Author Topic: The journal of an Undead Slayer (Read 1603 times)

Hellblazer · « **Reply #20 on:** December 15, 2007, 01:00:57 PM »

Routine and complacency, taking their toll.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #21 on:** December 17, 2007, 02:44:14 AM »

We talk but we don't talk, we spend time together, but are apart. What am I to do..give up? When I found certainty in one person, I find myself lost in more uncertainties. I'm tired.

At least my lectures goes on steadily, still talking with the people at the Toranite temple, my knowledge of the edicts is improving and I find myself founder of them every day. I still feel the heavy weight of being powerless. It is something I must live with until Toran finds me worthy.

Christine is back using a different name.. and now she is circling my niece. She says she is not up to her old tricks that brought so much pain to my sister and her husband. I had no choice so I warned my niece. From there it is her own choice, but at least she knows.

And.. well. I don't know what to make of this, I found two people I though were lost to each others back together and happy. I am happy for them, but after all they went through... I don't know where I stand on that. But I am not the one in that relationship, I am merely a passer by, a watcher, a friend and listener. If they are happy, it is all that matters to me.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #22 on:** January 13, 2008, 04:25:12 PM »

We are back,

We had decided we needed sometime to ourselves, far from everyone, every worries. We went to explore the eastern lands, slowly carefully, avoiding the fights we knew could not win. We found a very beautiful lake on one of the Islands. And we stayed there. I had not imagined how much time had passed. We talked, we enjoyed ourselves, and we planned. Planned our future, planned for a family. And then she sent me home ahead of her to prepare the nursery. I don't think she is pregnant yet, we were careful, she still wants to have some time just the two of us before we have a wee one coming in and run our lives. I could have stayed there all eternity with her, just the two of us. One thing she insisted I bring with us were the book Master Quantum had given me to study. I read them all the time when she was sleeping or relaxing, if I was not relaxing with her. And my faith in him has grown, grown to overshadow the faith I had in Aeridin so long ago. His teaching and me are one, his care for the people, his wish to protect the weak, his love for justice, all of it are in me, part of me, and has always been and forever will be. I am glad she insisted for me to bring them. It was a long and fruitful vacation for both of us, and we have grown so much closer, our love is stronger than all, and I praise Toran every day for having watched over her all those years until we found each other.

At time though, even during our vacation by that lake, there was moments where I was troubled, where I had doubts about who I was, who I was going to be. I still had doubts if I was going to be the man she saw in me, the man who could carry the blessing of Toran. If these moments of torments without the blessing of the divine powers would stop. But in these times, she sought me out and helped me through them simply by being there. In those times I sought out for his guidance, for his wisdom, his love and care. I grew strong, I am strong, through his teaching and through his watchful eyes. I have no more doubts. I am his follower, his worshiper, his servant. And I will be until my last breath is taken away from me. My sword will be for his name, for his justice. It will bring protection for the needee, the weak and those unable to fend for themselves. It will route out injustice where ever it finds it. And the day that he blesses me with his divine powers. That day, through me, I will bring his strength to where evil lies.

So much has happened by that lake, but yet we did so little. It was a marvelous time of awakening for the both of us. And now we are back, A year after leaving our home. Happy, rested, fulfilled.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #23 on:** January 23, 2008, 10:41:00 AM »

Toran be Praised.

She sent me back to prepare a nursery, unaware of it's consequences. It's by Corax lake, with my sister, Lance, and a elf that calls herself Ell that Amilia announced the extraordinary news. I am to be a father, me Lex'or Gravedigger.. A father! Even now as I write this I can not take away the smile that I have on my face. I had to do it, I couldn't wait any longer, I had waited for the perfect moment at the lake, but she puppy eyed me to go home and make the nurseries.. I just couldn't resist so I did. But today, It was perfect, with my sister there, I knelled myself in front of her.

"Amilia, you made me the happiest man of the lands the day you told me you loved me. And then you made me even more happier, when you accepted to live with me. And now if it was even more possible, by telling you are with child. I wanted to do this a long time ago Amilia, but the moment never came.*

I took the ring out of my chest piece poket

"Amilia would you take this silly old fool to be you husband?"

She looked at me in awe, I had taken her by complete surprise. She leaned to kiss me and just before reaching my lips she said yes. As we were kissing I stood up and held her close to me as our companions where cheering this Happy moment.

