Sabrissia Ice - Fire, lightning, destruction & love

[iceyfire]

*Note this is her second diary after years of after losing her old one, also note i usually text this as im playing and fix it up and post it in large chunks when im ready to play around with it and make it hopefully interesting*

So it has been awhile since i last wrote an entryi into a diary.... I just couldnt bring myself to it, these past years have been some of the most painful of my life.....
The sun has been been nowhere to be seen, the loves of my life & my friends i have not seen in a great number of years.... I wonder if they still walk the lands as living breathing souls.... Who knows really.

On a lighter note i have finally finished perfecting my shapechange & my wailing banshee, both seem to have great uses and ive done it without corrupting my own ideals i think....

I do hope that this progression is not what pushes me that final step towards him....
I wish my dreams were not something i feared every time i closed my eyes *This part of the text is indecipherable due to tear drops smudging the writing*

....One day, i will be done with it...

[iceyfire]

So, i have been travelling again, its different now... i guess i am now a fully fledged spell weaver & i am an affirmed of lucinda... Quite the change i suppose... But the world seems to be getting worse... Starvation, greed, evil seem to be running rampant.

Where have all the heroes gone, what has happened to the great heroes that defended the world from blood, the dragoncalled... do any still live anymore?

Food is scarce, people are depressed certainly the state of things cannot get worse then they are.
If only i was a little stronger, if only i did not have my past chasing me at every turn... i hate it, but i wont give up... I wont.

[iceyfire]

Well, today i was pleasantly suprised... their is still good roaming these lands... today i met several adventurers the most notable one was a paladin of Toran... I know as a lucindite our beliefs do conflict a little..... But she was different, she was brave and less foolish then the previous toranites i have crossed paths with...

We travelled dregar taking care of much evil lurking the lands with very little trouble, and whats better she did not allow a drop of blood to fall from me... Trully someone special i have met this day... Maybe their is hope for this wretched existance we live in...

[iceyfire]

Every day i seem to be meeting more and more brave people, so they have just been busy fighting evil, heh...
Anyway a quick note, more and more of my old friends seem to be popping up i have seen what i think to be alantha & angela from a distance... i could be wrong but i was in the thick of battle so i was a bit distracted... so... i will try and confirm this later on..

On a sad note, i think my time is drawing to a end... i can feel it, in last nights dream it seems that my wards are failing me... he came again and this time he left a mark, he cut a straight line along my leg.... i woke up again in sweat and blood.... Truly i wish this would all end... Im tired... I hate the fear, i hate him...
I just wish i was strong enough to make him go away.... sometimes i think its easier if i just leave this world... if i just go the same way Abigail did.... *Sighs* I do miss that girl....

[iceyfire]

Today was rather interesting, i was walking through a tavern when i met up with a professor of sorts after some kind of rare mask... He employed the services of a fair amount of adventurers with the promise of several thousand true as payment to with this mask in some games....

Anyway i headed their and quickly found that these were not the kind of games i had expected, granted i came at around the halfway point but.... well.... strange insult competitions, story telling, and the final one was a trial i had expected of various feats and a battle between the ones left over...
Strangely enough the devil tongued hag katrina inspired me to win this and boy did i ever.....
I drank the highly aggressive alcoholic beverage, i charmed my weapon from the mistress, i managed to keep perfect balance jumping from chair to chair..... And finally i bested a ogre warrior with nothing but offensive spells in close combat.... his father even cheated and attacked me aswell....... I still won without killing anyone!

Hah... not even the males of the group could hold their drinks.... I am so proud of myself.... and i certainly show that hag... who was the better woman.

Regardless, we lost... but somehow managed to persuade the leader for that mask so i guess it was a complete success well barely...

[iceyfire]

Not much has been happening the last few months, just the usual comings and goings, the meeting of new people & utter destruction of those evil creatures... but i hear something a rumor of a meet of the heroes of these lands to go to ozlos tower and see if we can find some way to bring back the sun.......
Im going to attend i have a feeling it will be worth the effort....

The dreams however have remained more or less the same... sometimes i wish i was elf so i wouldnt have to deal with them as much as i am forced to... if i dont sleep i die... if i sleep i may die....
Maybe i should really seek the help of the dreams like several have suggested to me......

[iceyfire]

We did it!!!!
We brought the sun back!
Oh what a glorious day it has been without as much hardship as their could have been, in a summary of the events we pretty much spent several hours walking to the tower, several hours trying to get into the tower, several hours signing a great deal of paperwork, then several more throwing a bunch of pieces of ourselves into a cauldron....
And well the result was unexpected the sky returned and retrieved the sand of ages after much persuading of chanda *Chuckles*...

She will hopefully pay for all of the trouble she has caused me in the past..... that wretch.......
I hope she does get burned perhaps by me if she escapes.... only then will i be satisfied.... i cannot forgive her for the past..

Anyway we are heroes, hooray!.

[iceyfire]

Whoa... what a day... surely it was fun however, i had heard rumors of a goblin army massing near my old rest area of hlint, so ofcourse i felt compelled to return my services to that city....
Well when i arrived i found the tattered remains of a army and a group of adventurers lead by clarissa, it was definately good to see her.
Several other familiar faces were also their, including shiff the complaining about every decision made person.

Well i decided to tag along, and well it was quite interesting to finally be able to toy with those creatures, they did try my patience at times but.... i had some very credible aid to the group...

They told me they were searching for a girl called lauren and that they were trying to save her from a invincible shaman....

Intriguing i thought...... well it was except that the shamans troops could use ninth circle magics!.
I searched these caverns and what i found was an immense amount of the weave was being concentrated into stone..... And well as i figured it was the source of the shamans power and invincibility....
We destroyed it with a well placed dispell and headed further down...

To our suprise we spotted lauren but... it was not her but a fake, a near perfect fake except the fact that she attacked us and was wearing some pretty expensive armor and weapons that were ofcourse destroyed in the battle....

Not to far off was the shaman and go figure.... demons, yep.... demons as one would expect from a desperate shaman...
He was a whelp now that his source of power was taken care off... it took me nigh 3 bolts of lightning to take him down....

And thus the threat was ended, all in a days work, hehe.
Also the real lauren was safe..

[iceyfire]

Geez.... this one was quite unexpected.... I am now a mother.... well a mother by force i suppose...
Well tonight i was in stormcrest crossroads enjoying a good book with a few interesting people, when a traveller came requesting our aid....

Told us a town near the spirit dunes was under heavy attack by two large gnoll armies vying for control over the dunes....

Ofcourse i offered my help, i couldnt say no to suffering people....
And well ofcourse these gnolls were weak... but boy their was so many... i must have killed hundreds of them...

And well they were using demons as reinforcements... they offered a bit of a challenge but still fell before my power...

Then the most unexpected event occured... on the dead we found two living gnoll babies...
Suprise suprise i got stuck with one of them, acacea also got stuck with one herself......
She even made me a phanny pack for it so it doesnt bite my face off when im weaving.....
How kind of her.....
I dont know this is strange, but i will do my best... its still a innocent creature, and hey i heard they were neutral creatures usually when you didnt harass them on their lands.....or if they were hungry that is.....

I can already see myself regretting this, as i speak *An area of page is covered in blood* maybe i will get it to stop biting me soon i hope.....