nothing wrong, she just followed what her heart said, I would not like it another way, that is why I hit Chaynce weeks ago, since He was stealing Sil chance to be happy, Indis understood my feeling and after puting her hand in my shoulder left me with a big smile.

Well after some time, the place become all messy, father I still cannot believe that a food fight stated across the hall, at that time I was almost soffocated by the smoke, So I headed towards the exit of the establishment, Once we got out I meet again with Sil'via and her siblings, when i got out Ayana and Elgon surrounded me and started to ask me about how I feel?, again. But for Goodness sake, How those folks think I am feeling?, Sil'via was obviously bothered to by this situation and moved away from me again, Seeing this father I understand I need to be strong and get over with this, Since If this continue this way, I will lose Sil forever even as a friend. Ayana moved to follow her Sister.

Father ? Did you face Angry and hatred in your life? Is this what you felt when my mother died?

*Lance stops for a moment reflecting on the question he has just done*

Father I am tired of this, I stopped Elgon To explain him how do I feel I tell him the truth, I asked him to stop getting worried for me, now that her sister needs him, and all her family, I told him that I still love her, and that As I have explained to you, How to love her is to do any sacrifice to see her happy, and for her good I am enduring this and have let her go, I asked him to explain this to lady Ayana. And that not speaking of this conversation To Sil'via she has enought troubles without this knight meddling in her life, She must concentrate in be happy now.

Much for my demise We were Overheard by a strange man, he has the cinism to ask me money for keeping his mouth shut. I don't know what happened me at that moment, I felt a primal urge in my soul, I feel anger and hatred as never before, still I did not do a thing taht could bring shame or remorse unto me, but I laught on his face, and tell him that that would never will happen, and I moved away for him, It's strange but I had a feeling about that strange man, he seems to know who I am and Sil'via and her family, But I guess that could be a missinterpretation of my state at that moment, I moved out towards the cotton fields triing to calm myself, restraining me for letting that anger take control, I am ashamed since, I lost my temper for a moment, The In'drasus family followed me to the cotton fields

Sil'via was really worried, but at that moment I just cannot said a thing, she asked me what was happening to me , that she never has see me that way, I moved away from her, asking for some time, I said to her that I would anwer her questions in time, but now at that moment.

I still don't understand why father but I ended Swimming in the pond near the entrace of Hempstead, I swam until the anger vanished, I swam like I used to do back in hour home in Karthy, I must admit father that I felt you nearer than before like if you were with me at that moment, but I did not recognice you, since waht I felt was not happiness, nor justice,  and I felt diferent after that, I feel like freedom,  That time is a bit confusing, I don't remember exactly what happened in the later hours after that, I traveled with they to the gloom forest,to hunt some undeads, As far as I remember, I spoke to Elgon about what the strange man said, he is a bit temperamental he was about to go and search for him I asked to stop that we must think with our head clear, since Silvia will not trust a unknown person that just come and said something to her, Elgon nooded in comprenstion. I had a blank out there, when I got back to concience Elgon and Silvia had a big fight, She was treathing him to kill him, I had nothing to do there, We ended in the Stromcrest crossroads.

Thank all that is good Their mother was passing thru there at that moment, And she started to speak with Sil'via, I cannot explain you father of what they were speaking after all , thet have to mend their problems as a family, I did waht I thougth was right, I go to the nearer outpost and Send a bird To Chaynce, I wanted to Hug Sil'via and confort her, but that would not be wise, She needed his true love at that moment, not just a friend. The hawk flew and some hours later returned with Chaynce answer, He said that he was busy at that moment but that will be with her when his bussines ended. I moove forward to give Sil'via the Message.

She was happy just for hearing about him, I guess that I did the right thing, I saw hope in her eyes and an smile drew on her face, defeating for a moment the tears and anger, I enjoyed seeing her like that father, geting me also a bit more relaxed of  mind. She introduced myself to her Mother, she gave me a look like if she was measuring me, with that look I understood Sil has been telling her about the past days, I did not know why father, As I said I was pretty confused at that Time but without noticing it introduced myself as Lance Dragonbane Stargazer, and for that I apologize to you, Silvia smile got even bigger, and said - Hey you used it - I was shocked first at notice what I did, and then even more shocked to know that she knew of your last name. Finally I left both ladies bidding my farewell and moved to speak for last time To Elgon and lady Ayana.

Before I left I asked Elgon to do as I have asked to him and to explain my motivation to lady Ayana, so we could help her sister, I explained to both of them that Sil'via is not to be blamed, and that I am not a victim in this case, I remind them My promise of not harming her, and this promise still stands but at another level. I did not finish my explanation since Sil and her mother aproached to Elgon and Ayana to speak, I left them to let them fix their issues in confidence.

Father I walked back towards the temple and here I am, I don't feel like making the tie in my hair today, My hair has been loose the whole day, and I feel confortable with it, as you used it.

I have spend the rest of the day in meditation and praying, I feel Toran inside me, but todays feeling were strange, I am changing, maybe growing mature, But still Iam bit worried I have seen myself saying things that I would not be saying, Anwering no politely, but I just cannot stopped in the moment like if something inside was pulling it out. I must meditate

I humbly pray to toran to enlighten my way, and grant me wisdom and peace, I pray to you Toran so youcan help us, Give Chaynce patiente, Give Sil'via wisdom, and give your knight the chance do do your will and bring easiness to my soul that way. I humbly ask you Let me be your hands.

