Author Topic: Lost (Read 3631 times)

scifibarbie · « **on:** May 18, 2009, 12:09:11 PM »

*scribbled on random pieces of paper. Stuffed together loosely with no discernible pattern and tied together with a piece of old leather string.

Lost....All I see are random images in the mist. Its like wandering in the forest in the morning when the fog hasnt yet been burned away.

Everything is obscured...I hear the howls of the wolves...the shadow of a bear...

What does it all mean?

scifibarbie · « **Reply #1 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:15:48 PM »

I strayed to close to a small town today. Nobody looked twice at me and I have to say I am glad for that.

A young woman tried to speak me for a little while at hte well. It was pleasant enough until she asked me my name.

I...I couldnt answer her. She looked at me as if I were an idiot. When I told her i didnt know she said I should see a priest. They might be able to help me.

She led me to a small temple. She said it was to a god called aeridin. For some reason it made my skin itch unpleasantly and I felt really angry. I ran then leaving her standing by the church alone.

I ran for the forest..the solitude of it. The woods bring me comfort, especially the squirrels. I can understand their rapid chittering so easily. Its strange, and yet they seem to understand me too.

I love giving them nuts to fill their cheeks and go hide for the coming cold. That and the way their bushy tails bounce when they run and climb and play.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #2 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:22:47 PM »

The great she-wolf found me. SHe has helped nurse me back to health. Ive found this bit of parchment and a letter or two that were left in a pouch I had.

Its so hard to focus...I try to read them and my eyes get all blurry and watery. Its as if i am not ready for what they say which is very strange.

The wolves call me the fire mane. I didnt get it...I saw my reflection in the still waters and my hair is definitely not a fire color. I guess they wolves dont have a name ot describe it.

It took me a long time to clean the stench of the...of the ground from my clothes. I dont like the smell they had. It made me very sick to my stomach, even the other cubs didnt want to be near me when the stuff came out of me. My mouth burned and my eyes watered. I do not want to feel that again.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #3 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:27:26 PM »

The great beast is hunting me in my dreams again. I see its form out of the corner of my eyes. I think its a bear...it has teh shape of one. Its snuffling around as if its hunting me.

I can never get close to it. Or maybe I am trying to avoid it. Its very scary.

I found a trap recently. Like a hunter was laying it to snare me.

And then the wolves cry. Its a sad howling, as if for a packmate that is lost. Sometimes I see the mist part when the wolf howls and there is shadow of a great wolf in the distance. I try to run to him but he always stays ahead of me. Maybe hes trying ot lead me somewhere.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #4 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:32:42 PM »

I think I should try to pen down some of my thoughts...It might help me piece things together. Everythings all scrambled in my head.

Im not sure how it will work..all i have is a few pieces of charcoal and some rough parchment i found in my bag.

I remember waking to darkness. Something smells wrong. Then fear...overwhelming fear. A flash of light...earth everywhere...climbing, climbing up...out..

*the writing is scribbled over in the chalk as if covering it will keep it away, like its all wrong.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #5 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:40:34 PM »

I met a woman today on the edge of a great lake. I was hunting for dinner. Her companions seemed nice enough and there were only a couple of them. I dont like crowds right now.

She says she knew me. She was pretty beat up when i met her. ANd her questions kept going in circles..I think she is quite mad. Like she took a rock to the head or something.

She kept calling me abi. Like she thought it was my name. At first I felt..Im not sure how i felt. I felt sad about her though because she called another person there abi also. Definitely had a few boulders shaken loose in her skull.

I tried to comfort her and get her to go see a priest. But she just kept following me. Her friends suggested we travel together to another land. Perhaps their friends could get help there.

Next thing i know im waking up in a field staring at the sky. the crazy person...drexia i think they said her name was. She was standing by a small stream nearby. Its very unnerving waking up next to a crazy person when you dont know how you got there!

Her friends soon appeared between a small stand of rocks. Appearing out of the air! They suggested a nice stroll to let the fresh air clear drexias mind. She seemed reluctant to let me go so i have agreed to travel with them for her sake.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #6 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:46:18 PM »

A soft rain fell today and the forest smells so alive! Its been a long journey but i feel so refreshed.

The dreams have not been so bad of late. That or I just dont remember them. Either way is fine by me.

There was a thunderstorm a few days ago. I cant believe how scared i was when the thunder and lightning were flashing and booming all around me!

Next thing i remember was being curled up in a ball in the hollow of a small tree with a squirrel chittering excitedly in my ear. He was pretty upset with me. Apparently i had been screaming in terror all nite during the storm and I upset her family even more than the storm.

I dont remember much of it at all. I felt horrible for the squirrels though and gave them some nuts i found. I hope that makes them feel better.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #7 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:50:59 PM »

I met a nice fellow in the woods today. He said he was a ranger and was jsut passing thru the forest on his way north.