Toran, you provide, when we are weak, but you provide also when we are strong, All Praise to you.

After saying our goodbyes to my sister and our friends, we made our way later one and met with Barion, Serissa and later on Tegan and Sallaron all of them were happy for the good news.

More good news, intertwined with some sad ones though. The vampire that was plaguing my sister family and friends, has been dealt with, to a great cost unfortunately. Elohanna was changed temporarily into a vampire, which we were able to reverse, but somewhere in her whole ordeal, she lost the twins she was carrying. I broke my heart when I saw her cry in the arms of Krys. I left them both the vampire blood I had collected so they could put closure by destroying it together. I have to check on her soon, this must be horrible for her and for Krys. I never saw him in such a state in all the years I have known him, when his soul ring felt as if Hanna was almost dying, he was not the same elf, no serene look, no composure. But they will get better, and they still can have more children.

To which I come to my niece Sil'via.. She was always trouble, but until recently I had not known into how deep she had been herself. In her search for herself and her heart, she broke the heart of a Paladin, Lance Stargazer. It is something very hard for him, but he is holding back and I am afraid it will hurt him more in the end. And in such I am helping him to let go, to let his emotion run through until his heart is purge and that the love of Toran can occupy it fully until he finds the one that is to be his completion. Not even Toran in his great wisdom, would let his faithful from finding love and companionship, but it will take some time for him to completely understand and let go of my niece and all that he has kept buried for all his life. Step by step, and he is walking.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #24 on:** February 13, 2008, 02:42:36 PM »

Wedlar, Junar 11, 1428

I was studying at the temple of Fort Llast when a messenger came rushing in handing a missive to one of the temple clerk who then hurried to give it to me. I opened it and read the message, my heart almost stopping. Amilia, while taking a stroll and having to fight against some Ogres, had started to give birth. Luckily for her and for me, she was still close to home and even more luckier, Rose was traveling on that path.

After sending the missive, Rose took Amilia back to our place where she started to help her. I rushed as fast as I could and when I got there, Amilia was still in labor. After hours more of labor and me circling behind Rose when I had to let go of Amilia's hand as she was crushing mine, our child was born.

A very healthy, 9 pounder, boy, that screamed his welcome to the world like no others I have ever heard. Amilia wanted to name him Scott, and so we did.

Amilia, was tired but so happy, I was drenched in sweat as it seem so painful. But both my future wife and our boy are in perfect health. Rose was so happy for us two and stayed for drinks and dinner, when Amilia was feeling stronger to be able to eat.

And so on this Wedlar, Junar 11, 1436, our little Scott is born and I feel like letting the world know of my love for both My love and our child.

Praise be Toran for all the blessings he has given me, for the strength to continue on in my moment of trouble and weakness. For the love he has opened my eyes to see.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #25 on:** February 13, 2008, 02:43:13 PM »

Tunar, Oclar 24, 1428

Five months has passed and little Scott is growing. Already we can see that he has my eyes, and his mother hair color. Things are a bit more complicated now and we have to share the loads even more. Since I was used to live at night, I take the night shifts, of course I rest with my sweet Amilia, but if Scott wakes at night, I get up to feed and clean him as is needed.

I am still gathering for the wedding even hired out some help. Amilia has not had much time to travel or do anything with the birth of Scotty. I often stay home with him so she can go out and see her friends. But our time has been very limited and it is starting to get strainious now to try and find time to be just us or even meet up with those who are there to help us plan the wedding. But I keep going in hopes that things will get settled soon.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #26 on:** February 15, 2008, 06:44:32 PM »

Sunra, Decilar 1, 1429

7 months and he still grows and is healthy, his night are still incomplete, and I still wake up to take care of him leaving my sweet Amilia to her peaceful rest.

For a couple of months now, when ever I went to the temple to study the scriptures and hear Master Quantum give his lectures and train the new recruits I have brought Scott with me. That is if Amilia had not already taken him out.

He is with her, the greatest blessing Toran could give me short of feeling his power course through me. I am still waiting and praying every day to see this come through. I only hope he will find me worthy soon. The thought of not being able to protect my own family without his blessing is becoming more and more heavy on my conscience.