*Lance closes his Jornal as he continues in meditation*

[Lance Stargazer]

Torean be praised ... Times fo Peace and reminicences

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father..

I am knowing what peace is again, I am feeling Toran healing my heart and making whole again, and for that I am thankful.

Last days I am getting better and my performance in the field is improving, helping people always brings me a good mood, as you know, I am a dedicated server of the goodness, Nothing makes me happier than help people in need. That put me on work and keep me awoke, I guess it's a good aproach to the situation, since I still have troubles sleeping at night. always the nightmares coming to visit me, also the blanks of memories continues, I guess once I become whole again this will end. and In Toran I will find peace.

Yesterday was a great day, another travel to Hempstead, nothing outside normal to report, my skill in tailoring continues to grow, since I can do bandages much easier now, still I have a lot to learn yet, I started my day as I left the room I rented for the night in the Scamp Mug, I did my morning prayers, and move to the crafthall to finish with the cloaks for the temple,  I still don' start with the suit confeccion, I guess I will not be able to get it at time, Silk is hard to get this days, I cannot spend money in that also. Once I finish with the cloak endevour, I go and pick my things from the Inn, There was time to go back to Llast, and make the delivery, I leave the Inn taking the road towards the gates of the city, I meet with lady Ielween.

She smiled at me as I aproached to her, and I answer to her smile with a polite nodding, "Good day Mister" She said, She noticed the happines and freedom I am feeling lately, she asked me why I was so happy, and I answered to her with the truth, As I have been freed of a great burden lately, still don't know why, I started to sp   eak to her about my late days, She stopped me when I spoke of the man who tried to blackmail me, I don't know how this lady feels about Elgon, I don't want to bring more sadness with my words, so I omit his participation in the incident, I spoke him as a friend, but she saw thru my intent, she asked me to a company to the tribute of Allurial, and ask me to tell the whole story, She seems truly concerned by me since some days ago, Well weeks now that I am thinking about it, she was not even bothered by Elgon participation.

After I explained all the situation to her I ask her to acompany to Fort Llast, she said that was free at that moment and would be nice to travel along, so we departed. I feel strange with this, since Toran doesn't see Aagen as a worthy ally, I guess is wrong that I have a priestess of the lord of knowledge as a close ally, But this lady has a kind heart and seems to be motivated by good intentions and emotions, I guess there will be no problem if she lives up to my desires of not casting Aragen blessings unto me, or other Toranites, If that situation continues, I will take the right action.

We traveled all the way from Hempstead to Fort Llast at steady pace, laughting all the way, I am glad she is learning to enjoy life, Still she has a lot to learn yet, she is so naive sometimes, In our way to Llast, I explained her my future plans of rent a room for storage, she seems a bit shocked when I tell her I am going to move in to help Slip, I guess she misunderstood my intent, but I wxplained her , that I will help with half of the rent to help the poor merchant lady in distress, I mean I don't even think in sleeping in that room, my acomodations in the temple are fair enough, but I will need some space to put chest or two, I am traveling very heavy this late days, I need a place to hold all the crafrting materials also.

After we arrived to Fort Llast, Lady Ielwenn wait me near the entrace to town, so I delivered the cloaks to the temple and make a prayer to the great leader, then I head to the exit of the town, there Lady Ielwen and I meet with a traveler that answered to the name of Lance Merric, I must say that it was quite strange, to meet someone that share my own name, in fact i have heard of another one, but I don't have the " pleasure " t meet him, that one is the fiancee of lady Randy.

On tat point is that I am worried , As we traveled more towards Hllint, lady Ielween mentioned those both, I still don''t know what did hañppened to me, since I said things about Randy , I should haven't , well for thesake of ettiquete, I said othing wrong, but neither nice about her, even in that case I must vigilate this beheavor, since I must respect everyone.no matter their alliegances.

After all this incidents Lady Ielwen and I stopped, by the campsite in the waste lands, Se we spend the whole evening ina very intresting talk, I asked her about her "marriage" with wren, She was relly confsed at this matter, since She said that a month has passed since she got wed and stil don't know anything about her husband, I tried my best to help her with soothing words, It really felt good giving her her own advice. " A very wise friend of me said me once, You are worthy" she saw me with wide eyes then laugh at me saying "That was not fair, mister". I just look at her showing that my intent is to help her only. We stay there for some hours just talking, It relly help to speak of the inner issues with someone in this way, When I am with her speaking I can feel that I am not being judged, Eventualy we moved towards Hlint to get some food and drink, I still cannot believe whrn she dare me to beat her in a race, I must say I am surprised that she runs as fast , for someone of her height. After some food we continued our talk near the pond.

It has been a while since I stoped in that place, I haven't been there since the start of the gossip beetween Sil'via and me, and that eventualy lead our conversation towards there, Ielween asked me about how did I meet Sil, I tell her the story, all the flirting and my attitude, I must say father that I amsurprised that telling that story did not get me depressed, I tell her the story with a singular joy.

I asked her abot that night, in Leringard when they found me in the streets, she seems reluctant to speak about the matter, Seems that in that night I spoke of my childhood, with you and Pyra, She seems also a bit confused about the matter, She said I had dealings witha little girl, It's strange since I usually dream about a little girl in my nightmares, Still I don't know what does this mean. I explained about my nightmares, the things that seems to be there but that they aren't, that cannot be there. I must have fallen asleep because I had a blank out after that.