We chatted for a little bit and shared a lunch of berries and fish. His company was nice.

He didnt ask why I was there, though i think the chipmunks playing around in my bags let him realize i wasnt a threat or up to no good there.

I somehow seemed ot know abit about fishing. It was strange, since I dont think i have talked to anyone about that. Maybe things are starting ot come back to me.

When he left....when he left..he said the strangest thing...it was very comforting oddly enough. May the Longstrider keep you safe on your path. Or something like that. Longstrider...that name brings me comfort somehow.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #8 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:54:18 PM »

We found some dwarfen ruins atop the mountain. The spikes i think the other abi refered to them as. We decided to explore them abit and see what was what with them.

I felt somehow happy to be in those halls, even though they were a ruin. I was tempted to chastise our companions for the way they treated Drexia. Apparently they felt the best way for her to regain her wits was to pummel stuff.

Shes very good at it! We are about to delve deeper into the ruins. Time to go.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #9 on:** May 18, 2009, 12:56:06 PM »

The druids of this forest have been kind ot me. Whitehorn I think they called their forest.

It seems very familiar to me. How i got hear I have no idea. But wandering the paths of these woods is soothing.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #10 on:** May 18, 2009, 01:07:11 PM »

I met a dwarf today....she said her name was argali. She smelled familiar. I am hoping this means I had known her in the past. Another part of my puzzle seems to have been found.She called me abi also.

I chanced upon a group of people who at about the time i met them were arguing about the amount of treasure to be earned since they were doing all the legwork. Very strange.

Stranger still..a few people in that group seemed to know me. Or at least think they knew me. I introduced myself as abigail..I may as well..it seems the right name now. It feels right.

So many questions..i was glad to be moving where they couldnt ask them so easily! I was so uncomfortable because i had no answers to give. Some of the scents i recognized. Many I did not. It was all very overwhelming to me!

Well..in the end ther was no treasure to be had...just darkness..a bright light...

Well..in the end there was no treasure but an odd fellow who seemed to be our exalted leader, sall was his name (i think it was all his bad jokes), said we happened upon the leftovers of some creature called a batalini or something like that. I guess it eats raw minerals. It especially likes the mithril variety, a very rare ore. All that was left was slag in the golem makers lab.

I seemed to recognize his smell too, though it wrinkled my nose abit. A few more parts to the puzzle. A woman named Sala and her mate Jako. They seemed nice enough. And a man named caer, another orc basher.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #11 on:** May 18, 2009, 01:11:43 PM »

Im so tired...the wolves have brought me meat and there is a small stream of freshwater nearby.

They say Im a long lost pack mate. They thought I had returned to the great forest. My return is strange to them, i smell different, but not wrong.

The cubs are a joy to me. It makes me feel bittersweet somehow when i see them with their mothers.

Still...their energy is catching and as i play with them it seems to be helping me heal. My legs feel stronger everyday. Soon I will be able to hunt with the pack again.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #12 on:** May 18, 2009, 01:23:54 PM »

What is an Orc Basher?

I met 2 dwarf brothers recently...Durgin and Kurgin Stormbrow. the scent of kurgin brought memories of a childhood im sure was mine.

I remember...getting into trouble. Lots of trouble...something about getting into things i shouldnt. I spoke dwarfen also...it felt so easy. As if I had been speaking it all my life. :\\ It was very strange, but very comforting.

Miss drexi introduced me to the brothers. She apparently has this strange fixation upon me and sought me out in the forest. She seemed better though, not quite so addled.

We traveled thru the forest for awhile and then she led to a forest called the sielwood. Its a large forest so full of life. It seemed familiar to me also. We passed near a lake and I...I dont know. Happy feelings washed over me.

It was a good time traveling with those 2 brothers. Solid in the fight, but funny as only those 2 dwarfen brothers could be. I was happy there, even in the midst of nasty spiders! I was sad to leave their company but they had business elsewhere and i needed rest.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #13 on:** May 18, 2009, 01:30:50 PM »

Climbing hand over hand, climbing thru the mud, lightning flashing and thunder booming so loud my head feels like its going to explode!

There are bodies around me. A giant of a man and his wife. I catch teh scent of them. Its the musty scent of the dead, but tinged with something familar. His armor gleams even covered in dirt and in the darkness of the storm. The bones of the other are distorted and jumbled in the mess. A tree is almost torn from its roots above me. ANother flash...

The nightmare again. I woke up all sweaty adn crying. I had startled my pack mates and blackpaw came over to comfort me. She has been such a good friend to me throughout all of this. I love her so much.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #14 on:** May 20, 2009, 08:42:12 AM »

The Bear. The bear in my dreams..the one that was always so close..and yet such a distant shadow.

