Journal of a fallen Ranger

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Folian give me strength,

Spending one of the so few days with Sonya, made me realize how much I have missed the times we would simply walk together in the forest and talked.  I have also realized I spend too much time in the city. Need to re-immersed myself more with nature.

It was a good trip and we had a pick nick after that, int he forest of Folian. talked and laugh a bit, Omer was with us too, apparently there is now a crew called the Omer's, most of them were drunk so I would call that the crew of the drunken Omer's.

Sonya will choose the date for our vows renewal, should be fairly soon too, I will not give her her surprise before that day. I know she will love it. I can already see the wide smile on her face.

Well Sarah wanted to see me for a week or so now, time for me to go and see her.

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Well...

Omer handed me what I wanted done for Sonya, and he swore not to tell her. But, she seems to take her little time on deciding of a date after more than three months since the pick nick, and 3 years since we had decided to renew our vows...

 My uncle once told me in regards to Kendall, that love was like a forest. unattended it becomes wild and dangerous, unfed, it dies out. He told me that, when I had been absent for too long periods at a time and Kendall was growing restless and worried that I would not come back. Is this what's happening now but on the opposite side?

From this point, I have done everything I could. I just don't have the strength anymore.

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So what now, the end of an era?

For over a year, our oldest daughter hid from us that she was the lover of the women I hated the most. One that I have always felt brought us close to our worst moment ever and in fact she did indirectly.

After hearing the news and Sarah left, I had to let go of this anger and as I did, the table, a few chest and the wall were vaporized and singed. I was going to change the table and chest anyhow as they were getting old. But Sonya saw it and thought that I was losing control again, when I was fully in control. I didn't do it in front of my daughter, now lost my temper in front of her. I waited for her to be gone and no one to be in the house. So she gave me an ultimatum, which I respected and yet she is still not back. She did send me a letter stating she would be back soon, but yet after almoost 6 months she is still not back.

Apparently I am the only one who has things to change, but Miss Darsus doesn't feel that all the time she spends locked up, away on her trainings or at the temple, leaving all her children without news for month at a time, not to mention me, is alright.

Looking at her gift right now, I'm really starting to wonder. Guess there is some thinking to be done.

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Time has flown by so fast in the later years. I have left the guild I had started, it had became corrupted from the inside and I had to fight for each bit of change to correct what was happening.
 
 Life goes on though, Sonya and I have settled down a little, spending more time at home with each other, than we had in all our years of mariage. And I have started to make new plans.
 
 The first is a Family business I want to open in the future. This time I will not make the same mistake as to take in people I didn't knew. Kyle, Jilseponie, Dalan were no mistakes, neither was Elohanna or Galathea. But the rest has put unseen strain into the guild to the eyes of most of them. This time though, when I open it, it will be with my own blood. Ayana, Tristan. I have also asked Sharyn, the daughter of Jilseponie, because I knew her for a long time now. I know she would make a good addition. But this will take some time and planning to do.
 
 For now though, there is something more pressing to me. My pupile has made a lot of progress. Sairalinde has grown into her archery with much potential. She is the first to who I have announced my plans.
 
 I want to open an academy that will specialize into forming Arcane Archers. I will approache Jilseponi and Jacchri, Sairalinde has already said she would help me.
 
 This Academy will strictly reserved to teaching the ways of the arcane archer, and from the newer generations the way it should be, making sure that those we train will be using those powers for the good of the people and not using them against the people.
 
 At the same time, I wish to open this academy in Hlint. Sentimental value surely, but Hlint was a harbor of good people in the past. And with the great darkness it has lost so many. I am hopping that with opening the academy there, it would help the town to grow back to its former beauty. Also, we could help to protect that fine town from the war that is near our shores. Infact, those in our ranks could help any cities that would ask for our help, we would gladly help to bolster and train their archers.
 
 But there is still many details to think about, and I need to see those three together to speak with them on how to proceed.

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Well, time has flown again since I have written in this journal. Some things are progressing while other are at a stand still.

Ayana and Drats have decided to leave and live a peaceful life together. I was happy to meet the lad prior to their departure, and I am sure he will be good to her. It makes me a bit sad though, as it is seeing a piece of me moving away. But I am sure, that if she is willing to in the future, she will send word to let us know how she is.

Folian will keep her safe I know as much, and our home will always be there for them.

Now .. where did I put these enchanting oils...

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*A letter arrives for Tristan, Sarah, Sil'via, Ayana, Elgon and Elyam the third*

My dear children,

Know that you will all always be in your father's heart, and that my love will follow you always, by the grace of Folian. But with the passing of your mother, and you being all adults now, there is nothing left for me to hold on here. It's with great sadness in my heart that I leave with Arwin, to continue my path in the care of Folian. Most of you knew that this day was coming, that the day your mother would pass, I would walk my final walk in the great forest of Folian. Don't be in pain my children, don't be sad for your father. I will live on the rest of my life, working for the prince of wolf, fondly keeping in memory your mother and all of you.

I love you all dearly, and may Folian always keep you safe from harm.

With my eternal love
Rain In'Darsus.

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I've been tending to the forest for the past four years now, getting news from time to time from my old life through Kyle and Elohanna that decided to stay in contact with me. I'm happy to hear that they are happy, but sad to have heard about the passing of an other Angel. Not that I have any care of the guild it self, but people are still people.

I have received a letter that gives me joy. Sil'via my darling of a brat has moved back in with Galathea. After some time apart they have mended things and are happy together again. This warms me to see that the love and care Sonya and I instilled in our children has not passed with the passing of their mother's. She is now part of the grand work her spouse is doing. The Krandor hospital. I guess age has tempered my daughter some, as I have never thought of her to be the kind to care for people that way. But I am glad she is. She also wishes to claim ownership of the family house, since Sarah is not interested in it. She has my blessing as long as it falls within the town council rules of Haft lake. She plans to rent the rooms out to people that are in need of lodging. It seems a right thing to do.

On the other hand, Arwin and I feel very much rejuvenated. Living in the forest and from the forest have brought us back closer to ourselves and our roots. I haven't seen him this playful since he was a pup himself. I feel that I have a new found strength myself, and it has brought me closer to the Prince of wolves. I haven't felt this attached to him and nature in a long time.

Well there is much to do, I'm following the trail of some poachers. Hopefully I'll be able to find them and persuade them to leave this part of the forest. In a manner or the other.