Without counting that I had a wonderful evening with this lady, I did a notable achievement as he wrote in her Journal, I made her spechless for first time in her life, strange that someone record this, she also promised to buy a new Journal just for Lance Stargazer, Iam really flattered by this words, but I know that they are just polite words.  Also I have learned that she was really asking around the Toranite temple for a honorable toranite woman for me, Now I understand father some attitudes of peoplea rond the temple, like those girls giggling when I was passing, I asked her to stop doing that, but she said that she will not stop because Chaynce asked her to, I must speak with that airhead brother of mine, I also had a great surprise when she showed me the first drawing she ade of me, the day we meet, She has talent for drawing I must add. She got an idea in this , So I must get ready to "enjoy " the attention of people in the temple, since she promised me to carry drawings of my portait next time. I guessit's useless to try to stop her, so I must speak to Chaynce as soon as posible.

We ended our talking as I acompany her to the Wild surge Inn, so she can rest fr the night, Another race was held, and again I lost, she is really quick. Once we said our goodbyes, she came close and kiss me in the cheek. Still I don't know why.

It's a shame that she seems still a bit reluctant about the idea of my help when she fall in combat, she has not yet convinced of on that being sttuborn enought to say tha I must not help her and let her die, anyway father do you know what I think about working in groups, and help the helpless.

After our goodbyes I headed towards the temple, and here I am, telling you all this, Father, I feel good today, I don't remember the last time I ran for fun like today, It really was weird, I guess I need to sleep now, after my prayings, The temple help me to sleep  is there such peace in here, I would like you could see this. I must stop writtig now Father but you will have notice of me, soon. Father and Pyra send me your ideals to guide myself.

Toran be praised.

*Lance closes his journal as he got into the bathroom to take a bath* Toran be praised..

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[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised  .... Reminiscences ....

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Life is getting complicated, Last day I awoke in the Goblin wastelands near the campfire, Lady Ielwen wake me up, since she was passing towards there, It was pretty weird since I don't remember being there when I got asleep, The last thing I remember was taking a bath in the Temple, so confusing, Anoter memory blank.

Well, anyway, that saved me the walking to the Camp, and so my day started, I spend some time with lady Ielwen, as we drove off some goblin back to the lower levels of the caves, and then enjoy some grape juice and some feline meat I am geting from my huntings, I have started to work with leathers again, Finaly I found a place to hunt cougars, I will try to do some leather working in te future.

The nightmares continue, I still don't remember them well, and I don't understand them, I vaguely remember them...

The most vivid ones are that of my father and that boy killing a little girl, still don't know what to think about it. Also the one of the Dark knight, he seems weird that he was like younger version of my father, he stands there killing always bathed in blood like sending a challenge, Toran be praised, to him I pledge, In the temple and his presence I feel confort, but I must find a way to deal with this nightmares And memory blanks wharn I am not there.

Excuse my short comunication father, but I have to fullfill some chores for the Temple.

Toran be praised ...

* Lance finish his writtings and set his belongings for departing towards Hlint *

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... The armor of a knight...

*The diary lays open in a little table in Lance's cell in Toran Temple at Fort Llast, the scarce words seems to have written with haste, and the room seems as if its habitant had to leave in hurry. *

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen.-

The only thing I have of you now is your Name...

Some days has passed since my last writtings and toughs.

What is an armor? What is the meaning of a name? Is family honor as important as doing the right thing and fulfill your duty? I think not. No matter if he wears rags, if his soul remains pure the knight will triumph.

Toran be praised and help me to find peace on this times of turbulence. The nightmares and memory blanks are getting worse, As I have spoken to people that say that sometimes I act a bit weird. I feel peace at the temple and helping people along the road fills my soul with easiness and joy. Father my armor got stolen some days ago, So I bougth a new one from the merchants In Fort Llast, Well father to stay true I must say that I remember buying the armor, but the fixes I cannot remember ...

It was like one of yours father, I noticed it thanks to Sil'via, It was black with the Toranite deep blue, a quite simple design of plates, I think in a way it was a way to feel you near, I have used that armor for some time, but not more.

I have changed with Sil's help into a more toranite fashion, She seems concerned about me, she said a lot of Nonsenses about me triying to live your life, Don't misunderstand me, I now that her concern is true, but how can she understand me, how can understand the live of honor and duty I carry, I am a knight bound to Toran, and my duty to your rememberance, Any way, she helped me with the design, Now I am wearing this dark blue and gold armor , and I do it with joy, Since I carry Toran colors with me now, at first I did not like the idea of wearing something she has done, but Toran has keep my heart guarded.

After all father... What is an armor if not only the cold steel that protect the soul of a knight. So as long the knight keeps himself pure, no matter which armor is he wearing, he is still a knight.

Is the soul and the intents what matter in faith. Not the garments one is using. A knight is measured by his deeds not by his  looks.

Toran be praised ... That show to this knight His wisdom everyday in the most mysterious ways.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised .- About friendship and doubts that it brings

*From Lance's Stargazer quill and pen*

Friendship love and marriage, father that are matters that can change a one's life.

Some days ago I meet with Wren, the so called Mr. Thunder by lady Ielwen, his "husband" in that wedding made by Trith, As Ielwen has said me the marriage is not a legitimate one, and they haven't seen in months as they both have confirmed. He called me when I was on my way to the crafthall, Bandage making is still improving, soon I'll be able to work on leathers.