I found the bear...or it found me.

I..I think I found him. Or he found me...Im still fuzzy on the whole thing. But this is the bear. Im sure of it. The scent is right. Always trust my nose...He feels right to. I feel safe with him near. Berak is his name.

Still the haze lingers over me, making me doubt many things. So much is still lost in the fog. I walk many paths that are so familiar to me and yet completely new at the same time. Smells so familiar, yet names and faces still lost.

Time...everyone says it will take time. I hate time. :mad:

scifibarbie · « **Reply #15 on:** May 21, 2009, 01:30:34 AM »

I saw abi#1 today again..unfortunately i was invisible. For a second i forgot and when i tried to say HI they thought i was a ghost. Acacea was there too.

ANyways, they nearly zapped me i guess, and then i freaked out for a moment thinking i really might be a ghost. Falling on my rear made me realize i wasnt a ghost thank goodness!

Then i set my hands on fire remembering i had a stone to get rid of magic stuff on me and i panicked and jumped into a stream! It was quite humorous to them...well..i guess i can see why.

At least im remembering better now.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #16 on:** May 26, 2009, 04:56:18 AM »

I have finally returned to the Orc Bashers.

Im not sure what to thik or feel, but of the 4 i have met so far. My senses tell me things are okay with them.

I knocked on the door and a dwarf (not kurgin) adn human met me. They didnt really say anything (which im finding rather uncomfortable the more and more it happens, but what can you expect when everyone thought you were dead).

The dwarf started interrogating me immediate.y after i told him my name. He started askingabout this and that, adn if i had sme certain items on me and whatnot. THe Other fellow just kinda stood there slack jawed and staring..I think that was the most unnerving bit..then he started doing some hocus pocus thingy to me which really made me nervous. I guess he wanted to see if i was a dedder or not.

After awhile, we talked and talked and they tried to jog my memory, they told me about the bashers, they told me i have a dwarvish uncle (gods i hope i dont grow a beard), and other things about the guild, and tehn..they told me my father was gone. LIke gone gone, like i was supposed to be. Im not sure how i felt...i felt numb, almost emotionless. I dont know why...

They showed me to a room they said was mine, had been mine and still was. That I was welcome there if i wanted to be. I didnt recognize any of it. I think iwas frustrating them. I mean, how do they think i must feel!

They got me talking about stuff, about how i ended up back here, who ive met, the places ive been. I just told them of the places ive been since ive returned. The people ive seen and met.

The stupid dwarf still hasnt told me his name though. Said it would be good for me to remember on my own. :\\ :mad:

scifibarbie · « **Reply #17 on:** May 26, 2009, 04:57:21 AM »

I hate this..everyone who ever knew me and i cant remember them. My nose tells me if i knew them, and if they were dangerous or not. MOstly its served me well, except for the one time. But i guess hes changed alot over the time ive been gone. We all change I guess...even me, though im not sure if i have or not. I keep dreaming im gonna wake up and look like a mummy.

Ive been having those dreams again. The storm, the lightning and rain. The shadows...

It makes it difficult to sleep.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #18 on:** May 26, 2009, 05:51:24 AM »

I met a nice enough fellow today. Though i must admit my nose wrinkles whenever i get a whiff of him. Czukay..i think he said his name was. He likes to pray to a creepy skull that glows.

He is the first person ive met who enjoys grubs as much as i do. So his creepy scent aside, i guess he must be alright.

I also met wren. A nice enough fellow, but really emotional. He saw me and after i told him my name immediately grabbed me and started hugging the wind from me! He said he knew me, but as with most of the people i may have known, had no recollection of him aside from his smell. I swear he started crying, not sad tears, but happy tears and he woudlnt let go until i nearly passed out!

He then started chattering about me, and trying to help me remember by telling me tales of stuff that i had done. I felt bad for the guy cause he was obviously happy to see me, but all i could do was give him the blank look.

the other guy named steele didnt say a word, but just looked at me kinda weird. I knew his smell too but at least he didnt go all bear huggy on me. He just kinda stood there all quiet like.

scifibarbie · « **Reply #19 on:** May 28, 2009, 01:56:21 PM »

I've been wandering alone alot lately. Following my nose to places that seem to call to me. Or at least, rekindle shrouds of memories i cant recall. I just know when im in a place that im familiar with or have been before..i know it. I know what to look for, the local dangers...its so odd to me. Like experiencing something old for the first time. :\\

SOmetimes it just gives me a headache. :mad:

Some elvish woman named Darthi i met at the bashers the other day said i was repressing some old memory of pain or something and that i need to resolve that so that the fog my clear from my head. :\\

I almost feel content enough to jsut wander right now.