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« on: May 22, 2011, 07:23:41 pm »
thank you for fixing it!!! so glad to have my full access back after updating my email and getting locked out. lol 
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« on: December 31, 2009, 10:39:59 am »
Happy Birthday Tanman
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« on: July 01, 2009, 01:08:01 am »
He'll be hacking up tri-tip thanks to me  ha ha ha Happy Birthday! Make sure to break something in a fit of Dwarven Rage!
Or you could just hack up a cake and avoid lawsuits or broken TVs
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« on: June 15, 2009, 09:23:10 pm »
*Tilli leaves a note for Vrebs*
Heyas... Im interested in yer yew shortbow! I know ya say no negotiations, but is there any change my compound maho could be traded to ya for come credit?
Lemme know!!
Tilli
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« on: June 05, 2009, 02:10:03 pm »
I am a married woman! Jacob and I returned to Huangjin to inquire about getting married. Ortheus, after some counseling, asked us if we wished to get married right then! It was a good thing I had packed my dress, just in case. Also, it was a good thing that Daniella happened to be in the area on business and she was able to witness our union.
The ceremony and vows were beautiful. Our only regret is that more of our friends and family couldn't be there to share it with us. Given the situation and my present condition, it was better that we were married sooner rather than later.
Hopefully we will be able to have a gathering soon... to celebrate the blessed occasion with those we love.
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« on: June 05, 2009, 11:34:20 am »
Jacob knows of the baby. I loved the silly grin on his face when I told him... once the shock wore off. He was so overcome with joy. He touched my stomach with such tenderness and love. He is going to be a wonderful father.
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« on: June 05, 2009, 11:32:01 am »
It seems that I have been neglecting the act of putting my thoughts on paper lately. So much has been going on. So much has been racing through my mind. If I had the time, I highly doubt that I would have even known where to start.
Jacob took me home to meet his family. They are a wonderful, loving, generous and caring family. I am glad I get to be a part of such a dedicated family unit. I was a bit nervous, but the second I walked through the door all of that left and I felt very at ease. We also went by to see my family. Jacob loved them, or so I hope. Everyone seemed to hit it off very well. My brothers liked him (a huge relief to me). Both families have given their blessing on our union. It makes quite the difference having their support.
I also received a special visitor when I was patrolling the road outside of Hlint. It was Isabelle Stridewidth. She is a paladin from the Citadel that has been assigned to me to help me on my path back to The Light. She and I had a talk about my youth and inexperience being part of the problem I've been having keeping my vows to the church and Toran. She understands, as she has been there before...although I did not pry for any details. She is stationed in Huangjin and has made herself available to me anytime I need her. Her first request for me was to make an honest woman of myself and be married.
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« on: June 05, 2009, 09:23:14 am »
Thanks Row, Daniella, and Jacob.. great wedding!! Great everything!!
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« on: June 02, 2009, 07:29:06 pm »
2,000 Trues
Tilli
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« on: May 31, 2009, 09:14:24 pm »
Happy Birthday!!!!!
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« on: May 31, 2009, 09:07:42 am »
ha ha. thanks. i had a very frozen PC so I went and fell asleep on the couch. Im glad tilli can be safe in such a seedy town. LOL
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« on: May 26, 2009, 04:58:46 am »
I finally got the nerve to talk to Jacob. He met me at the house. He was a little nervous when I told him that we needed to talk... for good reason. I was a wreck. I couldn't stop sobbing. I confessed to cheating on him with Raz. He didn't get angry like I'd imagined. He said that Raz had a silver tongue and that he was not one of his favorite people right now. Jacob was a bit concerned about whether I liked kissing Raz and if I wanted to do it again. I assured him that I loved him and that it was a mistake. I don't know what came over me... It just happened.
Jacob reassured me his love was forever and his forgiveness full. I am so lucky and blessed to have him for my husband--well soon to be husband. He is a wonderful man. I don't know what I would do without him. I am grateful for his companionship... it is going to be useful in the days ahead. I have contacted the church headquarters to initiate the process necessary to make ammends. I know I cannot be receiving the full blessings of Toran with my sins hanging over my head, so I am prepared to do whatever necessary to fall back into grace with Toran and continue to be His chosen.
I have one last confession for Jacob... I am just not quite sure how to go about telling him that I am carrying his child.
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« on: May 24, 2009, 11:51:36 pm »
I have returned to the temple. I needed some time away from Stormhaven Manor. I need to clear my head. I need to think. I need to pray. I need...
*her writing stops abruptly*
"Dearest Toran. Please grant me the strength I stand in need of. Continue to bless me although I feel I am not deserving. Bring peace to my troubled soul. Fill me with your light, Great Leader and guide me the direction I am needed to go. Bless me, Forgive me."
*her voice trails off*
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« on: May 24, 2009, 06:22:48 pm »
This was the unbuffed round. I lost the log for the buffed round. how convenient 
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« on: May 24, 2009, 05:25:09 pm »
Wha? Ark is trashy? LOL
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« on: May 24, 2009, 05:21:29 pm »
*cheers* Congrats!
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« on: May 22, 2009, 09:36:51 am »
Why... Why... Why...
Why do I get myself into such predicaments!!!
//not related to the previous post.