Well the point is that he called me to come near, and greet me with a smile, He seemed a bit insistant in talking to me, At first I tought if that was for not being able to see me in a long time, He asked me if }I have seen Ell, inthe past days, I answered the truth t him, Ell and I are quite close by now, I have spend a lot of time together, traveling and supporting us each other, more since the problem she has with Trith, and her meeting the soul mother for Trith not helping her, and letting her dying, ... Seems I am getting lost in this story agian Father, I am sorry...

Well, I tell Mr Thunder that Ell and I have spent a lot of time together in the last weeks, he nodded once I ensured I hava made all in my power to protect her. He nooded for second time, at that point, our conversation was interrupted by a wizard, Wren asked him to let us finished our converstion, again he seems a bit too much insistant, he left us but our conversation was again interrupted by a pseudo Dragon who materializes itself in the middle of the place, as we aproched with or arms ready, he started to speak about gethering information about vampires, I asked the creature to leave the place, since such invocations of creatures are forbidden inside the walls of the city, he moved towards a corner and in the end he disapeared.

Once we got there Berak join us when he saw us near the Bindstone of the crimson Eagle memorial, after some time a crowd was gathered there, I fail to remember every one of the presents, but the wizard came back asking what have happened there, he asked us why we were so upset for that incantation, Again I explained him the rules of the city, Eventually the wizard left us a bit upset I must say, at the End only Berak, Wren and myself stayed.

*Lance stops his writtings for a momentand smiles a bit *

Then is what the unbelivable happen, Berak asked Wren what were we doing there, and he said something like Asking me if was Smitten to his wife, refering Lady Ielwen... At first I was so shocked I tought he was joking, but his gestures did not make any fun, he was really serious about this matter, Berak left us so we could talk about the matter, From that point on, everything gots blurry, I just remember him asking me If I love her. As far as I remember I answeed that there was no such posiblility, since she is an Aragenite, and Well Aragen are not in the best stand to Toran.

Another memory blank and this time when I was awoke, At that time I did not noticed but eventually I remembered the conversation. He seemed a bit concerned about that memory blank adn drop the theme of discussion for another time I guess.

Once we ended hat weird conversation we gathered near the fouunain witha group of adventurers, there was lady Randy and his now husband, Yes I finally met Lance Coyle, the elven warrior. I had myself enough troubles with him , even without knowing him, Since a lot of people thought It was me the One lady Randy refers as her Lance.

The group agreed to travel towards a place named Vanadar, unfortunately I did not finish the trip, since I got ambrushed by an dark spell that eventually left me almost for dead, when I awoke I was again in the Toran temple back in Fort Llast.

Father in a way I am a bit sad, I got the notice that Lady Randy died in that trip after my fall, She was an enemy priestess, I know, but I don't feel rejoice in the death of people even my sworn enemies, I have send condolences to her friends and families, she was a worthy oponent to deal with, always fighting and teasing. But one less priest of the runner to attempt to wreak havoc in our society is at least something good, again I don't take rejoice in her death.

Toran be praised, *Lance closes his eyes and start to pray*

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... About the meaning of a kiss.

*From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen*

Father.-

I have been praying, and mediating. About lady Ielwen. sil'via and Chaynce, I have seen how destruction love can bring, and why a knight must have his heart guarded from it, No matter this knowledge, friendship makes me get worried about those I care.

Last Time I have met them, it was a weird experience, sil'via has started to make musical instruments,  Chaynce and sil seems well enought, well for being they, As usual, Chaynce acts I don't know how to  describe it, he is always acting like iof things were not important, And Sil well, she see him as her whole world, in an extreme way as always, I was trying to start to go back to carpentry, I have picked some breaches to start, I found Chaynce and Sil'via taking a stroll to the fields. After some talking lady ielwen apeared also and start talking to us, I t still feels weird to see them together I must say, and I stand on my descicion of not searching for them, and let them live thir life.

sil'via told me that she has sterted to make musical instruments to aid her in her performing, I guess she has still some influence on me , since I inmediatly handed the breaches of wood I was carrying to myself, that is when it happened, as Sil and I were speaking, chaynce and Ell were whispering about something. I just hear Ell speaking about trying to get me a woman, against my wishes.

Father I felt myuself betrayed by them, I feel anger like never before, I feel that they were just playing with me all the time, that is not what friends are supposed to do. The worst was whrn Ell tryied to hide truth from me, but her eyes betray her intent, I just cannot stand more of that.I move away from them towards the city, or at least that is what I barely remember of that moment, those three catched me up near the pond of the lake, Sil and Chaynce started to make fires all around, meanwhile Ell was trying to apologize . I just cannot see her that way, I made her cry, Seh was there in front of me asking for forgiveness, telling me that she would never harm me.

I am weak father, Did I the right thing in granting forviness with such easyiness, But at core I know she was speaking truth, I know they have seen me in a really bad shape in the last months, and in their opinion searching for a woman for me was the best solution for me, In their intent and concern is what I must see, not the methods, I just say them to not doing that again, I am really not in need of another woman in my life, romance is up to no good to me, at least not by now.

Chaynce and Sil, leave us as they walked off the road extinguishing all the fires near the road. Lady Ell explains me that she feels weird about a druid that  we had meet in the past, a elven short tempered lady by name Aryanna, And that she feels bad about me accepting nature blessings of this lady and not of her.

