Author Topic: C'est La Vie (Read 357 times)

Interia_Discordius · « **on:** August 07, 2007, 07:51:24 pm »

I have taken this under great consideration for the past few weeks or so before making this post... I feel that, due to the current instability of my mental state, it would be best if what I am about to say is done and over with.

First of all, it was wonderful knowing all of you. I had much fun in-game with each person I have roleplayed and quested with, and despite the conflicts both in and out of game that have occurred, it was overall a very enjoyable experience. I hope my characters are not completely forgotten out of your characters' minds and that, somewhere, they have all left a little bit of history

This is not an official quitting as I don't plan to perm myself... I will still log on to finalize some businesses like returning any loaned cash or items that are in my current characters' inventories and make sure everything is settled before vanishing for some time. Perhaps, once things look up in a few months for me, I may return as a regular once again. Take that particular statement with a grain of salt, however, I am pretty much bowing out for good.

To give a brief synopsis of my current life, take the words "hallucinations" and "delusions" and put them together. That's mainly what I've been going through on a near daily basis. For the safety of others and most importantly myself, I am finished. I will still forum lurk once in a while, I may even post, and I'll always be available via the instant messaging programs under my profile.

I feel this is what's right and what's meant to be. As I wrote as the thread title, c'est la vie...That's life, so I will live and let live.

Sincerely,
Interia Discordius, aka Christine

LordCove · « **Reply #1 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:06:25 pm »

Gah!
Sorry to hear that Int! Hope you come back when your better.

And Kinai will be missed....but not forgotten

jrizz · « **Reply #2 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:08:56 pm »

Very very sorry hear this but you must first take care of your health.

Lynn1020 · « **Reply #3 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:11:18 pm »

Christine you are a very smart young lady!!! You have to take care of you!!

You know how to get in touch with Mike and me if you ever need to chat. We are always around.

lolli_gagged · « **Reply #4 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:19:45 pm »

Nothing about you is forgetable. Take care of you and I hope all comes out alright.

Dalila · « **Reply #5 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:24:13 pm »

I am sorry to hear this. I really hope you fell better soon dear. Kinai won't be forgotten. You were always fun to rp with and we are all going to miss you a lot. Come back when and if you can but take care of yourself first.

Odranoela · « **Reply #6 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:29:48 pm »

It was great to have met you. I regret not having enough time to get to know you better in and out of game, you seem a real nice girl. I hope you get better, I've had my share of troubles and heavy medication and it's never easy. You'll be missed.

Pseudonym · « **Reply #7 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:36:08 pm »

Likewise, nice to have met you ID.
I really wish you well for the future. Look after you.

LynnJuniper · « **Reply #8 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:44:52 pm »

I'll Miss Kinai, but then I know we'll keep in touch.

Fa Amacc, Be Well

Skywatcher · « **Reply #9 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:52:12 pm »

You will be missed. Take care out there.

Halfwit Genious · « **Reply #10 on:** August 07, 2007, 08:56:46 pm »

Gonna miss ya Kinny! Hope we can still talk sometime through PM's or something. Best of luck in life.

Filatus · « **Reply #11 on:** August 07, 2007, 09:11:03 pm »

I hope all will be well with you and I wish you good luck in everything you do. Kinai will surely be missed.

s0ulz · « **Reply #12 on:** August 08, 2007, 12:18:38 am »

Best of luck and I wish you all the best. Get back to us once you feel like it

Chongo · « **Reply #13 on:** August 08, 2007, 12:39:02 am »

Take care of yourself, and don't forget that there are a lot of folks behind you if you need to fall back on them.

miltonyorkcastle · « **Reply #14 on:** August 08, 2007, 12:56:44 am »

*takes a breath and nods slowly*

gilshem ironstone · « **Reply #15 on:** August 08, 2007, 01:09:35 am »

Take care Christine. You are a young lady with a bright mind and future going for you. I hope your health improves, and if you ever need someone to bounce life's curveballs off of, I would be there for you. Thank you for sharing your creative soul with all of us.

Lord of the Forest · « **Reply #16 on:** August 08, 2007, 02:51:38 am »

Take care.

Harlas Ravelkione · « **Reply #17 on:** August 08, 2007, 05:26:04 am »

Take care of yourself. I hope things will look brighter for you in the future. You've certainly left a mark on the quests you took part in and on the players you met.

We are here and will be here, and the door is open.

Harlas

lonnarin · « **Reply #18 on:** August 08, 2007, 11:19:16 am »

Delusional hallucinations are just another part of womanhood, you'll get used to them. Ask my ex-gf who used to accuse me of *thinking* about other women while were were alone... I mean come on, the girl thought she was a bloody illithid or something. She'd get all mad for no reason, and I'd ask her what was wrong... she'd reply "You're thinking about HER again! I know it!" I'd blink and ask, "WHO? HER? HER-WHO?! Who the heck are you talking about?!" And she'd scream "You know who!" slam the door and run off. That was really strange, since I don't think I mentioned any of my exes to her. Maybe I said "thank you" too politely to a waitress when we were on a date? I dunno... This was also the same girl who dumped me on my 21st birthday for "drinking too much" back before I actually drank more than once every 2 months, then yelled angrilly "I don't want to talk to you!" and cussed me out as if I had cheated on her or something when I waved to her at a party afterwards. Then her current bf walked up to me and threatened me there, saying "How could you dump that girl on her birthday? We gonna throw down!" WHAT?! That's MY story, MY birthday she dumped me on, not hers! What the heck is going on here? So then this guy keeps pushing me, so I knock him out cold... shortly afterwards she ran up to me and tried to kiss me. I was like "What the... you dumped me on my birthday, lied to that guy saying I did it to you so he'd fight me, you're dating him and trying to get all over me now? Gah, begone woman!"

So trust me, many women succumb to delusional hallucinations in their lifetime. Just read "Women" by Bukowski. You'll learn to cope in time, meanwhile see your doctor about anti-anxiety medication to keep it manageable. I'm not saying guys are any better, plenty of stalkers and delusional thinkers among us to be certain, just that these things really are normal for a good portion of the population. Now is the time to address them while you're young and have parents who can afford treatment... once you have a fulltime job, bills and rent to pay, there's not much time for anything, let alone mental health.

Good luck anyhow. You will be missed.

akata · « **Reply #19 on:** August 08, 2007, 12:31:41 pm »

take care and come back once your feeling up to it