Toran, All watching, I praise you yet again for an other day that passes where you have kept my family safe. I pray for your touch and blessing on me and them, to keep harm away, and so I can go under your banner and protect those who are to frail to protect themselves and anoint them by your strength.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #27 on:** February 22, 2008, 08:13:59 AM »

Satari, Mar 14, 1429

I had my first touch with the divine for years about two weeks ago, not in a pleasant way. I felt weak, went blind. I felt pain like I had never felt before. Wither or not it comes from Aeridin himself, or one of his follower, it will not, and I repeat, will not make me change my mind. I can not be part of him, I can not be tied down anymore in ways that are not true to me, to who I am, to what I have always wanted to do. To protect the weak and empower them.

The worse part is that I was just taking Scott out of his harness. Praise be Toran that I didn't drop him and that the others had the thought to take him out of my arms in case I would fall down.

Unfortunatly the events also brought that my little son caught a cold. No fever, just some little sneezing, nothing life threatening. I brought him home, gave him some warm milk to drink and set him up to sleep in his crib with an extra blanket, but almost two weeks after and he is still sneezing, but till no fever. I'll bring him to the Toran temple of Fort Llast to have him see the healer there. Maybe with their divine powers they will be able to see what is wrong with him.

Toran give me strength as I see this to be only a series of event coming my way. I will not faltered and my will will remain strong on you. But I am only a man that needs you, your wisdom and guidance.

P.S. the gathering is almost done, only waiting news from Kali to see if I can exchange some goods for ales, wine and juice.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #28 on:** February 26, 2008, 05:57:37 PM »

Threas, Mai 26, 1429

Things are going well

I have all the money for the wedding now, only a few things to settles and we will be able to make the announcement of when it is to be held. I have also found a beautiful place to hold it and will take Amilia to see it soon.

I have not felt anymore attack since that day, its good because maybe now he understands that what ever he does will not change my decision. My will is set and I will not come back to him. My heart, soul, sword and shield belongs to Toran. It is him who my heart desire to serve and him that I will gladly accept the powers when he sees I am ready. Well, my heart also belongs to Amilia, my love, and I don't think Toran will hold rigor on me for that.

Poor Scotty, 11 months now and he has been carrying this slight cold for the past two months. We have brought him to see some of the beast healers in the lands and none have been able to tell us what he had. They all gave us some theories on what it was, but all agrees that it is not life threatening. And since he only sneezes from time to time and shows no other signs of sickness, I am not to worried about it. At least he has a cute sneeze.

Well time to get the last few things and the surprise for Amilia.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #29 on:** March 06, 2008, 09:51:24 AM »

Sunra, Oclar 15, 1429

Two months, only two months to go.

I have finally finished gathering and having for the food and the ales. All will be ready for the reception, I even contacted a bard that says she will be there for free else, if she can't, she will send someone else.

An other beautiful moment was when Amilia, scotty and I went to the temple of fort Llast to have our rings made. Looking at Amilia over the enchanting pool, her soft skin radiating from the glow of the pool, made my heart stop. As Marl asked us to hold hands over the pool, I poured all of my love for her in to that hold, into my words, in how I looked and smiled at her. I praise Toran day and night for the blessings he has given me, for her love and our son. If he holds my soul she holds my heart.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #30 on:** March 14, 2008, 06:28:29 PM »

Satari, Febra 28, 1430

With the "godly" attack put behind, and the wedding plans finalized, only waiting for the precious day now. I have been training a lot more again. Not only from the body but also from the mind. Master Quantum has graciously asked me to accompany him on his lectures from town to town. They are mostly small trips, so I am coming back home often and for rather well spent stays. It is gratifying to see that, even if I am not yet recognize by Toran or the church, I still can profess the faith I have for him. He even let me talk with some of the people, guiding them and offering them comfort. He supervises me of course, but I think he sees that my faith is there and ready to take on more, as soon as Toran will let me.

He also asked me to become his assistant of sort, in the training of the new recruits. A daunting task if I may add, but I have always loved challenges and I will not let him or Toran down.

My strength in his name and the love of my beautiful half.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #31 on:** March 20, 2008, 04:05:49 PM »

Threas, Junar 5, 1430

I grow restless, impatient and feeling out of place.

First of, I grow impatient in the ordeal of being out of the divine touch. I know I have to be patient and keep pushing on the road. Toran's road is long and hard, but it is filled with rewards of the faith. It's only a matter of time as Master Quantum said. however, lately; with all the days I have spent in different towns, preaching with Master Quantum, I have been missing my family terribly and felt restless to see them again. And so when I was back and Amilia was feeling better, I went on a trip with her.