*Lance smiles to himself as he stops his writtings to read the whole page again then resumes*

I just told her father what I feelabout that, I cannot accept Aragen blessings, I must not polute my soul with such untrusty power, but she is something else, I have seen beyond her symbol dear father, I ahve seen a caring and loving person trapped in a woman searching for herself, And I have expalined that not healing me was the best thing she could do to me, I explaining her, that in not healing my body, she would at least help my soul to heal, Since I am no commited sins in that way. She was spechless after that , she said that it was the most lovely thing someone has tell her.

She was making references about parting ways before she do something I would regret.. Father I still don't know what to think about this, once we are about to say goodbye with a smile in our faces, she jumps at me and kisses me in my lips, then she ran off waving.  I was shocked, This cannot be happening,  I just walk off towards the city and rent a room to spend the night.

Toran be praised.. Allow me to see what is ahead in my way...

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised .... About truth and time.

Father .-

Some days passed since last time I had a memory blank, I think I am getting strong enough to overvcome them, also the nightmares are becoming standable, mostly because of my meditations and prayings. Also I am starting to work on leathers I have made my first cougar armor.

Father it's sometimes hard to see how Toran guides me to face the truth, for that I am thankful, Some days ago I was finishing one of my patrols in the way to Hlint, and I moved towards the campfire, just to meet Wren and Lady Ielwen in there. As soon as I show myself they spotted me, Wren gives me a look with a grin and Ell smiles a bit but then came back to her frowning face. As I see the scene, I apologize for interrupting and was about to get off to the road again, but Wren stoping me from doing it, saying that It was not a bother to have me there, and that they were just arriving.

That converstion was very odd. Wren asked Ell if there is something that she would like to say, The tension feel so hard in there, As they started to speak about her dealings with his absence, saying that there is nothing to say after a year of absence.

I really don't remember much of the cvonversation they had, but in the end Ell, told him that even that marriage was not a legal one, there was a point there when Ell did not stand more of that conversation, and she say farewell to both of us and moved towards the road to Llast.

And So Wren and I end alone in that campfire in one of the most uncvonfortable situation I have lived up this day. Wren gave me a look, full of calmed fury and pride, he started to say things like that he was not worried about this, that I must remember that in some years she will think again on her vommitment to him, when all her human friends were dead and she found herself still young and beauty, I msut say that the way he spoke were filled with spite.

He finally asked me to say good bye to her in his name. At that point I was really annoyed, he spoke to me like if all was my fault, like if I stole something from him, I ahve spoke him in the past about this, and about I only care for her as a friend. Even after that he still blame for this. Even in this  feeling I told him that I t would be better to speak himself of that, that will show her that there is no hard feelings of his part. he smirks at me and say that he would do so. And then he bid his farewell and hit the road towards Llast.

Some hours beforweI meet Ell, she was showing a long and sad face, we said our goodbyes with a lot to think by ourselves, I see how she is harmed by this encounter,

Toran be praised ... that shows us how truth can harm sometimes. but lies hurt more in the long way.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised... When doing the right thing was not enough.

From Lance Stargazer's quill and Pen

Well, it has come to this.

Chaynce finally left Sil'via forever as their own words, I have meet both of them, and seems that Sil was the most affected by this break up, she now wears a grim look and black clothes, losing all the happiness she once showed, Alas there is nothing I can do about it, and my concience is clean, Since she seems to be enclosed in herself not allowing me to help her.

I am ready to lose her friendship for the sake of her own good, I have learned to stop pushing my help, since it can only bring more harm to her now broken soul, I know how she felt, For goodness that I know, And it's worse than a sting of the blade thru the flesh. the wound of a broken heart.

She has even shoot me with bow and arrows, and got a nervous breakdown, again, She seems to hate all men now for what Chaynce  and Christian did to her. Well I think I can take some of the guilt also, But I also know that only time will heal that wound, when my heart got broken I always had Toran watching me and caring for me, he was always there to bring light to my life, bur Sil, she does not have that advantage.

As for Chaynce, he seems to be doing well without her, well that was expected since he was who took the descicion of leaving her, he has his reasons I think, but that does not make him less be seing like the villain of this whole issue, last time I meet him in the campfire of our old adventure days, there we spend the night together with lady Ell, I feel some shame in this matter, since I feel really good being with him now, like the old times, we talk and laughter, he brougth some wine for us, I declined as usual, but that wine seems to be too strong for lady Iellwen who just fained after a drink of it. Chaynce seems to be lying to himself about Sil'via issues, I see in his eyes that he loves her, maybe not the most pure and sacred love, but love anyway, burt he is lying to himself, It can only bring laughter to me to hear him saying that he was done with women, such foolishness of his part, if you consider I have done that promise to myself, at least not for now, toran's will is about to be known in my case.

Anyway, Chaynce seems determineated in ending his love relationship with Sil, A shame, all the pain it brought and now it has come to ashes. And the only thing we can do about it is to move forward and heal our hearts, I have some advantaghe in that issue.

Well, I spoke to chaynce also of my life events, I explained all that was happening with Ell lately and our conversations, he was quite concerned about it, for goodness sake father I can tell you, he will never learn when to shut up his mouth, Once Ell awoke he start to ask her questions about her marriage issues, and well, we bid our farewell,  No damage done to anyone.