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« on: May 21, 2009, 12:38:10 am »
For the first time since moving into Stormhaven Mannor, Jacob and I were alone. We gave into our desires for each other. That is all I am going to say for fear of taking away from the sacredness of those things that transpired between us.
*She smiles a satisfied smile and closes her journal*
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« on: May 20, 2009, 04:07:17 am »
I had just finished a lengthy patrol and found myself standing in Vehl, wondering what do to next. Should I retire to the Temple? Should I return home to Stormhaven Manor? I opted for home. Wow, it really is nice to be able to say I have a "home". When I first left the Citadel I often wondered if I would ever truly call Mistone "home". It has happened and it feels wonderful. It provides a sense of security--a sense of completeness.
As tired as I was, I kept a rather quick pace. No sooner had I walked in the door and begun to catch my breath, Samuel walked in behind me. I froze for a moment. My heart sunk for a moment, and the feelings of hurt that were still so fresh from our confrontation outside Dalanthar intensified.
We exchanged our greetings. Samuel offered to leave and let me rest since I had just gotten home. As much as a bath and fresh robe sounded, it could wait. I told him that we needed to talk. He seemed a little caught off guard at first, but he agreed and we went into the kitchen and sat at the table. He pulled a chair out for me. Part of me, I am ashamed to admit, thought that he was going to pull it out and make me fall on my arse rather than slide it beneath me--but he was a gentleman and did no such thing. I guess I do not give him enough credit and let my personal feelings and thoughts of him get the best of me.
I spoke first. I expressed to him that I felt he did not like me. He insisted that he had never said such things, which is true—he didn’t—but his body language and the way he acted towards me did. Of course, he denied that as well and made me feel a bit stupid, like I was imagining the whole thing. He does treat me with respect—the respect a woman and a fellow comrade deserve—but it doesn’t feel sincere. It feels like a façade.
Anyway, we got onto the subject of my marrying Jacob. I flat out asked him why he was so displeased with our union. Was it me? Was it something I had said or done? Was I not good enough to be a Stormhaven? He says that his concern is that Jacob, like Daniella, spends too much time engaged with others when perhaps their time could be better spent on devotion. I tried to tell him that there was enough room in life for more than devotion alone. Toran wants us to be happy. Toran has brought us all together. I know Toran approves. Samuel asked how I knew this so certainly. I told him that I could feel it. Never in a thousand lifetimes would I have accepted Jacob’s proposal if I doubted for a second that Toran would be anything less than pleased. I feel his love and approval burning inside of me. I know when he is pleased, because were he not, he would withdrawal from me.
Samuel says that bonds such as these are weaknesses that can be exploited by those who seek to undermine the faith. I told him that they are only weaknesses if the parties involved are not firm in their faith. Then I dared to be so bold to ask him if this was why he had never taken companionship with a woman. Was he afraid that it would weaken him? He claims no, but I don’t believe him.
It must have been hours and hours that we sat there and talked. There were a couple times when I saw the cold look in his eyes soften, and then with the blink of an eye, it was gone. Daniella came home and joined us for a while. I think all that was accomplished during that time was some more arguing. We retired for a while, but what seemed like a short amount of time later, Samuel and I found ourselves sitting at the table talking again. I moved to a chair closer to him, so we could talk in hushed voices. It was late and I did not want to wake anyone else in the house who was trying to rest. We continued to disagree, er, discuss things. I think he spent more time trying to convince himself that there was no room for anything other than devotion in life, rather than convince me. *She chuckles*. As time passed, we grew tired and his guard dropped a little. We caught each other’s eye and held contact for several moments. He mumbled something about “there was one”... then as quickly as he softened his wall was back up. He said we could continue to talk when we both had clear minds.
I had to leave the house for a while and when I returned home I went to my room and sat at the foot of my bed to inspect and polish my armor. I thought I was home alone, but shortly after I began I heard someone call out. It was Samuel and he was standing outside my door. I announced my presence, and after asking if I was decent, he entered my room. He kept distance—lingering near the door. I set my armor aside and went and stood closer to him. I don’t know what was different about him this time. He countenance was soft. He didn’t have that cold look in his eye. The hard exterior was gone. There was emotion in his eyes. He opened up to me. He poured out a piece of his soul to me. He told me of a woman he fell for. He said he had no business wanting her, the daughter of a lesser noble, but he couldn’t help it. He loved her and it was not returned. His letters went unread. His looks were unnoticed. His flowers discarded to wither and die. He was hurt. His heart was crushed. I WAS RIGHT. I KNEW he had been hurt. I KNEW there was more to his attitude and devotion than simply fulfilling his duties to Toran. He is human after all. I could see the hurt in his eye and I tried to console him. I gently touched his cheek and let him know that I was there for him. My hand lingered for a moment as a bond between us formed. He told me to speak of his secret to no one... and made his way to the door. Before he left he turned around and stared at me. The look in his face was so full of emotion... more than I had ever before seen him show. Then he was gone.
I have accomplished the impossible. I have figured out Samuel Stormhaven. Needless to say, our differences have now been put aside and have been replaced with mutual respect and understanding.
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« on: May 20, 2009, 03:10:44 am »
Love Love Love it!!!!!
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