I have felt out of place right from the start of this trip. Firstly because of Tegan. She knows that I can no longer protect myself with the divine powers that I once had. And for a while now, she has been withholding the most crucial spells that would protect me fully. She gives me the basic she gives to every one, but the one that would ensure fully my survival, she doesn't. And with all the good intentions I have always shown her, and even if I am eternally greatful that she protects Amilia the way she does, it almost feels as if she wants me to die on the battlefield...

Then there is these talks that Tegan has with Amilia have about Goldy... Usually I wouldn't feel threaten, but for the first time, With all the years that I have not been able to strengthen myself and protect us both with the blessings I once had, I feel that I have grown even weaker in the eyes of my beloved. And that made me feel I was even more out of place... I have never felt so strongly this way.. it's haunting. I knew I was out of place within Aeridin, but now, when you even feel out of place with the woman you love, that you are due to marry and is the mother of your child. The one who stood by you when you were disconnected to the world around you, emotionless and cold. It takes more than just a slight bite out of you. It eats at you like nothing could ever do. Maybe she would be better off with him...

I will keep faith that it is only a feeling though...

Toran give me strength, I need it right now.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #32 on:** March 22, 2008, 01:20:11 AM »

Threas, Junar 26, 1430

Well lesson number one on not to put your whole leg into your mouth and get the wrong impressions.

Answer? talk to the persons.

Second lesson. four full bottles of whiskey will make you forget how you got to places. Or was it five...? hmm don't remember

I had a talk with Tegan today, and I was wrong about the things I was feeling about her. It helps to know that these were wrong, because now they take away any founding I had in the ones I was feeling about losing Amilia. Well most of them. I still feel that I am growing weaker in her eyes as the time passes by.

I guess I miss the feeling of the divine touch on me more than I thought I would and it's getting to me more than I thought it would. Nonetheless, I will keep true to who I am and where I want to be.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #33 on:** April 12, 2008, 02:23:28 PM »

Freas, Junar 13, 1431

Gathering, Gathering, Crafting, Studying, ooh a little time here with Amilia, and there with Scotty, more gathering, more crafting, more studying. That's what my life is all about now. Eh

Well Scotty is three years old now, well be making him a party soon, with the family, Tegan, Sall and trouble too. When we get around to it I guess.

Had a good time with Amilia though the other day, even if they get scarcer and scarcer. Gathering and crafting is keeping us apart a bit. Sure we live together, that is if we are not actually caught somewhere apart due to business, gathering, or studies for long period of times. Scotty is the one suffering the most out of this. Good thing I've got Family to watch over him.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #34 on:** May 08, 2008, 02:51:55 PM »

Wedlar, Augra 11, 1432

*Lex'or enters his home, the sun slowly rising in the horizon with it's crimson red hue, and walks slowly to his bedroom. He takes off his sword and shield and sets them into the weapon rack. Then takes his helmet and armor off and sets them on their own rack. Once all of this is done he turns and looks at the sleeping beauty that is in their bed and to their son sleeping in the cot. He moves toward the pool and sits on the stairs contemplating them both. He takes his journal out and starts to write in it*

My life is running away it seems,

I can feel the end coming as I grow older every day. As I look upon my life, I can see I have left so many things unfinished. Our wedding, my entrance into the Toranite church, are the main ones. So many friends have passed, and more have moved away, and when I look back at everything, did I do all that I could? I don't think so.

Maybe it's time for me to hang up the shield and sword, to leave my place for a younger generation with more strength and urge to do what it is I could not do. Retire in a temple somewhere, maybe, where I could teach what Master Quantum has taught me so long ago.

*He takes a moment to look at Amilia that just stirred and turned in their bed*

My love, so beautiful even in her sleep. I wonder so many times how this came to be. Have I been all that I could have been for her? Usually when I have those kinds of doubts, she is quick to reassure me, but this time.. it is one so profound in me that I keep quiet. She deserves so much more than what I have been able to give her from myself. And yet she seems content and happy with just that. I praise Toran every day for the blessings she has brought into my life, hoping I can give her as much as she has given to me.