Now I hope this whole issue got fixed soon, at least Chaynce and me are able to travel again. and for that I am Thankful,

Toran be praised ... For the wisdom granted to me, and the chance of perform my duty.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... About faith and duty.

*From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen*

Father  .-

I am quite confused with lady Iellwen, I feel wrong in both ways,  only when I pray to Toran and do my duties I find true peace, but then it came back.

It seems that Lady Iellwen has decided to go away, I think I must tell you the whole story as it was,

Some days ago I was crafting some lion skins when she came up with a question, I have give her flowers as a token of apreciation in the past, with all that we have pass, and our diferrences she has accepted to my wishes to not bring any of Aragen's blessings upon me, and everything has worked fine until now.

But she came with a quiestion about flowers and love, she told me that she heard in a conversation that men only give flowers to women when there is an no honorable intent in that, only to .... intimate with her, and she was worried about that situation, I explained to her that it was never my intent, that I cannot think like that of a woman, I am first to my duty and my honor, and there is no honor in abusing flattery to get ... intimate with a woman.

Some days passed since this, we helped Abi and Berak to go mine some gems near Krashin, a missadventure if you ask me, Abi started to speak about gods and how they have ruined her life, and eventually she ran off, we were ambrushed following her, and eventually we all fall. It was in this trip that Lady Iellwen gave me a blue rose, That surprised me a lot, she is still gathering information about flowers and then she came with this.

Some days after, She asked me about how I was, to stay true father I don't know how I ended her telling how was trapped in this confussion. I told her of the fear I have for heresy in traveling with her. She simply left me father. She said that she never would like to harm me nor cause me trouble, She said that it seemed that her friendship caused me more trouble that good, and left me as that. She ran off to the docks,  I followed her.

I only spoke truth, then why I feel like if I have done something wrong.

We parted ways in the docks as I tried to speak with her.

There I meet with Balthazar Woll, this man seemed to be a troublemaker by profession, he seemed to have crossed hard words with the captain of a ship, as things got a bit more violent, I intervined to calm down the situation, well, Balthazar seems to not really like to get himself out ot trouble since he started to insult the captain again, eventually everything go fine as they apologize each other.

We ended traveling to Fort Vehl, as we set foot on the dock, Balthazar noticed my mood, and start speaking about the issue, Sosmetimes father I just wonder why the people don't understand how this is. I feel Toran running to my veins, making me feel alive, and giving me strength to go on, In Him I found stranght. But people continue saying that I am wrong. I know I am no wrong in following His principles and Aragern is simply not to be trusted, But.... then what about loyalty, what about paying friendship with friendship, how Could I pay in discourtesy or in pain, the good things people have done for me expecting nothing in return.

Toran be praised.... To you I raise my plea.... help your humble knight to see your will.

Toran be praised....

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... The shining hand of Toran.

*Lance's Journal is find open in a desk near as he is asleep in his cell at Toran's temple*

From Lance Stargazer quill and Pen :

Father:

The world is changing way too fast father, and sometimes Toran acts in a mysterious ways to show us His will. I have been hiding from the world the pain I feel for the situation with lady Iellwen, concentrating my actions in helping people, that at least have brought joy to my heart, and have remind me of the things that are trully important, and where my alliegances should stay.

Well all this started, when I spoke to Izzy, she has been quite good to me, but she is stubborn as an Ox, or should I say as stubborn as Chaynce sometimes, She has quite quality, i feel really good when I speak to her , she seems to be trusty enough and I can speak freely with her. I have spoken of the situation with Lady Iellwen to her, and she has Insisted that I must leave the faith issues, and follow my heart desires, of course she does not know the happiness that Toran brings, anyhow she adviced me to send a letter to the shinning hand itself, Master Quantum Winword.

I have never speak with him, I have just see him once or twice, on our meetings at the temple, He has been busy leading the way to spreading the word. I started to writte the letter, but I never sent it, I feel that something like that must be fixed between Toran and Me.

Even , in that Toran has showed me HIS holy favor, I did arrive to Fort Hempstead some days after, when it happened, Near the fountain I found that Lwx'or and Rose where there speaking with another man, they were speaking about church matters, Figure out my surprise when I learned that the man was Master Quantum itself. Toran send his Shining hand to my encounter, this was obviously one of his signs, an omen.

Lex'or introduced me to him, he spoke highly of me, saying that I am one of the knigths of the order, and a faithful one, but that I need to learn some things before, Lex spoke that, my information would be found in his report.

I asked Master Quantum for an apointment, so he could give me an advice about the situation, he agreed in that, puting on a date to be confirmed.  

I am surprised to see that Master is a humble and simple man, one should expect that The shinning hand itself portrays pride and a regal presence, but much to my joy I see him speaking me like an equal, not that I will do the same to him, I must respect his position as one of our leaders.

After some time with us, he needed to leave us , Lex'or, Sister Rose and Omer traveled to Fort Vehl arena and do some training, I finally was able to meet with the young Scott, Lex'or son. He is a healthy boy and has a lot of the facial features of his father. And seems that him make Lex life shine with hope and love. I am happy for him.

Before we leave I asked Lex about what he was speaking with Master Quantum, And that was another way that Toran has sent me HIS omen, Lex'or said that I am being studied and reviewed as a possible rectruit for the Shinning hands, Could you believe that Father, I am really honored by this possibility, only time and dedication will tell, I am not sure that is my calling, but if Toran needs me there, I will answer swiftly.

Toran be praised... That Allow this knight to see your favor.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised... So the hand spoke.

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Father :

My toughts were right, and also Linus teachings, In humble I can see the right way of performing our duties, And in loyalty we found true peace.

Virtue is not always an easy path to walk, we are put to a test everyday and everywhere, we must remember we are mortals, not outsiders to emotions and our concience is our guide, Toran know it and chooses us because of that, We his knights has something in comon, Free will and the will of use it for the good of the world, In a way to be put to a test mostly a test of heart, it makes us feel alive, My heart has healed since Sil'via and it's not only whole again, but stronger now. I still care for her, but I will never fall for her like I once did, No matter that she is an important person to me. No matter she is far from me now.

This tests father, as you should know, made our life challenging. But once they passed, it fills us with insight, and joy, the joy that made us feel alive, the sensation of satisfaction one feels after understanding the world we live.

Finally I had my meeting with Master Quantum Winword, I must say It did not go as I would have expected, No matter the fact that he is a humble man, focused and wise, I would have hoped to meeting with him in great hall on a desk, wearing a royal tunic, but there was nothing like that, We meet in the open field, as a sign that we have nothing to hide, he greet me as an equal, answering with politeness as I spoke to him.

And so The hand Of Toran spoke to me. In his wisdom and life, I can see in him the humble way of performing I have persued, And in thatI feel and know that Linuw was right in his teachings.

I explained to him, the situation with Lady Iellwen, and he gave me his advice , I explain him the fear of heresy, in the name of loyalty, he smile at me and sighted as he was seeing something really familiar, as I explained him all the situation we have been thru, he watched me with a wide smile and a nostalgic look, He then adviced me to follow what my heart feels, sinc etoran resides in it, He said me that Toran teaches us to be loyal to those who are worthy, he said that he cannot be sure of taht , but maybe Toran put her in my way to show her the true path, To teach her about the ways of the leader, and beside that  as a test to us, that id she is so intrested in learning, then I should teach her the way of Toran, as our meeting end he said to me that there is no heresy in traveling with her, and paying her friendship with friendship, as long as I understand what she is, She is a Priest of Aragen, and I shall remember that before her name, he adviced me to keep my heart guarded, because if that friendship becomes love one of us would have lost the grace, That I could never do, I copuld neverleave Toran, After I said that, he gave me a sad smile, saying that I am faithful and that in that faith I must rest on hard times.

And so I left him, now I feel better and calm as his wisdom made me see what 've failed to see, A test of mettle, a chance to prove myself, and to be loyal, He remind me a lot to Linus, reserved and humble, watching always against arrogance.

I need to find Ell, soon, I need to apologize for my past actions.

Toran be praised... To you I trust my soul and my mind, to you I raise my plea for wisdom. Please guide me to the best for your church and to those you love... Let me be your hands to raise the weak, and your sword to punish the villanous..


Toran be praised

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised ... conclusion

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen:

Father no much to say really, I have found lady Iellwen, the tension was hard at first , she was cold on her words and actions, I asked of a moment to speak, And well we end in the pond Near Hempstead, a usual spot for our dialogs, I have explained her that now I am more focused about my dealings with her, Also I asked her to forgive my past actions, since it was a non apropiate way of beheave.

We ended the night with some grape juice and laughter.

I am thankfull so my elven lessons can continue, she is quite a good teacher as she always use new words as we say farewell,

Toran be praised that teaches to do the right thing.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised .- For the sake of friendship,

From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen :

Father:

Words are powerful weapons, they if misused can harm almost as the most keen blade, That must be applied to my two choosen brothers, Chaynce Baldu'umur and Izzy, they really are making this whole situation hard, saying all the time about Iellwen and me, This whole situation is escaping my hands, Now that everything seemed on Place, those two are making it harder.

For goodness sake I even insulted Chaynce, calling him a morron, Something I must admit fills me with shame.

But he doesn't hear to words, he's so self concerned regarding to it's opinions.

I might gather strenght to forgive and forget, I know they love me, but I must understand that they are blind to the grace of the great leaderl, they don't see why it cannot be done, Unless Toran send me a miracle.

Toran be praised ... resilense to our heart. sharpness of mind. Justice be served.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be Praised. A ring of Friendship.

Father:

I finally got that big buy for the bashers, I brought a new armor and some Jewerly that will make my work as a knight easier I hope. Also a very special gift. A ring of Divinity. I hav asked to be customized to Show an ankh in the front and the letters LS inscribed into the inner side of the ring. Also made it blessed in the holy pond at Fort Llast.

I met Iellwen at the central square of Hempstead, we spoke there about some things, then I escorted her to Mariner's hold near Alindor , the travel was quiet and calm, It feels weird since I haven't spoke to her about the incident that generatesd our last disagreement.

I wait till we walked out the Mariner's hold, Then I spoke my mind about it.

I have said to her how deeply I am sorry for the way I have trated her, in the past, since she is not the one to pay for the actions of my choseen brothers. I spoke clear and sound about that.

I gave her a ring, father, A ring to show her my friendship, nothing else, I acted as wisdom indcated I tell ehr that she is not the one who must pay for the actions of third persons, I respect her, since she has done everything I requested regarding Aragen, no blessings, no prayers. Only comprension and  friendship

For that acord I have sealed my friendship to her with this ring, I told her that no matter what happen in our future, I will always be her friend, an loyal one, no matter that people say, or what other people do.