*He stops writing as he sees Scotty get up. His hair spiked and bushed. Rubbing his eyes with both hands as a yawn escape his mouth. Scotty looks at his father with a smile and runs to him*

"Dad you home"

*The four years old voice says happily as Lex'or puts his right index on his lips to signal him to lower his voice. Placing his left hand on the boy cheek he looks at his son a sad smile on his face.*

"Yes son I'm home. I'll be home for a long time I think. Sleep well?"

*The little boy nods and hugs his father, who returns the hug*

"Go on Scott go play in the living room, let your mother sleep in"

*Scott runs to his toys as Lex'or looks at him go. Taking the quill back in his hand*

I'll give it more time, for their sake. Scott needs a father that is strong, that is there, someone to look up to. I'm not sure I can do those things, but him and Amilia are the joys of my life, and I ought to try for them. A little bit longer to see if I can be what they deserves, to see if I can follow them in their daily lives. If not I will at least make sure I leave them with enough to live comfortably.

Toran give this man the strength and wisdom you carry. To be there and present for his family. To keep the good work of your name. I falter as the time passes, and I need your guidance..

*He places the journal on the table beside the bed and slowly gets in to cuddle up with Amilia. Stroking gently her hair off of her gentle face, he rest on his elbow for a long moment looking at her sleep, until finally he is himself brought to the land of the dreams. Resting peacefully beside who brought him back to life.*

Hellblazer · « **Reply #35 on:** November 27, 2008, 11:00:31 AM »

With the grace of Toran I am now able to feel the devine course through me again. I had never stopped working to rest the undead, but with these renewed powers, it makes thins much more easier.

I have cleanse the Krandor crypts, Storan's and the nameless a few times, but they always seem to be more. And it is my duty to keep on and cleans them as often as needed. For the last year I have been slaying the undeads in those area, and I will keep going.

I know it would have been the wish of Quantum for me to continue his work, and I will, if it is Toran's wish. It is who I am, I am a cleric of Toran, a protector of the people, but it has always been my calling that I hunt the undeads, to set them free. I will wait a little bit more, then I will seek the council of the shining hands, to make them aware of my intentions to join their ranks.

Toran be my strength.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #36 on:** December 28, 2008, 07:21:01 AM »

Tunar, Jenra 17, 1443

*for countless nights, People can see a blue haired man enter the Krandor crypts, the Vehl crypts, the unnamed and a few other undead places around the lands. Those that would dare follow him would hear him chant praises to Toran and also war cries in memory of Quantum and in the name of Toran. Him and his family is often seen with the presence of Peanut and Rose.*

Hellblazer · « **Reply #37 on:** January 05, 2009, 02:51:50 PM »

I praise Toran for the wisdome and strength he is providing me. I walk now through the crypts as I have never been able to. The power of his name is enough to make the enemy tremble. The power oh his faith that course through me, shatters the undead until the crumble to piece. And the strength he gives this old men, sustain the effort bringning my enemies to rest by my sword. I am relentless in putting these viles creatures back to the eternal rest, and will not stop until my days are over and I am recalled by his side. I think I am ready now to go infron tof the oder of undead hunters, to ask for internship. I will have to speak to marl about it. Now that Quantum passed away... and Cal apparently gone to be with Quantum family, Marl is the only one I truly know left in the church who would know who I should speak to.

I have spoken to Amilia about this, and as Always she supports me. She knows I have never stopped hunting them, even when I was powerless. It is part of who I am.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #38 on:** April 26, 2009, 12:09:55 PM »

How can anyone view tampering with someone minds good, even if the intent behind was good. It is not in Toran's ways to impose in any sort of ways, would it be directly or subtly, his will upon an person, capable or incapable of making his own decision. When you use any form of mind control, how ever you call it, wither it be soul appeasement, massage or anything else, you take the free will of the person out. Criminal or not, they were judged and they were paying for the action they decided to commit. This does not take their right to think away and nor should it give us the right to take it away from them. I am Angered and saddened to see that some of our ranks would believe it is in their rights to do so.

The word of all watching calls us to protect and empower the people, not to control them and force a change in them that they did not will.

No matter what Good was intended, it was ultimately disfigured by so many of our brothers to have been corrupted in such manners. For them to turn on us and attack us, even the celestial summons that were guarding and the others celestials that I have seen, turned on us, what ever good that was intended was twisted and turned to evil.