I put the ring in her finger, and look at her as I spoke, So it ended, She smile back at me and give me a forgiving look.

As we continue or talking, we have came to another agreement, I have accepted that Aragen is in her life and Toran is part of mine, So no matter wha will happen in the future we are first to our duties, and second to everything else. If sometime fate and gods themselves put us in differents ways, we will do our best to fullfill our duty without detriment to our friendship.

So we depart, my heart and mind are in peace. She has been really good to me, father, I hope to continue on my elven lessons with her, and to travel.

She has proven to be very different to every other Aragenite I have met in the past, she is caring and a virtuous woman who has help me a lot in my past, My heart is whole again in part thanks to her, and she has been helped me a lot also with the understanding and learning of the elven languaje.

"Sila Anemill amulannyr eelam ama"

Toran be praised, he who gave resilance to our soul and understanding to my mind.


// elven reads : May Toran watch over we.

[Lance Stargazer]

Toran be praised. - Of the hands of the knight.

*From Lance Stargazer's quill and pen*

Me an Orcbasher ?

* Lance smile at himself as he sees the words written *

Strange is that My skill in the trade of the tailor is getthing unexpectadly higher , by now I am able to try to do lion bags, unfortunately I feel I am reaching to the top the training is able to getting me, it seems harder to learn new tricks on the table. Anyhow I was starting to wonder what should I do with this skill, then Toran send me an answer.

Lady Tegan spoke to me the other day, and have offered me full membership to the Bashers, I must say I have my doubts on the matter, since It snot my desire that such obligation impides me doing my sworn duty of helping those who cannot help themselves. The Orcbashers seems to be decent organization, and able to help a group such this is a great honor, Nonetheless, I must see how this works, I have asked to Lady tegan a trial time, so both parts can evaluate the alliance.

I must say at least seems like a good group Abi is the salesgirl, she can be a bit self centered sometimes, bur she is a good soul not to say Miss Tegan, Also one of my concerns is about the two Rofirenites who lead the guild Sir Barion Firestead, Abigail's father and a knight of the wyrm itself, Also Lady Serissa Winword, High protector priestess and Master Quantum separated wife, Marcus a traveling priest of Azzat'a seems like a nice adition to the group, that also ensures me at least someone who could heal me in the fabbled trips of the guild.

I have heard also that a Berylite is also a member, Master Star Saphire they call him. This is a minnor drawback I am willing to endure in an exchange of a greater good. Anyhow I'll try to put my best onto it.

May Toran light shine on my path, on this new endeavour.

*As Lance closes his journal and rest in his cell in Llast Temple *

[Lance Stargazer]

* Lance takes sometime in his travels to arrange his notes on elven languaje as he continues to study *

E .- I                  sela .- mine

aey .- you           aeym  - your
we .- ama          

alaa .- yes
il .-   a
illw .- and
ilma .- are             'ma .- 're
illa .- As
el .-   in
EO .-   Of
ane .- to
ean .- it

we .- Do
Fa .- Be
anireln .- think
laaw . -  need
saan .- meet
amulannyr .- watch
tymeananyean  .- Protect
cena     .-   like

amacc .- well
enila .- ok
ilmeviaran .- alright

Fyan .-     But
Amama .-    Were
ameec .-    Will
Sila .-     May
anirilin .- thank
Irrace -    Hello
amacnyesa - Welcome


aillaa .- easy
Lailoa .- Safe
Lasilman .- smart
ecw    .-   Old
Laamaaan .- sweet
ilvilel  .-  again
eelam .-     over
irama .-    here
anirela .-  this


mulelaaw .- raised
queyamlaa .- Journey
Iryl .- hun
Anemill .- Toran
nleviran .- Knight
tyilicilwel .- Paladin
Laem .- sir
Selaanam .- Mister
Anmiltya .- Traps
sal . man
nnyn .- kick
Anemilleana .- Toranite
feanir .- both
weesaw .- doomed
amilanamla .- waters
cilyviram ´.- laughter
vew .- God

Cilnya .- lance

* as he reads and practice in the deck of a ship he starts to write on his Journal*

Father, It has been some time since my first steps into this learning issue, A lot of lessons this elven has teached me , and I am not refering to the languaje itself, but to the other pains and joys it has granted to me.

I started this learning trying to understand Sil. She use it a lot, and well, sometimes is hard to reply to her when I can't understand her, Once that page on my life turned. Well I am not a man that easily quits an endeavour. And the chances has Arisen with Ell teaching me by the sole propose of doing it, I must say that is quite challenging since she uses the languaje as a Riddle, at first she used it to give hidden messages, those that in time after I found the answer makes sense and she was not around to reclaim her.

Like four long years has passed since that, I can barely remember those travels with Sil and her brothers, Elgon has helped me also with the languaje, not to let Chaynce out of the thanks of course.

By now I am able to understand specific questions, And I even have started to say my greetings and goodbyes to my elven friends in their mellodic Languaje.

I think I am getting near understanding it, or at least to speak it a bit more fluently. I still cannot believe I had a conversation with Ell in elven, A simple one , But a convestation itself.

I am by now traveling towards the Dragon Isles in search for that " laanyfeel " brother of mine.

Toran be praised, send his holy light to shine upon my path,