When I prayed Toran for his will to be made, hoping to see him bring back one of the fallen paladin that we had put down, I had the chill fall upon me, as if even Toran had turn his face away from them, corrupted by the evil that had besieged their mind and soul.

Some will see me as cold after today, not knowing what we undead slayer must go through. No matter if it is your wife that is before you about to die or dead, no matter if it is a friend or child. The mission must be completed. And so when I looked at some of the fallen, some I barely knew, others friend I had served with. My heart was sad and pained, but I had to go on and pushed those feelings aside for the good of the mission.

I remember Quantum's words when he was teaching me the ways of the undead slayers so long ago.

"The most important person in your party when fighting undead is you no one else. If your powers fail you will die, there for always have two set of the same protection for you and you only. Even if it is a loved one that falls, a friend, and no matter how much pain you feel. You must continue on with the mission, leaving them to the care of their God."

These are hard hard words that most would not understand, I imagine. It is also why most of us decide to go hunting undeads alone, or with someone like minded. Those on the other hand were not undead, but decades of training falls easily back in place what ever you are fighting. There will be a time of mourning for them, and their bodies will be given the proper burial.

I have to make sure though, that their death was not in vain, and that such tools will never used again by followers of the All Watching.

Toran, may you find grace for them in your time. Those that served you. May you see past what was imposed on them unwillingly, and give their soul shelter by your side for eternity.

Hellblazer · « **Reply #39 on:** May 02, 2009, 02:29:56 AM »

That champion needs to learn restraint, humility and respect, not to mention patience. She also needs to control that cynicism of hers.

I decided to answer a call that was made out of Hurm, apparently some Dwarfs went missing after they were sent by their employer to Audira to gather some supplies for him. As usual, Daniella was her own self, expecting respect when she can not even give some in return, expecting it when she hasn't deserved it yet. Respect is not own, it is given. And to receive it, you must first show you deserve it.

She was Ordering people around as if they were her subordinate, ordering lance and myself too. I think she should talk to the elders to see where she falls, as she is neither Lance or I, superiors. She falls in between without out ranking us. She is a chosen that is no question there, but that is because she is willing to do what other paladins are not able to go to. That on the other hand doesn't give her any special ranks in the church. The paladins are still in charge of Martial affairs as the clerics are the keepers of the faith. She should be more open to take council out of both, at least I know she did from Lance. I guess it is toward me that she takes pleasure into lacking respect.

There is also the man she calls her friend, Raziem. An obscene, offensive and disrespectful elf. Even so that he was a disruptive force into our group, with his comments and attitude, she was protecting him and putting the fault on every one, instead of dealing with the source of the problem. He was trying his best to get me mad, but with the will and wisdom of Toran, he failed. He even went into the trouble of trying to raise my anger by saying Aeridin had kicked me out, so little does this man knows.

I will pray for Toran to show her wisdom as her affiliation to this man could make her lose Toran's favor. She is a chosen and with that comes the responsibility of choosing those that surrounds you who reflects Toran's will, and incline. Respect, loyalty, honor, duty, vigilance and truth. All those qualities this man is missing, and it will put a black mark on her. If truly he is a friend he will know that himself, and maybe strive to change his ways. I hope she never feels the emptiness that losing Toran's favor can bring. I have seen two of my friends pass through that, Clarissa and Rose, I have also been many years without feeling the touch of Toran or the one I was serving before him. In my case how ever, it was my choice to leave the Aeridinite as I could not fathom the way they were going, and the weight that rested on my shoulders seen those I cared about in danger without me being able to help them. Even if my training would lead me to lack protection spells for them, my presence would help them.

To be a leader, you must first be a servant. She is a servant of Toran, but she is not yet a servant of the people. If she was she would be able to show more compassion and respect to all around her, her demeanor and bluntness would subside, and she would lead by example instead by oppressing her will over them. There is ways to show the way without dictating it, ways to pass on orders, without pushing down those that are with you in the dirt with the feeling of them being worms. She will have to learn that one day. That day she will have earn her respect in my eyes.

But until then I will reserve myself into not grouping with her, unless specifically ordered to by Toran or the elder clerics. I will keep on routing out injustice and evil like I have always done, like I was trained to as an undead slayer. We walk a lonely road at night, in the middle of evil, and we bring the light of Toran, so that their soul may find peace.